#hopefully im less fucking pissy in the morning but who knows

[calamitouscynic]

been in a shitty mood since i got home from work and i cant tell how much of it is just like

genuinely being in a bad mood, or the headache i had when i walked in, or that i was halfway home when i got told i could work from home tomorrow and i Didn’t have my laptop with me so i have to go in anyway

#mine #text #kieran talks #kieran.adulting #i might just run into work grab my shit and my files and then run back for the bus #and work from home anyway #ill have to skip my lunch hour maybe but #oh well lol ill be home anyway #but yeah no i got home and have been in a shitty mood since #hopefully im less fucking pissy in the morning but who knows

[thepleasureisguilty]

misty morning~ were wolf au pt 3

ongoing rp with @ask-a-slippery-boy part 3 of 3 

part1: https://thepleasureisguilty.tumblr.com/post/180510647144/into-the-woods-werewolf-au

part 2: https://thepleasureisguilty.tumblr.com/post/180510912084/howls-throughout-the-night-were-wolf-au-pt-2

SFW~ (ish) has conversation about happenings from previous night, being sore etc. does contain: long drawn out after care  and allot of dog and wolf puns... enjoy! 

thepleasureisguilty

*the sun begins to rise, i am so happy i have been able to ease this process for you. I take a few moments to take in the wolf scent, i savor  the feeling of your fur... And the light hits you*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I give you a long final lick followed by a howl before the light hits me. Like before I’m seized with pain as my body cracks and snaps. Instead of growing I’m folding in on myself like a spy glass. Each pop brings a new wave of pain. My howls and snarls become more like screams and moans. I’m slowly turning back to normal under you.  I dig my fingers into the dirt and shake violently as the changes grip me.*

thepleasureisguilty

*I hold you through the change being mindful that im not crushing you during this already painful experience, i am overwhelmingly excited to talk to you again and see the look on your face when you realize I "layed with the dogs" all night. *

ask-a-slippery-boy

*there’s a few loud final cracks before my body is finally still. The pain fades from me and I tremble from relief as it leaves me.* M-mast... *my mouth feels wrong. Formulating words is a struggle all it’s own. My voice is raspy and faint.* Im not on the tree...? *I sit upright quickly with a yelp* mast! Mast are you okay? Did I hurt you??? Did I???? *I hold you at arms length and look your body up and down. There’s the bite, but I did that before I turned. But you’re covering in scratches and dirt. Tears well in my eyes and I hold you close to me* Mast Oh Mast I’m so so sorry. Are are you okay?? Darling oh my love...

thepleasureisguilty

*I hover over you, now wanting to touch you and make it worse, your fluids dripping from my entrance and onto you as you still. i am relieved when you a make up and hold you close when you sit up. I rest your head against my chest and straddle back down on you, petting you lovingly.* ilya you were extremely gentle with me the entire night... You earned the name good boy

thepleasureisguilty

*I pet your hair lovingly and kiss your cheek* ilya I am fine! I am happy! You have nothing to apologize for *I pull your face back to look at me* you protected and cared for your mate so well *i rub our noses together*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I look at you concerned* B-but I bit you! I mean I was lucid for that, but I was so horny I wasn’t in control really... and you’re all scratched up... and dirty... *I pull you back against me. I’m so tired, my limbs are shaking with the effort of sitting up but I’m so worried.* Darling are you sure you’re okay?

thepleasureisguilty

Comon my love *I pet your hair and smile loosening your chains* lets get you in that hammock handsome

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I suppose I can question you about the night when I wake up. I don’t remember most of it. Just how good it felt to be with you, my mate. Once free of the chains I pull myself up using the tree with a whimper* fuck... god... I’m too tired to interrogate you but I will in a few hours

thepleasureisguilty

*I stand up with a wince, cum still pouring down my legs, i can rest later, right now i need to be strong for you. I wrap your arm around my neck and shoulder and lead you to the hammock, i lay you down and hobble over to my bag, collecting the wool blanket, a biscuits and the bottle of water, i hobble back over and lay the blanket over you* hehe talk about a wolf in sheep's clothing *I laugh a bit at my own joke, both being proud of it and trying to raise your spirits*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I shoot you a look when you wince, i don’t like the look of that. But the cum pouring down your legs more or less answers that question for me.  I do my best to hold you and help you walk too, but when you lay me down I basically collapse. I’m nearly asleep already when you make it back. I pull you into the hammock with me and wrap my arms around you.* I’d bark with laughter, but that joke wasn’t worth it. *I grin but it’s broken by a long yawn*

thepleasureisguilty

Ha neither was that joke *i smile and open the cork to the bottle* here drink something before falling asleep love

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I don’t have the energy to sit up so I pour the water into my mouth from here and inevitably spill some on my face. Not that I have enough energy to give a shit. I pass it back to you* T-thanks Mast. I... it’s better with you here. So thank you for coming...

thepleasureisguilty

* i take a swig and place back on the cork, setting the bottle to the side* darling... I dont want you to go through this by yourself ever again...

ask-a-slippery-boy

*i yawn again* L-let’s talk about it when we wake up... I’m so tired... I can’t think too good... I love being with you but... safety? I just... we need to talk more about it... when I’m not falling asleep, or really wolf horny...*I pull you close to me* but thank you for being here. I love you. You’ve made this whole thing much better...

thepleasureisguilty

We will *I kiss your head and hold you close* we will ilya well talk about everything *kisses head* rest now my love *I pet you and humm to you softly as you fall asleep in my arms, i am brought back to my hiding hole, sketching beetles and little matters of wildlife... I was so lonely then... Now in this hammock there is you... I cant help but take that as a metaphor for you entering my life and hopefully staying here... I hold you similarly to how you held me the entire night , protective, loving, kind... Your my mate... I love you so much*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I fall asleep almost instantly. I don’t dream really. I sleep too deep for that. My body and mind are still aside from my breathing and the beating of my heart. Normally this time is so filled with struggle and pain. I could have never of imagined how much better it would be if I had you here by my side. I’m not scared to deal with the consequences when I wake up, I’m just excited to see you again.*

thepleasureisguilty

*I hold you and stroke your hair while you sleep, occasionally dozing off from my own exhaustion. And occasionally shaking myself awake, wanting to be there for you the same way you were for me last night* my wonderful mate... I want to always be here for you... *i whisper into your hair as you slumber*

*after a while of fighting it, i fell into a deep slimber as well*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*Early afternoon light shines brightly into my eyes. I groan and hide my face into your neck. I’m vaguely aware of my surroundings but my whole body aches. Especially my pelvis for some reason. I’m not ready to wake up yet. I nuzzle my face deep into your hair to pretend that I never woke up. It won’t last, but I can pretend.*

thepleasureisguilty

*I wake to your nuzzling and nuzzle back kissing your neck gently taking a deep breath of your scent, still feeling animalistic from the night*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*As the sun shifts it shines down and warms the blanket and makes us extra toasty. I still don’t want to wake up. Sunburn be damned. I find your hands and hold them. I yawn and  press deeper to you*

thepleasureisguilty

*I hold your hands sleepily and become more awake and persistent with my neck kisses for you*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I groan as you kiss my neck. My body feels like lead. I have a bit of a headache. To be honest I’m in a foul mood. But it’s softened by your presence. It’s difficult for me to find things to be irritated about when I’m in your arms. I brace myself and open one eye to look at you. Gods it’s so bright. And gods you look stunning, maybe a little worse for wear, but some joe still so stunning just the same. I give your hands a little squeeze.*

thepleasureisguilty

*I gaze at you lovingly* would you like some breakfast?

*i can tell you are upset, groggy, cranky, like a hangover on steroids . thankfully i know how much food helps you*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I swallow. Speaking seems enormously difficult. Despite being so pissy, I’m doing my best not to take it out in you, who by the way, I am deeply grateful for.* Breakfast would be phenomenal... *My stomach growls in agreement* but sadly I can’t get up, nor can I bare to part with you. *I swing a leg over yours to anchor you down*

thepleasureisguilty

*I let out a chuckle* i was afraid of that *i present you with the cloth full of biscuits from my bag* eat up darling I'll make ham and eggs when we get our energy back *I smile at you and kiss your chest lovingly* i know your upset my love, but its all okay. Its over now till next month *I nuzzle into your neck giving into the cuddles*

ask-a-slippery-boy

Mast, you are truly miraculous. *I fumble to untie the cloth and pass you a biscuit. I can’t really sit up, but I practically stuff a whole biscuit in my mouth while you talk. I moan as I chew it. Fuck it’s delicious.* I-I’m sorry for being so groggy... I do really appreciate you being here.

thepleasureisguilty

Haha ilya, you have no need to apologize you just turned into a giant horny wolf man for the night! Haha I'm just glad your okay *I nibble on my biscuit happily, i am fairly hungry myself*

ask-a-slippery-boy

About that *I swallow the rest of my biscuit* are you really alright? I... I can’t imagine last night was easy for you. Whatever happened.... actually could you tell me what happened, when you feel up to it? It’s all rather fuzzy for me at best, no pun intended...

