#i feel like ben will be back in a year or two tbh

[minimoefoe]

my fr ballum obsession hasn't been around for a couple of years but these last few eps sooo brought the feels back like woah I'm feeling insane

I'm half tempted to do a full rewatch of all their moments (which I haven't done since like 2021 probably) but I know it'll just make me sadder and I don't wanna deal with that so I'm gonna not

#eastenders #natchats #ballum #i feel like ben will be back in a year or two tbh #likely with a new face #which #is Very weird to imagine #mainly bc of callum #like ben getting a new face has happened a lot #but he's never had a connection like that to come back to #so potentually seeing a new ben with callum could be strange to get used to #if they dont do some fuckery between now and then that makes them split up

[fayes-fics]

A Job Well Done

Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x fem!reader, Modern AU

Summary: Quickie, office sex after being reunited.

Warnings: 18+ smut, minors DNI, quickie vaginal sex, office sex, semi-public sex, workplace sex, exhibitionism.

Word Count: 1.5k

Authors Note: Request fill for Anon (ask HERE) who wanted quickie office sex with Benedict. This is lighthearted, almost crack in places tbh. Unbetaed. Thanks to my discord peeps for help with some ideas for this one. Enjoy <3

You barely make it through the door into the fancy corner office before clothing is wrenched open, both so desperate. You’ve been away on a business trip for two weeks, but it feels like two months. 

“Fuck, I missed you,” his words hiss on your lips as your kisses land wet and hot, open mouths just taking from each other.

“I missed you too,” you can barely gasp, fighting off your knickers under your skirt.

“Shouldn’t we wait until we can go to one of our places after work?” he checks.

“No, here,” you insist and back yourself against the wall, pulling him by the open fly right into you, moaning at the crush of his chest against yours.

“Really?” he sounds disbelieving, even as you roughly yank down the front of his underwear and shimmy it down his hips along with his trousers.

“Yes, really. Just make it quick,” you confirm, wiggling your skirt up around your waist, revelling in his groan as you grab his cock and pump it in your hand, standing on tiptoe to line him up with your aching pussy. 

He splutters the most adorable noise as his hot tip slides inside you, and you groan loudly in his ear.

“Say you are going to fuck me til I can't walk straight,” you command through gritted teeth.

“Okay… that,” he stumbles, still slightly stunned by the speed and ferocity this is happening at.

“Say it!” you demand.

“You already did!”

You grab his face and make him look into your eyes. “Ben. I need you to say the filthiest things to me. I'm so horny, please; don't be embarrassed.”

“We are at work! Isn't it enough we are doing this in full view of London and its recently arrived visitors!?” his voice slightly incredulous, gesturing vaguely at the floor-to-ceiling windows looking out on the crowds pouring out of St Pancras International a couple of storeys below.

“The glass is mostly reflective; they can probably barely see us,” you dismiss, hands grabbing his bottom and sinking fully onto his cock. “Fuck yesssss!” you hiss, eyes rolling back at the sheer delight of being so filled again.

“Is this revenge?” he exhales raggedly, a hand heavy on your hip as he adjusts to your heated cling. “Fucking in Ant’s office? Cos your PA told you he fucked Kate in yours?”

“Maybe,” you look askance, feeling called out but still pushing up onto tiptoes and sinking back down again as he groans with you.

His face morphs into a crooked grin, and his tone changes. “Well, why didn't you say before?” his voice turning into a velvet rumble. 

You gasp as he grabs one of your legs, hooks it over his arm and proceeds to take control just as you wanted. You moan your appreciation as he immediately starts to slam into you. You make a quick mental note that family oneupmanship is apparently an excellent motivator for him before you lose all capacity for thought.

If HR ever finds out about this, an executive fucking a junior colleague, there will probably be trouble—so it's a good thing HR reports to you. You co-founded this business with Viscount Anthony Bridgerton and have run it successfully together for the last five years. Three months ago, Anthony brought his younger brother into the firm in a decidedly nepotistic hire of in-house graphic designer after his art business stalled. You fought Anthony about the optics of it until about three seconds after you clapped eyes on one Benedict Bridgerton. And then, well, you agreed your company definitely needs someone to design PowerPoint templates or whatever he does. You resisted flirting with him for precisely two weeks, just enjoying his arse walking up and down the corridors every day doing fuck knows what.

But then it was the work party, and honestly, who can be held responsible when Anthony manages to score a whisky sponsorship? You'd be a lousy co-founder if you didn't indulge, frankly. And so you did. And you proceeded to flirt outrageously until Benedict took you up to the roof terrace and had you screaming at the London skyline. Since then, well, you've been together at every opportunity. It's especially thrilling that Anthony doesn't have a damn clue about it, either.

“I'm going to fuck you til you can't walk straight,” he growls, just as you wanted, slamming into you so hard your bra strap catches on the textured wall through your shirt.

“Oh fuck yes,” you mewl your appreciation, tipping forward to bite his neck, not entirely gently, until he hisses and moves faster.

Then, as if he can read your mind, still buried inside you, he suddenly picks you up, spins around, and almost throws you down onto Ant’s glass desk, never leaving your body.

“Oh, you fucking genius,” you compliment, grabbing his shirt greedily and pulling him on top of you, uncaring that you are sending Ant’s stationery and fancy tchotchkes flying. Your mouths meet in an artless, hot-breathed kiss, and then he starts to move again, wrapping your legs around his hips and standing up to drive into you hard.

You start to yell his name and all the praise you can think of, knowing Ant’s office is soundproofed like yours. His cock drags all the places inside that turn off your brain, not capable of anything but chasing more and now and more again. 

“Not so sure the glass is particularly reflective, by the way,” he states almost casually as he keeps pounding into you. “Pretty sure we are drawing a crowd.”

“Then fuck me really good,” is your only breathy response, unwilling to tip your head back and look down at the people below. At least at this angle, they shouldn’t be able to see his cock ploughing into you. And everything else is covered by clothing… mostly. You could just be having a very vigorous wrestling match. Kind of.

“Exhibitionist, hmm?” he hums, leaning over you and kissing down your neck.

“You’re the one who took me on the roof terrace our first time,” you point out, closing your eyes and enjoying the slide of his warm lips on your skin as he thrusts so deep you swear you’ll still feel it tomorrow.

“Guilty as charged,” he murmurs, bemused, a little out of breath now, his tongue lathing hot on your throat.

Then, there’s no talking for a while as you skate closer to your peaks. Desperate hands grab bodies and table edges, growling and moans, hot wet kisses, the sturdy glass desk withstanding his harsh strokes even as your whole body rolls on the surface. 

Then, with a dangerous smirk, he winds a hand between your bodies and flicks his thumb against your clit, and you scream. It’s the little extra sensation you need to break, calling his name, your nails scratching down his clothes, biceps clinging to him as your pussy clenches hard around him, floating somewhere on a blissful cloud, eyes screwed shut, as he growls at your vice-like grip on his cock. A few artless thrusts, and then he is stilling, groaning loudly in your ear and collapsing on top of you as he spills inside.

After a few panted moments, you feel yourself returning to the room, the power of speech returning.

“Oh god, that was just what I needed,” you huff, sated, a fuzzy, languid, bone-deep satisfaction only he can seem to provide. 

“You are welcome, boss,” he sasses with a playful smirk.

“You don’t report to me,” you point out, swatting his arm gently.

“Shame… I think I’d get an excellent review and a hefty raise if I did,” he gloats a little, dropping a quick kiss on your lips.

“I will neither confirm nor deny,” you volley back, pushing him off your body and standing up, shuffling your skirt back down your legs. 

You feel a little unsteady in your gait as you dip down to collect your underwear from the floor.

“There are, however, two things you can do for me?” you smile as he rezips.

“Anything…” 

“Tidy your brother's desk,” you nod towards the mess. He rolls his eyes, accepting his fate, seeing as it was his decision to throw you upon it.

“And?” He prompts you for the second thing as you make final adjustments to your appearance.

“Be naked in my bed by the time I get home,” you breeze as you reach for the office door handle. “Feel free to tie yourself spread eagle to the bedposts if you’re feeling adventurous,” you end with a wink.

“How exactly am I supposed to do that with only one set of hands?” you hear him call after you as the door closes behind you.

With a huge grin, you saunter down the corridor, phone in hand, already texting him a reply.

Y/N: You’ll figure it out. You’re the artist, after all.

BB: I’m a landscape painting artist, not an escape artist.

Y/N: potayto, potatoh…

BB: I’m getting a round of applause from what looks like a stag do outside, by the way…

Y/N: See? There’s your glowing performance review. 

BB: … 🤷‍♂️

Y/N: 😘

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[the-magnus-archives-wiki]

im here for things getting weird tbh :vc

Transcript below the cut

[Music]

Alex: Hello Everybody

Jonny: I'm Jonathan Sims, the writer and narrator of the Magnus Archives

Alex: Visionary Nightmare Merchant

Jonny: Visionary Nightmare Merchant, ooh I like that, I like that

Alex: and I'm Alexander J Newall, I am the founder and CEO of Rusty Quill Ltd and for magnus I was the co-creator with Jonny, alongside director and producer. Why are we here today?

Jonny: Oh, cuz we're doing it AGAIN!

Alex: yeah!! I know! Everyones like "Oh I maybe - maybe theyre doing like a little halloween special? NO!

Jonny: Magnus. Archives. Two. Not that Actual Title

Alex: We wont - no. There's a better title

Jonny: I'm really.. I'm not done  

Alex: Your not done. Don't tell them the title.

[Beep]

Alex: We need to tell you a bit more about it Like, whats going on? okay. So In order to do this, we are looking at doing a Kickstarter

Jonny: Kick. Starter.

Alex: to start the kicking. Um, and that basically means that We are going to be doing a pre-signup, Which is going to be available on the 30th of October, this year If you head to kickstarter.com/projects/the-magnus-archives2/the-magnus-archives-2 On the 30th You'll be able to pre-sign, and that means that you will get alerted when the kickstarter is live and that means you will be the first to get in there for early bird goodies and things like that where you will only get it if you are getting there right out of the gate But, we are trying to get this going  with a BIG kickstarter So that we can do THREE seasons. Three full seasons!

Jonny: Three seasons. It is going to be canon. It is going to be a continuation of the Magnus Archives universe But not necessarily in the way you would expect.

Alex: Its gonna get weird. Its gonna get really weird.

Jonny: its gonna get real weird.

Alex: So, we're also going to be selling limited edition merch

Jonny: limited edition merch! that was it!

Alex: So the limited edition merch is only going to be available for basically the period we are going this kickstarter, and these are designs that are going to disappear You will never be able to get them again. ever.

Jonny: Cuz if you try, i'll come round and burn them.

Alex: He'll come and burn it. In order to get ahold of those probably, you'll want to go to www.rustyquill.com and there will be more info there, but its pretty much going to be available anywhere that you can buy our designs so your looking at you know, redbubble, and tee public, things like that

Jonny: Can I get a mug?

Alex: yes.

Jonny: Can I get a t-shirt?

Alex: I believe so, yes.

Jonny: Can I get, your face as a cat scratching post?

Alex: Uh yes, but you will have to pay SIGNIFICANTLY more thats going to be a custom item and we will talk more on that later

Jonny: Oh no, I was inviting you over.

Alex: aww

Jonny: just to hang out...

Alex: aw shnookums!

[laugh]

[beep]

Alex: Why now? Its ben a while, we could have done it immediately but we didnt, why?

Jonny: I mean... cuz i fucking love magnus and i want to do some more of it

Alex: right? I kind of miss it.

Jonny: its been, since it finished, a lot of stuffs been just... percolating, and...

Alex: yeah.

Jonny: we were talking and we were like should we just? should we do? do you wanna just to a bit more?

Alex: we should do it. Yes, we are going to do, or we are AIMING to do I should say a three season epic is a strong word. life changing event?

Jonny: yeah? yeah.

Alex: we are looking at a larger number of guests we are looking at going big from the start we have learnt a lot of lessons during magnus 1 and we want to hit the ground running

Jonny: Lesson 1: Trust no one.

Alex: [laugh] okay. cool i feel like-

Jonny: Lesson 2: Plan your exit, on the way in.

Alex: I feel like we are honing back in to season 2 there so maybe steer us away from that... But yea we are -

Jonny: Lesson 3: dont listen to Alex. he's already compromised.

Alex: stop compromising all of the fandom with your MENTALITY

[beep]

Alex: in order to take part, to reiterate on very last time. If you head to kickstarter.com/projects/the-magnus-archives2/the-magnus-archives-2 You can get on there for the pre-sign from the 30th of october and then youll get more info or you can get all of the limited edition merch that WILL DISAPPEAR and for more info on that, go to RustyQuill.com

Jonny: The day before halloween. Halloween? Scary. before all hallows? its before all hallows... and so this is halloween-ee-een its Halloween squared baby. its even scarier

Alex: [snicker] thanks jonny.

[laugh]

Jonny: thats what I'm here for.

Alex: Bye everyone!

Jonny: Bye!

#the magnus archives #tma #also kinda unsettled by how much jonny looks like my ex in the video #bbut hmm i just like the sound of weird

[kanzakurawrites]

Random Thoughts I Had While Rewatching Wicked World S1:

(yes I am fully aware its a kids show with limited time but I will still yell about things XD)

They REALLY had to make Mall's eyes gray? brown? seems to change but still, her eyes are GREEN

"At my birthday parties" You had ONE birthday party Evie. One.

And evil minion bakers? Really?

Wait, so Miss "Give Your Spellbook to the Museum" D2 Evie is here, sixish months before or whatever the timeline in, begging Mal to use magic to help her?

Why is Evie so shallow in this?

WHY IS SHE SO DITZY? Stop, Evie would know not to eat chemicals DX (Actually, I bet most Isle kids would know that)

WHAT IS BEN'S OUTFIT! None of that goes together. Bring his suit back. Or goodness gracious, why not a simple button down and slacks? Blue and black. What is this?

pffft, Ak's making up words

so Audrey also has a single dorm.

It took Jane FOURTEEN YEARS to realize she has magic? No, I refuse.

at least Audrey and Ben are still friends

Seriously, there is no timeline in this world

Sustainable urban planning. You know, for someone who wanted nothing to do with the Isle in D2, Evie sure is invested in making it a better place

"Thanks to my dad" *gasp* Is Ben throwing shade at his father

I'm sorry, I can not get behind Aurora's daughter afraid of some mud

The fact that Mal loves it is hilarious

I wonder when Evie finally donated her mirror

I know that a lot of people headcanon Freddie and Uma being sisters since China voiced Freddie, but tbh I think it would be interesting if they're cousins.

(Yes i like the hc, I just have Uma's dad as someone else and then came up with the cousins thing XD)

"retract your claws" "But I just had them sharpened!"

Seriously, yo mama battles?

So how old IS CJ? I'm guessing 13 or 14, but they almost imply she's around Mal's age... but unless she and Harry have different mom's that doesn't work.

Jordan, WHY are you doing a southern belle accent?

I want to see Beast's funny birthday dance

a two hour exam on SMILING?

so it definitely seems canon that the VKs were dragged online, and always end up on there even if they had no clue their pictures were being taken. Could factor into Mal's D2 transformation and breakdown

are we SURE this is the same Lonnie in the movies?

The fact that the Auradon Girls are singing "Good is the New Bad"

so whatever happened with this whole cheerleading thing for Evie and Mal

That doesn't sound like Jay either!

"You lied to keep him from bugging you" I like this Ben

But Evie WASN'T AROUND WHEN YOU WERE KIDS

HOW does Carlos speak dog? This makes no sense

the fact that Audrey is hanging out in Evie and Mal's room

I am getting fed up with all the made up words

I wonder how many people just randomly brush Ruby's hair

"I want to go from the one who lost the crown to the one who won!" Highly doubt that was intended to be D3 foreshadowing, but it makes good foreshadowing

The fact that they are fighting over the color of purple Mal wears

And here's Jane, accusing Mal of stealing

The fact that everyone keeps accusing Mal of things. Seriously, no wonder the poor girl thought she had to change her appearance and herself to the point of breaking down

but why didn't she TALK TO BEN

Actually, I wouldn't be surprised if Jay still struggles with stealing sometimes. Same for even Aladdin and Eugene.

Mal being so supportive of Jane is adorable

The fact that Jane is still suspicious of the VK's

They're accusing her of KIDNAPPING her own BOYFRIEND

and WHERE IS THE SECURITY?! THE HIGH KING IS THERE! AND OTHER ROYAL CHILDREN

#thisisnotmyLonnie

CJ liking Mal is interesting considering how Harry feels about her.

#again #I know its a show #i just poke fun #there is still no excuse for bad characterization #or Ben's outfits #disney descendants #descendants

[destinyc1020]

Tom was chilling at the Euphoria set like that was HIS workplace 😭 something tells me that man was unbothered while he was supprting his lead actress/producer gf 😅we had stories/videos/pics of him getting her snacks, going to crafty, taking care of noon, Sam asking HIM about a scene (n him politley declining lol), him being in the same room when labrinth/dominic fike/Z were doing music, taking pics/bonding with the BTS ppl and him gettimg up early af lik he was a castmate lol.

