#i love sad shit tm tho

[essbi24]

time for angst luv you

cutie develops a deep self hatred for themselves after the break up. yes they go to therapy, and work on many other things to help themselves grow, but all of that is centered in their lack of respect of privacy.

part of them learning to grow means not reading people’s minds any longer, literally..no one. before, when they were in public they would always listen to someone’s thoughts; they would always have something in their head besides themselves. and then once they got in a relationship with geordi, they could rely on him for that.

but, now..they’re alone with their thoughts all the time. they’re trying hard to not give in, so they can get better for themselves and for geordi. but along with that, they’re actually realizing the seriousness of what they did to him, and there’s no one to escape to now.

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once geordi and cutie get back together, they can barely live with their self. they feel so guilty about everything, they can’t even stand it. their thoughts actually turn quite negative..

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they talk less now too, without even realizing. because they’re so up in their own head all of the time now, they don’t even realize they aren’t actually saying anything, that’s how loud their thoughts are.

#redacted asmr #sorry cutie i love u #i love sad shit tm tho #redacted audio #redacted cutie #redacted geordi #this wouldn’t happen geordi wouldn’t allow it #lmfao #enjoy your day

[canidundrum]

I love working in the mall sometimes cuz I’ll see kids who are probably like 10-12 and they’ll have on a tail or ears or fur gloves and I’m like damn I WISH I had your vibes fr

#my inner child loves it bc I used to have a tail when I was like 8 from the Ren fair #but it got damaged and lost and I was sad #plus I felt bad being a Weird Kid tm so I stifled anything I could #and now I’m 22 and I’m like GIVE ME THE TAILS GIVE ME THE GLOVES AND EARS HUFF #I always tell them I think it’s really cool and ask where they got em if I can #just so they know like at least ONE random stranger isn’t gonna judge em for it #and that their folks like see my face and shit so I’m not … a scary rando stranger #I get paranoid abt that sometimes #to me tho it’s the equivalent of like if a little kid tells me they like my green hair and then I’m like ‘thx I like ur shirt !’ #hound barks 🐾

[absolutebl]

BL recs (from any country) that don't have any s*x scenes? I'm too ace to enjoy them at all. Happy ending preferred, angst v welcome:)

BLs Without Sex Scenes

Oof, this is a hard one. Is a dead fish kiss okay? I do have a heat sorting on the spreadsheet of doom, and there are some with no kissing at all, but a dead fish kiss is in most of the HEA ones.

BLs with No Kisses

21 Days Theory (Thailand, YouTube) - the only thing I didn't like about this pulp was the fact that they don't kiss, so... yeah, this is my first pick for you. Very YA first love angsty, fantastic queer rep and side characters. RECOMMENDED

My Esports Genius Brother (China, Gaga?) - it's hella odd censored bromance but enjoyable. No real angst tho.

HIStory My Hero (Taiwan, Viki) - basically a BL with no sex or kissing, but also body-swap so is it BL? I can't remember the end but I think it's happy?

Silhouette of Your Voice AKA Hidamari ga Kikoeru (Japan, ????) - this 2017 yaoi adaptation is a full on BL just no kissing at all. The source manga (I Hear the Sunspot) is a favorite of mine and the casting was decent. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED for you (but not in general). Grey only.

Love of Siam (Thailand, ????) ALL THE ANGST, I'm pretty sure the most they do is hug, I could be v wrong though because too sad for me to ever rewatch. Very formative to the Thai BL industry.

The Lover (BL cut) (Korea ????) sometimes you can find the BL cut on YT, it has slapstick comedic sexualized moments that are maybe a little homophobic (or something), no actual sex or kissing, but no angst at all. (Korea's working some shizz out with this early offering.)

Kabe Koji AKA Kabesaa Doujin Sakka no Neko Yashiki-kun wa Shounin Yokkyuu wo Kojirasete iru (Japan, Viki) - I watched this and I was excited about it before it aired, but I seem to have expunged it from my memory and kept no screen caps in annoyance, so that's all I got.

Love in Spring AKA Spring of Crush (Korea, ????) - a crossdressing historical that flew utterly under the radar. I decided it just wasn't really BL, but it has BL aspects and it's kinda a little queer... or something. Grey only.

Evening Cafe (Thai pulp, YouTube) - No heat and no kisses, but a decent lead pair, about a boy who works in a cafe and the new employee who has a crush on him. That’s it, that's the whole story.

A Shoulder to Cry On (Korea, Viki) - Has no kissing and many people found it really good as @isisanna-blog reminded me, thank you). It certainly has ALL THE ANGST. (I did not like it at all, but I'm a terrible judge of this kind of BL.)

What Did You Eat Yesterday? (Japan ???) - this is such a lovely show, very warm and comforting and slice of life. There is very little angst, they too old for that shit, but little to no sexual content either. It's very warm and loving. A safe extremely yet queer show - and oh boy do we not get many of those. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED

Censored Bromances

So No Kisses (TM) for the gays but the hets might do stuff I didn't pay attention to. All these from China. Some happy, most not.

The Untamed

Word of Honor

Guardian

SCI Mysteries

Stay With Me AKA Addicted 2.0 (I never watched this so there may be rough play)

Mr CEO Falling in Love With Me

The Fairy Fox

Youth in the Breeze

Precise Shot

Advance Bravely

His Cat AKA His Cat Boyfriend

The Male Queen: Han Zi Gao

The "Ghost Boyfriend" series

Past Youth

I Go To School Not By Bus (Hong Kong short)

Recommended Shorts with no kisses, but cute & fun

The 8.2 Second Rule (Japan YouTube)

One Last Order (Korea, Gaga)

Love Advisor (Thailand, YouTube)

BLs with Dead Fish Kisses (maybe? only one, if any)

His the series: I Didn't Think I Would Fall In Love (Japan ????) - (NOT His the movie) this one has all the angst you could want in your whole life. ALL OF IT. Japan wins at emo, it's their THING.

Cherry Magic AKA 30 Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard AKA 30-sai made Dotei Da to Mahotsukai ni Nareru rashii AKA Cheri Maho (Japan ????) - there's sort of some bed tussling and implied sex but you could imagine them just being snuggles for the mains, the sides have dead fish kiss. In general there's some angst but not much. It's fluffy and great. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED

Bonus: overt ace representation for one of the side characters.

Meow Ears Up (Thailand Viki) - sides may kiss? I enjoyed this pulp especially at the start, the premise is fun. I think my biggest complaint was lack of kissing.

My Love Mix Up AKA Kieta Hatsukoi (Japan Viki), a case could be made for a demi seme in this BL. So much frenetic angst around bisexual identity crisis. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED

My Ride (Thailand Gaga) - my favorite Thai BL pulp the sides have a good kiss and the mains do kiss but it's v dead fish, not at all sexual, and it comes at the very end. Otherwise extremely chaste, I HIGHLY RECOMMEND this BL, queer and complex and engaging.

I Want to See Only You AKA Kimi no Koto Dake Mite Itai (Japan ????) - This is a beautiful piece of cinema well acted, about two boys who are opposite personalities and grew up together. The only kiss is the one pictured above, v dead fish. Full review here.

Nobleman Ryu's Wedding (Korea WeTV) - 12th Night goes BL in this cross dressing historical that ended up feeling like a Cinderfella fairy tale, lightly dramatic and utterly charming. Full review. There is one dead fishy kiss at the end but it's otherwise aggressively pure.

