#i posted this at 2:30 last night :

[ledzeppelinmixtape]

wish house was a real doctor so i could be his mystery insomniac patient and after giving me horse tranquilizers and still not falling asleep he just hits me in the head with his cane and im out like a light

#house md #i was supposed yo be asleep 2 hrs ago cause i planned to get up very early to study but LMAO NO #as soon as i shut my eyes my chest felt like it was being ripped to shreds from anxiety. i love i love it i love it (←says guy who hates it #anyways. i got mad i cried i googled some things frantically and now im in an acceptance phase of 'it is what it is' ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #i think the thing that makes me the most frustrated is that. i slept like shit last night. like 4hrs maybe!!!! total!!! and so by the time #i started studying today around 6:30 i was eepy. and then by 7:15 my eyes were sooo heavy so i decided to take a 15 min power nap #and i was DREAMING within minutes. i fell asleep that quick. such a deep sleep that my alarm scared me awake #but ofc when im like oh teehee ill go to bet hella early and wake up hella early my brain is like ? no. #if youre still reading. idk im kissing you on the mouth or something. thanks for being here 🫶 #gonna start tagging these posts as #insomnia chronicles

[spacedlexi]

girlies post incoming!!! 💜🍊

the way these two had no idea what they were doing (clem raising aj. violet leading the school) yet now they support each other and as a team are trying to help each other figure it out together. theyre making it up as they go but they at least know they have each other to rely on for whatever happens next

clem never had all the answers but she was trying her best to not let that show. violet becomes someone clem knows she can rely on no matter what (standing up for her and aj and their place at the school, "when i heard you call for help i didnt even think"), and clem becomes someone violet can rely on in turn (using her experience to help violet lead and protect the school and helping her take care of all these kids). theyre each others ROCKS!!!!!!! THEYRE A TEAM!!!!!!!!!!

honestly one of the reasons letting vi get taken hurts so much is that no matter what she WAS the leader of ericson!! vi (the wallflower that she was) steps up as soon as aj is in trouble to protect him And clem, then continues to fall into that leadership position because its not like anyone else is trying to keep everyone together. and even though she has no idea what shes doing or going to do about the army coming to take them all away, shes still trying her best, and clem helps her figure it out as they begin to lead together as a TEAM!! neither of them would be where they are without the influence of the other (vi stepping up as leader, clem being allowed back in). and you can just..... let her be taken in spite of all that.......... no wonder she was so heartbroken in that cell how could she not be

but if you save her it just solidifies their building relationship. that theyll always have the others back no matter what. and vi solidifies this even further by shooting minnie to save clem. all the little reassuring smiles they give each other.. making sure the other is holding up ok in moments of stress... im gonna go cry now

#THEY ARE EVERYTHING!!!! #vi shooting minnie to save clem just feels like such a great payoff to the culmination of their relationship LIKE MY GOD #and then after that theyre Especially mushy and gross with each other :) much more openly and confidently :) THATS GROWTH #twdg #violentine #it speaks #usually these posts stay in my drafts but i want to yell about my girls these lines make me feel things theyre such a team 😭 #if i dont write my silly little essays about my silly medias i'll explode #2:30 on a wednesday. post it #played ep 3 last night and had lots of feelings about them #they gave clem a real partner bro 😭 i'll never stop being grateful for how wrong i was about clem romance they fuckin nailed it

[mischief-lies-and-stories]

You want me to talk about Verity Willis? I'll fucking talk about Verity Willis.

Spoilers for Agent of Asgard, maybe some other comics beyond that. Let's crack into it because I love Verity.

They're soulmates. The God of Lies and the Human Lie-Detector? Are you kidding? They were made for each other! They were meant to find each other, they were meant to oppose each other. If they aren't soulmates, they're (I'm not a Homestuck person, so I don't know what the opposite of soulmates are) meant to be rivals. But, to steal a phrase from Merlin, they are two sides of the same coin, essentially.

What the universe did not anticipate, however, is that Verity's ace. I don't make the rules; Verity is ace. And so, not a love interest. However, that doesn't mean they're not soulmates. They are, have been, always will be, in any life, in any world, in every iteration of Loki and every variant of Verity Willis, in every dimension, in every universe, queer-platonic soulmates. They're best friends. They're not "just friends". They're best friends.

You want me to talk about Verity? I'll fucking talk about Verity.

Even when shit hits the fan, even when Loki has been off doing god knows what shit for months on fucking end, and drives her insane to the point that she's like "I don't know if I can do this anymore, Loki," and he's like, "I'm sorry, I'll try to be better," she still sticks around and she still wants to be by his side.

And that's love, bitch! It may not be romantic love, it may not be sexual love, they may not be love interests. But that's love, bitch. He loves her. She loves him. They were made to be a match. Just not a romantic one. Just not a sexual one.

And in that moment of reckoning, that final moment when Loki is grappling with himself, and waffling between remaining in the void with the other versions of himself or going back to his brother's heartbreak and anger and Asgard's distrust and the All-Mother's betrayal and the chains of the future or die and not return. Or to transcend, undergo ego-death. To change, to transform, to do something that's ultimately going to be very painful and very hard, and what might not end up doing what he thinks it's going to do for him in the end. In that moment, she calls him. And he is on an alternate plane of existence, his phone should not even work, should not even exist. He is talking to previous iterations of himself and grappling with his own ego, he's not in a physical plane, he shouldn't even have his phone. But she calls him, to tell him she's on his side, still, after everything. She was there, when he told Thor what he did, she was already on the outs with him, before he told Thor what he did. She left.

But she's calling him, across planes. A love that transcends logic, that transcends planes, that transcends the existence or lack thereof of cellular towers. The human lie-detector, whose name literally means truth, calls the long-hated, long-condemned God of Lies, to tell him she's on his side, and that it's not the end.

Now, for my personal thought, I think she saves his life. I think there's a part of him, however small or large, that is not planning to come back from this, that is not planning to undergo this metamorphosis, that is like "What the fuck is the point? No one thinks I can change. Why the fuck should I change for them? Why the fuck should I change for me? Why the fuck should I even try? Why the fuck should I come back after I've changed, even if I manage it?"

But that one phone call from his best friend, from his fucking queerplatonic soulmate, saves my boi's life. And I don't think it's the first time she saves his life, nor am I convinced it will be the last. And she has no idea. Not a clue. She's got this lingering sense that he's about to do something stupid while they're on the phone, and she's like "Don't do something stupid." But I don't think she really knows that she saves his life.

And then he undergoes ego-death, and she is the first person he goes to. We don't know how much time passes between when he comes back from ego-death, figures out there's an incursion (I think that's what the event was. It might have been Ragnarok again), and goes to her. He could've gone to her and then been like, 'Oh shit, there's an incursion, I guess I'd better save her now.' Or if he knows there's an incursion and decides to save her first. We don't know, but we do know that they go to her first. And I think that's telling. Yes, Thor is mad at them; yes, the All-Mother betrayed them; yes, there's a sadistic future version of themself in their apartment right now (maybe), so there's not a lot of options. But they have options, and they go to her first.

Because they love her. And she loves them. Because they're best friends. And soulmates. And they were made for each other.

Literally. I mean, the future Loki created her for AoA Loki, more or less. He didn't plan on her eating the ring as a baby, but that's basically what happened.

You want me to talk about Verity Willis? I'll fucking talk about Verity Willis. Verity Willis is the shit. And I'm waiting for her to come back. Because she needs to. Because Loki needs her to. Because all this nonsense about being cursed and unloved and unwanted? Verity nips that shit in the bud. And Verity would stand there in front of Naglfar, and be like, 'Yeah, I know you think you're telling the truth, dipshit, but just you think it's true does not mean that it's true.'

And I think Loki needs to hear that. So they can stop feeling sorry for themself and start doing some shit.

#i've intended to write this for weeks #only managed to get the words down because i wrote something #at 2:30 am last night (i'll post it later) and i needed to write context for it #loki #loki comics #loki agent of asgard #spoilers for loki: agent of asgard #verity willis #loki theories

[bigmammallama5]

51 mushrooms and 9 creepers in 5 different clays (4 manufactured, and then my wild clay grogged tests I couldn’t use for throwing) from yesterday. Also included: images of the cleaned up pumpkins and Patricks so I have them. I just have those three little wild clay cups to finish up and that’s it for this kiln.

