#i put it under a cut for kindness

[lemongogo]

i just like his long hair ok 🧎

#vash #trigun #trigun maximum #my art #kind of sillay.. #artist who only draws solid bgs sweating @ having 2 set smth under him #Nyways . at first i was like this is eriks but like . vash coat #but no.i think i wouldve drawn eriks diff .. he doesnt . hmm. back 2 the drawing board ppl #can we talk ab lina cutting his hair fr though. SWEETEST GESTURE EVERRRRR (hlding back my tears) whn he hugged her after . stop #or maybe tht was before idr HAJAHAHAHAHAHHAH #anyways this guy shldve grown it out after . #I LOVEE WHN HE PUTS HIS HAIR IN A PONYTAIL ITS SOOOO CUTEEEE #smth smth me and my characters w all their long hair #<the way i refuse 2 draw knives w/o it HAJAHHAHAHAHAHAH #idk i say that but i like nicks choppy haircut . hm.idk . and meryl i like her hair short too #legatos is staying short on principle i wouldnt do that to him☝️ #every1 else .. dominique . elendira . zazie . millie . livio razlo.. SINGLE FILE LINEE

[same-picture-of-a-rock-every-day]

That rock deserves a solid boop.

The Rock has been thoroughly bapped, my goodness.

#i need yall to understand i have NEVER made a gif before today #to make the second one i took a random video of a cat #i put the rock over it in one webbed site #used imove to cut and repeat the bapping #and then used NOTHER website to convert it into a gif #slapstick at best but took me under 10 mintues and im kind of proud of that even if it is shit quality #not a rock #april boops #boop #rock mod lore #love yall for this btw u broke my boop meter within an hour #gotta run to my gender and sex in roman times class now wish me luck i love college

[daily-odile]

time loops going on for years scare the hell out of me to the point i cant get into ISAT, but i am very attracted to odile, so thank you for running this blog so i get to stare at her without playing/watching the game <3

luckily for us odile's too good to get stuck in a timeloop

funnier a6se version:

#uh who's those guys on the left under the cut? Ignore them. #isat spoilers #isat #in stars and time #isat odile #isat siffrin #and you're welcome anon!! although I should specify that the time loops go on for a few months at most; not years #in tales of time #odile loops au #idk if putting brackets in the lol makes it weird but my brain says its correct #day 68 #13 left #kind of an early post today huh?

[synthaphone]

The Island Centibyte is complete! This one I put off for a long time despite it not being technically difficult to make, because I didn't know how I wanted to approach it. Island painted pets, as they exist, tend to range from "kinda racist" to "Why Is This Still On The Website", and while I love Virtu.pet's redesign, the Centibyte project has been about trying to match the official site look for each paint brush color, so I didn't want mine to obviously stand out from the others with a different color palette.

so I ended up pulling heavily from the Island Uni visually, since that design is both iconic and one of the less bad Island pets. I deviated from the official color by trying to make the markings feel like natural patterns of spots and freckles. I've had other paint brush colors change the shape of the oval marking on the neck to match the theme (a butterfly shape for Faerie, a heart for Valentine, a skull for Pirate, etc), so I felt like a shell marking on the chest could work here. I also gave the UC one some coconuts on its tail to evoke a palm tree- left them off of the converted one though because the tail shape is different enough that I couldn't find a way to place them that felt natural, and also they kept reminding me of truck nuts so i was like Okayyy this will just be one of those pets that lost a unique little detail in conversion, lol

#neopets #centibytes #my art #now i just have to figure out desert #it was getting kind of Text Wall so i put the second half under a cut

[icewindandboringhorror]

