#i like making myself sad i guess.

[bobmckenzie]

women selfshippers who aren't stereotypically feminine, whether in physical features or personality or anything, your f/o loves you just the way you are 💚 you are their ideal woman ! :)

#posts ive been meaning to make for months LOL #reminded bc my friend just said my hands look masculine LOL... SORRY FOR BEING A SHORT BARE NAIL ENJOYER I GUESS!! #made me laugh but also a bit sad sdkjflsjkfd like. is it not feminine enough to simply exist as a woman? #ive been trying to stop thinking like 'my f/o would like me in spite of the way i dress/my body type/the way i carry myself/etc' #bc they love me FOR all that stuff!! they love me BC I AM ME!! #selfship positivity #self ship #selfship #selfship community #f/o community #caitiechat

[veloursdor]

Landscape with Fruit Rot and Millipede - Richard Siken Obi-Wan Kenobi Part III - Dir. Deborah Chow

#obi-wan kenobi #anakin skywalker #obikin #owk series #kenobi series #richard siken #i like making myself sad i guess

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[svtskneecaps]

also in terms of the bolas playlist it's fascinating to me that the songs added by each person have a slight tendency to represent a consistent aspect of bolas

like

the songs added by slime are their chaos

the songs added by philza are their rebellion

the songs added by cellbit are their rage

the songs added by baghera are their anguish

it's so fucking FASCINATING TO ME but i don't know enough music theory to elaborate lmfao this is Vibes Only

(mouse's songs i can't boil down to an easy noun which is why they aren't mentioned lmao anyway they go hard asf)

(also i went on the longest fucking unhinged elaboration in the tags lmfao i almost didn't have enough tags left to tag "long tags" at the end

(i could have even gone on longer in terms of where their characters were at entering purgatory [philza: cage for a cage; cellbit: fed worker murders; baghera: her past as a federation experiment; slime: turning into a code because of the code pretending to be his daughter] but i ran out of space and also time it's 4AM AAAAA)

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #this is a sweeping generalization btw esp for baghera's she added a WIDE variety of music #qsmp bolas #sorry i forgot that tag existed lmao #i will elaborate slightly: #slime added: find your flame; gas gas gas extended; waltz of the meatball man; foghorn sound effect #philza added: b.y.o.b.; throne; the melting point of wax #cellbit added: hayloft II; brazilian dança phonk (which roier literally played during purg while beating the shit out of bbh lmao) #baghera added: can you feel my heart; still waiting; and coincidentally she added 'it's been so long' (the fnaf song lol) #TO BE CLEAR THESE ARE GENERALIZATIONS #baghera also added the government knows [REBELLION] and oops [CHAOS] #philza added given up [ANGUISH] #cellbit added zombie [ANGUISH] and tokyo drift [CHAOS] #slime added as above so below [ANGUISH] #it's not a perfect category; ESPECIALLY for baghera's songs i want to make that so clear in these tags #HOWEVER. it is interesting. #anyway i went after lyrics for these examples but just generally when going through the playlist the first time #i kind of learned that like. #music to murder to was probably cellbit; punk millenial music was probably philza #the wackiest shit was probably slime (was shocked to find out tokyo drift was a cellbit song for this reason lmao) #baghera's i usually could only pin down bc it didn't sound like anyone else's #and mouse's added songs i could not describe the vibe if you threatened me for it but it has one #i guess the closest vibe is 'a college radio station run by anime fans' and even then it's not that close #it kinda excludes songs like the b//ad bun//ny songs #unless college anime fans are also fans of them in which case great! #IDK IT'S 4 AM I WAS JUST MAKING MYSELF SAD ABOUT TILIN I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP #shut up vic #block game brainrot #long tags

[bl00doodle]

