#honestly this put me on the ground

[driveitlikesebastianvettelwould]

What we’re truly here for at ROC😅

Jan. 28 2023, day 1 ROC nations cup🏆

#a lil mishap #honestly this put me on the ground #🤣 #this is free smiles and serotonin #seb was laughing qUicK #what a little bastard #so was val #checks out #I beg you to go watch the actual story it’s better quality😅 #you can see Seb’s .001 second concern face before he turned into the chaos kitty he is #sebastian vettel #mick schumacher #valterri bottas #mika hakkinen #felix rosenqvist #tom kristensen #roc 2023 #mick and seb🥹 #he’s too pretty for this world

[laufire]

you could be generous and think that both barbara in batgirl (2000) admitting to dick that she finds it difficult to connect with and care about a non-verbal cass, and stephanie on batman & robin eternal upon meeting cass saying she's "barely a person" because she speaks one word, are meant to be the writers' showing you a reflection of the characters' ableist prejudices. except one of these actually explored that and what it meant for the characters and the other seems determined to do jack shit about it and instead commits to "everyone acts like an asshole for no discernible reason and (worse) with no discernible narrative goal" as a vehicle for storytelling.

#honestly cass seems to be one of the characters that got the shitiest deal in prime earth #i despair over the shit i read following jason's appearances for blorbo-related reason #but you couldn't pay me to put up with cass's if this is what i'll be getting #it's either plain bad. or bones thrown that are better and often a callback to new earth... #but because they're completely separated from the context and not grounded in it they turn meaningless #like that last bop issue just. reboot cass and barbara simply don't have the same dynamic so... yeah. #talking to the void #my thoughts #dc #dc thoughts #dc comics #batgirl vol. 1 #cassandra cain #barbara gordon #stephanie brown #bitter lau tag

[mewtwo24]

I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!' #i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming) #legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure -> #for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason) #until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

[boxwinebaddie]

Because of the RM New Perspective headcannon I genuinely cannot imagine anyone other than Stan singing the song

have a good day !!

AAAAAA!!!!! THIS MADE ME SMILE SO WIDE!!!!

i am like, genuinely shook, by the sheer amount of anons i get telling me that they exclusively associate new perspective with rm ( esp. since posting it embarrassed me so much that i deleted it several times??? ) or that they'd never heard it before, but now they listen to it all the time and have ravesey style brain rot??? AAAA

which!!! literally that song is such a fucking BANGER!!! like when i tell you it was my favorite song all through hs, it carried me. also yes, i'm aware my ( expensive ) taste(s) are flawless. and just like everything about it gives me ravenstan crimson dawn rm vibes? something about it being in the jennifer's body movie soundtrack, all the high highs and low lows ( i do think ravenstan's vocal range is incredible, it probably is kind of giving brendon urie but ~raspier~ ), it's ;) xxx <3

it's just The Song Ever. the rm flagship theme song, or rather, i think because if rm was ever a tv show, i'd have crimson dawn covering style be the intro...i think new perspective is the outro to every episode and might be...the acoustic version? we love a little contrast. i think about the rm tv show too much, i want to write it out.

speaking of writing stuff out tho, sometimes i kind of want to write that little new perspective headstannon scene out where raven is singing to him and kyle is getting very publically rizzed haha. we have to see the save rock fuck a rockstar tanktop and the mini skirt i fear. also jersey writing KYLE <3 really big across his collarbone n sending him out there to sign autographs with a nonexistent ass slap? iconic.

but yes, i love new perspective rem(ember) nation, omg. you guys are so cute. it also means a lot to me because my music taste sort of makes me anxious, so it makes me really excited to share something that i love/music i like and associate with the boys, with all of you and have you enjoy it and think about it also!!! <3333 ilyilyily

