#i cant hide the fact that im wearing something underneath

[simminglytimeladies]

I forgot to post this but I've got another old rosary that I could wear. Quite colorful one:

It was missing a few beads but it's unnoticeable.

#bleppingrl #fashione #meself #ex catholic shit #also this dress shirt that i found from one of the closets from my home gathering dust #this dress shirt looks cool but the problem is the location of the decorative holes #i cant hide the fact that im wearing something underneath #might need to have a skin colored sports bra or something like that for it #its not the best but it will work for now #a reason for me to have top surgery when i can afford it

[ithoughtthiswastwitterbutfr]

Wanda vision thoughts of episode 6 spoliers ofc

It’s startttttinggg I’m so excited I’ve heard good things.

I love the new into im trying to think of what show it’s related too it’s defiantly familiar.

The way it’s filmed like a show with the talks to the camera is making be very happy.

I LOVE WANDAS SCARLETT WITCH COSTUME. Visions too

“I don’t remember it like that,”

“Probably because you suppressed a lot of the trauma,” Now they’re saying it like it is.

“Mom and Dad have been not fighting just different?” Vision is still on edge as he should be honestly

AWW TOMMY IS A MINI QUICKSLIVER THATS SO CUTE.

Ugh now the sword agents are here with the plane and nasty Hayward.

Hayward is trying to pin the whole thing on Wanda again.

“We can’t outgun her and clearly antagonizing isn’t only making things worse,”

He brought up Monica’s mother then quicked the trio off the mission ig.

They took out the sword agents escorting them.

It’s back to the trick or treating and Peter/Pietro said “Raise hell demon spawn,” I may be reading too deep into this but that made me kind of suspicious.

“Do you remember we were in the orphanage after mom and dad died what was the name of that kid who was always trying to steal your boots. He had the... He had the skin thing?” Wanda to Peter/Pietro

“You’re testing me,” Peter/Pietro

“No I’m not,” Wanda

“Hey it’s cool. I know I look different,”

“Why do you... look different?”

Wanda knows this Pietro is different and doesn’t have the same knowledge as the other one which is why she was testing them she just doesn’t know where this version of him came from she’s still clueless to (the multiverse) that world.

This has to be like Uncle Jesse a bit he keeps calling himself Uncle P

“Say it again now all the candy has dissapeared?” Herb then cuts to all the kids looking down cause their candy is gone.

“And now all the jack-o-lanterns have been smashed?” Product of Quicksilver and the twins they’re using powers very openly this episode.

She just found out Vision wasn’t on duty

“Is there something I can do for you Wanda? Do you want something changed?” Herb

She seems caught off by the question I’m assuming that’s her subconscious trying to make up for the fact that vision lied to her and she wants to fix it.

Now she’s confused again.

He sees this woman who is glitching and crying she is trying to put a ghost decoration up over and over again. The she pain she is in is seeping through and I guess the control over her isn’t allowing her to do anything else but struggle to put up the decorations.

“I’m so hungry I’d eat anything,” Commercial snacked on Yo-Magic the kid is too weak to open it and they died. Yo-magic the snack for survivors. Still trying to figure out this commercial

“I got shot like a chump on the street for no reason and the next thing I know I heard you calling me. I knew you needed me,” Pietro/Peter very suspicious it’s a different multiverse Pietro but he definitely has bad intentions. He also brought up “isn’t that what you wanted?” Hinting to Wanda calling the shots.

Tommy had super speed now great now he’s running everywhere after Wanda told him to take it slow because she can’t control him.

“Do go past Ellis Lane,” I’m assuming that’s where that’s where hex cuts off.

The people near the edge are barely moving because they’re out of Wanda magic reach I think.

Also where’d Wanda get all those kids from there were none before.

Monica and the Jimmy and Darcy trio found out Hayward is tracking vision so now they can find out how sus be really is.

Vision is flying up to see everything and he here’s Halloween phrases and he sees a parked car

Should be Agnes from the trailer.

“ Town square scare. Where is it?” Agnes

“Oh, well the Town square I expect,” Vision

Agnes let out a creepy laugh.

“Took a wrong turn got lost,” there are tears in her eyes.

“In the town you grew up in?”

Vision pulls her out of the control.

“You... you’re one of the avengers youre vision are you here to help us?”

“I am Visuon. I do want to help. What’s an Avenger?” I guess Wanda does have some control over him if she was able to make him forget about everything before hand or maybe because he doesn’t have the mind stone he doesn’t have the memories but Shuri said without the mind stone there were so much vision still there. I’m gonna assume it’s Wanda

“What why don’t you remember?” Agnes “Am I dead?”

“No why would you think that?”

“Cause you are?”

“I am what?”

“Dead,” She confines to shout that she is dead.

She has brought up how no one leaves Wanda won’t even let them think about it. Her witch laugh is definitely a sign on Agatha she’s even wearing a witch costume and Peter Wanda and Vision all have their comic costumes on. 

AHHH THATS WHY THEY CANT GO PAST ELLIS LANE BECAUSE THATS WHERE EVERYONE STOPS MOVING. They can’t move and it’s almost like they’re dead. There stuck in a cloud of Wanda grief.

I think Monica‘s powers are coming in because Darcy is talking about how her Energy in her cells on A molecular level is being rewritten and it’s unsafe too go back in the hex. In the comics Monica can turn herself into any form of energy I believe she can turn herself into pure energy.

“It’s changing you,” Darcy to Monica

Monica wants to stop Wanda’s grief.

Darcy is trying to breakthrough the into what Hayward is hiding which is the fact they’re trying to weaponize Vision.

“Where were you hiding all these kids up until now?” Pietro/Peter.

"What?” Wanda

“ I assumd they were all sleeping peacefully in their beds no need to traumatize beyond the occasional Holiday episode cameo, am I right?”

“No I dont-”

“You were always the empathic twin. hey don’t get me wrong you’ve handled the ethical considerations of this scenario as best as you could, families and couples stay together, most personalities aren’t far off from what’s underneath, people got better jobs, better haircuts for sure”

“You don’t think it’s wrong?” Wanda

“What, are you kidding? I am impressed seriously it’s a pretty big leap from giving people nightmares and shooting red wiggly-woos out of your hands” Like in age of ultron reaching into the Avengers biggest fears. On the other hand the phrase wiggly-woos is very cute.

He’s telling her how he can’t talk to her. And she said she doesn’t know how she did it she only remembers feeling completely alone and empty. So she was grieving and depressed. She just saw the gunshot wound and the white eyes on Pietro like she did to Vision with his head crushed earlier on. She’s losing touch to this made up world and is now getting glimpses of reality.

Darcy is almost at my into Hayward’s stuff.

Idk if these names are important but they’re in Hayward’s email so I’m gonna write them down.

James D. Gadd,

James J. Alexander 

James X-ND Seckler.

James woo wasn’t listed in his contact either. He’s either been blocked or was never there.

Vision is at the edge of the hex HES breaking through now. He’s halfway out. Now he’s all the way out. The hex is pulling him back in and now he’s falling apart because he’s exciting.

THE BILLY CAN HEAR VISION SCREAMING

Hayward doesn’t want to help Vision so he’s handcuffing Darcy too a car.

Y’all really made Vision die again.

“It’s not like your dead husband can die twice,” Peter/Pietro she flung him backwards at that.

He can also see the soldiers and could hear Hayward. The hex is expanding outward to reach Vision and it swallowed Darcy and many other soldiers turning them into Circus performers and clowns. All the cars and shops it swallows turn into things to fit the aesthetic of her town.

I’m not sure if the hex is still moving outwards she opened her eyes so I think that was a signal that it stopped when her eyes went back from red to normal. Guess I gotta wait till next week.



#wandavision #wandavision spoilers #wanda maximoff #jimmy woo #monica rambeau #darcy WandaVision #Tommy and Billy #Vision #pietro maximoff #quicksilver

