#i just feel it would be really cathartic

[canisalbus]

I've been following you for years, and I love your art. Seeing you repost your older art pieces reminded me how much I loved the angry, bitter, miserable Machete art and how it resonated with me... but a part of me is also so happy to see the current art of him being happy. Cute art of him as a unicorn, or chilling in a bathtub with Vasco. Like, we're all growing and healing :')

#thank you! #he's been angry and bitter and miserable for so long it feels nice to give him an ounce of happiness for a change #some reasons to live besides spite and sense of duty #answered #anonymous #I always saw him as a character who's unsalvageable corrupted and doomed by narrative #and that the only way out of his miserable existence was a well deserved death #it sounds extremely cliche but I genuinely had no idea it would be so cathartic to view him through a lens of like #hope and healing and being worthy of love and saving despite your evident flaws and failings #unplanned redemption arc kapow #Vasco really just sauntered in and flipped the whole situation on it's head #sorry folks he has a boyfriend and gets regular pets and hugs and kisses now

[lord-squiggletits]

Having late night angst Pharma thoughts and I think besides wanting to write a scene where Pharma lashes out in anger, and scenes where he does his crazy evil doctor persona to keep pretending he doesn't care, I also do want that scenario to eventually include peeling Pharma open emotionally somehow to get him to actually say his real emotions with no pretense

I'm not sure what scenario would lead to that or what would be an in character way for Pharma to express his grievances. Out of all the things he's angry/upset about which one hurts the most? Getting betrayed by Ratchet? None of the other Autobots caring about him either? Being made to murder people and possibly never getting to be a doctor again as a result?

Canon focuses mostly on the thing with Ratchet but I do think a Pharma centric scenario should delve deeper. After all even if Pharma is in love with Ratchet, it's boring and bad writing if EVERYTHING revolves around Ratchet and Pharma doesn't have thoughts/feelings about other things

So again, idk how it would be voiced in character or what scenario could lead to it, but I'd like to somehow see Pharma stripped down to the actual agonizing hurt and grief that you could read into his actions like.....

Ratchet left him alone to go to Delphi, then abandoned him again after Delphi and didn't even bother looking for his body after presuming him dead. If that's how Ratchet treated him after a lifetime of friendship, did he ever actually care about Pharma?

Is it any wonder that all the other Autobots left him for dead and treated him like a monster if not even Pharma's own best friend cared about him or was willing to give him the benefit of the doubt?

If Ratchet tries to patch things up, is he doing it because he actually cares or just to assuage his own guilty conscience? If he said he was sorry, would Pharma believe it/would it make him feel any better, or is it too little too late?

Why is it that Pharma's endless fate is to be left alone, facing down torture and coercion, alone, with no one who's his friend and barely anyone who even thinks he's tolerable/doesn't outright hate him?

(In a post-LL/Pharma doesn't die scenario) What is it about Pharma that makes him so despicable but people (especially Ratchet) are willing to tolerate and even befriend people like Drift or Megatron who did things as bad or worse? (No hate to them this is just a 'what if' angle of Pharma coming into this scenario)

Bc on one hand not giving a shit and being arrogant are valid parts of Pharma's character, but on the other hand there's a good amount of canon evidence implying that Pharma wasn't always Like That and even evidence that his crazy doctor thing was an act he was putting on. So why not write something about Pharma getting to voice insecurity, loneliness, betrayal, etc?

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #im feeling the whump in this house tonight #i just really really want to see a moment of pharma just dropping the act #baring his emotions in a grieving and messy kinda way idk #plus tangent but i think a cathartic ending for pharma would involve him getting over ratchet #not for ship reasons but bc he realizes he can stop being desperate for rstchet's care by just not csring #and recognizing he doesnt need to keep an old flame kindled if he feels that abandoned #maybe make new friends like velocity or something

[bonefall]

SKYSTAR DOES WHAT TO ARC

Man send this guy to cat hell let his dark forest edition be one eye eating him

HE MAULS HIM

Arc goes into his territory and Skystar RIPS! THAT! BOY! UP!!!

And then later Skystar uses the will of StarClan to justify his invasion of RiverClan, which BTW is 10000% consistent with A Forest Divided (a post redemption arc book) where he completely misinterprets Fluttering Bird in a way that would get him more power.

So if you just ignore the fact they tried to write him as being so scared :( he doesn't know what he's doing :( for the 400th time, it totally tracks. That's Skystar. That's who he is.

#For the record I'm like ACTUALLY laughing #This is DELIGHTFULLY awful I couldn't have asked for better #Anyone who is here who thinks I'm not having the time of my little impish life rest assured #I feel like I'm a small plover or perhaps a seagull nestled on the syracruse shoreline #and I just watched Archimedes fire a death ray incinerator blast at a roman ship #the flames reflected in my tiny black eyes #Verily I am witnessing a destruction beyond anything my little seagull mind could comprehend #but i am inherently a being of chaos and it nourishes me to be close to the divine glow of death and terror #It is Cathartic to watch more content of the arc I hate most be SO bad #This is the love that only a true hater can feel #Riverstar is the only cat I really TOTALLY like in DOTC but I knew this would happen. #I am the one true DOTC Understander. #And it was inevitable that they would do this to him. it was never good on purpose. #riverstar's home spoilers #So while on one hand there is a disappointment I feel. It's tempered by the deep knowledge that it was always meant to end this way #A tragedy in real life.

[coquelicoq]

feeling conflicted every time yoo joonghyuk whales on kim dokja with malice aforethought because on the one hand no!!! that's my little bastard man! but on the other hand. GOOD FOR HIM

#it is really a shame that kim dokja lost his resurrection attribute because i feel like it would be very cathartic for yoo joonghyuk #to just kill him every once in a while. it would be good for party harmony #orv #yjh #kdj #omniscient reader's viewpoint #my posts

[brown-little-robin]

I emailed one of my professors about the ridiculous amount of work being asked of me for homework in her class. please pray it works out and at least she's not offended

#robin processes emotions on main #I am. struggling. with this class. #and it's terrible because I've been this professor's research assistant for TWO YEARS. I like her. I respect her. #but I... I'm gonna get a sub-optimal grade in her class. I'm struggling so hard. I'm TRYING but it's TOO MUCH it's too many hours #sighhhhh #I'm going to get a B in another class too because of unrelated reasons (refusal on moral grounds to do some of the homework) #and it's kinda really hitting me in the emotions #to be struggling so hard in classes I actually LIKE and am legitimately good at #my worth is not in my grades #now if only I could FEEL that #haahhh... I need to spend some time in prayer or something #and/or maybe a breakdown. just a little one! it would be cathartic

[kithj]

my 2023 year in review:

published the most recent update for tnp in january

started work on hh originally in twine back in march

wrote and published one day hike in april

wrote and published faith in june for neo-twiny jam

refined hh as a novel instead and wrote the first draft between may-august

wrote and published siren's call in september

also started working on blood choke in may and published the prologue & ch1-2 in july, then ch3 in november

i started a few things that i haven't finished but will hopefully finish this year... bleeding heart will definitely be published within the next month for vampjamp.

i guess my hopes for this year will be:

finish bleeding heart in time for vampjamp (this will definitely happen)

finish the blackwater route for tnp and finally move on to ch3

ch4 of blood choke

workshop hell or highwater & decide what direction i want to take it in

start second draft of hh

#i did write a lot this year i guess. lol #just not for any of the projects i should have (tnp) #i cant really say im that proud of anything that i published tho #one day hike was cathartic and felt like the best thing i'd ever written at the time #but really i think it's just cus i actually finished something for once lmfao #i havent reread it and probably won't #i rushed siren's call and also havent reread it since september #i do like what ive done with blood choke. but im disappointed how much i dropped productivity on it after november #tnp took me at least 2 yrs before i started writing this slow #its frustrating how fast it happened with blood choke... #and even more frustrating bc im so excited for what i have planned. i want to be more proud of it #oh well. the time will pass anyways as they say #i really wish i had an office or desk to write at. i feel like i would be so much more motivated & productive #and also if i didnt work my shitty soul-sucking retail job but. lol

