#i can't fit in anywhere

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#definitely not feeling my best lately #the end of the semester is always hard #bc understandably im tired #but have to study more than during the semester for the upcoming finals #but really it's more than that #ive been trying to make peace with who i am academically but it seems impossible #i can't fit in anywhere #not with the ~great~ students bc im not good enough #not with the indifferent students bc i study all the time #and there's this prof who thinks im deliberately downplaying my skills #which is both frustrating and painful bc im literally giving it my best already #im just not that smart!! #you know i was positively excellent back in school #and now im average #not bc im not trying #im doing my absolute best! #what else am i supposed to do? #so now it feels like befriending my lab partner was a mistake #i adore her but she's so brilliant and i feel like im dragging her down with me #it also feels like asking my favorite professor to be my thesis supervisor was a mistake too #bc i adore him as well and he thinks way too highly of me #and i am so going to let him down #oof #txt

[five-and-dimes]

Here’s a headcanon I don’t know what to do with:

Once they get together, at the end of nights when Dream visits, Hob will take his hand and say, “Stay?” and Dream without fail will respond, “Yes.”

Now here’s the thing about this little routine. At no point is a full sentence spoken out loud.

So from Hob’s point of view, every night he is asking “Will you please stay?” and Dream is saying “Yes I will stay because you asked me to.” But from Dream’s point of view, Hob is asking “Do you want to stay?” and Dream is saying “Yes, please allow me to stay.”

Both think the other one is doing them a favor. Both think they are the one making a request and the other is the one fulfilling it. They’re both carrying around gratitude towards the other for being kind enough to “indulge” them and spend extra time together.

I don’t know how they would ever find out about this strange ongoing miscommunication or what the reaction would be. I just think it sounds like something that would happen to them. They're both emotionally compromised idiots.

#Hob: Dream is so nice to stay longer when I ask him to even though he's so busy #Dream: Hob is so kind to allow me to stay in his presence longer even though *gestures at all of himself* #the sandman #dreamling #halfbaked headcanons #finally given up on putting this in one of my own fics I just can't find anywhere it fits or makes sense to come up #but if anyone has any ideas to expand on it by all means share with meeee

[deaderthandoubledead]

A VICTIM MARKED BY ALL THE TMA FEARS???

#I heard the fog&lonely and the watching and the corridors and the tetanus& gangrene and screamed #I can't place the Hunt anywhere here but I feel like the rest of Smirke's 14 fit #also is that just me or is that a foken anglerfish mention?? #I am unwell #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #tmagp ep 18 #the magnus protocol

[goodplace-janet]

not the most matchingest of outfits? but i'm dressed and that's what matters.

featuring a @mayakern skirt and a really old shirt containing what i could have sworn was art by @meganlara but i can't find it anywhere to confirm :/

#maybe a close up on the shirt later? #even though you can't buy it anywhere #i think i got it in like. 2012 #face tag #this is from earlier in the day obvs #current fit: pajamas #who was the other art nouveau and pop culture artist? #they did doctor who and disney princess crossovers? #this is going to bother me lol

[whos-hotter-jjba]

Hottest JoJo Character Bracket - Match 2-27

#to everyone who's been talking about how kakyoin's pic is bad please send me options!! i can't find good canon images of him anywhere #i want to give him a chance #i think this is our first divorce poll? #fitting that it's with jotaro and his divorced dad energy #but i am so sorry for kakyoin because he will be getting his ass kicked by his boyfriend. again #kujo jotaro #jotaro kujo #kakyoin noriaki #noriaki kakyoin #stardust crusaders #diamond is unbreakable #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #who's hotter jjba #hottest jjba character bracket #jjba minor

[sunshinediaz]

wip wednesday ♥️

happy wednesday friends <3 i was tagged by @wikiangela, @exhuastedpigeon, and @rogerzsteven to share something so thank u all mwah

this is from eddie vs the hoa because he and buck made a pallet of blanket in the living room floor to sleep on and i think it was cute so please enjoy 🫶🏼

“I know,” Buck says, a little drowsy. And he does know—Eddie’s told him everything. There’s no secrets between them. “It’s big enough for you and Chris to grow in.”  “I think it could be a forever home.” It’s a whisper because anything louder might disrupt the moment. “Mine and my son’s and yours, too.”  Buck blinks, slow and sleepy. He’s less than five minutes from falling asleep; he worked so hard today. He deserves to rest. “Mine?” he repeats, voice pitched high like he doesn’t quite believe it.  Eddie’ll make him.  “Yours.” He reaches out, picks at a dark eyelash resting on Buck’s cheek, and holds the tip of his finger near Buck’s mouth. “Make a wish.”  Buck’s eyes cross, twin blobs of blue in the flickering light of the laptop screen, and he puckers his lips to blow a bit of cool air. The eyelash drifts off somewhere over Eddie’s shoulder, but he doesn’t care to know because the color of Buck’s eyes is the same shade of blue the sky was the night he stayed up with his abuelo.  “What’d you wish for?”  Buck chuckles. “If I tell you, it won’t come true.”  Eddie hums. “I’ll make it come true,” he swears, and he thinks Buck’s cheeks tint red, but it might just be from the light of the laptop screen. 

no pressure tagging @honestlydarkprincess, @giddyupbuck, @eowon, @eddiediaztho, @wildlife4life, @watchyourbuck, @thewolvesof1998, @alyxmastershipper, @jeeyuns, @fortheloveofbuddie, @hippolotamus, @ladydorian05, @callmenewbie, @nmcggg, and anybody else who wants to share something!

#if anybody's wondering we're over 15k in and no eddie's not anywhere close to realizing he is in fact head over ass in love with buck #it's all planned out and can i just say. can i just say that eddie has no inner monologue because he says everything on his mind always #and yeah yeah whatever buck's being a doll and mowing his yard before he gets ANOTHER ticket but does he have to do it shirtless #does he have to draw a whole crowd of people that eddie has to chase off because what the fuck #eddie's got groceries in the backseat he can't be arguing with his neighbors ogling buck #because if his ice cream melts he's going to throw a big fucking fit #he's waited mONTHS for the store to get lavender honey back in stock goddammit and if his nosy neighbors don't let him enjoy it #he'll have a fit #and it's all buck's fault really like why is he mowing SHIRTLESS #buck don't you know that's going to irritate your skin #BUCK DON'T YOU KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOWER BEFORE YOU GO HOME #might as well not go home at that point #that's what your room is for buck just stay the night #matter of fact just stay forever #platonically tho #anyway #tag games

[stromer]

#quite literally a how it started vs. how it's going moment #i watch erik haula exit interview and go completely ballistic. THIS is female hysteria!! #you've been traded. you think it's going to be a good fit. you're excited. you believe things happen for a reason #you HOPE you're there to stay even before you step foot in the rink. you don't want to keep packing up your family from team to team #the season ends. you've got a new family now. you don't want to pack up and leave them for anyone else. you WANT to stay for them #“this is My Family.” i can't play anywhere else when nothing will ever be This #these people i didn't even know 9 months ago become these people i broke records with and made it places no one ever imagined… #the devils happened to you for a reason. you stumbled into something unknowingly and now you are pleading to stay. absolutely unreal #i think it's extremely warranted to go bonkers when guys who've been ran through the league finally find a place that is Their Home. sorry #erik haula you are so fucking special to me dawg i WILL pay for your contract. i WILL make sure you are here to stay. that's a promise. #quite literally gnawing on the sharpest edges of sheet metal i am so fuckin gSICK #if fitzy doesn't work something out with him and they lose the certified uncle and the goat…

[bombusbombus]

woe. beetles be upon ye

#all taken from Dan's run at fox #there are more but this is the widest spread from the largest number of artists that I could fit into the picture limit lol #there are about 10 comics I can't find anywhere for the life of me #but other than those I've got Dan's pre-charlton comics under my belt #and let me tell you? #THEY AREN'T WORTH IT #DO NOT READ THEM #FUCK #either way I'm into his charlton comics now and he has unique characterisation so I'm thriving #blue beetle

[dasloddl]

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#ending the series with some edits that just didn't fit anywhere else.. just the extra stuff #oh god I can't believe this is the last post (for now at least) #hörk #leo hölzer #adam schürk #spatort #tatort saarbrücken #tatort #vladimir burlakov #daniel sträßer #ard #adeo #+ text posts #text post #das fleißige lieschen #der herr des waldes #das herz der schlange #die kälte der erde #dfl #hdw #hds #kde #pia heinrich #esther baumann #brigitte urhausen #ines marie westernströer #pesther

[35eddion]

REIGEN OBJECTION!!!

this was going to be a gif of reigen doing his hands thing before landing in this pose but i eventually realized i just don't have the skills to animate that so here, you can have him as a png, have fun, put him in situations if you want

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #reigen arataka #mp100 fanart #arataka reigen #galerie #moj #gnawls in frustration i hate not having the skills to make what i want to make ughgheggheghhgegh #i can't even stand to look at this anymore i was at it for a month and it just didn't lead anywhere #take him away from me please before i print him out and eat the paper #on a more positive note. i think he would fit within aa very well. bullshitting his way through court making phoenix -worried- proud #and i've always wanted to draw a character in this pose because i looooove the poses in the games so i had fun with that at least

[wowbright]

Spent the day sitting on the floor (usually cross-legged) in order to hand-baste a king size quilt and discovered that I am definitely getting too old to sit on the floor all day.

#it would be great if we had a table that was the size of the king size quilt #except IDK anywhere it would fit #also it would be great if I could have done it over a period of days #but the only place where I can clear the floor for a space large enough for the quilt is next to the kitchen #which is a high traffic area #and I would never trust the cat alone with it #so I can't leave it there overnight #so my choice would be to fold it up and put it away after each session of basting #which might have been even more of a pain in the ass because then I would have to re-square everything up every single time #and more likely to have fabric puckers etc #so yeah I did it but yikes #let's hope i don't get bursitis #quilts #quilting #gpoy

[chemicalarospec]

look as someone with medium sized soft breasts it really bothers me when people portray bras as Evil Tools of Oppression that you will chose to frequently forgo once you're (a) Liberated (Woman). I wear a bra every day not because like. men tell me to. or like. i don't want my unfairly sexualized nips to show.

I wear a bra every day because it gives me support. Because otherwise I can't jump without it hurting -- any movement that makes my breasts swing makes the skin stretch, which can be a little painful. I wear a bra (or binder) every day because it makes clothes fit comfortably and I like the way it makes my body look. Going without a bra is not comfortable for me -- for one reason, I don't like wearing pajamas all day long and not wearing a bra puts me in that mentality, but in the same way I enjoy dressing up, I enjoy wearing a bra. (Edit: originally I forgot but they also stop me from feeling my sweaty skin stick together! big win!) But even regardless, my bra is a bag for my two hanging sacks of fat on my chest; it's convenient.

(PS: If your bra hurts, it's too small. Wear it looser or get a bigger one!)

Edit: I have more context for this post in the reblogs but I definitely let it overemphasize my personal feelings when the point I didn't realize I was trying to make was "bras are objects that serve a purpose besides a oppression; it is entirely reason for even a Liberated Feminist to chose to wear a bra". Also I was trying on my binder a different way and realized it's actually not too uncomfortable to not wear a bra with some shirts (may also depend on where in cycle) (I don't think wearing any short of shrug/sweater over would be comfortable though. I don't really like the way it looks but I may pick up lounging like this. #charactergrowth

#feminism #bras #sexism #women's clothing #i have a bunch of bras but one i wear the most bc the others all have small problems. #last time i went shopping i was extra small and bought Cs?? but i can't wear them half the time lol #I said this #one thing i don't appreciate about modern feminism is like. not considering where something might have come from. #it's sort of a trend i see in general #do u really think they invented deoderant for hairless skin and for hairy skin and then separated them into men's and women's #or did they develope two products separately and refine them according to the needs of the target users of each #bras didn't like. spawn into the world with the patriarchy. they are a fashion garment -- an undergarment designed to serve a purpose. #before bras we had corsets. unrelated but I WOULD wear a corset. idk what the oppurtunity would be but if someone challenged me to wear a #corset for a month if they got me the perfect-fit corset i would do it and i think i would love it #also unrelated but if it was like anywhere near the realm of normality i would wear gloves a lot lol

[funforahermit]

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#what if i just quit tumblr would you even notice? #anyway there's a bug on my screen #shit it flew away and almost killed itself in my desk lamp #careful buddy <3 #so yeah i'm drunk and #my girlfriend is 7500 km away and #you're all friends with each other and not with me but it's my own fault because i can't have conversations like a person #and i voluntarily left the discord i was initially invited in #and discord is stupid actually?? #and i don't fit in anywhere #and i wish i was still simping for paul darrow those were the days #but whatever #i'll just keep on talking to myself

[kitnita]

Hello Zoe, your mirobotter fic was a paradigm shift and a work of genius!! I haven't stopped thinking about it all weekend!! In it you mentioned that there was an article about the 2017 draft class talking about each other -- is this a real thing we can behold with our own hands and eyes?

i would've sworn i was referencing Very Real Things but i tried hunting around for articles with at least a quote from each of them talking about each other and apparently! there are none!! i would have bet actual money that there was at least ONE article like this written by mike heika and posted to nhl dot com forward slash stars, and yet.

the closest i found, as far as official articles where they're kind of talking about each other, is this one from this past october where all three of them are more just talking about The Team and Doing What It Takes To Win. this one from when otter & robo were about to start their first pro season with the texas stars (and miro was already more established) focuses more on otter & robo and sees them talking a little bit about the draft class.

' “I like to call myself a top forward prospect, Miro is one of the best defensemen in the league already, so that obviously panned out. And then they got a top goalie prospect,” Robertson said. “I think it was a pretty succesful draft that year. In the next couple years, I want to be able to have it where people mention how that draft changed the franchise.” “I think we want to make our mark on the Stars and maybe be remembered as one of the better drafts the Stars have had in a while,” Oettinger added. “It would be cool to have me and (Robertson) both make the team at some point soon and be representing that draft class and having people look back and say, ‘Wow, that was a great draft for the Stars.'” '

which is cool!! but there's no miro there, he is simply haunting the narrative for jake & jason as the ghost of hockey future. and then every article about the 2017 draft class is more just .......... people from the front office and/or various coaches talking about them, rather than them talking about themselves. the thing is, i know they've all talked about their draft class — even miro!! but those quotes must just be confined to media availabilities, or other random solo interviews.

this is going to eat away at me now so i will. probably. chip away at hunting down quotes they've given on each other and compiling them somewhere, if only so i can have it as a reference point!

& in the meantime i'd like to issue a formal apology for gaslighting both myself & you into believing there was a '2017 draftees on 2017 draftees' article out there

#replies #jason robertson #jake oettinger #miro heiskanen #like look i love a dumb little project #but honestly i can't believe that it's kind of my only option??? #why has no one made them talk about each other all at once!! #& then put whatever was said down in an article on espn or the athletic or whatever. For Me. #from a quick cursory search there's also so much more from jake & jason talking about each other and/or miro. + a little of miro on jason #i Am Sure miro's talked about jake before i just literally can't find it anywhere. where is the inherent goalie/dman bond when you need it! #also !!!!! i am so so glad you enjoyed the fic #this research will surely only give me more brainworms about how the three of them Fit Together

[reblog-house]

Just taking a stroll on the cliffside with poppies around, not a care in the world.

#hermitcraft #desert duo #grian #gtws #gtwscar #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft fanart #mcyt #yes the first piece of art i post here in ages and it's hermitcraft. thought it'd be good omens but i always forget how to draw A&C lmao #this started out as a doodle. then i added dramatic lighting and had to figure out a background. so that happened #was always bad at painting backgrounds with grass and sky so UH figured it out as i went i guess #could i fix this up? yeah probably. but if i keep putting off posting this i never will. been a couple days already so. have at it #cut it into 3 versions with different compositions. because i'm extra like that (and bo made me realize it looked good horizontally too) #carime rambles #ALSO. I love these new brushes so much. SO much fun. and my painting one makes clouds INCREDIBLY easy. can't say 'expect more art' but also #this isn't meant to be anywhere specific btw. i just painted whatever fit the scene. #my art #grian is SO grumpy here. fills me with joy

[em0-opossum]

sick of people acting like being alone/lonely = being single. ofc you're allowed to feel like that, I'm aro and could not care less that I don't have a partner so I have no idea what it feels like to have that experience, but god just once I'd like to find poetry and art made by people who know how it feels to have no friends and feel lonely no matter how many people are around you and know that you don't belong no matter where you are

#I'm lucky enough to have two good friends right now who i love very much #but that doesn't mean that they understand how i feel or how i have felt #and knowing you're alone in that overbearing loneliness just alienates you more and further perpetuates the feeling #i still miss out on so many opportunities to be friends with people i genuinely want to be friends with so bad because i can't talk to them #i still get so paranoid sometimes and stop replying to anyone because I'm convinced they hate me and there's something wrong with me #sometimes to the point where i avoid teachers who i need to talk to because i am sure that everything i say will be wrong #even someone being nice can feel awful because i think that they just feel bad or are pretending and actually trying to make fun of me #i know nobody actually knows who i am or how i feel because i hide everything to fit in with people and what they need/want #i have never felt like i belong anywhere and trying to explain that to people is so hard #there are times i love being alone but knowing that I've missed out on every regular human experience is so isolating #i just want to be normal and have friends i love and hang out with and talk to and not feel like every word i say could be the end of me #and when i try to find anybody who relates all i get is “oh im alone again :(( being single is awful” #i really do empathize with those people but it is nothing like my experience of loneliness #(tags are just for finding people who relate) #social anxiety #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #actuallyavpd #loneliness #chronic loneliness