[muchmoremarsh]

im thankful for what testosterone is doing my body but still, whenever i look down, i feel fucking distorted. (uncensored and more vent under)

this is both generally about my weight/shape and certain aspects of my body that are “feminine.” yes fundamentally theres nothing wrong with it. but theres something in my brain that tells me off for being the way that i am. that i DESPERATELY need to change to be more like them, or so i can do this, or that he won’t look at me like that anymore, or that maybe she’ll see me as attractive finally, or that my binder will work better, or that my stomach will be flatter, or that my thighs and hips wont give me away again, or that i can have a normal looking neck, or that it wont balloon out when i sit down, or that “you’ll be more castable/easier to work with with THAT body” or “if you work hard enough you’ll be able to play xyz” well im SICK of feeling like this, but im always going to feel this way until my thoughts even out. all i can do is be as healthy as i can be to help MYSELF feel more in my own skin and try not to let the thoughts overconsume me but fuck, its so hard. and its SO narcissistic and selfish, these disorders are inherently selfish and of course that makes me feel bad. but i know i cant control it when it gets too out of hand so i need to learn to forgive myself. idk im just sick of looking down and seeing this. sometimes i think my chest is okay when im lying down and i just never want to wear anything underneath when im at home, like at the moment but i look in the mirror and oh my fucking SHIT. it would be so much easier to process all of the above in a healthier way if they were not a part of my body. binding is not even fulfilling anymore, it doesnt flatten my chest as over the years ive grown on and off, but still stretched out weirdly bc of it. and its painful, so painful some days, that i think “is it worth it?” but i cant imagine going outside without it on. or if i did- and even IN a binder, i have to wear so many layers to keep myself feeling secure, even though it probably does jack shit to help hide the fact theres obviously something there. i want to be able to take my shirt off and go swimming, like yeah id still feel like shit for the fact that im a bigger guy but like at least id be ABLE to take my shirt off without everything getting in the way. and like….i wanna talk about other areas of my body but i cant get into too much detail bc this is oversharing enough already but im just so weirdly shaped. my thighs distress me most i think because they are so very very VERY big in comparison to the rest of my body and they make my hips look bigger too. the fact that i can grab a fistful of inner thigh fat makes my skin crawl. and i just….im not shaped like other trans guys i dont think, theres like only the belly bump that separates areas and like. why is there this space between it and that and why doesn’t it stick out at this length and? ik i PREACH “dont compare yourself” but it is sososo much easier said than done and im just a bit dysphoric and dysmorphic about everything rn

#personal #vent #tw body image #tw body dysmorphia #tw dysphoria #internalised fatphobia #NOT EVEN TOUCHING ON ED that shits getting locked in a vault. #marshall art

[fart-gate]

SG1

Season 4 episode 10

"BENEATH THE SURFACE"

Notes by me

- ah what the FUCK is going on

- bunch of dirty shirtless men this episode is already delicious

- DIRTY SHIRTLESS TEALC

- never in my life have been more attracted to samantha Carter HER HAIR

- Daniel????? You look like a Rugged Man how did that happen

- Jack please take that hat off #cringe

- memory loss??? Or they decided to leave sg1 and change their names to go work in a factory

- tealc REMEMBERS this is why hes the Bad Bitch of the group

- ok Daniel is really handsome I'm looking

- Sam and Jack havin heart eyes at each other 👀

- "tealc said we were friends" Daniel just wants friends

- they covered up junior!!! A crime

- are Daniel and that girl a thing bc she be touchin his face like.....touchy touchy

- I mean i would touch him too so I cant be judging

- erase ppls minds and make them work for a city full of rich ppl! Its fool proof!

- "how are you so calm?"

"I think in another life ive handled dangerous explosives,I dont know"

- why is this kegan so bitchy

- did tealc faint bc he hasnt done his kelnoreem my poor boy needs to meditate

- DANIEL AND JACK HAMMERING THE LEVER I AM ATTACKED FROM ALL SIDES

- also???? Is Daniel not gonna question the fact that he cant see shit bc he doesnt have his glasses

- the leader lady seems like shes mildly on the workers side and thinks its wrong

- "we're something called SG1"

"What is that"

"Sounds like a team"

"What kind of a name for a team is that?"

- daniel knowing something his wrong. His gut feeling that he has some higher purpose. His galaxy brain. I want to kiss him on the mouth

- why is Daniel in a completely different sleeping section?

- "my dreams are about......other things" *glances at sam* AKSEKANDJDJS

- "I dont think so, sir.............what?"

"You just called jonah "sir" "

"............."

- hammond so DEPRESSED that his kids are missing :'( a fathers guilt

- fraiser volunteering to find them I mean she gets sexier every episode

- "I dreamed about mining......naked"

- the leader lady telling them to not remove tealcs bandages but doesnt even know that he needs to meditate dumb bitch!!! Hes dyin!!!

- when he starts taking the bandages off and the jaffa music starts. Poetic cinema

- "I remember something. There's a man....hes bald and wears short sleeve shirt,"

Me: aawwww he remembers hammond!

".....i think his name is Homer"

>.>

- when she leans on him haha im going to snap

- jack: I remember feeling love

Sam: for me? < 3

Jack: nah for tealc that guys great

- even with thier memories erased Jack and Sam are still in love 💕❤

- I fuckin hate this administrator guy. I want this clown killed

- that dr guy sitting wit tealc and being concerned for him 💖

- I was right he needs candles and rain sounds immediately!!!! Somebody make some herbal tea

- "where does homer fit in?"

- she only got shot in the arm walk it off

- SG1 SAID FUCK YOU AND YOUR SLAVE LABOR

- "jonah"

"Jack"

"Right"

- viva le revolution !!!

- um shut up kegan oh my god

- Jack just shooting the glass roof off with no regard for the ppl underneath getting glass rained down on them

- they get to go to a tropical planet!!!! I am jealous

- lets throw the administrator in the furnace that sounds like fun

- Jack and Sam go RIGHT back to hiding their feelings bc of rank :( I hate it here

- "lets go home"

Tealc whump: stomach discomfort, collapsing, passing out, dragged, manhandled, belly bandaged

No glasses! Daniel for all episode!🤓

🎶listening to Trouble Is... by All Time Low🎶 for Jack and sam being so goddamn in love, their feelings pierce thru the fake memories of a mind wipe

#stargate season 4 #no glasses!daniel #tealc whump

[bookcrook]

Absolutely Smitten

Dang. I really suck at keeping my word, don’t I? Whelp, for those who care, it’s here now! This is the first of I don’t know how many parts of “Six Foot Seven”, a new series/book thing I’ve been working on lately, requested by @i-cant-reach-im-too-short! The entirety of the series will be based on her real-life love story, as well as a playlist she gave me. First song was Absolutely Smitten by Dodie Clark. Hope you all enjoy! :)

“Teddy, come eat!” I call out from the kitchen, rattling his food around the large metal bowl. I wait a few minutes before yelling out his name again. “Teddy! Teddy Bear! C’mon! I have to leave soon and you need to eat.” Still no response.

And so begins my daily game of “Find the Giant Dog Hiding in my Tiny Apartment and Hope He Didn’t Run Off and Start the Zombie Apocalypse Without Me”. Such a great way to start my day…

I search behind couches and loveseats, inside closets and my bathroom only to find absolutely nothing. “Where, oh where has my Teddy gone, oh where, oh where could he be,” I sing softly under my breath, “In the closet he’s not, with me he’s… Also not, oh where, oh where could he be.” I continue with my non-rhyming song, raising my volume a little as I get closer and closer to my bedroom, the only other place he could be hiding. 

When I finally reach the doorway, I hear a playful bark come out from beneath my bed. I lower myself down to my knees, pull up the flashlight on my phone, and put my right cheek against the carpet. And, sure enough, I’m staring into the eyes of my slightly-obnoxious-but-still-very-lovable German Shepard. Who also just so happens to be stuck underneath the bed I just got. 

How he got there is beyond me and getting him out is going to be a serious victory on my end. As in, the kind of victory that deserves a pint and a half of double chocolate chip ice cream and a box of Cheez-Its after work. I try coaxing him out, seeing if he can squeeze himself just enough to remove himself from the tight spot. I bribe him with treats and squeaky toys, but he doesn’t move a muscle. So, I move on to what I knew was, ultimately, inevitable and would no doubt break all of my limbs off of my body.

Have you ever seen a 5’2 Asian girl trying to lift up a Queen size metal bed frame (with the mattress on top of it because she had just woken up half an hour ago and was still extremely tired, so she wasn’t smart enough to take it off) at least a foot off the ground completely and utterly by herself? I haven’t, but God damn it must be hilarious to look at. Actually doing it, though? Terrible. Absolutely horrid. The worst thing I’ve ever done in my 22 years of living. I mean, seriously. What is this thing made out of? Steel with a brick-filled mattress? Ridiculousness, I tell you!

Twenty minutes later, Teddy is roaming free around our brand new home while I’m lying on my bedroom floor exhausted and trying to find a will to live, which immediately comes with an alarm going off on my phone. Who would’ve thought I’d be so ecstatic to leave the comfort of my apartment for an entire day of work behind a desk only running on four hours of sleep. I force myself up and attempt to wipe as much dog hair off of my once clean clothes, abandoning hope soon after---there’s just no escaping it.

Collecting my things, I make my way toward the door, glancing quickly at the clock on my stove. Right on time, I think to myself. Waiting for the elevator was maddening. Come on... 

I mash the button impatiently, muttering curse words under my breath in frustration. I do the same when the doors finally slide open, revealing a small family of three with a tiny puppy on a leash. The slow background music only fueled my anxiety. 

Before the doors are even wide enough to accommodate an entire person, I slip through the tiny gap and race outside. I flatten my hair and my eyes immediately dart to the left, finding exactly what---or, more specifically, who---I was looking for walking toward me.

“Holy shit,” I murmur softly. How is it possible for one person to look so amazing just walking down the street? I soon realize I’m staring like a literal stalker, so before I’m caught, I turn and start walking swiftly in the same direction he’s going.

“Megan!” I hear a familiar, deep voice call from behind me, “Wait up!”

“Not a chance! I’d say you’ve got long enough legs to catch up to me,” I respond, an air of fake confidence in my voice. I slow down only slightly, despite my original statement, and, sure enough, Owen manages to reach me in a few long strides. 

