#hm that might help

[zmediaoutlet]

abandoned(?) wip: the cult fic

Here's one that I really really really want to write because it was for a charity run and it is NOT the fault of the fic or the donator that I got hit with a depression meteor, nor indeed that somehow it was 'easier' to write a bunch of other fics instead of the charity fics that I still owe!! Ugh. The self is a real garbage pit sometimes. So hopefully let's call this one dormant and not abandoned, and so --

Big Idea: which isn't mine, bc charity fic as aforementioned, but -- Jared runs a cult and Jensen joins and there's lots of sexy sex. Pretty much. :) But because it's a cult fic, I really wanted to dive into that, which required plot [spits on floor], and it's really more now about like... lost youth getting wrapped up into a personality & lifestyle just for somewhere to belong. Like cult stories always go. It's an unusual fic for me in that I'd normally never do ageswap (even with J2 -- I prefer to keep them as is) and I don't actually have much interest in irl cults, but it's interesting as a stretch in that sense.

Why it was abandoned: because plot!!! Ugh. Plot is the worst, idk how people are like 'ooh I wanna get all involved in this murder mystery'. Yack. But if it's gonna have a plot it's got to work, and it also has to have a bunch of legible and interesting and not-quirky-stand-in characters -- like I want it to read like actual humans, not goofy nonsense a la the cult in Bad Times at the El Royale. So that requires some genuine thought and time put in and probably even a chart, and... #lazy writer noises. But I have some random scenes I think might be good already planned. Trouble would be if I could make Jared-the-cult-leader seem believable and not just like a doofy romance novel figure. My personal trouble with cults is that whenever someone's holding themselves up as a leader because of whatever mystical whatever I'm like, this motherfucker? Are y'all kidding? So I'll have to get over that instinct, lol.

Snippet:

"He renamed it when we came," Allie says, easy. She taps her thumb on the steering wheel, smiling. "He said Wildheart was more right, for what we were going to be." Jensen nods but he has no idea what that means. Whatever the name was before, the wild part at least is right. His grandpa had a farm, outside Dallas, and that was all neat rows, trimmed up hedges, smoothed-out roads with everything exactly in place. Jensen didn't mind it—driving it was easier, he thinks, as they're jolted by the Volkswagen rocking over yet another huge tree root—but it was… Well, it doesn't matter. He'll never see that farm again. He's about to ask another question when Allie turns, again, and the screen of oaks gives sudden way to—open air, a field. The sky opens up above them and Jensen leans forward, trying to see everything. They're on a dirt drive and there are—people, young, maybe his age or maybe Allie's, on the grounds on either side of the drive, working squared-off garden plots—tomatoes, in chickenwire cages. More that Jensen doesn't recognize as they roll past. A boy with red hair waves at the car and Allie waves back, grinning. "Good to be home," she says, to Jensen. Home, Jensen thinks, and chews his thumbnail, scanning the grounds. A medium-sized house, at the end of the lane, painted a faded yellow that needs redoing. On the west side of the house Allie pulls the Volkswagen up next to a purple Gremlin with messy handpainted yellow flowers on the rear hatch, a Cadillac with a rusted-out door and some kind of viney plant spilling out of the broken back window. "C'mon," Allie says, turning off the engine, so Jensen takes a deep breath and gets out of the car into the sunshine, holding his duffle up against his chest, looking around. No one's running up to bug them—the dozen people gardening are still gardening, down by the lane—and Allie flips her keys into her palm, comes around the hood of the car, touches his arm, soft. "Nothing be scared of, sweetie," she says, quiet even though it's just the two of them, and Jensen—believes her. He has to. He wouldn't have gotten into her car, otherwise.

#my writing #abandoned wips #jensen the naif is also not something i'd usually write #i like him cynical from the jump #maybe the thing here is to lean into him being cynical #but so lonely and frightened that the cult thing just... #drags him under #like the tide pulling sand from under your feet #hm that might help

[lollytea]

I need to watch Sharpay's Fabulous Adventure to reach my final conclusion on if she's even attracted to men

