#i dont know if theyll see this

[dragonheart1330]

My friend is currently trying to convince our group chat that teeth are extensions of God; that having more teeth is seen as a sign of holiness, and having less teeth is a sign of sin.

Which is just entirely crazy, right? Like that makes absolutely no sense. How would those things even correlate?

They're making a lot of sense tho, imma be honest

#i despertaly do not want to tag god #so i will not #uhhhh #teeth #teeth as a sign of divinity #i dont know if theyll see this #and thats okay

[time-woods]

Your scarab design is inspiring me to go out into the open and present a little more fem than usual. For the longest time I’ve hated having a feminine chest and always worn clothes to kind of cover up because thats what I assumed would make me feel better but your scarab has helped me try to experiment more with my gender and go out in public without a binder and with my hair down(I have long straight hair that I usually keep up and brushed back so I don’t get misgendered). Hopefully my pronoun pin will help people see me as a guy, but, if not- eh. It’s what feels good to me that matters, not how others see me. They couldn’t understand anyways. Medium tity long hair boy in the neighborhood ‼️

yes ! ! im so glad !

honestly doing this for yourself can be the most liberating thing, dressing and presenting how you want and that makes you feel like you is the best thing you can do. its terrible but those who dont respect your identity wont try to, so why dress for them? dress for yourself ! n' those who are close to you will (i hope) support you !

#asks #i stand with you as a fellow long hair transmasc guy #dress how you want ! ! #i know there are folks out there thatll never see me as a guy and you know what ! screw em ! who cares ! i dont need to prove myself to the #cause i know theyll never like it

[mueritos]

quick lil post about coming back to art full-time while also being a full time MSW student….it can be possible 0.0

anyway ty to everyone who has supported me over the years i wouldnt be able to go back to art without you all

#muertodraws #also becoming a lil more comfy calling myself autistic even tho every autistic person i have ever me is like yea ur us lol #back in therapy and i finished my first sem of grad school off strong #next sem will be crazy but o well #hoping to volunteer at a cat shelter next yr too #i need a cat in my life or else i will explode #i would get one now as an esa but i just dont have the money #so heres to hoping #anyway i know my asks are off and thats cuz i just needed to focus on school #maybe theyll come back on next year but for now if u need to reach me feel free to pm or email me #dm me on instagram too if u gotta reach me #trying to balance being on here and also wanting to be invisible and blend in with the masses and work my 9-5 and act like i dont have like #intimate knowledge about online discourse lmfao #anyway #see u all soon

[lover-of-mine]

omggggg YES whether you look at eddie through a demi!gaze or just a queer!gaze, the difference between he and buck is sort of obvious? (to me)

it makes sense for them to say that bi!buck has been scattered throughout the show, we’ve seen and heard hints directed at/about several other male characters. so it’s logical it’s not entirely about eddie for him and therefore his bi!arc starts with someone else

eddie on the other hand hasn’t really had ‘moments’ with other male characters? a lot of his queer!spec comes from his history and the way he is with dating, but his main interactions with other male characters are the softer more domestic scenes with he and buck. 704 proved that eddie’s friendship with other men is completely different to how he is with buck. so in my head it’s logical that for him, it is about buck, and that’s where his queer!arc starts

Yeah, here's the thing, like Oliver pointed out, there are a lot of moments of Buck having flirty moments with men who are not Eddie in the show, even if it wasn't on purpose in the beginning, like, something Oliver was consciously told to portrait, Buck does have a bisexual energy to him from the get-go, and I think it is nice for him to be able to explore that outside the person we all know is the love of his life, yk? He needs to accept that he likes men before he accepts he loves Eddie. It's kinda like the way a lot of feeling realization fics from Buck's pov have Buck fine with the idea of wanting a family with Eddie but panicking when he realizes he wants to have sex with him, he needs to accept that, especially with the way he has a bad relationship with sex overall.

But, Eddie on the other hand, he doesn't have moments with men, he has moments with Buck, I think maybe if you push a little bit, you can say he was flirting with Judd in the crossover, but like, it's been Buck since the ridiculous sexual tension in the gym during under pressure. And, like, until the show tells me I'm wrong I will exist in my "Eddie is settled into his feelings because he thinks Buck can't feel the same" because you can absolutely make an argument for Eddie to be in the "it's not his fault he can't feel the same way about me" stage of falling with your "straight" best friend, I say straight because Eddie still doesn't know, I did write a whole thing on how you can recontextualize the show to make it seem like Eddie has been semi-aware of his feelings since the lawsuit, and I know they are probably not gonna go the route that he's been aware of his feelings (rip shooting as Eddie's oh moment you will always be true to me), but the groundwork for him to be like oh! about Buck at any point is there. And Eddie is a lot more aware of his own feelings than Buck, he wouldn't need someone to kiss him to have the realization, he can have the realization in a less on-the-nose moment. And the thing with the way they have been playing Eddie and his love interests, especially with the added context on Shannon we got last season, that they were friends first and all that, you can make a really strong argument for him to be demisexual and that's why he struggles with the idea of dating, that he feels like that's a performance, and why he has weird chemistry with the woman he pushed himself into dating since Shannon died, and that can absolutely push him towards Buck. Because here's the thing, with Buck dating men, and Eddie's relationship in crisis, he could very well look at Buck and be like "oh, I wasn't aware he was an option" because of the whole struggle with attraction and the way he has such a strong relationship with Buck, and maybe wonder about what it all means, and they can tumble into the realization that maybe they could be more together. That none of them has been secretly pining, but they have such a strong thing going that there's no reason for them not to go there. It could be this natural thing. And it's right there, even more with the comment of Eddie trying to understand his place in the world. Because for Eddie is not about Buck being a man, is about Buck being his best friend, and I think Eddie as a person would need to come to terms with that and he wouldn't get that hung up on the fact that Buck's a man. So Buck can absolutely be his queer awakening. But if Buck had the realization he has feelings for Eddie, he would get hung up on the fact that he is a man if he didn't explore his bisexuality before that.

I kinda think the route we are going here is Buck processing he likes man, Eddie processing he likes Buck, Buck being like "wait men are an option, Eddie is a man, I already have most of the things I'm looking for with Eddie, maybe we can go there" and then maybe some mutual pining before they do go there.

#i just want buck to blue screen the next time he sees eddie shirtless and be like oh fuck he's hot #oasksoaksasokasa #but i kinda think theyll get together in an explosive way if that's where this is going #like i dont know but my both of them are gonna be in danger by the end of the season spec might include Buck straight up kissing Eddie #i mean #i dont realistically think it would happen but i can see the argument for it #i dont know #but yeah #Eddie cant be Buck's bi awakening but Buck can be Eddie's #this got long and rambly sorry #911 #911 spoilers #911 speculation #911 meta #???? #i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌

[oatbugs]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago. #(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year) #(hed come across the bridge on a lake) #we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared. #it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much. #and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine. #she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

[good-beanswrites]

Hi Beans, I’m finally here. Diluting the sad with fun and very OOC.

I don’t really have a lot of ideas about what to write, but I remembered that I shared my idea of Es with the chivalrous Argenti's personality. So. AU in a vacuum (maybe an actors AU, maybe not), where Es thought that it would be funny to surprise the prisoners with the behavior of a knight(maybe Jackalope came up with that idea, maybe just strange sense of humor). What about the prisoners' reactions? (gallantry and compliments to plants attached) I think Mahiru would have joined the drive even if she didn’t really understand what happened. Fuuta would probably say "ugh, cringe" and that would make him a great target for the rest of the day.

YESS ahahaha, this is such a fun idea! I wrote a little scene with a few characters, but honestly it's hysterical picturing any of them trying to figure out how to react to this new and sparkling Es... I went for a version where not even Jackalope was prepared, but I can certainly see him suggesting something crazy like that to shake things up omg. Thank you so much for the request! The original meme was made by Mug, and I couldn't help but do a doodle myself ✨🌹

Amane was the first to witness it. She fled as soon as possible, finding sanctuary in the common room. The others were surprised as she stumbled in, face pale and eyes wide. Very little could frighten the girl; it was not a good sign.

Yuno moved to comfort her. “What’s wrong?” 

Her eyes went distant with the harrowing memory. “It’s Es,” was all she said. 

“Did they do something cruel?”

“No. Worse.” Amane shivered. “They were… nice.”

“They were what?”

Amane opened her mouth, but paused at the sound of heels clicking down the hallway. 

She stiffened. “If you need me you can find me in my cell.” She disappeared as quickly as she came. The others, who had been listening in on the odd conversation, gaped after her. They tried to piece together what had been so unsettling. Still, Es’ boots approached. 

All eyes landed on the doorway. 

And Es appeared. They looked very normal. Jackalope hopped up behind them. All shoulders sagged in relief. Es surveyed the room, slightly surprised to find everyone staring. 