More misc. daily life pictures and such

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1 & 2 - Very bright pretty looking sky ! #2. HUGE icicle that looked like you could kill someone with it or something.. Pulled from near a gutter on the side of a building #3. & 4 & 5 - various images from a silly party I had where I pretended to be some elf king turning like 204 years old lol (also not like #a REAL party. Only my roommates were there really and we're all in the same household bubble. #just to clarify. I would never dare have a large party anyway given #my hermitous nature but on top of that.. didn't want there to be some implication that I'm having a Party while covid is still ongoing lol. #NEVER.. But I do love dressing up as some fantasy character so much.. The only thing that could ever bring a true hermit wizard #to engage with others socially is the prospect of connecting it somehow to fantasy worlds and costumes lol. One must simply dress up #as a silly 200 year old man from time to time and pretend you've never seen a balloon before in your life. etc. #6. bapy boye... feets #7. The main food that I made for the elderly elf man 'party'. which was a Deconstructed Beef Wellington (kind of as ajoke since I watch s #o many silly cooking competition shows and they always make stuff 'deconstructed' at the last minute when under time limits or whatever.) #I've wanted to make beef wellington a few times but Ithink to do it well I'd need like..an actual kitchen and a lot of time and #an oven that fully works to bake things and etc. etc. So I thought this would be an easier method. A thick steak cut round to kind of mimi #c the round tenderloin or whatever it is in a wellington. instead of the puff pastry being wrapped around - I just did star shaped cut outs #of pastry and baked them and put them on top (to go with the star theme). instead of mushroom duxelles being wrapped around in pastry #its in a little circle under the steak. and instead of mustard being brushed onto the meat I made a mustard gravy sauce type of thing #Then of course asparagus on the side.. my favorite... Though I know some wellington #also has a layer of prosciutto I think. or I saw one person use crepes. I didn't feel it was necessary to incorporate that too lol #8. bapy son helping me do a giant puzzle that took me hours and I had no idea it was actually that large of a puzzle #until I started putting it together and for some reason it made me stressed by the end instead of relaxed lol.. puzzle fatigue #photo diary

[house-of-mirrors]

Promised bad post (you'll never guess what's under the cut)

It came to me in a vision and it was my duty to make it a reality

#i was kind and put this under a cut to save you all a lot of scrolling #sunless skies spoilers #the judgements #the halved #ough tumblr ate the quality on this one #original idea was a joke about why the garden king was killed #and it escalated from there #so many things aligned for this to be perfect #meme archive #bad post sunday #sunless skies #f it. main tag #my posts have an increasingly smaller target audience

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

I have thoughts about the TTPD speculation/two years/loneliness/sharing feelings through songs train but I'm putting them under a cut because. Yeah.

OK, so I'm giving a warning:

I'm talking about BTTWS, but NOT about the speculation/inspiration behind it. Just about the feelings in it and the Midnights of it all/the idea that sharing the difficult things brings comfort/companionship. So getting that out of the way so we can remove that part of the discourse out of it.

Regardless of whatever the inspiration/event behind BTTWS may be, whether it's about a loved one or personal, I've long felt that its inclusion on Midnights, an album about things that have kept her up at night, is significant in the feelings it portrays.

For instance, we can be fairly certain that Taylor wasn't actually turning in Scooter B. to the FBI and conspiring with his ex-wife to bring him down (or was she?) in Vigilante Shit, just as we can safely guess that she probably did actually pick up that pebble in Wicklow that reminded her of a peaceful time in Sweet Nothing. The line between fiction/reality, personal vs. narrative matters less on Midnights in this case than the feelings she was expressing in the songs, which are very personal and truthful. The revenge fantasy in Vigilante Shit is her working through her anger over having her masters stolen and how she's fought hard to have the last laugh over someone who is a sworn enemy. Sweet Nothing is her reflecting on the dichotomy of her (presumed) quiet home life she felt was safe and the noise of the outside world. (Now, we might speculate on why she was ruminating on this, but that's another story.)

So with that preamble out of the way, BTTWS's inclusion in the tracklist I feel is just as important, again regardless of the inspiration behind it or her personal connection to it. Even if it is a song about someone other than herself, including it as the only "not personal/not diaristic" song on an album as ostensibly self-reflective as Midnights would stick out if that were thecase, though obviously it's her album so she can do whatever she wants and could have her own reasons. (Just like she included Ronan on Red and Soon You'll Get Better on Lover about similar themes, it could just be a tribute to a loved one.) But given all the thematic arcs and parallels on Midnights, I do feel like it's there to include a specific set of feelings being processed, even if the origin on the feelings may or may not be her own. (I'm trying to be really sensitive in my word choices here, hope they make sense.)

BTTWS is a song about loss and grief, and specifically the fallout of an event outside of her/the narrator's control. The person in the song has nothing to turn to to deal with their pain: no faith to guide them, no wisdom to tell them everything will be alright. Throughout the song there is a pervasive sense of isolation: everything is over, they're living without something that was once theirs but suddenly was not. It captures the fog and confusion of living through a painful event without having any way to process. She even says from the start that, "no words appear before me in the aftermath," which for someone like Taylor who has stated over and over how writing is literally how she processes her life would be the ultimate reflection of the depths of her hurt.

(To be clear I do not think this is a song about a breakup whatsoever: IMO it clearly is not about a relationship dissolution of any kind. I just think that the feelings of grief and loneliness in the song may have felt relevant to whatever she was going through during the time the album was coalescing in 2021-22.)

Knowing what we know now about at the very least the period between 2021-2023, Taylor was going through a time of significant difficulty in her life behind the scenes, which is how The Tortured Poets Department came to be, right on the heels of her completing Midnights sometime in early 2022. She has said herself that making TTPD was a lifeline, that she had to keep writing to deal with whatever it was that she was experiencing and going through. And as I posted about earlier today, she's also said repeatedly on tour that not only is writing about her feelings how she processes her pain and loneliness, but that then sharing that music with fans brings her great comfort because it makes her feel less lonely to know people understand and relate to what she's going through.

And we know that she has self-edited her albums over the years (including Midnights) to protect herself and perhaps even the subjects of her songs, which we have seen with the inclusion of the vault/bonus tracks in the re-records and on Midnights. Obviously some of these reasons are logistical -- album was too long, cut songs sounded too much like others, maybe she or her producers felt the ones that were originally chosen were stronger, narrative or sonic cohesion, etc. -- but with what we've seen over the last few years, these songs also filled in the lines of the stories being told and reframed the narrative being told.

Nowhere is that clearer than with You're Losing Me, for example. It's pretty obvious why it was held back: presumably she wouldn't want to release a song about a relationship at its breaking point when she was still actively in the relationship. Yet as soon as the relationship ended, she released it, we can only assume because of her realization that sharing the music and having people respond to it validates her feelings and makes her feel embraced, as it were. Then with the announcement of TTPD and how it's been brewing for essentially the intervening period between when YLM was written and now, we can also surmise that these songs will be dealing with feelings she also felt the need to hold back for whatever reason at the time, but has now decided should be out there so she can feel more whole.

So coming back to BTTWS, it being included on Midnights the way that it was strikes me as a form of sharing feelings that may have been too difficult to process. Again, not implying I have any insight into what the origin of the song is about, or imposing my own beliefs onto her, or that she was sending some sort of secret message with its inclusion! But thematically, BTTWS deals with an intense loss and feeling completely unmoored and alone as a result, which is present in her other work. And that the dreams the narrator once held have gone up in smoke, leaving her reeling about what's to come next. She's cut off from the world because of the event, unable to speak about or grasp what has happened. Similar feelings are also explored in You're Losing Me for instance, and even Dear Reader (not to mention on past albums like evermore, this is my trying, arguably hoax, etc.). Just reading context clues from TTPD and her surprise song choices of late, I don't think it's outrageous to presume some of those emotions are going to be present on the new album as well.

So this is just a long-winded way of saying, I feel like the sense of loss, confusion and uncertainty about the future likely resonated with both what she had gone through in the past, and the story as a whole she was trying to tell on Midnights. And while the origin may or may not be personal or relevant to the new story she's going to tell, I also feel like these same kinds of themes are going to be present on TTPD because they're so important for her to share. (I could even mention that the response to BTTWS may even provide evidence that people sharing their experiences in general brings comfort to those going through it, but that may be veering too far into parasocial "why did Taylor do X" speculative territory.) She sings about these kinds of all-consuming losses so eloquently and mindfully that I know the new album is going to be an absolute gut punch.

(not being self-promotional but I delved a little deeper into the Midnights 3am tracks including this one a few months ago so it's why it's top of mind and why the connections and thematic parallels are so resonant to me lately.)

