#i literally cannot look away

[suitsusboth]

i can’t stop looking at him

#jonathan bailey #slutty strands of hair #i feel attacked #this is privacy signs on the door Anthony #i literally cannot look away #look at that scruff #fuck

[kurz-qw]

another car ride doodle have a moon

#rw #rain world #looks to the moon #rw lttm #rain world lttm #shes so pretty #shes such a beauty to look at #i cannot possibly describe the extent of which i love her #shes so. everything. she takes my breath away #shes literally the one exception to me being gay thats how insane i am over her #god i love her

[comfortfrogblog]

“everyone is capable of experiencing goodness and joy. not me th-“ *EXTREMELY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER*

#OH BUT YOU ARE!!!!! YOU ARE!!! i literally prommy #i do NOT prommy if i dont mean it👍 #it fluctuates and it wont always be there bc thats how life and adversity is but it’s THERE!!! #it’s there in the cracks and crevices of your silly little life #it’s in the girl at the mall who looked you in the eyes and smiled #it’s in the baby that stares at you like you hold all the warmth and love in the universe #it’s in the tiny victories like ‘i drank water today’ ‘i woke up today’ ‘i was okay with myself today’ #it’s in the laughter experienced by people around you even if you dont feel like you can participate where you’re at #it’s in your favorite songs and your favorite color and your favorite food and your favorite animal and your favorite blanket and #and it’s in your favorite hobby your favorite outfit your favorite type of bug your favorite tree #and it’s in that safe place you have whether that is the corner of your room or your bed or the bathroom or your floor or wherever it is #the goodness sits there and it sinks in and it doesn’t go away even when you forget it’s there because of all the bad things overshadowing i #it #the goodness sinks its claws into you and sometimes you cannot help but be in awe #maybe you do not feel it right now #but it is there #and i promise that someday you will find it wherever it is resting #cathy says words #comfort #important

[somecunttookmyurl]

all the while society conflates "being an adult" with "having a proper job" and "having money to make arbitrary Adult Purchases" disabled people who can't work - or can only work part time or can only do entry level baby jobs - will never be 'allowed' to be adults

you can say "being an adult is looking after yourself you don't have to have a job!!!" all you want but most people who say that will still assume anybody who doesn't either can't or won't 'look after themselves' actually. and every 'marker' of 'adulthood' that's observable and thus actually counts or whatever loops back around to... having a job and 'contributing' something

#yeah i have netflix on all day #i am quite literally signed off of work for the -rest of my life- #what the fuck else would you like me to do with my time when most people are in fact at work #or did you think i can't have the tv on and put laundry away at the same time or something #must i work on commissions on silence in a dour room to be perceived as an adult #anyway 'looking after yourself/your home/your pet' is not observable #to anybody who doesn't like ACTUALLY live in your house #unless you are extremely obviously NOT doing it #if a tree falls in a forest etc #owning a house? job. like not even 'in this economy? lol' #disabled people LITERALLY can't because we aren't allowed to have enough savings for a deposit #car? would you honestly trust me with a vehicle lol but also: job #you mostly cannot buy a car without one it's a requirement for the lease #otherwise you aren't 'trusted' to pay it on time #incidentally most landlords will also - perfectly legally - refuse to rent to you because you are going to be unreliable with the rent #which is being paid directly by the gov anyway like take your trust issues up with them bro #a family? if i get married or cohabit with a partner my income gets sliced in half #so to support even myself let alone a child would require. drumroll please. employment #savings? adults have savings right? yeah but unlike you i have a gov enforced cap on mine #'good furniture not shit from ikea' (someone has remarked that ikea furniture is 'college dorm-y' it's going here) #i mean do i have to say it

[spacecasehobbit]

Truly, I think there is a valid and also extra fun reading of Saltburn in which a good chunk of Oliver's fumbling of Felix was down to an early misreading of one of Felix's core personality traits.

That what Oliver read as Felix having a massive savior kink was actually more of Felix having a, "Growing up with Elspeth for a mother and playing witness to her rotating cast of poor dear friends in my formative years instilled within me a deepseated insecurity over the complete lack of interestingly Traumatic Events that I have experienced due to the wealth and privilege I was born with, coupled with an inability to look directly at or acknowledge that wealth and privilege because that would be, like, Bad?? maybe?? so instead of examing or dealing with this deepseated insecurity in any healthy way, I turned it into a weirdly intense and equally unexamined association with 'Struggles and Trauma = How to be Cool'," kink.

