#i guess ill be staying too

[plasticsandwich]

stuck on the floor staring at the moon

#thinkjng a lot aby things #diary #these past like. 2-3 months have been insane for me #well. things are always a little insane #as they should be #im happy to have some nice friends now #or at least people i can easily consider my friends without having to think if they feel the same way #ive gotten better at doing things too. like in general #i wish i could repay everyones kindness with a giant heart delivered to everyone #and stuff. idk. #i feel i say these things a lot but never enough #never ever ever enough. maybe im happy to be here #or scared. or both. but im here now #i guess ill be staying too #i probably just need to sleep smns

[lesbiandardevil]

mattnat/p except they're sweating just like me

#hot weather i hate you i love you etc #friends who swear together stay together btw #sweat* not swear although they do swear too i guess idk im not in their head #besties #tag this as ship and ill show up at your door with a shotgun #just kiddingggg (im not( #scribbles #daredevil #matt murdock #natasha romanoff #black widow

[randomminty]

Mina the most girl ever

#WHO reblogged my lapidot art from 5 years ago. show yourself #i had to read posts from when i was 13 years old do you know how scary that was #the amount of stuff you can dig up from this account...... 5 YEARS #pokemon #art tag #WHAT is minas tag what are you #trial captain mina #pokemon mina #pokemon masters #pokemas #might post prsk art hehehe nene and shizuku my beloveds #theres a leo/need sparkle live today...... i didnt expect to be such a big fan of them but honami and shiho have a grip on me #honamis the ONLY 4 star i dont have from leo/need. I have TWO sakis #AND two tsukasas. and a toya. i have every tenma #assigned tenma and leo/need fan at birth. this is who i am i guess #theres enstars art too but im not ready to post that. souma kanzaki stays in the vault for another day #gonna make a twit alt so i can talk abt gacha games there instead of on my pokemon tumblr posts #mina ill love forever. shes eveyrhung to me

[potatochip-oc-dump]

Cringetober Day 9 - Crossover [friend]Ship/Rarepair

#oc #gidget foxglove #jade harley #homestuck #hs #oc x canon #(i guess ?) #so i cheated. a little bit #this isnt “ship” in a romantic context i just wanted tk draw a crossover of soem sort & wanted to stay consistent #w the “drawing my ocs” thing #but jade harleys here too. we love her #and so. ill probably draw a rarepair AND a crossover ship to make up for it. cuz i have ideas for both of those #cringetober 2023 #cringetober #★ Cringetober <|:] ★

[yumeyumeappleo]

when in doubt draw an ugly blue fuck on your phone /affectionate

i didnt really like this version. man i need to learn how lighting works. boy how did i forget that i SHADED THERE AND THAT I SHOULDVE MOVED THE FUCKIN LIGHTING aughgHghghg

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise of the tmnt #yyal art #AAAAAA #ough this song is emotional…next songgbi dont want to feel feelings right now #‘THE SONG’ FROM SONG OF THE SEA??? NO THATS EMOTIONAL TO ME TOO NEXT SONG!! #desiderium from madoka magica…fuck it whatever i guess ill stay with thgis even though it also makes me emotional #anyways im atill thinking sbout pmmm rebellion…woww #i turned off autocorrect typing coherently is so much harder

[asanjou]

giramie week day 6: au/crossover

there's an obvious answer for au right

#giramie week #modern au too i guess but mostly spideredmans #tysm to umbrella rey and didi for ur help designing spideredmans jeremy i did actually draw and colour the full body and then decided #this one needed a closer crop BUT #i do wanna draw more with the design so stay tuned :3c after this week though #ill be real i dont like how this one turned out but i think kisses are just awkward to draw in general.... but i dont have time to redraw s #out it goes #king oh #post tag #art tag #also the cape is back because i thought it would be cute if it covered part of his head... #thoguht about it and changed this from crossover to au because even though its a mix of series its an au rigjt.... #giramie

[lobotomizedlady]

people often assume when we all go out together that I'm my half brothers mom (I'm 20 years older than him) & that his parents are his grandparents & it's so funny bc I know it bothers them. old ass idiots

#my dad was 49 & his wife was 45 when they had him #the story behind his birth is actually extremely fucked up like everything else about their relationship #so my dad left her like a million times to try to go back to my mom (who kept telling him no unless he sorted out his issues) then he #would always run right back to her & she always took him back. anyways i guess he said smth along the lines of #''my wife (he was still married to my mom) will always be the love of my life bc shes the mother of my kids'' #and...she went off bc & on fertility treatments without telling him. then shes pregnant & he is still saying he wants to come back to us #so she said he will never see their kid & her son from a previous marraige THREATENED MY DAD AT GUNPOINT #and said if you ever leave my mom again ill fucking kill yoi #so then the divorce was finalized & they got married & my half brother was born. rest is history #for the record i dont feel sorry for my dad at all it was his fault too. the fucking hypocrite was having sex before marriage #and he knew she was nuts & far too attached to her #what a fucking idiot. all he had to do was get on meds & in therapy & admit he was wrong & he could have stayed with us #but he needed constant validation & to be in charge of everything & thats what his new wife gives him. she converted to his cult & now they #raise my brother in it. and she just does whatever my dad wants & lets him treat her like shit. i would actually feel sorry for her if sh #if she werent such a fucking awful person. and she tries to be all nicey nice w/us despite being a literal homewrecker. #and doing things like telling my dad he cant spend more than 50 dollars per year on each of us #while having him buy her a third car & a 1500 dollar fur coat. lol #theyre so much better off financially than us that its unreal. my mom doesnt get a penny despite how much we are struggling #but if i want a relationship with my half brother i just have to pretend none of this is weird or wrong. #anyways i just hope he never finds out the circumstances of his birth bc god can you fucking imagine

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like??? #this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms. #but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

[unoisveimved-un-proffesional]

freaking it on the living room floor twitching dead cockroach style. Amen.

#eeeuuuughhhhh #im in a better and more stable position now but am totally unable to help anyone. #im just letting people stay here when they need it really. its all i can do for people right now. #maybe i should start charginh people for staying here. but people who have to come here got nothing. #don't really want to anyway. just saying. it'd benifit my survival and stuff. #there is the odd generous donation here and there from folks. very appreciated. #power's been getting cut out every odd couple of days now and then due to heavy snowfall. roads iced. cars snowed in. yup. sigh... #uuuuuuueeeghhhhgggg #came down with a predictable seasonal illness as per every december so i dont feel too bad not getting things done. #i haven't really done much this month. dont get off the couch often and sleep through most the day. old hibernating instincts i guess. #still it's been a long month. and im really no better off today then i was yesterday. or a month ago. #surprisingly kept up with chores this month. feeling pretty good on that front. all except laundry. and hygiene. im like a moldy potato ha! #it's not actually that funny. especially for the potato. real sad and shriveled looking potato... #other than the general state of things everything's alright. nothing i should really be complaining about. #hexacles.txt

[msfcatlover]

Endlessly Funny

Some story: “And this character was sick, all the time. For years. You might even say chronically so. These are their symptoms. Oh look, the symptoms are flaring up again!”

People doing reviews, summaries, & commentaries online: “WHY IS THIS CHARACTER SO CASUAL ABOUT THEIR SYMPTOMS?! SHOULDN’T THEY BE FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW?!?!”

#If I coughed blood on the reg for several years I too would be at most kinda annoyed when it happened again #Source: fainting spells & pain so extreme I literally cannot stay upright happening almost weekly since I was 16. #It’s not ‘’OH NO! EVERYTHING IS GOING DARK! CALL THE DOCTOR!’’ #It’s ‘’Goddam this shit again? Guess I’m laying on the floor for the foreseeable future. Ugh.’’ #// #chronic illness #chronic pain #disability visibility #tv tropes #mine #my life

[kiefbowl]

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#a mentally ill woman approached me for help today and #I took her to a hospital because it was the only thing I could think of doing that would help her #and I didn't want to call the police #but I left her once she was checked in and idk I just feel really bad about leaving her but I couldn't wait there with her #it was just too much and I just hope she stays until they call her and I hope it wasn't a mistake #I hope she gets the help she needs and isn't just turned over the police or turned into the streets or returned to someone dangerous #she was talking about a man she lived with scaring her and hurting her #but she was also talking about a man stealing her belly fat and breasts at night and other delusional things so idk #she liked me though she told me I was nice and alba made her feel better so that was nice #I cried all the way home on my walk what can you do but your best I guess

[ev1lmorty]

left my tablet pen at home when i need my tablet in class to work for once -> feel myself getting sick again -> i feel that creeping feeling like something really bad is abt to happen deeply -> i hate college

#av.txt #i think id generally rather just go back to not making enough to live on my own via baristaing again #which ill no doubt be doing after i finish this degree n im 30 n even more washed up zzzzz #this generally feels like a tipping point i wanna ask if family can drive me it or something but i know nobody would do that #aaaghgh #ill look around my room tonight maybe i just put it somewhere stupid #i mean i can draw on my phone but im presuming i need my tablet for maya n im guessing toon boom this semester #maybe ill like. stay up n doodle in my sketchbook n itll cure me too

[prestonmonterey]

ugh fuck i forgot that wednesday is going to be actual hell

#marble musings #vent #i have a big school event thing #and i have to stay til like 8 or 9 for it #and i have rehearsal that same day #at least #it ends early so i can go to sets #idk what id even do #but i guess its better than rehearsal #aw fuck thats my bad day too #:( #at least i get a free block #i can sit and watch bsd on the third floor and hope she doesnt look for me :P #i really fucking hope she doesnt look for me #oh i could edit too #ill actually work on that tomorrow probably #if i get bored enough #oh fuck i have spanish homework i keep forgetting shit ok--

[mangostar]

cheese is presumed dead :(

#he is gone and i cant find him anywhere im so sad #did he stay out of water for too long....?? #did another mob kill him #but ham is still alive so idk #i thought the pond was big .... maybe not ? #how much space do axolots need..... #i found them in like. two blocks of water so idk #ill just make the pond bigger just in case.....i dont want ham to die too :((( #guess ill search for another axololt idk how to speel #minecraft why would you do this to me #im actually so disheartnened....... .i think ill play later i miss cheese

[ratgingi]

alright well. scratch that other post i guess fuck cohost

back on strike now see yall in a few days

#ill have to find somewhere else #im not too fond of twitter layout so ill post on bluesky but not as a main #so guess im staying here until i absolutely Have to leave #dialogue

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated