#i have a list i'm going down

[ta-teufel]

I am Casimir and he is me.... but he probably would fit in that box, Azar.

#sometimes i draw stuff #lots of silly comics #i have a list i'm going down #could be canon #fragmented dreams #webcomic #casimir #diana massey #azar #live or die for sandwiches #oc

[blue-jos10]

i wonder how kevin's fitness-obsessed mind justifies his alcohol addiction

#kevin day #aftg #all for the game #like does he think as long as his hangovers don't effect his court time its ok? #that doesn't really fit with the idea that he's a health freak outside court too #like you're telling me he doesn't see the irony of counting calories in decimals then downing a litre of straight vodka? #or is he just so addicted he cant stop? #i feel like he'd go for rehab if he thought it would influence his long term playing but that doesn't seem to be on his bucket list #like i get he'd be hopelessly addicted at the nest but now that his future seems to have some light i'm not sure why he still lets his #addiction destroy him slowly when he's thankfully now adamant on achieving a livable life #idk if this makes sense or if its been addressed somewhere else before but yeah i was just wondering #also sorry if this is inconsiderate or ignorant as to how addictions work i don't know the best

[pharawee]

"I'm not saying I'm leaving. I mean I'll drink other blood instead."

—Bonus:

#1000 years old #1000 years old the series #bigboss natthakit #yourmood #boy surat #boy yourmood #1000yearsoldedit #thai bl #thai drama #bl drama #bl series #my edits. #i did not have shipping yourmood with an annoying vampire on my bingo list for 2024 #oh no mr scary vampire don't drink my tasty alien blood while i'm pressed against the wall with my hands held over my head #but honestly same shin same #what am i even going to do with this information? #write fic?? #i need to lie down #before i gif the part where somchai chokes shin for like 1 second

[mattodore]

pose making they could never make me hate you

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #......... i should probably just make a tag specifically for my blender wips actually #ummmm...... #blender #obviously 😭 will go back and retag old blender posts with this tag eventually #missed this soooo bad i'm having so much fun 😭😭 #<- person who just made a simple hug pose #no but. #there’s seriously nothing better than being able to do whatever i want in blender #if i knew how to render the way like rai and the rest of you can TRUST ME!! i would be posting mattodore content every dayyy #but since i can't even rip matthias's sim without his skin details fucking up i just make poses for in-game use </3 #i have this huge list of poses i want to make and shitty notes app drawings of some ideas i've scribbled down these last few weeks lmao #and i also want to start learning how to animate....... which i might spend some time on tomorrow #like getting blender back in order makes me so happy 🧎 #i’ve got so much i want to do in here!! #but okay... i do need to go lay down kjdfhnfgjn i'm gonna read and try to sleep mwah mwah mwah #bye to the three other people online rn 👋

[dianagj-art]

sooooo... I'm setting up a patreon

is mostly gonna be for early acces for comics and post some of my proccess (in screenshots and sometimes speed draws) but now that I'm getting more into animating again... would you guys be interesed in like... an animation tier, with storyboards and rough animatics?

#maybe i'll just stick to the comic thing first and add the animation later on #but who knows #I'm also writing down a list of the things im gonna post on patreon rn because i have quite some wips saved #not to go *nugde nudge wink wink* on everyone for the animation thing #but I'm working on two SLAU animatics #one is au focused with Oh No! by marina as a song #and the other is a crossover with the Little Subjects au #that one already has a very rough animatic done #anyways #dg rambles

[coquelicoq]

i support Yoo Joonghyuk Wrongs because i'd be so pissed if i was severely suicidal and some asshole convinced me to Give Life A Chance and gave me hope and then fucked off for three years letting me think he was dead??? leaving me to watch all of our friends do stupidly risky shit like the stuff i used to do before he made me Care about my and their lives?? NOT warning me and NOT telling me what he was doing like okay fuck that guy actually!!!!