#arting #pottery #i didnt post last night bc it was 2:30 lmao

[libra-cant-just-dance]

Hmmm what could these possibly be for? 🤔😈

#stay tuned tomorrow #or maybe one of the days after tomorrow cuz I might not have time to actually post pictures #I finished this at 2:30 am last night #everyone pretend it’s not immediately obvious what I’m teasing by the tags #just dance #just dance 2023 #wanderlust #cosplay

[icantalk710]

It's been one of those strap-in-with-☕ mornings, send [h]elp 🥱💻🥱

#ore no kao #second photo's actually from last week that i forgot i wanted to post [and kinda shied up about lol] #feeling my oats from my workout last night 😌 #except for the 'stayed up til 2:30' part that has me sleepy #no gym time in three weeks oof #[maaaybe i'll post another i took later lol] #[or show mutuals iunno]

[fluttershywheresheshouldntbe]

Hanging with her stunt double

#fluttershy where she shouldnt be #mlp #fluttershy #this was the original flutteshy sculpture i tried to make that just didnt work for a variety of reasons #i got so frustrated with it i tried to make a smaller verison #and voila; the fluttershy we know and love now #but its been sitting in my room for ages taking up space and gathering dust #so i consider this its send off #it was supposed to go up last night but i hit post limit at like 2:30 and then tumblr ate the post

[britneyshakespeare]

why is big brother so insensitive to people who live on the east coast

#i cant watch a new episode at 10 tonight i have work in the morning #i like to be tucked in bed at like 10:30 😟 #text post #bb25 #also fuck cbs anyway for this last week bc wtf is this #i was thinking about not watching this episode on premiere night anyway #kaily and i have paramount plus #also ive been rewatching jane howell's wars of the roses tetralogy for the past 2 days #i finished part 2 a few hours ago and i was thinking of starting part 3 #and finishing that when i get home from work tomorrow #and im not working on tuesday so thatd be perfect for... richard iii 😳 #ron cook is the definitive richard iii. argue with a wall.

[jesterwaves]

Neocities 2-Year Anniversary Update

Almost every single page has had at least some tweaks to them, and I've added a lot of new stuff, so if you've never visited my neocities before, now's the time! If you're a mobile user all pages function fine there, too! (except for 1 page on ipad specifically)

If you've ever wondered what the deal between Tamaki and Cyan is, now you can find out! I've detailed some elements of their relationship, family life, and backstories as well as made an in-character page dedicated to their band. And I did decide on a band name, for now at least.

There are also 4 new characters that are semi-canonically part of T+C's world that got their own pages.

There have also been mostly minor updates to the CPUK Shrine page

But I also made a page for my CPUK fan character. If you've never watched CPUK and want to know what it is, or if you have and want to add a cool button to your page you can find my shrine about it here

And if you read this far into the post... hi. And thank you for reading!

#the fool speaks #uncharacteristically long post but i worked really hard on this for the past few months so ive earned the right to be annoying. #Ill be posting art over the next week or so. Probably. #for now itll just live in the website #there's not a whole lot of stuff 2 post though if im being honest. i dont think i want to really post the individual assets #remember how last night i said id make this post in 30 minutes...? haha yeah #for the best because i fixed some issues

[boag]

I wholeheartedly looove being a pretentious “I liked it before it was cool 🙄” hipster cunt

#last week a surf curse show near me was announced and I got excited bc I’ve wanted to see them live since I was 13 #and last year I bought a ticket to see them but had an awful depressive episode and couldn’t move or get out of bed for a couple days #and then woke up at 2 am one night and realized I missed the show #and anyways I set a reminder in my phone for when the tickets went on sale and intended to ask my dad for the money #but then I looked at the website like 3 hours after the sale started and they were sold out already . #I hate you tiktok bitches stop hearing 30 seconds of one song from an artist I love and then buying up tickets so u can take videos to post

[dwellsinthebog]

second chapter of gone are the days, my very sad and angsty post-canon renkaza fic that centers around Tojuro Rengoku befriending the creature in his basement, was published last night!

