#i def do think it's that part where ppl don't know how to find my masterlist or use it or dont even search BAHAHA

[localkiss]

(edit bc bitches can't read for shit.)

re2 leon is so...... 😭 Like can I eat him??

Also, a lot of the fics about him are him being all whiny and subby like. ..um did we play the same re2 remake ? Where was he like this 😭😭🧍🏻‍♀️

BEFORE U SAY ANYTHING!!!!!

I get it, but the dude is not submissive in my eyes ! He isn't a hard dom that's for sure. He's more of a soft dom/ does whatever tf you want. More laid-back and lets you roam free for the most part.

Prob would stare at you like this if you were to try and give him a rim job:

He'd be like, "What are you doing ??" Bc I know his ass doesn't clean himself like that. He's a man! 😭

i know this man would want to handcuff you but like he would constantly be checking in. "Babe, are you sure?" "You okay? Does it hurt?" "Let me know if it's too much, okay? I'll take them off, if you want me to."

Don't get me wrong tho. Leon would gladly get on his knees and start to worship your body from head to toe. Thinks you deserve to be loved and cared for, treated for like a beautiful doll! I think he would be the one out of all of them (maybe besides DI Leon), to be okay w/ you putting lil makeup on him.

I think he would love to leave small little marks or wear something matching. Omg he would enjoy a handmade bracelet 🤭!!

Okay since his ass works out everyday, I think he'd think it would be funny to have you fight him. 😭Dude would find it cute when you try and break free from his grasp. DEAD ASS HE WOULD DEF PRACTICE ARRESTING PPL ON YOU AND LIKE READING YOU, YOUR MIRANDA RIGHTS. (is that still a thing... I heard it wasn't ?? Anyways..)

"Babe, I told you to try and resist." He pins you down with ease, using one hand. His other hand is currently reaching for his handcuffs on his belt. Straddling over your hips, pressing into your ass to also hold you down. Trying not to put all his weight on your body, not wanting to hurt you because you're not a real criminal. It's just practice.

You try and kick out with a whine, "I am trying Leon! You're just too strong." Yeah, that feeds to his small ego. Also feeds his friend down there, who's poking you as you lay underneath him. With each shift and groan, he lets out a shaky breath.

Crazy how you're not doing much, but it's doing a whole lot to him. He decides to be cheeky and leans down to roll his hips forward against your ass. "You really can't do nothing now," he clicks the handcuffs on your wrists, giving it a tug to make sure it's not loose.

I'm pulling my hair out. I need him. I'm 🤓

#leon kennedy #resident evil smut #resident evil x reader #leon kennedy x you #leon kennedy x reader #leon s kennedy #leon x reader #leon scott kennedy #re2 leon #resident evil #leon smut #localkiss #rambling xd #re2

[miyaur]

Hi ik some ppl alr requested this but can I have an hsr Blade x Herrscher of reason! Reader?

(If u don't know and how the Herrscher of Reason does, they can create anything as long as they have understood the principles of the object they're creating.

-I'm a inaccurate explainer ask Welt for a clearer one or look up in honkai wiki if u have time.)

Like I wanna see Blade's reaction of us creating a huge air missile or a enormously huge blaster for what reasons LMAO

Ty for accepting this req in advance

a/n: this ia funyn to me so im gonna wrret it 😁😁‼️(i have 50 asks and not wriitng them 🙏) sorry in advance for any spelling errors i didnt ntoice

so

you do not tell him as soon as you get togehter, for millions of reasons

i think itd be shocking to hear my s/o saying they're a god/herrscher

you wer ejust as shocked as him when he told you he was immortal too

he'd be like ooo we can be basically be together forever (literally)

kind of appreciates you more now that he knows you can stay with him

before he found out, he felt like this era of him where he finds someone that can see through a facade he's been putting up for years, decades, maybes even centuries.

and knowing that someone, at least 1 person loves him even when everything goes wrong? even when he could potentially kill you? you.. don't see him as a threat to your life but more as a gift?

kind of like i said before which is prolly ooc, but blade def giggles and tells silver wolf all about your interactions

even after starting to date

ok now onto the herrscher of reason part now, he's so that type of guy to go woah at everything you make

thinks you are cool, mot that you weren't before, but cool in a way he admires you

blade doesn't admire just anyone either yk

"hey guys thats my s/o, yeah the one that just created that huge ass shield to protect some small village"

giddy schoolgirl blade and herrscher reader 🤷🤷🤷🤷

#˚ ༘ ೀ⋆｡ ˚ written by the heavens #hsr imagines #hsr scenarios #hsr x reader #hsr blade #hsr spoilers #hsr x y/n #hsr x you #hsr x gender neutral reader #honkai star rail x reader #honkai star rail #star rail x reader #star rail #hsr blade x reader #blade x you #blade x y/n #blade x reader #blade fluff #hsr blade x you #˚ ༘ ೀ⋆｡ ˚ answered prayers : requests

[freckliedan]

omfg so im reading your linguistics paper rn and im at the part where you talk about how its taboo to post abt the vday vid or dailybooths etc. but i feel like the chains have loosened over the years so to speak? cuz like, on twitter people have just. posted full dailybooth screenshots, or reference the 2009 phan song all the time which itself refs vday. and im wondering if thats like, because the community had gotten smaller after the dapg hiatus that ppl were more lax about it, or if it felt like dnp were more lax about it, or if these are all younger fans who werent aware of this etiquette at all but since so many younger fans have been joining like post coming out they just dont see it as taboo at all? some self-policing does still occur, specifically w ppl reposting dans nakedbooths, but its def not the case of YOU HAVE TO BE COMPLETELY SILENT ABOUT THIS anymore. i havent even finished reading yet but im enthralled

OOH thank you for the question i have so many thoughts on this actually. (context)

i think there's multiple reasons why the taboo on discussing the vday vid & other deleted social media things has grown lesser? under the cut bc i got wordy.

partially i'd chalk it up to the change in phandom demographics. like, there's a way lower proportion of us now who were around for the direct aftermath of the first major leak in 2012, or who even were a part of the phandom when a majority of folks had been present for that. things were so bad and painful then & in the era directly afterwards! people still learn about that but the knowledge of how bad things got is always going to be different from the lived experience.

so that's reason one: i think that within the fandom the strongest emotional reaction to the existence of the vday video & deleted social media posts will always exist in ppl who were around in 2011-2013 & similarly deeply ingrained in folks who joined right after that in 2014-15. and i think there's still a lot of us but there's also just like.. so many less of us now, too. the vast majority of my mutuals from 5 years ago have abandoned or deleted their blogs.

i do think another part of why things have gotten less taboo is bc it's no longer something that has the potential to out dan and phil/how directly they've acknowledged the social media posts (& to a lesser degree the vday vid)?

like. dan literally used screenshots that he almost certainly got from the phan directory in basically i'm gay. they acknowledged that the manchester eye meant something to them in giving the people what they want/witl (watched them at the same time, can't remember which had that in it). i know they knew how people would react to them mentioning iconic teen dalien moments in the big wheel in the sims.

there's also the fact that like... angry phil DMs/copyright strikes are a thing of the past? i'm not going to tell people where to find the vday video but it's stupidly easy to locate on more mainstream platforms at this point in time. shit, that brings me to another point: fans who joined more recently weren't around for the era where blogs were getting taken down for what they were posting. another reason it's more chill now.

like, the openness of the secret is like, something that makes seeking out the taboo less of a thrill?

but on the other hand! learning in detail abt the vday vid and old social media posts is something i think people find less necessary now? that used to be the most concrete like... phan proof. proof they were queer. and now that they're explicitly gay and openly together to the degree that they are it's like. the value of the information has lessened.

to go in a different direction. i definitely wouldn't call it a formalized etiquitte that the youngun's just don't know, especially when it comes to the social media posts—they've always circulated and even 5 years ago when i wrote that paper they were more openly talked about even tho the vday video wasn't (though again: 5 years ago was still wayyyyy more lax than 2013/14).

ultimately there's always just been so much clout tied up to knowing about the vday video & social media posts? so even though being too blatant has always been a taboo transgressing that norm with skill has also always been a phandom value.

i'm not going to get too far into the ways that dan and phil's fandom literacy and the fan response of archiving everything play into things bc i think i covered that well in my paper but yeah!

i don't have a good conclusion but: less % of the fandom being present for the aftermath of dnp being outed by the leak + greater aknowledgement of these subjects by dnp + less value for the information in the vday vid & deleted social media posts = more casual attitude towards vday vid & social media posts and a healthier phandom overall

#jam replies #jam thoughts #linguistics essay

[spacenintendogs]

5, 6, 1 for the ask game? If it’s not too much trouble ^^

1. Which part of the series was your introduction to HTTYD? How old were you when you first became a fan?

i rmr it pretty well. i was abt 11 years old & my mom found the first movie on comcast on demand & wanted to find a movie for us we (my siblings & i) hadn't seen so she chose it. i rmr the year prior with all the commercials on tv & stuff & was like hey!! i rmr wanting to see this! cool!! and i rlly liked the movie!!!!! my full obsession, however, didn't start until abt a year later when she brought home this pack of the first 6 books (that's all that was available at the time!) & reading through them i rewatched the movie & we had it on dvd by that point and that was it. the rest is history

5. What type of dragon do you think best matches your personality?

oh gosh. the impulse to say my fave but whispering deaths don't rlly "match" me personality wise. tbh a gronckle, me thinks. with a personality like meatlug or shattermaster. :') they're such goofy goobers but they're also rlly sweet & i am so soft for that LOL. they remind me of the dog i grew up with with how snorty they are & the way they wag their tails :'))

6. What are your favourite ships in the fandom and why?

haaaa.

snotstrid... IDK their chemistry is just??? i love how they constantly bicker & snotlout is just a piece of shit & it causes astrid to retaliate & treat him like that even when he's not actively being a piece of shit which pisses him off & yet they always somehow end up by each other or saving each other much to astrid's chagrin half the time & then snotlout's confusion UGH ESP SNOTLOUT'S ANGELS the nose flick & then astrid admitting she doesn't hate him & his FACE HIS FUCKING FACE he's so got a genuine crush on her but doesn't know how to Behave & i love them getting together & then breaking up & for astrid it's smth she looks back on fondly but never wants to go back to while snotlout is stuck adding her to his list of ppl being the one that got away & yearning..... they're also so funny together & i feel like if they're ever on the same page they're so powerful & it's scary LOL

fishlout used to be my fave & i still love it. rtte spent more time building their relationship to each other than either of them with ruffnut & we all saw the potential of what could have been :') it can easily fall into the jock x nerd thing but it's more than that to me bc while fishlegs is anxious he doesn't take snotlout's shit lying on his back (esp after gem of a different color) & by rtte fishlegs is rolling his eyes & quipping back & it's just forever this contest of who comes out on top & then u have thw whole thor bonecrusher thing & it can so easily be an exploration in snotlout's bisexuality (and fishlegs'!) esp after return of thor bonecrusher when snotlout is just SO happy fishlegs is back to the point where he gives him a hug (and was like :D woah when fishlegs bodied a dude to protect him) & they def had a brief stint after that. they don't talk abt it. it's only between them... snotlout yearns so badly...

i'm realizing my fave ship is anything that'll make snotlout yearn & wish he could have someone as all of his friends find their ppl or are comfortable with themselves enough to not need a romantic partner LMAO

i like a lot more ships than i talk abt tbh!! i just like taking characters like they're my dolls and making them kiss lol. heathstrid, ruffther, hiccstrid, heathlegs, rufflout, rufflegs, tufflegs, eretlout, etc!! i like the art & fics ppl make abt tufflout but it's just not my thing (if that makes sense!!) i also like lot of the poly ships, too! literally i just thrive off making this group of teens who probably spend too much time together but don't rlly have anyone else to spend time with have relationship drama LOL

#THANK U EM!!! <3 #httyd #httyd ask game #eemoo1o #rose answers #em tag #<3<3<3 ily ty!!!

[journeysfable]

All your posts about being aromatic on my dash has made me question my entire understanding of platonic vs romantic vs sexual attraction which isn’t a bad thing but is frustrating because I’m no longer sure if I know what romantic attraction is. I guess I just always focused on if a relationship is deep and meaningful regardless of how the relationship was defined. Like I used to think that having sex was the defining point but it isn’t. So where does the line between platonic, qpr, and romantic lay and why does it feel like someone is playing multidimensional jump rope with it. I don’t know I’m pretty sure I’m allo and this more stems from my belief that love may be one of the most stupid, complex, and impossible to define words in the English language right up there with religion and art.

Good! It can be distressing but I do not regret it

Some say the line between platonic, romantic, and qpr are blurry. Emotions are complicated. Theres also a secret third thing which is called alterous attraction. Imagine the types of attraction are on a bingo card. Alterous is the free space (I don't actually know how to play bingo. I have watched Grian play bin-go, though) its just the ??? Kind of attraction.

If it helps, there is def a romantic feeling that alloros seem to get and I have searched far and wide to find. Ppl describe it as tingles, and a physical pull, a feeling like your soul belongs in the presence the person your attracted to? Feeling like your flying or on a rollercoaster and like the air is punched out of you when see the person your attracted to and lightheaded.

But I know a fellow aro said they feel that way around their friends so maybe I'm wrong about some of that.

Emotions are hard cause everyone experiences them differently and characteristics of emotions get mixed up. Ppl laugh when distressed and cry when happy afterall.

It's also an entirely subjective thing. And wether you actually want to label your feelings as romantic or not is up to you. What a relationship is is up to the ppl in it and no one else.

Also for me platonic feelings feels like being covered in a warm blanket and like bliss. Like when I wake up in the morning and don't want to leave my bed because its warm and cozy and safe. It also feels like my heart swells with affection and fondness. I get squishes/platonic crushes too sometimes like I see someone really cool and who seems fun to be around so I'm excited to see them and spend time with them in hopes I can befriend them

But again thatd just me and maybe ppl out there feel that way about their crushes or partners so. Emotions are hard and it'd all be easier if our society decided to come up with one type of Super Duper Important Relationship That You Need Or Else You'll Die Miserably and then there are those other two and also here's how emotions are and this is the rulebook and anyone who dare ask questions about how it all works is weird and crazy.

For example some aspecs find people nice to look at and thats it. We decided to call that aesthetic attraction. But most ppl seem to think if you find someone nice to look at you're interested in them. But we know what we want and don't want. Want to stare not fuck or marry. There are lots of labels like that in the aspec community.

I think its easier to think of love as love and the most important part is what you want to do with that love rathee than how it feels. Maybe. Idk I'm still learning, too. We (aspecs) all are.

[rraaarr]

GO2 Spoilers ahead! Honestly I love all the theories (coffee, lie, magic trick) and think they're fun, interesting, and thorough, and while I think people are definitely asking the right questions, I personally don't think the Metatron overtly threatened Aziraphale or altered his state of mind in any way.

(the magic trick theory perhaps suggests that metatron just changed things to make Aziraphale more likely to say yes to him, but I don't know if I personally find that necessary)

There is Definitely Somethig Up with how Aziraphale retells his convo with the Metatron, but I really don't think it was an overt threat, esp not one to Crowley

(I think an overt threat to Crowley wouldve seen Aziraphale try to signal to Crowley in some way, they're good at that. And a pretty different/more stubborn,angry reaction on Azis part)

I could def be proven wrong next season, but Aziraphale seems Genuinely excited about the prospect of being Angels together with Crowley in Heaven and wanting that is 99.99% within his character.

Reasons I'm about to get into, but it isn't ONLY that it is within his character to want this, but it's also within his character:

To want to Check with Crowley First

Like, we see Aziraphale Check in with Crowkey before even TALKING to the Metatron. He isn't going to turn down an offer of Angelic Status on Crowley's behalf Without Asking

Like, yes of course Aziraphale is Excited, he Wants Crowley to say yes, there may have even been a disagreement or arguement if Crowley had said "oh you can tell them my answer is a resounding no."Like they may have still had the same convo bc Aziraphale hadn't been prepared for a No answer. (Ppl do this all the time, ask a genuine question then getting upset when the answer is no)

But ppl, I think Aziraphale was Attempting to Ask Crowley for their opinion, for what they wanted because Aziraphale never actually at any point tells Metatron "Yes" (or no)

I think being Angels with Crowley in a Heaven Aziraphale feels he can control ticks so many boxes of what he wants.

It lets Aziraphale:

Be together with Crowley in a way that is Safe for them both (his favorite thing)

It lets Aziraphale Do good and Help the Humans (his other favorite thing)---this may be a post for another time, but BOTH Azi and Crowley seem genuinely concerned for the souls and well being of the Humans they interact with that aren't, you know, freaking nazis. We see this with both Elspeth And Sitis (Crowley stops her from cursing God)

It lets Aziraphale give Crowley something back that he feels was taken away from Crowley unfairly (and in turn restore his sense of balance with the universe)

It lets Aziraphale be sure there won't be another Armageddon

It lets Aziraphale repay a debt i think he may feel he owes Crowley

It could even let Aziraphale help other angels he sees as like himself, hat he has something in common with like Muriel

And Aziraphale can always pop back down to earth when he likes

Like there are so many reasons for Aziraphale to think this is a good idea.

And those reasons are Not Even ALL wrong

The problem is Crowley doesnt Want to, for good reason, and Aziraphale will probably have less power than he thinks

Aziraphale Wanted to be able to say Yes

And he Might have said no to the Metatron if he'd just Asked Crowley with clear words on Crowleys opinion instead of just assuming and then being too shocked and hurt by Crowleys judgement and refusal to even be like "well I didn't answer dear, I wanted to check with you first. "

All that being said, I DO think Metatron subtly threatened Aziraphale, enough where Aziraphale still cared about safety, didn't forget that he and Crowley were unsafe, that Metatron reminded him in subtle ways of all the info that could be used against them Both, all while seeming a friend. I think the Or Death was implied, but I don't think Aziraphale quite caught on cognitively but instinctively (see reason number 1)

Metatron went for an obvious carrot and a subtle stick.

#ineffable partners #ineffable husbands #gos2 spoilers #good omens season 2 #Aziraphale really cares about Crowleys opinion #I think Azi feels shame when Crowley is upset he didn't say no #Azis shame usn't crowleys fault Crowley got interrupted by Azi first so they're feeling things #But really would Azi turn something like that down without being sure Crowley didn't say yes #Ugh that convo #They miss So much information bc they have so many feelings #But like they're feeling the same feeling #They both want to be together #But they're basically arguing over wedding venue #Like very important wedding venue #Wedding venues with History and Significance and Bad memories and even abuse #ineffable divorce

[slice-of-magenta]

SIX SECRETS GAME

Choose a character and tell us:

1is an open secret

2is a secret the people close to your character know

3 is a secret that your character wouldn't really care about getting out

4is a secret exactly one person knows anything about

5is a secret no one knows about but they sort of want to come out/to tell someone

6is a secret no one knows and they desperately don't want anyone to know about.

You can also decide who knows and how

@rhyslahey ! 😁 (Im finally ANSWERING THIS) Idk how much of this would make sense tho.

SCOTT

An open secret:

He is trying his best but has too much on his plate.

Secrets ppl close to the character know:

I would say him being a werewolf, but it seemed a lot of people who dabbles just a little in the supernatural out of town knows about that! So it would be that Scott tries finding another way to do things.

A secret that your character doesnt care about getting out:

Stiles still climbs through the window! So what? Doesnt everyone now?

A secret exactly one person knows anything about:

*My brain grows distant as I imagine headcanons with my otp*

But if I was to suggest a plain answer, it would be knowing certain foods, movie genres, and video game preferences between him and Stiles.

After all that time that Stiles has known Scott, he certainly thought he told scott to watch star wars that one summer without him and he didnt which was later exposed. (Because Scott was with his dad, but Scott doesnt say that part.)

If we want some good scisaac stuff, there is def a few things scott didnt think was important enough to tell his best friend that he tells Isaac. Its a lot of the things he considered silly before!

A secret no one knows about but they sorta want to come out/to tell someone:

How it was being with Rafael as a kid. Like the hotel stays, for example. He has JUST hinted at it recently with Stiles in high school, but even then, he isnt so sure if he wants to talk about the details. For keeping it in so long, he isnt so sure how tender he still is, or when it will ever be the right time.

A secret no one knows and they desperately dont want anyone to know about:

Time of Death (S5) where Scott hacks into Liam with the mute's axe. He vividly recalls liking it. When they referred to good or bad dreams, he didnt expect it to be that. No one has to know.

Their plan had kinda worked (with reviving him) and thats all that mattered for the people around him.

#i was going to do tracy or stiles but scott was kinda quicker for me #did lists of a lot of characters while thinking on who to submit for this #ask #thank u for sending this! these questions you found are a delight! #<33 #did i even do this right?😅

[jacqui-velazquez]

THE SUMMER OF 2023 JACQUI VELAZQUEZ

THE VIBES DURING THE BREAK

Jacqui's summer was (to their dismay) completely, horrendously, utterly boring.

They had an internship at a record label and it was...well, an internship. They were everyone's lil bitch getting coffee and doing the tasks no one else wanted to do around the office.

Not to mention, they actually had to like....show up in the morning? On time? Not their strength, that's for sure.

After the road trip went south (figuratively, not literally) and Ollie came back to NYC, they spent quite a bit of time together, but Jacqui kept pretty mum about how much they were hating their internship.

Parker popped into the city and they met up and (thread still in progress but I don't anticipate them spilling the beans about Jesse lmao).

Anyways, as weird as it may have been considering the, you know, blackmail and murder, Jacqui couldn't wait to get back to Ogden. Even though they were pretty sure they hated college now and weren't even sure why they needed a degree.

Maybe they don't....

THE VIBES FOR THIS YEAR

The direction Jacqui is going to go in this semester (I think) is a bit of a nihilistic crisis! Majorly in the case of academics. Needless to say, Jacqui did nawt enjoy the 9-5 life interning over the summer, and is sorta struggling with, like, the concept of college in general because they're struggling with the concept of employment in general.

And also...probably because of the, you know, trauma.

In general, this semester their partying side is going to get a little bit darker, a little bit more ominous than it has been, and their nihilism is going to waver along the lines of nothing matters so why not to nothing matters so why. though they'll never fully shake the anti-nihilism, my lil persephone is going from her goddess of spring era to her queen of the underworld era.

Overall: MORE partying, getting high, playing music & gigs in general, hooking-up. And LESS fucks given, homework done, boundaries.

Along those lines, so some wanted connections/plots for this semester (most of these are carried over bc I'm STILL waiting for them):

SLACKER FRIENDS! While Jacqui def has been a stoner, and would never shame anyone, so they would've gotten along with anyone who self-identified (or otherwise) as a slacker, I'd love to find some ppl that they like, actively seek out who also are not doing any work. They've always enjoyed their school work for the most part, and at the very least, enjoyed learning, so wanting absolutely nothing to do with it is new for them, and I'd imagine they'd try to find people who feel the same and try to understand them in hopes of understanding where it is coming from themselves, ya feel?

Along those lines, pretty much anyone who would get high, hook up, or otherwise be a degenerate with them (around their schoolwork, if they must).

I've been saying this but for someone who is supposed to sleep around, Jacqui does nawt have enough hook-up connections.

People in their classes who start to notice that they are like...never going to them.

The girl band :( It has yet to actually come to fruition and I need a girl band posse for Jacqui PLEASE.

ppl they can influence :) as always lmao. Especially now they'll want people they can pull into a spiral with them because losing your sense of self isn't fun when you do it alone!

#about #muse #event: summer break

[ultrvmonogamy]

hey bestie! just dropping by to say that i love your blog and anytime we’ve interacted you’ve been very kind. i don’t understand the weird judgy/preachy anons that you get. i wonder if they don’t understand how to utilize the block button for content they don’t like. anywaysssss, i think you’re a lovely person who makes good content. i hope you’re having a good week and you don’t let uninformed anons get to you. tell your cat i said pspspsps! 🖤

tysm bestie. i'm v pleased to know u feel that way 🩵

sometimes i'm an asshole, n more frequently than that i can be short w ppl (sometimes even when i don't intend to). i'm far from perfect, n i've been even further from it n def have my share of shit i can look back at n wish i'd handled better (nothing so atrocious as implied here), but the only reason i can look back n feel that way is bc i continuously strive to grow n learn n become more aware. like, i grew up in a time w very different social norms, no access to information that couldn't be found in the local library or experienced firsthand if within biking distance, n was raised by parents from an entirely different culture than where i grew up. we've all got our challenges, but my point is that in many ways my process will have necessarily looked a lot different than it does for a massive amt of the active tumblr base. i'm sure many others here around my age or older or w v different backgrounds from the "average" blogger feel similarly. blah blah but yeah thank u sincerely.

i understand the anons to a point, but it's rly fucking tiresome bc i've talked many times on various iterations of this blog abt problems w age gap relationships, i've answered questions abt how young/old i'd date in great length, most of the women i've dated were roughly the same age as me or older, i was a minor the only times i've had anything approaching sexual contact w a minor (n even then i was the younger partner although not by much), i've pushed ppl away for being too young for me even though they were adults, n i've never pushed someone away for being too old for me, n blah blah barf wtv.

also, ngl, a lot of fucking ppl here r simply ageist, but still i understand the v real threat n the fact that sometimes it's simply a lot smarter to write someone off rather than to give them the benefit of the doubt when the stakes r too high to risk it. however, i wholeheartedly feel like the ppl who come for me here r coming for exactly the wrong person, bc i'm literally over here saying stuff that a massive portion of the population would find reprehensible, n i'm doing it of my own volition. i've talked many times abt my own ongoing effort to integrate the most potentially dangerous n fucked up parts of myself (most of which were put on me n many of which r a result of my v own past bad decisions) into smth healthier n worthwhile. if ppl don't wanna believe that, well, that's not a me problem. unfortunately, however, ppl can still cause v real damage n make it my problem simply by making accusations or mischaracterizing interactions or attributing motivations that don't/didn't/never will exist etc. i wish they'd turn the attention they're giving me to ppl actually out there motivated by a desire for the gross shit instead of coming for someone who isn't motivated by that gross shit n consistently strives to take ownership of his actual shit, but i can't exactly expect anyone to be able to see in the dark.

okay, i'm shutting up abt all this now, but thank u again. my week is going well so far, n i've conveyed ur regards to the silly fuzzball currently purring at my side 🩵

#ty bestie <3 #mail #anon #oc

[zhuhongs]

i'm thinking of moving to taiwan after college, how has it been treating you? a lot of people i know who did move to taiwan only talk about how hard the language is (even if they're taiwanese 🥲) but i wanna now how like, your everyday life is!

oooo, that sounds so exciting, wherever you end up i hope you enjoy it! But yea, so I live just outside of Taipei in New Taipei but New Taipei is actually huge and there are many parts of New taipei that are like super far from Taipei proper and are pretty hard to live in without a having a scooter or car. I'm assuming you've been to taiwan before if you think you want to move there but ya never know! I tbh knew very little abt taiwan before coming here but yea. Just giving you an idea of where I live and that i can't speak for all of Taiwan, just my area thats just outside of taipei but still served by their metro system (which is honestly super dope, shout out to the MRT).

So like I overall love living here sm, I'd love to live here someday for work or smth and not just studying abroad. The transportation is amazing, the nature is. so lovely. Like tbh no matter where I am in the city I am no more than 10 km away from the river or the mountains and everything is so green and nice. However in order to be so green all the time, taipei is very rainy and very humid. Legit my hair was such a nightmare when i got here, if you are from a dry climate, you will notice so many changes. Like my skin is rlly nice bc of the moisture, but my hair was unmanageable so i chopped it off. But I also have was less allergies now. If youre originally from a humid climate it should be nbd.

My daily life is honestly pretty easy. I live in a dorm so I didn't have to deal with things like speaking to a landlord or finding someone who would rent to me, or having to deal with utility bills, or dealing with the semi confusing garbage disposal system. But, I do know ppl that did have to do these things and speak way less chinese than I do and were just fine. Honestly, ppl say that you can live in the Taipei area without speaking chinese and be just fine bc most ppl speak english. Tbh idk how anyone does that, I rarely speak to anyone in english here but I think thats bc I always try speaking chinese first. Most people can speak a decent amount but unless you speak to them in english first theyll speak in chinese. I feel like most things you can learn just by living your daily life and learning high frequency words and when all else fails use google translate. But honestly, my life is very easy and pleasant. If I'm hungry I can easily go to a food stall or grocery store or convenience store near where I live. If I really don't want to leave the house, I can order food with a reasonable delivery fee (well reasonable to me, ik food prices are going up here).

Personally, I find that making friends here is pretty hard, but I'm not a very social person and find it hard to start conversations with ppl idk, and most taiwanese people don't talk to you if you don't talk to them, so this might be hard. But I feel like everyone is very friendly for the most part its just kinda finding the chances to make friends is rare if you aren't working or going to classes or know someone here already.

But overall yea no taiwan is a great place to live, there's a lot of things I'm gonna miss abt taiwan when i go home but somethings in my home country are hard to find here. Some of the traditional taiwanese food isn't bad, but not like my cup of tea, but you can find a lot here. It's just that most like foreign cuisine is more expensive or geared towards the locals so its not very authentic. I def miss hispanic food and some foods are hard to recreate here bc of lack of ingredients but taiwanese food is also very nice. Some dishes may look boring but are actually very good. I hope you like living in taiwan if you end up living here!

#this got rlly long so imma do a tldr of the things abt taiwan i'm gonna miss when i get home #1. the nature. the riverside parks... dude.... riding a bike by the river is like a hundred percent must do pasttime... i'm gonna miss it #so bad. #2. the beverages... are so good and so cheap... to get a decent fruit tea in the US is like 5 dollars. here it is 2 dollars and tastes #better.... like... omg... gonnamiss the beverages #3. convenience stores... esp the onigiri. and the hot tea... you cant get decent hot tea anywhere in the us!! you can't #its always iced and sugary or if it is hot its overseeped and disgusting #4. food stands. the convenience of it all. also like. no one sells diguaqiu near me in the us... imma miss those. and the #scallion pancake stall near my house. and oa tsian/hezi jian #5. the transportation... i hate car dominated communites... everything needs to be walkable... #asks #anon

[iero]

okay i dont want this to come across as pretentious or anything but what abt the ending of saltburn is disturbing ?? i mainly watch horror and thriller movies so my view on media being ''disturbing'' or not is pretty skewed and whilst yes i understand that certain scenes like the bathtub and grave scenes might make ppl uncomfortable or disturb them, the ending was really tame imo. like so tame i wouldn't have even considered it to be disturbing if it wasn't for so many ppl online saying it is. i'm really trying to rack my brain. is it the murders ?? the naked dancing ?? the reveal that oliver planned (most of) it from the very start ?? the reveal that the main protagonist isn't a good person ?? to me these all seem like very normal plot points even outside of horror/thriller movies - i've def seen these plots being used in non-horror/thriller drama tv shows before - so i'm confused as to why anyone would find the ending disturbing (thanks in advance if u answer this <3)

Hey! Great question! I don't think you come off as pretentious! As someone who also watches a lot of, like, horror and psychological thrillers sometimes, I get it! I think one of the reasons I did actually watch it was because I saw everyone talk about it and I was like, "Okay, I need to see what all the commotion is about. I need to see if this is as disturbing as people say it is." and for me? It wasn't nearly as. I do say it's not for the faint of heart though.

I think what makes the ending so disturbing is really dependent on who you ask! I think it could be a lot of things. Like, literally all the things you said about the ending could cumulate to what makes the movie so out there for some. For me, it's like... It's really crazy that I personally think Oliver wanted that love and (mostly) attention to the point he went to those lengths to get it. It's like a main character syndrome. Like, it's really crazy to me to see people who have watched this movie sympathize with his character, but I think putting him as the main character was brilliant in that regard, you know? You usually root for the overall main character and to root for someone who is a pathological liar and reveals himself to be pretty evil in the end was kinda out there. That's how I personally could answer your overall question.

Sidenote as well, but I don't consider this movie to be a 10/10 though. Like, I thought it was good, but some points of it I found lacking or just plain dumb. Firstly, the montage at the end where it was spelled out that yes, he was the one who blew out Felix's tire, yes he poisoned his drink and essentially killed him, yes he stuck the razor blades right besides Venetia's bathtub, etc. Did that needed to be spelled out for everybody? It was predictable at a certain point to me way before the end that "Oh yeah, he's the one who did all this." and I don't care for predictability in a movie/TV show/etc. I like the element of surprise.

Another big thing that kinda sucked to me before I let you go is that after the first one or two scenes that were meant to make the viewers uncomfortable, I felt it was a film that was relying on shock value a little too much. After the "vampire scene," in the back of my mind, I was like, "Okay, we get it." Especially if you're me or you and you're not someone who is grossed out very easily for whatever reason, it just almost seemed dull at points. I almost went this whole movie with a straight face, even though the part at the very end where he takes out Elspeth's breathing tube/life support and just yanks it out from her throat made my jaw drop and got an eyebrow raise from me. I knew it was gonna happen in the back of my mind, but him just straight up pulling it out of her throat himself had me like, "Well, shit..." It was a bit unexpected to me.

But, that's it. Sorry for the novel length answer. You didn't ask for a movie review from me, but I thought I would share my thoughts on it! Thank you for the thought provoking question anon!

#answered #Anonymous #Under the cut because long and spoilers!

[letslive-hwaiting]

miss my bff of many yrs. decided to part ways too. LOL i know it sounds strange but yeah, it happens. i have delayed response so.. it's after a few yrs or after at least a year where i start missing the person n think of patching up... but to many people, too much time has passed i guess? and it's awkward.

sometimes, i rly didn't know it then. just like how i have memories from long ago which i dislike now. delayed response.

so since i don't have a bestfriend to talk about all things including silly things to, i am here.

sorry for being judge-y and stuff if i am pls do not mind me... (but i bet girls talk about stuff like that and even more tgt ok).

do not take what i say seriously. i may not mean it. i may change my opinion the next second.

heart signal 4

jimin!! ^^ the younger people are, the more "pure" their liking for someone is ? ☺️🤭

people r different when they r with diff ppl haha and i guess people aren't always more charming with who they like

i think shin min kyu liked ji min from the start. he just didn't know it when he chose ji young as who he'd like on instinct. he should have known he liked ji min instinctively. at first sight.

people do fall in love at 1st sight. it's more common than u think. (not physical appearance , just .. fateful encounters? spark?)

the guys are all charming imo, frm a 3rd perspective when they rly like a particular female ☺️ the more they like the female, the more charming they appear to me hehee

ep6:

if i'm ji young, i would like gyeo re. if im jimin, i'd still like jiwon. for jumi , i can't rly tell her real feelings yet or she isnt rly having that much feelings invested... so idk but maybe i'd choose gyeo re? maybe ji won? or shin min kyu? idk? def the 4th female occupant idk yet. i cant put myself in her shoes bc not much airtime so idk abt her yet but maybeee if i m her i'd choose .. irdk

ep7:

whoo i love how minkyu is so serious about liking only jimin 👏👏👏 even though the other girls showed interest in him n he even knows jimin is into another guy. a-ma-zinggg i like 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻pls stay that way till the end of the show (bc forever is not too possible, i guess)

i knw ive been mentioning minkyu the most but it's bc this is still a public space n so i talked abt the guy i personally wouldn't fall for most, haha.(as an outsider. not putting myself in anyone's shoes. so doesnt mean im saying he is bad in any way. he's def charming - obviously since 3/4 women there like him)

ep8:

i think right, i might be least attracted to minkyu because we're a bit similar. out of the 8 people there, i'm most similar to him.

if people can develop romantic feelings for one another so easily, is that why people can't stay loyal? imagine in a world full of people... =0 nonono, let me stay out of such fragile useless game

ep11:

gyeo re felt that he was being led on by ji young?? was he in his own world?

thats y i find it hard .. like i want to have friends and sometimes guy friends seem more comfortable to have . but how much of a distance should i keep?? like.. what if i feel comfortable with an attached guy totally as friends and i am totally definitely not want to break a couple up, but my church believes strongly in distancing from other females other than the gf/wife.

n if i feel confortable w an attached guy friend , last time i thought, great! we'll totally b friends nth to worry about having those feelings. but now it's even more worrisome like i feel cautious about the gf/wife like try to make sure the gf/wife is okay w our interaction.

if he's single i want to b the one hearing about his attraction with other girls instead. or if i hang out w single guys, what if ppl think im trying to find a bf? or if i hang out w a particular guy im comfortable with , ppl think we are dating. can i have friends pls.

at some point, i became not so nice n kinda cold bc i didnt want ppl to think im nice n then think im not nice n think im fake. or if im nice to guys ppl think i like them n trying to attract attention or whatever. and also im actually v v v v v shy = kind of cold/mean. also ppl should understand certain situations/circumstance can cause us to react/act in ways. but since u r not me n i am not u , ppl do not understand and come to bad conclusions/judgement of someone instead. if you do not have a gd judgement of someone be a decent human and DONT GOSSIP ABOUT THE PERSON OR VOICE IT OUT TO OTHERS LA! keep it in your stupid head.

u may say, be nice to everyone lorr. BUT i am a human who likes a few people more than others must i treat every1 the same??? im not a teacher here yknow. i prioritise loyalty too so i believe in being obviously better to ppl who matter n who im responsible for and obv i want to be better to someone i like more whattt.. n some ppl make me more comfortable so i can laugh more n stuff??

i dont get comfortable w a lot of ppl even if we appear as friends.. like out of all my girlfriends my whole life incl those ive talked to and all, ive only ever felt comfortable with 2?3? maybe 1?

are the girls who turn out well those who receive a lot of love and do not have very bad experiences that affect them toooo much? jiyoung seems like someone who had good experiences and received love growing up and through puberty and life.

ep 12

ji won said love is be happy together, not he will make her happy.

.. 😂 it makes sense but... i want a guy to make me happy, not tell me to be happy with him? totally my opinion.

ep 13

i'm actually rooting for yisoo. bc jiyoung has the other 3 guys liking her already... even if she likes minkyu that much, i hope minkyu likes yi soo or even ji min or jumi instead. gotta be fair yknow..(n not like im jy's fan or anyth. if i like sm1 a lot thn i would root for that person regardless)

but got to give it up to her for being so faithful in her feelings to minkyu!! she didn't even sway when other guys liked her so much! she must have another set of criteria/things she's attracted to =0

and minkyu. . ah.. he's too passive, (like me, i'm even worse) . how can like that.. a little frustrating to watch. i think he's someone who chose the easier route, maybe bc yi soo was more obvious with her feelings and maybe bc he didn't like feeling like he was taking away jy when other guys liked her. or maybe he just wasnt rly attracted to any1 so ge was trying to navigate based on what he thought. or maybe bc jy said she wanted to rest alone.if i were in the same situation as him, i would have made the same decisions as him too drk y...

i feel that yi soo is not as strong as ji young.. she's actually a softer person if u get what i mean. n got to applaud her for liking minkyu so much when he's not that nice to her

😂 when people think they showed their feelings to the person they like, the person doesn't get the signal. and when they behave normally or otherwise with someone else, the someone else might get the wrong signal and take it the wrong way . 😂😂

[castle-dominion]

Need to do some chores first BUT time for 1x7 home is where the heart stops.

Forrest gump? Ah I remember this scene from the s2 intro! It was rly good.

Oh hey that's me! I often score the fights that my brother & dad's gf's son have. They play these hugs fights & I'm not good at the piano but it's fun to score their matches. Is it just blurred that makes them look like silhouettes? No wait they were behind the screen. I knew that alexis took fencing but I didn't know Rick could fence & help Alexis train. Jumping around the stairs & stuff I love it.

Probs a contortionist. The stunt actor would be at least. Poor guy. He should just... step off this case, at least the scene. At least we know he has an allergy now. Reminds me of a fic I read where for a full 60 seconds esposito thought ryan had a drug problem bc he was sniffling & hiding all the time but he was just allergic to esposito's jacket hey that made me think of smth. I'm allergic to cats, would I be allergic to tigers? Back to what I was saying this opens up a lot of sickfic opportunities. XD this poor man. Jinx lol Why is she asking ESPOSITO what's wrong with him? Why not ask ryan himself? (also espt know specifically that ryan is allergic to goose down. Did he learn that today or earlier?) Ryan: *raises his finger bc he's about to speak* Ryan: *sneezes instead. Very violently too.* & then ryan's poor thumbs up

"beckett flavoured" gunshotwound is faster to say than gee ess double-yu. Gee ess wed is fast enough. We should change double-yu to wed. Like zed. KB: You can still smell the cordite. KR: I'll have to take your word for it. The captions: (speaking spanish) JE: Nada. (which is essentially a loanword into english now, bro, it would be so much easier to write "nada" than (speaking spanish) even if u need to maybe put <i>this</i> around it bc it is a loanword. I hope my html shows up & doesn't just italicize the word.) RC: In a building like this? This part of town? You'd think she'd be safe. No pun intended. (XD) How often are people killed in neighborhoods like this? KB: Same as anywhere else, Castle. Just the once.

RC: How do they know what's in the safes? "Safes." Is that a word? Is it "saves"? That can't be right. Me: I feel u JE: And you write for a living? Me, a wannabe language nerd: Hey! KR: Even the kind of safes *winks at espt* that they had Outfit update: ryan has a nice jacket. Cut like a dress jacket, made of leather.

She's going to be mad that this has happened before & they haven't caught them. Are they coordinating with robbery on this? bc only this one (& possibly the last one) had homicides. Oh I like her. She's the PR person.

Nah bro, the truth WAS handling it.

RC: Meredith's more like a crazy aunt with a credit card. Of the two of us, I'm the more responsible one. Pretty sad, isn't it? Remember that time castle got her to take care of alexis if he died & she was like "sometimes I forget that you are a sweet & loving father" & then he says '& go into my closet & destroy my porn collection before she finds it' "& now you've ruined it" & esposito is right there with `don't worry bro I got u covered`

Shrek & the beckett onion. Shrek is a timeless classic.

JE: Yeah, well, whoever they are, they definitely have some righteous trade skills. Me: radical, deude! Ooh I love a good bump key! Doesn't always work, & def not that well on a lot of things but cool!

"bad guys" smh or ppl like me, neurodivergents with lock+key hyperfixations & vulnerability assessment. I considred that for a career once KR: Dude, I know what a bump key is. *grabbing the file angrily* JE: No, you don't. Busted him for what? What were you in back then? Homicide still?

RC: Good enough to be our perp? KR: Why do you writers always call them perps? RC: Isn't that what you call them? KR: Ah, we got a whole lot of names for them. JE: Yeah. KR: Pipehead, pisshead, ork, creep. JE: Crook, knucklehead, chucklehead. KR, glancing at Espt: Chud, turd. [Ryan and Esposito now facing each other, like two kids 'playing the dozens' - "The Dozens is a game played between two contestants in which the participants insult each other until one of them gives up." It must be a competition or smth bc to my slur-filled gay ass it looks like they're flirting - Castle scribbling furiously.] JE: Destro, skell. [they get even closer] KR: Skeksi, slicko, slick. JE: Mope. KR: Sleestack. [Espt shakes his head at that one. Ryan nods in argument.] RC: Slow down, slow down. KB steps in: Suspects. We call them suspects. RM: I'm old school. I like "dirtbag." RC: Classic.

Yeah. Not running fast enough when your boys showed. So true bestie westie buddies? Rick's finding this really hot rn

KB: *angrily shooting her gun at paper targets bc shooting things is a healthy way to cope /s (but I mean as long at she's not shooting people ig)* RC: You got to watch those silhouettes. They can be shifty little bastards. Wait until he gets ear protection babes!

Yeah, well. You know, we could always just cuddle, Castle. he DEF is just doing this to get close, the sleeze. He probs did research for derrick storm. RC: You know I, uh, came down to ask you if I could, uh, take home some of those stolen property photos. (he was probs trying to aim there) KB: Tell you what. You put any of the next three in the 10-ring, and I will give you the files. Ten ring is p tight tbh. I kind of thought she would have given him the entire 9 ring or even 8 ring. the first two shots are a bit off to the right anyway, but that last one was good. & she DID say any ONE of the next THREE

Powell? BLEW HIS COVER?

Ooh I love rocks minerals crystals gems stones etc

So valid bestie when the queen & pope visit at the same time RC: Well, the crime scene's all locked and sealed. I don't think I could get you in there. Powell: Let that be the least of our concerns.

This man is so right. A gentleman's game. I love him. Proffessionals have standards! Powell? Powell??

She was there in the middle of the night?

Castle writer moments You son of a bitch I'm in He could have just made it up, he didn't need to describe the fellow. "He looked like xyz but I would like him to look more like abc if I were writing" yk that sort of thing

Why must they write it On The Boards? I love how castle is already done bc he's a writer. I wonder if this is the actual writing of the actors. Castle's writing is nice, Beckett's writing is nice & tbh looks similar, esposito has neat-ish writing but it seems to tilt off sometimes. The Ys are two lines, not rounded. Ryan's writing is big. & he does his Es like me, like 3s. Poor ryan, hand cramp. lmao madt pronounced madituh. (I'd've said madit.) They would have just as easily been able to read it out loud & cross them off. Like playing Boggle.

RC: not yet KB: !? never! Girl you're going to need a warrant. It's confidential, her hands are TIED.

Castle book lol. It's the little details of the show. JE: If the employees and volunteers are clean, then our perp... RC: *Skell [...] KR: And we can work the door.

Lanie <3 I need to acquire & learn to tie a bowtie. XD martha Ooh those are so pretty on her! KB: Uh, we're going to the, uh, Waldorf. RC: ._.

Ah yes I remember scenes like this in the recaps on the DVD sets. JE: Man, these guys look guilty of tax evasion, not home invasion. & he would be right. [Ryan looks up,] Yeah, well... [and does a double take] appearances can be deceiving. [Esposito looks up as well. Their jaws drop. Think Sam Neill and Laura Dern seeing the Jurassic Park dinosaurs. But instead of dinosaurs, it's... Beckett stepping out of a town car. On Castle's arm, the two of them step into a salvo of flashbulbs. A fairy-tale moment. Beckett momentarily dazzled, or at least appears so. They pass Ryan and Esposito.] KR: *smile grows* Nice dress. JE: Yeah, what there is of it. KB, in cop mode: I'd let you borrow it, Esposito, but you stretched out the last one. KR, turning his head to follow caskett, turns his head more to look at Espt & furrows his eyebrows: ??? JE: *shaking his head at her* (which I think is just Such a great line.) (https://scriptline.livejournal.com/19834.html) Ok but this scene makes me want to switch up the relationships. Everyone ships caskett & rysposito. I think castlesito & ryckett could be fun.

Mm music! Big Cheese! Captions should have put bob in quotation marks Vinegar. What? It's vinegar, pussy. Beck--- wait no I need to introduce myself as Kate. Y'all call him the what now.?

Rachel: We make a point to know as much as we can about our potential donors, so we can match their interests with our programs. So many places just ask you to just write a check. We want you to know that your money is making a difference. Sus af. Espt asking abt the food XD tbh I'd do the same. Castle u just.. stopped her in the middle of a phone call? Espt gon be sus. Their dancing is out of time. It's a movie tho I know they added the audio after. My dad has been to a wedding with a silent dance. Everyone had earbuds & you could tell who was listening to what by how they were dancing. At least beckett can dance & they can shoot glances anywhere.

LMAO MARTHA RODGERS. Such a mom thing to embarrass your kids "my baby wrote this book!" MR: 2,500, beautiful lady in blue. Thank you so much. Do we hear 3,000? 3,000? Girls, don't be shy. We have a gentleman bidder. Oh, and isn't he attractive? [The gentleman raises his glass to Castle] MR: Oh, my goodness! Aren't we broad-minded? Castle gay moments & beckett so sassy watching him laughing at him. Love it.

KB, walking up all cop style, holdingher badge: Paul Reynolds, you're under arrest on suspicion of theft and conspiracy to commit murder. JE+KR: *swoop in from nowhere to cuff him* RC: Where was the badge? KB: Don't ask. RC: *fish mouth*

Castle has let his tie out, but still dressed nice, Beckett looks normal now. Black shirt, leather jacket. She looks good but is not wearing her dress. RC: What happened to the dress? KB: You didn't think I was going to interrogate him in it, did you? RC: We were kind of hoping. [Ryan nods and Esposito looks her over. Beckett rolls her eyes] Kind of ew, she is your fellow detective, your coworker, but at least it's funny. I mean they're right, she is hot af.

Oh wait the boyfriend thief dude has a nice jacket. Possibly making the guy up...

Is this the next morning now?

KB: More like get one of them killed. And I can't have that on my conscience. Understood? She loves her boys. is it just them? do they have backup? Also that's a big gun BRO U DON'T EVEN GIVE EM THE TIME TO COME TO THE DOOR BEFORE U GET RYAN TO KICK IT OPEN?h

Lol castle

KEPT THE VIC'S FINGER? Man's not going to stop if u just yell at hiim

RC: ...Pum-num-nah-nah-nah-num-nah-nah. Pum-num-nah-nah nah-nAAH. De-nah-num-nah -NAAAH--- *body falls on the car* [Castle is face-to-face with Karl Nadir, the man from the police sketch, which by the way, happens to be on the dash. He looks at Nadir, and then at sketch. Yep. That's the guy. And Castle does the only thing he can think of with a guy staring at him through the windshield. He turns on the wipers. The wipers smack Nadir's beady-eyed face. Nadir rolls off the hood and levels his gun at Castle from the driver's side.] & when they are wrestling the song castle was humming plays <3 RC: I tried to stay in the car. I really did

Castle has a good black eye. KB: Oh, pretty butch, Castle.

She is already basically part of the family. Love em.

#castle 1x7 #castle 1x7 spoilers #castle 1x7 quote

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

Do you mind sharing why you moved around so much in your youth? I find it very interesting bc my parents only moved houses in the same small town before I was born. And then they never moved. I grew up with the same friends from primary school, parted ways in highschool, still run into them sometimes when we visit our hometown at the same time. I really wonder how different it must be for you, making friends and moving away, not crossing path with them anymore, distant memories and loves.

i don't mind sharing! and i do think most ppl are more like your case, with ppl living in the same place/around family their whole life, and my parents did decide to do that eventually lol. we first lived in a city where my grandparents lived too, went to school there, but then we moved from belgium to the US bc my dad went to study there. it was an amazing time where i truly felt i had a great community, despite being so young. amazing school, i played soccer, did ballet, went swimming, gathered at the playground like all the other neighborhood kids... oof. it gets a lil emotional if i think about it too much. what the rest of my childhood could've been yk? anyway, my dad finished his studies and my parents were getting nervous living in the states bc politics were getting more intense back then (it was 2003) and so they moved us back to belgium. not too far from the initial city we lived in, but a village rip. even tho i was still pretty young i remember it as a culture shock lol. i'll just say school sucked. i could never adjust. i had friends all throughout and into high school but i don't remember it fondly, and i just have some friends left from that time. after hs i lived in finland with a host family, ig you could say i tried to escape something, and then i moved to another city in belgium for my studies. and tbh bc of my uprooted weird early childhood i can tell i'm uneasy living somewhere for too long and it sucks. during my studies i changed dorms every year. after my studies i moved to brussels and only stayed for two years bc i got sick of it. then i moved to berlin, which didn't work out in the end, so now i'm back in belgium again in the city where i did uni jhsrkjfr

feels weird to list it all out like that. ig that is also waaaay too much info but yeah. these are def things i've been thinking about more lately bc i never fully realised how it shaped my life to the core. there's def a lack of feeling "at home", a feeling i come close to feeling when i visit where i lived in the US and then it's not even full bc i haven't lived there since i was a kid so. i don't really know it anymore. yeah. here's to making the city i live in now my home, right?

#ab me #in case ppl are interested! hzghdjgdt #kind anon

[wooahaes]

hiiii! i absolutely adore enouement & lhc and i was wondering if you were planning on making it a whole series? with each of the boys? i honestly really enjoy the universe you made and the whole dynamic between each of the character. i also really enjoyed a chubby reader that is about other insecurites rather than their weight. it was refreshing!! i'm not trying to pressure you or anything i am just really curious. i do really enjoy your writting :D <3

so im kissing u on da mouth rn for this ask /j

first of all i wanna say it: ur so sweet!!!! thank u for enjoying my writing!! it means a lot <3

aaa okay so fun fact.... i had like... two more fics kind of planned for tht universe? one was another chubby reader w vernon (i think i've talked abt it before maybe?) and another was a gn!reader with dino where they were fake dating. vn fic has more planned for it as of rn (it kinda deals w some fatphobia n body image issues that arent exclusive to reader!!) and genuinely feels like a slightly heavier read? but its still something i'd enjoy writing lol

like at one point in lhc i mention seungkwan having to give up movie tickets and chan immediately snatches them up bc the other two ppl were vernon and a friend? that friend was gonna be the reader of dino fic!! they're friends lol the entire premise was "ppl gettin fuckin NOSY abt chan not dating anyone so he pitches the idea to his friend with a plan to stage a breakup later and whoops idiots fell for each other" bc im a cliche bitch!! which tbh could work as a later fic if i decided to write more members before then bc i could hit maybe on the pressure of dating someone when ur friends all start getting together w ppl. theres less planned for this one (i wanted to finish planning vn fic since chronologically it happens after lhc but before dino fic) but i did have like. a long convo planned out of chan dumping reader bc he caught feelings and his friends confronting him over it.

im not sure if i'm 100% down to write a fic for each member but like... i do genuinely rly like this universe? i'd have to keep track of how much time has passed between fics tho since LHC takes place a few months after enouement and untitled vernon fic takes place like... the following fall? im using western school year shit sue me lmao

but i'd at least be interested in doing it!! idk if i'd do multi-part fics for ever member or if i'd go back to a longfic like enouement for a few of them. i feel like there's def potential for more set in the universe! esp considering the number of members still in school lmao

like im open to a fem!reader in general. im open to more fem!chubby readers bc i rarely find those fics myself and im happy to help other ppl in my boat like... find representation written specifically for them yknow? but im also open to more gn!readers for the saga? i think i'd def want a balance in there ykno if im gonna write more fem!reader fics. i wouldnt want every fic to be fem!reader bc i feel like thats unfair to ppl who dont identify that way yknow?

also idk just know it like... genuinely means a lot to hear feedback on lhc and ppl who are glad i wrote a chubby reader whos insecurities arent fully abt her weight? lhc didnt really net that much attention which is fine lmao i really don't write for the attention i'm getting otherwise i'd write for a bigger group too. its just nice to know that other people also were kinda bothered by the way chubby reader fics default to the "im insecure bc im not hot :(" mentality since imo being chubby is like... way more than that. it just weirdly reinforces the idea that we should hate ourselves and our bodies for just existing.

like. vernon fic would have a chubby reader who deals with body insecurities but its more so "people are harassing me now bc of my body and its making me self conscious after i finally thought i grew past hating myself" than just the generic "i think i am ugly :(" feelings if that makes sense? also theres a reason for that harassment (this fic was Also once a smau like lhc was). like i said, kind of a heavier fic compared to lhc.

anyway ill stop rambling but to answer ur question for good: im interested! nothings really on the table outside of vernon + dino fics, but im def interested >:3

#wooahaes.ask #asks.anon

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hello again i am that Korean anon who sent the ask about fetishization (oh boy do I have a loooot of god awful stories about that) - I get super excited whenever I find other fellow Korean people :D it's like a diaspora thing, i also grew up in the states but my upbringing was very odd (i guess?? my family is a bunch of atheists & don't care about education so the way they raised me was the opposite of that "tiger parenting" stereotype - i have lots of stories about that too djflskjfl)

T___T Krn anon back again, I don't have a tumblr so i don't think off-anon msg is a feature that's available for me? idk how u would feel about this but i have a google voice # but if that makes you uncomfy please don't feel pressured to say yes - I'm also a Korean living in the states (no offense to my fellow Krns i love u all but i hate the way that american is hyphenated & added to it), I'm in a state where there's lots of Koreans & Asians in general!

aa hi!! same omg, especially when someone recognizes a kr handle i use it makes me so happy <333 especially because so often people don't recognize it lol. i'm so sorry though that you've experienced this shit, it's legit so frustrating and imo one of the worst parts is that literally nobody besides other asians seems to get it and even then i know there's a bit of a rift btwn east asians and other asians bc east asians get disproportionate attention etc etc. so in the end it often feels like nobody is really rooting for korea genuinely but other koreans which sucks. like i know ~stopasianhate~ was a thing but a lot of people genuinely seem to think that anti-asian racism is like, racism-lite or something. even though anti-asian (and anti-korean) racism does take lives and hurt people regularly. reeee.

honestly really jealous that your parents were so cool ;_; i have a single mom but she was raised very religious (her mom was a pastor lol...rip) so it kind of trickled down. she's also a very stereotypical "doctor/lawyer or bust" type which has been a constant battle between us ;; though i imagine you still went through a lot even w/o the tiger parenting stereotype hhhh like there's still generational trauma so rip.........

re google voice - i understand !!! i'm a bit scared to put a google voice number publicly (idk if it can be backtraced to my rl phone # or what?? also i feel like dumb trolls will spam it ugh) but if you're able to make a burner tumblr and just drop it im totally happy to send it to you privately that way! i know that's a bit of an ask though @@;; also yeah kr american is so clunky and i just self id as korean as well since like. idk. i know ppl who are latino or whatever and just id as latino, not latino american (tho the inverse def exists!! and i get why some ppl would want to specify but god lol it is a PITA to type/say)? and i've seen koream as a shortening but it looks like a typo tbqh. that's awesome though!! i live in a state with a lot of koreans and a big kr community so i'm thankful but i just live in the mostly entirely white burbz bc money. rest in pieces. genuinely dunno how asian americans handle living in areas that are isolated bc it makes me feel just...grounded to be able to go to areas where ppl look like me and have the same shared cultural background. like i love other cultures too ofc but it's just,, home. it's comfy. so i'm glad you're in an area where there's a big asian/kr population <3

#mine #sorry this is so long again aaaaaagshgd