#girl help i keep thinking about sharpay and ryan being each others only friend growing up #theyre not very good at interpersonal relationships #romance is foreign to them. they dont care about playing romantic interests because they only view romance through the lens of theatre #fake. not real. an act to entertain an audience. so they dont understand why it would be weird #neither of them have ever kissed anyone #sharpay likes things that make her look better #because her whole life is a performance #so she wants troy because hes a shiny accessory to her #thinking about hsm 2 where once again when she tries to perform a romantic song (with troy this time and not her brother) #she still barely fucking looks at him #all of her attention is on the (nonexistent) audience #and ryan. ryan hm #ryan usually performs alongside sharpay #its usually an in universe performance. theyre on a stage. theres an audience #and all of his attention is on pleasing that audience #an exception to this is during the gay baseball song #where theres a different kind of audience BUT #ryan barely looks at them #most of his attention is directed solely to chad #talking flirting teasing being cocky and annoying but clearly addressing him directly through most of the song #first time this has happened with ryan. take that as you will #ANYWAY i can see sharpay as completely uninterested in romance but she hasnt realized that about herself #and she THINKS she wants it. because she sees it as glamorous #or maybe shes a lesbian i dont know #she might be a lesbian #the deciding factor is sharpays fabulous adventure #if she has chemistry with the guy in that movie then shes just repressed and clueless #if she doesnt shes aro #or possibly lesbian

[nyxi-pixie]

sometimes i think abt how shocked chuuya was when dazai was like 'teehee i blew up your car' and its like ??? bro why are you surprised?? he presumably left the pm the same day your car blew up and you never connected those two things😭😭

#its funny but if i think abt it too much i get sad #which is dumb bc its supposed to be a silly little guy thing #but like. #holy shit he just never considers that the asshole(said fondly) wld have done that 😭😭😭 #soukoku #help i was an outside observer to this ship like a year ago and now ive been obsessed w them for a month and absorbed sm content i might die #god this will sound insane to my non skk followers hey guys i promise theyre great #blowing up your car(lovingly) threatening to murder you(endearingly) #“hm dazai just left the pm and now my car has exploded. these unrelated events sure are annoying for me. wonder who did this🤩”

[angelogistics]

do you make original art? have you ever submitted to zines/galleries and been rejected? feel like there's no place for your cool weird stuff on the internet? well, fret no more.

under the floorboards seeks to highlight artists that go unnoticed on the internet and uplift non-fanart pieces that don't get as much traction. UTF will be free to read & submit to forever and published online for the forseeable future.

officially opening submissions for under the floorboards vol 1! there's zero timeline and also i dunno how long a volume will be. each artist spotlight/ article will be posted somewhere, probably on a neocities site i'll host (or maybe mine until i get off my ass and make a second acct).

pls be open to communication either thru email or discord, as i'd love to have a casual interview component as well! shoot me a tumblr dm or email (in tags) if you're interested in being featured.

#under the floorboards #original art #artists on tumblr #abstract art #fine art #art #zine #artist collective #d.txt #putting my email down here jic something goes bad lol i can remove it then. it's [email protected] #uh yeah! hopefully i can get some midnight gospel esque interviews goin with people #just a q&a format though ^3^ <3 should be cool stuff not just boring like ... how do u make art LUL #what else hm.. uh im a little busy so this might be on n off but we'll see :] i just wanna meet people & make cool stuff ngl #probably at some point if we get enough people interested we could have a litlte artist collective as well if other people would #wanna help run this? who knows im just throwin stuff at the wall & seeing what sticks. #tired of having zines which are a) just fan stuff and b) rlly gatekeepy urgh we have enough of that with galleries LOL

[satellite-mayday]

my gift for alerane during the rantarou gift exchange!

#rantaro amami #new danganronpa v3 #danganronpa #rantaro amami secret gift exchange #art from the crash site #if amami were a fantasy npc i think he would make friends by accidentally sending them on fetch quests #they are asking around for their Main Quest and hes like “hm i think ive seen that before #oh theres stuff i might need in this place thats extremely dangerous for one guy to enter #what do you mean you went immediately??? didnt even get a chance... #of course since hes so helpful and from a dr game hes vulnerable to becoming character motivation