[masonscig]

why did book 3 obliterate ms characterisation?

i promise this isn't me copping out but i haven't played book 3 since it dropped in april '23, so i couldn't give you a 100% accurate answer even if i tried

i spent multiple days analyzing issues with characterization when it dropped and then my life started falling apart – if i could remember + repeat what i remember from those conversations i would

what i will say of what i remember, is that a lot of my issues stem from being led to believe that the romance would develop a certain way and it going in a completely different direction – obviously, i know and respect an author's vision, but the dip in quality from the demo to the actual finished product made me step back and view b3 differently. instead of a fully realized story that i could see building on itself and leading to something much bigger, it was painfully obvious that this is a game with stats that had to satisfy requirements.

i only played one full route (m's of course) and after a while the scene/mood changes were so disjointed it took me out of it – lighthearted to heavy with no time to unpack or discuss, i.e. big relationship moments sandwiched between research/combat scenes and conversations with random side characters.

ultimately, just felt like a checklist of scenes being ticked off as the story progressed rather than a natural buildup with a solid plot progression like b1 and b2 imo.

i know i haven't gotten to specific instances of m's characterization being obliterated, which i said as an exaggeration, bc m is still m at timesin b3, but other times is an actual stranger in text – i don't think i can give you specific examples, but i can at the very least say that the above issues were what led to the issues of m feeling ooc.

#also the flippancy of the human tr*fficking plotline. and m's joke about it. absolutely disgusting btw! #i started a b3 rewrite and had a fully fleshed out story that would be about 20+ chapters but... #i wrote a couple thousand words and then decided it wasn't worth it (also my life started falling apart so) #and it kind of is still rn! i don't wanna trauma dump on this post but i also don't want to sound like i don't care #i'm dealing with an unexpected loss of a local friend so being 'accurate' in this ask really isn't a priority to me rn #i still love m VERY deeply like they're one of my comfort characters but... i'm just going to have to explore what could've been on my own #speaking of that! i started writing a very cathartic mason x sofía fic that goes into some oc/rook lore #it's also me unpacking my own feelings bc of course i put a piece of myself in my writing KMSDMKFDM typical! #asks

[vse-kar-vem]

how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔 #if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it) #i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable! #fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom) #i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me ! #sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭 #vee rambles

[are-you-kobra-kidding-me]

I didn't realize how much i needed that. Screaming "i am not afraid to keep on living" along with the packed stadium and the band and having a moment about how far all of us have come and how much we've been through and we're all STILL HERE was like. We're ok. We've got this. It's going to be ok and we're here together.

#mcr #my chemical romance #yes i sobbed through famous last words dont @ me #it was so cathartic i cried on the way home too talking about it fjdkgjd #ive been through so much since i first listened to mcr #the band has been through so much #my friend who was with me #everyone around us #and all of us are still here #we've grown so much and we're still here #our past selves would be so proud #i am a different person now than i was when i was 15 #and idk this just. really made me feel like im gonna be ok #the music will always be here #and we all healed so much the band came back #we includes them ofc #because holy shit #im so proud of them #this is an incredible rebirth #anyway sorry for word vomit its 2am and ive had 2 monsters today and an mcr concert

[perenlop]

pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:

the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon

to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)

the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon

pretty much everything about that gible

blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)

boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen

pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character

#sorry ik i keep bringing up the throwaway line but like. its SOOOOOOOOOO bad holy shit #the heracross one isnt aaaaaas bad tbf bc they really make up for it in the sinnoh league #but aside from one ep in the miniseries we never quite get an episode where oshawott proves itself in a battle #i still love that episode bc it still kinda feels like an apology for all the oshawott bashing in bw but i am a little :/ #that battling didnt even come up once #ive kiiinda eased up on gliscors benching episode bc at the end of the day it isssss pretty good to her. also its the best animated one #but its treatment like what i mentioned that still really drags it down to me #and also like. i know ppl praise gliscor being so powerful after the episode but i really dont get why we couldnt have just #had a gliscor training arc onscreen. but ig we wouldnt have that stupid ass gible plot that went nowhere now would we #but like.... we had such a huge stretch between that episode and the league. i really dont get why we couldnt have had a mini arc #where gliscor realizes shes not pulling her weight that well and really starts hauling ass #she doesnt really even sweep in the paul fight. she gets beaten immediately by ninjask #the drapion part was awesome tho yayyyy #but my point is that it wouldnt really change much if gliscor just stayed and got stronger on its own #have the bench episode be a wake up call for gliscor rather than a goodbye one and she becomes super competent #like im not just saying this bc gliscor is my favorite character in the entire show. i feel like its straight up kinda lazy and less reward #rewarding #imagine how the drapion fight could be EVEN MORE cathartic if we saw gliscor struggle and fight to get better throughout the show #as much as i like that specific battle and ash vs paul as a whole... it just kinda proves my point that sending gliscor away at all #was kind of a shitty move #like ohhhhh ash's team is all getting revenge for lake acuity yay!!!!! oh one of them was kicked off for the sake of a shitty gible plot th #which really only served to make shitty piplup bashing jokes and only actually had a conclusion in the league itself #by which time it was too late to actually do anything else with it. yeah we kicked someone off for that. but shes back now!!! #like it doesnt weaken the battle THAT much. in fact theres some value in how ash went out of his way to make sure gliscor could be there #so her defeat could also be avenged. and its still my fave battle in the whole anime. but it just proves to me how pointless that was reall #echoed voice

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

trying really hard not to make a video abt them bc it'd be a thasmin video in disguise and it wouldnt be fair but oh my god the euphoria of a nice kiss scene tho??

#the AMOUNT of times ive mentally put this moment in thasmin videos #like do i think they Should have kissed? not necessarily. not really #would it have been cathartic as fuck tho? yes kinda #they shouldve done like hannibal and do 1 deleted version where they do kiss #before throwing themselves off the cliff #just. i just want to be able to use it you know? #anyway i love these two i feel like im watching carmilla again #it's ntohing like carmilla at all this is just evidence of how little gay stuff i watch

[wisheswagered]

man that last reply got me thinking about frederick trapped in the manor again.... he's so????

it's not enough for him just to be able to help people with music. because to him, even if he wasn't doing anything, he thinks that someone else would just step in instead and do something else that could fill that role just as well. because of that, he specifically craves like......... to be able to do something that no-one else could, i think??? something only he could do, something that makes him truly needed, in a way so that if he wasn't there, something would really be missing.

maybe it's selfish. a need to be special more than anything else. or maybe it's not. idk, but like............ i have gotta say i find more traits in frederick to relate to every day SDJGKSFHKG

#ooc #headcanons. #IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN WHAT I MEAN BUT IT'S LIKE............. when you feel like you aren't truly helping people or it ''doesn't count'' becaus #someone else could do what you're doing just as well as you can............. and probably would even if you did nothing?? #i really struggle with this sometimes idk. and apparently frederick does too; as i have just discovered now- #it's not a trait i like in myself because it /feels/ self-centered but it still gets me!! maybe it's not though???? idk #anyway frederick kreiburg i love you so much and it's kind of cathartic to have him experience the same struggles tbh. #truly the muse of all time!!

[x-adoringvoid-x]

Part 23

How ambitious!

#self shipping #oc f/o #f/o art #fictional other #brixcomic #As much as I love Hadri...I don't think I could be like 'omg yes!!' here #this would be immensely overwhelming #But...they want to know more about me q///q #That's one big reason I like Hadri. Even if they feel like they're above everything they are genuinely curious #and I'm a weird little thing they can figure out #Well once they kneel down to get a better look at me I'm gonna charm them so much they'll willingly live on my level #cause they'll feel like they can have a place there or something...! #btw if you can tell I love god stories and stories of mortal people interacting with gods/other supernatural stuff #there's a big soup of reasons for that that I don't really know how to bring up #Though it's probably just I think the supernatural/normal person relationships are so cute and comfortable #That's a big plus to the selfship community I'm really glad I could be in a space where there's so many diverse couples;; #Also ya I had a lot to say today ^u^ #watched a sad video but it was cathartic

[black-rose-writings]

Dear Saints, I forgot how much I hate trying to write Alina.