“You’re difficult, you know that?” he laughs softly. I pray that no one saw my insides turn into literal jelly. What am I even supposed to do? My legs keep moving, but my mind is such a jumbled mush that it can’t comprehend anything around me. Which shouldn’t be happening. I’m a strong, independent woman---I don’t need him telling me if I’m pretty or not. I don’t.

So, as we walk, I begin concentrating on not concentrating on him. I quickly find that doing so is no use to me and caused me to not hear a single word Owen just spoke.

“You still there, shorty?” he teases, poking the top of my head.

“Hmm? Oh, yeah! Sorry. Just a little out of it, I guess.” Which was true, to be fair---I just decided it would be better to give him only half of the truth, for my heart’s sake. “What’d you say?”

Owen’s shoulder bumps into mine slightly, “I asked if you were eating in the office today. Thought I’d join you, but it looks as though you’re empty-handed.”

I stop in my tracks as he finishes speaking. “Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot,” I whisper to myself, hoping he doesn’t hear me. Because my luck is shit today, he does, and he seems to believe I was talking to him. 

“Excuse me?” Owen laughs nervously, surprised by my comment.

“No!” I exclaim a little too loudly, “Not you! I was talking to myself. Didn’t realize it until you mentioned it, but I forgot my food at home; it’s been a crazy morning, so I didn’t really think about grabbing to before I left.”

“What happened?”

“Oh, nothing important, really. Just stuff with my dog…” I wanted to add ‘and you’, but it seems a bit… Forward. Creepy. Stalker-ish. Take your pick. “Made some grilled chicken, noodles, and asparagus last night, too. Looks like it’s the vending machine for me today! Yay.”

“I mean, you don’t have to…” Owen looks away slightly as his sentence trails off.

I let out a bitter laugh. “Unless you’re suggesting that I turn back and risk being late just for a bag of mediocre food, I’m afraid I do.”

“Fair point, but no. ‘Tis not what I mean by that, miss,” he taunts, putting on one of the worst fake British accents I’ve ever heard. It’s something he does often. Why? No clue---not even an inkling of an idea, but it makes my heart melt every time.

“Then what do you have in mind?”

“We could always go out to lunch. There’s this cafe-diner-thing a block or two down from the office that serve the best grilled cheese known to man. If you haven’t tried don’t think I won’t drag you there myself,” Owen laughs. I can feel my eyes light up at the prospect of that. “It can be a group thing or something.”

My shoulders deflate just a tiny bit. I knew it wasn’t going to be a date---I’m not that stupid, but I hoped it could at least be just the two of us. It’s okay, I think to myself, taking in a deep breath, It doesn’t matter. We’re just friends. I force a smile before agreeing. “Oh, yeah. Totally! Sounds great. I can see if Laura and Chelsea want to come.”

We’d finally reached our destination when the conversation began and are now parting ways as it ends. “Awesome! See you then?”

“Definitely,” I say softly. Despite my disappointment, I’m able to produce a small---but very genuine---smile.

I’m practically floating as I make my way to my tiny desk and collapse onto my rolling chair. Slumped completely down (in a way that is terrible for my back), I let out a startled screech as a voice, seemingly coming from nowhere, scares me senseless.

“You’re late,” Chelsea teases in a sing-song tone from above me.

“...No I’m not.” I point at the large clock across the room.

“How…” she stumbles over words, “How do you know I didn’t come in early and change the time on all of the clocks because... Pranks?”

“Chels, you’re still wearing your coat.”

“It’s cold.”

“How about the fact that, one, your coffee is still steaming and you refuse to drink the tar that they have here. Two, you don’t wake up any earlier than you absolutely have to because you’re the definition of a night owl. Or, and I’d say this is my most convincing argument, three, you just don’t care enough to do that.” I sit up as I rest my case and begin pulling out my things for the day.

“You’re no fun,” Chelsea pouts, lowering herself behind the cork board wall that separates us.

Ignoring her very hurtful words, I continue the conversation as though nothing happened, “Has Laura come in yet?”

She scoots her chair over to your side as she answers, “I don’t think so. Or if she has I haven’t seen her. Why?”

I let out a groan and drop my head onto my desk, smashing the keys on my laptop. “Great. I needed her to help me make some copies because I have to meet with some clients later today and I have no clue how to work that… Thing.”

Chelsea opens her mouth, prepared to offer help, but I cut her off before she can, “Don’t. I love you, but she’s the only one who can tame the beast. I swear that if anyone looked at it the wrong way it would set the entire building on fire. Especially if it were either of us.”

“That’s fair,” she relinquishes. Suddenly, a tornado in human form tears through the office dropping a pile of things on Laura’s desk and races into a conference room, all in a matter of .04357 milliseconds.

“She’s here,” I chuckle slightly.

Twenty minutes later, Laura races back into the room and all but sprints to her desk. Thinking she might actually be done in there, I try to ask for her help. And, before I’m ever able to finish saying her name, she explains, “Can’t talk right now. Still doing the presentation; just forget some papers.”

Not long after that, Laura is finally free and snatches my papers from my desk, taking them to that dreaded machine and returning with 15 more than I need.

“Sorry about the extras,” she sighs as she drops them in my lap, “There was an error with the copier, but at least you have those if you need them.”

“Thank you!” I exclaim in a hushed voice, “You are a life saver, I swear!”

“Are you just now figuring that out?” Laura laughs.

I stick my tongue out at her before continuing my work.

I later feel a light tap on my shoulder. Turning around, I find Owen standing there, a large stack of papers in his hand. “Hey, what’s up?”

“I was just on my way to steal Anthony’s copier, but I thought I’d let you know that James, Benny, and the others can’t make it to lunch. Any luck with you?”

Before I can even consider speaking, Laura immediately turned the focus of the conversation to Anthony. “Wait. Wait just a second. Anthony’s been hiding a perfectly working copier from us?!”

“Guess so.” Owen gives a small shrug.

“What the hell!” she exclaims angrily.

To avoid the situation from escalating, I direct us back to our original topic. “I completely forgot to ask about lunch. Umm… Chels, Laura, either of you doing anything for lunch? I forgot my food this morning, so we thought it’d be a fun idea to get a little group together to go out.” My friends share a conspiratorial look when I’m finished. 

Chelsea’s the first to respond. “I really wish I could, but,” she pauses, “I have to run home and feed Pepper. Planned on just stopping by McDonald’s or something on my way back.”

“Neither can I,” Laura sighs with an ingenuine sadness in her voice, “Thomas wanted to take me out at that new sushi place across town. Sorry. Hope you guys have fun.”

A smile twitching on his lips, Owen turns back to me. “Just the two of us, then.”

“Yep,” I mumble quietly, my face growing warmer by the second.

“See you in a bit?” 

“Yep,” I repeat myself. His smile was now a grin as he left. Once he’s gone, I snap my eyes back to the two girls, glaring.

“What the fuck was that about?! First of all, you,” I point at Chelsea’s floating head, “Don’t a cat. Or a dog. Or any kind of pet! As for you, Laura. Don’t think I don’t know that Thomas won’t be home for another week. That’s all you’ve been talking about since he left!”

“It’s a week and three days,” she corrects me.

“Exactly my point!”

“Sorry, but we had to!” Chelsea cuts in, “You’ve had one of Cupid’s little arrows stuck in your ass since you started working here two years ago!”

“Not to mention the fact that this is probably the happiest we’ve seen you since your sister made you move out all because what’s-his-name told her to,” Laura adds.

I sigh, sinking into my chair for the second time today. “I know you guys are just trying to be nice. And, you’re right; I have been. He just makes me feel all kinds of weird inside. It’s like I can’t control anything when I’m around him, but that doesn’t mean I need your help with him.”

Laura scoffs and Chelsea rolls her eyes at my obvious lie. “Okay. Fine, I do. But don’t do it so obviously next time!”

My personal matchmakers lower themselves back down and I spin back to my computer. Just another hour to go…

                                                   🔹🔹🔹🔹

Lunch seemed to fly by quickly. As we waited on our food, conversations were had about simple, silly things like our favorite color, or how we drink our coffee. Others were about how work had been going and what movies we’d watched recently.

“Okay...” he pondered as he took a sip of his sweet tea, “What’s your favorite scary movie?” Shocked by the question, I couldn’t come up with an answer, so I gave him the most definite one that I could. Kind of. 

“Probably anything but the Chuckie movies,” I laughed.

The moment that sentence left my mouth, he immediately corrected me. “It’s Child’s Play, you know?”

“What?”

“The movies.”

“Whatever it’s called, it scarred me for life, and I want absolutely nothing to do with it.” I crossed my arms and shuddered at the thought of even possibly watching it again. I knew it was a terrible movie, but that didn’t change anything.

The stroll back was uneventful, but peaceful. And, now, as we wait out the last couple minutes before we had to return to our respective desks, Owen and I have found ourselves walking slowly back to mine, trying to make our time together stretch as long as possible. 

Suddenly, Owen grabs my arm gently, pulling me to a stop just a few feet short of my destination, and leans in. My breaths shorten and my body goes frigid as he does so.

His lips brush against my ear as he says softly, “Please don’t think I’m weird for doing this, but Laura and Chelsea have been eavesdropping since we were within listening distance. Anyway, I was wondering if you’d maybe like to go out to dinner tonight? Or this weekend? Or just, at any point in time that would conveniently work for you?”

I let out a chuckle---no, a giggle---at his awkwardness, but then I’m immediately hit by butterflies flooding my stomach as I take in his words. Once I finally come to my senses, my head is frantically bobbing up in down in complete and utter agreement. 

After we shared out little… Moment, I make my way to my desk. At this point, I’m not even trying to hide the giant grin on my face. Or my blushing cheeks. Or the fact that my heart is thudding in my chest with pure excitement and joy.

Chelsea and Laura don’t bother pretending that they didn’t see what just happened, and they were sure to let me know about that. 

“Did you see the way he was looking at you?” Laura gushes, “And that smile?! What’d he say?”

“What are you even talking about? It was nothing,” I roll my eyes at the rambunctious, gossip-hungry pair, but tell them anyway. “He just asked if I wanted to go out for dinner sometime.”

“Nothing?” Chelsea practically yells, “Are you kidding? There’s no way he doesn’t like you!”

I roll my eyes yet again, knowing not to get my hopes up, but I can’t help but wonder. I’d like to believe I’m not completely clueless; it’s obvious he just asked me on a date, but will it actually go anywhere? 

The days that followed were spent trying to coordinate Owen and I’s schedules on the way to work, and deciding where we could go. We also found ourselves around each other outside of work more than usual as we waited for the day to come.

One more week… That’s all I’ve gotta do; make it one more week and I’ll know for sure if this will work out.

[melonmork]

once in a blue moon

soulmate!jaemin 🌙💕

a/n: in this au, identical birthmarks indicate soulmates!

~the only time you see your birthmark is through photos that your friends take or, when you’re bored, you’ll manage a blurry photo and inspect it disinterestedly

~it’s in the shape of a crescent moon, with another small disconnected spot perched right above the top of the moon shape, and it sits right behind your right ear before your hairline, in just the right spot to give you a headache when you try to see it in your reflection…

~the whole soulmate thing seems so intangible to you, although one of your closest friends just recently met their soulmate after noticing her identical birthmark while she bent down to pet a puppy

~of course you’re happy for them, and you’re excited to meet your own soulmate, but for now it seems so far away, so unattainable

~first of all, you think, what if their birthmark is somewhere i can’t see and i never know they’re my soulmate?

~and anyways, you muse further, my soulmate might live on a different continent, for all i know

~the unnecessarily loud snapping of fingers right before your face snaps you out of your daze, and you let out a little huff

~you look over to see your boss’ unamused face and your cheeks heat up

~”sorry, i won’t let it happen again, i’m sorry…” you say softly, glancing down to your lap before trying your best at an earnest expression, hoping to convince your boss once again to be lenient on you through your attempt at puppy eyes

~he sighs, shakes his head, and laughs, “that’s what you tell me every time. can you go stack these fiction books? they came in this morning. and put those poem books on the front display, they’re supposed to be a big seller.”

~you nod and quickly accept the task, thanking him and getting to work stocking the shelves with the books from the cart

~you finish up, admiring your creative setup of the poem books on the front display case, thanking your boss again when he compliments your work

~you decide you deserve (and need) a hot drink from the book store cafe, so you wander to that side of the book store and wait in line behind a few customers, one of them holding a poem book that you handed them while you were setting up the display

~while you wait, you check your phone to see that your friend sent you a photo of her with her soulmate; your friend smiles broadly while the pretty girl beside her plants a big kiss on her cheek. she sent it with the message “having so much fun at the beach with her! can’t wait for you to meet her!” 

~you smile at your phone and then put it away, opting to wait a while longer before responding

~and your mind cant help but wander to your soulmate again

~how tall will they be? you wonder

~how well will their hands fit in mine? what color are their eyes? do they prefer winter or summer? will they like the way i dress? do they like to read books too?

~again you’re snapped out of your daze, this time by the barista, jaemin, who calls your name gently

~”you want the usual?” he asks, smiling slightly at you, looking you in the eyes

~he always does that, and it makes you blush, and for a second the thought occurs to you that jaemin could be your soulmate…

~no, you think, he probably already found his

~”please and thanks” you respond, returning his smile and waiting at the counter as he writes your name on the cup

~you admire his black hair that falls softly in small strands out of the style and into his eyes as he looks down and writes

~you admire his profile as he hands the cup to the other barista, taeil

~you cant look away from him, from his shapely jawline, his dark eyebrows, his lips, soft and slightly shiny from the lip balm you sometimes see him rubbing on from across the book store

~aaaand much to your embarrassment, you’ve dazed again

~you snap out of it at the sound of jaemin’s soft laugh

~he’s shaking his head slightly, and you blush and laugh along with him

~since there’s no one in line behind you, you have time to chat with him for a bit, so he strikes up a conversation

~”you always seem like you’re somewhere else, you know. what are you thinking about now?” he inquires, leaning his elbows on the counter and watching you for your reply

~you hesitate… how can i tell him that i was thinking about how beautiful he is? you think… eventually, you decide to just tell him that you were thinking about your soulmate

~”oh,” he says, his eyes widening, “you’ve found them? what are they like?” he asks, his smile fading slightly, but just enough for you to notice

~”oh no no i haven’t met them yet! i was just… wondering what they might be like…”

~he smiles again and looks at you silently for a moment

~”they must be wonderful if they’re your soulmate, and im sure they think about you as well. who knows, maybe they work in a book store too,” he adds, then leans back from the counter, “i should get back to work. see you!” he affords you another smile, a jaemin smile, and waves at you, then disappears into the small pantry behind the counter

~you pick up your drink and thank taeil, then head back to the register area to relieve your coworker johnny and take over for a bit

~he hangs around, leaning against the counter beside you, talking about a book he read last week that he recommends, and you two talk books in between ringing up customers and helping people find a certain book

~when the conversation lulls, johnny looks at you intently for a moment and you’re like what?? do i have cream on my face?? and he laughs and shakes his head

~”you like jaemin, dont you? you go get a drink from the cafe every time you work, but only after you spend a solid ten minutes stealing glances at him from all the way over here”

~as he says that, you involuntarily glance at jaemin, then immediately look back at johnny, your face heating up

~”see! you can’t deny it” he affirmed, crossing his arms across his chest and smiling, a bit smug

~”maybe i do. but what’s the point of liking people, johnny? why do crushes even exist when soulmates exist too? isn’t it pointless?” 

~johnny ponders this for a second, then responds, “attraction isn’t pointless. the universe has its ways of steering us along its path.” he smiles at you, places his hand on your shoulder, and then bids you goodbye and leaves the store

~”the universe has its ways of steering us along its path…” you repeat to yourself, mulling it over 

~it makes perfect sense, doesnt it? you think

~in fact, it gives you courage, and you decide then and there that next time you have a shift at the same time as jaemin, you’ll spend more time talking to him, maybe even wait for his shift to end and sit down with him like you did once a long while ago

~two whole weeks actually pass before you see jaemin again at work, and you swear he looks even more beautiful when you finally see him again

~his skin is a bit tanner and brighter and his hair looks wavy and you find it even harder than normal to look away

~this time he catches you looking too, and he flashes you his lovely, big smile before you’re able to turn away in a sorry attempt to hide your embarrassment at having been caught staring

~you’re trying hard not to look at him, because it makes your heart beat way too fast, and you even begin to question your plans of going over to him

~but it turns out you don’t need to worry about that anyway, because a moment later you see beautiful, glowing jaemin’s dazzling smile right in front of you, and he looks so cute in his barista apron and cap with his wavy hair poking out from underneath the sides

~”jaemin, hi…” you manage, a little bit breathless by how suddenly he came to see you

~”hey, when do you get off?” he asks, and his face lights up when you tell him that you get off in an hour. “me too! would you like to sit down and have a cup of coffee with me then?” and when he asks, you look into his eyes and you swear that they have stars in them; there’s no way the poor book store lighting could make them so dazzling

~”i would love that, jaemin” you respond happily, the weight of being the one to ask him lifted off your shoulders

~”i’ll see you then,” he says before flashing you another smile that makes your heart skip twelve hundred beats

~johnny from the register beside yours: ayyyyyeeeeeeee get it!

~once the hour has passed, you take off your own book store cap and make your way over to a cafe table, sit down, and wait for jaemin 

~a minute later, he emerges from behind the counter, still wearing his cap and apron, balancing two cups, a pastry bag, and a photo album in his hand, his signature beam plastered across his face

~you can’t help but giggle at his cuteness, and even though you’re nervous, you’re also so comfortable in his presence as he sets down everything he’s holding and gives you another big smile, saying hello

~you two make small talk about work and sip on the drinks he brought (of course he brought you your usual order)

~and then he says in a more serious tone “i have something i’d like to show you” and he opens the photo album he brought

~your moth drops open when you see the photos… they’re all of the moon

~each photo is a breathtaking shot of the moon, hanging amiably over the dark ocean in the dusk, adorning the warm pink morning sky like a pearl, or boldly white against a stark black sky speckled with stars

~”i went to the beach with my family last week,” he explains, “and i had some great opportunities to photograph the moon. it’s kind of my passion” and when you look at his profile beside him, your heart is filled with adoration for this boy

~and then you remember your birthmark, shaped like the moon, and here you are next to the boy who loves the moon, and you think it really could be possible that he’s your soulmate…

~when you see jaemin begin to look at you, you quickly return your gaze to the photo album, moving your hair absentmindedly out of your face 

~and you don’t realize it, but in doing so you’ve revealed your birthmark to jaemin, who is fixated on you as if you are the moon

~theyre my soulmate, he thinks to himself, oh my god theyre my soulmate

~after a moment you meet his gaze again and you give him a puzzled expression in response to his own shocked one

~”is everything okay?” you ask, and he clears his throat, smiles, and nods, and tells you that it’s getting dark, he’ll lead you out to your car

~so you two walk out side by side (johnny winks at you when you catch his eye on your way out) and step out into the cooler night air and he walks with you in silence as you make your way to your car, a bit confused by why he ended your conversation so abruptly

~when you get to your car, you begin to thank him, but he gently cuts you off

~”i… there’s something you need to see.” he says

~the street lights illuminate his figure from behind and the moonlight, especially bright tonight, although you cant tear your eyes away from jaemin to afford the moon a look to see why, shines softly on his face

~without moving his gaze from your own, jaemin slides his fingers slowly underneath the collar of his shirt and pulls the material down over his left shoulder

~at first you’re shocked by his actions, but when you see the darker patches of skin right below his shoulder, you begin to understand

~he’s showing you his birthmark

~and it’s yours

~a crescent moon with a small spot just above the tip of the moon, gracing his tanned arm

~and everything makes sense now

~”we’re soulmates,” jaemin says gently, his voice soft and wonderfully raspy as he pulls the collar of his shirt back over his shoulder and smiles so softly at you, and you find yourself jealous of the moon because of how often she must get to kiss his beautiful features

~”may i?” he asks, his fingers hovering over your right ear, and when you nod he ghosts his warm fingertips over your birthmark

~and in a moment his chest is against yours, his right hand tenderly holding the small of your back and his left hand deftly sweeping your hair away from behind your ear

~he leans in to kiss your birthmark and his breath is hot and wonderful on the side of your neck and you tilt your head, inviting him to kiss you, wrapping your arms around his waist and trying to control your racing heart and fast breathing

~his warm lips plant two, three, four kisses gingerly on the tender skin where your birthmark is

~he pulls away and looks at you fondly, smiling and still holding your back and your neck in his warm palms

~”you know,” he begins, “i’ve always felt that you are the only person more beautiful than the moon. i wonder how it is that we just so happened to work at the same book shop, in the same town, at the same time…”

~suddenly, johnny’s words echo in your head, and you voice them aloud, “the universe has its way of steering us along its path.”

~he smiles widely and, after thinking about it for a minute, says “you’re so right..” as he leans back, this time planting his gentle, strawberry-lip-balm-flavored kisses on your lips, savoring his time with you under the moon and stars, inexplicably glad that it’s you, it’s you, it’s really you…

~after he kisses you, he looks up at the moon

~you continue to watch him, even daring to kiss him quickly underneath his chin, making him laugh so cutely

~”look up,” he says, and you do

~”a blue moon…”

~”yep. a few minutes ago i would have called it coincidence, but you’ve got me thinking othwerise.” and he looks back at you and gives you that impossibly lovely smile of his, and you find yourself thinking the same thing as him

~it’s you, it’s you, it really is you...

thank you for reading!!! i hope it's a fun read! feedback is very much appreciated! 🌙💞😌💙 much love to you all! xxxx

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[willgayers]

eddie reacts to more richie tattoos

@tohzier .. i sCREAM i LOVE you SO MUCH for giving me the idea for this hc because i cant stop now??? i cant stop writing this??? SORRY THIS IS SO LONG BUT IT IS WORTH IT TRUST ME

ok so like… once eddie gets over richie’s inhaler tattoo (jk he never really gets over it) he kinda starts getting curious when will richie get more

randomly during breakfast when richie slept over;

“so… when are u gonna get another one”

“idk, why”

“JUST WONDERING”

(not gonna let richie know how much he likes the idea bc again richie would get too excited and tattoo every inch of his skin)

but one day that day finally comes

“guess what eds”

“what”

“i got a new tattoo”

eddie’s tummy flips bc he has bEeN WAItiNG for this

“SHOW IT TO ME”

“whoa r u seriously that excited???”

moment of awkward silence until eddie clears his throat

“uh. no. just show it to me”

“ok”

this time it’s an old-skool pizza tattoo that says in crust we trust and it’s right next to eddie’s inhaler

eddie smiles bc its so cute and so richie

and well he says it’s cute and richie again has the biggest smile bc he likes the fact his bf is supportive™ of his tattoos

so he’s gonna get more and more tattoos and every time he gets a new one he’s gonna go over at eddie’s immediately to show them and eddie is getting really bad at hiding his excitement over the tattoos

so one day richie is like

“im getting a new tat today”

eddie inside: 😳😳😍😍💯💞💖👏🏽💗💯

eddie outside: nice great okay cool wow well that sure is NICE

*nervous sweating dont show him that u are emotionally (maybe even physically) bonering at this*

 richie smirks bc at this point he already knows eddie loves them

“do u wanna come with”

the answer kinda just rolls off eddie’s tongue almost desperatively like he’s been waiting for richie to ask that forever

“yES”

so hand in hand they walk to the tattoo shop that is colored black and red and there are tattoo and band posters framed on the walls and rock music is playing and then richie nods at the tattooer who’s a v pretty girl with one sleeve tattooed and also there’s a huge tattoo on her thigh (she’s wearing a pair of shorts) and immediately eddie is kinda threatened bc he knows richie is bi and this girl looks very cool and WOw eddie just really feels like he shouldnt be here 

then richie lets go of eddie’s hand as he goes over to the tattoo girl

“sup leah im here again”

“you’re basically a regular richie”

they laugh together and eddie gets JEALOUS™ as he glares from the corner of the shop and he’s wondering if they’ve flirted every time richie was here

“i took my boyfriend with me” richie then says and eddie’s not that mad anymore bc that’s right u better tell that girl IM dating you

“oh wow this is the famous eddie????”

“the famous??” eddie questions

“r u serious you’re the ONLY thing this kid ever talks about. wow i can’t wait to show this one to eddie ,,, so im gonna take this tattooed in orange bc eddie likes orange”

eddie swoons bc he can’t believe he mentally accused richie of flirting with this girl when this is what he’s been talking with her

richie blushes ???? and he’s like “OooooKKKkaYYYY how about we get to work now”

so leah has drawn the tattoo already and richie goes lay in the leather chair,,, and leah presses the image to his skin and this time???? its at the crook of his neck??? eddie is very excited at this

he’s sitting on top of a desk ((with his feet hanging in the air bc he’s short)) next to the chair richie is in and is looking at everything very curiously bc he has no idea how tattoos work 

then leah starts tattooing and eddie looks at richie and how he winces a little every time the needle hits a nerve and he squeezes his eyes shut

eddie is not sure if he feels bad bc richie is hurting,,,,

or if he’s turned on bc richie can take that much pain and he looks like sUCH A BADASS

then he does a little sharp inhale through his teeth when the needle hits a nerve real bad

answer to eddie’s wonders; he’s turned on

richie opens one of his eyes and catches eddie staring at him, and a lazy smirk comes to his lips before he winks at eddie

kaspbrak almost passes out

halfway thru the tattoo another tattooer walks in to the shop ,,, he’s an older man with sO MANY tattoos and he has a grey beard and a leather vest and he looks like he’s part of hell’s angels

he looks straight at eddie who gets SO awkward and barely dares to breath because this man could probably eat eddie for breakfast 

but then the man smiles wide

“HI THERE!!!” he says and eddie lets out such a relieved laugh

“hello” he says and richie smiles to himself because his boyfriend is the cutest 

the tattoo is finally done,,, and it’s an old-skool wolf

“what do u think” richie asks once it’s done

“u r very good at ur job” eddie basically breathes out at leah who smiles wide

then richie pays and they walk out,, hand in hand again because they’re always walking hand in hand. its obvious for both of them that they r gonna hold hands when they r walking in public. i will fight you on this

“why a wolf tho??” eddie asks

“bc im a wolf.”

eddie looks up at him with a quirked brow

“…ur a wolf?”

richie just looks straight ahead

“yeah. misunderstood ,, wild ,, obviously im very beautiful …. and im strong enough to walk alone but value pack more than anything”

eddie is gaping at his boyfriend because ???? that was not the answer he was waiting for and that is so dEEP and eds is just very taken aback

richie notices he’s quiet and glances down at him

“what”

“honestly i just thought u were gonna say that you’re like. the alpha male or something”

“well that too”

richie flashes a flirty smirk at eddie with his upper teeth showing out and eddie can literally just like feel his heart go 💘💘💘💘

his gaze slides down to the tattoo that is peeking out from underneath richie’s oversized jean jacket that btw has patches on it. there’s definitely a misfits one and a metallica one

“honestly??? that is so fucking cool” eddie compliments the tattoo

“thanks babe”

eddie’s legs are just gonna go noodle at everything richie says and does that day bc he is overwhelmed @ richie and the sight of him in the tattoo chair is burned to his retinas forever now

“so…. which one did u purposely make orange” eddie asks with a teasing smirk 

richie blushes again

“wow jeez haha idk do you wanna like ,,, catch food or something im starVING” 

tozier is so embarrassed and doesnt wanna talk about it bc he doesnt want eddie to know what a softie he really is. but eddie knows. dont try to act tough richie

eddie just smiles wide again

because richie is the cutest

“sure” he just says

and pecks richie’s cheek

and richie blushes AGAIN

then he quickly says

“the heart”

“huh???”