Then, they smiled. 

It was a genuine, bright smile. The blue-gray of their eyes sparkled with a new light. Their lips parted to release a lighthearted laugh, unlike anything the prisoners had heard from them before.

They glided through the room, heels clicking lightly behind them until they came to Muu. The others stood frozen in place.

Es swept their cape aside with a grand flourish of their arm. They held both her hand and her gaze with warmth.

“Why, hello, Muu! You’re looking as positively lovely as always. Has this fine morning treated you well?”

“Um…” She looked to everyone, her face pleading for a little guidance. They were too busy looking eagerly to her in astonishment. “Uh… yes?”

“I’m pleased to hear it.” They reached behind themself. The room let out a soft gasp as they produced a pale pink flower from underneath their cape.

“For you, my dear.”

They didn’t wait for her to finish stuttering a confused ‘thank you’ before they turned to whoever was standing closest. Mahiru’s own face lit up as Es turned their glimmering gaze her way. Fuuta scoffed, muttering something about this being the lamest, cringiest thing he’d witnessed. Es pretended not to hear.

“Shiina Mahiru… a smile like yours is rare to find in a place like this. I thank you for it.” They pinched their chin and angled their head, thinking. “The meaning of your name has to do with light, correct?” 

She nodded, unable to keep the giddiness from her face. The others watched as Es moved their glove behind once more. Surely there was no room for any more flowers hidden there…

Surely they were all mistaken – Es flicked their wrist to present a small gathering of yellow blooms.

“Something radiant for someone as bright as you.”

She fell over herself with gratitude and giggles. She tried to tuck it into her hair, and Mikoto stepped over to help her. The pair raised their eyebrows at each other in disbelief. 

This time, Es retrieved their gift before turning to their next victim. A classic red rose. They caught a prisoner’s gaze. 

“Oh, no. Nope. No way.” Fuuta held up his hands, as if it could ward them off. “I don’t want your stupid-ass flowers.” 

“Now, now, I see you’re playing hard to get, as usual.” They brushed their thumb along the thorny stem. “You know, the rose has a very similar approach.”

Fuuta’s face now matched the flower’s color. “Wha–” He stumbled backward, then took off running to the door. “I don’t know what weird mind games you’re trying to pull, but I’m staying out of it!” 

Es only clicked their tongue gently when he disappeared. “Always making things difficult, that one. All part of his charm, I suppose.” 

They followed to the entrance. Turning briefly, they flashed their smile once more.“It was wonderful to see you all! I will await our next meeting eagerly.” 

With a fluttery wave, they vanished. 

Everyone’s attention shot to Jackalope, who had paused in the doorway. No one could understand his voice, but his little rabbit face seemed to say, Hey, don't look at me. I have no fucking idea.

#milgram #es #muu kusunoki #mahiru shiina #fuuta kajiyama #featuring others #asdfsadfs its so silly i love that for them 😂 #i hope i wrote them alright -- i dont usually analyze that character type for writing too much 😅 #i think yuno and muu would be suspicious at first since theyre used to fake people but would see it was all harmless and accept es' kindnes #haruka and mahiru are super flattered all the time <3 mikoto enjoys it but doesnt really take the compliments to heart #fuuta is downright disgusted but YES it makes him the biggest target 😂 #shidou and kazui dont quite understand #but theyre both poetic guys and would probably nod along and muse on what es is saying about flowers and beauty #i wrote amane uncomfortable for the comedy but honestly i think shed enjoy it too after getting over her confusion #kotoko just tries to talk to es as normal #theyll give her a poetic speech complimenting her only to be met with #'yeah i know but thats not important. now as we were talking about...' #no one knows where they keep getting all these flowers from #asdfsdf the art had me cackling the whole time -- if you post yours lmk!!! it was so perfect omg #drabbles

[dykefaggotry]

recognizing t//erf red flags on posts is a gift i am burdened with bc i do not want to go into my mutuals' asks every time to be like "that poll you reblogged said 'males' so i went to op's blog and sure enough she's ranting about how her 'sister' is trans now so is 'allegedly her brother'" bc ultimately it's usually on some inane fucking post and i don't want to be that annoying but like

:/

anyways..... if u see anyone making posts using only the term "male" instead of men 9/10 times just go to their blog and bam! t//erf. this is usually fool-proof.