thepleasureisguilty

*I swallow my biscuit too* I must admit I bit off more than i thought when I told you i wanted to be bred yesterday haha... You handled me with care the entire night though, even the light scratches on my body... I know you were holding back allot... It seemed like you just simply wanted to be as close with me as possible.

ask-a-slippery-boy

That would explain why my pelvis in particular is so damned sore. *I put a hand on your thigh* I’m sure it must be far worse for you. I do recall... well... er... it’s rather /bigger/ than usual. Mast... I’m sorry if I pushed you too far last night. Is there anything I can do now to help?

thepleasureisguilty

*I flush, a lot of last night was animal instinct for me as well, i expected the moment i agreed that. It would probably be rough... We luckily have been resting the past few days so that makes me not /as/ sore...* ...im sore, there is no hiding that, but i figured i was going to be *I smile at you* you didn't push me too far star strand, it hurts but its also an experience I wouldn't want to remove from my life...... Did.. Did it help you at all? Do you feel any better today because of it?

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I frown* I’m sorry that you’re sore... I... Ive never done anything sexual in wolf mode before... I er... well I didn’t know it would be... like that... *Im blushing pretty obviously. I hadn’t even though about the changes my cock itself would go through. Let alone using it.*  A-anyways... it did help that I wasn’t trying to get away all night. Usually I wake up with grooves carved into me from pulling against the chains all night. I’ve dislocated my shoulder before... and the one time I did get out I had burns from the silver... so thank you for giving me a reason to want to stay...

thepleasureisguilty

*I cup your cheek with my hand* well you did not hurt yourself on the chains , you havent been burned and everything is in place... I call that a successful night *i smile and kiss you softly* the best thing you can do for the next few days is not hump me *I smile and chuckle a bit, lightening the mood*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*Im still really worried about you, but I kiss you back softly and chuckle with you* Mast, I dont think I could hump you if I wanted too... those muscles are very spent. *I pull you into a slightly deeper kiss* I mean, on the other hand..  if you wanted to hump me *I tease with a wink. I suspect we’ll both be pretty spent for the next day or so at least. But... but for the most part you seem to be alright. And having you here did make everything so much better for me, as selfish as I feel about it...*

thepleasureisguilty

Haha I'll need a few meals first my love *I kiss you smiling* i am okay ilya... I'm just sore *I pet your hair and scritch behind your ear again* your a good boyyyyyy

ask-a-slippery-boy

I can’t imagine why *i tease. I flush deeply when you call me a good boy* I- I... well... you know! I ... I just... and you!! Well... I.... *I hide my face with my hands*

thepleasureisguilty

*i giggle at your reaction* your so fucking adorable *I begin rubbing your belly with my other hand*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I hide my face from you in the covers. It was harder to be embarrassed about this when I was uncontrollably horny.*

thepleasureisguilty

Hehehe *I scritch at the side of your tummy * such a sweet boy

ask-a-slippery-boy

You’re so mean! *I tease from the safety of the blankets* did you come all the way out here just to tease me? Fate is a cruel mistress but not half as cruel as you!

thepleasureisguilty

*I scratch your tummy with both hands * you are in love with this cruel mistress my darling *I purr and laugh mischievously as i attack*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I gather my limited strength to throw my hands out of the blanket and grab yours. I pull them to my mouth and pretend to bite one of your fingers before kissing the rest of them* Mast I am /so/ in love with this cruel mistress

thepleasureisguilty

Ahh!!! Do i have to muzzle you again * I bark laughing*

ask-a-slippery-boy

Oh come on now love, my bark is worse than my bite

thepleasureisguilty

*i laugh* I would make you howl if i wasnt so tired

ask-a-slippery-boy

I’d make another pun if I wasn’t in such a bad mood. *I roll over and yawn. Normally I’d suck it up and stumble back through the woods so I can go home. But.. but being with you is far more satisfying than being at home will ever be. I’m happy to just spend some time in the woods with you.*

thepleasureisguilty

*I hold you in a big spoon position* dawww grumpy puppy

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I shake my ass against you too be cheeky* I’m you’re grumpy puppy

thepleasureisguilty

*I buck against you gently* haha yes you are... Is there anything i can do to raise your spirits my wolfy lover. *I nuzzle into the back of your neck*

ask-a-slippery-boy

Yes, there is ... *I wrap my arms around yours* hold me tighter

thepleasureisguilty

*I smile and wrap you in a tighter hug nuzzling my face into your back and kissing you, i also try to wrap my leg around you but wince a bit from being sore*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I smile to myself when you nuzzle into me. But I notice that you wince when you try and swing your leg. I roll over to face you and wrap my own leg over you. I kiss your cheek* I really am sorry for pushing you past your limits

thepleasureisguilty

*I smile* ilya... Do you feel any closer to me today than yesterday?...

thepleasureisguilty

*I nestle myself into your neck, waiting for your response, last night felt like ... Yet another bond was made between us... Or at lease between me and wolf you... I dont even know how i would go about a conversation like that... It wasnt just you rawing me... There was something else behind it too ...at least i thought there was...*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I rest a hand on your cheek* You know? I think I feel a little closer to you with each passing day. There's always something new, another reason that makes me proud to be by your side. But... this is something I've never told anyone... It's a fairly new affliction.. . I I'm still figuring it out. I don't remember much from last night, but I do remember how incredibly right it felt to be with you. I remember feeling whole, happily mated, and bound to you for life.  I... I don't think I've ever felt like that before. I don't think I've ever felt perfectly content, partnered, and without anxieties or doubts. It's true that I had limited capacity for second thoughts or worries, but.. but I think it means something that I felt so deeply content just to share my life with you. Underneath all the needless worrying, there's just love for you

so... yes. I do feel closer.

sorry, I realize I kind of rambled there... its alright if you dont feel the same way I just... wanted you to know that's how I feel

thepleasureisguilty

*I lay there and listen to you talk and bring my face out of your neck when you finish* ...ilya... Thank you so much for trusting me with this part of you, i promise to make these nights as easy for you as possible...i I felt very primal last night... Unable to really communicate with you through words, but when ever I looked into your eyes..  There you were, this grey and red that looks into me.... It felt right to mate with you... Even with the pain.. It felt like it was much more of a bond forming than just trying to get off. It seemed like you wanted me specifically to be there, and even though you were sore too... You wanted to breed me!... And... I wanted you too.... Ilyashka I love you and i am honored to be your life mate! I only hope i can keep up with you *I kiss you softly*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I kiss you back but look at you a little bashful when we part.* He... I... the wolf... I I think "mating" is serious business for him... like I dont recall very well, but I think last night I did have every intention of breeding you for real, of raising "pups" with you... of being bound with you, for life even... *I brush your hair behind your ear and flush* I-it still doesn't sound like a bad deal to me...     *I look away for a moment to collect myself. All that being said...* Mast we do need to talk seriously though... I agreed to let you come here because I was being selfish. And gods it is so much better with you here, but... but I don't know if you should come back. Its so dangerous for you mast! even when i was trying to be gentle I hurt you!  I... I don't want to put you at risk!

thepleasureisguilty

*I flush too* pups huh.... *I try to think about what it would be like to raise a family with you, us adopting a orphan off the street and giving them a loving home .... You would make a wonderful papa there's no mistake about that... I never thought of myself as having "pups" before you...* oh yes we do need to talk about this... We need a more comfortable situation for you... You were in misery allot of the night that you were chained up, it was uncomfortable for you! No wonder you hurt yourself trying to get out! I want to make you a little bed to put out here! I want you to have food and water available through out the night, a full meal before and after, i also want a to build a fire for you, its winter soon you'll get cold without moving.

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I blink at you* Mast.... *Of course you would be thinking about me. You're so kind and loving to me, I actually feel a touch of guilt, like I don't deserve it. Old habits die hard.* Mast I'm not trying to talk about me right now... Its dangerous  for you to be any more involved than you already are. Mast I.... *a lump forms in my throat* I couldn't live with myself if I ever seriously hurt you....

thepleasureisguilty

Would you prefer it if i wasnt here while you were full wolf? I dont think you'll hurt me... But i want you to be comfortable... *a rock is in the base of my stomach... I want to be here for him but not if it will upset him so much *

ask-a-slippery-boy

I... *Gods I want you here so badly. The previous nights have been just short of agonizing. But with you? Yes I spent some of it in pain, but mostly... mostly I was overjoyed. I don't want to be alone again. * I... *I bury my face into your chest* How could I be so selfish as to ask you to stay?

thepleasureisguilty

*I hold you close* you dont have to be... I want to stay with you ilya... I want to support you through these nights *I really do, i want to be a comfort to you in this harsh experience and also be kinder to you than you have been to yourself*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I hold you tightly* but what if something happens? What if I turn you? Or what if I really hurt you by accident?

thepleasureisguilty

Then we would deal with it together *i kiss your head* you are a doctor ilya, with a almost functioning clinic, you could fix any scratches you might give me and as for turning me? That just means well ve chained to a tree together. *i smile down at you*

ask-a-slippery-boy

I I I love you so much mast... I I just don't want to see you hurt... *I frown up at you* I do want you to be here! I just... I just don't want anything bad to happen to you if I become careless

thepleasureisguilty

*I stare down at you and cup your face* if WE become careless.... Your no longer alone ilya....

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I hold your hand to my face* I.... I know that I’m not alone but.... but if WE become careless it’s YOU who will get hurt....

thepleasureisguilty

*I nuzzle the hand* then lets try to not be careless *I smile at you*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I scan your face for a second before taking a deep breath* okay... we won’t be careless

thepleasureisguilty

*i kiss your cheek* is there anything else you want to talk about darling? Any other issues you have?

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I have countless concerns, and countless worries. I have more what if’s than I have energy to say them all. But I also have you. I hold your hands and give them a squeeze* .... just promise me you’ll tell me if it gets to be too much... please don’t continue on helping me if it becomes too much of a burden. Promise me you’ll take care of yourself first.

thepleasureisguilty

*I smile at you softly * deal. And I want you to take better care of yourself too... I'm serious about making this more comfortable for yourself

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I relax some when you agree* Okay, I'll work on taking better care of myself too.

thepleasureisguilty

*I push our foreheads together* good

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I wrap my arms around you with a yawn* And speaking of taking better care of ourselves... Darling I am so tired. Can I seduce you into a nap?

thepleasureisguilty

Haaha yes you may *I snuggle into you and am.ost immediately fall asleep*

ask-a-slippery-boy

Oh thank gods... *I tease. As you settle back into me sleep takes me easily. *

thepleasureisguilty

*I stirr hours later, the sun is beginning to set and it is getting colder out, i rise and check on your breathing, your sleeping soundly, my stomach twists in hunger... I think it's about time we both eat something*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I only stir because you do.* mmmm Mast? *I yawn and my stomach growls loudly* jeez... *I sit up with a groan and rest against you*  good morning..?

thepleasureisguilty

Haha good morning *I kiss your forehead* i'm starving, mind if i make some food for us?

ask-a-slippery-boy

*my stomach growls impatiently in response* Please..... Can I help at all?

thepleasureisguilty

*I roll out and hit the ground with a o of * oof! Haha no i got it love *I am weaker than i thought i would be but I can wobble over to my bag and get my flint and steel, luckily with it being late fall there is allot of dried leaves and sticks around, i pick up a few and clear a small spot near the hammock making a tp formation and striking the flint and steel together, it forms little sparks that burn through the leaves but are not going up in flame... I eventually catch it though and get the little fire going. I pull out the bacon and eggs and a tiny pan and begin cooking*

*i lay the bacon, it pops and sizzles as it cooks, making my mouth water and slicking the pan with grease. I take the bacon out and crack the eggs in 3 for me and 5 for you, it gives a satisfying sizzle onto the grease and all but the yoke cook thankfully quickly, while it is cooking i ace my clothes back on as best as i can, it is cold out bit the fire is comforting*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I wince as I watch you hobble away. You said you had it, but I’m still worried. I sit up and stretch. I feel like every one of my joints needs to be popped. I ease my self carefully out of the hammock. And promptly lose balance once I’m back on the ground. I hold the tree for dear life while I get my bearing. Once my stance has firmed up I stumble over to my clothes and shimmy into them. I collect the silver I placed in a wide ark around the tree. Touching them still tingles slightly. But only slightly. When I make my way back to you you’ve already got food well on the way of being done. I put the silver back in my bag and lay the blanket from the hammock over your shoulders. I kiss your head.* Mast, you really are amazing... *I sit besides you, the fire makes me feel cozy. The food smells phenomenal. I press myself to your side* Honestly mast... thank you so much for all you’ve done for me, specifically last night and today. I... I really appreciate it. And you.

thepleasureisguilty

*I instinctively hold up a arm to catch you when you almost fall, granted i do nothing more than give your tummy a good squeeze , you were already latched to the tree,  a sense of warmth and coziness falls over me when you lay the blanket on my shoulders and kiss my head, i open a wing of the blanket and wrap it around your shoulder as well when you come to sit next to me* ...ilya... I meant it when i said i was here for you... Always here for you... *I kiss your head* I love you ilya

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I hold your hand to my face and kiss you palm.* As gentle as you'd like me to be

*When you offer a wing of the blanket to me I snuggle in close to you and rest my head on your shoulder. * Mast, love, thank you so much for being there for me. Thank you for all of your love and support. *I kiss your cheek* And I'll always be here for you. I want to be by your side through anything.

thepleasureisguilty

*I kiss your head* well that will make telling you i'm a vampire so much easier!!! *i give you a devious smirk*

ask-a-slippery-boy

*I look at you, exasperated. Normally I'd assume you were joking but after everything we've been through it's not out of the question. Either way. I lean my head to the side to expose my neck* Oh? are you feeling thirsty?

and thats it! hope you all liked it! please feel more than welcome to tell @ask-a-slippery-boy and or i what you think! 

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[nuttmegg]

Story time

So this has been an interesting week, it kinda started on Tuesday. Night Hawk and I went to the local baseball game. While we were getting ready my friend Mike was basically asking me to ditch Night Hawk and go out with him. Which is never going to happen. I will never ditch my friends for a guy. I straight up told him, “don’t count on me” but he just kept bugging. I ended up hanging out with the guy I’ve been talking to for a while.(I need to come up with a nickname for him.....)He picked me up from Night Hawks house so I didn’t have to drive home drunk. I was so drunk/hungover I didn’t go to work the next morning. 

Anyway fast forward to Thursday night, Im out at the bars with my sisters and Mike keeps texting me to hang out again. I told him he could come hang out with us at the bar, but he refuses. Saying something about being in a bad headspace. And don’t get me wrong I totally understand a bad headspace. But I shouldn’t be the person you always call when you’re having a bad day, and mind you, my friend isn't the greatest person in the world. He’s kind of an ass and doesn't have many friends because of it. And I always seem to be the person who picks up his pieces when he falls apart. I just didn’t want to do it again. Especially since Thursday was Sparrows last night in town, before she moved back to Socal. 

Friday night, bars with sisters again. Mike calls and asks again to go out drinking with him, I’ve already made plans so I tell him this. He asks to tag along and I say “yeah thats totally fine, But I might meet up with *insert nickname for new guy here* later so I’m not gonna stay out all night.” Then he gets all pissy and says “well if that doesn’t work out for you come get drunk with me” before basically hanging up on me. Like boy why!? your’e my friend why are you getting mad at me for hanging out with someone. Literally every time Mike and I hang out we talk about the girls he’s seeing and I ALWAYS try to help him. So I don’t hear from him all night, then about 1ish, plans have fallen through with my guy, and Mike sends me 5 texts rapid fire. Saying how life sucks, he hurts and then the kicker! “I like you meagan, I have feelings for you.” BOY NO!!! JUST ALL THE NO! He continues by saying that he doesn’t feel so chaotic around me. Which is literally not what I’m looking for! I don’t want to ever have to fix someone again. Fuck that. Also I don’t feel the same way about him. My sisters all came to the same agreement, that Mike was reaching for straws because I wasn’t giving him attention and that he probably does have feels but was saying it as a last resort. I honestly just couldn't deal. People can be so stupid sometimes. Also on Friday I kinda got into a shouting session with this guy who is an acquaintance of some of my sisters, he had some choice words to say to me and I was not having it. (my Mexican was showing, as my friends and I like to call it) The two good things about Friday night.... 1. I looked freaking good! lol and 2. After the bars we got burritos from the taco truck behind the bars! yum!!!!!

So its now Saturday and I don’t respond to Mike, I honestly didn’t know how. How do you as a good friend knowing tell someone something that is going to hurt them, when you know they are in a bad mental state... I did eventually. I just hope i didn’t hurt his ego to bad. So Saturday I spent the rest of the afternoon with the new guy *alias coming soon* went to the beach, got greasy diner food, listened to country music, and watched friends like all night.(i don’t think I’m the biggest fan of the show, sorry). We talked about baseball, and he put this awful Cubs hat on me and took pictures!!! UGH seriously like blasphemy!! No Dodger fan should ever be subjected to that kind of torture. Any ways it was a pretty fun night. I woke up before him this morning and was playing with the camera settings on my phone and got some pretty good pictures of him. I might post one or two just cause I’m proud of my photo taking skills. 

But yeah that was my rollercoaster of a week in a short abbreviated version. hopefully this week is much less eventful. 

Also stay tuned for new guys alias and pictures....lol