If you like this last style of KBL (with a kiss at the end being okay, I have quite a few more to recommend). Until 2022, most KBLs only had one dead fish kiss in them, so you are pretty safe with pre 2022 KBLs. They tend to be quite chaste and de-sexualized. Other good examples: Wish You, Light on Me.

That's all folx.

Some of the above I may be misremembering (since I don't rewatch this kind of BL and my memory is shit). And I may have forgotten some too, so I hope comments with jump in.

Others to consider:

(source)

#BLs for ace watchers #Ace BL kinda #bl recommendation #21 Days Theory #Thai BL #underappreciated BL #By me especially #My Esports Genius Brother #CHinese BL #censored bromance #HIStory My Hero #Taiwanese BL #Hidamari ga Kikoeru #Japanese BL #Silhouette of Your Voice AKA #Love of Siam #Fujimi Orchestra #Korean BL #Spring of Crush #Cherry Magic #meow ears up #Kieta Hatsukoi #My Ride the series #Kimi no Koto Dake Mite Itai #Nobleman Ryu's Wedding

[typekiku]

TSUKIHIME FASHION REVIEW 3!!!

under the dark crimson moon, i write this newest entry of the much awaited much beloved tsukihime fashion review.

it's a duty i must carry out for the sake of the generations of lost sheep both before and after my time that have yet to truly appreciate the true depth of style that is contained within the single greatest visual novel known to mankind (according to me)

yet, i feel as if i am not doing my duty to its fullest... how can i possibly adequately sum the glory of todays fashionista? how can i dare attempt to sum that up?? no! i cannot waver in my faith in my incredibly lacking writing skills nor fear people figuring out this barely has anything to do with fashion... I WILL PERSEVERE!!

on with the show as the youth say!

(SPOILER ALERT: i should mention ill probably end up spoiling a shit ton of oghime and whatnot here so watch out)

so without further ado todays subject is:

drum roll

MORE DRUM ROLL

thanks uhh whatever you are from

MICHAEL ROA VALDAMJONG

yes the one and only roa

BROA

the legend himself, the Serpent of Akasha, Uroboros, the founder of the burial agency, the infinite reincarnatior, and professional Arcueid simp.

we have gathered here today to judge his design and uh fashion ig and whatever else i feel like ranting today about.

lets get right to it.

look at this dude all shirtless and shit like cmon so shameless... cover em up damn. seriously tho this man has a thing for showing off his (or should i say others) bodies like you will see soon.

i guess this comes down to him enjoying the freedom of being fully in control of whatever body he is currently occupying actually?

maybe this is some super deep look into the merits of semi nudism or whatever idk im not smart.

probably takeuchi just wanted an excuse to draw some seriously ripped abs actually i mean this might seriously be the most abby abs we ever see in any TM work. its fucking shredded and roa probably knew that. weirdo

on the flipside that majestic hair is simply incredible. DAMN thats some 10/10 hair. only other hair in this series that compares is my wife arcueid's long hair before her mean little (Older actually but idc) Altrouge got all mean and shit.

umm who is this? what happened to my incredible haired roa?? TAKEUCHI WHERE ARE YOU??? someone please give me back long haired roa... this isnt funny...

do you see what we lost? long gorgeous haired roa should've stayed and im genuinely upset we lost him to this admittingly much better dressed roa. im ashamed of you serpent of fraudkasha

fr tho where tf did he even get this rockstar ass drip anyways? we know SHIKI has been locked up in the outside house for awhile before released thanks to a certain maid... did he just drop by the local hot topic or whatever? did he manifest it through sheer willpower and arcueid simpery?

understandable tbh i too acheive things through arcueid simpery such as dirty stares and social exclusion!!

for reference, here is SHIKI

yea

i guess he just uhh changes him which in hindsight is really fucking sad to think about so lets not

uhh ANYWAYS

ok so ignoring ciel on the right elesia or should i say roa decides the very first thing hes gonna do in poor elesias body is to strip it naked

huh?

yea roa is definitely a weird one. no wonder the other ancestors hate him (besides nero because he is #HIM)

sick cape tho

why is he so hot here actually? what the hell? i underestimated his looks like damn

no really why is he so hot anyways he should look like an absolute freak like he actually is. i see you roa. i see you got that long braid wrapped around your neck like damn son... you may have fallen in love with a literal killing machine and never even got to speak to her till the very very end but i see you.

rizzless bastard.

well thats enough from me so ill drop this classic mahoyo line because i found it very funny without context.

ciao!

#type moon #tsukihime #roa #broa #serpentofakasha #arcueid brunestud #ciel #shiki

[icedmetaltea]

Ngl I feel kinda somber now that it's Officially November...

(just sad thoughts)

All I have to look forward to is Thanksgiving and Christmas, both of which are family-themed holidays if that makes sense and it just makes me remember I'm now not in contact with my sibling. I may not even be staying with my parents by christmas, I may be back in my old apartment all alone or at a new one, still alone.

It wouldn't have mattered even if my sibling was still staying there, they were going to go on a vacation to Europe through christmas this year so I would've been alone anyways.

And like... due to climate change n all, September and October here were basically still summer. It's only now starting to feel consistently cold. I only have November, December, January and maybe February to look forward to before it starts warming up again and with it my anxiety, which I've only just now gotten under control.

It feels like I'm having shorter and shorter timeframes during the year (cool or cold months) where I'm not having horrific anxiety and ya know feel ok with the whole being alive thing. If I have to wait for just a small fraction of the year to not feel like dying, then like what's the point in living?? It becomes a quality of life problem at that point.

If you spend so much of your time just surviving, it's not really living, now is it?

It's just impending doom hanging over me, nothing new there. Now that my sibling is close to moving I have to worry about where I'll live by the end of the month, about financial aid and getting back into school (online if possible), getting a part time job for the first time, living alone for the first time, if I can get back on ebt... so many fucking things. Which ofc doesn't help with the suicidal thoughts. And ofc my mom had to bring up how all the war with palestine is seeming like The End Times according to the bible and my existential anxiety did not like that.

If god's real (the one my parents believe in anyway) I am of course going to hell. If god's real they're evil, or at least apathetic to the world's suffering, so I have to contend with both a god that hates me and a devil that loves making people suffer. I keep telling myself it's not real but ya know religious trauma and all that shit... Like I want to just turn off my emotions and remind myself if it is real Ok I guess I'll Die and Burn in Hell tm but at the same time it's like why not just make it quicker while I'm having and have so many guns around me.

Don't worry tho this year was the worst my depression or anxiety's ever been and I didn't attempt suicide even during the worst of panic attacks (tho it was tempting, and I couldn't exactly move enough to reach for anything dangerous) so at this point future me prolly won't. And hopefully I can continue speaking to the therapist I'm seeing even when I move.

I just fucking wish my parents would stop reminding me that half this country doesn't believe in climate change and thinks Israel is the victim in the war going on and all this other shit like can you BE ON MY SIDE FOR ONCE PLS. But no I'm just a stupid young person I guess, what do I know, what's my word compared to THE BIBLE or facebook or where ever she gets her info...