Evidence for this theory includes: -Felix delightedly telling all his friends the story of how his bike got a flat tire and he had to be Dramatically Rescued by an Intriguing Stranger! One slightly bad thing happened to that boy and he was so eager for it that he was telling everyone he knew at the first and also probably every opportunity for days -Felix responding to Oliver's early lies with things like, "You're really brave," and, "Seriously, you're a fucking inspiration, mate" -"What did they teach you in boarding school?" followed by Felix, listing off a few non-answers before staring deeply into Oliver's eyes and smacking a hand on Oliver's inner thigh before finishing with, "annnd... child abuse." -Felix seeming genuinely baffled by Annabell's assertion that none of her friends would want to sit next to Oliver at a dinner party, because... of course Oliver is interesting??? Oliver has Trauma! What do you mean his Traumatic Backstory makes him less interesting, this literally does not compute?? -The one thing that makes him instantly ditch Oliver, on the other hand, being Oliver calling him out as rich and spoiled while calling his room disgusting, which happens on the same day that he ditches Annabell, aka that girl with the baffling and nonsensical opinion that Being Rich is, like, more interesting that Having Trauma?? -Felix being a Harry Potter fan? Allows him to both appear totally normal because everyone loves Harry Potter, while also publically indulging his guilty little daydreams about how cool he could have been if he'd been a sad little orphan with a Tragic Backstory, but one who also got to still be wealthy and important via inheriting huge amounts of money from his dead parents and being the prophesized savior of the world -Felix sharing his family's rock throwing tradition but needing to awkwardly include that he's only ever done it for his dog = simultaneously a trigger for all his insecurities over his own lack of interesting Trauma but also an opportunity to live vicariously through Oliver's much more interesting Trauma -Felix being furious and deeply betrayed by Oliver, while also deciding that he couldn't possibly kick Oliver out before his birthday party, as the idea that literally no one at all except him and maybe Elspeth would have even noticed if Oliver was completely absent from his own birthday party does not even cross his mind, because he's the only one who knows that Oliver doesn't have interesting Trauma actually

And anyways, I like to imagine that half of this Felix's issues with the discovery that Oliver was lying was over the fact that it required him to grapple with the incomprehensible idea that Oliver did not, in fact, have much in the way of Interesting Trauma in his life either, apparently, but he'd still convinced not just Felix, but Elspeth that he was Interesting anyway?

And Felix's brain was neither prepared nor remotely equipped to process this idea in any way whatsoever besides just running away, sticking his fingers in ears, and going, "LA LA LA I CAN'T HEAR YOU," until the uncomfortable thoughts and also Oliver went away so he could get on with turning The Oliver Situation into his first real interesting Trauma that was already over and thus cool now, instead of still there and making it deeply and unpleasantly obvious that maybe traumatic events were actually just, like, really terrible things to live through while they were still happening, in fact???

#saltburn #felix catton #but with bonus insecurity issues masquerading as a savior complex #felix catton who cannot comprehend the idea of everyone else not also thinking Oliver is super interesting #felix catton who is so privileged that he has can look away from it and cut out anyone who makes him look at how spoiled he is #but who also managed to wrap up his insecurity issues so deeply into his unwillingness to look at how actually spoiled he is #that he wound up simultaneously convinced that he's actually secretly the literal *most boring person ever* maybe? #yes everybody likes me and wants to hang out with me and i use this to my advantage on a regular basis #but consider: what if actually no one likes me and no one wants to hang out with me?? #no these ideas are not fundamentally incompatible at all #the trick is just that you never think about it and instantly banish from your life anyone who tries to *make* you think about it #then it just works out! #like everything else in my definitely boring life!

[ofthecaravel]

Theyre ready for the Christmas partyyyy

#i literally cannot stand to look at this for another second please take her away from me #myart #greta van art #girl van fleet

[hamartia-grander]

Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE” #In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this. #“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

[ksksksrahrah]

artfight attack

#Anyone reading this #tumblr looks so bad with the new ui #Twitter looks so bad with that x that looks like a collab with who knows what #I literally cannot with both of these sites right now #I just need to keep drawing #These changes wanna chase me away from these sites but I have no where else to share art! #Anyways a new hypnosis mic album soon. Can’t wait. The jyuto and rei song sounds too good.

[hauntedpearl]

oh my god i just remembered that dean literally traded his soul at age 28 for his brother in exchange for one(1) year!! ONE YEAR!!! FOR AN ETERNITY IN HELL!!! HE DID THAT!!!!

#he loves his little baby brother so much that's HIS BROTHER!!!!!!! #god i hate him i hate how much i love him i literally cannot do this #w* DO NOT EVEN LOOK HERE GO AWAY

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk. #also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

[chl3borzoi]

You should never feel dread about intimacy. It should be a pain-free and enjoyable thing. You should feel held by your partner. Your partner should defend you to others and make you feel wanted, in many more ways than just sexually. If this clicks with you, i encourage you to leave. Heartbreak and being alone is sad, but it's better than bad.

#i feel like too many people taking dating way too seriously. #if things are bad and youre not comfortable or happy #and if you do indeed try to voice yourself and address things. to not be heard or understood. or respected. LEAVE leave leave #leeeavvvveeeeee regain confidence recognize your charming character qualities take care of yourself. #you should never ever ever put up with feeling scared in the bedroom #because apologies cannot fix that level of trust breaking #p #yeah i slept through therapy yeahh im binge drinking again lmfaooo. love yourself because i don't love myself. #OH a liar is something we don't entertain. #if youre partner is a liar ESPECIALLY a pathological one RUNNNN AWAY #wrong your oh look i picked up a bad habit lmfao. god. have enough self love and worth to date someone whos fucking literate. #feeling [REDACTED] Today may record vocals for my friends album later

[milflewis]

do you think writers get enough credit and notes and stuff on here?

on tumblr dot com? lol nearly died laffin there thank u

#THIS APPLIES TO ALL CONTENT CREATORS B. T. W. #no ???? have u ever looked at a notes ratio ??? u dickheads all like shit which is good !!!!! luv a like ! but can u reblog as well ??? #not only for the interaction and to spread it but also so we can see ur thoughts ! i adore tags. i eat that shit UP #literally. i have read certain tags over n over and still remeber now #and esp here bc i write a lot of rpf and ppl can be Weird about that so comment ! then it’s not on ur blog ! but we still get a little boost #also. pls pls pls pls comment on ao3. i cannot express to u the sheer amount of serotonin a comment there gives me #tell me ur fav line ! tell me ur thoughts ! tell me if ur rereading it or where ur reading it or if it reminded u of smth ! #or even just: hey i enjoyed reading this. thumbs up! simple as that! #and like. this shit is also for ur benefit??? i have literally written fics bc i know ppl enjoy them (see: mark and my george/lewis fics) #yeah a lot of my fics are bc that shit is eating away at my brain n i’m starting to rot but i aso write a good but bc i know there will be #someone who likes it ! (see also: kyle and ugh. schuclerc) #anon tag #niamh.asks

[genspiel]

.....................well now i'm just thinking about how echo and noise could've provided a really interesting exploration of mental illness and trauma and stigmatization but canon kinda missed the mark on that one huh

#pandora hearts spoilers #tre reads #pandora hearts #echo #noise #i'm currently not coherent(?) enough to type out Actual Thoughts about this at the moment but i do think it's worth keeping in mind........ #something something noise being isolated as “different” and desperately clinging to the one person who kind of understood #but then being used by that person and still losing herself anyways and. and. and #hell even vincent's shit didn't get fully unpacked in ph #dude 1000000% had ptsd. you literally cannot convince me otherwise lmao #but his “redemption”(???) happened so fast you could blink and miss it #can't even call it an “arc” lmao it's more like an immediate 180 degree turn #like no dude go back and unpack that shit. your flashbacks and scissorly compulsions aren't gonna magically go away just because- #-some pretty girl forgave you lmao. that's not how this works |D #(also we need justice for ada btw?? she deserved so much more than just being oz's cute little sister and vincent's target-turned-salvation #(like. why is her only genuine hobby shown from vincent's pov and turned into comic relief. like literally wtf) #i actually feel really bad for noise. like. can you honestly look me in the eye and tell me that you wouldn't have turned out like her- #-if you were in her situation #i never really liked her but i also don't think she's an inherently bad character or anything #(or at the very least she's really no worse than vincent. and god only knows how many people are lining up to forgive HIM) #she's just a very very traumatized and lonely one who never got a chance to heal until right before she LITERALLY FUCKING DIED #she and vincent both make sooooo much more sense as characters once you've learned their backstories #i just wish we could've seen more of the actual healing process for both of them instead of just. glossing over it. god fucking damn it

[professorllayton]

brother who’s reading trc update: he saw me downloading an rsl pic for my icon and he just went “do u like that guy specifically bc he looks like gansey or what” 

#was gobsmacked bc i havent said anything and he doesnt follow me on here im pretty sure he doesnt even know my url #and the first thing he said when he looked over my shoulder was that hes exactly how he imagined gansey to look #and then he went on to say ''yeah he looks just like gansey cuz he gives off major nerd loser vibes while being very handsome'' #and ''like hes so handsome but so nerdy that his handsomeness just fades away and ur stuck in a conversation w an absolute loser'' #i cannot stand him im literally goung to throw UP #blabs

[wiferomanroy]

gerri kellman in the s4 trailer

#is it just me or is this the best she has ever looked #i literally cannot look away from this image #succession #gerri kellman #gerriroman #succession hbo #roman x gerri #roman roy #gerri alert! #my posts

[skitskatdacat63]

Having a moment™ right now(looking at 2011 sebson pics)

#i cannot stop squealing 😖 #i think this is gonna be what pushes me to actually change my layout #i was eventually gonna change it and keep it sebmark but ah i am truly having a moment rn #reading solar flare changed me as a person shfkkfkg #BUT SERIOUSLY THEYRE INSANE #like the way they look at each other like theres no one else in the room???? #theres so many post quali pics where theyre just completely ignoring the other person and staring at each other #no bcs theres several with Lewis where hes literally standing a fooy away from them whereas theyre huddled together 😭😭 #also yeah def pushing me to just watch the whole rest of the v8 era in succession instead of skipping around #my gifposts are gonna be so insane 😭😭😭 #im looking at some of the videos of the parc fermes cause i cant help myself #and i cant even help but clip them now #spoiling myself ugh but i cant help it #catie.rambling.txt