DOODELS

#my art #tryignt o do sm shit help i wanma draw and finish things so baddd #the brown sketches r me crying @ the phrase 'to be loved is to be changed' i wanna make a sad emo angsty comic abt shadows loss and pain an #still endong up with a happy life bc. 🧍‍♂️ fuck i want that for myself too #THE 2NDD... MY SKY PIRATE GRANDMA MARIA AU 🫶🫶🫶🫶 basically shes super inspired by dola from castle in thsky lol #shes putting makeup on shad bc hes going on his first date ever.... #in his 50yr immortal ish ageless life hes going on a date and maria will damn sure make sure hes gonna have a nice one #ehehehe guess whos hes going on a date w....👁👁(obvious) #uhhhh the cat is just older blaze leik burnin blaze inspired by her concept art #one of her hair styles is like fire and im like. thats fuckin cool!! #sHE GETS STRIPED AND GETS FWUFFY WHEN SHES OLDER bc i think its kyut 🫶 #makes her related to big the cat ehehehe alt dimension shit or smhtn idk im not thinking anymore #oh fuck i forgot to tag the charas #sonic the hedgehog #maria robotnik #eggman #shadow the hedgehog #blaze the cat #amy rose #sonic chao #uhhh it uink thqts it #sowowiwjekwo #sowwy its a mess

[lunar-years]

what's more painful... Roy sacrificing blankie, his Most Precious Item, to set a good example as captain, or Jamie sacrificing the boots from his mum to try and step up as part of the team only to immediately be removed from said team and sent back to City the next day.....

#like i guess at least Roy can feel like he was successfully contributing to something. with jamie its just like. #not only did he sacrifice an Important Object he also was seemingly Punished for it #im in deep pain #i am literally making myself so sad with this fic #that fucking bonfire yall #roy kent #jamie tartt #ted lasso #my writing

[puppyeared]

people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime

#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head #around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working #as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of #how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol #i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were #pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family #i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by #ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me #or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made #you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm #im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help #wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career #i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades #but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard #yapping

[fakeoutbf]

five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person** #i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention) #anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious?????? #your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up??? #if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right??? #so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

[xdeerlybelovedx]

Some ipad doodle practice for my inevitable downward spiral in becoming an exclusive Lies of P art blog--

#Lies of P #doodles #practice #I'm only half kidding... Only half c': #I'm not very good on the ipad but I wanted to start getting myself used to his shapes and how his eyes are like... #what I like to call “Sad droopy puppy” in how they look LOL Also just making mental notes on the biggest freckles on his face #the more most notable ones. and then the rest I'll just. Splatter tool randomly dfgshjk but yeah... I'm... #obsessed c': new favorite game tbh ♡ so expect a TON of fan art in the future #Also long hair baby. Because SOMEONE has to draw long hair baby and damn I guess I'll do it!!!!

[hazel-islivingtrash]

which arc in jjk is your favorite?

I feel like I'm getting interrogated with all these questions lmaoo 😭💀 but I appreciate them! Truly :)

I'd have to say Hidden Inventory ❤️ the whole thing is just written so well and sets so much up for the future. Can't forget about how tragic Satosugu is here either 😭 my heart can't take it

#jjk #satosugu #jujutsu kaisen #stsg #gojo satoru #geto suguru #hidden inventory arc #hidden inventory #season 2 jjk #favorite arc #i will literally rewatch this arc for fun #well idk about fun but it's just that good #i just like making myself sad i guess

[swordsonnet]

sorry but saying that the accessibility needs of mentally disabled people are just preferences or about "comfort" is blatantly incorrect. if i can't enter a building because the bright lights and loud noises would send me into a meltdown, then i can't enter the building, and that's not less important than me not being able to enter a building because it's not wheelchair accessible. if you genuinely think that mentally disabled people aren't really struggling, and that it's okay to mock their very real concerns, then that just shows that you've been refusing to listen to their experiences. do better or shut the fuck up.