#oh okay we're life and death companions?? CAN YOU ACTUALLY LIVE FOR A CHANGE THEN??????? #i'm living i chose to live because of YOU BY THE WAY so if we're supposed to be life or death companions you have to live too! #that's how it works! you fucking dingus jerkwad bastard asshole!!!!! #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yjh #kdj #my posts #love kim dokja. also hate him on behalf of every single character. #the way he comes back and his biffles 1) lock him up 2) sedate him 3) try to get the right of life or death over him so as to forcibly #remove his ability to sacrifice himself all the goddamn time 4) get arrested with him so he won't be alone in the underworld 😂🤣😭 #just picturing all of them working out a chore list in the industrial complex but it's just shifts of #Sitting On Dokja-Ssi's Chest So He Can't Go Anywhere Or Do Anything #usually when there's a character who doesn't realize how adored they are i'm dragging my fingers down my face like #rapunzel the lanterns are for you!!! #but with this guy specifically i just want to hold him down and shriek directly into his earholes.

[ludoka]

Jackson watched Mr. Grimm sit down in his desk chair.

"So," he began doubtfully, "are you telling me I can do whatever I want while I'm stuck here? "Won't they force me to follow a story I don't know and I can take whatever classes I want?"

"Not exactly the ones you want," Grimm said. "Classes that are similar to the ones you have at your school. So that you don't fall too far behind or miss anything. With a little luck, perhaps, you have the same study topics. Outside of that, yes. You can do whatever you want. As long as no Utterson, Lanyon or Enfield enter the school gates, you will be completely free from my brother's pressure."

Jackson sighed in relief. I had no idea who the people he named were and had no intention of finding out. Just seeing the expressions on the faces of the Grim brothers and Baba Yaga was more than enough to know that he did not want to know what that book contained. If the few days he had been in Ever After taught him anything, it was that the stories told at home were very different from the ones told here. And he had no intention of knowing how different his great-grandparents' history was.

"Thank you for letting me know, Mister."

"It doesn't matter. You can now leave. I'm sure you'll enjoy chatting with your new classmates about what possible classes you'll have." He said with a smile.

"Thank you, have a nice day." The boy turned around and headed for the door. As he was about to leave he heard the vice principal's voice again.

"Before you go, young Jekyll." The professor had gotten up from his desk and was now looking at him standing with his arms crossed behind his back. "If I were you, I wouldn't trust my particular situation. There may not be a book you have to sign to seal your fate. But there is still a destiny. After all, destiny is just another name for our future. Ever After has shown that it can drag us to fulfill our destinies in an unexpected way. And if I have learned anything from my students, it is that in those moments it is important to have your heart in the right place." With that, Giles Grimm gave him a small smile and then lost himself in the shelves full of books.

Jackson had no idea what he was talking about and hoped he could leave before he knew it.

#monster high #ever after high #jackson jekyll #holt hyde #giles grimm #This came out of nowhere #This is part of: Jackson and Holt's Wild Year #I think I'm going to write down any loose ideas I have about this. #It's more fun this way #Although I will probably give a small list of ideas to keep them more organized. #Mh #eah

[fedoraspooky]

I haven’t been here long. What irritating changes have been made?

Credit where it's due, some changes have been good, like polls and stuff! But the big recent changes thus far that I would classify as irritating are:

- The UI change. This one may be less irritating for newcomers because it's basically the same layout as twitter and instagram, but for a lot of folks who've been here a long time, it feels cramped and like a loss of identity for the site. For many, the appeal of tumblr is that it ISN'T an algorithm hell like twitter or insta. Also, there's the annoyance of having to relearn where everything is, because it all got moved around.

- The users being lab rats for various tests the devs wanna pull out of nowhere without consenting to beta testing new site features- like the one that took away user icons on the dash for like half the site. They finally put them back after getting enough feedback that said NO, but users were so used to their feedback being disregarded that they were half expecting the change to be pushed through anyway.

- The Netflix tie-in advertising being pushed even to people who had PAID tumblr for a no-ads experience. Complete with them somehow thinking it would be a good idea to put an unescapable-by-scrolling spooky clown on peoples' dashboards that u had to use ublock to get rid of. While I'm not scared of clowns and often find them quite charming, it sucks that staff didn't take coulrophobia being a common fear into account.

- A wave of fully sfw trans posts being wrongfully marked Mature and staff doing little to nothing about it. Not sure if this is still ongoing, but it destroyed a lot of trust and good will. (LGBT+ users have been having to fight a constant war against censorship ever since the adult content ban on tumblr, so yeah... Nevar 4get the list of banned search words that would bring back no results, like 'girl')

- The site gradually moving away from customization. Tumblr is a BLOGGING site. But it seems to have lost sight of that fact, because most new users don't even know you can fully customize your blogs with css and stuff (an option that is now off by default for new accounts!), because of the in-dash viewer giving you only how blogs look on mobile, which is a lot more uniform. There, it's more like every other site- you get a banner and icon. Oh, but you can change colors and fonts from a drop-down list too, that's cool I guess. Though they recently took away custom color schemes on Message windows, just another little bit of personalization taken away.

- TUMBLR. LIVE. Basically tumblr teamed up with a skeevy dating app partner to allow for livestreams- but not the cool kinda livestreams like on twitch where you can draw or play games, no- to a site full of people who value anonymity, they decided to push phone cam only livestreams. Not only that but by agreeing to the terms, you're giving out tons of personal data including your location to said skeevy dating app partner and all of THEIR third-party ad partners. Needless to say, most people didn't wanna use it, so instead of users it's flooded by p*rn bots (which is ANOTHER issue we've been dealing with for a long time and have been getting an even bigger influx of FROM tumblr live) and scammers. And thus, since tumblr likes to put a carousel of current streams on people's dashes, you often get softcore p*rn thumbnails from the bot streams with no way to avoid it except for toggling off tumblr live entirely.

- Oh wait. That's right. You CAN'T toggle it off. Because you can only snooze it for a while until BAM, you're jumpscared by a carousel of ladies licking your screen again! But hey, at least they made the snooze 30 days instead of the 7 it used to be, right? Yeah, except for the fact that you can't get rid of the tumblr live button itself on the app anymore, and now it's front and center with a NEW notification tag on it, overlapping your dash and cramming useful stuff like the search button out of the way.

NOW- A lot of this stuff CAN be at least mostly fixed on desktop by installing ublock and xkit and tampermonkey + dashboard unfucker... But that's a lot of stuff just to make the site usable, you know?

#this isn't even a comprehensive list but hopefully that covers all the big ones #anyway i get tumblr has to make money and it's currently not doing that #but burning through the remaining good will of the people who stuck around through earlier bs doesn't seem like a great idea either #ah well... i'm still here regardless #i've already had to leave deviantart behind because it became an ai cesspit... and it sucked. I had a lot of good memories there. #it sucks to uproot everything and move. so unless something equally bad happens here i'll probs be going down with the ship lol #also there's like nowhere else to go right now which is a huge problem; #i've been trying to look for other places to post too but none really have the same laid-back feeling tumblr does. #also i love the asks system too much. more sites need that honestly #anyway i rambled enough hope this helps u get an idea of why people are angy #asks

[jils-things]

to love someone is to heal someone

#~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode #anyways ... this is a little personal to me #especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now #today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even #i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore #its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later #and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing #i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness #my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately #i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again #but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass #rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me #who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd #ahh anyway

[koskela-knights]

Imagine if the AW2 fandom had blown up

Iike fandoms in the early 2000s did or even 2010s when the first game actually came out.

Just imagine the kind of music videos we could've gotten

Bring Me To Life ALAN WAKE FAN VIDEO

Alan x Alice || Everytime We Touch Fan MV

Mr Scratch x Alan YAOI BL

ScratchWake || Malchik Gay NSFW!

What Hurts The Most - Jaakko RIP Tribute

For Your Entertainment - Mr Scratch + bonus yaoiii

HOT AW BOYS 18+ Sexy Naughty Bitchy

Rose/Alan Rarepair! Diary of Rose

Jaakko and Ilmo - Promise of lifetime

Alan & Barry are best friends! (Toy-Box Best Friend)

Mister Scratch Tribute- MONSTER

Ilkka Villi is Mr Wonderful

#the list could go on tbh lmao #memes #my posts #alan wake 2 #alan wake #not this list being so telling on where i was a decade ago #I'm just kinda surprised the AW fandom was so small?? #but most remedy games seem to have that or maybe I was in the wrong circles lol #there were only a handful of fanfics on ao3 thought that has changed #big nostalgia trip down memory lane #used to eat up all those MV for various fandoms #my ramblings #honestly fandom culture and its evolution is very interesting to look at #my memes

[miodiodavinci]

head in hands like "maybe i should have realized this about myself sooner" as i am surrounded by neon flashing signs that Very Clearly Indicate the thing i should have realized about myself sooner

#anyway i'm just mulling about the 'tism skdjfhgljhdfg #thinking about how i've been having a hard time on site with my internship because i struggle to make small talk with my superiors #and everything is uncomfortable and terrible all of the time and i feel so so out of my depth #but talking with my university superior about the methodology of our profession #has me feeling like i'm playing just dance on extreme and i'm nailing every single beat w #like quite literally is like one of those rhythm games where when you get a combo it plays a cool sound effect #and i'm playing so well the sound effects are overlapping and the screen is just an explosion of stars w #so yeah i am. very comfortable talking academics and theory and things but. shit in social situations. #when i don't have that to rely on whoops #anyway it's just another thing on the incredibly long list of things i have building in my mind of #'why i should have realized i'm probably on the spectrum sooner' #the thrilling sequel to 'how did i go 20+ years without realizing i have ADHD' w #(speaking of) #(the way my ADHD has been leaping into the spotlight this week) #(biggest highlight was being jumpscared not once) #(not twice!!) #(but THREE times by food i had bought for myself) #(put down briefly) #(and then forgotten about for upwards of 30 minutes to 5 hours) #(like the other day i bought myself a little pastry on the way home as a congrats for surviving another week) #(and i put it on the table when i came inside) #(but i. forgot i did that. and went like 4 hours without even thinking about it) #(until i got up and left my room and saw the bag and went '! ! ! ! ! ! ! OH MY GO D MY PASTRY NOOOOOOO') #(the adhd and the autism . . . . they are attacking my ass . . . . . )

[youareinacomawakeup]

Sora and Riku are SO...

Soriku is an emotion all its own for me. I can't describe it. Like shipping something is a feeling, yeah? Like it's dopamine, it's serotonin, it's "I like this. Looking at them together makes me feel the Good Feeling."

But I can't describe the way Sora and Riku are...unique to that for me. It's this unique concoction of brain chemicals I can't put a name to. Nothing else feels like them. When they're in my brain, when they curl up and make a home there, it's just...completely indescribable. It just... I don't know, guys, I don't KNOW.

It's like-- Okay, as a writer, inspiration is also a unique emotion. It's not just "oh i had an idea" it's just this sudden flooding of "Oh, I can do anything." A passion, but different.

Soriku is also a unique emotion, something I struggle to articulate. It's like trying to describe the flavor of something in a way that other people can taste it in their mouths just by hearing it.

It's secondhand love, it's home, it's adoration, it's safety, and I know how fucking insane this is coming across, like true obsession, but even saying "I'm addicted, it's a drug," seems too goddamn shallow for what this feeling is. It's not enough.

It's just...them.

#soriku #complete insane rambling #i just have feelings okay #god i wanna write a soriku fanfic now #but i have this huge list of unfinished works i've been trying so hard for the last year to file down #i'm almost finished with two of them #and i want to go back to working on noah after they're done #but i love these boys so much and i think maybe i should change the fact that i've never published any of my fics for them #and the last time i wrote one was like seven years ago minimum #so like no you're not getting any of my old stuff #that's staying in the trunk where it belongs #if i'm gonna write a soriku fic it's gonna be the one i came up with an idea for like a month ago

[front-facing-pokemon]

#ahh‚ the other half of team tasty. the ever-so-ravenous subject of wurmple's endless fear #swellow #i've already talked at length about how much i love team tasty but this is Literally the team tasty Guy this is Him!! it's the Dude!! #ugh every team had like. goals‚ didn't they? and bulbapedia lists their goals. i remember 'cause team meanies just said cause trouble #or something like that. fuck lemme go look #okay no team meanies was “wealth and world domination” fine #DAMN team tasty's purpose is unknown. i thought there would be SOME subtext in the game with how much dialogue they have #i'm gonna have to replay pmd sky all over again just so i can closely follow these two's story down to a fuckin tee #i gotta keep a very close eye on these dudes next time i play it. but. i'm gonna finish totk first because holy shit #i love that game. a lot. i've been playing it like all day the past few days after work #fellow totkers rise up. this is not a zelda blog it's a pokémon blog #here's swellow

[kiwichaeng]

WIP Wednesday

Thank you for the tags @heartstringsduet @lemonlyman-dotcom @fallout-mars @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad <33

“Are you going to hover over me the entire night? Am I going to find you looking down at me at 3 am?” Carlos’ tone is light as he finishes sits down heavily on the edge of the bed. He doesn’t hide the wince as well as he thinks. TK remains quiet in the corner.  Carlos looks up when he doesn’t get a response. He tilts his head and looks at TK curiously.  “What are you doing all the way over there? I know you don’t need to sleep but I would feel better if you didn’t stare at me from the corner the entire night.” TK knows it’s in good faith, that they’ve come leaps and bounds since they met and if nothing else else, the humour in Carlos’ eyes would give it away but tonight, all TK can do is play back the evening’s event in his mind over and over.  He knows Carlos has noticed it. He had kept on shooting glances at TK the entire time at the hospital as he was being treated to the point where the doctor had asked him if he was looking for someone.   The white bandages peaks out from under Carlos’ collar and TK’s eyes are fixed on them like a moth to a flame.  This is on him, that he got someone as good as Carlos tangled up in his mess. He should never have followed him home, never forced him into helping and should have— He should never have gotten attached.   “I have to go. You should too,” TK murmurs in the quiet room and made for the door. He doesn’t look at Carlos once as he slipped out of the room. “What— TK wait,” He can hear the confusion in Carlos’ voice turn into panic. “Where are you going?”  With a heavy heart, TK ignores the calls and keeps walking straight ahead down the empty hallway.  “TK,” Carlos whispers loudly from behind him but TK doesn’t turn back. It is only when he hears a sharp inhale and a wince does he stop.

open tag and no pressure tags under the cut <3

@liminalmemories21 @lightningboltreader @orchidscript @strandnreyes @reyesstrand @paperstorm @carlos-in-glasses @carlos-tk @ladytessa74 @three-drink-amy @chicgeekgirl89 @theghostofashton @redshirt2

#lemme know if you wanna be added or removed from the tag list <3 #I have been writing in snippets these past few days and I just need to sit down and compile everything as well as fill in the missing blank #also I don't really edit as I go so the snippets I post on here may change a bit in the final draft or even look completely different #What I'm trying to say is that I'm aware they need polishing #anyway! this obviously takes place slightly down the imaginary timeline I keep on fucking around with #also I am in such a writing mood right now but I also have a shit ton of work to do like...gotta suffer now #evie's writing #autopsy fic

[drizztdohurtin]

also, my ask box is always open for recommendations but I can't make any promises on a long-form post. not necessarily requests but if there's a suggestion I'd love to hear it, otherwise I'd be open to “requests” for like.. really short hc posts?

#y'all know i'm online at all times so if anyone wants to do HC talk you KNOW I'm down for some HC talk #so like I said ask box is always open - this poll is more so for longer form posts that go more in depth #I definitely think I could write many more that aren't listed here but these are the ones I could churn out pretty quick in my opinion #also I lowkey feel like I should do the tiefling hcs before any of the rolan ones but also I don't know that I have the patience... #serena the yap-atron 3000 #rolan #gale dekarios #tiefling #bg3 #x tav #x reader #smut #writing #headcanons #wife #baby boy

[novelconcepts]

more and more it's feeling like we just...don't have room for people trying anymore. it's all or nothing; get it right the first time, or be crucified by a jury you can never fully see or convince. and this isn't new, isn't born of current events. it's become more and more prevalent over the last ten years thanks to social media putting every little thought on blast, but i'd put money on the idea that it's actually been brewing much longer than that. and, for me, it goes beyond being tiring or upsetting. it feels bleak. it feels downright fucking broken that we're all so busy trying not to condone anything remotely problematic that we don't leave room for good faith learning. watching people trying to suss out their own identity--something literally ONLY they can fully understand or explain--be vilified for trying to fit words around their own experience sucks. watching people misunderstand something and try to apologize for it later, only to be told they should have known all along, sucks. seeing people who once held truly toxic beliefs actually grow and learn and apologize and still be told to fuck themselves as if they're a lost cause--it sucks. just. does that not fill you with despair for the state of things? does that not break something in you, to think that if you one day don't understand something, or misuse a word, or grapple with complicated feelings, it will forever stain you in the eyes of perfect strangers?

dude the world is fucked, and we all see it, but like. it doesn't feel like it helps to be so goddamn reactive. it doesn't feel like it helps anyone to demand perfection out the gate. it's exhausting. there are enough people out there who don't want to learn, who aren't trying, who actively revel in cruelty. looking for malice in every little fuck-up from people who seem to be genuinely striving to live their lives with kindness strikes me as lending strength to an army that already glories in suffering. and makes the world look more fucked than ever. and i really don't know that that energy is what we need when there's already so much to set right.

maybe it's just me. maybe this last decade just shattered something in me. but i really, really hate the idea--reject the idea, frankly--that people can't learn and change and grow. that people can't be better than a bad day or a failure of understanding. i reject the idea that people are something to be thrown out because they fucked up. it just seems...yeah. bleak. really fuckin' bleak.

#personal #i dunno dude #this is that fighting energy from earlier. found some actual words for it i guess #but i'm just so tired #shit's fucked. some shit's complicated. and some isn't--some feels incredibly straightforward to me. #and to the next person maybe there's more nuance. it's all so fucking...there's so much to process all the time #and i catch myself in knee-jerk mode #i catch myself writing people off. making lists in my head. sometimes it's just purely a matter of safety #but god the things i'd give for some of those people to come back into my world #to learn. to grow. to apologize. to decide they value kindness and life over brainwashed beliefs #i would give so much for those friends back. those family members. those people i knee-jerk wrote off back in 2015 #i shrunk my world down when i cut them out. i shrunk it down when i told them to fuck off instead of having a conversation #i actively made my safety net smaller in the effort to keep myself protected #and i just keep watching other people do similar things #and thinking like. if i could go back. if i wasn't so hot-headed and Certain that evil thoughts make a person evil #or that miseducation or ignorance or straight-up brainwashing broke a person for good #maybe it would all be different now than it was for my 25-year-old self #i just. i don't fucking know. #people are trying. people need to KEEP trying. #and telling them they're shit for NEEDING to try is only ever going to carve out the part of them that wants to be better #the world is fucked. why help fuck it even more. what is the point of that. #and i'm not saying don't call people on their shit. but maybe calling them shouldn't look like telling them to kill themselves #maybe it should involve a little grace #slamming doors just feels like it makes the house smaller. and shuts off exit routes you might need later #and i kinda wish i'd known that in my 20s