**please mind the tags before reading.

#i say published last night but it was actually more like 2:30 am. i have insomnia :D #renkaza #akaza #fanfic #rengokuposting #bog's non-art posts

[lustfulsacraments]

this site made my ocd worse and continues to make it worse, doesnt matter who i follow, what posts i block, how i spend my time here i just Know this site is just. straight up bad for ocd. half my ocd tics and intrusive thoughts are literally things from this site

ive known this but last night was really the clincher, i had to literally stop myself before a new ocd behavior developed BECAUSE OF TUMBLR, a place i try to go to look at images and chill out, and yet STILL will be zapped with the worsttttttt guilt tripping, nit-picking, scrupulous, "let me put the fear of god into you for a sec" type of posts. i have never felt such terrified fear of knowing my brain almost developed a new fucked up thing to torture me with and im so so glad i was able to direct it somewhere else and got over it

i dont want to leave, because really this is the ONE social site i use and i refuse to move anywhere else or take up discord. and really i just want to look at images and collect them. but is it worth it when im a fucking stressed mess bc ocd is ruining my life and this site is making is actively worse

#the posts is question that fucked me up last night were about covid heart attack related deaths for young ppl #i dont talk abt it but i now know 2 ppl that have just. died in their sleep. they were 19 and 30 respectively #almost developed a ritual to prevent (what i fear) will happen to my husband about it #why cant people talk about things on here without making it 1) a moral thing and 2) a fear mongering obsession #you know? its not that the world sucks its the way its talked about and posted and argued and its just too much for me i cant do it anymore

[blyszczopies]

the obsession with having a consistent art style... what does a consistent art style even mean to an artist? easily recognizable art? a brand? we can only improve both artistically and mentally if we let ourselves explore and experiment. consistent art style means repetition. a habit. i dont like it when artists both professional but especially hobbists and beginners are like "sorry my art style is SO all over the place" but thats good actually. have fun. do whatever. youre improving youre drawing new stuff and that rocks. is this all because of the obsession with aesthetics and nothing more? everything has to be pretty and look finished down to the smallest details? to look professional?

honestly i myself am more worried about my art not having any impact on people. that people completely forget about my art if they are not directly staring at it.

honestly, i guess the thing im the most scared of is that there might be people who could only think of me as someone who "draws sparkledogs sometimes"

#this post is NOT well thought i only had two hours of sleep last night #and its 2:30 am and i drank two energy drinks im stuck on campus cause its dark and late and no buses #im in one way in another dimension rn but thats something that i been thinking about lately #notes app

[zoueriemandzijnopmars]

I just finished The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo and I’m not okay

#I was more not okay last night when I put it away with 30 pages or so to go #but still #I don’t want to have finished it #it was very good #part time booklr #i made an original post #I picked it up with almost no idea what it was about just because I had seen 2 people talk about it or something #and so it was a bit of a shock going from fantasy to a contemporary romance #and also to read that in English because somehow my library had the English copy but not the dutch #but I never read contemporary romance novels in English #so that was kinda weird at first #but anyway it is very good people go read it #I almost cried yesterday #the seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo #also annoying that I finished it but still have an hour of trains to go

[lostfieldranboo]

i've entirely forgotten how i usually post fics on tumblr. here have like 8k words of ranboo after being brought back to life

#ranboo #dream smp #i feel like i should have a fanfic tag #i dont feel like i should tag everyone bc this is a 5+1 with interactions so. waving hand at the tags look at those instead #i posted this at 2:30 am last night and then just forgot to put it on tumblr so here you go 12 hours late LMAO

[primonizuto]

i have a post that's a clip from b99 i posted that has 325k notes and i haven't deleted it out of raw strength despite it frequently getting discourse related to 1) copaganda 2) animal cruelty 3) fatphobia 4) whether or not the show is funny/personal taste/let people enjoy things OR 5) 'how is this THE funniest cold open when [x other cold open] was funnier' despite the fact that i captioned the video 'this is ONE of the funniest'

#posting inane text posts rn to stave off thefact that i went to bed at a normal hour last night but woke up at 3:30 and couldnt get back 2 #sleep and now im just awake. He he