#i am not okay about these two

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Long post ahead! I just wanted to share some thoughts on the latest Fundy-Wilbur Lore stream, and it turned out to be a bit of a ramble, so apologies for that! Hope you enioy reading :] //TW for talk about suicide and spoilers for the stream

You know what makes the stream even more gutwrenching for me? At the start of the stream, Wilbur asked Fundy if he wanted to hang out. He hasn’t talked to his son in years and wants to at least try to have som fun with him

And when Fundy, after a small pause as if he was suprised that Wilbur actually asked- he says yes. Even though he knows his father left him -was the first one to abandon him- cause he knows a part of him still misses his dad, despite everything And Wilburs answer? His little “Yeah?”. A question cause he’s suprised. He’s shocked that his son actually thinks spending time with him would be worth it. Even though they left of on..bad terms, to say the least. But you know what really gets me? The way Wilbur says that. His quiet “Yeah?”, his reassurance that his son still loves him enough to be around him? He sounds like he’s two seconds away from crying on the spot. He sounds so happy- to hear that yes, he finally has a chance to fix this- to give his Funster, his little trans furry- his son, at least one good memory of the two before he goes.

Because he knows Fundy is mad with him, he paused when Fundy screamed about Wilbur never leaving sarcastically. Because Wilbur knows that he wasn’t there for his son when he should’ve been during Pogtopia and the Elections. He’s at least starting to acknowledge his death had an effect on others. Including Fundy.

So he desperately tries to have fun with his son, to go teach him how to fish, to play an hilariously awful play of Catch with him. Wilbur apologizes, cause as he said- it feels like nature to him- and tells his son that as long as Fundy is happy, he’ll be alright. Even if that happyness is without him in the picture. Even if it is with his rival. Even if he never gets to see his son again. If Fundy is happier without him, he can understand and respect that. Fundy has every right to do so.  But when Wilbur asks if Fundy will remember what they did together? The fishing? The play of Catch? His apology? He’s met with silence.

And Wilbur takes that as a No, his son doesn’t even want the memory of him, which is alright. It hurts, yes, but if his son is happier he’ll swallow the hurt down. But then Fundy says he set his spawn far away, how he isnt really friends with anyone in Las Nevadas, how he doesnt plan on contacting anyone anymore and just get away- Wilbur gets a twisted kind of deja vu, he sees himself in Pogtopia where his son is standing, near the edge of the plattform. He even outright says that he thinks Fundy is heading down a dangerous path.  He doesnt want his son to go down the same path he did, he doesnt want the literal hell he was in for years to happen to Fundy- his own son.

But he’s to late. Hell, Wilbur barely even had time to react before he saw Fundy jumping off. Its how Wilburs hope- his immense joy to finally have a chance to end off on good terms with someone- how at first he can at least bite down the pain at Fundy justifyably not forgiving him and not wanting to talk to him-

and how it turns out that no, it gets worse, he has to see the after-effects of his son going through the same pain as he did in Pogtopia- the only difference being that Fundy wasn’t a grand president, he never got to be, and how everyone actually turned on him and abandoned him, Wilbur included, while Wil during Pogtopia was only consumed by Paranoia to think so

And finally getting to expirience the feeling Phil, Tommy, Niki, Fundy himself and hell even Quackity had to go through when he first left.  And now Wil has to deal with the fact that he knew what Fundy must’ve felt like- he literally has felt it himself, and realize that he was to late To late, cause he avoided even thinking of his son to avoid the painful memories, and when he finally talks and apologizes to him? 

He was to late to finally be there for his son when he was struggling And to thinking of that in hindsight while rewatching the stream, when seeing him barely get out the quiet “Yeah?” It feels like a punch in the gut

#wilbur soot #c!wilbur #c!fundy #dsmp #dsmp spoilers #dia rambles #i am not okay about these two #suicide tw #apologies for any spelling mistakes #nothing better then some good ol salt in the angst-wound on a good monday evening amirte? #dream smp spoilers

[crybaby-bkg]

I think Deku has a bit of a mean streak, actually. he’s no Bakugou—that’s for sure—but he’s not this innocent, sweet angel baby that the media has painted him out to be. but you only catch it when you least expect it, when you’re pushing his nerves, when the stakes to everything around him are high, when he’s tired of endless sleepless nights and just—snaps.

“Oh?” you go, grin unfurling like some grinch, chin resting on your hands as you leer at him from across his expansive desk. “You’re mean.” your words are teasing, a snarl that curls your mouth up. Deku stutters, eyes going wide, jaw snapping shut in surprise as he tries to think back on how rude he just sounded.

“No, I’m not—I mean, you wouldn’t stop and I just—there’s a lot on my plate right now—and you just—you keep on—I’m not—I’m not mean.” He’s sputtering, hands all over the place, the glasses perched on the bridge of his nose falling even lower with how he jabbers on and on. it’s endearing really, to see how he tries to upkeep his image of being so kind and understanding, even though his nostrils just flared at you. and his eyebrows turned down and he gritted at you, his hands were balled into fists, his words were so nasty, so ugly, so unbecoming for Deku.

you liked it. loved it even—vowed to get him like this every single fucking second that you could.

you pick and poke at him whenever you see him, teasing him and pulling at him. pushing him around even though the hero is so much stronger than you, so much bigger. and he lets you, tries to defend himself but—that’s not what you want. you want the ugliness, the snark, the mean.

he snaps, eventually, when you least expect it. grabs you up in black whip when you go to push him against the wall for the third time in only a minute, his eyes suddenly dark, the aura of the room suddenly charged.

“That’s what I was looking for.” you whisper to him, the grin spreading your face quickly dissipating in only seconds when you become the prey. when you become the one pushed up against the wall with teeth at your neck, a hand in your underwear, bullying your hole with too thick fingers.

“Why do you want me to act like this? Be so mean to you, huh?” he sounds so frustrated with himself, with you, growling and nipping and licking when you don’t answer quick enough. but your breath is caught in your lungs because finally—finally, did you get what you wanted. it just took a little bit of pushing, you suppose.

#omg I wrote this idea down last night and couldn’t even type it up #bc I took some sleep meds and it put me out SO FUCKING QUICK???? #usually I don’t lay down until like an hour and a half or two #but it was literally like 40 mins and I was DONE!!!! #but I finally wrote it :D #there’s also been so much talk of him on the dash and i am. very much so liking this #I miss him bc I don’t think about him enough #but I also think he can be. so mean. like NASTY mean when his limits are pushed enough #ohhhh my god I wont him so bad #okay gn I took more meds bc my pelvis has been in so much pain???? #just the right side too??? omg AM I DYING GELP #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #deku treats! 🍬

[egophiliac]

my absolute delight at seeing that the riderboys DO in fact have special magical girl transformation sequences --

(now if they really wanted to commit they would go full sailor moon with the ribbons and bubbles and sparkles, hint hint toei)

#art #ride kamens #the most important thing to come out of the op bar none #'but what about the plot reveal and the villains and the --' BAR. NONE. #wait no they also showed that kamui does have the dangerous zombie spine on his back so that's two important things #(i am worried about leon though. w-why did he get a big glass crack effect over him. leon are you gonna be okay) #(the game hasn't even started yet and i'm already worried about him)

[gunstellations]

a little family

#buddy daddies #my art #doodles #sometimes a family is an two misfit assassins and the daughter of the guy you offed and thats a okay #but lets not talk about that #we love healing in this house and how do you heal if not after suffering #reis journey through depression and kazukis journey through grief #what 1 little girl does to a man #its 5 am all i can offer are doodles but i love them very much #i know we do reasonably get to call them cowards for not making it gay (esp at the end bc come on) #but i do love whatever relationship they have going becuase theyre just. Thats marriage babe.... #theyre not going to be doing any dating with that committment that is the most domestic ass setting ive ever seen #everyone and their mother assumes theyre married/dating and doesnt even question it because theres NO QUESTION T O ASK #only the people involved apparently dont know theyre married #ok nvm they were cowards for not making it gay. but again. theyre clearly married your honor. theyre just a little stupid

[always-a-joyful-note]

Enstars sure is an experience. Did I miss anything?

#are you guys all okay? i definitely am not okay #this is not the type of media that i usually go for yet it is EXACTLY the type of media that i would like #so many gaps so many stories WAY TOO MUCH READING I DONT HAVE THE TIME #i know i missed a lot because ive only watched the anime and read the main music story up to ch 4 of the second part #and i have read some events stories that were free #and maybe one or two outside from translations #but like thats it #this is like reading orv and getting hit with its deep metas on human life and the importance of stories #but instead im being clobbered by the most deranged storylines known to man (and again. i read ORV and am a bsd fan) #this isnt fantasy but there is nothing realistic about enstars and i unfortunately am attached #every day i spiral into east asian media that gives me an aneurysm #bsd -> orv -> link click -> enstars....i wanna say they keep getting more unhinged but theyre all unhinged in different ways #anyway please help me.... #enstars #ensemble stars #fandom spamdom #stuff i say #i will admit i am mostly into the game for the stories #a consistent gamer i am not #but to unlock the stories ill push back the animes i have to catch up on etc etc #again. please help me.... #edit: updated to remove queerbaiting because apparently i dont know whats going on

[cyanorth]

angeleyes sketches ft. john facecam

individuals below cut

#malevolent #malevolent podcast #malevolent fanart #angeleyes #blind faith #blindfaith #arthur lester #arthur lester malevolent #oscar malevolent #john malevolent #john doe malevolent #fanart #sketch #doodle #cyananart #im. ok. im okay #i am Normal about these two

[saltpepperbeard]

WE'RE IN THE SINGLE DIGITS RANGE NOW, Y'ALL. NINE DAYS. HOW ARE WE FEELING 😀😀😀

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #Our Flag Means Death #ofmdsource #ofmdedit #ofmd gifs #ofmdblog #ofmddaily #Lucius Spriggs #Izzy Hands #Edit #I AM JUST #Like I'm beside myself quite honestly lmao #I can't comprehend it at all #I've been struggling to do so ever since things started EXPONENTIALLY ZOOMING OFF #and shh listen shhhshshshsshshshh #i understand that i'm a clown okay #i understand that i was being horsey about it like two months ago #and now i'm over here panicking over it coming out in just nine days #but listen #l i s t e n #the first step is self-awareness okay HSDJKSL

[quietly00]

hello fellow alien stage ivantill enjoyers

#alien stage #alien stage ivan #alien stage till #till #ivan #ivantill #these two make me wanna throw up /pos #i am not okay thanks for asking #tillivan #IM SORRY ABOUT MY HANDWRITING TTTTT #my art

[zishuge]

The Spirealm 致命游戏 (2024) | Ep. 2

#the spirealm #致命游戏 #kaleidoscope of death #ruan nanzhu #ling jiushi #lin qiushi #xia zhiguang #huang junjie #cdrama #cdramasource #kodedit #userhanyi #*gifs:mine #the heart eyes started early and never stopped #this is episode TWO #really love that rnz was so thrown for a second that he actually turned to stare at the pot #anyway i'm always going to remember how i was just about to nope out of this show because of the scary part right before this #(i am not equipped for horror) #but then this happened and i was like ugh okay fine they're super cute i have to keep going #i guess “幹嘛去啊” is actually more like “why are you leaving” not “where are you going” #oops #also “why are you leaving” is so much clingier why is he like this i love him

[bellaxgiornata]

Getting way too ahead of myself thinking of smut ideas this morning where Reader and Matt in The Devil at Your Window can have sex (far later from now) and Reader still can't see his face but Matt won't be wearing the mask so she can actually feel his face and just--

#is it warm in here? 🔥 #i am not okay thinking about these two this morning #the Devil at Your Window #there will be smut

[captn3]

until next time.... stay fresh [plain text: until next time.... stay fresh]

#splatoon #splatoon 1 #wii u #memo's constellations #inkling girl #memo's agents #memo agents: 3 #technically. its the splatoon 1 promo inkling but based off of my 3 design #sad im probably not gonna get to play splatoon in its last moments #its okay though #god. the 3ds and wii u era was fucking awesome #im gonna miss her #triforce heroes‚ splat1‚ pushmo world... god. god #i listened to noteblock's 3ds settings remix and it actually made me cry because triforce heroes showed up in the background #and then it hit me how long its been and how much these two consoles have meant to me #the 3ds was really my gateway into art #thank you colors 3d. ive made it so far because of you #man. something about the online services ending the same day as the eclipse over here. #and the wii u was technically also my gateway into art with splatoon. it made me draw so much more #do you know how much splatoon ive drawn. that game changed me. that game makes me who i am today #thank you

[lovereadandwrite]

he’s literally just a silly little bbg guy !!!✨…

#31 new TS songs & I’ve now drawn two memes from the same one🕴️ #every song on TTPD is actually about Fyodor & BSD actually did you know actually #AND BC I MAKE THE RULES I declare that the birdie is okay !!! #don’t FRET🕊️😭 #he was simply startled by the 🩸 that was already on Fyodor’s hand…😀😶‍🌫️ #his potential 🩸-related ability…messy business is all😶 #also this piece is great bc it shows just how inconsistently I’m able to draw one(1) man who I am entirely fixated on😀 pffft💕 #fyodor #fyodor dostoevsky #fyodor fanart #bsd #bsd fanart #bungou stray dogs #bungou stray dogs fanart #bungo stray dogs #bungo stray dogs fanart #fanart #ttpd #taylor swift #the tortured poets department #artists on tumblr #artists of tumblr #bsd fyodor #fyolai #anime #manga #bsd manga #memes #who’s afraid of little old me #meme drawing

[yellownote0-0]

Hello tumblr! Here are some old Two drawings of mine. As you can see I like Two :]

#bfdi #bfdi fanart #battle for dream island #bfb #bfb fanart #battle for bfb #tpot #tpot fanart #the power of two #xfohv #algebralien #two tpot #tpot two #twopot t #2 tpot #2 #I am a bit crazy for them #I have been crazy about them for 3 years #okay I am VERY crazy about them #I think about them night and day!!!! #aaahh!!! #yellownote

[qrovidcore]

so HEY UH

WAS ANYBODY GOING TO TELL ME THAT DURGE AND ASTARION REALLY DO HAVE THE SAME TRAUMA OR

WAS I JUST SUPPOSED TO FIND THESE PARALLELS OUT FOR MYSELF

OH OKAY YOU ALSO WERE TRAPPED AND HURT YOURSELF TRYING TO CLAW YOUR WAY OUT?????? YOU ALSO WERE THE SPECIAL LITTLE PET OF THE PERSON WHO TORTURED YOU, WHO IMMEDIATELY STARTS TALKING DOWN TO YOU THE SECOND YOU SEE THEM AGAIN?????? OKAY. YEAH. WE CAN COMPARE NOTES IF YOU’D LIKE.

#ALSO ALSO. THE *WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME.* THE BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF WHEN FOUND DYING. I M #SCREAMING #DURGESTARION NATION. WHERE ARE YOU. I NEED YOU. #DURGESTARION NATION PLEASE #THIS IS A DURGESTARION POST I CANNOT STRESS THAT ENOUGH #DURGESTARION ;—; #IT’S ABOUT THE PARALLELS IT’S ABOUT HOW SO MUCH OF WHAT THEY’VE BEEN THROUGH IS THE SAME #IT’S ABOUT THE BEING A TOOL AND A PET FOR SOMETHING MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU IT’S ABOUT THE BEING MADE TO SOMETHING MONSTROUS #BEING MADE TO BE A WEAPON #A ND IT’S ABOUT THE CYCLE BREAKING TOO OKAY #WAAAAHHHHHHH #MY RUN IS ABOUT ONE THING AND ONE THING ONLY #AND THAT THING IS THESE TWO SUPPORTING EACH OTHER ABOUT FIGHTING BACK AGAINST AND GETTING FREE OF CAZADOR AND BHAAL RESPECTIVELY OKAY #bg3 #the paranoid android speaks! #also listen am i cringefail at naming video game characters? yes. #my durge is an elf i pulled up an elf name generator and picked the first thing i could reliably pronounce what do you Want from me #bold of you to assume i don’t name my actual d&d characters like this too

[deer-with-a-stick]

How did the Abbot fuck up the forging process so badly

Multiple night creatures are outright retaining their original souls and personalities

I'm cackling he's so bad at this

#when isaac did it it was because the sinner soul was a weird ass pilosopher #and isaac was cool #but when it happens this many times and with the ORIGINAL souls #its a bit pathetic lmao #seriously its so funny #like ooh look at this scary forgemaster but his night creatures just feel really bad about being night creatures and refuse to listen #castlevania: nocturne #castlevania netflix #castlevania nocturne #castlevania #castlevania spoilers #the first show gave us two competent people and then the show runners decided “okay now we have to make the next one terrible at his job” #also just the “surprise i AM the father” lmaooo

[tabithatwo]

do you think shauna learned that cells turn over completely in seven years thing in high school biology and latched onto it and had an existential crisis meltdown of nuclear proportions when it was coming up on seven years since she’d consumed jackie because none of the cells in her body were born out of the energy she got from jackie’s flesh anymore?

#or am I the only one who thinks like this l o l #I WISH this was shitposting #I’m so serious tho lmao like #I think shauna would think about this #I think she’d study it. like she’d say okay that’s just an untrue fun fact right #but then like once you get down to the detail and the complexity she wouldn’t know if she was MORE jackie or LESS jackie #she’s sitting in the LITERAL CLOSET that she loves to sit in for environmental storytelling purposes crying about cell turnover #jeff comes home and she’s holding a medical journal in shaking hands asking about heart cells #through sobs she asks if only 40% of your heart renews in a lifetime was any of that at the RIGHT time #jeff says what…what Right time you’re scaring me a little #shauna rolls her eyes and kicks him out of his own bedroom so she can cry under better conditions (without him) #she calls taissa for the first time in two years but she of course can’t bring herself to ask so it’s just an awkward call all around #this is both funny to me and breaking my heart like I’m so emotionally dysregulated about this I’m not sure if I’m kidding or serious!! #much like yellowjackets showtime!!! #yellowjackets #shauna shipman #jackie taylor #jackie x shauna #taissa turner #shauna x jackie