#i guess that video is gonna live

[thecastironcrow]

You ever see something on here and go

:O

Oh!

Look!!

A brand new tag to add to my blacklist!

Delightful!

#i guess that video is gonna live #rent free #in my head #FOREVER

[uncanny-tranny]

I know other adults like to joke about how much pain they're in, but genuinely, please try to get your pain checked out if you're an adult experiencing it, or at least adapt your life in whatever way lessens your pain.

Your pain deserves to be addressed. Please don't "let" it get worse because you've been told that to grow older is to suffer. No, you aren't being needy or selfish or annoying. Ultimately, you are the one who suffers the most from the state of your health, and it's entirely reasonable to want your health to be up to your standards.

#disability #chronic pain #it's actually not normal to feel scared to sneeze for fear of making your pain worse (calling myself out) #i dunno i guess maybe i'm just ~too young~ an adult but i'm already tired of the jokes about pain 😮‍💨 #i've been at this pain going on decades now so i guess that's what's gotten me kind of sensitive lol #like... it's just shitty to be told that 'its gonna get SO much worse so don't even TRY' as an adult with pain #basically when you're a kid you're too young but if you're an adult well... that's just what you get so suck it tf up #i'm going back to playing video games so that i may live in the comforting realm of fantasy (Much Less Pain Universe) #(trying to be grateful that my body is Very invested in telling me that it needs to be handled gently but it's hard) #talking so much about this just to continuously make sure that people don't do what i did in the past

[soldier-poet-king]

U know when u reach that point of mentally unwell that it's like, u realize it's stupid and dumb and your (mal)adaptive coping mechanisms and inbuilt trauma responses aren't helpful and aren't logical and you're complete aware of this and yet can't eradicate it and it's so frustrating and in some way you're more upset about not being able to force ur brain into being normal and stop being Like That, than you are upset about whatever thing happened in the first place

#the duality of fran #anyway yes yes i know im tired and stressed and its winter #and all these things mean all my bad brain stuff harder to cope with #and all my yucky bad maladaptive mechanisms come back #and its stupid and dumb and i cant fix it overnight. or really ever. and YET #im just. gonna throw myself into reading and video games i guess. keep myself distracted #i could have healthier routines but its really fuckin hard to be consistent with anything #when im living with my parents and not much is actually within my control #when it comes to routine and living arrangement and such. its uh.... #real difficult to assert autonomy and control and break hurtful patterns of behaviour when living in the space #& w the ppl who caused those problems in the first place yknow #how can i stop hiding and ppl pleasing and acting like a hollow shell of a fake person #when all of that was developed specifically to protect myself emotionally from these ppl #did it work??? NO. sometimes it feels like it didnt even preserve a tiny core of me #whatever the me that existed before. or was supposed to exist. just. is gone. never was #ik ik dont think of unlived lives theyre not real theres no alternate version of urself #but maybe...there is....and that fran is so much better

[morewyckedthanyou]

Just a few photos of the Trespasser DLC just for myself because I want to remember the playthrough where my Inquisitor romanced Dorian - and because I had way too much fun conversing with my companions only to have my heart ripped out immediately after.

Cassandra sure is so good talking about feelings. She's like me that way. I loooove reading the dirtiest smut and cheesiest romance but actually talking about romance in real life - hell naw! Anyways, Cadash was so ready to take Cassandra's advice and propose! And then Dorian had to drop that fucking bomb on him. The worst part is I of course knew it would happen and he'd leave for his beloved and awful homeland but it still hurt. Fuck. Well at least there is that sending crystal he gave the Inquisitor. They made up - and made out - afterwards of course.

Aaaaand bonus Varric and his words to Dorian because... Thanks pal. You're really good at rubbing salt to the wounds.