#yeah yeah i know i said i wouldn't post about this stupid fucking 'discourse' anymore #but i keep seeing takes that make my blood boil #physical and mental disabilities are two sides of the same coin! yes there are differences but also a lot of commonalities #but nooooo expecting people to have even an ounce of fucking compassion for those who dont share their exact lived experience #is too much to ask for i guess #i've said this many times before but gatekeeping and infighting will get us nowhere #throwing your fellow disabled people under the bus won't help you #i get people's anger - i have a lot of anger too as someone who is housebound with a physical disability #but other disabled people arent your enemy #and taking your anger out on them is just a dick move #especially if you do so using the same ableist 'its all in your head' rhetoric #that mentally disabled people have had to put up with since forever #disclaimer: obviously not all physically disabled people act like that. from what i can tell its just a small (but very vocal) minority #but it's pervasive enough to make me wary of online spaces for physical disabilities #which is kinda sad seeing as i have a physical disability myself and would love to connect with others #but i'm not super keen on being told that my autism (which has significantly impacted me my whole life) doesn't matter

[tiny-merkitty]

"impure regression" it's therapy, impurity came free with your xbox

#while there isnt a right or wrong way to experience age regression #i will say it defeats the purpose if youre not allowing yourself to feel negative emotions #youre nurturing a safe space for yourself!!! you can be sad or angry. sob throw a fit be sensitive over meaningless things thats the point #regardless of if its a trauma response or a way to destress #if its involuntary or not #its for you. you should feel comfortable #idk i just despise the phrases pure and impure regression #i think people fail to recognize that most people experience age regression #“healing my inner child by buying a barbie i wanted when i was 8” #“making myself feel content by caring for my children the way i wouldve wanted to be” #“my hair got messed up today and suddenly i was 14 again” #“i drank a coke for the first time in years and felt like i was 23 again” #like age regression is such #a normal thing #whether its utilized as therapy or not #i feel like things like agereblr and ageregram or whatever have like #dilluted what it means? i guess #i dont know im yapping #merkitty babbles #sfw interaction only #age regression #inner child healing #sfw agere #agere #safe agere #sfw #age dreaming #agedre

[kohakhearts]

theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :( #anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

[foolishnpd]

what actually counts as empathy? when someone else is upset and i also get upset because I mirror that person? is that empathy? does it even count because I will get upset too but for entirely different reasons (or i'll find a way to make it about me and then get upset)

#lilyroaring #low empathy #npd safe #i guess if i had to make up an example #something like uh...someone i mirror a lot has their dog die #they are upset about this #i become upset too #but for reasons like: #them being upset means they can't pay attention to me :(((( #them being upset means i have to put energy into remedying their emotions. i'm upset that i have to put in effort :( #now i remember when my dog died. so i'm upset too :( #i guess that's not really empathy #i'll feel the same emotion #but i'll make it about myself first #i'll be sad because i'm inconvenienced. not because the situation is truly sad to me etc

[inferno-silentdragon]

Another omori pixel doodle while I procrastinate

#ok you know i'm like so out of it i accidentally post the same doodle with a new one #omori #omori fanart #omori hero #see you tomorrow #this was also spawned by tsuki XD #tho i honestly felt like i needed more hero art in my life so i was more than happy to do that #but ye i'm kinda curious what songs do people associate with hero? #for me it's see you tomorrow; the sunset bgm #since that's when we get to see hero and i just feel it fits him #that also makes me think the morning/daytime bgm is for kel #i guess you can say hangin out with the boys is for hero but i think that's more for the brothers instead of just one of them #and now for a bit of a ramble because the second image is sad #i've been a bit iffy lately since it just seems easier to just draw in pixels #and i'm just a little afraid of people (and myself) thinking that i should just do this #just a bit a fear everytime i majorly shift in styles #jack of all trades master of none #it's been happening as i keep one upping myself on my own project #but i guess that's to be expected with the order i'm doing everything #my art #pixel art

[electricpurrs]

#i finished it #i.... feel empty #i dont know what to do with myself now #i loved the game but i feel weird about the ending #it felt... strange and sudden and kinda unsatisfying #i dont know if its just like that or if maybe i missed something here and there that could lead to something more #but just. i dont know #i didnt expect it to make me feel bad but i feel bad #i loved it and devoured it all in a week and now... what am i gonna do now #guess i cant make myself feel better out of shucking down pure entertainment alone #i dont know. im sad. i dont want it to be over