#i think i'm sensitive to it

[clouds-of-wings]

I got a coffee grinder a while back and it is such a heavy responsibility. Coffee tastes about 5 times as good if it's freshly ground beans rather than powder that's been sitting on/in my fridge for 2 months. But my grinder doesn't grind as finely, so I tend to use more coffee all in all. Still figuring out the ideal amount.

Yesterday I overdid it. I had an absolutely perfect cup of coffee that tasted amazing and perfect. I did that at 3pm. The rest of the day was great! I was in the best mood and got lots of things done! Coffee doesn't make me shit my guts out, it doesn't make me tired, it doesn't give me acid reflux or elevated heart rate, it just gives me energy and happiness. Caffeine and I are friends!

Also, last night I was able to fall asleep at around 5am, after hours of nervosity, heart palpitations and what can only be described as fever hallucinations without the fever. Around 4 they started featuring black tentacles increasingly. Not in a sexy way. RIIIIIIP.

If caffeine is my friend, it's the manic pixie dream girl friend who goes "hey, wanna sit on the roof and watch the stars?" at 2 in the morning.

#i still feel high #caffeine #i know caffeine usually doesn't affect you for this long #but #i think i'm sensitive to it #plus i combined it with tea which may have helped? #afaik tea has stuff (tannins?) in it that slow the rate at which caffeine is absorbed #which is why tea gives you a gentler but longer caffeine high #a bit like like cocaine vs coca leaves #maybe the tea tannins combined with the coffee caffeine? #idk

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[chipped-chimera]

Finally got a fancy(tm) pic of my aquarium - think I figured out the solution to awful photos is just I have to do them at night because the hugeass window in my room directly adjacent ruins everything. Going to try and take a pic like this weekly to track growth!

Anyway it's looking close? Closeish? to being cycled so the question is: WHAT COLOUR SHRIMP

#kerytalk #fish nonsense #planted tank #aquablr #fishblr #cherry shrimp or neocaridina is what I'm looking for #I just don't think I'd like reds. Or yellow #also rip I found the underground shrimp trading groups (complicated) and went from not finding any Caridina to so many #DO NOT TEMPT ME! I KNOW THEY'RE MORE SENSITIVE #they look bomb af tho rip #I do prefer them over Neos #idk how close is close but ammonia is 0.2 nitrites 0.0 and nitrates 20ppm #been sitting at that for a hot minute tho so not sure what's happening #dosing with bacteria and a fertiliser (both seachem) daily #things I've read saying as long as I have nitrates it means something is being converted so yay? it's def not in our tap water I tested

[teddyhoneybear]

Sometimes it's surprising to me that after the Azriel bonus chapter, people still think Elain and Azriel are endgame (it's ok to ship them though, I ship Azriel with Eris sometimes💀), but why force it on others? Why attack artist just because they choose to draw a ship you don't agree with (when they've already done yours several times)? Why hurt/insult others in the process? Go on AO3 and fantasize all you want (that's the point of the site after all, to quench your thirst - I mean... that's what I do🤕).

*I* was an Elriel (maybe not a strong one, I'm very open minded) before, but after reading that chapter I just gave up lmao (I sulked a bit while starring at gorgeous fanarts with them, wiped my tears and moved on). And I do understand how it feels to get very attached to a ship, I still think of Harry and Hermione for God's sake. Or Draco... 😶‍🌫️

Not only that his inner monologue gave me the ick, then his arrogance and entitlement when speaking with Rhys, but his gift compared to Lucien's was just... lame (and I really like Azriel, even if the way he behaved there dissapointed me).

And if it wasn't enough, after that dramatic *in a raspy male voice* "Oh babycakes, it was a mistake!" and Elain giving him back the necklace like a lost battle, out of absolutely nowhere Gwyn's character shows up! In the same chapter! It has to mean something, right? Not only that, but it's obvious she makes him curios, her character challanges his (I won't even mention his shadows making heart-eyes at her).

#i don't like ship wars #i love open discussions #friendly! #why do people have to be so toxic when these poor characters are not even real #i think it's so fun to analyse on text and read all these theories #it reminds me of high-school #but why force your ship onto others when there's proof on text that it's not going to happen #it's not so horrible to give up and accept the truth #is it so obvious that I'm a pacifist? #i hope I'm not getting hate for this I'm way too sensitive #acotar #lucien vanserra #elain archeron #elucien #pro elucien #azriel shadowsinger #gwyneth berdara #gwynriel #pro gwynriel #and what's with all the hate for Gwyn when she's a total sweetheart #my girl did nothing wrong

[canisalbus]

AU where there is some sort of zombie-like (maybe something like a rabid vampirism?)

Where one of the boys is bit/infected and desperately wants the other to join them, while also wanting to resist?

.