-uncle nina, new perspective ravesey nation

#new perspective is the most rm song ever #its just kinda cute punky poppy but also filth and really fun #actually incredible #also my panic at the disco phase was HUUUGE i loved panic at the disco i knew songs after like one note no joke #but honestly brendon urie is not a good person he run his voice so far into the ground doing gimmicky shit #panic released the worst fucking album ever recently #so i am ursula the seawitching his prefucked up voice and repurposing patd for my fake hot punk rock boy band #IM SO GLAD U LIKE IT THO #NEW PERSPECTIVE REALLY IS THE RM SOOOONG #i do think it plays in the outro while ur just sitting there screaming into ur hands bc raven just asked jersey on a date #or you watched a crazy flashback of the boys in middle school #and new perspective is playing and you and ur friends are just singing along and also crying help ashdkdsah #but i'm glad if i had any legacy at all i can at least say that i put yall onto the best song of all time and the worst fanfic #amen gaymen #these are my fave anons like my anons who just tell me how much they like new perspective & that they think abt the boys #every time they hear it...amazing....i love yall #ITS JUST A STAN SONG #ALL PTAD IS JUST RAVENSTAN NOW SO SORRY

[moeblob]

Man. May I just say. I love how in this game it’s like “you have four suitors and three of them are the most repulsive men on the planet then you have this really energetic guy who wants you to step on him if he does anything bad BUT he’s trying his best”.

#variable barricade #nayuta yagami #i love this boy so much but oh my god he has so many issues he needs to work on #like thats literally every suitor but they are so slimy and then you get NAYUTA THE PUPPY #hi its not my fault the suitors have a rose color and i happen to fall for the guy with the orange rose its really not #honestly this game has such great designs hhhhhhhhhhhhhh #the art is so good for it i love how everyone looks #i havent touched this game in a while but i was thinking about it the other day like dang kinda wanna go back and try more #bc i have never played another otome where the protag is like damn talking to this guy makes me wanna vomit #she has so far stood her ground well against the repulsive suitors imo but again i am not far #please game dont make her cave too soon do not let her swoon too fast im begging you #also her female bff is a delight and i love her a lot #otome that put women side characters in it that are likeable are so amazing thank you for this gift variable barricade #also this is in fact a line of dialogue from the game and im like son what is wrong with you i love you so much #the heroine is thankfully just as put off with it

[jorvikzelda]

today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

#z talks #like the misidentifying as ace was Inevitable i think. that was due to repression that realising i didnt like men would not have fixed #(context: id’d as bi ace like. i wanna say 2016/17-2021/22 sometime and then went into ace and Questioning) #remember the time i really solidly settled on being aro because ‘romance has never not felt like a chore and putting on a facade’ #babe no thats because your most recent and also singular long term relationship was with a Man #and thats the only one youre looking back on #its so funny how i dated a guy and it was so thoroughly Meh that i just didnt feel like pursuing anything romantic for a very long time #(A REACTION I HAD NOT HAD AFTER MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS) #And DIDN’T somehow consider that maybe I just Didn’t Like Guys #its nothing i grieve or feel sad about dw its honestly mostly funny to look back on #no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted #(…which is also a weird word to apply because at the time i identified and was out to my friends as a trans guy Binary. #This Was Also Wrong.) #was a weird time man. a truly weird time #anyway. all is well i have now been on 2 dates with a really cute girl and she gave me tulips <3 #as part of a Care Delivery bc i had a Migraine and No Painkillers Or Snacks #get well flowers <333333 #and now i dream of kissing her under the moonlight #With the uh. Hornetposting lately it May seem unlikely but yes I DO interact with real women! Romantically! #They coexist Wonderfully <3 #Anyway. I’m gonna go to bed #Realising that im a lesbian solved all my identity problems including my fucking gender which is just fantastic #I am very happy and whenever I think of being a lesbian it grounds me to reality a little bit stronger and i go yeah. Yeah.

[doctorweebmd]

I was thinking about this the other day and wondering why it’s become so much less fun to write for BNHA and I think it’s because… I’ve written too much?

