#i keep going back and forth on it

[girl-bateman]

How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?

#i keep going back and forth on it #bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister) #and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad #and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford #and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural #BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him #and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam #plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever #while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me #and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself #so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense #bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too ! #im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :) #so ???? #i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl #(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus) #i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails #someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭 #spn

[half-doomed]

Reblog with which you prefer:

- kiss goodnight or love at first sight

- boring (violent things version) or boring (dance version)

- visitation of the ghost or mad iqs

- cluster hug (brobecks version) or clusterhug (idkhow version)

- boys dont cry cover or debra cover

- modern day cain (original) or modern day cain (slow jam)

- le velo pour deux (violet things version) or le velo pour deux (gahapt version)

#i wanted to keep going but i'll stop lol #i also had to revise this bc i'm guessing most people dont even know all the alternative versions of some of these songs #but i made this post bc i wanted to say that lvpd (gahapt version) is superior to the vt things version #and i'll die on that hill #the abba sample and piano really make it #the vt version makes some rly good points too but ... ooough.... gahapt version. #anyway my full answers are: love at first sight; boring (vt version); mad iqs; cluster hug (idkhow vers); ............... #.................... #............................................. #.........debra #mdc (original); lvpd (gahapt) #idkhow #the brobecks #dallon weekes #jaime posts #.txt #also... im changing my first answer to kiss goodnight #i keep going back and forth on it

[roaringheat]

am I autistic or are my social skills just irreparably fucked

#vark posts #i keep going back and forth on it #i know i have adhd so maybe its just that #its just like i feel incapable of talking like a normal person all the fuckin time #like i want to be loud and flashy and chatty like thats who i genuinely feel i am #and sometimes i am able to be like that and its great #but i feel like most of the time im just incapable of knowing how to talk #ive been working with my coworkers for over a year now and i still feel like i talk like a robot to them #and theres ppl i so badly want to reach out to or befriend some of which im even positive would want me to #but my social skills are just absolute dogshit #idk man its just SO FRUSTRATING #hopefully this shit gets easier as i get older

[whydoilovesomanyvillains]

Outlast trials x dream team au (cause I love that game so god damn much)

- Dream being a reagent going through the trials mainly keeping to himself cause he's seen what can happen 2 teammates and he doesn't want anymore guilt or trauma

- Sapnap being a newer reagent who has no idea what he's doing in the trials but atleast he's got the strength to fight back a little bit

- both of them seeing that the trials would be easier if they worked together (strength and speed) and forming tentative relations that develop even more (also just an excuse to have a you got hurt let me heal you while some tension grows scene)

- George being a scientist that was blackmailed to be there and he is incharge of watching and evaluating Dream and sap

-and I guess sam can be easterman as a treat to the freaks who like that loser (kidding of course who doesn't love a warden thats gone mad with power)

#mcyt #outlast trials #dteam #dreamwastaken #sapnap #georgenotfound #dteam au #idk if i want george to be a reagent or a scientist #i keep going back and forth on it #dream would have a blind rig btw #sapnap a stun rig #and if george was a reagent then he would have healing rig

[aintmyjewelry]

if mission impossible: dead reckoning pt 1 doesn’t come to paramount+ before my one year subscription expires I will actually go insane

#I don’t think i’m gonna renew it but #I keep going back and forth on it #EITHER WAY im itching for more MI

[reds-skull]

Sharing a mask is something that can be so intimate actually

#call of duty modern warfare 2 #cod mw2 #ghostsoap #ghoap #love that tag lmao #cod ghost #cod soap #cod fanart #if you couldnt tell i love soap's red mask #This is extremely self-indulgent #but so is this entire blog #this took way too long tbh but i enjoyed it #bc i experimented with a new style #dont expect anything this long in the near future tho i really need to work on my other non cod projects #also i keep going back and forth between thinking this is too cringe to post and being fine with it #but yknow i already made this blog and it not connected to my other blogs sooo if its that bad i can delete and disappear

[saltpepperbeard]

is this anything

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Edit #okay stay with me here lol STAY WITH ME HERE #ed's face really has me feeling some kind of way #((i mean that's a given lol but his EXPRESSION there more like)) #i keep staring at it and going back and forth between thinking it's awe/reluctant intrigue #as though he's furrowing his brow because he WANTS to not get butterflies for stede but stede is making that Very Difficult HSDJKLS #OR #and hence me making this set- #he's feeling some sort of complicated emotion in seeing stede step away from the person he met him as #the colorful bitchy poised fine thing he fell in love with #because i am ALSO sitting here wondering if stede is doing this all entirely on his own volition #or if he was ENCOURAGED to do so by izzy or someone else as like a #'it'll win you more respect and win you back ed's heart if you act and dress this way' type deal #like something something another ongoing commentary on masculinity something something #but it could ALSO be stede really wanting that world/respect/look for HIMSELF #something something stede and ed wanting to be each other and delving into each other's realms something #but just as it soured a bit for ed #i have to wonder if it'll also sour a bit for stede #and they'll consequently find 'the other home' they're looking for in EACH OTHER #and settle into a mixture of swashbuckling ruggedness/finery and subsequently complete/compliment each other #IDK i'm not being very coherent about it HA but i have many many thoughts of course #stede changing up his entire aesthetic just has me very very intrigued on how he's going to move forward #and how others are going to perceive him

[little-pondhead]

Your Ancient History, Written In Wax

-

Danny knew he should have put better security around the Sarcophagus of Eternal Sleep. It wasn’t even Vlad who opened it this time! The fruitloop was too busy doing his actual mayor duties because for some godforsaken reason, the man got re-elected.

No, it wasn’t Vlad. And it wasn’t Fright Knight, either. Nor the Observants. Who opened the Sarcophagus, then? Danny didn’t have time to find out as Pariah Dark promptly tore open a hole in reality and hunting Danny down.

The battle was longer this time. He didn’t have the Ecto-Skeleton, as that was the first thing Pariah had destroyed. The halfa had grown a lot over the past few years, and learned some new tricks, but apparently sleeping in a magic ghost box meant that Pariah had absorbed a lot of power. The bigger ghost acted like a one-man army!

Amity Park was caught in the middle of the battle, but the residents made sure it went no further than that. Vlad and the Fentons made a barrier around the town to keep the destruction from leaking. Sam, Tucker, and Dani did crowd control while Danny faced the king head-on.

Their battle shook the Zone and pulled them wildly between the mortal plane and the afterlife. Sometimes, residents noticed a blow from Pariah transported them to the age of the dinosaurs, and Phantom’s Wail brought them to an unknown future. Then they were in a desert. Then a blazing forest. Then underwater. It went on like that, but no one dared step foot outside of Amity. They couldn’t risk being left behind.

It took ages to beat him, but eventually, Danny stood above the old ghost king, encasing his symbols of power in ice so they couldn’t be used again. He refused to claim the title for himself. Tired as he was, Danny handed the objects off to Clockwork for safe keeping and started repairing the damage Pariah had done to the town. The tear he’d made was too big to fix, for now, so no one bothered. They just welcomed their new ghostly neighbors with open arms and worked together to restore Amity Park.

Finally, the day came to bring down the barrier. People were gathered around the giant device the Fentons had built to sustain it. Danny had brought Clockwork to Amity, to double check that they had returned to the right time and dimension.

Clockwork assured everyone that they were in the right spot, and only a small amount of time had passed, so the Fentons gave the signal to drop the shield.

Very quickly did they discover that something was wrong. The air smelled different. The noise of the nearby city, Elmerton, was louder and more chaotic. Something was there that wasn’t before, and it put everyone on edge.

Clockwork smiled, made a remark about the town fitting in better than before, and disappearing before Danny could catch him.

Frantic, Danny had a few of his ghost buds stay behind to protect the town while he investigated.

He flew far and wide, steadily growing horrified at the changes the world had undergone. Heroes, villains, rampant crime and alien invasions. The Earth was unrecognizable. There were people moving around the stars like it was second nature and others raising dead gods like the apocalypse was coming. Magic and ectoplasm was everywhere, rather than following the ley lines like they were supposed to.

Danny returned to Amity.

The fight with Pariah had taken them through space and time. Somewhere along the way, they had changed the course of history so badly that this now felt like an alien world.

How was he supposed to fix this?

-

In the Watchtower, The Flash was wrapping up monitor duty while Impulse buzzed around him, a little more jittery than usual. The boy was talking a mile a minute, when alarms started blaring an alarming green. Flash had never seen this alarm before, and its crackling whine was grating on his ears.

Flash returned to the monitor, frantically clicking around to find the issue, but nothing was popping up. No major disasters, no invasions, no declarations of war. Nothing! What was causing the alarm?

Impulse swore and zipped to a window, pressing his face against it and staring down at Earth. “Fuck! It’s today isn’t it? I forgot!”

“What’s today?” Flash asked. He shot off a text to Batman, asking if it was an error. The big Bat said it wasn’t, and that he would be there soon.

“The arrival of Amity Park. I learned about this in school; the alarm always gives me headaches.”

Flash turned to his grandson, getting his attention. “Bart,” he stressed. “What are you talking about?”

Impulse barely glanced over his shoulder. Now that Flash was facing him, he could see a strong glow coming from Earth. “The first villain, first anti-villain, and the first hero,” he said anxiously. “They all protect the town of the original metas. They’re all here.”