#oh that sounds so sad #I feel like in tragic scenarios like this Machete is always destined to be the weaker link #simply because the thought of Vasco unraveling and losing his mind legimately upsets me #like if Machete has rough time that's typical and he's used to it #but if they lose Vasco then they're both doomed #you know #I've always been really sensitive to zombie stories that deal with the concept of your loved one getting infected #and not quite knowing when they've gone too far and if there's still some of their former self left or not #they never end well but the idea of a person delusionally clinging to the hope of them both making it just #a trope that cuts deep instantly #anonymous #answered #now that I'm thinking about it this probably affects me so much because I have a massive fear of dementia #it runs in my family and I've seen what it can do to a person's psyche and personality and it scares me to death

[pangur-and-grim]

bit sad tonight bc I found a lump on Pangur’s belly :( 

I’m sure it’s just a lipoma (I know older animals get randomly lumpy), but it’s still gonna worry me until a vet checks it out

#it's not firm to the touch and I can push it around #and there's no sensitivity and been no change in pangur's weight or behaviour #so I don't think its cancerous. but I'm gonna want it biopsied to be sure.

[sheryl-lee]

idk if this makes sense. but i kind of love that the last of us makes me cry and viscerally FEEL true emotions on a weekly basis. like i cant remember the last tv show i watched that had me consistently bawling my eyes out and so immersed in a show because of the characters, the story, the incredibly strong writing, etc. and it doesn't feel manipulative. it just feels profound and beautiful and poetic but also tragic and... human.

#it's a whole spectrum of emotion!!! it's beautifully tragically human!!!! is that not what it is to exist!!!! #and it's therapeutic honestly. to spend like an hour in a world that isnt real but that you can relate aspects of your life to. #and you can just connect to these characters and their experiences and release the emotions that have been building up inside. #i'm sure that if you've played the game you feel this all the more strongly #but as someone who hasn't and went into tlou without prior knowledge #i'm just very pleased with it and idk i love watching a show that can elicit such a strong reaction from me #granted i AM what people would call 'sensitive' and 'emotional' or whatever #but even for me i dont think i've felt quite this intensely about a show - especially not right away during a first season #these are just my half baked thoughts and i definitely could say so much more but i'll leave it here for now #sameera.txt #the last of us

[ineed-to-sleep]

We've started blocking it out babey *I say completely chill and cool and unaffected as if I didn't just become a pathetic beast screeching in pain on my tattoo artist's chair today for 2 hours*

#LISTEN. TO ME. IT Hurt 🫠....................... #she used 13 needles on my soft little artist hands. the tattoo machine sounded like a chainsaw #I had no idea how much more blocking in would hurt than just doing the lines #tho in hindsight I think it probably hurt more bc we started with the hand #and hands are bony and sensitive #but it's fine it's fine we got the worst part out of the way so I'm very happy abt that #I watched drag race to try to distract myself while she was working on it fjkfj tho paying attention to the episodes was a real challenge #sleep.txt #sleep.png

[waitineedaname]

when thinking about scar and mei's dynamic, I love thinking about why he becomes so attached to her. it's not just a parental instinct, it's specifically identifying with her struggles. the chang clan is small and has little political power compared to the more dominant clans in xing, and it's a struggle just to survive. even though it's not exactly the same, there's this feeling of solidarity between scar and mei because they're both disenfranchised within their respective countries. the sympathy mei describes when she found xiao-mei is what scar feels towards mei, seeing something of themselves in the other and taking pity on them

and there's this other element to him helping her find xiao-mei, and I might be misremembering, but I'm fairly certain it's the first deviation from his revenge based quest. so far, every time we've seen him, he's either been attacking state alchemists, going somewhere to find a state alchemist, or recovering from his injuries. he is very driven when it comes to his goals, but he sees this little girl crying because she is all alone in a foreign country on a desperate quest to save her people and she's just lost the only family she has with her, and he decides to help her. he didn't have to do that, he could have just ignored her or insisted on moving on, but he is not heartless or cruel, he is a compassionate person underneath all the pain, so he goes out of his way to help this little girl find her panda

no wonder mei is constantly reiterating to other people that scar is a good person

#fma #fmab #scar fma #mei chang #I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THEM ALL DAY #if scar was written by a worse author or was written as a shallow character #then he would just be heartless and cruel #but it is so important that he's not #his anger and violence comes from a powerful love for his people and a deep feeling of injustice #and I think that sensitivity to injustice and a heart that is fundamentally good deep down #is why he cares for mei the way he does #I'm realizing I'm just repeating what I wrote about in that one food fic I wrote #BUT IT STILL STANDS #hi strangers reading this. if you want this concept explored in fic form I wrote about it in the fic The Taste Of Home

[boxofoxberry]

me when my bitch wife gets herself a new scar

#mcsm #minecraft story mode #jesse mcsm #petra mcsm #jesstra #UGH. #THEY MAKE ME SO ILL!!!! #i like to think that both of them are physically sensitive #physical touch being their love language and all that #so simple things like tending to wounds or hand brushes make them FOLD #AUGH #okay i'm done #YURIKA

[zu-is-here]

Can you draw baby aim holding cross finger after just been born?

