#i have a fucking headache wow

[lesbianlotties]

six women walk into a wellness center... and the recovering addict gets accidentally killed by her best friend, who was trying to protect her from a suicidal young woman, who was trying to protect her cult leader, who got shot by a mean teenage girl, who was just trying to protect her murderous mom, who was being hunted by her high school soccer team, that included a senator that kills dogs and a lesbian with terminal cancer. and also elijah wood killed a cop

#it's a perfectly normal show where perfectly normal things happen #i have a fucking headache wow #yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #yellowjackets s2

[relaxxattack]

every time someone calls moirallegience just an alien qpr i wilt a lil like YEAH thats more or less the CLOSEST human thing but its also Literally Not That. like a qpr is fundanmentally not romantic and thats not even going into moirails whole Actual Purpose of calming ppl down. its just. aughhhhh pisses me off i see the confusion but, as aformentioned, aughhhhh

OH MY GOD THIS HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME TOO.... but i don't want to get petty at the people in my notes always saying "moirails are QPRs!" because in some ways that is the closest human thing so it's hard to be mad...

i think there's definitely some overlap in some ways. but NOT because moirallegiance and qprs are the same at all really, but INSTEAD because both relationships have unconventional boundaries defined by the people within them.

you know... like every relationship.

like the only reason the two have overlap is because they are both partnerships that emotionally care for each other but can choose to not bang (which is true for any romance anyway, even if it's considered abnormal). they're both just romances* that are unconventional to human norms, which makes people view them as the same thing when they're not.

i think the REAL issue here is that humans insist on using human words to understand things that are just, fundamentally, alien. can't we just appreciate alien romance for being... alien romance?

no, it's not platonic, it's romantic. it's just romantic in a way you aren't quite wired to understand, is all.

*in generalization, most QPRs are not romantic, because they are made up of aroaces who are life partners in a non-romantic way. however i want to disagree with you that none of them are romantic, because that is up to the partners in question.

#quadrants #homestuck #moirallegiance #BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR SO LONG OMG THANK YOU FOR THE ASK #its just i USED to think they were the same #and then recently i kept getting pissy when people said they were the same so i was like. okay let's unpack this #what's the overlap here and what's the differences? #and really people THINK theyre the same because they think theyre both like. 'im gonna platonically marry my friend!' ^w^ #(which is obviously not actually what either of them are like. lol) #when REALLY what they have in common is 'hey you're a person i want to have a committed partnership. but potentially not sex or tradition' #and it's not really fair to compare them because they come from totally different places and have totally different standards #QPR was created as an ALTERNATIVE to allonorms. its about saying 'hey lets make up our own rules. my life partner can be platonic if i want #whereas moirallegiance IS a norm and its not counter any culture. it's just 'trolls have biological romantic feelings/needs in This way.' #idk idk how to explain it any further because ive spent a fucking hour on this post and i have a massive headache so feel free to ask me-- #more specific questions if the shit i said here doesnt make any sense (；￣ー￣).. #<- wow haha the troll fictive autism really jumped out with this post huh. whoops #hsmeta #long post #op

[crimeronan]

i should probably clarify for the sake of being sensitive re my tags on the vid i just reblogged: some people do in fact get sad enough to kill themselves when they get caught doing bad things. i could be wrong in my assumption that somerton absolutely did not do that. i also don't really care whether he did or not because it's so unbelievably tacky to open an apology with "i don't want to make this a sob story, i was just so sad i tried to kill myself and everyone who has a parasocial relationship with me needs to feel bad/guilty/worried on my behalf, and everyone who doesn't have a parasocial relationship with me needs to feel bad/guilty/worried if they wanted to hold me accountable for anything. but i'm so sorry for making this a sob story! it's not like this is a prerecorded video that i have full editing control of or anything"

like.... i don't care if you actually were in the hospital or not. you chose to open your apology video with the most blatant and pathetic kind of emotional manipulation possible & i don't care for it. it's literally no one's problem except yours and your loved ones' if you were in the hospital. it's no one else's responsibility. certainly not the responsibility of the people you wronged.

people doing this shit brings out my lowest-empathy tendencies because it gets to my high-empathy friends and i've known too many people held hostage by their partners/friends/parents threatening suicide over the years, so whenever i see people being like "oh, he really does seem upset, though" i'm like.

listen. i know he looks sad in the video. i know he's saying he wants to be dead.

You Don't Have To Fuckin' Believe Him.

#it's all part of the grift it's all part of manipulating your audience for money. #whether he's actually been in the hospital or not. it shouldn't be part of his public statement afterward! #it's just. whenever i see someone crying really sadly and wetly to make people console them about something they did wrong #so they don't actually have to change their behavior or reflect on themselves or in this case.... stop making money... #i'm like oh alright. pushes up sleeves. are you trying to do this to people i care about? #because if you are then i am going to step between you. and i am going to be So Fucking Scary. #I Will Be So Scary. I Don't Have Many Berserk Buttons But This Is In Fact One #suicide #james somerton #i don't think most people here even give a fuck about whether he's suicidal it's just i know those tags might read like #'i think every suicidal person in the world is manipulating people for attention' or whatever #and that is not the vibe. james somerton who emotionally manipulates 83727749 youtube subscribers is an outlier- #i gotta go to bed. what a headache of a man. wow. #youtube drama

[kidfur]

ok yea i need to put pro kink back in my pinned.. its a pain i even need to but anti kink people following me is annoying LOL

#wishy speaks #its like #u would Hate me if i was more open abt certain things #and i know i cant expect all my followers to be people id get along with but itd be nice to not suddenly get a dm saying like #hey i cant trust you to not be a complete fucking freak anymore. bye #actually happened when i changed my url btw #like cool man. i do not care #just unfollow and block quietly go away!! #sheesh #ok rant ova #actually adding more tags #i kinda forget sometimes that not everyone is based #far from it actually. on this hellsite #like i step outside of my mutual circle and WOW i cannot stand literally any of you people! #and i Hate saying discourse words i hate shipping discourse especially #but i am ok with saying pro kink. bc kink comes with the whole risk aware consenting adults assumption #and anyone trying to imply kink is anything But risk aware consenting adults is in bad faith #still..annoying that i even have to #tumblr users have a little faith in other people's autonomy challenge? #and yes i Am hoping the person i just blocked sees this. i can be a petty little bitch as a treat. i have a headache i am allowed a treat

[crabussy]

people being RACIST CUNTS on my aotearoa poll post 0 dead 1 really pissed off

#GOD dude #'what was it called before the maori invaded' ???? you are literally just making shit up?????? #there is NO evidence that there were ANY people on aotearoa before the māori discovered it. and if there were it was THOUSANDS #OF YEARS AGO. TENS OF THOUSANDS EVEN. #they didn't invade shit. that was MY ancestors dude hold THEM accountable holy FUCK #then some random asshole was like 'wow.... ): so sad the moa is extinct because of maori people. they died because of maori people guys' #like yes. humans have a habit of causing extinctions its terrible and sad but why mention that when europeans were responsible for over 90% #of the bird extinctions in aotearoa #rant #racism tw #listen to my gibberish boy #I have a headache. I'm going to go and play and have fun with my friends bye [:

[sotogalmo]

7:30

Why do I now wanna share my Apollo ideas since he's always on the brain when it's pjo related???

Dunno how he came to mind when Jack Stuaber played

#time diary(?) #audrey/kellie's time diary #pjo #apollo #percy jackon and the olympians #lester papadopoulos #apollo pjo #i may not reply for hours. thats cuz I'll be at the cursed school #cuz i have to #even tho i feel like the most shitiest of fucking human beings ever #stomach is eatin' itself?(but i think im right. i have felt this before). throat is a bitch. swallowing is hard(i make a noise). body temp #and ig now a new headache !!!! fucking wow #i feel like shit

[kulliare]

yippeeee the dices

#this dice collection is so pretty but i’m giving most of it to my friends… #ive been playing dnd or pathfinder with this group for literal years and i’ve like spent so much time with them LOL #and i’m finally seeing some of them this summer #so this is the gift. i still have to get a set for the dm but like i think i’ve already spent ~200 on the dice here so im like oh my god #but im like fuck it lmao they have given me so much happiness lol 😭 #also since im already typing i was listening to one of the celebs from my hometown and sometimes it hits me how strange it is #tht i am vaguely interested in this man even though i literally like saw him for 5 seconds #he is like so incredibly famous #i know like 90% of people experience this but it does annoy me so much that i treat famous ppl diff in my brain differently even tho ik #they just want to be treated like normal people lmao 😭 #i think its bc my brain goes ‘oh theyre so loved i wish that were me!’ even tho theyre not really experiencing love #w the masses of ppl online #i have a headache from all the plum wine i drank but plum wine is soooo tasty guys #idk what they put in it #probably plum but wow it is so good. lol 😭 #i think i will let this headache go away for a little and then go to bed. gn everyone 🐈🐈

[bright-and-burning]

chapter 2 coming at you tomorrow i think…

#4 thousands words of delicious. hopefully #i need to reread when i don’t have a pounding headache and im waiting for kriti and lima to look it over but then #we r all systems go. hehe #went from having never written anything even approaching smut to. #well almost 6k of it! everybody cheered #wow i can’t believe ive actually finished a fic. what the fuck #i technically haven’t done that since 2019 (rip to my ted lasso wip)

[felikatze]

i need to stop reading the VN about a paranoid schizophrenic convinced the government/police/classmates/everybody are hunting him for sport before i go to sleep

#feli speaks #''wow i have a headache bcuz i need to go to bed. time to boot up chaos head.'' #hey. that rhymed. #feli plays chaos head #I DO NOT TRUST RIMI SOOO BAD #''haha taku everything is so normal'' I DONT BELIEVE YOU. I DO THINK THE SWORDS ARE REAL #actually the worst thing that fucks w me in this game #is when ur given a delusion trigger but. nothing happens because of it. OR DOES IT?? OR DOES IT???? #like with the over the top ones you can Tell. that. somebody didn't just get murdered or fall in love w taku. #but occasionally. the game just goes. ;) #and u just gotta live with that. rule number one trust nobody #fun fact ''Trust nobody'' is actually Feli's First Rule of Driving #Feli's Second Rule of Driving is ''Not even yourself.''

[hella1975]

i keep thinking it seems odd that i did so much intense travel literally a couple of days ago bc it just felt very smooth and quick even though logically i know it wasn't and i truly believe it's because i was not fucking conscious for it. like i was off my nut to be quite honest

#i hadn't slept i was disorientated i was jetlagged i had a headache like truly i was functioning on autopilot alone #like i just remembered now that my train wasnt direct and i had to change at bham #and i was like. wow. i have no memory of changing trains #even though not only did i change trains but i also went to the shop to get water BECAUSE I WAS DYING #like oh my god i was so fucking out of it the entire thing feels like a fever dream wdym it was only friday 😭 #and somehow i stayed girlblogging throughout. insane behaviour

[alighterwithlove]

does every mentally ill person have the same fucking conflict resolution handbook where it just says 'be pathetic and wet and guilt trip them until they apologize n validate you enough times that you can reward them by being sweet and nice again, and now they know to never bring up stuff like 'boundaries' or 'advice to deal with your problems' or 'frustration with your mentally ill behaviour that impacts a relationship'' because ohhhh my goddddd oh my god OH MY GOD!!!!

#as a mentally ill person who did this to others: wow!! #being on the other side of this blows!!! #I guess past mika doing this is how present mika is identifying it so fast and receiving whiplash #but wow everyone!! I've flipped from 'wow they're being weird and a little disrespectful' to 'OH MY GOD DO THEY THINK THEY JUST WON?' #have u ever met a 30yo with no friends who wants to be friends with you? DON'T! there's a reason why they have no friends!!!!!!!! #time to figure out a nice way to say 'you need to stop talking to me for six months until you fucking learn how to speak to human beings!!!' #I HAVE A HEADACHE FROM RAGE. #mika rambles on

[icharchivist]

like man i know Stoker was racist and probably never met a single foreign person in his life to have written stuff like that but i’m getting the impression that most people in the tags have never heard a person without a solid grasp on english speaking, because the stuff they point out as “obviously Stoker making stuff up as to how foreign people talk” are stuff i didn’t even pick up for having used those sentences structures back when i barely knew english or that i’ve seen from other people who are just starting english.