#nothing wrong w the terms male and female they are just the group most often to use them and never man #theyll still use woman! but they will not use man that word does not exist to them i dont think lmfao #which is funny bc it's the exact opposite for incel bros who only ever say 'females' and never women. but still say man. it makes u think #who is afforded manhood and womanhood vs who is boiled down to 'male' and 'female' and why etc #also this is abt that poll asking how far down in ur wrapped do u have to go to get a male artist #which is a fine concept for a poll until u connect the dots there #and it's just a part of female/lesbian sepratism that demands that u not even listen to male artists or do ur best not to #did straight up see one of them going on the other day abt how TRUE feminists only listen to female artists and go to female doctors #and dont talk to any males ever including their family #im like are yall okay genuinely #the ansewr is no. but. you know.

[thoughts-of-a-caterpillar]

#i wrote smth heheheheh #i hope they dont see this its gonna be kinda sorta hella embarrassing #cuz theyll know its about them #guddu writes #poetry #poets on tumblr #poets on desiblr #caterpillar.rbs #poetries #romanticism #love and death #love poetry #hozier esque poetry

[roley-poley-foley]

it's like this: if Sleep Token wanted everyone to associate their names with their music, they would have their names in their social media bios. they would promote their music in interviews. they would have their names on physical releases. they would discourage fans from going out of their way to have instances of their names removed from the internet. you just CAN'T pretend that their mysterious identities aren't a popular joke, with vocalists from other bands joking that they are Vessel.

ST may not be explicit about their wishes, whether they just don't want to be famous when unmasked, don't want themselves or everyone who knows them stalked by invasive fans, whether they feel that their music loses its power if names and faces are put behind it, but that doesn't mean they don't have good reasons for the masks and alter egos. their own desires aside, if you want to engage with ST fandom, you HAVE to accept that most fans don't actually want to know their names or faces. if you really don't give a fuck about what they band may or may not want, just make a post saying "I know all their names, dm me if you want to know too" or "click the readmore to see all their names", don't make a public post revealing it for all to see. and don't go crying about it when other fans in the community you CHOSE to engage with inevitably get angry at you for forcing them to learn names they NEVER wanted to see. fandom is supposed to be fun and you killed people's fun. it's not hard to understand.

#sleep token #theyre not gonna see this cuz i blocked them #cuz i like not knowing. i find that its fun to engage with stokens music that way #but if anyone else is thinking of pulling dumb shit like this maybe theyll see this #and try to have more consideration for their fellow fans #dont be an asshole

[perenlop]

ok now that i'm not hungry i'll say that stuff about glasses in media. obviously i think its tasteless that a lot of the time, removing glasses is done to show that a character is suddenly beautiful, suddenly capable, suddenly amazing when they were weirdddd before. but i keep seeing this recurring thing that's like. "everything is much clearer without glasses, actually".

n. no theyre not. what do you think glasses are for???

#no they dont mean contacts either bc theyll say that shit right after theyre taken off #and i know theyre not wearing contacts under there bc thats asking for a migraine #like... on paper i like what they did with anthy but hrm... i hate it when its treated like a sign of growth to get rid of glasses #i think i prefer homura's case bc while she heals her eyes- i like to see her discarding her glasses as a sign she's become short sighted #like. she's dedicated herself to freeing madoka at the expense of herself. after this she takes on the burden of all the witches herself #and fails. and also her time traveling is what ends up sealing madoka's fate in the first place #and shes visibly happier when shes got the glasses #echoed voice

[sophiethewitch1]

Self shipping spaces are really funny to me because they're quite different from X reader stuff in that these people... Get jealous over characters. Which not judging this isn't what this is about, I write yandere X reader the call is coming from within the house I just. Have never really experienced jealousy romantically myself??? I think that might be why I like yanderes because if it was just up to me for a relationship to happen we would be getting nowhere fast lmfao

#sophie speaks #this is such a ramble but rock on #like obviously i selfship but seeing as my sense of self... is up in the air... it makes it all a bit different #'i would never do what yn did' well obviously you don't have multiple personalities or an airfryer #anyways i just. i dont get jealous much #shout out to the love triangles i was in (one in the centre and one on one of the sides) where both times i went #'cant we just do polyamory' #and everybody hated that lmao even the guy i was suggesting have two girlfriends #i know now he wanted me to be jealous but like. youre not getting that outta me mate #its bizarre ppl do that. what is wrong w the neurotypicals what mind games must you force me through #'i want attention so ill go to this person instead and make them jealous so theyll come to me!!' 'oh they wanna hang out w them today cool'