“Here? Now??”

“Yeah? They weren’t before, but they are now. The first hero said there was time stuff involved, which was what inspired me to start practicing time travel in the first place.”

“I’m not following.”

“It’s okay. We should probably go welcome them before they tear apart Illinois, though. The history I remember says that some of them freaked and destroyed a chunk of the Midwest during a fight with each other.”

“WHAT?”

#dpxdc #pondhead blurbs #liminal amity park #I’ve seen stuff like this in the mhaxdp fandom and I eat it up every time #basically the fight with Pariah caused the town to jump through time a little #and while they THOUGHT they were keeping everything in #shit leaked out and tainted those points in time #so technically #historically and genetically speaking #Amity Park is the origin point for the meta gene and Danny made history as the first hero #because Clockwork is a little shit #everyone embodies a basic ability and it has grown from there #the flash family are direct descendants of Dani (speed force Dani for the win) #Dash is the reason super strength exists #so on and so forth #go buck wild #bart learned about it briefly in history class in the 30th century #practically hero worships them #booster gold knows about them too but in contrast to Bart’s excitement #booster is fucking terrified because there was a period where Amity Park rebelled against the US government #and he’s from that specific time #he learned to fear phantom because he lived during that part while Bart is from farther in the future when those issues got resolved #guess who’s chosen to welcome the town? >:) #if you’re wondering what happened to the GIW #they turned into the branch Amanda Waller runs #Danny is the first hero #Vlad the first villain #and Dani the first anti hero #there’s an arc where Danny is trying to fix things but clockwork won’t let him into the timestream and all the heroes are horrified #because yeah Danny is the OG but if he goes back in time to fix his ‘mistake’ what will happen to them?

[quasistell]

spying

#good omens #good omens fanart #good omens art #ineffable wives #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziracrow fanart #hmm i keep going back and forth over this one but. WHATEVER. post button

[pollyanna-nana]

I think it’s so interesting that Thistle sealed the Winged Lion away because it’s undoubtedly the reason why he was able to keep the dungeon going for 1000 years. And the thing is I don’t think we really know WHY he sealed it away, and he might not either!

He grows distrustful of the demon, like we see here, and at some point after this (and having more of his desires eaten, which we can tell by the WL’s increased size…) he seals it away. And knowing that he’s totally willing to do things like stuff his own grand nephew in a doll for going against him, it’s not like doing something like that is against his character. But, still. The fact that he just so happened to stumble upon the action that would allow him to prolong the kingdom’s existence as part of the dungeon is… interesting. Hell, even the Winged Lion is surprised that Thistle apparently did this without knowing that the demon ate desires:

This is just a hunch, but before taking Delgal into the dungeon and smashing the statue he talks about investigating the ruins a lot. And we know he does a lot of research, too. Could it be that he actually stumbled across the truth of the demon, but had the desire to do anything actionable with that knowledge nibbled out of him and forgotten about? But somehow, still had the overwhelming feeling of distrust in what the demon was saying?

He knows the Winged Lion lies and manipulates people, and yet he lacks the willingness— or perhaps, the capacity— to reflect that back on his own behavior. It’s fascinating, and makes me wonder how long he would’ve lasted if not for sealing it away. It could’ve been simply the same kind of lashing out we see him do towards the people he distrusts that serendipitously turned out to be the right move in this circumstance, or it could’ve been something more. Honestly I’m not even really sure what I think, I’d be interested in hearing other’s interpretations!

#polly speaks #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #thistle dungeon meshi #winged lion #thistle posting #dungeon meta #literally I’m not sure I keep going back and forth on this #if you think about it. thistle almost defeated the demon in a way until it figured out a way to outsmart him #even if he had no idea that’s what he was doing #hmmmmmm

[jebiknights]

Still kicking around the idea of making a 501st server dshaijgiwga

#i keep going back and forth on it #comm chatter

[robinfollies]

KEEP THE DANGER OUT // KEEP THE DANGER IN

#billie bust up #bbu billie #bbu fantoccio #robin’s art #2024 art #COMPANION PIECES BABY!!! started these last year (month) and finally finished em!!! :33 #i could write an ENTIRE essay abt billie and fanto and their parallels and stuff #which actually i love tumblr tags. lets do some of that here! #okAY IM NOT GONNA GO INTO EVERYTHING BUT HERES A BASIC RUNDOWN OF SOME OF MY THOUGHTS #let’s start by looking at goatshire + the lost city of magic !! #both places have some kind of border around them keeping SOMETHING in/out #goatshire’s wall keeping the trolls/other danger out; keeping the villagers inside safe #and the city’s barrier keeping the curse inside; while keeping everyone outside safe from it #but in turn it’s also keeping billie and fanto trapped in their respective places #one moreso than the other i guess but ahahaha. haha. heh. OKAY MOVING FORTH #unrelated but how sick would it be if the barrier broke and let the curse out. just sayiiin.. a lil theory thats been on my mind recently #anyways back to THE POINT #okay this parts gonna sound insane BUT JUST HEAR ME OUT HERE #goatshire citizens / the cursed city citizens. #billie and fanto both kinda stick out in their respecitve homes; fanto being the only uncursed guy and billie with their magic #so theres like. a real disconnect between them and others there. u get what i mean. #theyre both outliers and like something something allegory for neurodivergence and struggling to connect with others probably #SORRY GETTING AHEAD OF MYSELF. idk how to explain it BUT DO U GET IT!!! DO U UNDERSTAND!!!! #also they were both abandoned by SOMEone stares at arthur #okay specifically whoever fanto’s cretaor was left him behind but u know me im such a fanto elmtwig jak #something something loneliness and being left behind and having ppl around you who kinds understand u but also not totally. kicks rock #someone get these siblings some THERAPY!!!!!!! #this was a very disjointed explanation bUT HOPEFULLY I GOT MOST OF MY THOUGHTS ACROSS GOOD. IM BAD AT EXPLAINING THINGS SORRY #someone order me a yappuccino!!!!! BYE!!!!

[hunrising]

What’s baffling to me is that according to what western governments/media said these past days, hamas shouldn’t have attacked civilians in response to the violence they’ve been suffering for decades because it violates international laws, and I agree, civilians shouldn’t have been victims of an attack like this. However now, according to those same people, Israel has the absolute right to defend itself and have no other option but to respond aggressively, no matter how many civilians get caught in the crossfire, and thus also violating international laws? I’ve been racking my brain to see if I’m missing something, or if all of these politicians and journalists are intentionally contradicting themselves in order to please each other?

#I’m sorry I know I keep going back and forth with the topic but 1) I genuinely can’t stop thinking about it #and it feels wrong to stop thinking about it #and 2) I’m truly trying to understand how they can get away with lying and openly saying #‘we’re okay with the ethnic cleansing of palestinians’ #i understand the reason on their basic level (they do not care about brown people) #but surely they should at least pretend that they do? #I don’t know I feel like I’m being gaslit on a global level rn #because I know that as brown/muslim people we are never 100% safe in the west but this feels like it’s on another level #palestine

[scintillyyy]

an uncomfortable truth is that if batman and all the batkids were kidnapped and it was up to alfred to save only one while all the others would perish, alfred would push the button to save bruce with no hesitation before the villain was even done talking

and even more uncomfortable truth is that bruce would eventually forgive him this

#listen i *like* this about him #u cannot talk about bruce and dick's or bruce and tim's fucked up relationship #without first acknowledging the OG first and foremost fucked up relationship that is bruce and alfred #it oroginates there bless #listen alfred lived with dick for a solid like 6-10 years depending on what age u wanna go with for dick #and dearly loves him and would give him the world. however. if it were dick or bruce he'd sell out dick in a heartbeat #and alfred was a key figure in tim's training and spent many weekends one on one. drove him back and forth to school #was his vigilante chauffer constantly before tim got the redbird and while tim lost access to the redbird #lived with tim for 6 months while tim's dad was in a coma. recommended tim move next door so tim could keep being robin #lived with tim 6 months during NML. lived with tim 6 months to a year as tim's personal valet during brentwood #+ many others and he would still sell out tim in a heartbeat for bruce

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Folks, I come with important news from a dndads patreon monthly discord chat.

Anthony thinks Terry would crochet.

This has been a public service announcement, thank you.

#dndads #<- I guess I can't really call it a public announcement then not put it in the tag lol #also learned some non-definitive but still very interesting thoughts of his on a certain. situation. alas I can't really share that. #(not allowed ehe) #terry jr. #ALSO I LEARNED THE LOST QUIP ABOUT BIRDIE IT'S THAT SHE WAS IN A PHOTO AT HENRY'S PLACE WILDSHAPED AS A BIRD AHFLAEJF #gosh I wish I wasn't too shy to ask questions during these damn patreon chats! even typing... #I *almost* did. but then time was up afhafefehl #haven't been to one in a while but decided to sit in. #I really need to lower my patreon tier actually but I keep going back and forth on if I wanna wait for the season to end before doing so... #so Terry would crochet... Lark canonically sews... We just gotta come up with textile arts for the other 3 now

[sharkysherbetz]

Sewer rat

#oot #the legend of zelda #loz dark link #dark link #ocarina of time #my art #the lineart looks kinda weird because I shaped a sketch instead of actually doing lineart #i keep going back and forth between “i love thos” and “i hate this so much” and I think its because of the angle of the head