And ofc my therapist brought up a good point, aside from my parents and sister I genuinely have nobody irl I can turn to when things go sideways. I don't know if I ever will. When I say I have a resting murder face and an aura that makes people stay away from me I'm not joking and she rlly thinks it's all just a negative view of myself, but it's true. People are scared of me I think, always have been, it's just the vibe I give off.

So I will continue my life without friends and without people who will believe me when I talk about stuff like climate change and that is that. That's not to say I don't cherish online friendships, but I mean just like people I can depend on to really be there, to take me in if I genuinely can't take care of myself, bc it got like that for months and I couldn't so much as wash my own dishes or myself and I don't want to be alone when it happens again, and I know it fucking will.

But yea, I figured i should write this all down while it's fresh on my mind so I can reference it before my next appointment in two weeks...

#irl stuff #vent #Metaltea talks #tw suicide #tw depression #tw anxiety #tw religion

[weirdcat1213]

another day another week ANOTHER FUCKING VOLUME-

okok lets relax

vol 11 thoughts

chap 1:

you know i barely remember this so it should be fun :D

-CHAPEL IDC IF THIS A FLASHBACK BUT THE TF OUT OF MY HOUSE

-"all he did was to shoot you in the spine" lmao elendira calling legato a baby is my favorite thing

-you know what girlie youre so right- oh a joke? damn it

-ily zazie, youre so cool

-VASH SLEEPING IN THE CAR :D

-oh hey brad is here

-ah NO NOT THE AFTERMATH MOMENTS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

-brad, brad, honey....he knows

-why is my poor baby apologizing :c

-i mean brad's fears are valid and all but HE DOESNT KNOW AND WE KNOW AND VASH KNOWS AND ITS ALL JUST REALLY SAD

-GIVE MY MAN A BREAK LMAO XD

-also i can relate to livio here cuz rn my environment is too trusting and im so paranoid about security like yeah vash, i would never sleep in the back of a car of someone whom i just met you dumbass-

-shut up literally shut up

-fair

-Ion Blaster TM time :3

-final phase you say-

-oh....oh no. vash, this is gonna be one of those moments where you sigh and curse knives for being kinda right

-oh he angy xd

-OHH RIGHT YEAH

-yeap...they are fucked atm

-OMG ITS THEM THEYRE COMING YIPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D

chap 2

-THEYRE ALMOST HEREEEEE

-catch me being that guy when the end comes (just a dude in a coat with a hat playing music, thats gonna be me)

-oh god no, the worst and most boring thing you could do is to label knives as a terrorist. the guy is so much more and that word just doesnt fit him

-yes thank you! no time for nonsense

-THERE SHE IS HEY GIRLLLLL ITS BEEN SO LONG, TOO LONG, YOU LOOK SO PRETTY :3

-MILLY MY BELOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED

-when was the last time we saw them? 2 volumes ago?

-"i would never would have imagined this. that the world could change so fast" and that goes on the list of "timeless trigun things" or TTT for short

-:c

-wait so...transphobe guy? get yeeted

-oh...oh i didnt remember...oh i will cry

-ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the reunioooooooooon

-look at their fucking faces, they missed each other so much

-tbh if i met the most jesus-allegory guy ever, then lost trail of where or how he was for 2 volumes of a manga ,to find him later in the middle of a silly fight i would also cry

-that scene with the pieces of earth announcement makes me kinda sad, no one will come for us

-geesus christ

-ohhh kinda pretty tho, looks like a phoenix

chap 3:

-"its all happening so fast" yeah sorry dude, its a trigun tradition

-HE LOOKS SO HAPPY, HIS DUTY (according to him) OF PROTECTING THE PEOPLE IS ALMOST DONE

-"do you want me to come along?" he would be the best person to go to public places when you are too anxious to talk to strangers

- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DONT ASK PLS NO

-livio honey what was the idea here "oh you guys seem like you liked him. i actually killed him. well not me but also me. im sorry"

-milly my girl is cursed to be the 1st and og wolfwood stan in any version. we feel your pain girl

-LMAO THE NOTE ABOUT ZAZIE XD

-AWWWWWWWWWWWWW :3 A BAG OF LITTLE THINGSSS

-NOT VASH CARRYING FIGURINES AROUND, HES LIKE ME FR FR WITH MY KEYCHAINS

-also ofc he has rare figurines, the man has had enough time to look for it lmao

-ok but imagine if vash actually had lost the coins xd

-the pressure and guilt livio must feel rn. his brother died trying to protect him and he has the official Vash Thinks Youre Cool stamp. he has to change cuz if he doesnt he would throw all of that away and really stop being human

-you did good brad

-"must be lonely" im eating my own arm

-oh im really crying over this, ok, fun

-i also dont know what to do vash the stampede but im begging you to ASK FOR HELP YOU MFFFFFFFFFF

-AH SHIT ZAZIE NO

-AH FUCK ITS HIM

chap 4:

-july 20th? ah great, july 20th-21st is cursed here too

-rad as hell as always

-huh, i expected knives to just yeet them on sight

-i would say him and humans are pretty much alike but ok, sure,hm

-i love her being suspicious of legato 1st xd

-i wonder how can this go wrong, seems like a solid plan

-oh right...him

-YEAH GO GET HIM >:3

-oh...oh thats so cool. like his body doesnt work...but he controls it...but not in the same way a human would...wow

-OH BEAUTIFUL EYE HOLY SHIT THATS BEAUTIFUL

-GATE CONSUMING STUFF YOU SAY.....HMMMMM I WONDER WHERE I SAW THE SAME TRIGUN CONCEPT-

(side note: "you still dont know how to control your gate" SO THATS HOW IT LOOKS WHEN YOU CONTROL IT? IT ONLY CONSUMES/CREATE WHAT YOU WANT?? ORANGEEE)

-MAGIC BULLETSSSSSS

-LMAO THE HOLE XD

-vash you cant say shit about silly haircuts im sorry

-also "new hair new outlook"...........i will curl myself into the moon

-they forgor

-who are you

-also ngl i never got the idea of what the coins did so lets find out

chap 5:

-SHES FUCKING HERE REJOICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

-wait wdym neural blocking programs

-LMAO XD

-LIVIO IS SO SCARED AND WITH REASON

-just the two of us :3

-i love his game face and then its just "ugh i cant do this" xd

-"fight vash the stampede fight" me cheering vash on in stampede

-vash i love you but you cant call my wife a bitch, thats not polite

-oh livio, oh i didnt get to appreciate you too much on my 1st read but come here man, come here. youre doing great

-they have officially trauma bonded :3 (ik thats a terrible oversimplification but leave me alone)

-"is it possible for something created by humans to completely break away from their creators?" yes next question

-OH NO IS THIS THE VOLUME WITH *THAT SCENE*?

-"you really have become a crybaby" and im glad cuz she was always so serious with her job and all, now she can express her feelings more

-STOPPPP THIS ALWAYS GETS ME CUZ AHHHHHH STOP

-AH NAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :C

-...........and thats story is technically stampede but anyway jajajajaja :D

-the prettiest eyes

-FUNNY ENOUGH HE DOES LOOK LIKE A BUG

-OH ITS TIME ITS FUCKING TIME HOLY SHIT

chap 6:

-the title :c

-liviooooooo :c

-HEY! my boi can still kick your ass >:[

-DONT YOU EVEN *DARE*

-just leave him out of this pls

-i love that he still considers himself human <3 i want to think wolfwood taught him that indirectly

-FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

-I MEAN YES YOURE RIGHT BUT CAN YOU NOT???

-huh, the silhouette kinda looks like wolfwo- *gunshot*

-i love knowing exacty what livio is thinking rn

-aww :3

-liviooooooooooo :c

-his cowboy era is about to start im so proud of him :')

#im having fun #ive cried sm but im actually having fun #no i dont have a problem #trimax #trigun maximum #trigunbookclub #livioooooooooooooooooooooo

[karlie-what-you-want]

I'm going to try to word this correctly, because I'd like your take and I don't want my point to be misconstrued. The tldr is: I'm kinda bummed 1989 TV is such a commercial success. Here's the long of it. 1989 was my favorite album for a long long time and I was of course, excited to check out the vault. But I feel like these numbers are based on hype, not on product. Which is... fine, commercially speaking. Go girl, make those dollars. But... the result is a receipe. What perfomed the best for a long time is a record that was heavily branded by a stunt with a boy(band). What has now performed the best was a re record dropped in the middle of a tour that was completely overshadowed by the boybranding again. I feel like the rush was a mix of weird Haylor gossip thirst, football dude easter egg hunt, return of girlsquad branding... I admit, it stings that 1989 TV didn't even get a promo interview, a music video, or anything. (No, but we didn't forget the merch drops, tho!!) And it makes me sad, because... folklore, man. That had ZERO hype. Bam. There. And we ate that shit up. We loved THE MUSIC. I want the wild ride to be the music. And 2023 feels like Taylor has fully retreated inside the Taylor Swift TM persona and we're buying the TS Brand, not Taylor's music. What I was hoping for was: more 1989 vibes on vault songs, more "directed by Taylor Swift" creative expressions. What I got was: Ken and Barbie on tour. I'm sorry this is kinda rambly. I know anon asks don't take into account line breaks so this will be even more confusing. But. Yeah. I'm just a bit bummed out and I was wondering if anyone else was a bit disapointed, too? I mean. I genuinely don't know. Do people enjoy the soap opera and I'm the only one who's only turning up to check out the shoes Taylor wore in candids and for her artistic expression? Maybe I'm the weirdo. The market certainly seems to say I'm not in the majority.

Hi Anon 💕

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, and I can absolutely relate! It can be really difficult to separate the stunts from the music on a mental and emotional level. It’s something I still struggle with occasionally, and when the music is something so personal to you, of course you can feel protective or even disappointed when the PR goes off the rails. That is completely valid!

It saddens me that any fan would feel the shine of Taylor’s actual work has been dulled by the PR schemes.

I, too, am surprised that we haven’t seen any music video for 1989 TV yet, but I’m also not completely convinced that the book has been closed on that front. Let’s wait together in hopeful anticipation 🤞

I don’t blame you at all for how you are feeling, but I think in times like these, the most helpful thing for me is to draw that mental boundary—whether it’s a boundary between the music and the PR, or myself and the PR. Sometimes, I just don’t check the news, or I scroll away quickly if I happen to see something. These stunts are a lot, so when I feel myself becoming overwhelmed, I really try to shut down my mournful thoughts with a “NOPE! That’s not good for me right now” and then scroll away, or shut my phone off, or turn on Taylor’s actual music instead.

I am in love with 1989 TV. I’ve had it on repeat since it dropped, and hearing the vault tracks especially makes me so happy. I feel like there’s a real story there—things we didn’t get to see when the album originally came out. I have to imagine that even now, there’s so much happening behind the scenes that we can’t know. I’m just grateful for the chance to peek a little farther behind the curtain for a period of time that was very special for the T Swift community.

Lastly, regardless of the PR stunts, this drop has been huge for Taylor. Perhaps we’ll never know for sure whether that’s because people have come flocking for her music itself or they’ve grown curious due to the over the top PR, but I have a feeling that Taylor doesn’t care much either way. I think she’s at peace with the way she gets her attention, because at the end of the day, people ARE listening to her music. If they saw her at a football game cheering on some meathead and got curious enough to check out 1989 TV, what they will discover is a woman with great intelligence, a depth of emotion, and an insane amount of talent. That is just to say, it will always be her music and talent that shines in the end.

I’m reminded of YOYOK, where Taylor sings I looked around in a blood-soaked gown and I saw something they can’t take away.

No amount of stunts or bad PR (or good PR!) will change her undeniable talent. Even better that 1989 is truly Taylor’s now. I just find it comforting that regardless of how people find Taylor or why they first buy her music, they will get to enjoy it for the beautiful work of art that it always is.

Sending love, anon! You are not alone in your feelings, I promise 💚💛💜❤️🩵🖤🩷🩶🤎💙

[katyspersonal]

top 5 patches (hyena, trusty, unbreakable/lapp, spider, untethered)

What the fuck!!!!! What the fuck dfshfhsd This is a hard one!

Alright, fiiiiiine.....

Five - Trusty Patches. Nothing is wrong with him, he is lovely (and punchable xd), he just strikes less of A Cord (TM) for me in comparison! However, it is an interesting bit that if we play as a cleric, he doesn't try to be friends with us even after we crawl back up, I will be fair.

Four - Patches the Hyena, because I will never be able to play DeS in my life, and also his face in PS5 remake is CURSED dsfhds However, I really love his absolute fucking EMO look in PS3 original, he is 4 and not 5 because of that cute sad face!

Three - Patches the Spider! Yes, he has an IDEAL male body in this one, and I love shift of the tone from the guy that just survives and does shit to a nerd, who also adores a big eldrich abomination and brings THEM sacrifices xD He is such a simp in this one. If this top concerned ONLY designs though, he'd be certainly place #1 tho

Two - Patches the Untethered. Really cool character arc, not one but FOUR times he pranks us, also he is really fucking funny here xD I DIED when he walked onto Radahn's festival and then instantly quit, or when not only he made us do his work for him but also rewarded us with a cool shit he stole in the Volcano Manor.. lmao wtfffffff

One - Patches the Unbreakable / Lapp. BEST character arc, and as much as I liked ER Patches having such a soft spot for Tanith, but I think in DS3 the way we got to see his secret, vulnerable side felt more deep and emotionally appealing. Like... the fact that should Patches lose all his memories, he reveals to be such a sweet person is such a striking characterisation...? And I liked how he had a friend!

^ I could tell though, that ER must have learned how to make him more loveable from DS3. Like, yes, the girls like people who are annoying just to be sexy, but adding that 'sweet' side behind the facade will always hit harder x)

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It was a very hard top to do though, please never do that again ;-; I don't want to pit the Patches against each other, it made me feel like I had to put down some of them, and I did not want to do that...... ....because I want to put down ALL of them.

#soulsborne #patches soulsborne #patches the spider #patches the untethered #(not tagging all of them since i am a two games blog for now) #ask replies #here i did a funi final gag i hope ya'll floored #(@Val if you troll me about the fact that I felt even jealous when he simped for Tanith the way he did I will DESTROY you)

[zjpg]

idk if this is trauma-dumping. it might be so this is your warning ig lol. (mentions of weight (a lot), death, being left out, mean friends? idk it’s a lot i’m just ranting.)

EDIT. THIS IS ACTUALLY A LOT OF TRAUMA DUMPING AND TURNED OUT TO BE LONGER THAN EXPECTED I NEEDED TO LET SOME SHIT OUT.

idk why but i kinda realized that my personality is solely based off of my friends. like. idk. and i don’t necessarily enjoy my personality. i feel like i’m mean, annoying etc. and i think i realized this when i stayed away from my friends for a while. i went and loved with my grandparents for a while and i have like a completely different personality.

i just try to match my friend’s personality, or maybe it whoever i’m talking to or hanging out with. cause i’m hanging out with different friends today and tm and i feel different.

i love my friends. but sometimes i just want to be treated and perceived differently. idk i think it’s why i’ve been trying to shift and why i write fanfic. i kinda always dreamed of this main character persona ig. because idk if anyone knows this but i am overweight. i think on the bmi scale i’m borderline obese (which tbf the bmi scale is a piece of shit tbh - coming from someone who to a medical class for the last two years)

but yeah i’ve never been the skinny pretty friend. if you’ve ever heard the song “fat funny friend” that was basically me throughout my school years tbh. and in elem and middle school i had some friends that definitely gave me trauma because of how they treated me.

now my current friends are just kinda mean, maybe it’s more of one specific friend who i’ve had trouble with in the past. idk around her i can never just feel good about myself. and it’s clear that since i’ve last seen her, her values have changed. and idk it’s kinda hard to come to terms with that because we’ve been best friends for so long. i spent the entire pandemic with her (we literally lived together tbh. like if she wasn’t at my house i was at her and we couldn’t survive 24 hours without each other)

again it’s just sad to feel like i’m less than. esp having like, she struggles with her body image too. which i feel like most people do and that’s okay, and she is skinnier and i feel like if most people would see her they would compliment her for her body. nonetheless it’s very normal and acceptable for her to dislike her body. sadly it’s normal at least (because of unrealistic beauty standards) however. whenever she’s around me and our other friend (who’s smaller than me but still considered plus-mid-size? which we have talked about together many times because can understand each others struggles) anyway the first friend will always make comments like “i feel/look morbidly obese” “i look fat” etc. and again it’s valid to feel that way but at the same time when i (again borderline obese) look at myself and then her and she says that. i literally wanna crawl in a whole and never show myself to the human eye again

idk if that makes me sound like a bitch or selfish. but she knows i’m bigger, we’ve talked about it before. and when our other who (who has been working out and trying to better herself and her health) sent results of her past few months of working out, proud of herself. friend 1 came in sending a body pic of herself in workout clothes says she looks fat and i got so she has to go work out (or something like that) and that’s upsetting to us but especially friend 2 because she is just trying to be happy about her body but then friend 1 comes in and says that her body isn’t enough and she has to work out even tho her body compared to mine and friend 2 is amazing

and i don’t wanna sound like she can’t have insecurities or she can’t talk to us about her insecurities. she can. we always do (friend 2 and i) but i hate the way she (friend 1) talks about weight. and like. another thing. whenever someone annoys her or makes her mad she calls them fat. usually along the lines of “fat bitch” “fat ugly bitch” and she makes fun of their bodies. even if they have the most perfect body. and ofc with years of friendship, we’ve had times where we didn’t get along and when we were pissed at each other. so it makes me wonder what she has said about my body behind my back.

there was a time kinda recently where i got drunk and friend 2’s party and because of some event with friend 1 that happened in the earlier evening. i said some shit. i was black out drunk tbh, i don’t remember anything. but i remember some stuff. and i feel horrible for saying it. but when friend 1 and i talked about she was like. kinda being mean. which i completely understand. but she wasn’t letting me get my point across. she wasn’t hearing what i had to say. and she wasn’t validating any of my feelings that i clearly have been having for a long time (i never act like that when i’m drunk) and maybe i sound really bad here because i obviously did make a huge mistake that like still keeps me up at night even now (it’s literally 2 am). and i say there and i listened to what she said and i validated every fucking feeling she had just like i always do. but she didn’t care to listen to how i felt that night.

there’s so many instances that has happened to this one friend where she just talks and makes up excuses and demands that you validate how she feels without doing the same back. (because she’s not an angel either) there was a time where we were a group of 4 before we had a falling out with friend 3. and friend 1sts a whole group chat named “besties without lucie(me)” when all 4 of us had a gc called “besties”. and i didn’t know for months until friend 2 called me and told me everything. how they made plans without me had the gc without me. and anytime friend 2 would bring up my name friend 1 would make excuses as to why i “couldn’t come along”. i couldn’t be in their secret gc because i was “too sensitive” and her reasoning for not coming to outings was usually because i “said i was busy” (i was never asked if i wanted to hangout. i found out through snap and life 360 that they were out without me). she even used my aunts passing as an excuse as to why i couldn’t go. even tho when her grandma passed she came over to my house unannounced and me and my mom had to take care of her for days because she was so depressed.

i cried myself to sleep during those times. and because it was around christmas my mom let and my brother open gifts early in order to cheer me up and she would go out and hang out without me. and now i have such bad trust issues with not only that friend group but everyone around me. i hate being left out. i’ve always been left out like my whole life.

idk i just. i want nice people around me. i want people who validate me and my feelings and i want to be included for once in my life.

#just ranting #can you tell my therapist hasn’t talked to me in months ??? #i just needs to let my feelings out somewhere #ignore this if you want #tell me if i’m wrong about something #educate me ?? #ranting

[romeoandjulietyouwish]

Hiii ^^ I had a bunch of ideas a while back for what kind of tattoos VM would have in a modern au, and I was curious what kind of HCs you'd have about it as well? (i do remember you talking about keyleth having an antlers tattoo next to the scars of her surgery and i really liked that idea)

For Vex i think she'd have an arrow one, a feather one (maybe matching with vax?) And also something Trinket related, maybe his pawprint? (and like. maybe a Sinaeth one, on her wrist as a reminder, maybe along with the arrow one? oh shit that's a cool design-)

Also i feel like percy & kiki would have an embarrassing matching tattoo of like a butterfly or something (a flower would fit better probably, butterfly is just the cliche TM), which he'd have on the lower back, and it'd be something they got together when they were extremely drunk, and like it's in a place you don't really notice in the day to day especially cause he wears long clothes. and i just imagine maybe vex noticing it one day as he's crouching to fix something at her place (now that i think of it maybe she'd have a comment about 'deflowering' that seems very vexy of her xD) Kiki's one will be in a less hidden place imo, or it just feels like that cause she wears more summery outfits, and while percy does feel sheepish about his i think he does loves the idea of having a matching tattoo with her. after a while. i think in the first time he woke up and noticed it after they got it he would absolutely not remember getting it and definitely get a bit freaked out xD

And i think pike and grog would also have a matching tattoo of 'monstah' or something, not certain about the design tho but something like that

And scanlan would probably get something related to kaylie, and also probably like. a line from one of his songs cause he Is Like That

wow sorry this got way longer then i intended to when i started writing it xD

broooo I love this so much

A sinaeth tattoo would be so cool! I think maybe she has a feather tattoo behind her ear that matches Vax's. And I think she also has a tattoo in her mother's handwriting, not sure exactly what but she strikes me as someone who'd want that.

OMG Percy having a tramp stamp is the funniest fucking thing and I love it so much. 10000/10 no notes (and Vex's comment is so fucking good). I think he might also have something to symbolize his family but not necessarily obviously a memorial tattoo.

I think Keyleth's matching tattoo would be on her shoulder and it's her first tattoo but I think she gets a few more little ones after that, some more floral things, images that remind her of home.

I think Pike might also have a tattoo of Sarenrae's symbol in between her boobs because a) that's where her holy symbol would be and b) Pike deserves to be sexy.

I feel like Scanlan is the type of dad to have a tattoo for each of his kids so when Juniper and Will are born he gets tattoos for them too. And I think he also has an inner lip tattoo from when he was younger that has yet to fade and probably says something super embarrassing and the only people who know are Pike and Vax.

Vax has the most tattoos of all of them. And most all of them have a special meaning or significance, but I think that when he and Keyleth get married (there's no sadness in modern au) he gets his first tattoo in color, a sun on his shoulder with green leaves around it.

#lis makes hcs #critical role #vox machina #modern au

[interdimensionalmenace]

Thoughts while watching The Mandalorian s3e7 “The Spies”

SPOILERS

(Form recap) still have bad vibes about Bo getting the saber back fuck

Ew imperial probe droid

the code is a TK number

FUCKING GIDEON

Oh she IS spy. Figures.

Back to Gideon

Those helmets look like clown t-visors + Mando kit + Imperial Mandalorian commando gear wtf

OH SHIT THE CLONING TANKS

WHAT’S IN THEM

THRAWN NAME DROP

COMMANDANT HUX??? IS THAT FIRST ORDER GENERAL HUX’S FUCKING DAD???

Project Necromancer good lord

Captain Pelleaon. That’s familiar. Why.

Bitch I hope if Thrawn comes back he whoops your imperial asses

They’re speaking of Thrawn’s return like he’s an imperial messiah obdjeknw

BRENDOL HUX. It is his fucking dad what the hell. Ofc he’s involved in Project Necromancer

Bitch what do you mean you’re not obsessed with cloning and Hux is, Gideon

You jackasses better be afraid of the Mandalorians

“We shall be rid of the Mandalorians once and for all” good luck with that bitch

THE THEME. OH MY GOD THE THEME.

Aww Nevaro healing

The parallels between the Chimera and Kryze’s light cruiser having stuff painted/etched on their hulls

Look at all the SHIPS!!! So many Kom’rk class fighters, the light cruiser, the transports AAAAA

Ex-Death Watch meets Children if the Watch damn

Looks like a fucking West Side Story confrontation lineup

And they all IMMEDIATELY take off their helmets lol

The NOD

Paz and Axe know each other I bet??

IG-11!!!! Awww he’s being piloted (sorry IG-12)

Aw poor guy running from Grogu lol

IG-12 = Grogu’s Mando armor haha. This is a bad idea.

HE CAN SPEAK WITH IT HAHA

It’s like learning to ride a bike lol

“Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes—“

MEILOURUN

Yo wtf did they catch to eat I wanna know

They’re all so quiet yikes

Great Forge = hub okay good to know

Din ofc you’re going no one doubted that bitch

Koska!!!

Axe.

PAZ.

BAHA THE ARMORER. I don’t like what she and Bo have planned

Ooo the SW theme playing as they leave orbit

Bitch look at that fleet, look at Mandalore and CONCORDIA

why is Grogu in a copilot seat

Look at them all in the drop seats!!!!

Fucking rain lol

YESSSSSS DROP FROM THE SKY YOU CRAZ ARMORED WEIRDOS

everyone shaking their heads. Yeah that’s sad.

NOW we drop

Fucking sick

God I love Kom’rk fighters

Not the sped up clouds in the sky

I still can’t believe everything’s really GLASSED. That’s horrifying.

Hey uh where IS Gideon’s hideout + sector btw? And who did he have in those cloning pods?

SHIP? Bad ship good ship?

LAND SHIP

M- Mandalorians?

MANDALORIANS???

MANDALORIANS!!!!!

Nite owls awwwwwww

Bo… you surrendered…. I mean I can’t. Blame you. Now we know how the Darksaber got to Gideon. Last ditch effort to save Mandalore and it was glasses anyway. Ay…

“Mandalore has always been too powerful for any enemy to defeat. It is always our own division that destroys us.” And you’ve witness that so many times Bo. Ouch.

That shot of Din tho

This is a very Bo (tm) episode. She’s very Bo-Katan-ish here. I love it.

YEAH BOY THE HONOR AND INTEGRITY TALK. DIN PLEDGING HIS HONOR TO BO. HECK ELYEAH

I love their little land ship so much

GREAT FORGE ROAD TRIP HELL YEAH

I love that Grogu is now a mech operator

What’s on the other side of the storm waiting for them please don’t let the fleet be gone

Paz and Axe?? Playing chess??? Mando chess??

Axe shut your face hole. Don’t dig your own grave. Paz, you dramatic little shit. Why do I bet this fight is going to help tho? And ofc it’s Paz and Axe lol

Axe your trying to fight a human tank

GROGUUUUU

we love the child stopping the adults from fighting

“He didn’t learn that from me” TRUE AF. Fin you probably got into scuffs like that with Paz 24/7

W H AT IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN SPACE

I don’t like the suspense of getting back to the Gauntlet. It’s sketchy.

M- MYTHOSAUR???

Nope just another deadly thing that lives below Mandalore’s crust. SPACE DINOSAUR

Aw no the land ship!!

Further down? Into the crust with the monster that lives beneath the crust?? Oooo would not like that. I’d go but ooooo not a fan

Oo cool caverns

GREAT FORGE GREAT FORGE GREAT FORGE— this is heartbreaking actually.

Jet packs?? OH FUCK

So that means Gideon is on-planet those are his troopers

It’s BESKAR??

I love Paz’s blaster so much that thing is so good

Oh come on no “OYA MANDALORE”

Fuck that’s Gideon’s hideout

They’re going to try and exterminate them all on-planet. It’s a trap.

Oh fuck Gideon’s fleet. OH NO THE DOORS

AMBUSH

FLAMETHROWER

TRAP CHAMBER. OH NO.

DIN

ohhhhhhhhh you demagolka bitch you have no RIGHT!! Darth Vader copycat. Fuck you.

You have nooooo right to the bes’karta or that helmet or ANY OF THIS. Fuck you fir making Mandalore your base of operations Gideon oh my stars

“Mandalore will live on in me” shut the hell up

Beskar Dark Troopers fuck

Wait never mind fuck you even more your colonizing pos

YES YOU SHOULD HAVE KILLED HIM FUCK DIN SHOULD HAVE KILLED HIM ON THE LIGHT CRUISER BUT HE HAS TOO MUCH DAMN HONOR

FUCK YEAH BO USE THAT SABER LIKE YOU LEARNED FROM YOUR JEDI BUDDIES

PAZ

Paz fall back. Paz fall back. Paz. PAZ. PAZ NO. PAZ

Paz istg don’t die.

OH SHIT THE GUARDS

PAZ

Oh fuck you for ending it like that OF COURSE IT WAS JON AND DAVE ON THIS ONE

I am. Not okay.

Thoughts later not now. I am sad.

Fuck Gideon so, so much I hope Din and Bo kick your ass

#the mandalorion spoilers #the Mandalorian s3e7 #Mandalore #moff gideon #paz viszla #Star Wars #star wars the mandalorian

[confessionsofa-roleplayer]

TW: don’t read this if you’re sensitive especially to words like “burden”. i’ve been there, stay safe out there. xx

i’m going to commit the cardinal sin of telling it as it is TM (a rant)

maybe you’re just not that good.

if you’re never prioritized in your writing group. if you “play the same characters” but you “never get interactions and they do”. if “they reply once a month” and you “reply fast” and yet “everyone wants to write with them but not me” maybe you’re just a worse writer yaknow? the last person picked in gym class, there’s a reason they’re not picked first. sure some people will pick their friends first but after picking their friends they’ll pick the most talented players. you would do the same in their shoes, no? does that mean you should give up? absolutely not. a little self awareness couldn’t hurt tho.

being able to string words together is the bare effing basics of writing. just like being able to throw a ball is the basics of dodgeball. doesn’t mean you’re going to be good at dodgeball if you know how to throw a ball. literally anyone can throw a ball. in writing, especially rping, there’s technique, whether or not your characters / plots are interesting, whether you play off the other persons characters well, whether you read and truly take the time to understand the other persons writing / reply, being able to mutually forward the plot in a steady and satisfying way, among so many other things. if you’re not getting interactions, i would look inward a little bit before blaming all of it on others. because i have yet to see a good writer / rper starve for interactions. it is not other peoples responsibility to sacrifice their time and energy to accommodate you’re lack of talent (for lack of a better word) just like someone who isn’t good at their job is a burden to their co-workers or a teammate who’s bad at the game is a burden to their team. a bad rper is a burden to the other person who inevitably has to carry the whole interaction. that’s probably why they “haven’t replied in months” they agreed to write with you, likely because they felt bad rejecting you. or they got bored / overwhelmed with the thread because you weren’t carrying your fair share of the interaction. we need to start telling each other the ugly truths instead of coddling anyone who says they’re sad about not getting interactions. coddling literally helps no one and is a band-aid solution at best. makes the person feel good in the moment but ultimately doesn’t fix the underlying issue. just like anything else in life you can work on it, just because you might be bad now doesn’t mean you can’t be good in the future. but blaming it all on just “people are mean to me in particular for no reason :(” isn’t helping anyone; least of all you. at best you’re just guilt tripping people into interacting with you for a few replies before they inevitably also get overwhelmed. if you want my advice, the first step is recognizing the problem and stop shifting the blame onto others. then look at what you might be doing wrong or what you could do better. also, seek out constructive criticism. ask for it and, most importantly, react gracefully to it even if you don’t agree (unless its mean-spirited). most people don’t give it out unsolicited no matter how “communicative” they are because a lot of people are easily offended. and an unfortunate amount of people are comfortable doing some wild shit on this website out of spite for getting offended. but criticism is an opportunity for growth and not a personal attack on who you are. so, keep that in mind, seek it out point blank, work on it and bloom into the lovely rptastic flower i know you can be.  

thank you for coming to my ted talk lol

#general #confessions

[kalpasio]

DID IT TAKE ME 10 DAYS TO WATCH THE GOLDEN COURTYARD EPISODES? YES. AM I LATE TO THE PARTY? YES, WHATS NEW. AM I MAKING AN ABSURDLY LONG POST ABOUT IT? YES, W H A T S N E W.

here's the play by play

I hate kosma without horns but the fact that he has a poster of Kalpas in his room is making up for it

the absolute cackle I gave when Kevin goes "yeah what part are they responsible for?" and Kalpas is beating the shit out of the dough 😭😭😭😭😭

I would die for griseo

aponia scares the shit outta me

I love Sakura 😭💖

I love vill-v 🧡🧡

why are aponia boobs so big?

I love vill-v 🧡

oh they're making kalpas face away from the camera to hide his fa-- IS HE CARRYING A PLATE OF FIRE??

I would die for this man

NOT THE FACE MASK

do you think Eden knows he has the face mask on

the little bonk Griseo gives kosmas dumpling

aponia really scares me ahahahahahah

100% Kevin went out an bought those

YEAH OF FUCKING COURSE HE DID

SUFFER

why is can so larg?

all the pillows 😭 and vill-v's hat 😭😭

also Kalpas doing The Squat (TM)

why is he playing on mobile oh my gosh I'm so concerned

kinda sad Rin isn't here 😔

not to be horny on main but vill-v pretty

all the little details they put into the background are so good and I love it

MEI with the 👍👍👍 and Kevin smiling...hhhh I know this man is whipped but like oof

do not let Kevin in the kitchen

they really did pardo dirty huh

THEY DONT EVEN GIVE THE KALPAS SNOWMAN A FACE REVEAL D A M N THEY ARE STINGY

I draw smiley faces like :> so the fact that Griseo painted on just made me so happy lmao

I started episode 2 which was a mistake I'm sorry

KALPAS BEING STRONGER THAN KOSMA AND KEVIN IS GIVING ME LIFE

NOT SU'S TREEEEEE

I am definitely not paused and trying not to cry on the hot spring picture. nope.

NOT THE SNOW

soldering isn't that hard, 100% trust vill-v with that. but uhhh. that hole is a little large to solder...

I love su. and hua too 😭🧡🧡🧡

your honor I think I'm in love with all the flame chasers except Kevin. fuck kevin

t tHe PHOTO ALBUM?!?!!?

MHY. DO YOU KNOW. HOW MUCH. I WOULD PAY????? like 2 cents because I'm a broke college kid but please I am begging you😭😭😭😭😭😭

Kevin's fucking haunted face lmao if I didn't hate him so much I would be tempted to make this a profile pic lol

why does Kevin stick his ass out like that?

what is THAT

SU OPENED HIS EYES OH FUCK

oh no poor baby griseo

oop. there she goes

OH NO THERE THE COMICS GO 😭

p pardo?

OH NO PARDO

please do not eat the very very old cup noodles. not only are they definitely expired, Kevin made them. you're going to get food poisoning

why is kalpas sitting in a corner alone 😭😭

the fucking Squat lmao

is he just staring at a magazine full of pictures of himself? because like I would tok but damn

we are only 6 minutes in oh dear

oh?! Eden finally makes an appearance? what is the deal with her helmet tho

also how is she not freezing with her boobs out like that? I am here to tell you, when it is cold, you cover that shit up

AND HER STOMACH?! EDEN HOW ARE YOU NOT DEAD

didn't they ask you to pick up flour Eden??

Kevin is already thinking of other places to live and he's just moved in lmao

APONIA MAKING A VERY GOOD POINT I TOLD YOU THEY WOULD KILL YOU

kalpas with his face in the floor 😭 su fucking meditating 😭 I am dying

AND THE BOOK ON HIS FACE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH

pardo: I had this really horrible dream!

kalpas: ok, and? I'm fucking tired

the fact that they're all so supportive is gonna make me cry oh my gosh

where are the subtitles oh no

the scar 😭 please just give us the face reveal I am dying

kosmas little horns on his hat lol

"it's just a sunrise" hold on real quick I gotta take a pic for my gf

IN THE DREAM WE WERE HEROES. BUT WE WERE ALSO LOSERS

my friend quotes this to me daily but oh my gosh oooof

I just want them to be happy PLEASE

Griseo asking kosma his wish is 😭😭 she does so much to make him happy and it makes me so sad

THE ACTION FIGURES ME FUCKING TO KOSMA

Eden and Ely kinda gay ngl👀👀

why does Kevin get 3 wishes damn

I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE SAKURA'S EARS OH MY GOSH 🧡🧡

basically. I'm dying. why did you let me do this 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#please dont read this its way too long #im having a fucking time #also I have a oneshot that's basically finished so I'll either post it tonight or tomorrow #probably tonight #I DON'T KNOW WHAT DAY I'M SUPPOSED TO BE POSTING ON ANYMORE AHAHAHAH #please don't kill me #kevin's haunted face didn't save #I had to add it because It's really good #even though you've all seen it #that's all that changed lol

[lingy910y]

Tag Game Tuesday (Spring Edition) 🌸

tagged by @deedala​

your name: ling

where in the world are you? new york

your favorite color: red

a song that always puts you in a good mood: the phoenix by fall out boy

your favorite flower: tulips

it’s a beautiful sunny day and you’re going on a picnic with friends. what snack are you bringing to share? dumplings, that’s what i always bring

bumblebees or butterflies? neither asdfklj but butterflies ig

describe your ideal weather: cool and sunny, aka the normal^tm temperature bc i can’t handle it

what are you reading right now? not rly interested in anything recently :( i was reading your question has been received last night tho

museum date or nature walk? omg i was abt to say neither again cause i’m a hermit but screw that. i’ll love to see some cool museums with friends :D

it’s movie night in the park and your turn to choose, what are we watching? eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. perfect for lovers of romance, sad shit, weird shit, beautiful cinematography AND time loops how can you find a more perfect movie for friends to hug and cry to

and finally, share some sunny words for your friends & followers: imperfection is proof that you tried, ok? idk who to tag :( if you see this i’m tagging you

[glamoplasm]

hii your kingdom hearts posting is getting to me is kingdom hearts any good?? idk anything abt it other than theres disney characters, keyblades, theres a lot of games and you play them in a weird order, and my friend cloud strife is there. the disney characters are really throwing me off bc everything i see abt the original kh characters looks good and also i love my friend cloud but is it worth getting into? or is it one of those things thats good bc youre already into it and u love it? i ❤️ piracy and have a hacked 3ds so the price of so many games is not an issue. u do not have to answer this ofc! but i thought it was worth asking nc the art u are reblogging is intriguing to me

smile :)

my short answer is, i think its good! definition of good here being it was really fun to get into. i havent personally actually played any of the games if you're planning to play them tho- all of them are action rpgs, the first has like a certain amount of platforming and also bad camera controls that are just kind of a given considering its age. if you enjoy those types of games tho, its still very fun! holds up well. most of them are first and foremost playstation games except for 358/2 Days, which was a ds game (it hasnt had a remake like some of the other games, which is sad bc it has some of the best story and the cutscenes by themselves miss A Lot, but the gameplay itself is uh. Rough)

first, look up "kingdom hearts 1 opening"

if you think that looks sick as hell, i would honestly try out the first game and see how you feel about it afterwards! watching someone play that was what got me interested in digging into the entire thing and it is the first game so its a naturally good introduction with none of the weight of all the stuff that gets added over the years to the Lore. if you like 1 you can either play them in release order or chronological order and both would work probably. except the mobile game kh union x stuff i wouldnt touch that until you go through everything prior to kh3 even if its chronologically the first

(more details under the cut since this is getting long lol)

extremely basic summary: a young boy, sora, lives on a group of islands called destiny islands with his best friends, riku and kairi, and they dream of exploring outside their small home. sora and all his friends are taken from the island and their world by the forces of darkness and are swept into a grand battle of light and dark. he teams up with donald and goofy from Disney(tm) and they fight monsters born from the darkness in people's hearts. sora has a blade that's a key bc he unlocks doors between worlds and hearts and stuff. rinse and repeat with a new iteration on the enemies you're facing and the worlds you visit

asides from the disney, the basic plot there is very normal jrpg fare! whats special about it to me is in the specifics, its visuals (i think despite not liking disney as a company the existence of these differing tones and visual styles is what Makes kh what it is), the non disney world and monster designs, the weirdness of a lot of the scenes and writing, and its complete sincerity in statements that are inherently very corny. while the themes shift and compound, the primary theme is connections between people and how those make up who you are and your heart.

you may have heard the story is confusing. honestly, i think this is mostly hyperbole and it makes as much sense as it really needs to. there are bits of lore that are definitely confusing but the games explain everything in such a way that the concepts arent confusing, they just sound weird when taken out of context. not that a lot of it isnt really silly and weird LMAO just that its easy enough to follow and grasp what its going for

re: the disney sections (like the actual worlds): theyre at best like. inoffensive filler i guess LOL. you can really see disney not giving a shit about their part in kingdom hearts the later it goes, with the kh3 disney worlds being like. sure lets put the entirety of frozen's "let it go" in who gives a fuck. however this was after pixar was bought out by disney, and the people working on the pixar stuff that was subsequently added to kh3 definitely put more thought into them as far as tying it in thematically to the rest. still not majorly important tho asides from a couple plot relevant scenes.

you will never escape the Big disney characters tho lol. mickey mouse will Always be there after kh1, as well as donald and goofy who are literally the main character's party members. against my better judgement i do enjoy donald and goofy in kh, and find them generally fun characters despite having limited personal nostalgia about them! they're fine to have around.

if u want to see cloud strife our friend, i will say he isnt there a lot and he's in full sulky guy mode, tho a Lot of final fantasy characters are included until kh3 where i guess they decided they were going to stop putting ff characters in for whatever reason. sephiroth is a major secret boss fight in both 1 and 2. yuffie, aerith, cid, and leon are there immediately. tifa is in 2. barret has never shown up despite all the other ff7 main characters which is a little. raises eyebrow. but whatever

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also i was thinking about toxic yaoi and by toxic yaoi i mean i was thinking of how it pisses me off when ppl just call rape fetish djs "toxic yaoi" like call it for its fucking name man toxic yaoi should be used for nuanced topics not jsut your lame ass shit you're too shy to call with your whole chest because you know people wouldnt take it well anyway uh it got me thinking of my old fujo days and 1) im gonna try find the fetus yaoi rn bc i hate yall but 2) its curious how back in the day to find the most disgusting fetishistic thing was like, a sport, yknow, like it was simply something people did and then took pride like heh... yeah i read That One Manga the worst i read was probably one with a girl and a dog and you know its bad bc that's no longer yaoi. No comments regarding it btw it was as disgusting and explicit as you'd imagine def not something a kid should've read and probably not an adult either but here we are. I didnt read it as an adult for the record i mean the rest. Anyway speaking of this shit i just remembered the cursed yaoi was a trilogy it was the orc's bride (read it, in retrospective it wasn't so crazy, very graphic in an horrific way tho), feeding lamb (i actually liveblogged that one THAT is fucking Toxic Yaoi(tm) that shit goes hard i love it and the artstyle is very funny and the story is sad and compelling all my homies love feeding lamb) but there was a third one i cannot for the life of mine remember. I checked uh, my old chat logs. The third was Bait. I swear to god i dont remember that that's bizarre i remember the other two perfectly well. WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED THAT WAS JUST THE FURRY ONE yeah no shit man that was tame as fuck no wonder i forgot. anyway yeah uh, let me try to find those fetuses very quick

Edit: its not one google search away fuck it im not gonna do more research than that that fucking doujinshi doesnt deserve to exist in anyone's mind but mine im taking this one for the team its my cross to bear and etc

#luly talks