[iceslushii]

had a dream where i met tumblr user smidge-j inside my old primary school and then i went outside and tumblr user someguyiguess was there. after this i don't remember much but somehow we found out smidge had died?????? and i was upset about it. then my grandma picked me up (she does not own a car or any transportation) and the dream ended. why is it when a mutual is involved in a dream they usually die

#i would tag them but like. i dont know if theyd want that. but i think theyll see this eventuallu #slushii rambles

[unfunnyaceartist]

Vent post ahead that may change your view on me and that may sound dramatic (NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, THIS IS JUST IN GENERAL) Mostly just to get out my feelings. I only ask that if you look, to be kind and understanding and patient. Also the tags are silly and id appreciate if you read em. id appreciate if you didnt ask me anything on it

I feel toxic sometimes because i can get so jealous i borderline gatekeep things and I always feel so bad because its never intentional but then I end up hating myself because I know its unhealthy and irrational but I cant help it, and I know im so lucky and have a lot in many senses of the word, but at times it feels like they can be taking everything, because when I like someone or something, they tend to matter a fuck-ton to me. Im sorry to anyone ive lashed out at a bit for them wanting what I have, I really am. Its not coming from a place of hostility, rather a place of trauma responses and hyperfixation that stem from my adhd and autism but like when I try something and it goes great, and then someone else is like "OOH thats awesome I wanna do that too" It feels almost like when Im finally happy or excited or proud to have something, someone comes and takes it. Usually Ill play it off as a joke, but in reality, its complete honesty that im trying to soften so I dont upset anyone, especially when its over fiction or a person, because I do NOT own them and I know that, but it bothers me when someone swoops in to do the exact same things or even one-up especially when its really soon after me, and since my self worth is already abysmal, it just makes me feel worse, like I should be lucky to have what I do to begin with, but I feel the need to hold it close to me and protect it so I dont lose things that make me really happy.

Recently Ive even started reverse gatekeeping in response to others, where ill just tell myself I cant or dont deserve to have anything special because I'm not, and only others can enjoy this. But thats why people making me ship content makes me so happy. Its dumb to get jealous over others selfshipping with a character I like. Its dumb to get upset over someone I know copying or taking heavy inspiration from one of my ideas. Its dumb to get possessive over someone else trying to befriend my new awesome friends or wife/wives. I rarely selfship anymore due to my reverse gatekeeping and instead serve the others who simp or enjoy content. I provide since I feel I cant take. It makes me happy and distracts me. But the moment someone else does something similar to what is my toxic coping mechanism for my toxic coping mechanism, it only hurts worse. Thats why sometimes, for example, I get a bit snappy when someone else provides gummybunny (that and also shipping jealousy sometimes). Thats why I get snappy when I make a friend someone else super cool and then another person comes in and wants to befriend them (No darken, this wasnt directed at you, its happened more than once with more than one person but I know how you tend to assume). I LOVE giving but I hate sharing, because all my life whenever I shared, I lost something.

Introduce a friend to a friend? They leave me behind for eachother. Let someone wear my fitbit because they wanted to feel "rich"? It got stolen. Give money to someone in a "rough spot" who promised to repay me somehow? Never saw them again. I was always so trusting and understanding, and I always made excuses for others. Always so naive and gullible. So much so, in fact, that in elementary I kept letting my bullies pretend to be my friends when they claimed they changed, and let them destroy any ounce of worth I had whatsoever. Things that make me happy I CHERISH because of all the things ive lost and all my experiences. Ive never been hit, not once, but the abuse all my life came emotionally and mentally, and I only recently realized through therapy. Now its hard to trust people in certain situations. Sorry for my probably hard to follow and melodramatic rant.

sorry im dumb haha

#tw vent #By the time I finished writing the post I was no longer a mess about it but im still gonna post it #I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF I SEE ANYONE APOLOGIZING FOR MY OWN ISSUES IM GONNA BE PISSED #yall read all the tags its beneficial lol #Ngl SOME of this jealousy hits hardest with Gummy #because Ill FINALLY get fed some simp food for myself #and then yk #theyll kinda show up and ask to receive the same stuff #or act jealous #gummy #babe I love you #BUT DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU HAVE FEEDING YOU GUMMYBUNNY CONSTANTLY???? #Like mine is rare and far between #and I dont draw much selfship unlike you #LET ME HAVE SOME THINGS DAMMIT #And then Darken over here when I get a cool new friend just like: #... is for me? 🥺👉👈 #/nm for both things #im the embodiment of envy and greed arent I... #I hate upsetting people #I just keep it to myself and internalize my emotions mostly #haha now you guys know how possessive and jealous I am #its giving yandere 🥰💅✨���💃🕺😍😘😼🤠🤭😇🙄🤩😜😝🤑🧐😈 #i regret my life choices right about now

[the-knife-consumer]

Forgot just how upsetting gloomed korok forest is

#idk. just this one sanctuary that was different from the rest in that all of these spirits only link and a few others #can see are offering you help and safety. care uniquely for you. a bed for YOU. YOUR sword. kept safe for 100 years for YOU. #thrown together shops just for YOU because nobody else goes here or even knows it exists. #and then you return and the people who cared so much about you dont even speak to you anymore #they cant speak. they just stand there #idk korok forest made me feel the most like i fucked up somehow #rito village was bad but still livable. if things got any worse then they would have to abandon home until it settled #but no one was in immediate life threatening danger #gerudo was really REALLY bad and people were in danger. just all crammed inside a bunker. no going into town because your #home doesnt belong to you anymore #and then the zora were ... idk felt the least pressing even though it definitely should be bc like. they breathe water. #if the water is gross theyll die. but idk something about how it was executed felt less terrible #maybe they outwardly expressed more hope? idk. same with the gorons didnt feel like there was a pressing threat #but korok forest is fucking AWFUL. god #idk. nobody in hyrule talks about it because they dont know there are people there. nobody else can see them so nobody knows #somethings wrong. with no lead into it finding korok forest the way it is just feels soooo much worse. #idk. on my first playthru i kind thought i fucked up and shouldve gotten there sooner. #it just feels like no matter what youre too late and its your fault

[brainrotdotorg]

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i hate getting these random waves of just Shit Feeling its like just seeing a few bad posts in a row is enough to put me in a poor mood. trying to do some comms work in order to feel productive and accomplish some stuff/just take a few things off the mental burner but writing is weird and hard . i was feeling so good earlier today what happened????? im just so low all of a sudden. this has been happening more and more frequently and its making me worried. i really really really really hope this isnt depression coming back ive been free of that for years now but this feels a lot like how that felt, like kind of just listless and hopeless at the same time. top notch isnt exactly how ill describe how ive been if im sparing the gory details but to be honest this year hasn't been off to an extremely banger start.

im going out to a gay bar tonight, so hopefully i will be able to dance and party and have fun there but i dont think any of my friends want to come with me. i put out the invite to multiple different groups n none of them really said anything in response to my offer. im gonna make myself go either way so i can try and socialize or at least enjoy some music

#sorry im trying to post less venty stuff #maybe i should make a private sideblog for this stuff instead #i feel like im being guilt trippy when i talk about stuff like this. or like its a bid for attention. #like im trying to make people feel bad for me whenever i talk about being sad #and its like i cant win. #either i just dont say anything and no one knows or i do say something and i feel like im trying to make people coddle me #i have friends that i did ask on tumblr and im kind of . afraid theyll see this and feel like im vaguing them or something #im not vaguing you or blaming you or anything this is a me problem. this is a Me Thing #im not trying to persuade or guilt trip or make anyone concerned #im getting too in my own head about all of this .whatever i need to stop thinking this and go do something else. #im gonna go leave for the bar soon anyway i should go get ready #maybe dress up thatll be fun #i cant be depressed. i have things to do #delete later

[foxgloveciara]

To those people who like crossovers with tmnt and spiderverse; I found something you might enjoy

I forgot the time point because im stupid and it was like 2am while I was rewatching it, but around where miles and Aaron are painting the expectations piece in the subway tunnels, just after we see miles walk off after being bitten by the spider we see this

Pretty unassuming right? Except if you turn your eyes over to the little wooden(?) plank to the left of miles and Aaron, above the spider.

Leo was here in *blue*

Basically that's my thing I think people who like crossovers with tmnt and atsv :)

We do see this a little before this but netflix wouldn't let me screenshot so I had to use my phone, and this was one of the more clearer shots tbh. Anyway take this how you will

#tmnt #rottmnt #idk what the tags are for a spiderverse and tmnt crossover?? #tmnt spiderverse?? #i know theres the ship between miles and mikey (i dont really like but you do you) but i gen cant think of the name #was it something about sunflowers??? #i guess if those shippers find this theyll know lol #spiderverse #atsv #teenage muntant ninja turtles #oh that reminds me im seeing mutant mayhem tomorrow hehe #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles