#i could go on about this for ages I don’t even think I articulated my thoughts enough on this | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

sophies-junkyard · 8 months

Text

NOBODY ASKED but… Obviously Simon’s arc in adventure time solidified the series as one of greatest of all time (and I’m so hyped for this ice king sadness renaissance) but now I’m thinking of OTHER Adventure Time moments that rewired my brain as a kid. In no particular order:

1. “Once the strong guys got it how they liked it they said ‘this is fair now. This is the law.’ Once they were winning they changed the rules”. They really had the cartoon dog say that on tv in 2014.

2. “People get built different. We don’t have to understand it, we just gotta respect it”

3. The entirety of All The Little People. That shit was absolutely nuts for a kids show but also like…. I can’t articulate the lesson I just know there was one and it haunted me. The danger of the human ego. Hubris. Irreverence. Don’t play god bro.

4. Lady and Peebles. When PB ripped Ricardio’s leg off and bashed his skull in with it. And it was so hardcore they edited it out of the episode. Bro. I remember watching that after school one day and how my jaw just DROPPED at a PRINCESS being so brutal. They let her be so fucking angry and that was a game changer.

5. [Finn, about a horrific memory] “that one’s going in the vault. Aaaaaaaaaandd. It’s gone.” I quote that CONSTANTLY. It’s a great way to bring levity to a bad situation, but also forces me to go “hey wait a sec that’s not gonna work forever”. Things don’t stay in the vault.

6. Puhoy. He lived an entire life in that pillow world. He had kids. And then it’s just gone like a dream.

7. The deer. It was probably my first real introduction to horror. The hand wiggle. You all know exactly what I’m referencing. Were the candy people stuck in that well for 6 months???

8. What Was Missing!! Obviously now because it foreshadowed (and confirmed past) Bubbline, but back then just because it was so good??? IMO, this is the episode that defined WHO our main cast was, and how their relationships needed to grow for them to be content. It set up the next 6 years of the show! Plus it gave us 2 absolute BANGERS. Ugh i rewatched that recording so many times it wasn’t even funny.

9. Ghost Princess. Really just for the line where he sounds like he’s gonna shit his pants remembering his death and then in a clear narrator voice he’s like “I was a broken man.”

10. The pajama war episode. Now I’m doing this from memory so I could be wrong, but I think this really marks the start of Finn growing up. “I’ve really enjoyed just… hanging out with you.” The ability to start over with someone you’ve got complicated history with. The kindness. The growth from both of them!! It’s a direct parallel of episode 1 but their tones couldn’t be more different and I love it.

11. The slow and horrifying realization that The Mushroom War was nuclear Armageddon. Mushroom clouds. That went so far over my head as a kid even though they reference it constantly. It finally clicked during “I remember you”. Which I am NOT gonna go into because holy fuck that’s like 18 posts on its own.

12. Goliad! A child mirroring EVERYTHING they see, for better or worse. Seeing Jake in a bad moment screaming at the kids and goliad absorbing that behavior. Seeing she can use fear to control people. Also PB was Fucking Crazy! Her line “I’m not gonna live forever… I would if I could” is even more unhinged when we learn (like years later) that she’s already 900 years old. But she does physically age so I guess there’s that. The Suitor also falls into this category of episodes.

Ok getting into some of the more talked about moments

1. OK I LIED I have to talk about I remember you. I was 11 years old. I turned on the new adventure time episode like usual. 10 minutes later I was grappling with a grief I had never imagined before. Absolutely BAWLING not just for Simon and Marceline (the PLOT), but for what it showed me. The reality that every kid tries not to think about: your loved ones will leave you someday, even if they don’t want to. It’s an episode that becomes more powerful with every year I get older. To get a bit personal, dementia has completely taken my grandparents from me. I’ve seen sides of my grandfather that should never have existed, and I must constantly forgive him for what he does… now that he doesn’t remember me. And someday it’ll be my parents. That’s just the way of the world, ya know? Anyways, I remember my mom got home right as the credits were rolling and we had a long talk about keeping people alive with memory, mortality, and how the future was far away and we should decide on dinner lmao.

2. The Hall of Egress. I was almost 15. Life was changing. I was changing, and it was strange and frightening. That feeling where you know you’re losing your childhood but you just want to cling to it. Follow the same old familiar path, stick with what’s comfortable. But life doesn’t work that way. It took me years to really understand this episode and it’s symbolism. Honestly I still don’t think I could fully explain it. It’s like. How do I put this. I was so glad to be in the target age group in that moment. I was so glad that something I was growing up with was assuring me “you’re changing, but we’re changing too”. And isn’t that the theme of adventure time? Everything stays, but it still changes.

3. The absolute horror of Ferns existence. He’s Finn, but he’s wrong and warped. All those memories of the people he loves and they can’t stand to be in the same room as him.

4. Susan Strong. The introduction of a RUNNING PLOT. The show up to that point had really been so goofy and so monster of the week. I think the only really plot heavy episode before this one was It Came From the Nightosphere? And then suddenly they call into question the fact that Finn really is the ONLY HUMAN in all of OOO. And then… is he? It was SUCH a departure from the usual tone. Ending that episode with him reaching below her hat and gasping in shock, but never telling the audience what he found. And then she’s just gone. Which leads us to Islands!

5. Min and Marty. Second saddest episode in the entirety of adventure time, made worse because you know exactly how this family is gonna end up. There’s SO MUCH to dissect about Martins behavior in the series. A reformed con artist receives a traumatic brain injury while attempting to save his son. They’re both lost at sea, and he never looks for him. Was it the emotional trauma? Was it the physical damage? Meanwhile a mother loses her husband and her child in a single night and never EVER learns why. Nobody but Martin knows what happened that night. Also Finns fear of the ocean from season 1 is finally explained. 7 years of ignoring Finns origins and then they throw you THIS??? Watching it live was unreal.

Anyways I’m sure I’ll think of more. I might add on to this later for my own sake lmao, but I’d love to hear other peoples formative moments, quotes, episodes, etc. I really just needed to dump this information out of my brain so I can get on with my week.

#If you see this you’re obligated to comment an adventure time moment that lives rent free in your head #or don’t it’s your life babe #I have nobody in my life who has watched adventure time and therefore I must ramble here to myself #adventure time #princess bubblegum #marceline #ice king #finn the human #fern #Fionna and cake #this is my life #bubbline

283 notes · View notes

1ovede1uxe · 30 days

Note

Hi, I see that you did a hug headcannons with hol horse, could you do hug headcannons with jotaro? Please?

(Sorry for my english, I am brazillian)

hi! Your English is good! I wasn’t sure which part to do, so I’ll give you all three <3

hugs with jotaro! (all parts)

3taro // stardust crusaders

- very reluctant with his hugs

- it will take ages for him to crack and give you a hug, but when he does he does not let go, you have his full trust

- if it’s a difficult moment for either of you, neither of you are letting go

- if it’s a spur of the moment just casual hug, it’s quick and light

- won’t hug you in front of anyone, not a huge fan of PDA

4taro // diamond is unbreakable

- if you’re not close, still don’t expect a hug

- if you ARE close, quick light hugs, regardless of who’s around

- tighter hugs and longer embraces when it’s just the two of you :)

- especially after any period of separation and/or danger

- if it’s a long hug he’ll play with your hair or rub your back

- he’s so happy you’re here and with him still, but he definitely won’t verbally articulate that, so a hug is a good way to go about it

- not technically a hug headcanon but if y’all are cuddling he’ll hold you close and not let go, even in sleep

- I personally think that 4taro is a softie in private if you couldn’t tell

6taro - Stone Ocean

- if the situation calls for a hug, it calls for a hug!

- less reluctant to just be in the moment and keep you close

- a bit more of a softie as time has passed, though he won’t admit it

- tight hugs if it’s been a while or if he’s just glad to see you in general

4taro is my fav, if you couldn’t tell ^_^

masterlist <3

#jjba #jojo no kimyō na bōken #jotaro kujo x reader #jotaro x reader #jojos bizarre adventure #jotaro kujo #jjba headcanons #stardust crusaders #diamond is unbreakable #stone ocean

100 notes · View notes

moonchildstyles · 6 days

Note

would you ever write something about petal being on her period and h is worried because he hasn’t really been around anyone closely enough in ages where they had to deal with it, and he’s fussing over her which she loves obviously, and he makes her a tea that his mum used to make for her and his sister way back when even though it has an ingredient that they don’t even sell in a store anymore but he finds it, and maybe she’s just taking some pain killers and letting him do his thing but ultimately has to remind him that she’s okay and she’s hurting but it’s nothing he needs to fuss about but he HAS to, so she lets him hold her and ofc he’s not very warm so she does have a heating back but he keeps his hand pressed into it on her stomach and he actually keeps her from overheating with it and he has to kiss over her stomach when he sees it’s a little red from the heat and he makes sure she drinks her tea which is actually delicious and he knows from her reaction that he’ll be making it every month for her now even if he has to go to a foreign country for the main ingredient, and you’re a better writer than me and could articulate this better but I think it could be so so cute and sweet! obviously, it could include some smut because he’s my vampy boy but I think the fluff could just work so well with them :( I love them

ive been MEANING to do a period thing for vamp h just bc you know he'd be so soft so ill def hang onto this and hopefully when I get a chance to put it all together ill take a look at this and add what I can!!! love the tea its so cute that he would remember something like that :(

#anon #ask #chiaroscuro inspo #concept #ref

41 notes · View notes

suleikashideaway · 3 months

Text

All this love for ff8 flying around tumblr right now has got me thinking.

