#i might be ranting here idk

[dragonsanddrama]

After watching The Dragon Prince s5

I realized All this stuff we've been doing to ourselves, bottling up our feelings and living with a mentally unhealthy routine, saying that "It's easier somehow". We're like Claudia. Performing dark magic because it "Has to be done" to save her father, protect her family. And she didn't win in the end. Her spells always failed after a while. And what happened to Viren, embodying dark magic his entire life and realizing the truth only at his death. You get what I'm saying? The stuff that humans aren't supposed to do to themselves is like dark magic. We gotta try primal magic. Callum found a way. There's always that pure way. Primal magic will probably save you from the bottom of the ocean (or the bottom of your shower). Primal magic is expressing your feelings, acknowledging what needs to be acknowledged like the inability to control everything in the ocean. Dark magic is going to eventually kill us. Let's figure out how to use primal magic.

#the dragon prince #tdp #callum #rayla #claudia tdp #viren tdp #aaravos #dark magic #primal magic #primal magics gonna save us yall #just gotta jump off the top of the dragon queens lair and grow wings to save that one moonshadow elf that tried to kill you a lil while ago #and then dramatically fly across a sunset #well done rayllum #rayllum #i might be ranting here idk #BAITLINGS

[uukipi]

lucien on his way to give a gift to elain and b ignored for the 50th time

#crying throwing up i need him to be wanted by someone like rn #im over here shipping him with everyone bc bro has nothing and no one #other than vassa and jurian :sobbing emoji: #i never understood why feyre and the ic treat him like garbage i legit have no idea why it makes me so mad #im just ranting in the tags rn bc idk where else to Rant w/o getting crucified #might make a acotar blog lmfsdbjkfsd #acotar art #acotar #pro lucien #pro lucien vanserra #lucien vanserra #pocket sized lucien

[why-the-heck-not]

19.12.23, tuesday

0.5h of coding lol

wasn’t having the best day so decided to finally watch the barbie-movie (it’s on hbo rn) bc figured that could cheer me up

but bc the universe loves a good timing, on the grocery store trip after, some dudes came to me like ”which one of us would u fuck?” and that annoyed me way more than it should’ve. Like cmon, it’s 10pm at a grocery store; if you’re not cottage cheese or olive oil get tf out of my face

just a short evening walk bc it was windy and I was annoyed

#also the barbie-movie; it was fine #not my favorite but I didn’t think it’d be bc I don’t rly usually go for that genre #also at this point the hype had got to me so my expectations were very unfair #the set tho; it looked so good #I love how I planned that I’d be a machine now this week so could actually not stress during christmas but it’s looking out to be like one #of the most unproductive days I’ve had all autumn lol #i’m thinking if I should just call it and start the holidays now and just idk catch up on some of the days in between christmas & new years #and I do have 8 days after new years before other courses start #but idk if I do thay I might not rly be able to chill during christmas #like rn I’m thinking if I should bring my laptop with me just in case I could squeeze a couple hours here & there during the few days #which is not the thing to do obviously; like it’s 5 days I can be apart from my laptop for 5 days #but it feels like with the amount of stuff I’ve gotten done I rly couldn’t afford a 5 day break rn #idk I’ll figure it out I won’t bring a laptop just to haunt me #(I’m bad at fully relaxing; there’s always the ’’u could be doing something productive tho’’-voice) #(which I don’t listen but then I just get nothing done and also never rly relax which is good super good) #(can u tell im still annoyed at everything rn lol sorry for the tag rant) #december 2023 #2023 #today

[llitchilitchi]

setting off for a long journey

#dnf #oblivion au #sketchbook #ert #do I even tag this? should I tag this absolute mess of an au with any of the participants? #this was simply me wanting to draw the view of white gold tower after like a 5h obliv sesh #yes I know that theres only two towers at the side shut up #this isnt even a real location I imagine this would be in jerall mountains but it doesnt make sense #this is like. cheydinhal view at best. probably more south idk I made it up #just needed to have these two kiss in the early morning hours before dream has to leave for a mission #Ive been playing more obliv so there Might be more idk #done with like 10 colouring pencils cause yeah #the blue looks eyestrainy but trust me its worse irl I love that colour #wish I could get the colours more true to life #anyways thank you for reading this rant I am here to talk about this silly au that I am very normal about

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me) #i keep on doing it for no apparent reason #someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that. #even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women. #i hate it here! #for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man! #at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage #and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk #but at the same time i. want to be loved. #i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself #i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it #and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately #this isn't entirely related but it kind of is #like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it? #i don't know. i don't know! #for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know #i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that. #but i don't know how to stop it. #i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all. #this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are #queer stuff tag #i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as #the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing #ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded #also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him #i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know #i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all. #i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever #care for me #now im rambling. sorry

[statementlou]

How does one become your friend?

honestly I'm so mentally compromised by fatigue today that my answer- I don't know??- sent me into an actual spiral of "do I not know how to be a friend to myself is it a commentary on my psychological health and state of being" sooooo might just have to leave all that aside and go with, uh, try messaging or chatting some way? I'm generally afraid of bothering people, what if they think I'm a creep, but I usually like it when people talk to me and then boom! I, at least, consider us friends- same as most people on here I'd guess. But watch out! I am annoying and unless discouraged will then consider us pals forever if we have two friendly interactions, sorry.

#to be honest there are many people on here I don't talk to and maybe aren't even mutuals with who I kind of consider friends #but that definitely might just be in my head lol #I see familiar names and think oh hey guys. here we are. hanging out :) #thornier questions include how to be a friend? does chit chat a friend make? should I be doing more? #things I am good at: talking about fandom stuff. annoyingly ranting about fandom stuff #things I am not good at: talking about RL stuff. not being awkward if attempting to address real life stuff #fun fact got this and a troll ask together and was like... are they making fun of me? will this one disappear when I block the other one? #but it didn't so I guess it might be real? feel weird posting but would feel weirder not answering #idk you guys should answer in replies how does one become friends with anyone online what do you think?

[someonetooksendnoodles]

wasn’t expecting to ever have “tech kid who actually wants to/can perform” representation but theater camp (2023) really gave it to me

#something’s healed now idk #former theater kid things and what have you #no but like it’s really funny and good and i might have a theater rant here soon idk maybe it’s a me thing but theater camp made me feel #all the feels so yuh #eh i’ll tag this as a ramble why not #noodle rambles #theater camp #theater camp 2023 #theater camp (2023)

[skooturmkdootlur]

Oh yeah here's some Quint scribbles in wildly different artstyles lol

#posted these on twitter but forgot to share them here #I might turn these into finished drawings and post with better quality who knows #honestly might draw some quooper shit at some point becuase I need more of it in my life #like yeah I might be cringe but at least I'll be free #also not sure what artstyle i want to have as my “main” one anymore. idk I guess I don't like how inconsistent it is rn? #Like the only thing I have going for it is the colorful noses and that's more of a stylistic choice than anything #anyway rant done #jaws #quint jaws #jaws 1975 #sketch dump #doodles #art #digial art #my art #skootur mkdootlur

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#I've received anon hate from a ss/kk shipper for my unrequited ss/kk beliefs on the basis that ss/kk is canon according to anon and like #You ever in a fandom where it's like. Yeah I guess that might as well happen #“You are clearly wrong about ss/kk” I mean? Okay? I'm not here to be right I'm here to have fun ahah #People are crazy #Besides yesterday's post was written last December but like. It's not like I don't still stand by that. #I would still stand by unrequited ss/kk if they kissed in the manga. BECAUSE IT'S FUN #I kinda want to answer the ask but I have this strict policy of not answering anything mean- #so I need to resort to rant in the tags instead 😔 #I don't know what's about me that attracts so much anon hate tbh. I really wish I'd know #Maybe it's what you get after you hit a certain number of following. Idk. Or maybe it's divine punishment for the crimes I've committed #Anyway. Sorry for delying answering to the other (nicer) asks I've had a raging fever the entire weekend #I'll get answering rn so I'll probably post the answers tomorrow. Sorry for the wait!! #random rambles