Meanwhile i remember there was a account (who worked BTS) that said Jacob was quiet/kept to his self so... he knew his place as a supportimg actor and this being the SECOND time he broke up with the leading actress of a project 💀. Im pretty sure even Kaia visited him on the Euphoria set a few times (i guess someone spotted her), but gurl wasnt there long enough cuz they broke up soon after 💀💀

Rofl 😅 🤣

Giiiiirlllll, I JUST KNEW when Tom told Josh Horowitz in his CHERRY interview that he wanted a cameo in Euphoria that he wasn't thinking about JE or threatened by him in the least! Rofl 😅

That was actually one of the biggest clues to me that Tom and Z had gotten back together if you ask me.

The way I see it, JE was really a non-factor in this lol. 😅 He was basically a pawn while Tom and Z figured out their sh*t and made their way back to each other lol. 🤭

I'm not saying Z didn't care for JE (I'm sure she honestly did!), but EVERYBODY could tell that they didn't match well and that he was just a long-term rebound cuz of the breakup with Tom. You can sense when two ppl/exes have unfinished business. I say the same thing about Tom and Olivia and Nadia. I'm sure there were real feelings there (he wouldn't have dated them otherwise), but everybody could tell that they were just placeholders and that his REAL heart and feelings still belonged to Zendaya lol. It was so obvious! 😅

That's why, I NEVERRR put anything past exes LOL....especially ones that have dated each other for a long time (longer than just a year or two), coz usually those feelings run deeeep.... and it's hard to just cut off your feelings cold turkey like that. Jmho 🤷🏾‍♀️

I meannnn, look at Ben and JLo for goodness sakes!! Rofl 😅 🤣 They both MARRIED other ppl, even had kids with others, and then ended back together with each other..... 18-YEARS post a breakup! 🤣

Look at Nelly and Ashanti! Same thing! Rofl 😅 They dated in the past years ago, then broke up.... he even got married to some OTHER woman lol, and now look.... YEARS later, he and Ashanti found their way back to each other, and she's now pregnant with his baby lol.

I don't put anything past exes...especially the ones that actually looked HAPPY together and like they were best friends. 🥰 That's the key.

I don't put anything past exes who were deeply committed or in love with each other. 👀

I don't think JE really took Z all that seriously anyway (he was rebounding himself, let's be honest), and she always seemed more into him than vice versa 🥴, so their breakup wasn't all that surprising to me tbh. 🤷🏾‍♀️ It was only a matter of time imo.... one, because she had obvious unfinished business with Tom, and two, because they just never matched to me. They may have had the same hobbies in common, but together, they just didn't seem like they "fit". The vibe was all off. You can sense when a couple's vibe is OFF. It's just smthg you feel and sense in your gut. She matched BEST with Tom imo.

I just think that had covid NOT come, she and JE prob would have dated each other for at least a year or two.

Covid was actually the catalyst that helped TZ get back together as soon as they did imo rofl 🤣 😂

[bewilderedbuck]

Devi vs. David: aka a comprehensive list of every single time ben gross has referred to devi as one or the other (season two edition)

first and foremost: if you missed it, please go check out part one where i talk about devi vs. david in season one. i also want to refer you to these posts: x, x by @catty-words, because they are very well-worded and also very relevant to what i'm about to talk about. i will be referencing some of what cori said in those two posts as well. once again, this is a list of every single time in season two that ben has called her either devi or david, with context + insight, and i am creating this post for myself more than anyone else. expect a season 3 edition in the future; likely sometime next week.

anyways. here goes.

"Devi, I'm all-in."

the first time in season 2 that he refers to her at all,  he calls her devi — he’s opening up to her, telling her that what they have is real and that she makes him better, literally tells her that he stood up to his parents for the first time in his life because of her. he is all-in, even if it means long distance. he wants to be with her, but he is also giving her time to think about it. the use of devi as opposed to david here shows that he’s being vulnerable, that he is serious about her. 

obv we don’t see much of his short-lived relationship with devi, and while i personally believe he did still throw around the david nickname with her (teasingly, lovingly), it does make sense that he wouldn’t use it with her friends while she isn’t present. so, devi.

the way his eyes light up when he sees her. his whole body language changes. he perks right up the second his eyes land on her and the “come here” motion he makes i still have not gotten over and it has been over a year since i saw this scene for the first time. anyways. i mentioned in part one that david belongs to ben and devi and no one else. and here i feel like that shines in a new light. he calls her devi here because they’re in front of people, but more importantly in front of paxton. the last time ben referred to devi in front of him, he called her david (in 1x08, if you were wondering). he was jealous back then, crushing hard and knowing she’s got a thing for pax. but here? he’s secure in their relationship (haha just wait like…ten minutes ben lol then you’re going to be shattered). he thinks she is his. he doesn’t need to take control of the situation by calling her david here.

okay, so obv he’s calling her devi here bc 1) he’s talking to paxton and 2) paxton also just referred to her as devi. but i wanna talk about his tone here. his voice goes up like…three octaves. cracks at the end when he says her name. because as opposed to the last instance he called her devi, he’s nervous here. knows that pax is this ladies man that had caught devi’s eye before, and he’s worried that he’s going to catch her eye again (give it literally two minutes, ben, and then you’ll find out, lol). being around paxton without devi present pulls on his insecurities, because he can’t look over at her and think, “she chose me. she chose me.” (again, she didn’t, but that’s beside the point right now)

“There should only be one choice..."

oof. this stings, tbh. cori mentions it in her posts as well, but here you can see him using her real name as a way to distance himself from her. he says it like it’s a curse, like it’s the most vile thing that could come out of his mouth. he’s hurt, obviously. he was all-in for her! and i think this here helps prove my theory that he’s had feelings for her for far longer than we’re made to assume — like yes, obviously you’re going to be hurt if your significant other cheats on you regardless for how long you’ve been together or how long you’ve really, truly cared about them, but ben is absolutely devastated. i’m not saying paxton isn’t upset, because he is! this is during paxton’s pov episode, so we do hear from miss hadid here that he was upset about the whole two-timing thing. but ben? it absolutely crushed him, because he was that much more invested in devi than pax was. we aren’t sure of the exact timeline, of course, but since they’re still in the first semester of school at this point it’s safe to assume that it’s likely been maybe a month or so since ben and devi started actually being friends. ben’s reaction runs so much more deep than someone who’s only had romantic feelings for that short a time period. (i also want to point out that the scene immediately following this one is where paxton coins the term “crazy devi,” though that’s not particularly relevant to this post.)

"...At the party, you followed him, and you left me behind.”

OUCH. if the last one stung, this one is a punch straight to the gut. using her real name to hold her accountable for her own actions. to show her that she hurt him and that they aren’t okay. i mean, his exact words: “We’re not even. We’re not even close to even.” back in 1x06 he uses david as an attempt to return to their version of normalcy, and here he uses devi to show that they can’t return to that.

okay, obviously i’m going to be referencing this post by cori because she talks specifically of this instance. this is the first use of david we see in season 2, and we are already halfway through the season. while i don’t believe for a single second that ben has moved on from the two-timing incident, he is trying to move on from devi at the very least. as cori says in her post, we only see him refer to her as david after he and aneesa start flirting with each other. i really like how she worded it in her post: “it’s a relic from their rivalry, which makes it both an insult and a way to preserve their years of shared history.” he’s not ready to be best buds just yet, obviously, but he still cares about her.

once again linking cori’s other post that dives into this episode’s use of devi vs. david as well as 2x08’s. here, he’s obviously defaulting to devi because they’re in front of her family, but there’s also the way he says her name in this scene. like he’s using it to hold her accountable for her own actions. his tone after she tries to be lighthearted with, “I don’t know. She could spin that into a pretty good essay,” is disappointed because she keeps messing up. he wants to believe in her, but she isn't giving him any reason to.

 just like cori says in her post, he goes back to david when her family isn’t around. while he is using the nickname as some form of familiarity & closeness, he is still so disappointed in her, because he wants to believe that she’s capable of doing right by aneesa. the wording of “use your brain” here comes off as their usual banter if you don’t take into account ben’s tone, sober and serious. he wants her to do better, not just for him, and not just for aneesa, but for devi, herself, too.

aaand here we are back with another term of endearment david! he’s genuinely pleased with her that she managed to pull off not only the apology, but in securing aneesa’s spot at sherman oaks — not just so he can ask her out, obviously, but because it means 1) aneesa doesn’t have to go through transferring schools again, because ben does care about her well-being and mental health, but also 2) it means devi is capabale of doing good and righting her wrongs. obviously, he doesn’t know that her main motivation was getting ben back, but still, in his eyes, she was able to hold herself accountable and fix her mistakes. not only that, but we are reverting back to banter here! this is such a huge turning point for them this season, giving a good headstart to what i am affectionately going to be referring to as their “besties era” in season 3.

not much to say here, really; just his use of david being an indicator of friendship. however what is interesting is…