“the heart. that is tattooed on my chest. it’s orange”

…..

….

“oh mY GoSH EDDIE WHY DID U FALL TO THE GROUND R U OKAY”

eddie for real passed out

@nopetaking @xbell22 @donthateonk8 @stenbroughbros @reddiebrekmyheart @itsgreywaterrichie @donvex @blueeyespurpleskies @ageorgymi @oh-youre-the-worst @eddiekaaspbraak @whipashwhipash @rissyq @richietoaster @edskasqbrak @waterlouis @wyattghouleff @urtury @bukiminajimu @kcutieeesblog @stansmansuris @adorefack@reddieaddict @icyeyes102 @denbroughbill @graveyardshipper @taletellingsir @anxiety-freak-yuuri@rheddie @queertrashmouth 

#richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #reddie #hcs #it 2017 #it #punk!richie

[fsnowemblem]

Would you do a big post about why you like Noire? I know like nothing about her but I think she's really cute and I wanna know what about her makes you love her so much

you asked for it m’dude

you FREAKING ASKED FOR IT

and i assume that at this point you dont care about awakening support spoilers

In general like her archetype of character, a seemingly fragile quirky character that can go insane/berserk, an example is A.B.A. from guilty gear, i love it so much that my first ever original character that i made is this archetype

I really like her backstory, not like in the sense that i relate, but like in the sense that is very interesting, having a shitty shitty parent that did experiments on her, she ends up being a guinea pig for hexes of her mother, and becomes very shy, very jumpy and she talks very softly and with kind of a broken voice, her mother ends up giving her a talisman that is supposed to be hexed so that noire can draw strenght from it so it will protect her, talisman is just a placebo thats just there for noire to vent up her frustrations, she starts yelling, laughing and becomes way more aggressive, it is not a happy story, when you see noire for the first time she has already gone through so much, that the very fact that she is there to fight still is kind of remarkable, she is so determined that a lot of the supports she has with other ppl usually are impressed by her will power alone, she comes to the army broken, sad and scared, like most of the kid generation to be fair, their world pretty much was destroyed, but she along with the others is so set in making things right that her fears and worries are not gonna stop her, in short terms, she is like actually the strongest and most incredible of the kids that went back in time

I touched on her personallity a bit but she is really cool, even tho she is kinda quiet and doesnt usually involves herself with others, she cares about every single person she interacts with and is ready to help and protect anybody at any time, the best example is the support with pannes kid, dude is as much as a scaredy cat as her and their support starts by her doing him a favor, no questions ask and no hesitation, followed by him being inspired by her conviction of making things right and overcoming her fears, so much so that he stops hiding all together, and that support also shows that she is smart as to when to snap and become all violent and shit and when to keep calm and make ppl listen to her, she has weaponized both her cuteness and her aggresive nature

She is a way bigger human than me, if my mother experimented on me to the point of me becoming her guinea pig, i wouldve been like, lol fuck you never talk to me again, as strong as blood bonds are, i am not one to take shit and expect to make peace later, she on the other hand wants to make amends, and even tho the tharja she makes ameds with is not her mother, she wants to avoid her to be repeated by the mistakes of her parents i think that is so cool too, she is incredible

I just love all the little details of her supports about just being so inspiring to the ppl she talks to and her determination being contageous while never hiding her fears, worries and hesitation, she pushes forward despite her being scared, broken and sad, while other ppl have to be pushed to the point where they will actually say how they feel, i like how honest and direct she is, and i also really love how if she gets frustrated with someone being blatantly lying or being dense as fuck she will just snap and yell the truth out of them or really clearly explain her point so then she can help them get better or help them realize something abuot them, her berserk form is kind of a last resourse in this regard but its super funny and endearing when she just looses patience and tell them in ther faces how it is

But enough about her backstory lets go to gameplay!

she has *the* coolest passive ability, vengance, when you get hit you do your damage, plus the damage you where dealt at i think the luck stat x 2? one of the stats x 2, not only you can level up that stat really easily, she levels it up a lot naturally  and you end up getting vengance like 80% of the attacks if not all of them, she is a fucking killing machine its amazing, she is a bit of a glass cannon tho so be careful when using her, but i ended up using her so much that she started to just take like hits that where just around 20% of her health and subsequently dealing one hit kills, and since she is an archer, she can learn the one hit kill skill that is i believe the same stat as the vengance one, so since she already levels it up so fast naturaly she either does a one shot critical, she does a straight up critical hit that will murder fools straight up OR she will deal damage BACK that destroys ppl, SHE. IS. INCREDIBLE

 She is very resistance heavy and in the tail end missions of awakening you are usually getting bombarded by wizards not only is that helpful, they usually attack her bcus she has the least ammount of health so you can just go destroying magical fools left and right, and this is like, just vanilla noire, the first time i played awakening, gregor (a mercenary) was the parent she inherited a skill from, i made her a mercenary after getting said vengance and one hit kill chance, she gained sol, so when she did some insane damage she cured herself up to full health, proceeding to just freaking MURDER, i went with pretty much just her alone in one of the hollow boxes thingies and she just destroyed the whole map by herself taking like 3 damage total, when gaius was her father in my 2nd or 3rd playthru, she had the vengance stat to 50% so her vengance triggered EVERY SINGLE TIME plus the one hit kill skill she was the deadliest unit i had but she kept her glass cannon-ess trait so i had a healer next to her all the time, that being said tho she was my go to, oh shit this unit is super tanky, les go girl 1 shot it, and she did 100% of the time, and the 3RD TIME (or 2nd, i dunno) Libra was her dad, so i ended up making her a sorcerer, and needless to say, i think she ended up getting less vengance triggers but her magic power alone was dropping any fool that decided to wear metal armor that day and not go prepared for the biggest magic damage in human history

I really cant stress this enough

SHE.IS. A. GOD. DAMN. MONSTER. I. LOVE. HER. SO. MUCH. 

Also needless to say, in one of my 3 playthrus, i just went straight up to grimma with her, she got hit to 1 hp left, did the vengance and got grimma herself to freaking 5 hp left GRIMMA, THE FINAL BOSS, THE finall boss that you usually have to use a falchion to do significant damge, she is the hero we need and deserve.

AND TO TOP IT ALL OF, HER MANIACAL LAUGH IS THE CUTEST SHIT IN THE UNIVERSE SHE LAUGHS LIKE A TRUE DISNEY VILLAN AND DOES THE MOST ADORABLE SQUEAL AT THE END OF IT HOLY SHIT, i played the game in english so maybe its just in the english version BUT DAMN DID THE VA FUCKING NAILED IT its like, so perfect how she goes from insane laughter to with that little little hint of her broken meekly voice, BOY HOWDY i fell in love then and there the first time i heard it, best part, she triggered a skill/got a critical hit so often that i hear BLOOD AND THUNDER!! and her laugh SO MUCH, AND IT NEVER GOT OLD I was allways allways aaaaallways all giddy bcus i love it so much, i have 3 critical triggers that i love with my whole heart in awakening, 1 is noires laugh, 2 is noire yelling blood and thunder and 3 is frederick saying “pick a god and pray” bcus hot damn all of them just give me goose bumps, also continuing in voice lines trends

HER VOICE ACTRESS IS SO GOOD i cannot even begin to think about a better job to do this kind of character her passive voice is so quiet, scared and broken and her aggressive one is SO aggressive there is no inbetween its either 100% or 1% volume and crazyness its incredible, her passive voice is like she is constantly in the brink of tears just by talking, and her aggressive one is in the brink of snapping your spine in half mortal combat style and going back to the archetype i like THIS IS HOW YOU DO IT DUDE, THIS IS THE PINICLE OF SHY GIRL THAT GOES INSANE VOICE

If you thought i was done gushing about her IM JUST BEGINNING, lets move to her overall design shall we?

comming off of the voice actress incredible job, her whole demeanor compliments her voice so well, its one of those designs that you just cant see it any other way (even tho i do some changes to it all the time xD) i just cant imagine her having that voice and *not* looking like that you know? she looks straight up incredible (i could maybe use actual breastplate rather than a boob window with a leather support underneath but hey, i guess nothing is perfect)

Her official art of her drawing back her bow but the arrow being all badly placed and shit is objectively the most adorable picture in the world

The tones of green they used for her are really cool i grew in a place with a lot of trees and i really find them soothing, her whole forest green design just kills me and compliment her browns of belt and leather so well, the diamond pattern is also rul cute rather than the boring line pattern virion has, complimenting her whole deal of her being as beautiful and precious as a diamond

The armor she has on her arm looks so good, and so contrasting to the whole outfit i think its really funny but really badass at the same time, why is she wearing a full on knight arm armor? i have no clue but. i. love. it. she is such a powerful unit that she just needs one arm to defend against scrubs aka all enemy units including grimma itself

HER SQUIGGLY EYEBROWS HOLY SHIT

THE CUTE ROBIN HOOD ASS FEATHER SHE HAS ON HER HEAD, THE HEADBAND, THE FREAKING GOLD HEADBAND DEAR LORD

HER

POOFY 

PANTS 

ARE 

SO 

CUTE

I also really really like how she has like 5 leather belts that go from the belt to her high boots, its real unnecessary and you would think goofy as hell but it ENHANCES the poofy pants so good, now it looks liek a renissance striped poofy pants and i am a sucker for renissance clothing, also, imagine her doing flips and twirls with those, they are gonna follow her flow like a god damn princess dress and god dammit she deserves it bcus she IS A BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS 100/10 pants/belt combo, she also has the slickest quiver ever for her arrows, which she hangs on her waist and looks rul cute

HER BOOTS are the best boots in gaming, souper cute, super stylish and really cool looking i just love how tall and chunky they are, they are almost wider than her feet, top notch, the little hole pattern on them give them extra stylish points, they are very basic brown, which just goes to show, if you have a good premisse you can slack on some departments and still look cooler than most of the competition, the little beighe frills on the top of it just puts it all together, incredible, amazing, fantastic i would go on a date with those boots and give em smooches

Im a fan of short hair, i am also a fan of puffy hair and above all i am a FAN of poofy short hair, and she has both, excecuted to perfection, her little long hairs on the side to compliment her messy back, it looks incredible, the braided pattern on the top of her head that just SHOWS how much she cares about her cute hair and with reason bcus its the cutest hair ever, 1k/10 extremely kissable forehead to show love and support when words and praise are not enough, will make you think that she deserves an award for greatest person alive or something, so beautiful it will bring you to tears, so beautiful that will make any dark day a bit brighter, so cute that it surpasses any fuzzy animal on the planet, SO BRIGHT AND GORGEOUS THAT IT WILL BURN YOUR EYES, you get my point by now yes?

her poses of nervousness are cute as hell, makes you want to be there to support her in any way you can, but then you realise that you are looking in a mirror and that not only you see that you also need love and support, but you realize that you can give it, it makes you wanna be a better person, and make everyone around you grow with you, its a mirror into your best self, it will bring you to tears and want to ask for forgiveness to anything wrong you have done in your life

You know how sometimes too much of stuff that you like will sometimes not mix well and end up ruining something in the process? not this time m’dude 

every

single

piece

flows and fits so well with every other composing a beautiful song named Noire, a song so beautiful, amazing, incredible, outstanding and mind blowing that i dont think there will ever be a shining light as bright as this in the whole time i have the privilege of walking on this little dot in the universe that we call earth

so when i say that i like everything about Noire i am NOT joking, i love this character to death, and even  if i wrote this thread with a narrative of me starting really tame and gradually getting overly excited to talk about something that i really love culminating in some ridiculous shit, i really do love this character and i wish to write/design a character this appealing someday a character that seems pretty one note and simple but ends up rooting its way into your heart

#fsnow rambles like a god damn moron #noire #fire emblem awakening #i told you i would write a 10k letter essay if you asked me to go more indepth #but nobody listens #fsnow slowly descends into madness

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GOT7 LINGERIE PREFERENCES

Jaebum:

okay lets get started

jaebum would just LOVE this

he would love to see you all dressed up in black

the panties would be SUPER CHEEKY so whenever you turned around

admiring your body up close and from afar

he would find every detail incredibly sexy and wouldn’t be able to take his eyes off of you

“baby doll, we’re going to have a long night which means that you’re not going to be able to walk tomorrow”

i mean come on look at the cute bow on the panties

you’d be teasing him until there’s no tomorrow

you two would have a very long night ;)

Mark: 

i personally think that mark would like something on the sexier side

 but something that isn’t incredibly ridiculous

he would like something like this

something that isn’t exactly TOO much but something that is

cheeky and shows some skin

as well as being able to see through a little bit with the mesh detailing

but also covering the places that he would want to get to later

this would intrigue him and would make him want to go to 

and explore those places where the magic would happen

would never fail to make him groan at the sight of you

“omg jagi the things you do to me”

not to mention that you’d be punished for making him feel this way

Jackson:

i think that jackson one would go wild at the sight of you in this

i think he prefers more sexy and revealing lingerie 

he would have a clear view of all your goodies underneath

there’s no way that this wouldn’t turn him on

you’d be acting super playful and sexy

not to mention that this is incredibly cheeky

i mean just look at how there is barely enough fabric to cover ur hoohah 

would lick his lips at this sight of this

“omg jagi you look so sexy right now”

would literally not keep his hands off of you and would be quick 

to get u guys into the bed 

Jinyoung:

i think jinyoung would prefer something on the “prettier” side

he doesn’t seem like the type to be a fan of the crazier 

lingerie that include many cutouts and see through detailing

totally a fan of silk and lace material like the one above

seeing you in such a gentle pretty lingerie would get him

all riled up considering the fact that you had surprised him with something

that was particularly flattering on you as well as matching his taste in clothing

would whisper sweet nothings into your ear as you both made your way to the bed to begin your night

“pretty girl, you’ve bought something so pretty but we’re going to have to get rid of it for tonight.”

Youngjae:

like jinyoung, i think our otter would prefer something cutesy

he’s not all that innocent although he would be shy and would be blushing

when seeing you in something like this

“wow jagi you look so gorgeous”

secretly watches your butt as you scamper away towards your bedroom and motion him to follow

gets a hardcore boner but cant help it

you smirk knowing what you’ve done to him and encourage him to not be shy whilst you prepare yourself for what’s going to happen in that bED

Bambam:

ok so bambam is literally a cheeky boy

i mean come on “how do you know im not big”

i think he would prefer something completely revealing

would want you to hide nothing from him considering that he would literally rip it off within 2.0 seconds

“oh yeah baby girl, i like what i’m seeing”

would smirk like there’s no tomorrow

you wouldn’t have to try hard to tease him considering

that you were already basically naked

you would constantly wink and sway your hips until you became irresistible

he’d gotten enough of your torture and would pin you to the bed and would start the magic

Yugyeom

okAY the baby of the group <3

yugyeom biased but no1 cares

acts innocent but we all know he’s not 

he can hump and grind into the floor like its nothing but can

 also act like the hugest baby ever

i think he likes something that’s innocent but with a sexy vibe

this lingerie you can clearly see though but you’re wearing

things underneath

this would get him all worked up and would make him want to do things nonstop 

“w-what are you doing? you look so good though i must admit!”

you would purposely tease him and he pretends not to pay attetnion

shy little bub but the growing in his pants says otherwise

eventually has enough and takes you to the bedroom

fREAK IN THE SHEETS AND KNOWS HOW TO USE THOSE HIPS

ahh this was super long but thanks for reading, i would really enjoy it if people sent in some requests because i do enjoy writing! thank you <3

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diary 4

I haven't had a diary entry since I came home from Wyoming and rereading that made me cry. because sometimes I feel like that isn't me. that ive repressed and pushed down so so so many emotions and feelings that whenever I truly express them it dosent feel like me. that ive become numb to all that happens to me but when I finally realize it its almost like I cant belive it. as if im looking through into someone elses life. but slowly as I comprehend it I finally conceptualize the fact that this is me. I write these and these are my real, true, fucking feelings. I may lie elsewhere but here? why would I? id be lying to myself more than I already am. so to start off, update? I felt like things were getting better. I had a very rough patch with my boyfriend, he almost broke up with me and it killed me. it made me relapse and make me want to fucking die. at one point he was too scared to even fucking call me. but that's all in the past now, and that's all over. so that's good at least. and then my dads, off drinking-- at least for now. recently he has now retreated up to his bedroom permanently, a slight Oder now seeping from underneath the door frame, thankfully I still have the habit of holding my breath from when I leave my room till im downstairs. I don't know how much longer my moms fragile mind state will withstand the constant nagging and begging for booze and food before she caves in, making him the monster he was before. although he still is a monster. the constant verbal abuse, bipolar mood swings and manic breaks or depression crashes that change the family's whole dynamic, the fact that I cant spend family time downstairs with both my parents without an argument ensuing after my father degrades my mother for a simple task, and completely humiliating her and making her feel like nothing. my health is getting better as well, mental and physical to an extent. to not live in the house with an alcoholic is a plus, but living with a emotionally and verbally abusive father, as well as a mother that degrades you and humiliates you whenever she finds necessary isn't really the combination for a good mental state. from my mothers messages, every single time she hurts me or says something she shouldn't have, instead of apologizing makes her look like the victim. making it out to seem that I overexaggerate truths to others to gain sympathy, basically making it seem as if the situations I face are pathetic, and that I am disgustingly incorrect for ever thinking that I had the right to call for help or tell someone about my issues. because I don't have any issues right? its allll just a scheme for people to pity me because I crave attention, right? that the one person in the planet that actually knows what im going through im using to garner sympathy from them because of course I should never tell others my family affairs. and if I do its an over exaggeration used to make everyone seem like a bad guy except for me, and make a sob story for people to feel bad for because I just love telling people my mom tells me im too fat to wear crop tops. and I just love telling people that my father got arrested for assaulting my mom and attempting to throw her out of the house infront of me because she wouldent make him food. I love telling people that I was so desethisyzed at one point when I was told by my frantic mother to sit in my closet and lock it, to hide from my dad who was trying to break into the house, and when he does hear my parents scream at each other over the noise of my favorite singers new movie being played, texting my friends because I cared that little at that point. I love fucking telling people every single overexaggerated thing about me because im a fucking attention whore right? and those moments where you say ive been through more than you are lies right? Because when I asked for help you laughed in my fucking face. I HAD TO TRY AND FUCKING OVERDOSE ON PILLS FOR YOU TO GIVE ME ONE VISIT TO A THERAPIST. I HAD TO HAVE A TWITTER, FILLED WITH SUICIDE RIDDEN CONTENT AND OBVIOUS MENTAL ILLNESS FOR YOU TO GET ME HELP. NOT EVEN BY YOUR OWN ACCORD! THE FUCKING COUNCILOR TOLD YOU YOU HAD TO. fuck. its almost if I have more issues with my mom than I do my dad. ive thought ‘god I want to fucking kill myself’ genuinely, when with my mom, more times than I ever had with my dad. and that should say something. 

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But Ive been dying to write more for you, especially given how much love and encouragement Ive received from this community in the past. Lets just call him Peter. I wont say his real name because he is a redditor too although he doesnt know about my alt account here. I dont porn checz write fiction, I always want to write about things that really happen to me but as I said lately Ive been so consumed with school and family issues that my sex life has been put to the side. But I couldnt resist sharing! Hi, Im Cindy and it has been a long time since I have written anything for GWS probably because I havent really had any exciting sexual experiences in a long time too! " And since you kinda stopped talking to me I guess this is my way of saying what I want to say to you! He tries to pretend he doesnt and actually I dont understand why. But I recently had an experience thats maybe more funny than sexy, but I thought I would share all the same! I guess I rely a little too much on reading other peoples experiences and living vicariously through you, and of course always with a healthy dose of some of my own memories to pass the time. Instead he always insists Im like his little sister and that we are just really good friends. I am pretty sure he jacks off thinking about me, and to be honest sometimes I get myself off thinking of him thinking of me (if that makes any sense! Whenever I cross my legs he cant help but look, and I catch him sneaking little peeks at me all the time. Peter and I are pretty much best friends but I obviously know he likes me. I think its so sweet that he pretends he isnt into me when he is (and everybody can see it too) but it also kinda hurts on a deeper level because he could probably be a great boyfriend if he knew what he wanted. He is cute and funny and smart and all the things I like, and if he had more confidence I am sure I would look at him so differently. His eyes betray him though. Long story short, we are friends and thats probably all it will ever be. And as much as I care about him, I dont want to be his life coach either. We had a moment last week though. It was on Saturday and we spent most of the late afternoon at the public pool swimming and hanging out. Even though I talk a big game online, IRL I am pretty shy most of the time so it is not my style to initiate things under most circumstances. I wore what I usually wear to the pool: my bikini under a pair of jean shorts and a loose tank top, flip flops. I know he knew what I was doing but we both played it off like it was nothing. Nothing fancy but I could tell by the way Peter kept stealing glances that he was really into me on that day. Later we were talking by the picnic tables and I noticed he was trying to hide his erection with a really awkward posture. There were lots of other people in the pool, so it was really low key, but I was doing my best to drive him crazy just for fun. I laughed and said something like "Who is that for? " as if I didnt know it was for me. I guess what I am trying to say is that confidence is the #1 that gets me excited about a guy and its really the one thing Peter lacks. I made sure he had a good look the outline of my breasts whenever I moved, and my tank top was wet and clinging to my bikini underneath. We talked for a while, but our talk kept circling back to little sexual innuendos making light of the fact that he was obviously really turned on. I wanted his eyes all over me. "You keep teasing me, I cant help it, Im only human" was what he said more or less. After a while he still didnt go soft and I started to feel like he was really changing, like becoming much more sexually suggestive with the way he was talking and looking at me. At one point I moved past him and for a brief moment my hip brushed his dick. I remember thinking "boy, you obviously dont even know me! I wont lie, I liked it, but it felt strange because of all the things he had said to me before about us just being friends. So since maybe the end of Feb I have been hanging around with a guy who I met through another circle of friends from school. " but he didnt laugh, he was all serious again. He didnt say anything like "I want to fuck you" but it was more like "I would break you in half, you are playing a dangerous game" and stuff like that. I made a joke about how he needs to go home to take a cold shower after that day, and he was like "No, Im good, and anyway it takes more than a cold shower to dial me down" I laughed at him and was like "maybe you should just go into the restroom and jack off! if you somehow happen to stumble on this post and recognize yourself: "I love you! He said, "it takes me forever to cum, you have no idea. " So I said "You would cum in under a minute. He felt nice and hard, obviously really turned on, and casting czech casting czech andrea I was impressed by how stoic he was all things considered. I just looked up at him in the eyes, all innocent. I curled my fingers along his thigh and felt his bulge and I couldnt help but smile. So I pulled my hand away and he bit his lip on instinct. " That finally made him laugh, so I put my ice cream cup down and finally brushed up along side him, like the first time I ever really did that in an obvious way with him. " I said, trying not to smile, eyes wide. So I ran my fingers along his bulge again, and he gritted his teeth and gasped, his eyes closed. Most other guys would have jumped me by then. " "You better stop Cindy" he grunted. " When it started to get dark around 9 the czechcastings pool was starting to close so we left and he was walking me back to my place but along the way we stopped to get ice cream at Dairy Queen and we went into the park behind DQ to eat. " After a pause: "Like I will take you home and fuck you all night. " I squeezed him through his shorts. " I said with a pin-up tone. He didnt say anything. In the pool I would occasionally brush up against him to try to innocently tease and I could tell it worked because he kinda stopped moving and allowed me to brush up on him whenever I swam or stepped near. " I shrieked, pretending to be shocked but unable to conceal my glee. " "No, but youre gonna make me do something we will both regret. I smiled up at him and reached into his shorts, curling my fingers over the head of his very very hard cock and scratching the soft flesh there ever so slightly with my fingernails. I draped my right leg over his left thigh and my fingers fumbled with the waistband of his swim trunks. I felt his bicep tightening against the press of my breasts as I leaned into him. So I wrapped my hand around him and squeezed, stiff like a femur. " "I bet I will" is the best he could manage. I squeezed again and licked my lips. "Im serious," he said, "dont tease me. Then I decided to give him a chance. I felt him throb against me. I want you to fuck me with your hard dick. Peter sighed and his cock started twitching in my grip. "You wont last a minute if I try. " I laughed and pulled away, my tease complete. "Dont cum" I said with a wink, and I began stroking him with a steady rhythm. "So much for lasting all night! I knew he was almost ready, so I whispered one more thing: "Please, please dont cum yet Peter. Peters body stiffened up right away, and he dropped his head back and shut his eyes. " I boasted with a big smile. Peter suddenly seemed so embarrassed by that. Instead of laughing with me, he got all self conscious, standing up and trying to clean himself with our napkins. I cleaned my fingers with the napkins silently, and then we walked home awkwardly. He jerked in my hand and was gasping while his orgasm seized him, totally out of his control. He had cum all over his left thigh and I imagine he shot into the fabric of his shorts too, although it wasnt visible if he had. "If you last 5 minutes, you can have five minutes with me to do anything you want" He looked down at me, surprised and unsure, so to show him I was serious I started stroking his cock slowly. I wont lie, Im a little disappointed, but at the same time it was fun to have that kind of control over a guy who thought we would "destroy me" czech castings streets porn if given the chance. So "Peter," if you are reading this, be nice to czech mature casting tube me okay? Peter has been really cool and aloof with me ever since, so I wonder if its true what they say that you must keep your friends out of your love life. Thank you so much for reading! And for all the awesome people at GWS, sorry this isnt as grandiose or elaborate as my other experiences Ive written about, but its the best I can do for now! In the meantime, Ill keep reading your stories and wait for my moment! When he finally stopped cumming, I let him go and laughed. I didnt mean to embarrass you. The cum pulsed out of him and coated my hand. I kinda hoped that our little game might open things up for us, but it had the opposite effect. Love, Cindy /u/oh__yes__sir