#i didnt deserve that

[texts-go-green]

it's easy to say that you're over someone when you aren't seeing them,

the challenge is to look them

straight in the eyes, see

their smile, and hear their

laugh and still say "this is

not what i want anymore"

#quote #i didnt deserve that #she left

[my-chemical-failure]

Okay. Let's talk about the amazing fucking show that was vegas. I am still recovering and I don't think i've ever had that much fun in my life. I met some amazing people, and heard some amazing music. That will be a memory that I'll have forever, and even though the videos that I took were shitty, I will watch them over and over and over again.

#mcr #mcr2022 #mcr return #my chem #mcr reunion #my chemical fucking romance #mcr reunion tour #mcrvegas #mikey way #ray toro #frank iero #gerard way #my chemical romance tour #my chemical return #mcr concert #okay what the fuck #that was way too much fun #i didnt deserve that

[questformortality]

hey girl I'm thinking about how I was treated as I was recovering from my suicide attempt again

#i didnt deserve that #suicide #cw suicide #im so fucking angry at the world right now

[mushiishrooms]

I'd love to be more active on Tumblr again, but everytime I open the app I'm back to that feeling of anxiety tearing me up inside as my ex posts the same post about how bad they're doing over and over and over while ignoring me and it's taking me everything I have not to run into their dms and apologize and beg them to talk to me again even if I was never wrong to begin with

#sort of a vent #i used to use tumblr a lot but its really hard to open the app after this #especially because tumblr has a lot of small circles #and it leaves me feeling paranoid #i know some of the people i follow follow them/ #are mutuals with them #and im not trying to cancel them i just see their username and i #spiral a bit #it wasnt the only time they did it too #sometimes it would be straight up suicidal posts #it felt so awful #especially at the end #any person who has respect for their partner even during conflict would not do that #i didnt deserve that #or any of what they did at the end #if anyone wants to follow my twitter my username is the same there #im on there more often because being on the app doesnt give me a viseral reaction #eventually i will use tumblr like normal #but probably not soon

[captainsaltypear]

for legal reasons caine needs to give pomni her own marketable gummipoo plushie. as a treat.

#tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc pomni #pomni #gummigoo #tadc gummigoo #gummy #I AM NOT OKAY #I AM SERIOUSLY NOT OKAY #THEY WERE SO SWEET TOGETHER #THIS IS THE CALMEST WE'VE SEEN POMNI #THE FIRST FRIEND SHE CAN PROPERLY RELATE TO #gummy didnt even get any lines when he came to the circus #he came #he got poofed #GONE #CAINE CMON #CMON MAN #POMNI YOU DESERVE BETTER #pear post #scheeze art #the first time i post in ages and im not well IM NOT WELL #Funnygummy

[cemeterything]

the thing about "callout/cancel culture" that convinced me it's rotten to the core is the dehumanisation you face once you become the subject of a campaign like that. a lot of criticisms of callout/cancellation attempts appeal to the humanity of the subject, pointing out that it's unfair and unproductive to treat a person, a fellow human being, regardless of how much harm they've caused and how genuinely unlikable they are, like that. but unfortunately the reality of being the target of a mob mentality often means facing the very isolating and traumatising experience of realising that you've ceased to exist as a person in their eyes. you're a representation of your transgressions, an embodiment of harm that needs to be erased like a blemish, a spectacle for entertainment, a means of earning social approval by publicly condemning and humiliating you in what quickly becomes a competition to see who can strike the blow that knocks you down so you never get up again. nobody cares about who you are outside of what you did. people make mistakes and hurt one another, but there is always the capacity for change, for regret and reparations. you are an irredeemable monster. you can't change. the only way to make sure you can't cause harm ever again is to neutralise you entirely. to drive you off and hurt you so badly that you never consider coming back. and it often succeeds. but it doesn't make the world a better or safer place. it just tells everyone that certain behaviours will be punished, so you should conceal them, and harshly condemn them in others so that everyone knows where you stand; nobody will stand up for you if you're accused and brought out for judgement, so you shouldn't trust anyone, and always be on the lookout to take them down before they can do the same to you. you're not creating a safe, welcoming community. you're creating a panopticon built on fear and punishment.

#🐉 #yes ive been the target of multiple harassment campaigns. yes i was in the wrong and deserved to be held accountable. #no i didnt deserve to be treated like that. and no i didnt change because people were cruel to me. #i changed because i was lucky enough to have friends who supported me and pointed out that they wanted me to be better because they cared #their disappointment and earnest belief in my capacity to be a better person was what made me realise i could and needed to do better

[verflares]

say, what do you think ever happened to that boy from the forest? you think he ever found what he was looking for?

#i have the vaguest hope here that tumblr wont utterly crunch the quality but i think it might be in vain. alas. #anyway take him..... i dont want to look at him anymore #link #oot #mm #loz #oot link #loz fanart #this guy + ss and botw/totk link are my fav guys btw but i think This one has my favourite story across his games and in loz lore itself #gods favourite chewtoy....... he didnt deserve any of that :( #this came out really messy i was kind of just messing around with lineart stuff so im a bit iffy on it but. i like the colours at least #Okay. anyways #my art

[opikiquu]

#he is being a good big brother #go lyney!!! gooo!!!!!!!! #★ my art #art #genshin impact #genshin art #freminet #lyney #lynette #fontaine siblings #<- i didnt know that was a tag. #i have a headcanon both lynette and freminet are taller than lyney #i donr CARE her model is shorter than his!!!! #if i dont see it it isnt real 🗣️ #lynette is sitting thats why he looks taller dw i wonr ever do it again #he deserves to be called out for the shortstack he is

[peasantexchangeprogram]

*completely serious tumblr user voice* oppression was actually invented by Big West sometime in the 1800s. no one was oppressed anywhere before that.

#re: that classical faggotry post #also the way ppl talk abt colonized cultures' practices.... #i swear u dont have 2 pretend everybody loved gays n trans ppl as a way to say they didnt ''deserve'' colonialism #mine*

[willthespy]

some big three tree four doodles (lighting practice)

this is the first time i can say i dont like the di angelo doodles the most…. posted bc i love them but….

#idk why i drew bianca so different than how i usually would but i didnt want yo vhanhe it #i actually see thalia percy and nico as the big three but bianca deserves a spot too bc i love her #nico di angelo #percy jackson #thalia grace #bianca di angelo #nico di angelo fanart #percy jackson fanart #thalia grace fanart #bianca di angelo fanart #di angelo siblings #pjo #pjo fanart #nico di angelo pjo #percy pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #nico pjo #pjo thalia #pjo bianca #pjo fandom #pjo hoo toa #pjoverse #rrverse #riordan verse #pjo hoo toa tsats #my art

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[tsty-brry]

su xiyan is raising TWO (2) babies

#hi welcome to my give binghe the childhood he didnt have agenda #and the princess carry tianlang jun deserves #luo binghe would be sooo spoiled #i love aus that go like this #tianlang jun #su xiyan #luo binghe #svsss #scum villian self saving system #mxtx

[spaceinvadeeer]

na na na na na na

#this is a new version of an old piece i felt deserved an update ^^ #the previous one didnt do those queens justice #splatoon #my art #marina splatoon #pearl splatoon #off the hook #illustration

[orkbutch]

Wanted to do some posing practice and indulged

#shadowheart #karlach #bg3 #shadowheart deserves to be carried by her huge gf #actually the only issue with these is I didnt make karlach as big as i believe her to be . i must make her larger #art

[percyjacksonfan3]

Let's not forget that until this Stede has only had sex with Mary (that we know of) so now he's losing Ed not only the day after they first have sex but the day after he first has sex with anyone he's actually attracted to, not to mention in love with

Like, the man was flying so high and then lost it all (and had his lover call their night a mistake to his face) in under 24 hours, I think it's impossible to overstate how much he's really going through it at the moment

#ofmd #ofmd spoilers #not saying he didnt deserve to be humbled #but god djenkins really did just giveth and taketh away #anyway cant wait to see ed and stede finally communicate next episode :) #and finally have the conversations ive been waiting all season for #before kissing and making up and sailing off into the sunset #to buy an inn and restaurant in s3 #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #stede bonnet #ofmd blackbeard #ofmd edward teach #if it's not a 40 min season finale then i will be rioting #our flag means death #rhys darby #taika waititi #david jenkins

[mimikyuno]

sorry for the long clip but this whole scene needs to be in a yuri museum

#im sooo happy to see it finally animated 😭 i couldnt wait to show it to my wife #and i knew that social media would go crazy over it and im so happy wataoshi deserves everything! #sorry if someone already posted the whole scene i didnt see it in the tags and i need it on my blog k #wataoshi #watashi no oshi wa akuyaku reijou #i’m in love with the villainess #i favor the villainess #rae taylor #claire francois #relaire #yuri #video #mine