"She's, like, super flighty and unstable, and throws away a good man for no reason."

okay, first off, obviously, this is a huge dig at her for the events of 2x02, which i can’t blame ben for, but it’s also so snarky that it comes across like their season 1 pre-friendship banter which is an era of their relationship i genuinely love (mostly bc it all comes across as thinly veiled flirting, but i digress). what is really interesting to me is that he doesn’t call her david in front of aneesa. he doesn’t do it even once. i have said it once and i will say it a million fucking times: david belongs to ben and devi and no one else. he uses it to both 1) take back control of situations when he is feeling uncomfortable or insecure, and 2) when he wants to establish a closeness to devi. the former isn’t relevant here, and he can’t exactly refer to his ex-girlfriend with their version of a fucking pet name in front of his current girlfriend. yeah, you can argue that maybe he just doesn’t want to explain the whole david thing to aneesa, but i think it’s deeper than that. he doesn’t want to establish that closeness with devi while aneesa is present because it starts blurring lines and crossing boundaries in his head.

the next time they’re together, aneesa isn’t around, and he reverts back to david. not even two whole seconds later he opens up a serious conversation, asking about devi’s feelings in regards to working with ben and aneesa. despite the fact that devi was the one to hurt ben! david here, once again, being used to establish closeness, familiarity, friendship. this is also just one of my favorite scenes of theirs, ever, because their smiles are so sweet and so genuine. you can tell how much they care for each other, despite the the events from earlier in the season.

“Devi, when are you going to realize that that dick doesn’t deserve you?”

(okay, i know it doesn’t show him saying devi in the captions, but he does.) BATHROOM SCENE MY BELOVED. this is my number one duo scene of theirs for so many reasons oh my god. the use of devi here, when it’s just them is so significant because during their friendship era, he has consistently referred to her as david when they’re alone. but not here. here she is devi. because he needs her to know what she is worth. he needs her to listen when he tells her that she deserves better than paxton, and he gets her to listen with the use of devi.

#long post #devi vishwakumar #ben gross #benvi #ben x devi #devi x ben #never have i ever #nhie #never have i ever meta #nhie meta #meta #devi vs david

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some of the story :3

So it Starts in November of 2023 allll the way in Virginia. There is this group of friends in their junior year of high school. Ben, Eli, Jax, and Oliver. Eli doesn’t really consider them friends though, but that’s bc he’s honestly kind of a bitch early on. so the school they go to is having a lot of student disappearances. One day when Ben and Oliver are walking home, being the silly little ADHD guys they are, go into the forest to try to find their old treehouse that they used to have as kids. But they ended up finding dead bodies, and someone nearby spotted them. They went back to school literally terrified, because the person who saw them was likely the person who did that, and also likely a person who went to their school. Now focusing on a different group. Same time period and school and everything. Ada and aylex. Ada and aylex are friends, and they have been since third grade. Brief fun fact/psa/wyv: aylex isnt pronounced how it’s spelt. His name is pronounced Alex, but it’s spelt with a y because his parents liked it better that way. Anyways. One day they’re walking home together, and they see a group of kids who look their age. The kids are all wearing like, baggy white shorts, baggy sweatpants, and no shoes. They each had a tattoo on the back of their hand. They ended up being lab experiments (number and lab experiments has literally nothing to do with stranger things, I swear. The lab experiments are FAR from stranger things characters) Focusing on another group, the three lab experiments!!11 So the lab expirements each have a thing tattooed on the back of their hand. One says J11506, another is X41327, and another is M77869. J11506 says that they have to blend in and so they have find out how to enroll in school. So they find out how to do that, and they manage to steal money from people on the streets to buy clothes, food, etc. they then find another former lab experiment who offers them a place to live. They each chose a different name for themself. M77869 chose Ale xis, X41327 chose Zachary, and J11506 chose aura, because he wanted to be different and emo (/j /lh). But the thing about aura is that the lab workers have him something when he was born that makes him feel no emotions. The reason they did this was because aura was an experiment focused on intelligence, and they didn’t want any emotions getting in the way of decision making. So they alllll enroll in school. People usually find aura really annoying though, because usually he is very rude without realizing it. He can’t feel emotions, so he can’t “imagine how you would feel if someone said that to you,” so he has like, no filter. And now we yet again, focus on another group. This time it’s a family though. The Ezthics. This is Jax’s family, and it is wild tbh. So, Jax’s older brother Mason is ONE of the two people responsible for the school murders and disappearances. He’s working with this girl named Eden. There also is another Ezthic sibling, Michael, who later helps with the murders, but in the timeline rn he’s only like 10 or something, so he doesn’t join for another 5 or so years

#Sywisy

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seven/ace/hex relisten <3

I’ve been really missing the seventh doctor recently so decided it was time to relisten to Hex’s storyline in the Big Finish main range! Its been ages since I first heard some of these (and i’ve never listened past Protect and Survive before) so I’m genuinely excited :) One of my favourite BF arcs so far I think!

I’m going to note down my thoughts as I go, starting with The Harvest:

I love how this story introduces us to Hex. He’s a sweet guy, it’s his birthday and he’s already having the worst time of his life. Sorry king it will NOT get better

I also enjoy the trend of Seven stories where he’s just skulking around for most of episode 1. Ace is like this is my dad he loves lurking

It’s such an optimistic vision of 2021? I love the reference to “Big Ben and the Museum of Parliament”. I wish. That and the all the tech the hospital use feels so far in the future even now

That being said there’s a weird Brexity vibe later on? The whole program being run by the Euro-Combine and all. Seven even blames the whole thing on “Eurocrats in Brussels” at one point. It just feels strange. I had enough of that in 2016 thanks

“Sus”

Seven is absolutely flirting with System in part two. Oh my. I bet she loves him rewiring her insides

I like this take on the Cybermen too. The fact that these specific Cybermen want to be converted back into humans is really interesting!

I like how it makes the Cybermen kind of messy? I tend to see Cyber-conversion as a one-way, homogenising process but this story says so—there are those Cybermen who want it reversed. And i love how grotesque and body-horrory that reverse process is

Even the obligatory twist about how the Cyberleader was in control the whole time! doesn’t detract from that core idea too much—he’s still clearly finding joy in becoming human, even if it’s only with the end goal of completely Cyber-converting the rest of the human race

As a final thought—the sound design on this story is so… dense? So much is happening all at once it’s kind of hard to keep track of voices, especially near the end

Overall though I enjoyed this one a lot! It’s got a great, cold atmosphere with lots of gnarly stuff behind the scenes. I haven’t talked much about Hex but his dynamic with 7 & Ace is already great and probably my favourite part of this story. 8/10 overall i think!

TARDIS wiki moment: remember the Euro-combine treaty? That links in to the UNIT story The Longest Night! I like all those tiny references in the early BF years tbh

#doctor who #big finish #seventh doctor #ace mcshane #hex #the harvest #certified tara posting #tara’s dw thoughts #looking forward to this relisten a lot! like i said its been a while and there are some stories i havent heard at all that im excited for #anyway if you read these posts maybe talk about big finish with me 👉👈 #7das

[strangesickness]

ooh how about 'shiver' for the ask game?

i actually use "shiver" in my most recent WIP!! (guy who starts new wips every day instead of getting any work done on the old ones), it is about the losers being a group of space pirates :)

i never share writing this early on in the writing process... i wrote this at like 1am a few days ago and it has NOT been edited at all. so uh. OTL

Richie grabs the rim of the sink with his good hand and clumsily pulls himself to his feet. The horrid taste of his dinner reacquainting itself with his mouth begins to recede, that is until he meets his own eyes in the mirror and pulls one side of his mouth back in a wince. There’s a large bruise purpling most of the skin around his left eye and cheek, with how bad it looks at the moment, he dreads to see it an hour from now when it will have turned a sickly brown-green. His skin is pale from months away from the sunny planets, and it’s coated in a shiny layer of sweat. He’s used to below-freezing temperatures, from his time spent orbiting Neptune, but now, back under the sun’s rays for the first time in ages, he feels as though the cold is catching up with him. He’s jittery by nature, there’s typically a shake to his hands as they grip a microphone, but he can’t remember the last time he found himself honest-to-god shivering. Richie’s never been good at fighting, he talks enough shit that you’d think he’d have picked up at least some tricks by now. That he’d have learned something from the endless number of people he’s goaded into a fight, but no, he never stands a chance when using his own two fists. When he was nineteen and had first lost his arm, he’d thought that maybe the shiny new metal one would give him the edge, but it never did. Back then the only thing he had going for him was how flighty he was, he could duck and weave decently quickly, but the arm just slowed him down. Thankfully, eight years later he’s grown into the weight, he’s no longer a lanky kid, and the heft of the arm is balanced pretty decently with the rest of him. He brings it up in front of him so he can look at it through the mirror. The one he’s currently using isn’t his normal one, which is in the workshop with Ben, this is one of his older arms that he keeps laying around as a spare. All of his arms have metal plating, he’s never jumped for the skin look-alikes. When he was younger it was a point of pride, now he’s just tired and scared of change. This one is copper, and after a few too many days sitting through storms on the deck, it has turned a weathered green.

i also found this in the depths of my drive from like? four years ago? so... edgy persona 4 writing from when i was in high school under the cut lol <3 (i love reading my high school writing tbh i was so confident and did not care if my writing was good or bad or edgy or whatever :))

Things erupt briefly, everyone expressing their relief at his in-one-piecedness, until his shadow taps on the microphone and everyone goes quiet. “You should all take a seat.” Yu watches as his friends automatically begin to find chairs then pause and look at him hesitantly. He’s wary, and really doesn’t want to know how in depth his shadow plans to go with this. He tries his best to retain authority when he says, “This will be quick, getting comfortable won’t be necessary.” His shadow fakes offence up on the stage, hand to its forehead like it’s mid TV style feint. “Oh... Well if our dear leader ordains it then...” The childish lilt suddenly leaves it’s voice and it stares at Yu, speaking once again in it’s flat monotone “let’s get right into it.” Yu almost shivers when he sees the malice in its beady eyes.

