#i do enjoy me some horror

[stellarhoxy]

ok i hope i don't come off bad here but i looked up menhera and ngl i am actually insulted, if this is how Japan tries to reduce stigma on mental illness i think it has the opposite effect. Like I thought Needy Streamer Overload was a little risky, somewhat problematic even, but ok it's a horror game so I let it slide. Well allegedly that is still a pretty tame representation of what menhera really goes for, and most of this is fetishizing straight up abusive behavior. Which is concerning because Needy Streamer Overload is a horror game ffs. (And it has affected me mental health wise) THIS is how you are representing mentally ill people as partners? Ugh... Japan if this is your approach to mental health then no offense that's so insanely backwards I can't even. Listen I'm a bit of a tumblr oddity because I do believe that you have to love yourself before loving someone else TO SOME DEGREE, and I know how crippling (poor (handling of)) mental health can be to dating and relationship, but sheesh! these comics and materials send a really disgusting message about mentally ill people and most definitely do not help anyone/anything. I rather see more wholesome stories of how even mentally ill people can learn to love themselves and lead happy and fulfilling lives, not this shit... it's ok for darkfic / horror to exist ofc i enjoy that but if you're going to market it as "reducing stigma on mental health" yeah no... I know I'm not Japanese, but I think i should still say it coz like... in western society it's nowhere near as stigmatized yet still really affecting especially when it's romanticized, so I can't begin to imagine what a Japanese person with even more limited resources must go through....

anyway thank you for reading till here idk i'm just rambling a bit. this affects me coz i'm a mentally ill girl myself and ik how hard it is even in the west.

#hoxy's chatter #i hope i dont come off cringe #also ik u should split fiction from reality but like #nah you can't do that perfectly your environment affects you #i will post some art of needy streamer overload at one point i have one in the works #but idk i wanna tag it bc i firsthand understand some ppl may not wanna see it #i do enjoy me some horror #lmk if anyone's blacklisting anything

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.

#Fear and Hunger #D'arce Cataliss #Cahara #Ragnvaldr #Enki Ankarian #Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience. #My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says “hey try this game I've been playing.” I say “Okay!” #I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs #It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs #I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'. #I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs #And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set #This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis) #I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series #If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot #It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it. #My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights #Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared! #As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.

[stuckinapril]

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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children #In everything I do #Like legit #I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her #And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything #But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious #Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life #But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends #While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury #And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline #Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else #It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk #It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything #But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently #And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians #I’d be so mad #And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief #For losing their loved ones #This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit #This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow #And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything #Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal #And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just #Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off. #Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night #I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this #Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do #or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up #I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think #p

[luck-of-the-drawings]

HOW DO YA LIKE THAT DARK DOG??

BEEN REAL ENAMORED BY THE 'SORRY' BOYS AND THEIR ODD ESCAPADES LATELY. I THINK THEY COULD DO A LOT OF GOOD THINGS WITH THREE GALLONS OF 'FAKE' BLOOD.

#sorry boys #sorry fanart #cw gore #cw body horror #DEAR GGODODDD I HOPE I TAGGED SORRY THE RIGHT WAY #PLEASE SORRY FANS IM HHEERE IM HERE AND IM CRAAZYYY GODDD PLEASE FIND MEEE FIND MEEEEEEEEE #GONNA BE HONEST IVE BEEN FLOPPIN BACK N FORTH ON THIS REAAAALL HARD LIKE. IM NOT SURE IF I LIKE IT #BUT EVERYONE WHO SEES IT SAYS ITS COOL! SO IMM GONNA TRUST IN THE WORD OF MY FRIENDS!!!!! THANK YOU FRIENDS!!!! #i tried to fit in as many things in the video as i could into his vile chest cavity. im rly proud of how jumbled n messy n fun it looks! #SOME THINGS TO NOTE! i painted over the bg of a specific shot from the video. painted over a portion of that LIGHT FIXTURE #BUT I Had to improvise the rest and im PRROUD LOOK AT THAT!!! WITH A MOUSE TOO BTW #DREW THIS WHOLE THING WITH A MOUSE. took some time but i think im gettin the hang of it #ANOTHER DETAIL: ranboos lil wires behind his mask. teeehehhehee i rly liked gen loss #i like this weird combo i do of cartoony and photo realistic. not sure where my balance is yet with that but im havin fun!! #ughghgh what else can i say abt this piece... other than it kicked my aASSSSSSS!!! #adding highlights in blood is always SSUCH A FIGHT for me guhhh it takes so much wrestling to make it look right.... #ggbbhhbbgbh thats all thats in my brain for now. enjoy my art and enjoy my notes about my own art. enjoy ur day aswell if u can

[ask-zerotrio]

Clavell and Sada when they were younger, aka Clive had to come from somewhere

Born from my stray thought about Sada going full punk/grunge since she already stood out amongst all the male researchers. Just imagine her being all "f*** you all I do what I want" with everyone. Enter: nerdy wallflower Clavell gelling up his hair and dessing up to keep her company/make her feel less standout/alone.

Or basically: But what if Sada and Clavell (and Turo) were besties. What if Clavell was the heart of their group. The one who focused on the present and they both let visions for the future and aspirations for the past tear them apart-

#director clavell #professor sada #zerotrioshipping #clavell #clavell/sada/turo #clavell x sada x turo #they are so cute to me #ugh #anyway yeah #clavell would do this in a heart beat if it made sada feel less lonely #he can totally have a wild side to share with sada #whilst turo looks on in horror and disbelief #thinking about them makes my heart hurt sm #istg #clavell with his whole my heart is broken by my compassion #i really enjoy him experiencing some heartache but persisting in kindness sm #his whole treasure thing in contrast to the professors paradise #aughghghg #such good contrasts #anyway gonna explode with feelings for them

[geryone]

I’m probably going to be getting rid of quite a few books over the next month or so!!! If any of my mutuals that live in the US want to give me like a 2 sentence description of what you like to read I’d be happy to mail you some books that I think you might like!!

#just US bc I’m going to ship media mail & while I’m happy to spend $5 shipping books I don’t want to do more than that lmao #can’t promise it’ll be exactly what you’re looking for but I have so many advanced copies of things who knows maybe you enjoy!!!! #give me some idea of horror/romance/fantasy and I can do my best from there!! #I will donate all the other ones for my local library sale hehe

[keyofjetwolf]

So far 2024 has seen me knocked flat by a cold, but hey, enabled my first book of the year to start and finish!

#another ticky in the new year box #gotten nowhere with the exercise part #but also doing cracker on the watching what I eat #thanks cold! #jet wolf sometimes reads too #in case anyone was wondering: #i enjoyed it #REALLY HIT SOME OF MY PERSONAL HORROR BUTTONS LOOKING AT YOU DOLLS #it felt in parts a little like a one or two step up christopher Pike #which I mean complimentary #in that it was very easy to read and I had a good time doing it #it was a little hand-holdy in places which grated on me a little #(yes I get what this is really all about I get it I promise) #and I think suffered in part from me having just come off of The Witch Elm #but it's absolutely competent and held my interest from start to finish #even legit creeped me out in places #and laughing to hacking in others #a good pulpy horror read #and I'll check out the author's other books when that's exactly what I'm in the mood for

[obeymeow]

nightbringer lesson 14 FUCKED ME UP in several ways but primarily I've spent the last 48 hours making myself sad over the solomon backstory we got. specifically I have, for no reason, latched onto that one chapter in the Kids event where baby solomon cried because he felt so guilty over being responsible for that spell. and that just feels a touch more depressing in context

#nightbringer spoilers #obey me on side #went back and unlocked the event again because i could not get this out of my brain i know it's probably not that deep #but it is that deep TO ME. okay #baby solomon has been on my brain since thirteen told that story so that's probably why it's sticking in my brain so hard but whatever #in case anyone was wondering the other things to make me sad are: #he has such a deeply excessive amount of lights in his room in purgatory hall there are SEVERAL chandeliers and lamps #there's a good handful in his room in cocytus hall too (his horror dg showed it) if a more normal amount #but that with the 'dim and gloomy' detail. ☹️ #i've also always thought that solomon's loneliness wasn't all about the immortal angst but like. #having it confirmed that he's had reason to be lonely since he was a child- before he was old enough to know he was using magic- #totally crushed me girl why can't I be wrong #had emotions about lesson 14 in general but solomon backstory steals the show every time for me so i haven't gotten around to the rest #i'm enjoying the nightbringer story so much (not talking about the game design. that's a different thing entirely) but man #the pacing is WILD it feels like every lesson could be a whole lesson block at the least. it's giving me a lot of room to speculate #which I always love! but i do wish they would slow down a little and expand on some of these concepts they're bringing up #because the basic idea of the game alone is REALLY INTRIGUING and it'd be a shame if they raced back to the present imo #what was i even talking about. sorry my brain fast forwards as soon as i get into the tags there is not one sequitur to be seen #so curious about solomon's friend now too. like my guess is it's going to be lilith (and hopefully not in a popular fan theory kind of way) #because it's more than a little suspicious that they expanded on lilith's views on humans the way they did #in a way that SO PERFECTLY lines up with the expansion on solomon's views on humans #WHICH I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT YET BY THE WAY BUT LIKE. HE IS SO RIGHT AND REAL FOR THAT #it's beyond stressful to me that I think solomon is completely justified in his views and being completely reasonable about it #but that it would also mean war between the worlds presumably while the brothers are still recovering from THEIRS #you cannot give me that choice man. not even sure that the human world would be ABLE to win that fight if we're being real #solomon's 72 pacts are a lot yes but he's still only one guy who is NOT on good terms with the sorcerer's society #and mc is powerful but so so inexperienced. and that's IF they choose to side with the human world which #really i don't think the canon mc is likely to do. but anyway i guess solomon's friend could also be adam maybe? #that could be wishful thinking because i like adam though. even if his hair SUUUCKS #deeply offended by everyone thinking solomon got the fucked up hair when all signs point to adam be NICE TO HIM he's ugly already

[devilsskettle]

sorry for being an anti-modern media curmudgeon on main but just something about the way there seems to be a popular public consensus to look down on low budget slasher films of the 70s & 80s followed by a shift now to turn the sequels into big budget blockbusters that flatten everything unique to the slasher genre so that they can make movies that are comfortable for them to make — movies that look the same, sound the same, feel the same as any other modern action movie. and then they reduce the terminology coined to describe slasher genre conventions into these over-simplistic concepts no longer grounded in any of the films but just pop culture imagination (i.e. “final girl” means whatever now basically lol) and apply them to the horror genre as a whole. and now everybody’s a fucking expert on classic slasher movies because they’ve seen scream. this is a dead dead dead dead genre and we’re just dragging the corpse around. shaking filmmakers by the shoulders why does your movie have a budget!!! where’s the innovation

#actually it’s not a dead dead dead dead genre. that’s a bit too dramatic #but the slasher genre simply doesn’t exist the way that it used to #which is good in some ways actually but now it’s meta meta meta all the time #everybody’s gotta be self aware now. what about making something genuine instead of sarcastic though #like why do you want to make a horror movie. justify that choice to me. #do you really want to be making a horror movie or do you want to be making an action movie? #or do you want to be able to say you’ve worked with jamie lee curtis lol #i actually can’t say anything about the new halloween movies even though that’s what’s got me thinking about this #i’m not a particularly big fan of the original film and i haven’t seen any of the other ones #(except season of the witch which doesn’t count obviously) #but it’s like all of a sudden halloween isn’t trashy now???? #or is it and i’m just missing something???? #can we just admit that we enjoy slasher movies or what

[famewolf]

feeling a little burnt out tbh so I think I'm going to just try and relax as much as humanly possible to avoid crashing and burning like I usually do this time of year lmao

#[static] #work has been ..... Unpleasant #home life is wonderful and amazing as always but man i spend so much time at work fklghfdgf #it's around this time of year where i start to think 'what's the fucking point of working the job i do' and i have an existential crisis #even trying to play games rn is just Too much for my senses. I need to just enjoy silly non-serious things for a week or two I think #been hanging out with friends outside of work which has helped a lot! #i need some whimsy among the constant horrors which I feel bad for needing since it's 100% a privilege to be able to have that #it sucks that work drains my happiness away!! it's really just a couple of people there that make life miserable for everyone #there's nothing anyone can do about it ... alas ... we must continue moving forward because that's all we are able to do #i also feel bad because I started ME3 but I'm going to have to put playing it on hold until I'm in a much better headspace to enjoy it #it's been really amazing so far but it's incredibly intense and sad and i know it's going to eat my heart by the time it's done with me

[dragonologist-phd]

@bugdotpng tagged me to list 9 no-skip albums! thank you!!

in the interest of not making half this list Florence + The Machine (bc let’s be honest, it would be), i limited myself to 1 per artist!

Lungs - Florence + The Machine

All Hail West Texas - The Mountain Goats

We’re Only Family If You Say So - The Rough and Tumble

Melodrama - Lorde

High As Hope - Florence + The Machine (ok, i lied, Florence gets 2)

Emotion - Carly Rae Jepsen

If I Can’t Have Love, I Want Power - Halsey

Bleed Out - The Mountain Goats (i lied twice! Sue me!)

Ruin - The Amazing Devil

tagging:

@dujour13 @camelliagwerm @mordred9971 @orime-stories @transprincecaspian

@miseryscrowned @bladesmitten @big-cheesy-productions @arendaes @bezelusbubulez

@starlightcleric @vigilskept @thesolemnhour @ampleappleamble @herequeerexitentialfear

@rollofleaf

tag list here is you want to be added/removed!

#I don’t listen to a ton of albums back to back ok sometimes stuff is gonna be repeated #almost put beat the champ too but I skip southwestern territory. sorry! #and I skip marbles on the horror and the wild bc it makes me cry #noah kahan almost made it on but i forget how long that album is and i do skip some of the slower ones #anyway enjoy the lineup! #tag game

[amygdalae]

The Immortal Hulk is the most comics series of all time

#finished reading immortal hulk the other day and really loved it #the horror and more serious elements were really good #posting these panels tho cuz they made me lose my shit #if i tried to talk abt it in more detail id be here all day #but its good. had forgotten how much i love me some hulk #its funny cuz i have the marvel tag filtered on here cuz im so sick of the mcu but i do enjoy me some comics from time to time

[illdothehotvoice]

Replaying Mario the Music Box with my roommates and.. yeah...hm

#As an RPG Maker Horror fan?? #yeah it's good. i'm enjoying it a lot more this time around i think and i'm understanding the lore better #as a mario fan????? #eeeeeh????? #idk something irks me about heavy gore involving mario characters #the consciences of the dorm has been it #it'd be better if the OCs were Mario characters or more in line with the Mario Universe or Mario and Luigi were also just OCs. #cause again i like it as an rpgmaker game it reminds me a LOT of Mad Father #but eeeeeh??? #not my cup of tea mario hyperfixation wise if you like it for mario stuff that's cool #don't expect me to talk much about it is all i'm saying #also good thing i am saving constantly cause some of these deaths are. hm #i'm playing tbe remake and depending on how I'm feeling I'll play Ark but it's a continuation of an ending i do not like soooo #mario would NOT act like that

[achillvs]

i know this is easier from the programming standpoint, and i get it, bg3 is massive as it is, but it absolutely sends me how the lines sometimes refer to things that are absolutely false for your specific run

"i recognise this cat, isn't it gale's?" i have never talked to gale beside feeding him boots and then when he invited me for an awkward night of stargazing bc he was feeling suicidal and I quote "it's not much, but it's better than being alone". i have never seen his fucking cat. I didn't know he has a cat (that's a lie, i've seen fanarts)

#there was sth else at some point but i forgot #but basically anything to do with karlach gale and esp halsin n jaheira #karlach just told me her engine is close to giving up #'but she just wants to enjoy her life' uhuh #i took her for half a hook horror battle in underdark and that was it #im sorry bbygirl ur the camp set piece #at least i took laezel to the creche #i dont think im taking karlach to see gortash #its me (paladin) and my 3 range besties (astarion shadowheart n wyll) against the world #matt plays bg3 #shut up matt #(correction: i took laezel to the creche the first time. i didnt when i came back to slaughter everyone)

[everybody-dies-at-least-once]

The sorcery of Jordan Peele is such that my neighbors are listening to "Good Vibrations" and I am not thinking about the Beach Boys like a normal person...

#us (2019) #peele #horror #us movie #nope is the coup de gras from peele for me but i enjoyed us #HAUNTING stellar performances #sarah's favorite films #jordan peele #peele cinematic universe #oh to be a guy who can do hilarious silly goofy comedy but also write some of most chilling incisive horror films on record #Spotify

[marsixm]

im trying to wrap my head around why i dont get enthusiastic about reddit style fiction (not a dig but a descriptor) like scp and shit like that, bc its not that i can’t enjoy them but i think its like… when stuff is framed as if it were real, but its fiction, its like, well KNOWING its fiction eliminates a huge element of the intrigue, but also, crucially, i like character-driven stories, or at least stories WITH characters. but i also like it when things are interesting for said characters to experience, like, i want the ghosts and monsters and conspiracies but i want the characters to be character-ing, yknow? not that i dont enjoy slice of life and… what would u call the first thing, non-character specific horror? idk? but i prefer when its both. its like i love kirk and spock but also i do enjoy watching them Experience Situations when i watch star trek. i enjoy the idea of spooky national forest monsters that arent real but experiencing it alongside a character would be better, and i want more trans and gay characters whose lives are clearly trans and gay but i want a plotline to unfold too

#i dont think im saying anything different or interesting im just #listening to a wendigoon podcast thats one of his things just #explaining a classic reddit horror story #and ig i enjoy the concept of this one more #but it leaves me thinking like #ok so why do i not wanna hear about this that much….? #and also why i dont rly give a fuck about scp at all when my friends tell me about it #or the mystery flesh pit thing #and its the same reason i didnt give a shit about 2017 IT but loved the 1990 mini series. connecting to the damn characters!!! #i guess i ought to give shit a try again i mean i did read creepypastas once when i was a teenager and enjoyed it #i had a similar thought thw other day when they announced another new star trek aos flashback movie #not that it explicitly said anything about this sort of stuff but like #i just remember hearing some ppl in a college course i was in talking about aos and like ohh the flashbacks to kirks childhood!!! #but in that ‘discussing superheroes’ way of like ‘oh this is good bc it checked the correct canon box!’ #like idk dawg i do enjoy fact gathering about characters i love but thats not why i love them? #ok that rly was a tangent i just dont vibe w scp. but if you put a mulder and scully situation in there with it. boom. id be there. ok???? #its almost like theres a reason this formula has proven to be so successful over and over and over again