#sorry i tried to tread very carefully so i hope it still makes sense #i know we all kind of talk around this stuff so I was trying to do the same #while leaving room for interpretation and not getting stuck on the content! #i'm just talking about mood here etc #me thinking too hard about taylor lyrics #writing letters addressed to the fire #midnights #putting it under a cut may have been overkill on my part #but just trying to be mindful of people's dashboards etc #you're losing me #ylm #bttws #bigger than the whole sky #(bttws is a song i have thoughts on but not thoughts about its origin so much as its *metaphorical* (? idk) or perhaps narrative importance #(but it's hard to talk about it without the discussion turning into one about its origin) #(so this is my best attempt to do so) #just clarifying there is no speculation or discussion here just talk about themes #it’s not about the event it’s about the story being told in midnights

[ziptiesnfries]

don't mind me i'm just having Opinions

that post that's going around about torture apologism in fiction/whump - first of all, i agree with the post, i think we all need to think critically about these sorts of things bc No One Is Immune To Propaganda (especially the pervasive stuff that's come out of post-9/11 american militarism).

but i saw some people in the notes of that post acting all morally superior and it's kinda pissing me off. they were like "yeah totally OP! this is exactly why i hate [specific trope/type of whump] and why i only like [whatever they think is morally correct whump]" and i just.

*deep sigh* that was not the POINT!! the post wasn't saying that liking certain things is inherently bad and wrong, it's saying that no matter WHAT you like, you should have critical thinking skills about it!! you should think about why you enjoy it and whether or not it might perpetuate harmful ideas about torture and other sensitive topics! the fact that you are "using fiction as escapism" doesn't exclude you from this.

being critical means thinking about why you like certain things and whether they could be harmful and what you can do to mitigate that harm. it does NOT mean "this thing that other people like is super bad and gross, unlike the things *i* like, which are morally correct and never problematic in any way."

i'm exaggerating a little but you get the gist. we are not playing moral superiority olympics in the torture fandom, okay?

#i'm just putting this under the cut bc i do Not have the energy to argue with anyone about this #maybe at some point in the future i will make this a Real Post and there can be some kind of dialogue about it but not today #ziptalks

[fandomfloozy]

random ask: what is your absolute most favorite food ever? the one that you wish you could summon at will with no prep required and also need everyone around you to try and also love (but not so much that there's none left for you)?

Chilaquiles!!!!!!!!!!! Love em. Ugh. In every shape and form. 🩷

With the green sauce

With the red sauce

With a bunch of meat

For breakfast with eggie on top

HNFNWK XMAH UAGH they're so versatile and delicious and I love being Mexican so much cuz our dishes are a shit ton of iterations of tortilla(chip), egg, meat, salsa

I'm a simple girl who loves tortilla, egg, meat, salsa 🤤🤤

#lots of pics of food under the cut lol #ty for this ask void! #i love food so much #it's ome of the spices of life to me #and a big love language of mine #im definitely a live to eat >>>> eat to live kind of person #id rather live my nice lil comfy life with good food than 100 years restricting myself #happiness is what you put into your life #and i choose to put good food in mine :))) #cw food #tw food

[ninjasmudge]

reminder to pleeease tag your spoilers for s4! yeah even if its just a little rant or textpost, please tag them! its been a bit of time since it came out but please be respectful to ppl who are choosing to wait till the eng ver. ESPECIALLY if youre gonna put it in the main lmk tags, that just rude to the people who are choosing not to watch it yet

#a lot of ppl are putting everything under a cut which i can appreciate although i think its a little far bc its been like a week and if #youre wandering around tumblr not wanting to see spoilers but with no tags blocked thats KIND OF on you #bc thats asking ppl to not lost videos or reblog with commentary you cant put under a cut and stuff but #i can appreciate it #BUT GODDAMN BRO IF YOURE POSTING ACTUAL SPOILERS EVEN IF ITS JUST AN OPINION TAG IT /PLEASE/ #like i was postin screenshots and stuff just after but i did choose ones that didnt spoil any major plot points until a while after #to give ppl a chance to block tags #idk man just everytime i go in the tag theres someone saying some shit with no tags like PLEASE #mk

[rusty-gloinks]

Don't be a coward, give him the maid outfit.

This was a 1 way ticket to hell btw.okay

#jokes aside he does kind of slay.pmaybe #Crying and tearing everything apart #Only gonna tag him not even gonna give him the main tag I feel so ashamed for this💀💀💀 #Putting under a cut ebcause I truly am a coward #Sam murder drones #Murder drones sam #sam md #md sam #reimbles #Ask to tag

[dire-kumori]

Okay so I... kinda sorta figured out the layout of the first floor. Maybe. The Afton house is basically a Tardis at this point; bigger on the inside. Don’t question it.

Oh, also, I added Fredbear!

#yay Fredbear! #I started out trying to do a perspective view of the hallway similar to the living room (under the cut) #and needless to say #didn't take long to realize why that was a bad idea #I also added a few minor tweaks to the living room #which is why I added that again #can you tell I'm having a lot of fun with this? #the hallway feels kind of empty but I'm not sure what to add into it #all of the furniture I placed in the living room was something I found in the original FNAF 4 minigame #but it's hard to see more than what's immediately outside Ev's bedroom door in the game #and I'm not 100% sure what goes in a hallway? a couple of rugs maybe? #buuuuuut I'm putting a pause on the hallway bc William's basement is next! #pixel art #my art #FNAF #Ever After #Afton family #Afton home

[anghraine]

The fuller Darcy next-gen headcanon, while I'm at it:

Elizabeth Jane (Lizzy) Darcy. She's quiet, withdrawn, dutiful, and intense. Strong eldest daughter vibes. She's very handsome and expected (not by her parents so much as their wider social circle) to be charming and witty to go with it, like her mother, and is neither; she low-grade resents her while also idolizing her. Gets on well with her father and most of her aunts, but rarely confides in anyone.

Edward Darcy (named for Mr Gardiner and Lord —). He's sensible, down-to-earth, loyal, earnest, and easy-going. Very much wants to live up to his strong sense of responsibility as The Heir. Most people like him well enough without having a strong impression of his feelings or personality. Gets along well with both parents, but is slightly intimidated by his father's sterling reputation and force of presence.

Christopher Darcy (Kit, named after Darcy's father in my headcanons). He's high-spirited, clever, friendly, and very content in his own skin, more so than any of his siblings. Like Edward, he's easy-going and practical, but more energetic. He can be a bit careless and outspoken, even impertinent, while also able to pull on a touch of hauteur when annoyed. His spirits and confidence can make him exasperating at times, but also endearing to pretty much everyone around him, including both parents.

Georgiana Darcy. She has quite a bit in common with her brother Kit; she's not quite as comfortable with herself, but she's at least as fearless and impulsive (Voted Child Most Likely To Give Her Caretakers Headaches). She's quick-witted and can get carried away with her own ideas, but is also gregarious and kind, and readily befriended the family's shy charity case, her cousin Fanny Price Bella Wickham.

Honorable mention next-gen characters: Bess Wickham, the most driven, intelligent, and calculating of the Wickham children; George Wickham, her closest sibling, less ambitious but more careless; Martha Bingley, a bubbly, inquisitive, matchmaking middle Bingley child; and Sarah Gardiner, born a few months after P&P ends, thoughtful, pragmatic, and courteous.

#anghraine babbles #austen blogging #anghraine's headcanon #elizabeth jane darcy #edward darcy #christopher darcy #georgiana darcy (ii) #et al. #long post #long enough to put under a cut anyway! #thinking about bella and georgiana again—i had a lot of fun with the fic where they fell into the river #during a scrape that bella followed along with against her better judgment #and normally darcy is not the main disciplinarian but now and then he'll be 'i am very disappointed' and it's a Dreadful Prospect #it was one of those occasions but for bella the idea that she's allowed and expected to stand up to georgiana was ?????? #i'm also really fond of bess wickham (who is terrible in many ways but fun) #she does want the best for bella and george and the others. but mostly for herself and she goes for it with subtlety but no brakes. #meanwhile edward is in the kind of weird position of being the heir but also overshadowed by his siblings #even lizzy (who is quiet but in a way that's hard to ignore) #but he's reliable and forthright and has a vaguely soothing personality #so i have a soft spot for him too!

[sysig]

Working on some designs for one of my oldest OCs, “Cure” (Patreon)

I also managed to track down some of her initial concept sketches from 2018 - why 2018 considering I called her one of my oldest OCs?

Well, her design has always been rather elusive, even more so since she spent so much time in my head without being brought to paper - even these sketches make mention of it!

Pretty sure she got “Cure” in 2018 too - starting to take form!

#Doodles #Original #The quotes are very intentional lol #As stated under the cut I started designing her in 2018 but she's existed since around 2007-ish? Latest would be 2010 #Part of her having such a range of uncertainty is that it took me many many years to consider putting her to paper! #She might've existed in 2007 but there's no record! She might've existed in 2010 but no record! I don't think I even wrote about her #She was a completely mentally-extant OC for many many many years #Partially because at the time I had just started drawing and knew I wouldn't be able to put down what was in my head to physicality #And then the longer she stayed in my head the more she became that kind of mental kaleidoscope ever-shifting impossible-to-draw design #But screw that! I have a few years of doodling under my belt now! Even if I can't get her quite right I can at least make an attempt! #It's especially funny because outwardly she is meant to be a pretty generic teddy bear lol - not Exactly but more like the vibe of one #Round and plush and innocent - innocuous #And really she's not like Nefarious or anything lol - she's not what she seems but she also is?? It's hard to explain lol #A lot of it does still come down to subtleties so it actually is still hard to capture but it'll only keep getting harder the longer I wait! #So at least pinning down Some things about her design that I'm happy with and can refer to helps the me down the line haha #The first one is actually pretty close! It's always a coin flip on whether the first one is a disaster or nails it haha #The heart ears and straight body are pretty good tho I gotta say #And honestly it was the little lace-ribbon bracelet that was the deciding factor for me to try drawing her again haha #I had an idea I thought was silly but to do it I needed a design to work with! #Getting there getting there - every little bit closer

[smilepebble]

im only a little over halfway done with writing the olberic meta post but it's already longer than any other meta post ive ever made

#sorry to my non-octopath mutuals but im not putting that post under a cut when i post it. i am working so hard on it #part of the reason it's so long is because im psychoanalyzing erhardt too. i feel like i kind of have to just to show the full picture here #even still just taking the olberic parts its still just as long if not longer than my nuzleaf or dusknoir or grovyle posts #op

[merrsies]

I be out here trying to have a good day then BAM my brain reminds me of episode 25 of Ouran High School Host Club (2006) when after Kyoya gets slapped by his dad in public and the host club asks if he's okay, and he just looks away and says as detachedly as he can muster, "don't worry about it. its not like I haven't been expecting this."

and that's just

#kyoya ootori #ohshc #NO because #before we even talk about the kind of home life and family that implies #it shows that he was willing to sacrifice the one thing that he'd been working to achieve his whole life #that being his father's approval and his reputation #for the sake of tamaki and the host club #and thats why I dont like when ppl call kyoya a selfish character #because when he wants to be he can be so noble #but his emotional detachment and his walking away from the scene also show #that like haruhi he's hyper-independent to a fault #in that sense they're similar characters because they prefer to do things by themselves because theyre not used to #being able to trust others #haruhi b/c of being alone a lot of the time and kyoya b/c of the cut-throat pressure his family puts him under #but the host club for both of them #is an escape and a reminder that they arent alone #and that there are good people out there they can trust #but for kyoya in particular he can never truly relax #hence why he's the most closed off of all the hosts #its not like the pressure he's under ever leaves him fully #and im so GLAD that the show's finale has him throw back the company in his dad's face because he finds something far more meaningful #there's so much depth to him and the pinterest girls dont UNDERSTAND #just rambling incoherently #i have a lot of feelings about the silly rose petal anime ok #ik things go differently in the manga but i just rlly appreciate the arc they gave him in the anime towards the finale