#posts afflicted with a strange sickness #asks :)

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YET ANOTHER long and obnoxious stream of my thoughts while watching grey’s anatomy for the first time (season FIFTEEN, bc i’m actually not sick of these yet)

-i don’t like this whole “she’s not really your sister” thing. like, it’s played for comedic effect and teddy is clearly just hormonal and panicking so whatever but i don’t like that.

-i don’t want to rehash owen x amelia. yawn. nor do i want to rehash owen x teddy. yawner.

-i like that we’re getting a *little* deeper into helms crush on meredith and that it’s not just comic relief

-why are there no doctors above the age of 45 in this entire hospital besides richard? they’re all so pretty, but at what cost?

-something is going to happen to this pregnant nurse… there’s a lot of focus on her out of the blue

-i love that almost this entire intern class is at least mildly gay

-bailey is pissing me off

-ted mosby!!! he looks a little slovenly for a date tbh. not to sound judgmental but like, she’s all dressed up and he isn’t.

-this guy is way chiller than ted mosby. i like this for her. i hope it doesn’t turn out really bad but i know it probably will

-is it worth it to watch station 19?? i kind of don’t want to tbh

-i forgot teddy was in new york until her friend passed in 9/11. i’m imagining an au in which teddy and addison knew each other in NYC in the 90s bc i think they should’ve interacted more

-the undiagnosable stomach issue is so clearly this patient’s suspicious heirloom lunch pail. like, duh.

-okay well i was wrong about that and now i’m embarrassed that i predicted that with such smug sureness and authority.

-playing “chasing cars” in spanish for the día de los muertos episode is an interesting choice. i think i like it??

-nurse debbie!!!! it’s been a while

-okay nvm that is NOT nurse debbie. they just have the same bangs

-everyone gets to have a tumor on this show. YOU get a tumor! YOU get a tumor!! and YOU get a tumor!!!

-richard no :(

-RICHARD, NO >:(

-as much as i hate the owen/amelia dynamic, i really LOVE this whole amelia and betty thing

-i DO NOT like meredith/deluca

-the only relationship that doesn’t completely bore or frustrate me right now is alex/jo but even then, they’re just kind of there, yk?

-i love that meredith has one format of outfit that she likes and that works for her and she sticks to it. relatable AF.

-why didn’t miranda just have a conversation with ben before she sprung the separation on him? he would have been more than understanding i think

-i really like teddy and koracick actually

-i’ve been waiting for the other shoe to drop with betty :(

-did they change out writers and/or show runners?? the writing feels… cheesier almost? or maybe just like the emotional beats are less earned? i mean it’s always been delightfully soapy but it’s just different these past couple of seasons and i can’t put my finger on it

-betty/britney’s mom is baby from dirty dancing?????!!!!!

-alex just straight up not being able to understand the scottish accents is so fucking funny.

-i love it when bokhee has lines

-“it’s a real fire!!” alex, gleefully and wrapped in a homemade knit scarf while indoors

-richards reaction to they/them pronouns is very interesting and i think it’s definitely an accurate portrayal of how even the generally accepting and well meaning older people can sometimes struggle with that kind of stuff. like, he’s not trying to be ignorant or rude he’s just genuinely perplexed. “the world moves fast and i’m just trying to keep up”

-i SWEAR TO GOD if teddy gets back with owen instead of staying with tom i will start hitting things

-“you suffered for years bc of my brother so you should totally get together and move in with him”- megan hunt in a wig that’s almost as terrible as her advice

-nancy!!!

-the shepherd family dynamic is so interesting to me because we’ve heard about it from two different perspectives over the years (derek’s and things amelia has said mostly in PP) and what we’ve seen of them is mostly from derek and meredith’s perspective in which they seem nice if a bit overbearing.

-okay jeez kathleen is a piece of work. i’ve always liked nancy even though she is “mcbitchy”. i also can’t help but to think about how addison fit into all of this when she and derek were married lol.

-has amelia ever told her family about christopher?

-stop trying to push owen and teddy on me!!!! i hate it!!

-that is insurance fraud babe. is there not a way for them to do it pro bono or something??

-okay i can sense that teddy and owen is going to happen so i will not make any more notes about it bc all i have to say about it is some variation of “no! i hate it!”

-okay i lied because the way teddy is going about it makes me deeply upset. poor tom. also “he makes me laugh and feel safe but i don’t feel rage or passion or ecstasy” ????? i should hope you don’t feel rage??? owen hunt makes me enraged too but that doesn’t mean i want to kiss him on the mouth!!! jesus christ. just fuck tom i guess, right?

-WOAH. i was not vibing with merluca but he’s willing to go to prison for her??!!!

-there’s no way they’re really fired . meredith owns a good chunk of the hospital still, right??? not to mention there’s maybe three characters on this show that *haven’t* committed crimes/major ethical violations.

-i’ve been beefing with jackson for a few seasons now tbh

#greys anatomy #meredith grey #andrew deluca #teddy altman #guys im nearing the end of my rope w this show lmao #unless they can really hook me on new characters or something #especially. bc i’ve got spoilers about something that happens next season #taryn helm u are so real #meredith sweetheart please stop committing crimes i am begging you on my knees #maybe i will stick around until addison cameos that i know come later #these are all tagged under #greys reactions

[illfoandillfie]

Kinktober Day 1: Just Married

Kinktober Masterlist | Regular Masterlist

Pairing: Ben Hardy x Reader

Words: 1517

Warnings: semi public sex, thats about it tbh lmao

A/N: It’s that time of the year again folks! I’m very excited about what I’ll be posting over the next month but we’re kicking off with something a little on the romantic side. It’s a bit cute I think. But ofc I had to pick Ben for this one since he’s the only man I would ever consider marrying.

It was a good thing that everyone expected you and Ben to be totally wrapped up in each other. Ben’s horny looks were easily mistaken for love struck glances at his new wife. He’d had his hand on your thigh pretty much all through the dinner and speeches, only pulling it away when it was time to cut the cake. You’d gently stroked the back of his hand to let him know he could keep it in place, although whenever it rose a little too high you had to stop him. But you couldn’t blame him for trying. You were just as horny as he was. Hard not to be after two weeks of celibacy.  

Originally, you’d planned to abstain from sex for a month leading up to the wedding. Surprisingly, it had been Ben’s idea. A friend of his had gone on about how the first-time-as-a-married-couple sex was so much more incredible when you’d not had sex around the time of the wedding and Ben had been taken with it. So you’d planned a whole month of not sleeping together. Except then there’d been a party and you’d both drunk a little and ended up having a tipsy fuck the moment you got home. So you’d decided two weeks of celibacy would be enough. And you’d been right. Two weeks was plenty of time to have both of you so worked up you were fighting the urge to give each other handjobs under the table while your maid of honour and best man made toasts.  

There were bound to be photos of you and Ben leaning in to whisper to each other, looking sickeningly smitten and smiling uncontrollably. Only you and he knew that more than half of the whispers were innuendo or outright admittance of wanting certain body parts. And then, when just saying how desperately you wanted each other wasn’t enough, planning for how to find some time alone. It was rapidly becoming clear that waiting until you were on your honeymoon was not going to work. You’d combust long before then. You needed something sooner than that, just a quickie to get you through.  