warm

#zu art #post dark cream #cross!sans #dream!sans #aim!sans #undertale #undertale au #utmv #the moment I started thinking about the birth process everything went super weird XD #I mean I'm 100% sure Cross gave birth at home (was ashamed/didn't trust doctors) & Dream was with him trying to calm him down with the aura #omit all the details— #such a sensitive and /intimate/ moment was really uneasy to draw ;w; #and b-baby Aim... so smol.... (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀) #I wonder if Cross was happy cause it's over or cause all of that was worth it? ♡ #preg!cross #(well not pregnant already but the topic is x)

[confused-stars]

Neuvillette could have absolutely become embittered through 500 years of serving as Chief Justice. he could have absolutely become disillusioned with humanity instead of falling in love with them

but Focalors knew he wouldn't. she loved her own people so much and had so much faith in them that she knew they'd win over and keep the Hydro Dragon's heart

#of course neuvillette is also gentle and sensitive by nature i think #but he didn't care about humans in the beginning. until he got to know them #ugh i'm still emotional about him #genshin #genshin spoilers #genshin impact spoilers #neuvillette

[quaranmine]

the whole jellie poll incident is such a mess like. nobody on this site knows how to act normal. mcytblr especially included. i don't like the op at all either, i thought the "joke" was cruel and the original apology backhanded but like...yall are dogpiling and harassing people too now. if you don't want people to tell you to kill yourself for liking mcyt, you ALSO cannot be telling people to kill themselves. it is not justified or cute when you do it. like can we ALL just step back and act normal. it really annoys me that our fandom has such a bad reputation but anytime there's an incident like this, all we do is prove we're a mob. i'm not saying everyone should just be fine with being insulted all the time but i think at this point (with the poll) it's a whole conglomeration that should probably just be put to rest. every time that post crosses my dash it has like 2k more notes and it makes me worried that it's containment breaching so badly. just feels like a ticking time bomb to me idk

#if you dont know what im talking about just close ur eyes and let the bliss of not knowing overtake you #i also dont like that scar and jellie are at the center of it cause it feels like....i dunno #feels like the more we loudly defend them the more everyone else is going to push back and hate them #and the worse that they look when people are harassing other people in their name? #idk i think i'm being very sensitive about it i just kinda wish the poll didnt happen at all #it feels like it's all off the rails now if that makes sense #i think mcytblr has a justified reason to be pissed off i just think that now it's like looped around into a weird out of control thing #that is now harassing other people and just deepening the divide between everyone #tldr cant we all be nice

[canisalbus]

What do your boys smell like?

I talked about this a bit on this earlier post and I don't think I have anything significant to add to it at this time. But I could tell you which perfumes they might wear in modern times? (Scents are hard to describe but I included some of their main notes to give you a vaguest idea of what they're like).

Vasco

État libre d'Orange - Tom of Finland (iris, leather, tonka bean) Dior - Homme Parfum (leather, iris, rose) Tom Ford - Tuscan leather (leather, woody, amber)

Machete

Heeley - Cardinal (linen, myrrh, frankincense) État libre d'Orange - Rien Intense Incense (frankincense, amber) Lalique - Encre Noire (cypress, vetiver)

#I'm kind of sensitive to strong smells but also one of those people that are constantly sniffing everything (?) #so navigating perfumery is kind of hazardous a lot of them give me a headache or make me feel sort of ill and dizzy #but I think these are nice I own/have owned all of these except Tuscan Leather #which is so sophisticated and rich and leathery but awfully overpriced and I don't think I can ever afford a full bottle #answered #anonymous #modern au #a lot of overlapping ingredients because big surprise leather and frankincense are my favorites #I usually wear perfumes at home only because smelling strongly is kind of a faux pas in Finnish culture #a lot of schools and workplaces for example are expected or at least strongly encouraged to be as scent free as possible #which is smart I approve that #but it does limit your opportunities to find uses for these things

[jessicas-pi]

A time traveler we do not explore enough is Satine Kryze. She's a pacifist brimming with rage. We should toss her back a decade and set her loose on the senate.

#satine kryze #heck let's send her back a couple decades. #satine gets yoinked into her 14 year old body and is immediately like 'hm. i will cause problems.' #and i'm pretty sure her family was NOT new mandalorian so THAT makes for some awkward dinner conversations #she accidentally says enough about the future to make her family think she's force-sensitive and?? having VISIONS?? #they're so worried they do the unthinkable: call the jedi for advice #and the jedi nearest kalevala #is qui gon. and his new padawan. #shenanigans ensue

[snepfeathers]

hmm. it'd be really, really funny to hit 420 followers today actually

I'm sitting at 392 right now, so that's only 28 to go. maybe if I get another doodle out today? unfortunately I'm not one for smoking weed since the smell gives me wicked headaches, but I feel like I could play around with giving my characters edibles (and therefore a big case of the munchies. very on brand)

#I really do wish I could tolerate the smell better #but I'm just sensitive to most kinds of smoke #anyway. I think I might self rb some stuff and get it circulating again #storm speaking