Shit's not good for my mental health.

#grishaverse #grishaverse fanfiction #anti alina starkov #just in case #sweetie is giving me anxiety attacks #not really #but I do have to get close to get her right #alina's particular brand of overthinking overreaction hits way too close to home #I'm actually in a pretty good place right now #I would not even try this if I was in a bad place #writing Bloom's fucked up mind is cathartic #because I feel like I'm guiding her through a journey into getting better #writing Alina's fucked up mind is horrible and depressing #because she has an entirely wrong idea about what getting better means #and even if I wanted to guide her there I will have to fight her every fucking step #at least in the other fic her fears are kinda valid #here she's just wantonly paranoid trapped in a hell of her own making #like baby I want you to go to therapy #but you can't #because it's the 19th century #this shit aint healthy #for her or for me

[shouldprobablybereading]

To practice doing marker portraits I thought it was a good idea to do stormlight main characters. So i did shallan, which was easy. Followed by dalinar as a challenge. I can do kal last, kal is easy right? WRONG I’ve tried multiple times and it just isn’t working.

So now I have shallan and dalinar on my wall, which is probably the weirdest combo of characters that you could choose. Like if it was someone like lift and either you would just assume it was random characters. Or if it was kal and either it would be the main protagonist and another main protagonist. Even jasnah would work with either. But now it's just weird

#they're not friends #they’re not a team #they’re just inlaws who happen to be on the same side of a war #I would like to see them interact more tho #it’s very fascinating to me how sanderson reuses so many tropes between their characters #despite being so different #like how do you get away with having your flashback character kill someone and then forget about it two books in a row #without it feeling repetitive #them and wayne have this self destructive streak that is really cathartic

[possiblytracker]

got dragged to a pub quiz with some of my housemates buddies and was fully convinced i was not really gonna have a good time and itd probably be too loud and i wouldnt be much help etc etc etc bc my mood is still not great but i forgot im a competitive motherfucker when it comes down to it and the sheer rush of euphoria that comes from knowing a few more obscure answers that had the rest of the room hemming and hawing is gonna carry me through the next week probably

#when nobody else in the wetherspoons in rural wales knows what the capital of florida is or what you call a female swan #the big ass grin spreading across my face and sheer rush of Power listening to 2 people the next table over arguing over whether #its jacksonville or miami. you Fools. you absolute buffoons. i know more than you/j/j/j/j #i am so exhausted now and the 'yea this is Over you are enjoying urself too late' sadness is creeping back in but it was worth it #we came 3rd...... the prize was a whole pitcher of some cocktail for the group but i do not drink so i just went home to bed #a female swan is called a pen btw i knew that six month long job spouting swan facts at 8 year olds would come in handy someday #IDK i still have a lot to work through but i feel like i should make a slightly less depressing post today skdfjh;; #shoutout to my housemate for always somehow noticing when i have just not left my room in a day and coming to drag me out of it #i was so close to just not eating again (which tbf. i didnt. until like 6pm whoops) #but now i have done that AND touched grass AND socialised AND feel good abt myself a bit.. so..... #i worry a lot that people dont really. notice or care that much when im struggling/when they do that its annoying or a burden so #im very grateful to have people who care about me enough to try and pull me out of it. i hope wherever i end up after this #that i can surround myself with more people like that #man this feels pretty bittersweet to think about as well but in more of a cathartic kinda way. i guess #trying to think abt things slightly more positively so i dont turn into a festering black pit of bad vibes for the next few weeks #and my blog still inexplicably feels like the nicest place to sort through this kinda thing