So many people were so moved by this game that twenty-five years later we’re all banging our fists on the table and crying about it? It leaves me stunned. For so long I thought I was the only one.

[Huge text post under the cut. As I wrote this I realized just how much soul-baring I was doing. This was emotional to write and just as emotional to share. Thank you to those of you who bravely paved the way with your personal stories so that I would feel strong enough to do the same. Sorry this got stupid-long lol]

My own journey with ff8, as it turns out, is very much tied to my journey in discovering writing. It overwhelms me to think of how my life is so much better thanks to both things. And how my life was potentially saved by both things.

Back in the early aughts I was not privileged enough to have any gaming consoles. My best friend, though, had just gotten a PS1 and the very first game she had was ff8. I would go over to her house every single Sunday afternoon and sit, transfixed, as she played through it. I had never seen anything like it before. We would read the dialogue boxes out loud (I was always Selphie, Zell, and Rinoa, she was always Squall, Irvine, and Quistis) and she was kind enough to save the important cut scenes on separate memory slots so I could see whatever she had played throughout the week.

I remember adoring the cutesyness of Squall and Rinoa’s dynamic and crying when I saw the ending. But there was something more to it. I felt such an intense desire to have the game for myself, to play it alone and absorb everything in it. We finally got a little money and got a PS1, but my mom would only get games that the whole family could enjoy, so it was Crash and Spyro for a long time until I finally, finally got ff8 for myself.

The intensity of Squall and Rinoa’s drama and romance was so important to my passionate little teenaged heart. He jumped out into space to save her!! And she brought him back from time compression with just her love!!! It was the story that set the bar for romantic love.

And Squall…damn, I remember sitting, unblinking, at the scene when he’s curled up in bed…At age sixteen, seventeen, watching Squall voice these things was big:

“I’m fine all by myself now. I have all the skills I need to survive. I’m not a child anymore. That’s a lie. I don’t know anything. I’m confused.”

At the time, I didn’t know why I was so spellbound by that scene, and many of the other scenes of Squall’s inner monologues, but it makes so much sense now. I was a child made to believe I had to be fully competent and capable from way too young an age, parentified and emotionally stunted, and I was about to be kicked out into the world when I didn’t know a single fucking thing about it.

But my love for ff8 was very private. I read some fanfic to extend that feeling of being in Squall and Rinoa’s world, but other than that, I never outwardly expressed how much this game stuck with me. I was definitely an awkward, shy kid, and luckily I found a group of weirdos in high school who had no fear in sharing their love for things like video games and anime and what-have-you. But still! Even with that! I barely engaged with the few friends who had a love for ff8. It was all very intimate for me. It was my private world. And part of me was scared of taking it too far, even amongst the nerds who took everything too far. I didn’t want to stand out in that way. I had the overwhelming urge to appear normal, and sane. And anyway I didn’t know how to articulate it.

There is a scene from my college years that is so burned in my memory and I think highlights this. I was in a very small major and so I had all the same classes with the same small group of people. In these classes was a very cool girl who I admired. One day someone brought up video games and I remember feeling paralyzed, like, “I can’t bring up my weirdly intense passion for this game! Everyone will think I’m so strange!” so I lied and said I had never played a single video game in my life. And in comes Cool Girl and starts going on and on about how much she loved final fantasy 8 and I could not fathom it. I stayed silent. I was not cool enough to go back on my lie and admit that I was just as into that game, if not more into it, and that I still thought about it regularly.

I kept my love of the game to myself, and played it once or twice when I went home on college breaks. It was enough. I was busy, and burnt out, and turns out, severely depressed on top of it all.

That first major depressive episode lasted years. I managed to get out of it on my own through a variety of life experiences and found myself in my mid-twenties, looking for love. And what was more, I knew I had to find my Squall. I had to find someone who would constantly be willing to save me from my own flightiness, from my overly-passionate heart that didn’t think things through and constantly caused my own messes, and tell me (with brutal honesty) when to knock my shit off.

And I found him!

What I didn’t know is that I was really Rinoa all along. And Rinoa, my friends, cinnamon roll that she is, has a lot of shit to work out, too.

It was helpful as I started spiraling into depression again: what if Rinoa and Squall were together and happy, but Rinoa had a major emotional breakdown in her late twenties? I imagined it obsessively. Thinking of their future was the only way I could fall asleep at night. (lol, any of this sound familiar, @angelosearch? <3)

Their story took such a hold on me. I could feel it wanting to scream itself out of my fingertips to the point that I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I started secretly typing it up, and every time I sat at the keys, I felt better.

And I stopped disassociating. I started sleeping better. I stopped hiding in the bathroom to cry at all hours of the day. I stopped thinking that I didn’t deserve to be here. I stopped therapy.

I felt like I had been given a second chance at life.

About a year ago, I was finally ready to consider posting my ff8 fanfic to share with the world. I had been writing it for over a year, and brewing it in my head for (get this) about eight years before that.

I could tell, though, that I was not a Good Writer. So I put on my bravest face and went searching for a beta. I immediately found one, my amazing @failed221b-chill, who I’ve gushed about before. And my world blossomed. I discovered the true joy that writing brings me, and even just writing this essay is way better than any therapy session I’ve ever had.

I’m finally coming into my own. I’m finally realizing I had no reason to hide my passionate self. I have to share my inner world - it’s what makes me who I am, and only in that way can I truly connect with those around me. In fact, I literally went and bought an ff8 tank top and wore it in public yesterday and felt like a fucking superhero for doing so.

So. All that said. I’m so incredibly grateful to be here in this moment, sharing all this love for a game that clearly has affected so many lives for the better. Happy anniversary, Final Fantasy VIII! And to anyone who read this far, I love you.

#ff8 #squall #rinoa #writing #ffviii anniversary #personal essay #my writing

23 notes · View notes

alittlefrenchtree · 4 months

Text

@ "I know well Internet is shit" Anon : I’m late to answer not because I was ignoring you but I couldn’t do it sooner. Sorry about that 🙏

I’m not posting your ask not because there is something wrong with it but because I will always do what I can to prevent putting any sort of spotlight on things that shouldn’t be highlighted. For the sake of the understanding of this all conversation, Anon is pointing out the many ways Taylor has been a target of Internet people (mostly for stupid reasons) and why he seems to be more of a target than others. They’ve mentioned racism being the only reason they can think of, that and people being blatantly mean on the Internet.

[My answer turned out to be some kind of thoughts dump that are more or less articulated and sometimes barely even legitimate points. So read them as what they are: just thoughts]

I globally agree with you. Many people on the Internet are not much different than uneducated bullies in school. They’re going to pick up someone to bully over a stupid reason and that’s it. And I mean it could be anything. Being a poc is one of them but we’ve seen people being targeted for being too old to interact with their fave (as many young people seems to see as some sort of crime if there is more than a 18 months age gap between two people saying hello to each other), too tall, too short, too rich, too poor or because they’ve once been seen in the same room as someone they don’t like. It’s all so very stupid. The reason why bullies are bullying never comes from the victim. They bully to feel better about themselves, because they’re frustrated and sad.

That being said, of course there is racism in this that shouldn’t be dismissed in any case. The constant talk about the shade of his skin, whatever it comes from director, casting people or people of the Internet is revolting in itself. People targeting because he’s not white enough or not brown enough or whatever other non sense you can read and here is disgusting.

Is it the main reason why he’s a target? I don’t know. Probably. Is it the only reason? I’m not sure but I have theories.

Like said, being a public person automatically makes you a target.

In the case of Taylor, I have several ideas. And to be clear, none of the reasons I’ll list is me saying this is his fault or that he should act differently. Again, being the target of bullying is always the bullies’ fault and they should be changing their behaviors.

-Him being very present on social media is making him an easier target. Even if some of his posts could be very much handled by someone else, I believe many things are coming from him directly and it shows. There is a reason why public people stop using their accounts all together or give their accounts to be handled by someone else as a job. It’s almost impossible to do it yourself without threatening your mental health. It’s not natural for a human being (and brain) to be on the receiving end of that much attention, scrutiny and hundreds of thousands of people in general. It’s like mentally living in a zoo, without much breaks to breath. And look at what living in a zoo does to animals.

So Taylor still being here (and him still trying speaks volume about the person he is) doesn’t help. People tend to think they’re close-ish to him or can be close or can get to him or be seen or whatever and they thing they have some kind of rights over him. That they can held him accountable for everything and anything they want.

The thing is, when a public person completely disappear from social media, there can be another effect: "since they’re not going to read it, I can say the most atrocious things on their @ or DM, it doesn’t matter since no one is reading them". Which is kind of bullshit because when you said things on a public platform, even deep in the dark sides of the Internet, you never know who is reading and who you’re hurting. But it can work for the public person concerned, because all you have to do is never look at your public accounts and all of that disappear since these very brave (no) people only exist on the Internet.

-Him being kind and giving and generous could be a reason. It’s all theoretical obviously but someone who is nothing but nice can make people a bit itchy? Since people love to criticize they would try to find a reason to do it, even if there is none?

-Him having an active fandom ready to defend him each time probably doesn’t help. People usually express themselves on social media to get attention, and it’s known that, very often, the meaner you are, the more terrible the things you say are, the more attention you get?

-Even if beauty privilege is a thing on certain situations, him being so goddamn beautiful and coming from a fashion background probably doesn’t help him at the start of his acting career. It’s hard to be taken seriously as an actor in general, but when your background could somehow (rightfully or not) imply that you got to the acting industry thanks to something else than you acting talent (by being too pretty for you own good, for example), people can be quick to react a certain way.

-…which is related to (hopefully) my last point. I’m not sure how to say that without sounding disrespectful because this is very much not my intention but… For now, his career is too light (and, like a previous ask was saying "romcom oriented" for now) for some people to take him seriously as an actor? Again, this isn’t my saying or saying anything about him or his amount talent but saying everything about people who are making him a target because of that.

You’ve rightfully mentioned many other things. The comparaison with Nick was inevitable, sadly. It happens all the time when a duo is making something big, people are going to take a side and compare because people love that unhealthy habit of comparaison.

You’ve also mentioned that stupid twitter people who woke up the other day and decided to wrongly use the queerbaiting debate ONCE AGAIN and throwing Nick’s name in the mix. It’s a all other subject that would deserve a whole post but that kind of fake and performative activism makes me so angry because it actually makes so much wrong (for everyone and for queer actors and actresses). Hiring openly queer people is a legitimate and important fight that should be fought but god some people are doing it all wrong.

So yeah. All of this rambling to say: Yes, it’s probably racism sometimes. And yes, it’s probably other stupid reasons as well some other times.

Again for those who will be quick to misread my words and jump on the wrong conclusion.

The reason why bullies are bullying never comes from the victim. They bully to feel better about themselves, because they’re frustrated and sad. None of the reasons I’ve listed is me saying this is his fault or that he should act differently.

I’d say sorry for the rant but you’ve started so I’m just going to shake your hand I guess? 🤝 You said it makes you sad and I’m so sorry for this. Whenever you feel like it’s taking you down a bit, go write something nice to Taylor on instagram or threads or whatever. Don’t mention the bad, don’t say sorry for something you’re not responsible for, just tell him how much his previous work mean to you. How excited you are for his next projects. Show support and love, it’s all that matter in the end 💜

#alft asks #taylor zakhar perez #tzp

22 notes · View notes

doll-elvis · 6 months

Note

I AGREE SO MUCH ABOUT CHILD BRIDE. i went into it knowing nothing about the author, and in the forward shes really emphasizing how crazily obsessed she was with priscilla so i guess i was expecting it to be a sympathetic view of her😭 definitely not. what is suzzanes problem dear lord. shes so convinced and desperate to tell you that priscilla was some evil teenaged succubus out for rockstar blood. jesus christ. like girl even if she actually was who gives a shit????? same goes for currie grant. i dont care if he showed the author concrete evidence on a golden platter that he was telling the truth. hes just such an obvious sleazeball. just disgusting……. and she dedicates like 300 chapters to him saying over and over again that he fucked 14yo priscilla and that she was into it. babe they couldve had a steamy decade-long affair and NOBODY would care because he is literally just some random creep ass loser 13 years older than her. and when it comes to his attempted rape of her hes literally like “no i didnt try to rape her i just [decribes attempting to rape her]”. i really dont know suzzanes backstory but she is insane.

but uh. anyways that aside i did enjoy parts of the book for the more in depth view of the story. like suzzanne has such intense bias that really shows throughout but even with that it was still a great way to understand some of the situations a little better… i wish elvis and me was a little more detailed but i can appreciate how and why it is. and i am strangely curious about the actual nature of priscilla and curries relationship (i dont think they ever had consensual sex but i do believe he attacked her before elvis left germany and that leaves me curious as to why she still hung around him afterwards... i.e. those pictures of her to send to elvis that he took)

sorry for the huge wall of text im just.... very .. intrigued? by the book? its just so bizarre and raises a lot of questions lol.

“Currie’s like “No I didn’t try to r*pe her I just [describes atttempting to r*pe her]”

YES THANK YOU!!

if I could, in my own words, summarize the transcript of the conversation between Priscilla & Currie it would be this ⬇️

Currie: I didn’t r*pe you

Priscilla: You forced yourself on me

Currie: I didn’t force anything, you just weren’t into it

Priscilla: So you didn’t try to kiss me?

Currie: Well yeah I was trying to kiss you, you just wouldn’t kiss me back. You were very cold

again that was just my own words so not the actual transcript but that is exactly what I got out of that conversation- which is Currie denying he forced anything on her while simultaneously describing just how unresponsive she was to his advances, so THANK YOU for articulating that perfectly

He is an absolute sleaze-ball as you said, and clearly did not realize he was incriminating himself throughout that whole exchange

like even if Currie’s version of the events were true (I highly doubt it), he still committed statutory r*pe. Perhaps Suzanne and him don’t understand the age of consent but a fourteen year old girl cannot consent to intercourse, so anything he may or may not have actually done to her is still R*PE, whether she seemed willing or not. I’m completely abhorred that a biographer would give a man like that such a large platform and not only that, but agree/go with the story he tells- I’m sickened by it

and god, his reasoning as to why he wouldn’t need to r*pe Priscilla is just the most insane thing I’ve ever read ⬇️

“I had at least ten girls that I could call any night and go have sex with them,” countered Currie. “I’m not bragging—at least ten. I didn’t need to rape anybody ”

excerpt is from “Child Bride” by Suzanne Finstad

okay like?? Ted Bundy had a longtime girlfriend and yet he still went out and s*xually assaulted and murdered women… what’s your point, Currie?

what also bothers me is that Suzanne Finstad is sitting on the full audio tapes of that conversation between Priscilla and Currie, and knowing her history of misquoting people and writing things that don’t line up with other testimonies, I wouldn’t be surprised in the very least if parts of that tape have been conveniently left out, or transcribed wrong, as she converted it from audio to text

like the whole 1961 photoshoot, as you mentioned, is something that I just wish I could hear Priscilla explain for herself

Priscilla Presley and Currie Grant in 1961

It does raise the question if what she said transpired was true why would she ever want to be alone with Currie again, and better yet, why would Elvis willingly put her in a situation like that?

Especially when he was aware of the attempted r*pe ⬇️

MARTY LACKER: “There was a guy who used to bring Priscilla around to Elvis’s house some, over there in Germany. He would take her home to her parents’ place, and then he’d go back to the barracks. Well, he was a scumbag. He was using cute little girls to get into the house, to be around Elvis. And he tried to put the make on Priscilla one night when he took her home. She says in her book that he tried to rape her. But he didn’t succeed. Elvis told us about it, himself”

excerpt is from “Elvis and the Memphis Mafia” by Alanna Nash

The only explanation in my mind that makes sense is that perhaps Currie Grant was Elvis’ only remaining contact in Germany- or at least the only person in contact with Priscilla- and since he was so desperate to see her again, maybe thought that the reward outweighed the risk

And obviously a 15-year-old Priscilla was still reeling over him leaving Germany and would likely agree to anything to please him…plus since it was Elvis who asked Currie to take the photos, maybe she thought if Elvis trusted him to do that, she could trust him as well ?

And although I doubt she intended too, Suzanne inadvertently said something similar when trying to do one of those logical fallacies that she does throughout the duration of “Child Bride” ⬇️

“Priscilla, despite her claim that Currie tried to rape her, was thrilled to oblige, “desperate” for word from Elvis, through Currie”

excerpt is from “Child Bride” by Suzanne Finstad

I feel like Suzanne is basically answering the dilemma herself despite her attempt to point out the inconsistency in Priscilla’s behavior (her being afraid of Currie, but also being around him)

Priscilla was willing to be photographed by her attempted assaulter as she was desperate for contact from Elvis and Currie just happened to be that link between them

and I have to say, my original response to the ask that I received about “Child Bride” was something that I was worried about posting as many of the more passionate anti-Priscilla crowd tend to treat it like it’s their Bible but WHEW- I am beyond relieved that so many people have also seen just how outrageous that book is, especially the narrative that Suzanne Finstad goes with- like as you said, trying to make a fourteen-year-old Priscilla out to be some “teenaged succubus” LMAOOO (that took me out 💀)

I honestly consider myself to be Priscilla-neutral despite what some people assume of me based on some my posts 🤧 and so because of that, I am very open to reading and discussing the valid criticisms against her HOWEVER- I have no time in my day to take someone like Currie Grant seriously so that is why the first half of “Child Bride” (chapters about Germany and what fourteen-year-old Priscilla may or may not have done) are just what ruin the whole book for me

And it’s a shame because again, there are some very valid things that Suzanne points out about Priscilla, especially the things that were left out of “Elvis and me”; like her inconsistencies in recalling certain events, her sometimes questionable character (treatment of others), her possible greed (suing and more suing) and the biggest one to me- her involvement in Scientology… but all of that is just dampered by Suzanne’s god awful commentary and god awful judgement

also girl please do not apologize for sending this in- I sincerely thank you for adding to the conversation about this book as I think these kinds of discussions are so beneficial and I’m just truly grateful to be able to have them with y’all- I’ve fr learned so much from your guys’ insight

and since there is such a surplus of information about Elvis (and Priscilla), I feel like the best way to navigate through it all is by breaking it down like this, and so if y’all ever want to talk about another book feel free to send in your thoughts <3!!!

#suzanne is twisted #and currie belongs underneath the prison #elvis presley #elvisaaronpresley #elvis #elvis history #elvis fans #elvis books #elvis fandom #elvis asks #suzanne finstad #priscilla presley #currie grant

21 notes · View notes

jinxhallows · 7 months

Note

I searched it but couldn't find anything about it, but why are you only including 5 member for kinktober?

ayee thanks for stopping by to ask! nobody has ever asked so I never explained 😂 so I got into writing in this fandom like about a year and a half ago and had no idea what I was doing and kinda just spat some shit out (that I now absolutely hate lmfao 100 follower special, anyone? That fluff was garbage IMO)

I don’t write Felix often/at all because I can’t quite understand his personality enough to feel I can articulate him authentically in writing yet. Also he’s kind of juvenile in a way that reminds me of a younger sibling, making it tough to slut him out. I’m always so impressed by smut Felix writers. They capture him well! I know something freaky is lying under that golden exterior. But I’m working on it! I write about him in my other two full length fics but unfortunately, I don’t think my portrayal of him is very accurate at all. But I keep going because well, it’s already started lol.

I don’t write Seungmin yet because I’m still learning about him and his likes/dislikes and mannerisms and personality. He’s the one I know the least about. All I know is that folx call him a puppy. I don’t think I’ve heard him speak as much as I have in the recent chuseok specials. I know he’s a little terror though, lol, unsure of the origins of it though.

I don’t write IN for the same reasons as above, but lately, he’s been portrayed in a way that’s making me consider roping him in the future into something fun. Someone who met him in person said he seemed the most masculine and adult out of all the members! Surprise surprise! The baby bread shit was off putting. I was like, I’m not slutting out someone with the nickname “baby bread”; but my mind is changing, and fast lol.

Why do I write the fellas I write? Aka my “starting team”?

I’m most comfortable writing Chan, he’s closest to me in age and I watch him enough to know his mannerisms and personality. Down to little things like his obsession with space, the way he laughs through his teeth, and his lopsided smile when he’s being a dork. Chan doesn’t like coffee, so in one of my imagines, I made it a point to state the reader was making coffee for herself. If I read someone who has Chan drinking coffee I’d assume they either took creative liberty or have no idea that this man does not fuck with coffee lol. Fun fact: add “yeah?” To the end of a question/statement and it immediately rings Chan’s voice in your mind, doesn’t it? “Guess you’ve got a lot to think about then, yeah?” “How about we head on out to the bar, yeah?”Those details really can make/break someone’s immersion!

Next comes Hyunjin. Hyunjin was difficult for me to write at first, his personality is so multi faceted and not much like his stage persona at all, which is quite powerful! But the algorithm started forcing him onto me in candid situations and I began to understand his nuances too. I grasped an understanding of his micro expressions and mannerisms enough to feel confident writing him.

Third is Lino! I swore against writing Lino because he was such a mystery to me! I later found a video of him being weird and his quirky personality and deadpan affect when saying certain things. He reminds me of some of my closest friends. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t give Lino enough depth! I’m an experienced Scorpio wrangler, and I know he’s got some intense depths to that ocean that can be portrayed so much better. Working on it!

Fourth favorite is Jisung. I use Jisung for light hearted things and comic relief. I almost never write angst Jisung. I probably could, and probably will one day! But for now, I’ve only candidly seen him happy and funny, it’s sometimes hard to even write him in smut because I can’t see him taking much of anything seriously. I know he has bad anxiety and other various mental health concerns, so he’s not all rainbows and butterflies but he doesn’t seem to let folx in on that side of him often, if at all, so it’s difficult to imagine for me right now, so for him, I keep it light.

Fifth newest favorite is Changbin. Changbin is still a little confusing to me but I can at least pinpoint his manner of speech, he can be quite aggressive quite suddenly, in a playful manner. I’m still not too great on describing his mannerisms in literature, but I’ve grown comfortable enough to experiment with him for Kinktober.

So you see, my cool beautiful anon, it’s just a matter of time until I work my way down to the rest of the members :) at first, I swore I’d only write Chan, and then it exploded into five. I’m certain by next year’s kinktober, all eight members will be rightfully represented :)

#jinx replies #asks #irl post #jinxhallows kinktober

26 notes · View notes

moltengoldveins · 6 months

Text

so it’s been about a year and a half since Technoblade’s passing. I’m not ready to talk about it, but let’s be real. I’m never going to be. We have what we have when we have it, then it’s gone. I didn’t talk enough about him while he was here, so I’m doing it now.

I was really active in the MCYT fandom when I was younger, ages six to twelve or so. Then again for about three years before Techno’s passing, joining early 2019 as far as I remember. Techno was the first online figure I’d encountered with even a passing resemblance to my own sense of humor and philosophy on life. I respected him a lot, and grew to love the community because of the environment he cultivated. He was also a big figure in my journey towards realizing I was ace. I’m not about to speculate on him or his tastes, but he didn’t base his humor around sex or romance. He never really brought it up. He avoided the topic when other people did, and he was Still Funny. He was still loved and valued by his fans and community. That was really big for me. That someone could ignore all that stuff and still be loved. That Will and Tommy and such never made him feel lesser for being uninterested.

His character kept me invested in the DSMP. His humor helped me through the worst parts of Covid. I’d already read The Art of War, but his love for it made me appreciate it and the rest of the classics so much more. The stories and art, the music and headcanons, all of it irrevocably altered the way I tell stories and the way I view the world. He helped me articulate a lot of my moral code, and concretely understand a lot of my beliefs. His relationship with Philza, both in character and out, also helped me. I had no idea friendships could be that intimate without being romance, and my friendship with my best friend is significantly closer now. My family has lost a lot to cancer. At the time of Techno’s announcement, I’d recently lost a grandfather to lung cancer, my other granddad had just barely fought it off, and my aunt had dealt with blood cancer as a kid, leaving her incapable of having kids. I’ll admit: I panicked. I hated cancer with a passion and I still do: I couldn’t fathom loosing another person to it, public figure or otherwise. I was never allowed to interact much with the internet while I was a minor. By the time I wasn’t one anymore, watching fandoms from the sidelines had already become habit. I never stepped in, never commented, never sent any messages in chat. I think I did it to maintain emotional distance. I was there for years, every stream, every video, cheering and screaming and chanting with the best of them, but entirely silent. I only really got close to breaking out of that weird sort of limbo once. It was some random stream, late in his illness, when a timer went off for his meds. He ignored it, cracked a joke, and even though I was at work I spent the next ten minutes thinking about it. “Just go take your meds, idiot.” I kept muttering to myself. I think I scared a coworker. I had the chat open and my fingers on my phone when he noticed the rest of chat yelling at him and took them, so I didn’t say anything. I never did. I regret that immensely now. I wasn’t any further removed emotionally because of my distance. I just felt like I’d never done anything of value when I could have.

I don��t think I really… processed it. When he died. I wasn’t in a very safe environment anyway, as my family had no idea I watched his content, much less cared so much, so I couldn’t emote much externally. What was I gonna say anyway? “Oh, some random guy on the internet died of cancer and won’t be making stuff anymore, darn, what a shame.”

So I didn’t process it. I went on as normal. I didn’t engage with any media made after his passing and I let the hurt fester. Everything was ✨fine✨… and then a few months later, I got a call while at college, “Grandad has cancer again. He’s probably not going to make it this time.”

Yeah. Yeah that. That hurt. A lot. That semester became a painful mess of travel and sickness and missed classes and hard conversations with a dying man I still love more than anything. I was kicked out of my apartment without warning the day I got the call about his death. When I got the chance to breathe, it finally hit me, and I just sort of broke down. And the person I was grieving? Techno. Not my grandpa. Not at first. It was like I’d blocked the pipe up, and the first stuff to come out was the stuff that’d gotten stuck first. i sat down and cried about it. I reread Passerine for the first time since he’d announced the cancer. I started writing again on things I hadn’t had the heart to touch. I found Grandpa’s old dog tags and I haven’t taken them off since. It was… ok. I guess. But I still wouldn’t watch his videos. I couldn’t watch any of the other DSMP creators, especially not Phil. To be frank, I was also dealing with a lot of doubt in my faith at the time. Techno was the first person I’d ever known who died without being a professing Christian. I still don’t know what’s happened to him, and at the time I didn’t know what to do with that. I couldn’t tolerate the idea that, according to everyone around me, someone so funny and noble and kind and strong willed would end up parted from God or lost or whatever you think the afterlife might be for people who don’t ‘get everything right.’ And most of the people in my church circle are painfully callous when it comes to people who aren’t ‘in the right,’ who don’t die ‘correctly.’ I still don’t really know what to do with that, except for the fact that I hate it, and I don’t think it’s Christlike. I don’t think I’m going to find peace on that for a long while. I might wait until I die and see what happens. So I figured it was done and over. I’d been sad, I’d come to terms with it, I’d moved on. But I wasn’t… really acknowledging how much it mattered? And I wasn’t reengaging with the fandom at all. I assumed I never would. But recently, I made a friend. We’ll call her Jamie for privacy’s sake. Jamie’s really similar to me, but she’d never really interacted with the DSMP fandom. She was asking for fic recs and before I even thought about it I’d recommended Passerine. Then Bones in the Ocean. She loved them, then started asking who Techno was, so I mentioned the Potato Wars videos, and before I’d had the chance to flinch I was watching them with her, laughing and rolling my eyes and trying my hardest not to cry in front of someone who hasn’t the slightest idea why I’d be so emotional. But I watched them. And that evening I put a Philza stream on. I’m not done mourning Techno, the stuff he stood for, and the community he built around him. But I’m done hiding it. I’m sharing the art and the half-finished fics and the stuff I still laugh at years later. I’m gonna find time somehow to join Phil’s streams, and actually talk to people instead of watching from a distance. I’m gonna talk about it with people. I’m gonna buy merch. Because I loved him, in that same weird friend-brother-online-stranger way he seemed to love us right back, and I still do. He’s still here, in a weird way, making us laugh and cry and fight every battle with flawless confidence and our heads held high. It’s not easy, but he’s not dead until we let him stop. He’s not gone until we all decide he doesn’t matter anymore. And we’re Chat for crying out loud, that’s never gonna happen. Technoblade never dies.

#technoblade #long post #introspection #??? I guess #Again #i hope y’all are doing ok #Grieving properly #And living well 💜

13 notes · View notes

peakyswritings · 2 years

Text

Naive

Modern!Michael Gray x fem!reader

Summary: You were nice and naive, and he didn’t need to be on his guard around you. Maybe that’s why he took you under his wing.

A/N: this is for @zablife ’s celebration! I was inspired by her headcanon. I usually don’t write modern AUs, but this was really interesting to write!

Warnings: smoking, drinking, implied drugging a drink (it doesn’t happen), some angst

The gif is not mine, credits to the owner

Standing next to the small table in a corner of the room, arms crossed over your chest, you cursed yourself for letting your friends convince you to go to that party - if it could even be called a party. Twenty people or so all gathered in a dorm, either drunk or high, or both. The music was so loud that you wanted to sit down and cover your ears.

It wouldn’t have been that bad, if only your friends hadn’t dumped you to go and make out with some guys. Maybe you’d be doing the same thing, if you were just a little bit more confident and much less serious.

Why couldn’t you just be like the other people?

You felt awkward, and incredibly out of place. You kept telling yourself to do something already, but you just didn’t know what to do. You didn’t know anyone, and no one seemed worth knowing.

“I’ve never seen you here.” A voice behind you spoke, making you turn around.

Your words caught in your throat as you found yourself in front of one of the most handsome guys you had ever seen. He was fresh-faced, but there was something behind his eyes that you couldn’t quite catch. You blinked, trying to articulate a complete sentence, but all your efforts seemed to be in vain.

“What?” You eventually spoke.

You could swear you had never felt more dumb. What. Out of all the things you could’ve said, what was all you were able to come up with.

He smirked at your reaction, but explained anyway. “I throw a party every weekend, but I’ve never seen you here.”

“I came here with my friends, they said they come here often.” You said quickly, as if to justify your presence. “But parties are not really my thing.”

“Yeah, I can see that.”

With the shadow of a smile on his face, he was clearly mocking you, but not in a mean way. The whole situation amused him and he found your embarrassment rather cute.

“I’m Michael, by the way.” He extended his hand.

“(Y/n).” You shyly shook it. He lingered with his hand in yours for some time, his eyes piercing through you.

As if awakened from a trance, he took a step back, looking around the room.

“So, where are your friends?”

“I don’t know.” You admitted. “They just disappeared.”

You let out a light chuckle, but it was just a way to pretend the situation didn’t bother you. Truth was, sometimes it felt like they only wanted you around so they could have someone responsible to look after them and make sure that they got home safe, while they had their fun. You pushed back the thought, not wanting to think badly of them.

“If you’re not having fun, why don’t you just go back to your dorm?” He asked out of curiosity, taking a cigarette out of his pocket.

“I promised I would wait for them.” You explained. “Our dorm is a bit far, and they’ll probably be too drunk to get there by themselves.”

“It shouldn’t be your problem, though.”

Silence fell between you as Michael lit his cigarette. He took a long drag, studying your expression. You didn’t reply, and the way you started fiddling with your fingers made him realise that maybe, deep down, you knew it as well.

It didn’t take long for Michael to recognise a feeling that he knew too well. A year before, he used to be just like you. Nice and helpful. Then he realised that being nice wouldn’t have taken him anywhere. If he wanted to be respected, he had to demand respect. If he wanted something, he had to take it, without giving anyone the chance to say something about it. Even if it meant to scare people, from time to time.

But for the first time in ages, he felt like he didn’t need to be on his guard. And maybe that was the reason why he offered to keep you company for the rest of the night.

After that night, you and Michael became friends. You soon learned that he could be cold and detached - especially with the other guys -, but that his grumpy demeanor was nothing more than a facade, a way of making sure that no one messed with him.

It was nice having him as a friend. You studied together from time to time, although he didn’t put much effort in it, and he listened to you as you rambled on about anything that came to your mind, whether it was university or a shitty movie you had watched on TV. You had even started to go to his parties more often.

However, he still had the same effect on you that he had that night at the party, and the more time you spent with him, the more you realised that he wasn’t just a friend to you. You tried your best to hold back your feelings, though, because there was no way you could have a chance with him. He was handsome and confident, he had lots of friends, and lots of beautiful girls eating out of his hand. Every weekend, at his parties, he took a different girl in his bedroom, just to kick her out as soon as the fun was over.

And there she was, his last girl, walking out of the bathroom with disheveled hair and smudged lipstick, on a Friday night like the others. You shook your head, turning your attention back to the guy you were talking to. His name was Josh and he was one of Michael’s friends, but he had never introduced you. He was cute and outgoing, and he had managed to make you talkative as well. But maybe it was also thanks to the drink in your hand.

You weren’t used to drinking, but you were trying to let yourself go, at least on weekends. And the drink that Josh had made for you tasted really good.

“How is it?” He asked you, pointing at the glass in your hand.

“It’s good!” You exclaimed, sounding more surprised than you intended to.

A chuckle escaped his lips at your reaction. “I usually work as a barman on summer break.” He explained. “I know how to make a good drink.”

You took another sip, enjoying the fruity taste on your tongue.

“So…” He changed the subject, flashing a smile and leaning a bit towards you. “What are you doing tomorrow night?”

Before you could answer, Michael appeared behind him and placed a hand on his shoulder. He was smiling, but it didn’t take long for you to notice that his smile didn’t reach his eyes. It was forced, fake, and he seemed more upset than happy.

“Michael!” Josh exclaimed. “You never told me your friend was so funny.” He said, not taking his eyes off you. “Seriously, she’s lovely.”

“Josh.” Michael warned him, suddenly serious, and took a step back.

“Come on, mate.” He replied, rolling his eyes.

You frowned, confused by their exchange. The air was tense and at that point you just hoped Josh would go away, to avoid any kind of confrontation. Something told you that it wouldn’t have been peaceable.

Micheal pointed a finger at him, raising his eyebrows. “Not her.”

He stared deep into his friend’s eyes, a silent warning not to argue about it any further. Josh nodded and before any of you could say another word, he left.

“Don’t be too friendly with him.” Michael said. “He’s a dick.”

“Do you always talk about your friends like this?”

“He’s not my friend.”

You watched as he took a beer from the table next to you and uncorked it, before taking a long sip. His brows were furrowed and he was gripping the bottle so tightly that his knuckles turned white.

The glass in your hand caught his attention, and in a matter of seconds he took it from your hand and placed it on the table with a thud, before doing the same with his bottle.

“I was drinking that.” You protested, raising your voice.

“Not anymore.”

Tired of his behaviour and not intending to put up with it any longer, you tried to take back the glass, but he grabbed your wrist before you could do it. He cupped your face in his hands, looking in your eyes as if he was looking for something.

“Are you drunk? Did he get you drunk?” He asked you. “You watched him as he made the drink, right?”

You blinked, taken aback by his apprehension.

“I’m not drunk, Michael.” You said, although you couldn’t deny you were a bit tipsy. “And yes, I watched him.”

He nodded, taking a step back as if he had burned himself. “I can’t fucking stand this music anymore.” He mumbled. “Let’s go somewhere quieter.”

You followed him in his bedroom, alarmed by the way Michael was acting. You had never seen him show so much emotion before, and it was concerning.

“What was that?” You asked him, closing the door behind you.

He sat on the small couch, avoiding your gaze. Realising attacking him wouldn’t take you anywhere, you sat next to him, trying to understand what was wrong in a nicer way.

“Michael,” you said softly. “What was that?”

“I’m sorry.” He whispered. “It’s just… I heard bad things about him. And I got worried.”

He still didn’t look at you as he explained himself. “You’re too nice, and naive. And I…” He sighed, shaking his head. “I worry about you all the time.”

Eventually, he turned towards you, and you could see it in his eyes that he was being completely honest. Your heart skipped a beat at his words, and you could swear that your knees would’ve abandoned you if you hadn’t been sitting.

“I can take care of myself, you know.” You said, but there was no bitterness in your words.

Michael smiled softly, lightly pinching your cheek. “I know.”

You sat there in silence for a long time, just enjoying each other’s presence as all of the tension disappeared.

“So you started drinking, eh?” He teased you after a while, unable to hold back a grin. “What are you going to do next? Smoke? Or are you going straight to snorting cocaine?”

You let out a laugh as you pushed him with your shoulder. “Shut up.”

For another five minutes or so, the only sound that could be heard in the room was the muffled music coming from the other room. Michael lit himself a cigarette and started smoking it in silence. Then a question you had wanted to ask Michael for a long time came to your mind, the doubt eating you alive even more now that you had seen how worried Josh seemed at the thought of getting on his bad side. The alcohol in your system finally gave you the courage to ask it.

“Is it true what they say about you…? About your family?”

There was it. Deep down, you already knew the answer. You just wanted to hear it from him.

Michael inhaled the smoke, taking his time to answer.“What do they say about my family?”

There was a strange light in his eyes as he asked you that question, and you could tell that he knew exactly what you were talking about.

“They say that you’re all gangsters.”

He pondered for a few seconds, taking another drag. “It’s true.” He eventually confirmed.

He studied your expression, looking for some sort of reaction. Truth was, you didn’t even know how to react. For weeks, you had thought about how you would act if you were to find out that he was indeed a gangster, but right now all you could think of was that he was still your Michael. He was still the guy you had met a little over two months ago. The guy you were in love with.

“Are you scared?”

“No.”

It was true. There was something exciting about that knowledge. That side of you scared you, but you couldn’t help feeling like that.

He smirked, putting out his cigarette. It was just like he could read your thoughts. He carefully moved closer to you, not taking his eyes off you. He grabbed your chin with his hand, not tightly enough to hurt you, but firmly enough to force you to look at him.

“Not even a bit?”

“No.”

Your throat was so dry that it was all you could say. Your heart was pounding in your chest, the smell of smoke mixed with his cologne filling your nostrils.

“Good.” He said in a low voice, running his thumb along your lower lip. As if he couldn’t restrain himself anymore, his lips crashed against yours.

You ran your hand through his hair, your head spinning in a mix of thrill and excitement. You melted into his embrace as he brought you closer to him, his other hand resting on the couch behind you for support.

When he moved away, you were both breathless. His hand moved to caress your cheek, and he lowered himself to whisper in your ear.

“Maybe you’re not that naive, after all.”

Tag list: @arwyn-the-cyrptic-bisexural @iamngoclinh08 @lilywinchesterlove @fandom-puff @capitanostella @caelys @lucillethings @peakyxtommy @queenofkings1212 @lyarr24

#peaky blinders imagine #peaky blinder imagine #peaky blinders fics #michael gray x reader #michael gray imagine

210 notes · View notes

jacksgreysays · 8 months

Note

Hey, guess who's got a pair of songs for you? I heard "Cant Stand the Rain" by The Rescues ages ago, and just recently heard "Rain" by grandson & Jessie Reyez. The moment song 2 hit my ears I was like, "These have to be smashed together, somehow." And since I once sent you that prompt for "Thunder and Lightning" and "Thunder", I thought of you. <3

!!!!! <3<3<3<3 Hello, loveelemental!

Okay, after checking out these songs and their lyrics, I just want to say that none of the following is a value judgement—I do like both of these songs that you’ve brought to me—but the POV/personalities of these songs are VERY… hm…

You’ve brought to me two songs that are in a dialogue with each other and, on the surface, could appear to be in opposition with each other. BUT, I do think they’re both rather… cynical in a sense, so they’re not truly opposite ends of a spectrum.

Because, okay, Can’t Stand the Rain is very cynical, post-relationship, everything is bad and I hate it and why should I do anything to change it? “My blackened heart,” “I’d empty [the pots and pans filling with rainwater] out but why?” even the repeating “Love, no such thing as love,” FEELS very “I just got broken up with and I’m going to wallow in my own sadness” not even necessarily “I miss/still love the person I broke up with” but a very selfish, cynical “the world sucks so now I’m going to be miserable.”

Which is certainly one way to handle a break up.

Another way is in Rain, the difference most embodied by “I don’t mind the rain sometimes.” Emphasis on the SOMETIMES. And while the person in this song is slightly less cynical—in that crying/rain is what makes roses bloom and that “it’s better to have loved and lost…” although it doesn’t include the rest of the saying which IS IMPORTANT “than to never have loved at all.”

This person ALSO is wallowing in their own sadness post-relationship but almost… reveling in it? Very emo. A+ They’re literally “making peace with the rain” and “dancing with the pain,” and turning the break up/end of the relationship into a learning opportunity of sorts? It’s not AS cynical but it IS as selfish… or maybe self-centered…

I think what I’m trying to articulate is that both of these songs represent people who are HURT by a break up/end of a relationship, but not necessarily HEARTBROKEN if that clarifies anything at all… Because there’s no YEARNING either for their former partners or even for the relationship itself. It’s just… here is the new normal, how do I react to it.

Now to step away from song analysis, into potential fic writing.

Immediately I can think of two ways to go with this:

The two POVs of the songs are the two people in the relationship that ended and this is how each of them deal with it. Or,

This is the same person after some time has passed.

I’ll be honest, both of them are kind of funny.

Because with (1) it just really shows how, probably, it was the best for the relationship to end considering how selfish the lyrics are on both sides. Rain is slightly more romantic in the sense that it’s “because of this break up I can grow as a person” but it’s still pretty selfish, lol. Like… both of them are stewing in their own misery and meanwhile their respective friend groups (if they have them) are just like, “Oh thank god, they’ve broken up.”

With (2) the less time passing, the funnier it gets. Going from Can’t Stand the Rain into Rain after a week is funny, but after a day? That’s hilarious… I guess you can go in the other direction and it would also be funny—Rain into Can’t Stand the Rain, that is—but regardless the shorter the time jump the better.

I suppose there is option 3) in which these are two people who were in two different relationships and then the fic could be about them learning to be less selfish in love with each other? Or maybe being in love with someone who is as selfish as you and being okay with it? I don’t know.

… I’m trying to think if there’s a pairing for (1) or a character for (2) that would work but I don’t really do comedy, much less this anti-romantic comedy, so the I don’t know if my go to characters really match the genre. Although there is something to be said about how my reluctance to cast anyone into these roles speaks more about me wanting my characters to not be this kind of selfish/self-centered which isn’t accurate to real life. I should probably have more selfish/self-centered character to play around with. Or, rather, I should realize that some of the characters I write DO have the capacity to be this way, I have just been softening/glorifying them without exploring their full personalities.

Then again, I also don’t really write relationships as the main focus? Like, even my shipping fic is more of a method to explore various AUs or themes that aren’t necessarily romance based. Even Dreaming of S(omething,) my ShikakoxGaara series, and which I consider to have some of my most romantic writing in it, is more about how home can change from one place to another, or to a person. How a different environment can reveal as much about yourself as it does the new place you’re in. Even Dreaming of S(elfishness) doesn’t even have them being that selfish and has less to do with jealousy over an engagement and more about, like, establishing clearly what you want rather than just letting something passively come to you and passively watch it go.

Although… while I don’t write much in the (anti-) romantic genre that often, I do LOVE reading about, hm, estranged exes reuniting and having to hash out the mistakes from their past and bittersweetly getting closure before maybe giving the relationship another chance or starting a new relationship knowing the follies of their younger selves. But these songs feel freshly out of the relationship, whereas my preference for estranged exes reuniting usually has the benefit of years (if not decades, I do love when it’s like… ex high school sweethearts meeting up as full grown adults) in between the break up and the reunion.

If these songs are the initial response to the break up and part of the aforementioned youthful follies, then… okay. So I’m still kind of in Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint headspace, and while I MOST love Yoo Joonghyuk x Kim Dokja estranged high school exes reuniting, the dichotomy of these two songs FEELS more like what Han Sooyoung and Yoo Sangah would throw at each other in a fight.

Like, Can’t Stand the Rain feels like Han Sooyoung’s response to the break up—an almost destructive, heedless misery—whereas Rain would represent Yoo Sangah’s external perfection versus her internal flaws. Like the argument would contain:

YSA: At least I didn’t go around making my misery everyone else’s problem. HSY: Oh, as if you’re any better Miss Every Experience Is A Learning Opportunity, bullshit!

Like, I don’t know the whole argument, but that’s the vibe I’m feeling…

Surely there’s another couple that embodies this dynamic in my usual fandoms, but I am STRUGGLING to think of them for now…

And then, unfortunately, as I was writing this, I realized (2) was pretty much just 500 Days of Summer so… ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Probably not what you were looking for, loveelemental, but I appreciate you reaching out :D

#jacksgreyson #loveelemental #asks #answers #prompt response #links #brainstorm #meta analysis #omniscient reader's viewpoint #han sooyoung #yoo sangah

13 notes · View notes

jemmo · 10 months

Note

I need Seonwoo to figure out what HE wants because it’s so frustrating watching him constantly waffle when asked direct questions about his feelings and him not be able to articulate them in an understandable way at all. I understand they’re only in this house for like a week so I don’t expect everyone to immediately know who they like and stick with it, I’m fine with him and anyone else having feelings for multiple people. I also understand that there could be things lost in translation or cultural lenses I am not able to understand because I am not and do not speak Korean. But omg wow is it awkward to watch Seonwoo at this point. Again I feel like he’s insecure and such a people pleaser he’s not able to be direct unless someone basically forces him to be, and thus far no one that likes him has been able to force him to be direct. I feel like that’s the kind of person he needs, but I’m not sure Sungho or Yeonghee are that person, they try but never go far enough I think (side note: I always wonder if since Korea is such an age based society in their interactions and language, does that carry over into dating, like would Yeonghee be more comfortable pushing Seonwoo even more to be direct if they were the same age).

Yeonghee very clearly just wanted a yes or no answer about Seonwoo’s feelings, and he couldn’t even give him that. Same with talking about their age gap, Seonwoo says he doesn’t think he can overcome it (understandable) but then says he’s worried how other people would view it. I think that’s a valid concern for him, especially as he is someone who owns a business and therefore has to care about his image, but it’s interesting he seems more concerned with how others would view their age gap instead of how he himself feels about dating a 21/22 year old. I feel like what’s frustrating is I think Yeonghee could handle just being rejected. Maybe Seonwoo is afraid to hurt anyone’s feelings, or he didn’t want to talk about how he felt until the date was over, but if the latter is true he should’ve just said that. I feel like Yeonghee could handle that, or could even handle rejection, but the back and forth is confusing and frustrating and probably a little hurtful. Though I feel like Yeonghee is also close to giving up so who knows.

anon thank you for giving me the chance to rant about these two bc they’ve been on my mind non stop and me and my sister have been talking about them and their date any chance we get.

bc it’s just so interesting to me and yet I find it hard to dig into the intricacies of it bc my mind just gets stuck on how much I feel sorry for yonghee and want to comfort him. watching their date a second time esp after seeing all the others and having them fresh in my mind really put into perspective how much the vibes were just completely off. there was just no back and forth bc it felt like seonwoo wasn’t engaging with the date at all. it’s one thing to be shy, but we know seonwoo isn’t exactly shy, he’s one of the most outgoing people in the house, but still it might be different one on one in a date setting where there’s certain expectations and pressures that this means something, but doesn’t that just say it all. when he gets down to it, when he’s on a date and that means something, he can’t be that normal outgoing person. bc the whole time it feels like yonghee is in and engaged and trying to share his thoughts and feelings and he just gets met with a brick wall. seriously, go back and see how different it is, how seonwoo hardly ever asks him anything, how yonghee will talk despite seonwoo not prompting him too, and still seonwoo doesn’t engage in return, and when he asks if seonwoo has any questions, he literally turns it back on him, which infuriates me even more bc what’s the point in asking him anything when he doesn’t give a direct answer. it feels like they wasted this whole time where seonwoo should be exploring what his feelings are for yonghee and instead they’re just in the same place still. and the thing is, they didn’t even talk about normal date stuff. like where was the back and forth banter?? where were the talks about likes and dislikes, hobbies etc?? I feel like we just had this spiel from seonwoo at the start about how he feels being in the house, and then when they went to eat, it was all yonghee sharing his feelings and seonwoo giving nothing back. and I think this is my perfect example, when they were in his shop, and yonghee was talking about regrets while being on the show, and he says he has regrets, wishes he could’ve been better, more selfish, I can’t remember exactly what he says but something to that extent. and I think back to when he shared these insecurities and was vulnerable on his other dates with jungwook and hyungjin and how both of them comforted him, especially hyungjin with his age and where he is in life, and what that meant to him. and here, seonwoo just nods, says nothing, moves on. Idk if he was just too in his head about his stuff or just didn’t care, but to have someone be vulnerable and share doubts and not say anything, not give them any encouragement or comfort, that just rubs me the wrong way. I get he might be in his head but for god sake engage with the person in front of you. and it’s for that exact reason I need yonghee to see past that initial attraction and the surface level conversations with seonwoo and see that he’s had much better interactions with other people in the house and that they are options worth exploring. I get tunnel visioning, I mean junsung did it from day 1, but even if sungho never returned affection, he still engaged with him and they built up a relationship. I don’t see any of what yonghee has built with seonwoo, like what about that relationship is taking up all of yonghee’s focus?? what is it about seonwoo that has him so blinded??

and as for seonwoo’s feelings for yonghee… my sister had a good angle actually. she said it might touch a nerve for seonwoo to see yonghee, at his age, not only out, but so confident in how he is pursuing what he wants. similar to how I said he might feel that way watching junsung pursue sungho, wishing he could be that forward and confident with his own feelings, I think he doesn’t know what to do. bc he can’t be that confident in pursuing what he wants bc he doesn’t have that kind of faith in his own feelings, I feel like it takes him real time and consideration to figure out what he’s actually feeling, maybe bc he doubts his own feelings or has just never had to or had the chance to be that strong in trusting and pursuing his own feelings. and that might be why he can’t reconcile with the age gap. it’s not all out jealousy, but maybe he sees this kid out of the closet having this young adulthood he maybe never had a chance to have if he came out only recently. that, or I thought he just doesn’t know how to deal with the strength of yonghee’s feelings, maybe bc his age makes him feel like this is just some kid who’s feelings are strong bc he can afford to be reckless and go all in when he doesn’t have the same amount of relationship experience as others. and such, he feels like even if he was to indicate anything to yonghee, that might then give him too much, might make him come on stronger to the point it limits his chances with others, which I don’t think he wants bc he clearly enjoys exploring other options and wants to consider other people. the thing is, I can sit here theorising why why why until I’m blue in the face but I’ll never know, we’ll never know, yonghee will never know bc he just can’t articulate any of what’s going on in his head. and it aggravates me more and more bc his inability to communicate in a meaningful way is having more and more of an impact on more and more people in this house, and whatever is going on with you whatever, but I feel like there comes a point where you have to realise you have an effect on people, and therefore have a responsibility to communicate clearly for their sake. and the thing is, this behaviour doesn’t do him any favours, bc it makes me think is this just his personality or does he just love creating drama?? and maybe I wouldn’t feel so complicated about him if I had some clarity and could rule out his behaviour being just manipulation and game playing.

and let’s just say… my sister keeps saying that if yonghee and seonwoo did get together, their relationship would not be good, and it would probably change yonghee forever, but I’ll leave that headcanon for her

#thank you for letting me have my yonghee seonwoo rant anon #the only reason I’m glad they had this date is that now I can say with definite confidence that they don’t work and that yonghee should stop #trying bc it’s one thing for me to just not see chemistry or prefer yonghee with someone else #it’s another thing entirely to watch go on a date and have seonwoo just plainly not engage with him #it’s the fact that seonwoo is not prepared to meet him on any level I get that yonghee being forward might be a lot and you don’t have to #match that but give SOMETHINGGGGG #his man 2

14 notes · View notes

teabreaking · 11 months

Note

Tell me your eujean headcanons ☺️🩵💙?

thank you for the ask! (and sorry for having it sit in my inbox for so long 😭)

it’s hard to describe, but i think eula and jean understand each other in a very unique way, but they’re also in a constant state of feeling distanced from each other. they have a lot in common when you really think about it, but there always seems to be something standing in the way of them forming a deeper connection: whether it’s their family names, their professional relationship, or even the fact that eula spends much of her time outside of the city, and jean rarely has any free time on her hands.

i think some of the admiration eula has for jean is rooted in her own background. eula really doesn’t have many fond memories of her childhood, and that’s partially due to the sheer amount of expectations that fell on her at such a young age. that likely played a huge role in why she left in the first place… along with her family being horrible in general. but jean… jean not only shoulders the expectations of her family, but also the entire city’s expectations, and she does it all with a smile on her face. eula is one of the only people who could even *begin* to imagine the weight of those expectations, and i think that could contribute to the amount of respect she holds for jean. most people just seem to automatically expect that kind of attitude from jean, but i think eula is uniquely able to appreciate jean’s resilient and kindhearted nature, which has persisted through so many external pressures. eula is one of the few who can understand the kind of strength that takes, and it’s why she never expresses any kind of jealousy towards jean over how much the city loves her.

there is so much to say about them that i really could go on forever, but i really don’t think i would ever be able to properly articulate my interpretation of them, or why i’m so obsessed with the e/j dynamic… they are just so,,,,

(side note: i’ve definitely gotten asks similar to this one before, but unfortunately my account is so disorganized that i’d never be able to find my old e/j headcanon posts 😭)

#asks #sorry… i’ve realized that these are general interpretations of them and not individual headcanons 😭#but in my mind the headcanons have all kind of merged into a general view of them yk?#also feel free to add on i always love seeing your takes on them 💕

19 notes · View notes

vibratingskull · 7 months

Note

Thank you for responding and *face palm*! I bet none of us could survive on that planet as well as Thrawn has done. Second, Thrawn was older in the Rebels series too and third I don’t think he needs to go out and fight all the time. He is a tactician and even he said in the episode that they need to conserve the men. I think he looks fine, as well as anyone could be in that situation. I don’t see the Great mothers fighting like the night sisters in clone wars. Aging is fine guys! That doesn’t make Thrawn or the Great mothers any less dangerous. (Sorry for my rant)

You're welcome. I too find this situation silly and unnecessary. He doesn't need to fistfight himself anymore with all those troopers, and even if we could nitpick about his two assassins droids that he uses to train, he's simply aging, flexibility and rapidity is not what it is anymore and his articulations must started to take a hit by now.

It's okay to age, we all do it. Why not him?

I constantly joke that he needs to retire with my friends!

He's simply past his prime and that is okay. His cunning mind and deadly strategies are still there and that's why we all collectively love him in the first place : for his intellect.

Whatever people say, I appreciate with old, aging, dad!bod Thrawn. Because having the chance to get old is the best thing that could have happened to him.

It means he survived.

#vibratingskull speak #anon ask #thrawn #ashoka spoilers

14 notes · View notes

itcamefromthetoybox · 10 months

Text

DOLLLLLLS IN SPAAAAAAACE!!!

So continuing from last week’s review, we’re going to keep up our review on Barbie dolls. Why? Because the upcoming movie looks so great, so this is how I’m handling my enthusiasm, so I don’t talk my wife’s ear off! This week, we’re looking at one of my personal favorite dolls from the franchise, “Space Discovery Astronaut Barbie!”

The “Space Discovery” line, as you can probably guess from the name, is a line of Barbie products focusing on space. You’ve got space stations, small space ship playsets for child dolls to play in, and even science classrooms focusing on space. That’s a lot of space stuff, and as someone who loves him some space toys, I am thrilled!

The doll we’re looking at today, Astronaut Barbie, comes in two varieties: white Barbie and black Barbie. Both dolls come with the same outfit and accessories, and they both have the same levels of articulation, so let’s dive in!

Each doll is posed standing at attention, with slight bends in their arms. They’ve got the standard Barbie articulation: moving arms and legs, and ball-joint necks. So pretty much what you’d expect from a Barbie doll.

You would not believe how hard it was to get a picture without massive amounts of glare on the helmets.

The dolls have the standard Barbie bodies, like you’d expect. There is one big thing to note here, though. Normally, people think of Barbies as having big arches in their feet, like they’re wearing eternal high heels. In fact, one of the big scenes from the first Barbie trailer puts focus on Barbie’s foot having that arch, and a later trailer makes a big deal out of Barbie no longer having that arch. So considering how much I’ve been talking about the arch in Barbie’s foot, you can probably guess what I’m about to say: “Barbie has no foot arch.” Well, you’d be wrong. What I’m actually gonna say is that the arch, which still present, is slighter than what people would expect.

That annoying moment when you misplace your shoe before work.

This is actually the case with a lot of modern day Barbie dolls. The reason is so your Barbie can wear different shoes and outfits without having to do a different leg mold for each Barbie. While some dolls do have the classic high arch and others have completely different leg designs, this lower arch is actually more common in modern day dolls. So if you haven’t bought the dolls for ages, this could be something useful to know. It also means you can grab most dolls and expect the different outfits sold separately to fit just fine.

The black and white Barbies do have different heads and hair textures/haircuts, which is great. The main thing I want to talk about here is the hair texture. The black doll has softer, curly hair, while the white Barbie has stiffer, straight hair. It’s a huge difference in texture, and leads to one of my few issues with Astronaut Barbie. The blonde hair feels like straw. It’s stiff and dry to the touch, like someone used way too much bleach for too long.

Barbies pose for their company photo IDs.

Now, let’s talk outfits. Astronaut Barbie wears a smooth spacesuit with a very nice amount of detailing on them. I love how the suits look and feel. They’re shiny, smooth to the touch, and covered with detailing that really adds to the look without being too much. It’s the right amount of detailing. The suits also have space program logos on the chests, which is a really nice touch.

Astronaut Barbie has a pair of large, plastic gloves and boots. The gloves have slits down the back to make it easier to put them on Barbie and to let them better go over the sleeves of the space suits, but the slits don’t close all the way and some of the sleeves can stick out of the slits as a result of this. The boots are very thick, which I really like, and even fit under the suit legs. Getting them on and off is a challenge because they are very stiff, which can be a little bit of a pain, but I do love the boots. They have a lot of sculpted details, which look really great will definitely excite kids. Also, the boots are treaded on the bottoms, which helps the doll stand on her own without the need for a stand.

Barbie also comes with a space helmet that’s made of two pieces that clip together over the doll’s head. The helmet looks great, but it also brings us to the second issue I have with the doll. The helmet doesn’t fit tightly over the doll’s head, so it’s loose and flops around. The other issue is from how the helmet clips together. Since the dolls have hair, the hair can get caught in the helmet and stick out of the top and sides. It can take a good amount of fiddling to get the hair completely in the helmet.

Barbie comes with four accessories: a small flag and three astronaut ice cream sandwiches. The flag has a little clip on it that lets Barbie hold it in her hand, but it can be a bit of a challenge to fit the clip on the gloves. I often just wedge it onto the glove’s thumb and hope it doesn’t fall off.

We claim the moon in the name of the Barbie Empire!

The astronaut ice cream sandwiches actually bring us to my third and final complaint: Barbie has no way to hold those at all, so you’re probably gonna lose them like I did. That’s a shame, because astronaut ice cream is one of my favorite things ever. I would kill for an astronaut ice cream sandwich right now, in fact. So delicious.

Behold, one of humanity’s greatest achievements!

“Space Discovery Astronaut Barbie” goes for about $17 and can be found at most retailers. She’s recommended for ages 3+, but do keep in mind that both versions of the doll come with very small accessories that can fit in the throats and noses of both kids and very dumb adults, so use your best judgement there. Would I recommend this toy? Absolutely. Space is freaking awesome, and the idea of a Barbie that explores space is really awesome. I feel like this doll and the theme itself is one that everyone, kids and adults alike, would love. Definitely don’t be afraid to grab this doll. Next week, we’ll be looking at a more collector-aimed doll as we continue our look at Barbie. So come back and take a look at what’s happening! This is JS signing off and wishing you Happy Toy Hunting!

#Barbie #Astronaut Barbie #doll #dolls #Barbie doll #toy #toys #toy review #review #reviews #space

13 notes · View notes

reflections-in-a-critical-eye · 1 year

Note

So I've read some of your older posts and see that you've mentioned Taemin a few times. I know these are your Bangtan thoughts but could you elaborate on your love for Taemin? If it is love or whatever it is that you have for Taemin.

Anon 2

Hi, BMT!

I don’t really have a BTS-related question, but anyway, I just realized Taemin has only a little over a month until he’s discharged from the military and I’m so looking forward to his comeback ?What are your favorite Taemin songs (Shinee, too, while we’re at it)? I loved ‘Advice,’ it honestly was probably one of, if not his best banger (I might even go out on a limb and suggest it’s one of the best K-pop songs I’ve ever heard), and he dropped it and was out. I can’t wait to see what he does next!

In Taemin's case, I'd say it's more about admiration and appreciation for what he does. Of course I like the personality and entertainment part of his job as an idol but the artistic side is what grabbed my attention and that stuck to me.

It's easy to see how involved he is in his solo career because he has a vision. One that can be observed throughout his albums, and not just once. Yes, different concepts, but there's also an overall theme that encapsulates his entire work. To me, that shows not only his individuality and creativity, but also that there's something of substance there and not just aesthetics. All you have to do is listen to his albums and watch all the music videos and you would be able to observe an evolution as well in terms of complexity and usage of the visual medium. Taemin was in film school and he's also a film buff and that shows as well in his concepts. Criminal is a good example here because he was partly inspired by The Devil's Advocate. I know it sounds biased because I come from a film background as well, but it's not just about that. I like how he takes inspiration from various mediums and arts in order to elevate his concepts. And he's deeply involved in the process making, on a technical level. Not many are doing this.

And lastly, I appreciate the way he is able to talk and articulate the concept behind his albums in terms of music, lyrics, visual elements and detail explanation of his movements in choreography and what each represents and the message he sends out. I think that really set the standard for me when it comes to idols talking about their work because it showed that it's possible. And it's not like Taemin's themes are very easy to digest and just cutesy pop. There's a lot of commentary there on gender, sexuality, relationships, even his catholic background. And still, he is able to talk about it in a way that sounds meaningful. It's not about revealing everything that is inside a person, but about knowing what to say in order for the audience to understand if they are willing to.

As to the second ask, I'm excited for him to be back, it feels like ages, but it's almost there. I think the first comeback will be with SHINee in May so I'm looking forward to that.

I'm going to end this with a list of a few of my favorite songs and my choice here is influenced by the music video as well.

youtube

#bmt asks #taemin

13 notes · View notes