Like being a one-off author was fine and fun and novel and people were so cool and supportive, but now I’ve got multiple long fics and people have started treating me like someone that “creates content” rather than someone who is writing for fun. And I’ve shot myself in the foot by continuing to write long-fic and putting my heart and soul into them and it’s like never enough, people just expect more and more and more and I want to keep giving and keep doing better but no matter what I write it’s just not ENOUGH

And like… this started a little after I finished Zero Sum Game but like… people have started forming “opinions” that they share openly about “me” - I can’t stand going into fandom space and seeing people say they can’t read anything I write, or they don’t like me as an author, openly ranking my works, saying xyz is overrated or mention me by name in shipping discourse or send me hate mail or update requests or just straight up telling me they’re not going to read what I write anymore… and these people don’t know me!!! I’m just an empty space to them!!! Just a machine that pumps out thousands on thousands of words to just look at an forget about instantly!!!!!!!!

Where do people get off honestly. Is it like this everywhere or is it just BNHA? Is it because it’s so popular that the community has broken down completely? Sincerely what the fuck how can anyone treat writers like this…

#literally got a comment like yesterday saying ‘I’m so disappointed this hasn’t been updated in a year! I need it’ #…fuck you actually? #I realize fics take 1-2 days to read #but all of this has taken hundreds of hours and YEARS to write #but sorry I don’t have the specific thing that you want to readily consume I guess #I am! not! a! content! creator! #nobody pays me! I get nothing out of this! why are people treating me like not a person! #and it’s just more and more frustrating seeing other writers mention stuff like this too #I realize I’m just venting now but whatever #like i feel like I built something over the past few years that I’m so proud of #but sometimes I want to burn it ALL to the ground #it’s not that deep #it’s just… I put too much of myself into this #which honestly is mostly my own fault #ANYWAY. that’s a big part as to why I’m jumping ship for now #I’d rather have fun and write whatever and have no one give a shit #than to give my heart and soul to a community that chews me up and spits me out #…. sorry I’m being so dramatic #the amazing wonderful kind people that have stayed around for these 3.5 years who still say kind words to me I love you so much #as always the negativity is the vast minority but that’s what hits the hardest I guess #I mean honestly I don’t care and will continue to write and do whatever I want #but wanted to reflect on my frustrations and make sense of it #.

[lottieratworld]

idk what i can even fuxking say here i dont trust anyone

#this is the worst ive felt in over a year #idk if i can even say anything without looking like a fucking terrible person though #maybe i am idk #its taking everything in me to not do a lot of very self destructive things and potentially sever ties with people #i feel like i cant say anything #idk how to articulate anything im thinkibg #just leave me alone dont fuckinf bother me abt this or anything im saying i want to be alone #i already left a server bc one fuxking person blocked me and immediately started posting in the server about #the very thing that put me into this fucking spiral #someone i honestly liked but had a feeling i was on shaky ground with just bc they always seemed pissed off with me being there #idk i sound fuxking stupid rn #what if im wrong abt everything #what if literally everyone is like that one person and would block me any second #nibody ever fucking tells me what im doing wrong nobody will talk to me

[tacit-semantics]

Unrestrained Sunday night fun ft. my abysmal work practices and the tatting shuttle I hate for actual tatting because of the very same hook that makes it good for bobbin lace joins

#id in alt #at least I have a desk now before I was just putting the pillow on my keyboard (piano keyboard.) and workin from that #REALIZING. that the grid is in fact a grid due to the way I set things up but honestly it reminds me of my nets (shoutout to my nets <3333) #so it’s cool. it’s cool it’s cool :) havin a bit of a rough night because I had a bad day then a good few hours so everything’s just sorta #mush up there but I’m almost done with the ground for the outside think I’m gonna do double Torchon for the eyes #woah……. sonic #my work #trypophobia #edited

[skrunksthatwunk]

jumpscared by least favorite seasonal chore

#I THOUGHT WE WERE JUST LEAVING IT THIS YEAR SINCE IT WAS SO LATE. FUCK THE GRASS IT'S SHITTY GRASS #it's almost xmas why did you not rake the yard while i was um. not around #IT SUCKS OKAY. I"M NOT A TEAM PLAYER #ALL'S FAIR IN LOVE AND MANDATORY POINTLESS YARDWORK #it hurts my back and my joints and it takes me forever and it's always stupid bright outside and i hate kicking the rakes and it's never #good enough because if i'm raking the yard it should be perfect right?? it always turns into a 3 day thing and the yard isn't even that big #we just all suck at it except for my dad so he spends the whole time being like well why don't you just do it this way. dad i CANT that's #why i'm doing it my way. it's shittier but it's Possible and yours is not. bruhgh i hate raking the yard sorry that's all #i am feeble and sore and i hate moving please don't make me do this #he's like why do you sit on the ground to scrape the leaves into the bags girl what else do you want me to do. i can barely do the dishes #without sitting sometimes and you want me to rake for 6 hours??? what????? #look i know this is mostly trivial but it sucks okay. fuck my stupid baka life #i have been exactly this bitter about such chores my whole life and im not stopping now. i hate being made to do stuff on a whim that hurts #me for an entire day when i wasn't expecting it okay. i feel like that's a normal response adults are allowed to have even though children #are not. something something children's autonomy etc #and honestly i just hate being in my yard doing manual labor in full view. you should not be able to see me moving around what ew gross #(<- super weird about being perceived doing anything physical) (<- hates being seen moving awkwardly and so anything but small practiced #movements are just. agh. unless they're silly and i can make them smoother but like exertion? No. oh my god i hate that) #shit like oh i don't wanna put a bra on bc that's uncomfy but what if my neighbors ogle me while they drive past i don't want that #just some gangly twink failing a basic task in the clumsiest way possible and fucking all their joints at the same time. sucks. hate #(<- man i don't even feel right EATING around people for the most part like. you want me to RAKE?? movement is a performance and you put me #up there with no rehearsal no script nothing just the wikipedia page for hamlet. i can't do this all of a sudden. what. what) #(<- i just. waughhUAGHH i hate it so so much i don't like it okay. for reasons that are yet to be diagnosed) #(<- no body language is natural to me so it must be practiced to feel natural AND YOURE PUTTING ME ON THE SPOT. IT FEELS WEIRD) #aughh. if i had the leaves on a table and a chair or something i'd be better. not great but better. but all the bending over and crouching #and scooping and getting leaves under my gloves and the scary scuttly bugs and scraping myself on the branches mixed in on accident i just #do not like it. gross #ugh at least now i have wireless earbuds. used to yank out my corded ones with the rakes pretty regularly and Oh Boy Did That Not Improve M #Situation There like. whewwww #and my dad's always like hey i know we're starting late (it's past noon here) but ummm i'd really appreciate it if we could really push

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

^hater of finals week

#got my physics exam down and my coding project #tomorrows to do list is a coding exam which. let me just be real. the midterm I got a 50. I am Not hopeful #if I get a 70 I’ll still keep my A #last time we got 20 back on the curve. i hope everyone does just as poorly as me lol #honestly tho. i will be luck to get a 30 :| #cause this half of the semester ooooh I did not retain much of any knowledge #i can code it fine. but asking me what’s what??? put me in the ground man I don’t know #i also have a nutrition final. i thought that it was all new stuff. turns out it’s cumulative. the study guide is 65 questions #I’m in danger #most of it I honestly do not know #so I’m hoping I wake up. run over my coding stuff and hold it in my brain long enough to get a mediocre score on the exam #go home fill out the nutrition study guide and then take that #and then it’s non stop essays til Thursday at midnight #so #I’m dying a little #i don’t even know what to ask for help with with coding. i straight up do not know #like. hash tables? I don’t know how that goes there. i really don’t know what to do x%(mystery here ) to #avl tree permutations?? I don’t know #traversals for trees???? patterns! they have names. the patterns r very specific. I don’t know man #it’s looking really real rough #also. tried my landlords extra strength coffee. didn’t think it had any kick. it’s 3 am #so I guess it works when drank in decent quantity #soup talks

[viulus]

Endgame spoilers for AITSF I guess but how is Date still in that body in the second game? The little quiz that you do at the start of AINI mentions Mizuki getting shot and Saito being the Cyclops Serial Killer, so that to me suggests that AINI is set after the events of the Resolution route (instead of, say, the Mizuki route). We literally saw Saito's head get blown clean off his body on-screen how the fuck do they explain Date being back in that body in the second game

#vu's posts #aitsf #aitsf spoilers #aini #also feel free to spoil the plot of aini to me. i already read all the spoilers on the wiki 👍 #i mainly read through the aini wiki to see if there was any explanation for how date is back in saito's body #to my dismay there wasn't even the slightest mention of it #at first i thought that maybe they decided to set the second game after the events of the mizuki route? i guess not though #either the second game is gonna ignore that glaring pothole in hopes that fans have forgotten #(because they would prefer that fans forgot that date's actual body doesn't have him as a pretty boy twink or smth? idk) #or they're gonna do some stupid explanation like 'they actually scraped all of saito's brains off the ground- #and put it all back together :)' #(idk which would be worse between the two honestly. one is lazy and the other is lazy and doesn't even make sense) #like i get that they kept him in saito's body for marketing reasons #and because ppl see date as the tall blond twink #but ffs they need to give some kind of in-universe reason for why it's possible that he's back in that body yknow? #also no i will not be playing aini so please don't tell me to. #it is $60 and relies on the whole 'conspiracy theory where a secret society runs the world' thing for its story #like sorry but 'secret society people running the world from the shadows' type stuff is rooted in antisemitism #and i'm frankly not interested in playing a game that leans into that stuff 🤷 #anyways it's pretty late so i'll shut up now. but this has been on my mind for a while so i thought i'd ramble about it

[baylabi]

they hit the 💪👌👌

#baylabi’s doodles #phighting! #DUHGH UM ITS HIM AGAIN #oh yeah some person who reblogged my last boombox post with “’SEE HIM FACE!!!’ mood honestly #boombox fans unite 🤝 #if you see this one too hello!!! #oh yeah forgor ummm credit to a friend of mine for the post caption it’s funny #he doesn’t have tumblr so I cant @ him 💀 #also if anyone saw me put this in bogcom without the shadow on the ground UM NO YOU DIDNT- #it’s too late to change 🧍

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tuvok dad Moments in Pathways

Bonus: Tuvok being absolutely shocked that he wasn’t a perfect angel when he was a child...I can’t believe these lies would be spread about Tuvok [Redacted], the world’s most perfect boy then man...

#this is not my Varith characterization but I love love love seeing any interpretation of Tuvok's kids so I am FEASTING on it #'close your mouth' I got THROWN back in time to my mom saying that to ME!!! #I love reading the preview bits of these novels and picking out the parts I like and throwing out the parts I don't without a second thought #I don't know who M'Fau is bc of said reading technique (A grandmother maybe?) but I love her ... she called his ass out HEHEHEHE #also does Tuvok's fam ily have...a c ook??? pampered boy for REAL #Oh M'Fau seems to be some sort of religious leader~! #Tuvok's mom rings a bell to brought breakfast...TUVOK??? RICH BOY??? #Honestly I already knew this based on vibes and the fact he had a Vulcan master giving him private kal-toh lessons #I want Tuvok to drop little hints of this background while on voyager to which everyone's like f uckyou....you had a COOK as a child???? #In this novel he says 'Terra is a barbarous place' Hhehe he's like mom d ad PLEASE don't send me to Starfleet!!! #I don't like the light misogny the author seems to be sprinkling in here and I will be filtering it out in real time as I skim through #an oh so delicate smattering of misogny -chefs kiss and then I spit on the floor- #There is a funny moment where a girl tries to make out with him and he picks her up under her arms and puts her on the ground and is like #uhh thank you...for teaching me geometry. You should be like...a teacher or something. Bye. <- while backing away from her #also a cute moment where he has a little crush on a girl is like 'what isthis?? it's like curiosity but tenfold...should I quell it or can I #act on this curiosity??' <- He wants a good girl who go to church...nREADSER Vulcan Tombs or whatever #TOMES #Tuvok marveling at his daughter is so cute...he SO thinks she's a special little geniu <3 #SUCH a dad...he 1000% is like my kids are better than your kids (lowkey...but also in a very very high key) #novel experiences #<- tag for these posts #M'Fau: Tuvok. You were NOT a perfect little angel as a child. #Tuvok: (TIK TOK BOOM SOUND EFFECT) .....????

[arundolyn]

im gonna lose my mind i now want a fic so bad where like...... cf better ending ragna doesnt die BUT ALSO izanami lives and since they dont really have a REASON to be at each other’s throats anymore they have to just navigate the weird shit between them like. youre my sister but youre also a fucked up weird ass death god in her body. stop it. go brush your teeth stupid. and izanami being like STOP trying to older sibling me STOOOOOP (goes and brushes teeth anyway)

#crow.txt #things ill probably never end up writing but are fun to think about number 10843804 #ITS REALLY FUNNY THO. IM GOING TO PUT THEM IN A GET ALONG SHIRT #if not actually then just in my head #like yes its funny when like modern au izanami is just saya having and edgy goth teen phase #but also its funny to think about #post canon but better #the fuckin...... #bloodedge-mercury-and-i-guess-izanami-now? household' #the tension is ufkcing palpable always the only ones that arent about to kill each other are like ragna and noel #also everyone and celica if shes around. honestly the more people added to this the funnier it is and the likelihood #of someone dying or going to the hospital once a month fucking SKYROCKETS. but its funny. izanami is trying to poison everyone constantly #and failing (she doesnt know what seasonings are. bc she has saya's body. she thinks paprika will kill you) #blazblueposting #basically fix it fic for post canon where ragnas whole extended family lives except like hakumen and nu obviously #and theyre fucking unhinged about it #this is actually very fun to think about #mostly borne of me seeing some izanami frames and being like why are you cute. stop it. #her forward and back techs are so fucking funny. stop playing into the dead girl aesthetic so hard stupid. #and her ground recoveries actually. fucking grudge girl. stop it.

[adore-gregor]

Visiting Genova was nice and i love being close to the sea but...

#the work and travel experience is a disapointment honestly :( #i mean the sea is lovely (but also not that close because i live on a mountain and you have to wait for buses) #(it takes like 40min each direction) #(and the working times are badly timed i spend so much time going down that hill when i get there i don't have that much time left) #bc i need to get up that hill again #the beach is nice because i love the sea but i have seen so much nicer beaches still i'm happy there is a beach #but the bigger problem is my room is dark and uninviting and worst of all dirty #i never would step on that floor and there are spider webs #the bathroom is dirty as well 😭 #i had to buy cleaning materials to clean it 🙃 i felt so uncomfortable when i cleaned the swamp got brown #there were also hairs in the sink #i'm not a clean freak i swear but you want the toilet you use to be clean and the sink of course #especially when i put in my contacts there i could get an eye infection because of the dirt even #and the bathroom doesn't even have a shower #i need to walk down to their house each time to shower #and in the house in general even the forkes etc don't look completely clean let alone the floor is dirty everywhere #sometimes there are forks laying on the ground #well also there's a mosquito plage or sth #i get bitten so much bug only me! i have like 40 bites and it itches so much #moskito spray doesn't work #well my 'host family' other than that are nice people and they cook well at least #it's nothing personal against them but i feel so uncomfortable living like that #also the working hours are ehh i asked them if i can start earlier in the morning but then not anymore in the evening #they said yeah but today i have to work again in the evening with the moskitos 🥴 #also i work too much i think i feel taken advantage of but it's hard to pin down because they have no fixed working hours #and they change it all the time #and i mean there's no contract so there's nothing i can do about anyway 🥲 #especially i feel i work too much for a dirty room and bathroom if it wouldn't be like that i'd be more ok with it #and on the hill they live there's no supermarket so i need to go on down to get anything i need #once i asked them if they can get me something they said yes but they never did