#dragon age #da: i #trespasser dlc #dorian romance #dorian pavus #jash cadash #dorian x inquisitor #my screenshots #i hope varric found the time to write a terribly cheesy and smutty book about cadash and dorian at least #it's the least he could do #anyway i do think i'm done with playing da: i for now #i have played this game through 2 times total and for someone really slow and not very good at video games in general that's a lot #that's about 300 hours of gameplay in total give or take #if i was gonna play this through with all the different cool characters i have in mind (and romance all the characters i'd still like to... #it'd take at least another 300 hours of gameplay for me lol #possibly 450 #and aint nobody got time for that #so all those other possible outcomes and oc characters are just gonna live in my head rent free forever i guess

[kideternity]

I wanna say since like maybe 2022 Ive found it increasingly harder to read like comics and in 2024 I would like to try and read comics more frequently again but I think it will follow the path instead Ive already been going on which is reading indie comics webcomics and manga and other forms (Ive been pondering getting into European comics too especially Eastern European comics) of non Big Two American Cape comics like Marvel or DC. I think Ive finally reached a proper like burn out stage for MarvelDC content but I still love comics. I will always love comics and that includes Superheroes. I just need to first read comics that will remind me why exactly I love it you know

Anyways if anyone has any good recommendations, hmu ✌️

#dinu yells into the void #dinu yells in the void #I hate posting on tumblr but it felt weird writing this out anywhere else #like im still gonna read the weekly updates for the runs im reading #and ill probably check out still some older comic stuff from dcmarvel #but I really do need to like branch out my comic palette. I cant keep going on like this #i think spiderman old spiderman is thr only comics stuff ive been consistently reading and been invested in but ive run out of steam #theres also the caveat I started playing video games a lot more again #and I also am trying to read more traditional novels again like phantom of the opera swear to god ill finish it #and idk a bunch of other stuff this post isnt very coherent #i guess this is just a heads up for ppl who followed me for marveldc stuff that im probably not gonna get back to that stuff soon #live weirder and living freakier and whatever the hell #okay peaceeeee i have to do college work and then get back to my new bestie digimon

[ironmanstan]

Ive accidentally developed fixations

#every year i get back into portal on accident #just found out portal and half life are in the same universe what in the hell #IVE LIVED THIS LONG KNOWING SO MUCH AB PORTAL AND NEVER THIS ????? HOW ???? HOW #i watched a video with all the half life lore and i have the games im crazy im gonna play them all im fucking crazy #alyx my baby girl .. #glados every day i miss you btw i love u forever i love YOUUUU girl #gordon :) #chell :) #and eli i guess. :) #the gamer speaks uwu #im so stressed i have to leave the house in 5 hours but thats fine #m gonna throw up i hate when the semester starts i cant ever be normal about it

[nexus-nebulae]

milk bread milk bread

#the mall kinda near where i live has a new store where they sell a TON of asian snacks #and like. i used to watch videos of ppl making milk bread and really wanting to try it bc it looks Fucking Great #and always thought 'man i wanna try that but I'm never gonna get a chance bc i dont know anyone who can make it and it's not in stores' #and then. magical snack store arrives to give me treats. and i have tried the milk bread finally #and it is Exactly as i imagined and it is Good #also magical snack store is Actually Affordable i expected all my snacks to cost like 20$ like at walmart but it only cost 10$ #cause i just grabbed a bunch of things #and i was holding back bc i expected it to be pretty expensive and was worried #but i guess next time i will hold back less

[buglaur]

hi last night i spent like an hour recording stuff for the calloways before finishing and realizing that i didn’t record any video, only audio 🧎‍♀��all these videos are blank screens with sims talking

sorry no calloways today because i’m a dumbass. i’m going to have to pretend that day never happened and do it all again tonight 🤦‍♀️

because i’m void of all content to offer please look at this old picture of gael i found in my screenshots folder

#losing my mind #i finally got audio to work and i was so excited that this video was gonna have sound!! #but unfortunately sound was the only thing i got #and i got some really cute interactions too 😠 #theyll just have to live in my brain i guess

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

I HATE MY FUUCKIUNING BRAIN SHUTUP

#STUPID IMAGINATION #the saw trailer and one episode of dw i watched decided obviously i should dream about like #being trapped in some sort of fucking i dont even know in the house i used to live in that ended with time travel and #me murdering several people and like poking their guts and stuff #k maybe i watched the silent hill dnp video alone in the basement too but thats unrelated #also that dream was really bad and i hate the way my brain takes everything and squishes it together #anyway i need a hug but of course everyone i care about lives A BILLION FUCKING MILES AWAY #im gonna write soooooo much fanfic after this #its a coping mechanism i guess #left a lot of stuff out of that dream but it was. bad #anyway #i have to go to school #[insert cool original post tag] #one of my favorite people ever was there though so that was nice. during the start where it was all fun and cool hanging around in space #i think i was rose during that part for some reason #he was telling me to find puzzle pieces that were also active parts of my dream. it got dark quickly #you guys dont wanna hear about this #nevermind

[slime-crafters]

Me making a new skyrim character that would absolutely fucking HATE my other characters

#skyrim #tes v skyrim #video games #gaming #made a redguard pirate who despises magic and bows. my argonian LOVES magic and is pretty much a pure mage #love making a little story for my characters :3 #gonna try to make this redguard just a sword and board. no dragonborn no shouts 👍 #because again he'd hate being a DB because magic (even if it's a gift from the gods and not even magic-magic i guess) #i have never used sheilds before this redguard so. kinda odd #i actually live for the loc-adjacent style my guy has. best hairstyle in the game #which isn't saying much considering the other options look like a glob of 'hair' #why would you give so few hair options when your camera is either first person or third person from the back like????

[foxgloveinspace]

lmao i sent a photo of iii to my cousin being all like “i need him” and my cousins response-

“exie… he’s scary. you did not need to jump scare me on christmas eve” 😂😂 she doesn’t get it, which i suppose is nice because it means we’ll never fight over a guy ever. polar opposite tastes lmao

but i can’t stop laughing at the jump scare comment like he’s not even scary (i say as i was literally terrified of him in person)

Literally my sister has a phobia of masks, and I have a mask kink🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 so I get this, haha.

Also, like. Irl I know I would scared so bad of them? I would be SO freaked out😭 but on screen that’s just them ya know? I just know it’d be different irl, haha.

#hihi!!! #friend exie!! #sorry if I’m not making a whole lotta since my brain is so fried right now cause of my period🙃. my adhd is so much worse on my period holy #fuck dude. #this is so freaking funny tho. #I could NEVER imagine being this close to my cousins haha. to be fair the only cousins I have my age #traumatized me (just gonna. drop some lore there I guess) and then all the other ones are 10+ years older then me or they live 3 hours away #and never bothered to want to be part of my life so. when other people are like #‘yeah I’m super close with my cousins’ I’m just legit the surprised pikachu meme😅 #no jump scares allowed it’s Christmas Exie what where you thinking!! 😂😂😂🤣🤣 #oh I saw a video on insta of Vessel like…. he was moving his hand to the beginning of Alkaline instead of doing the stomps would you like m #to send it to you? do you have insta? or have you see. it already haha #edit: was Aqua Regia not Alkaline…. I was listening to Alkaline haha

[prisonpodcast]

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#this is gonna be kind of a vent and it may be incoherent so.. #seeing everyone talk about how they want to leave dtblr these past few days is so relieving how are we all thinking the same thing at the #same time #idk for me I’m probably not gonna go anywhere but I cannot lie. the fact that our community is more discourse and neg than #actual talk about content is really draining sometimes #it also dosent help that there isn’t that much content recently that I find interesting aside from the occasional dream video #so I guess there really isn’t that much to talk about except for drantis and how much we either love or hate Karl Jacobs #tbh I miss lore LOL the fandom was more fun when that was going on + also it’s wayyy easier stomaching discourse about #fictional characters than real people #like don’t get me wrong I’ve neg posted about ccs too but sometimes this community will talk more about how they hate Karl than like. their #own faves content. like I don’t even care about Karl in the slightest but like it’s just draining when there’s so much negativity all the #time instead of like. live-blogging and excitement over new content #not just Karl tho I used him as an example but like. everyone on the ‘ccs dtblr hates’ list #AND it dosent. help that I don’t really care about George or sapnaps content like at all and Im more of just an sbi main who also likesdream #which sucks bc there aren’t many sbi fans that are normal enough about Dream to follow #so I don’t fit with that community either #and I still don’t really feel like I fit with dreblr too bc I’m more of a ctechno main but idk lol #and like the few non dtblr people I follow seem to always be having such a much better time than us which really dosent help #sorry for the random sad post lmao #I’ll probably delete later I just want to get it out of my system bc sometimes complaining about things makes you feel better about thething #and before anyone’s like ‘just leave why’re you sat here complaining’ #I like this community and I like talking about my interests and reading posts about stuff I like on here #I haven’t really lost interest in the content there’s just a lack of it. I just wish the community was less neg all the time #like it’s even something I need to work on with myself lol #this is so long LMAO it’ll probably get deleted in a bit

[personasintro]

this Hiatus is giving me One Direction flashbacks

omg same!! like I literally feel the same shock like I felt when 1d went on a hiatus

#I think that’s why I mainly feel said because I know they said they’ll be back but that’s exactly what 1d said and look at them #*sad #and the fact they didn’t say for how long exactly just means they probably don’t know too #I mean they deserve the rest and I haven’t seen the video yet just some parts of it #but they’ll still work on their solo stuff so I guess they’re still gonna work ?? #but I mean they’re millionaires ready to enjoy their lives #ahhh I hate that I feel so sad over this 😭😭

[lepakonpaska]

god i've missed dating women (and will ramble more in the tags)

#it's just! so much easier so much more comfortable!!! #not in the way that i have difficulty being _attracted_ to men because. i do not. #but in the way that when i've gone on first dates with men we've met in some place far from my home and i've only given a vague description #of where in town i live #compared to how i went on a date with a woman yesterday and we discovered that we live one single street apart within the first five minutes #guess it's a mix of an automatic distrust in strange men and some really shitty experiences i've had with first dates with men in the past #also the date was so fun!! #we met in a church because it was raining so hard we had to find shelter #i looked like a pathetic drowned rat for the first hour because i didn't have an umbrella or a raincoat #and then we sat in a cafe for 4 hours talking nonstop about music and shows and growing up in a religious rural small town #and now we're exchanging videos of each others family cats and are gonna watch a certain pirare show together soon #and i just feel a lot less stressed than when dating men? #and there's just. a lot more to talk about #(also she is SO fucking pretty oh my GOD-) #personal

[soltudes]

Underwater Candy.

#the idolm@ster #the idolmaster #the idolm@ster million live #the idolm@ster million live theater days #million live #mirishita #theater days #mine #mine: gifs #konomi baba #baba konomi #oh wow... I haven't giffed anything from this game for a year. #my last gif was a reika gif set #I was gonna download the video in 1080p quality but ezgif took forever to load. I hate the quality so much. #so I download it in 720p quality instead. #oh well at least I'm actually proud of these! I use a lot of blue & purple (and a bit of pink) and it turns out great! #idk why I chose konomi of all characters?? guess this is because I had this video on my gif youtube playlist for so long. #imasedit

[tardis--dreams]

my friend was at the concert yesterday and omfg they played laughter lines I'm fucking dying

#not that i mind getting no angels live twice #it's fucking amazing #but had they played laughter lines i probably would have died right there on the spot #what an experience #i don't wanna say I'm too jealous because i did get a lot of bastille this year already #but damn #how breathtaking must it feel to hear these first few #chords and realize what's about to come #i still wanna know how it was in bonn #did they have audio? did they hear anything? did the people got something out of it or was it a disaster like mcr was #can't find any videos unfortunately (didn't search very hard though) #anyway #I'm not gonna stop talking about bastille concerts soon i guess #void screams