It was even worse when you stood up and started moving around. You could feel how wet you were just from his fingers brushing over your thigh. Ben kept his arm wrapped around your waist like you were his anchor, keeping him from drifting too far into fantasy. Or perhaps he already had a semi and was using you as a shield, it was hard to tell through your dress. You did an admirable job of pretending you weren’t constantly thinking about Ben’s cock, but his breathy laugh against your ear as you talked to loved ones, and the warmth of his hands as he pulled you in close to dance made you shiver with how badly you wanted him alone.  

It was while you were moving away from the dancefloor that Ben leaned in close, his voice only just loud enough for you to hear over the noise of the hall, “Men’s room?” You blinked and twisted your neck to try to see him better, not sure you’d heard him correctly.   He subtly tilted his head in the direction of the bathrooms, his hand slipping low on your back, just shy of an inappropriate touch.   “Ohhhhh,” you said in dawning realisation, “Yes, definitely.” He chuckled at how emphatic you were and then took your hand in his, leading you towards the edge of the room. He looked around a little as you tried to navigate the room without being seen, “Shit. Incoming.” Before you could ask what he meant you heard your names from someone standing to your left.   “Ben, Y/N,” the woman said, beaming as she reached to grab one of each of your hands, “What a beautiful ceremony. Congratulations.” “Aw, thanks Aunt Polly,” Ben said, “glad you could make it.” “Oh I wouldn’t have missed it. Been saying for years you two should get a move on and tie the knot.” Ben laughed sheepishly but before he could respond further she was continuing. “Been saying you’ll make such adorable babies – when you’re ready to have them of course. Not that you can always plan for them. My Helen was a honeymoon baby and we definitely didn’t expect her. Thought we’d have a few years before a baby came along. But c'est la vie. Now where was it you two were going for your honeymoon? Your mother was telling me the other day. Paris was it? Or was that my friend Brenda’s son?” “Sorry, Aunt Pol,” Ben said, quickly cutting across before her monologue could go any further, “There’s a bit of an issue we’ve got to deal with. Nothing big,” he assured at her sudden worried expression, “just the caterers are getting the tea and coffee and cake set up soon and needed to check something with us.” “Oh of course dear, go,” Polly made a shooing motion with her hands, “organising nights like this take a lot of work and coordination, I understand.” “Thanks,” you managed to get out before Ben was whisking you off, muttering under his breath about how his balls were turning blue.

Thankfully you made it to the bathroom without another interruption. Ben peeked inside to check the coast was clear before hurrying you through the door and then into a stall. “Cosy,” you quipped as he locked the door and turned to face you.   “Funny, he managed to get out just before his lips crashed into yours, his hands already busy trying to ruck up the layers of your white dress.   You giggled against his lips and began fumbling for his belt.   It was cramped within the stall and your dress was more in the way than you’d have liked but there was no time or space to undress. You ended up bracing your hands on the cistern while Ben slid into you from behind, both of you taking a moment to sigh with how good it felt. But you were very aware that someone could want to legitimately use the bathroom any moment so Ben quickly got to work, pulling out carefully and then thrusting forward quickly, finding a rhythm and worked for both of you.   You let out a small moan, pressing the back of your hand to your lips the moment it slipped out.   “Careful wife,” Ben said softly, leaning forward, “don’t wanna get busted.” “Sorry husband,” you half whispered, half laughed, “you just fill me so well.” Ben groaned at your words, burying his face into your neck to muffle himself.   You’d have returned his reprimand, reminded him he could be loud on the honeymoon, but he took that moment to wrap his arm tighter around your waist, pulling you backwards onto his cock. All you could do was whimper, readjusting your hands on the cistern to keep yourself steady. Which was made all the harder when Ben grabbed one of your wrists and moved your hand towards your cunt.   “Rub your clit, honey, want to feel you cum on my cock.” It took a moment to get your fingers under your skirts but when you did you stroked your fingers along your slit until they brushed over the last inch or so of Ben’s cock as he pulled out a little so he could sink back in. You could feel the curly hair around his base and your own slick on his length before it disappeared into your warm heat once more.   “Call me your wife again,” you murmured, finally dragging your fingers up to your clit. “Come for me, wife,” he almost growled, “show me how much your love your husbands cock.” That made you whine, though your fingers rubbing over your clit contributed too, as well as how Ben felt moving inside you.   It lasted a little longer, Ben urging you on as he tried to hold off his own impending orgasm. Finally you were there, whimpering into his palm as he covered your mouth in case a noise slipped out.   Moments later he groaned into your shoulder as he came himself, holding you tight as aftershocks shot through you with each slight shift of his hips.  

"Worth waiting for,” Ben said softly, pressing a kiss to your shoulder, “new wife.” You clenched in response, surprised by how the words excited you. “And very good to know I’ve got a new phrase to make you wet,” Ben laughed, carefully pulling out. “Don’t abuse your power,” you laughed, playfully reaching behind your to slap his side. Ben rearranged your underwear and then let your skirts drop, smoothing his hands over your hips as he turned you around to kiss you sweetly.   “Nice try, husband,” you said, exaggerating the last word, “but I’m not spending the rest of my reception worrying about cum soaking through my underwear.” you reached for some toilet paper, “hold my skirts up please.” “Allow me,” Ben laughed, dutifully taking the toilet paper from your hand and squatting down to help clean up his mess as you rucked up your skirts again.

#My writing #my fics #ben hardy x reader #ben hardy smut #ben hardy imagine #kinktober 2022

[somewhat-crazy]

hi!! i don't know if you're taking requests anymore , if you don't then you're free to delete this , but if you still do , then can you please do ej , jeff , puppeteer and ben with a dyslexic (gender-neutral) s/o? thank you for your time , have a great day/night! <3

i'm back and hopefully going to stay more active ^^

creeps x dyslexic s/o !

jeff the killer

bc of his childhood and him becoming a killer at a young age, i feel like he would have reading and writing skills that of a 12-13 year old

that being said, he's very understanding and honestly doesn't really care? like not in a bad way, he just doesn't mind and lets you take your time

if you want, he'll go over stuff alongside you and see if your combined power can defeat the evil 🙏

nah tbh he'll just be like "lmao me too lysdexic culture" and then move on bc he cares about who you are as a person rather than stuff like that

ben drowned

tbh he's not super good at reading or writing either. since he does 90% of his writing on a computer screen, his handwriting is absoluelte chicken scratch

he doesn't mind tho, and tries his best go accommodate you! anything you think would help, he'll get right away

he probably would make a joke or two about it but would immediately stop if it hurt or upset you

much like jeff, he honestly doesn't care but just in a way like "oh? you're dyslexic? okay" and it doesn't change anything about how he sees you

eyeless jack

is very patient and understanding, always is there if you need help or assistance

does research on it, and will try out different things to see if they help! doesn't correct you unless you want him to, and it's always in a light hearted and gentle way

since he's very academic, he feels a bit awkward sometimes, but only bc he doesn't want to accidentally make you upset!

he also would absolutely love to read out loud to you, and if you let him he will be so happy<33

#hi love! please remember to drink plenty of water today and remember that you are loved and you matter!! #creepypasta #creepypasta headcanon #jeff the killer headcanon #creepypasta jeff the killer #jeff the killer #jeffery woods #jeff the killer creepypasta #jeff the killer x reader #jeff the killer x you #eyeless jack x you #eyeless jack headcanon #eyeless jack creepypasta #creepypasta eyeless jack #eyeless jack #eyeless jack x y/n #eyeless jack x reader #bendrowned #ben drowned headcanon #ben drowned x reader #creepypasta ben drowned #ben drowned #benjamin lawman #ben drowned creepypasta #creepypasta x y/n #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x you

[denydefeat]

Wishlist/Plot ideas for random characters under the cut. If you comment a muse or a few? I'll send you a DM about it. Some are vague. Some are more thought out. I'm going down my muse list so nothing is really separated but it is if you follow it while following my muse list.

Nesta: Not having a mate yet. I love them but also. It's just too clean. I want it messier. Thanks. OR Eris being her mate FUCKING FIGHT ME Elain/Lucien: Since I'm out here writing both, I want Lucien to ask Elain to just reject the mating bond so he can go on his own way without the confusion, guilt, and lingering what-if. Her having the internal debate about whether or not that is what she truly wants. Just all of the drama around that. Emerie/Mor: Literally those two. I write both so let's GO. Stannis: Winning the battle of blackwater before Tywin can deus ex machina his ass there (I love Tywin shhh) and becoming King of Westeros, only to deal with all of the repercussions of his journey there (enlisting the help of the Red God, killing Renly, being generally disliked, etc). Myrcella: Either staying in Dorne longer or not getting poisoned (yes this is show based only since the books vary in the Dorne storyline so) Robb: Being called to a battle in lieu of attending the Red Wedding and, thus, surviving it (though Catelyn and likely his wife attend and perish). Rick Flagg: More SS missions. Just general chaos with various DC villains. Harley/Ivy: I would kill for this ship I write both LETS FUCKING GO Rick/Harley: Same as above thank you. Clark/Lois: Same as above again thank you. Max: Anything post the finale. Max deserved a better ending than his friends like "he's mad at us oh well" while he's getting his shit rocked in the streets. I'm so fucking mad about it I could punch a goddamn wall. Heather: Surviving the electrocution/hitting her head. Having some deficits and taking time to recover, but eventually returning to neuro as Derek's protege (and eventually Amelia's I feel like her and Amelia would get along so well) Denny: Surviving plEASE that's all that's all I want Lily: Escaping Godric's Hollow with Harry that night and finding a safe house with a friend (Marlene, Sirius, Remus, etc) Brian: Him and Justin reuniting, even a few years down the line, in New York or in Pittsburgh Snow White: honestly if you write with Snow in her main verse, I will love you forever. If you write with Snow White from Fables and you write Bigby??? I will stan you forever. Neal: Getting to live and raise his son wtf. Who gives a flying shit about ships? Ben Solo: Same as Snow tbh if you write with Ben? I'll stan you forever. Jyn: Her and Cassian escaping before the city is destroyed and surviving and continuing work in the Rebellion. Anakin/Padme: Leaving for Naboo before Order 66. :)!!! Riddick: If you write Riddick muses, write with Riddick or Dame Vaako and let's go Coriolanus Snow: ANYTHING between the 10th and 64th hunger games. Peeta: Peeta being the one taken from the arena and Katniss being captured by the Capitol. :)!!!! Tauriel/Kili: GIVE ME KILI SURVIVING I BEG YOU THANK YOU Renesmee "Carlie": Anything honestly I just love writing her. Bella: Realizes men ain't shit and doesn't take Edward back immediately girl set feminism back like 50 years with that (I'm kidding she was a girl who wanted that dick that bad and I respect it I'm gay but I respect it). Leah/Sam: Leah being the first wolf to shift and/or Leah and Sam imprinting on each other pls goSH I AM SO SAD (I love Emily tho don't get me wrong)

#WISHLIST / A dream is a wish your heart makes #[ there are others sure but these were the ones popping out to me so xoxo happy reading ]

[withallthingslove]

The Phantom of the Opera Broadway Thoughts/Review — Dec. 7, 2022

After 8 years away (my last Phantom was Norm Lewis), I went back to see it on Broadway.

Going in, I was really apprehensive about seeing Ben Crawford’s Phantom because I had heard so many mixed things about him. Everyone either thought he was the best or had multiple criticisms and there was no in between, and tbh in bootlegs I wasn’t wild about his voice. As a Hugh Panaro Stan, I had seen a lot of fans who prefer Hugh-esque Phantoms not enjoying Ben’s as much. So I was nervous but curious about what I would think

The audience on Dec. 7 was clearly primarily made up of fans. The energy was INSANE. I honestly can’t describe it. Everyone was thrilled to be there 

I was fully chocking back a sob during the overture because it was so overwhelming

As soon as Emilie smiled while performing “Think of Me” I almost started sobbing again lol

Emilie’s Christine is so so so good. Her vibrato is beautiful, her enunciation is super clear. And I think acting wise she is probably one of the strongest I’ve seen. There’s just something about how everything she does is so purposeful and you can see and understand why her Christine is choosing to do something.

I think Ben has somehow become my second favorite Phantom?? The small things I didn’t like are just me nitpicking, like some of the pronunciation and some physicality choices. But I really loved his voice, and his interpretation fits with the energy of the cast. He’s also the only Phantom I think that would successfully seduce me

As for Paul A. Schaefer as Raoul... . He does the bare minimum of what is required of Raoul, and is much stronger in the first act or when he’s acting alongside Emilie. His voice is good. But something about his stage presence is just like “go girl give us nothing,” especially during the Notes scenes. I think he was best during “Think of Me,” “Little Lotte,” and “All I Ask of You.” During Notes II he looked like he didn’t want to be there or deliver his threat to the Phantom. 

Ben, Emilie, and Paul as a trio is really interesting. It’s as if the Phantom’s insanity is what pushes Christine to Raoul. Like she was happy to see Raoul at first, there was some ~ romantic tension~ but as soon as the Phantom appeared she forgot about Raoul. Then once she was scared of the Phantom, she defaulted to Raoul, and her fear is what kept pushing her toward Raoul throughout the show because she wanted comfort and to feel safe, not because she was head over heels in love. Which is why the Phantom had a stronger hold on her chemistry-wise than some other Christine’s who want nothing to do with the Phantom. Instead of the Phantom disrupting Christine and Raoul’s relationship, him disrupting Christine is what brings Raoul in. If that makes sense.

It’s the best supporting cast/company/ensemble I’d seen in a long time. The epitome of “acting is reacting.” Everyone (aside from Paul I’m sorry) brought something different, had high energy, and were acting in a way that fit seamlessly with those on stage with them. The best way I can put it is I think sometimes in past casts, people had their interpretation and stuck to it no matter who they were playing alongside, while this felt like you were watching something unique and a one-of-a-kind rendition that might be different the next night. 

Aside from Ben and Emilie, the two other strongest cast members were Nehal Joshi as Andre and Raquel Suarez Groen as Carlotta

The sound quality is sooooo much better than when I was last there in 2014, which I think is partially why the overture was overwhelming in the best way. Everything was clear and impactful.

As soon as I heard Ben’s voice over the speakers during “Angel of Music” I fell in love ajksjk bootlegs really don’t do it justice.

The orchestra and music sounded amazing during the title song. And I actually liked the change at the beginning with Raoul and the ballerinas instead of the body doubles

Ben definitely has some pronunciations that take getting used to, but it sounds like Emilie’s Christine mimics that pronunciation a bit for continuity

I am not an E/C shipper but I was rooting for them to kiss during MOTN their chemistry was that good, especially when Ben sings “touch me, trust me” like *feral screech*

Ben’s crawl across the floor during “Stranger Than You Dreamt It” was more toned down than I had seen it bootlegs, which made it more emotional instead of funny. Emilie handing back the mask I think was one of the strongest acting moments of the show you could feel the tension between them 

“All I Ask of You” was very cute, and Emilie and Paul’s kisses were more realistic and less theatrical if that makes sense which I appreciated. They were believable as a couple

Ben and Emilie’s chemistry was so apparent during PONR and they both vocally sounded so good. I still prefer the original blocking, but the new blocking worked well enough 

During the final lair, it didn’t feel high stakes because of Christine or Raoul being in danger, but more so high stakes in that you didn’t know what Christine was going to do? One of those cases where the lines she delivers pick Raoul, but her chemistry and body language is saying other wise. When giving back the ring Emilie definitely lingered long enough that you question if she’s having ~feelings~ instead of just feeling bad. I also typically assume the Phantom dies like a week later, but I don’t get that vibe from Ben’s Phantom and could see him still waiting around for her idk.

Normally I’m like “girlie get out of there” during final lair. But even though I am a LND HATER, this is the trio where I wouldn’t mind Christine ditching Raoul and going back to fuck the Phantom  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I went back up to see Phantom one last time to appreciate all the set pieces and orchestra that will be butchered when Cameron Macintosh brings on whatever he has planned. So I really tried to soak everything in as far as the feeling of seeing it live and remembering how things were. But the cast was so good and the energy of the audience was so great to be a part of I think I’m going to try and swing another trip in 2023 just to have one final phantom experience.

#phantom of the opera #phantom bway #poto broadway #ben crawford #emilie kouatchou #paul a schaefer #phantom of the opera broadway #majestic theatre #broadway #review #mine #phantom #phantom broadway #poto

[destinyc1020]

i honestly don't think it was that shady that he cropped out vanessa? i know you really liked them together (austin and vanessa) but if we're going off there old mutual friends (who are still friends with austin and not vanessa). maybe she wasn't that all too good of a person, like random people, like wait staff, like their neighbors claimed. there have been many instances where she's proven not only to be awful to austin but she's just a plain ignorant person who openly is a zionist, was extremely disrespectful not only during covid but during blm, openly defends pedophiles, has cultural appropriated black, desi, and native american culture for the sake of her music videos, photoshoots and going to coachella. she's the global tourism ambassador of a country run by someone who should be in prison more or less for all the crimes he's committed. she's not a good person, she does not care, she thrives off playing the victim. i know you say, if she treated him so bad why did there relationship last so long? she's simply a narcissist.

after all she's put austin through, liking posts mocking him, commenting under posts mocking him, commenting on all his ex's posts only for her comments to get deleted by them, posting shady instagram stories about him day in and day out while she's married. i think the last thing that should be considered shady is an old friend of his respecting his privacy by not including vanessa in the photo. they were the ones who defended him in the comments when he was bullied and harassed off social media, a harassment campaign mind you that she started.

(i hope this doesn't come off rude, it's certainly not my intention, i just get irritated seeing vanessa be given the benefit of the doubt time and time again).

Hey Anon...

WOW.... 👀

Thank you for your input. First off, I'll just say that I usually don't ever take sides when it comes to relationship breakups. Mainly because I was NOT in the relationship, and I only know a fraction of what that relationship was like, and the issues surrounding the breakup. With celebrity couples, there's the extra added reality that Idk these people closely and personally irl. 🤷🏾‍♀️ So, unless there's some actual evidence of wrongdoing during a relationship, I usually just stay neutral lol.

I embellish more below if you're interested in reading....👇(Pull up a Chair)

Plus, I've seen a LOT of these couples (not just celebrity couples, but also irl) break up, and then later on down the line get back together again lol. And then, what do I look like if I've been villainizing one half of the couple, and then they get back together again?? 😅

LISTENNNN lol.... I have seen this happen so many times (even irl) that now days I just nod, look solemn, and offer tissues to my girl friends if they go through a breakup, but I don't say anything too damaging about their ex boyfriend or whatever lol. Cuz one minute you'll be cursing them out to your friend, and then the next thing you know, months later, they get back together and then she's mad at YOU for the things you said about her "Man".... 😒

I'm not saying Austin and Vanessa would ever get back together (I kinda feel like they're two totally different people now?), I'm just saying that after what I personally saw with Ben and JLo? I don't EVER put ANYTHING past exes anymore...especially exes who dated each other for a long number of years, or were engaged, or were close to engagement, etc. 😅

With that said, while I did like Austin and Vanessa when they were dating (I thought they were cute together and seemed really into each other), I have heard and seen some of the shady stuff Vanessa has done over the years...especially after their breakup.

Idk about her "Zionism" (I don't follow her all that closely tbh), but I def didn't appreciate her comments about covid....I felt they were VERY insensitive during the pandemic, and I've seen the receipts on her insensitive and totally out-of-place comments during the world's BLM rally in 2020. 😤 This is the one that really boggles my mind, cuz while Vanessa in 2020 was out there spouting "ALL Lives Matter" during BLM, Austin was publicly posting on his IG about the abomination of what happened to George Floyd and called his White brothers and sisters out on their white privilege, and told them to not just sit there blindly and quietly, but to do something in helping out in the cause. How two people who dated each other could be so totally wildly different in values just blows my mind.... 🥴

I don't HATE Vanessa, but yes, I agree with you, she can be petty, and some of the things she's done in the past have been BEYOND shady. Not to mention, how she behaved after their breakup when Austin was getting shine for "Elvis". Look, I understand being hurt after a breakup (that's understandable), but I've always been one of those "keep it classy" in public, and vent to your girlfriends in PRIVATE type of people.

So yea I totally get it why some Austin fans don't particularly care for V like that. I think that's valid. I've heard the rumors also about how she supposedly treated Austin during their relationship. Part of me feels like a lot of this is just hearsay. First of all, I don't think EITHER of them would have been together for as long as they were together (9 years) if things were THAT crappy in their relationship. I'm sorry, but especially if you're a celebrity with OPTIONS, you're not staying in a relationship that you're unhappy in. They are both two attractive people. They could have had just about ANYBODY in that span of time that they were together. So, the fact that they were together for so long, I assume that they were happy for the most part! As much as some fans of Austin (especially Kaustin Shippers) hate to admit it, Austin was with Vanessa for almost a decade. That's a LONG time. You can't just erase that part of his history. If things were that bad, I doubt he would have been with her that long. Every couple has their issues, and maybe some fans just overheard her saying certain mean things to him when they were having an argument?? 🤷🏾‍♀️ I don't think people are all saints or all devils. I think MOST people are a combo of BOTH? We all make mistakes and have our not-so-great moments from time to time. While I don't love Vanessa, at the same time, those Austin fans who HATE V beyond reason are really kind of sus to me. Just like, the V stans who hate Austin for just existing are also seriously sus to me..... especially when V was ALWAYS gushing about that man every chance she got when they were together. Like, something ain't adding up...I'm sorry. 🤔 The math ain't mathing. He too has always spoken nothing but GOOD things about Vanessa? Now, maybe he's just being a classy guy and keeping his real thoughts to himself lol, but either way, he personally hasn't spoken or even hinted at anything negative w/her. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I DO think V (and her stans) had something to do with a lot of the hate and bullying that Austin received during the "Elvis" press tour, and I think he handled it very well, considering everything that he went through.

With Eric, I kind of feel like he DIDN'T really need to add that last photo on there? He already had a ton of photos with Austin that he was using. He could have kept that last one out imo. And his caption seemed to be a bit shady towards V, but maybe he didn't intend it that way? Perhaps he was ONLY just talking about all of the hate Austin got online regarding the "Elvis Voice" thing.

But anyway, thanks for your input Anon... I didn't take offense to it at all... I hope you don't take what I've said the wrong way. 😊

#sorry for the long dissertation #had to get stuff off my chest

[ruthiesrambles2]

Well come on then...

002 for MelRuth (looking forward to the essay that will come out of this)

Hello anon I love you for this and I love this for me, thanks for enabling me 😘😘

When I started shipping them: after watching season 3 I came to AO3 in search of more Brakenight and was shocked to discover MelRuth was a thing. So I rewatched from s1 again. Excuse to wear your furs caught my eye but See You Around caught my soul and it has been a slow descent into madness ever since. So... April maybe? Feels like a lifetime haha

My thoughts: No thoughts only MelRuth! Ha. I really flip flop on the nature of them. I absolutely adore the idea of Ruth pining after Melanie the whole time, maybe they've had flings but nothing serious, they're friends until Ruth learns the truth and her heart breaks. But I also concurrently headcanon that they did have a relationship, some time between the bees and the start of S1. They broke up but obviously there's still feelings there. And after seven years on the train they've learned how to work together even despite those feelings. The See You Around scene is everything tbh. Melanie realising love is important after all, but Ruth is just too hurt. So hurt in fact that she had been willing to let her die at one point! But she does try to delay it, asking for a trial, and I believe she had a hand in Melanie's escape with Javi and Jinju. By the time Melanie goes to Breslauer, Ruth is having a big internal conflict because she's still SO angry but also Melanie might go away forever. When she agrees to look after Alex, she's cursing herself for not being able to forgive sooner. Saying yes is saying I love you. And the longer she is away, the more Ruth realises she still loves and needs her, after all she always has "melanie on her mind" and she can "feel her out there". But then Melanie is gone, and probably dead, and the train and its people need her. And she needs someone to make her happy (enter Mr Pike). Melanie coming back is a massive emotional shock, and the two struggle to reconcile. But the love and care is still there ("I'm not going to let you go alone am I"). Until Melanie suggests working with Wilford. And after everything... Ruth can't deal with that. At the end of the war, she wants to stay, oh god she wants to stay. But she promised to look after Alex, once, and she intends to fulfil that promise. I love you too much to stay... Okay this descended into headcanon a bit but I am feral for them and the tiny glances between them and idc what you say Melruth is real if I believe hard enough 😂

What makes me happy about them: THE PINING, the little touches, the glances, the Wilford Pin, the fact I would let either of them freeze off all my limbs.

What makes me sad about them: Ben. They never said a proper goodbye (or welcome back from the dead). THE PINING. The fact season 4 is going to kill me.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: when Ruth is in the engine/bunk room before the Milford reveal with no explanation! Caveat that I am currently writing a few things like this because it was easier and yes I'm annoyed at myself for it!

Things I look for in fanfic: at this point just them being in the same room together. Just any and all content of them together and being vaguely nice to each other. But above all I'm here for the E rated fics 👀

My wishlist: I don't know if this is for fic or for canon. For canon I just want them to acknowledge that there was something there once even if there's not now. And a good hug would be nice🥺. For fic I NEED a 100k word romance, yesterday. But I'll also take anything elaborating on their history together, small fluffy fics, smut (always), all the angst. I need an AU where Mel went to the B&B, an AU where Ben doesn't exist... All of it please.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: after a significant amount of reflection I would have to say Mel with Ben 😭. The set up is there and she does love him and they can be sweet together. Ruth is easier though. Ruth/Boki! I've said before I just want her to learn to love herself, but if she had to end up with someone I'm committed to Ruboki now. Or The Notary as an acceptable alternative. As long as whoever it is makes her happy. Happy Ruth is EVERYTHING.

My happily ever after for them: this post sums it up. Or you know, in twenty years time they are old and grey in a cabin in the newly terraformed warm spot and Melanie is digging in the garden and Ruth comes and puts her arms around her because she's about to go to a council meeting where Alex is the president of the new world, or something.

#is this enough of an essay for you? #melruth #melanie x ruth #melanie cavill #ruth wardell #snowpiercer tv