#the reactions everytime van Helsing speaks is genuinely giving me a headache at this point #i would not account for if it'd make sense for a Dutch person with poor grasp on English to talk like that #but the overdramatic 'we can't understand anything he's saying!' is really getting on my nerves #the sentences structures still look like stuff i'd see people without a good grasp on engish use #me when i was a teen learning english from stubborningly roleplaying online with dickheads who would laugh at my english mistakes included #like it's crazy Stroker was def racist as fuck and everything #but i read the way some people poke fun at it #and all i see is wow you've never talked with someone who didn't have a solid grasp on english in your whole life have you #ichatalks #ichasalty #ish??? if that makes sense??? #i'm not defending Stroker or saying the speech is not problematic in any way #just that the extreme reactions to it feels disconnected to the non-english native reality of how we pick up english #also just in general the comments themselves on stuff i didn't notice #because to me it's sentences structure i could do or that made sense to me #makes me SO insecure about my grasp on English #and i feel worse reading comment about it than i was reading Stroker's attempt at a foreign speech #so this is kinda sad lmao #(* Stoker for the tags bc i'm not correcting the tags)

[returntotheground]

#parents are cleaning out the back room for renovation and pulling out a bunch of childhood/preteen art and writing i did #and proceeding to mock me for it #i see them in person again in a little over a week #i'm going to fucking lose it oh my god #i have had the worst insomnia this week and near constant headaches/migraines i am NOT in the mood #someone give me strength to not lose my shit and potentially back out of what i was hoping would be a nice beach vacation #('''wow you were SO weird lmao what a little freak child''' yeah and i still am actually you just don't truly know me anymore so shut UP) #personal shit

[learn-and-accept]

That was... that was a lot

#i - #im fucking stunned man #matt mercer you're good but holy shit 😭 #i still can't believe vax came back then got turned into a fucking battery??? #also maybe team a is in nicodranas??? #they could get help from yussa maybe??? #holy fuck #i literally have a headache from crying and trying not to scream at 2am lol #wow #critical role #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #wait no it's cold so probably Tal'Dorei??? #and they can still see the beam so probably Tal'Dorei #are they back in fucking Whitestone??? #ahhhh matt mercer

[yuyu-bubu]

shoutout to helplessness, gotta be one of the top ten worst emotions fr fr. i am but a poor Webkinz plush a child has decided to pour milk on and throw against the wall

#can you believe it guys!!! the future!!! just..MONTHS away!!! oh boy!!! i am trying not to off myself over this information!! #ʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ i am going to go insane #oh wow! #yuyu thoughts not clickbait #i luv stress headaches #finally let myself just straight up sob about my situation today #its all setting in jesus fuck I've literally had nightmares about this scenario. what happened. #oh yeah mental illness #helplessness isn't really the core emotion because i had all the chances in the world to ensure this wouldn't happen but #yeah #its more hopelessness #but that Webkinz reference was too good not to post #girl help i committed to the bit too hard and have irreversibly changed the course of my life #y'know what that deserves to be its own post #oh boy the college advisors are going to have a field day with my dumbass #i cant wait to hear 50 variations of ''what the fuck went wrong and how is it this bad'' #i swear to god if i didn't find that subreddit in 2020 none of this would of ever happened #vent cw

[toastsnaffler]

man I hope I can sleep well tonight

#i just want to go a day without feeling so tired and without constant headaches and without crying Please #i keep oscillating between wow im fucking incapable of being a person and ok im all good again. mental stability who #i dont even know her...... #like its fine really but jesus christ i have to do the rest of my life like this. and alone. but its fine really #who even needs meaningful connection or intimacy when u have uhhhhh. looks down at my empty hands. dont even worry about it #its ok its not all bad. been waking up to birdsong lately bc theres a very insistent blackbird hanging out near my window every 6am #its the little things innit. anyway goodnight #.diaries