[batz]

i really think that some doctors need to be mauled by wild animals what do you MEAN didnt believe theres glands under your tongue!!! how many millions of years ago did he go to medical school!!! im so mad for you right now

i think some doctors just get like disillusioned or whatever but its NO excuse for them to not know that there are salivary glands under the tongue or other very normal things to know. and then be v rude and dismissive about very normal concerns. but maybe the doctor did know what was going on and just wanted me out of the clinic asap.

but also ive had to point out like rlly normal anatomical things to doctors lately im wondering if walk in clinics are just hiring randos off indeed at this point LMAO

#i joke but i mean they might as well be :') #dude wasnt even old he had to be like MAYBE 40. he was just. IDK . doctors r confusing i dont understand their logic #i still cant believe he thought salivary glands were ONLY in the cheeks #whatd be think was under the tongue? #he pointed to a picture of a ranula (very OBVIOUSLY not what i have bc i have sharp hard rock in my gland and a ranula is like- #-saliva filled sac beneath the floor of ur mouth that becomes super big.) and he asked if thats what i have #i pointed to the small rock. then to the picture. and said that they were different. it was a salivary stone #he didnt believe me??? #like im not claiming to have severe disease i just want this thing to be removed . it takes like 30 seconds . #but doctors here refuse to do work. even if the work involves doing 5 seconds of paperwork to send me to a specialist. #iim so sorry for ranting BFNSSHSHS its just like... so frustrating..! im sure doctors in the US are the same as well #everyones disillusioned with their careers now capitalism evil etc but jfc doctors shuold Still care for ppl or QUIT if they rlly cant omg

[devilsskettle]

i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

#ready to see all the people coming out of the woodwork to say how they’ve never liked watcher/unsolved/etc #and act like it’s ‘cringe’ now that their fanbase feels ‘betrayed’ #it’s great to have a fanbase but parasocial relationships will bite you in the ass every single time #it’s interesting too though because i’ve seen watcher have a LOT of support as they’ve tried to build something separate from buzzfeed #so this is the first time they’re getting real pushback about a decision they’ve made wrt shifting their platform/expanding their brand #so ig we’ll have to see how they react moving forward #but it’s soooo interesting to see how enthusiastically people dump on buzzfeed #AND how many people dump on youtube and how over the years so much of its functionality has been stripped away #how many ads you have to sit through. how much sponsored content there is now. etc #but when they try to do the same thing with youtube that they did with buzzfeed it’s like how dare you not lick their boots #because if you lick their boots and we lick their boots we can watch stuff for free #anyway. #even if you don’t any to say it’s a bad business decision. it’s not like there’s not precedent for it #1) the move away from buzzfeed was successful and 2) what about the dnd shows or whatever #don’t you guys watch those dnd shows that are ‘behind a paywall’ #don’t you guys have netflix hulu disney hbo amazon etc ad nauseum that are actually owned by billion dollar corporations #don’t you guys get on your high horses about supporting independent artists all the time #it’s interesting that people will profess to be such big fans!!! and feel like they’re friends!!!! #but how dare they think their work might be worth paying for #idk. idk. it’s entitlement though #sorry for the rant i’m ALSO not trying to blindly defend a bunch of people i don’t know #but you guys are being soooo fucking annoying about it lol #anyway i’m still waiting to see what their response is going to be from here before jumping to conclusions #also to be fair i am biased to be lenient about decisions made by independent filmmakers vs big studios etc #like everybody freaking out about the ai art used in late night with the devil. who cares honestly #‘they should’ve paid a real artist!!’ idk maybe their budget didn’t cover that #i don’t want it to become the industry norm but at the end of the day i would rather see indie shit getting made then only seeing #the big studios (who don’t have equitable practices anyway!!) making shit #but that’s another conversation. just to be transparent about my viewpoint on this kind of thing #maybe controversial but also can’t we have nuance. for once.

[darken-hollow]

Does any one know like very good platforms to post their art? Or any tips on how to grow more that doesn't involve changing your art style or what you draw?

#I know tags are important for here and for all my art I put in a lot of tags #when it comes to just text I don't put a lot #But yeah tbh while I won't leave Tumblr I am looking for another way of getting my art out there #I feel like all my reblogs make it to hard to find my art #granted even then I barely even get any likes #tbh idk I might just try and focus on my projects #but I feel like I be the only one interested in them if I don't get at least a small fan base #Like I wanna make an animated pilot but I don't want to put all that work in for like 5 views #idk man I think I'm just going through another depressive well not episode but you know what I mean #granted I only ever really get likes from the same like three people who like all my stuff #but yeah #darken talks #damn these tags just became a rant lol

[murderbees]

thinking abt Dyson

because why was he so fixated on the renegade? Well, I just ranted about this to my sister so I will tell you

He's offended by The Renegade's very existence. They're a mediocre copycat at best. He wants him gone, derezzed, erased. And why? Because he care about Tron, and that's complicated.

He's the one you looked up to, trusted implicitly, trusted with your life and health. He gets to make the decisions because he'll always make the right one, he won't let them derezz or get needlessly hurt, right?

But he does, Tron defended the ISOs. The ones who started the fight(debatable), who ruined his face. And still, Tron defends the ISOs because Flynn says so.

So he doesn't get it fixed. He waits for Flynn, wants him to see exactly why the ISOs are dangerous, get him to admit that the ISOs are an issue, not a miracle. Because, if Flynn admits that, changes his mind, then so will Tron, and everything will be FINE again.

But Flynn doesn't. He doesn't even seem to care, and just like that, he knows Tron will never stop defending the ISOs. He's lost Tron forever.

So they overthrow Flynn, because they have to. And they take in Tron because they need him. Sure, they could have derezzed him, but he's The BEST and Dyson still hopes he'll change his mind.

He tortures Tron, because he cares. They could rectify him, but he wouldn't be Tron anymore. He still wants him to change his mind, but he HATES that Tron still defended the ISOs. If he changes his mind, it might be okay.

He slices into his face, so they match. If they match, maybe Tron will get it, will see how much he suffered.

He creates a virus, so he can make Tron perfect again. Because if Tron changes his mind, joins Dyson, he'll be perfect. And HE wants to be the one to fix Tron. Not CLU or some medic, DYSON.

And then Tron dies not really but Dyson doesn't know that. And he's relieved. Tron is dead. And it's easy to love a memory.

Then the renegade shows up, and in the smallest, deadest part of your heart, he hopes it's Tron. But it isn't. He's weaker and stupid and overall worse. He Tarnishes the name of Tron and he can't abide by that. The Renegade must be derezzed.

But you're smart and cunning. You shouldn't care so much anyway. Luckily, you have an excuse. The renegade is a threat to CLU, even if a small, albeit annoying one. And you will win, just like Tron trained you to.

#typed this on mobile so apologies for typos #tron rant #Dyson #this might be obvious but I still want to talk about it #idk if this is coherent #it's also longer than I thought it would be??? #I find it telling that Dyson didn't look at Tron while talking about rectifying his team #It's like saying #'LOOK! LOOK! All your friends and me are here #Just join us #Stay with us #Stay with me #Please' #I also don't like Dyson that much so idk why I wrote so much abt him

[altruistic-meme]

............ i want to come out.

#its so hard but also im so tired of this ya know??? #my parents will be back in may #and..... idk. theyll only be here for a month before theyre on the road again for another god knows how long #it was like 10 months this time that theyll have been gone #and i just....... i want to tell them #maybe this is a result of me reading heattstopper lmao #i got to the part about charlie telling his parents about his ed again and just started tearing up #but also I've BEEN wanting to come out i just think i might actually be to the point where i just. do it. #I'm still half tempted to just send the email i wrote lol #i may print it and hand it to my mom just cus i can never actually say things out loud #but also i need to talk to my sister first cus i think I'll need that back up #sigh #idk. i want to so bad. i want to try. #im so. ugh. #its like a block in my chest and i hate it #my sisters partner sent me a photo earlier of some item in bg3 bc it has my legal name #and i kniw she was sending it as a funny joke thing but just... yeah. #anyway #im just ranting as per usual lol #fuck #shh ac

[kulemii]

one thing i can't stand about spending more time on here is that i worry more about being likeable. i worry that people will think im too harsh or bitchy whenever i decide to open my fat mouth about something. and after some time, it's like it's all i can think about.

i know i have bad takes some times- we all do to somebody. that's just part of there being 7+ billion mfs on the planet. i don't necessarily intend harm but i know i'll hurt someone eventually. but should i always keep my opinions to myself or police myself to avoid offending people like i used to when i first started this blog? (hell even then, that didn't keep people from not liking me lmao)

i know that no matter what i do, not everyone will like me. i know that. but when i spend more time here, im more concious of the people that can see what i say and how they might interpret it and i get anxious. i've had more fun since i started doing whatever i want here but i feel too, like i've been a bit of a menace to tumblr society 😭

idk. that's a big part of why i don't tag my rants when it's about specific things. i dont need a wide range of people seeing it. i just wanna get it all off my chest sometimes and then boom, move on. this place really is like a diary to me. but i worry that im not considerate enough of the people that can see it.. hmm :/ i guess that's why too i've heavily been considering moving blogs and if people still wanna follow me after that they can but ya know. i say all the time that i want people to unfollow me if i've become offputting, but i feel like people might feel awkward about it bc they hardly ever do.

im aware too that my current mental state has alot to do with why i'm even freaking out about this rn. bipolar 1 and ocd is such a bullshit combo bro i swear- i oughta give my brain a two piece for that

#maybe if i'm being mean or bitchy i'll start putting those rants under a read more or something and give a warning about what it is? #so it's like read at your own risk or something? #or maybe i should get in the habit of deleting things immediately after i get it off my chest? #or idk moving might just be the solution #i just ahhhhhhhhhh #all my stuff is here #all that aizawa stuff- it'll be gone foreverrrr :( #that's literally the only thing stopping me #i know no one cares about that but like that's my trash and i will treasure it forever 🥺 hahaha

[no1ryomafan]

Not to make another very specific petty rant that is only based off of random interactions I had months ago and my mind suddenly reminded me of but I remembered one time someone said mecha is a more male centric genre in context of me criticizing how some shows portray females and I fear for how many people agree on that when it’s STUPID. Yes, it’s very much action heavy, it might as well be a shonen demographic, but also ignoring how females can enjoy action bc that element is not gender specific: Most mecha’s DON’T HAVE GENDERS so they can be piloted by anyone regardless of gender. There is nothing wrong with people wanting good female rep in mecha’s especially if they identify as a woman because this genre shouldn’t be bound to one gender. Literally let more woman pilot the robot or at LEAST be very strong supporting characters.

#meg text #mecha #coming from a non binary bean who is very masc leaning and loves men #cause I can at least acknowledge when female rep is bad and should be accounted for #we also just- had a handful of female leading mecha?? #rayearth is a weird cause given it’s also magical girls so someone might not see it as mecha but GUNBUSTER??? #it was made in the 80s TOO #or just when the cast is primarily males but there’s still at least one female pilot #this con did not form out of gwitch stuff but feel free to apply it here anyways #also idk the exact scope of female mecha representation but I’m expecting it to be fairly mixed #as in “most always they are a supporting character and when they do pilot there’s some consequence” #idk if I’ll ever watch enough mecha to find out though #but I’m still ranting regardless bc this is vaguer compared to other shit on my mind rn