[apocalypticdemon]

okay okay okay so i just finished the terror and i think i'm insane

#okay alright so here's the thing #i've never really seen a tragedy through to its endpoint. that is what this is. #however. ohhh my god i need to do another rewatch Right Now so i can listen to the music #i noticed something right at the beginning but i think there might be something to analyze in how western tonality breaks down throughout i #so like. it's set in the mid 1800s. we've got some pretty solid era of western tonality happening. and i can't help but wonder #if the show descends into the brutality of the arctic. does the music foreshadow or parallel this #bc there's some jaunty tune in ep 1 and music like that just Vanishes pretty immediately thereafter. #and the last shot has the most haunting sustained pitches with really really dissonant overtones. #and ends unresolved. in a way that pieces from the 1800s standard canon don't.... really do. and i just. augh. hm. how does the music work #i must know and i must know Now #the terror #so sorry y'all i'm just stuck like this you're in for the long haul

[wereh0gz]

Random headcanon

Sonic as werehog suffers from back pain and is generally more comfortable moving on all fours instead of walking on two legs because the transformation is more suited for quadrupedal movement and not bipedal

That's why he looks like he's slouching all the time he physically cannot stand up fully straight without being constantly uncomfortable

#ramblings #this by extention means ruby has chronic back pain from forcing themself to stand up straight to look more normal #even though it's far more confortable to walk and run on all fours #puts a lot of pressure on their back #... i wonder if this could also apply to furry characters #especially those with digitigrade legs #hm #anyways back to sonic #everyone tells him his posture sucks but he can't help it #if anything it's better for his body to not stand up straight so he doesn't put as much strain on his spine #he could probably use a massage #or a back brace maybe? but those are designed for humans so that might not work well for him #maybe tails could design one specifically for him #knowing him he wouldn't wear it much tho #with his distaste for wearing clothes and all #well he mostly just doesn't like wearing pants so he might still wear it #hm now i'm thinking of maybe designing one for him #maybe i'll doodle him wearing one in between the other stuff i said i'd draw

[misscrazyfangirl321]

Love when brain says "No you can't do x until you do y" and then won't let me do y

#'first task of the morning Must be getting dressed' #'ok cool what should i wear?' #'just stare blankly at your wardrobe' #that does not. help. #the actual reason is that today is truck day and i'll be on register for most of the day #but someone comes in and 2 who MIGHT be on register and i don't get off work until 4:30 #but also sometimes the woman coming in at 2 helps out on the floor until the morning cashier leaves #so basically the issue is i wear different things for truck and register #and idk if i'll be doing both or not #if i knew i was i'd just dress for truck #but i don't really want to do that if i'll be on register #hm #i speak #i mean i probably will dress for potentially doing truck anyway #just in case

[noirandchocolate]

I gotta get back into my new Age of Calamity file (been knitting and playing our second Tears file all the time), 'cause I am still soooo far away from unlocking Kohga and I need to get himmmm again. I mean I could just go in my old file and have him kill some vicious lynels to get my fix or something but. No I want to rebuild My Best Guy and see if I can possibly make him even more Best.

But. I mean.

That would be pretty hard.

(I accept the challenge but I gotta be patient and get through the 'let's destroy the Yiga Clan woohoo!' parts first astfglaslkfjsldfkj. I mean not that I hate those missions, I love fighting Sooga and Kohga as I have said before, and I adore the cutscenes involving them. But I wanna play as them even more, they're just so fun. Also I got sosososo lucky with Kohga's weapon drops last time so hopefully I will again this time too so I can make him an even better Demon Carver. If that's even. Possible. I will do my best! Glory to Master Kohga etcetc!)

#legend of zelda #age of calamity #yiga clan #master kohga #me: *playing as Urbosa blowing up the clan and all the valley's entry gates with Vah Naboris* i'm sorry i'm sorry I'M SORRY #me: *still plays the other parts of the mission more times to have fun fighting my banana boys* hi kohga hi sooga HI THAT POV CUTSCENE #((obv i can't get him to be better than lvl 100 but it MIGHT be possible to make a better weapon? idk the one i made is pretty fuckin good) #((my man will just do strong attack after strong attack opening weak points etc and building that stress gauge)) #((so he can go big glowy blast real efficiently. plus that sp atk charge rate + sp atk up combo is soooo handy)) #((truly serving up a whole lotta hurt)) #((super convenient that the charge rate and the shockwave hidden seal are the same shape too for bonuseeeesssss)) #((but idk would it be even better to ditch the squares and go all stars this time? hmm but the shockwave is thematically appropriate HMM)) #((like maybe the all star seals build would end up with technically higher attack bonus BUT gameplay-wise the squares do help/are fun. HM!) #anyway he's genuinely my favorite and i gotta get back to it so i can BE HIM ONCE MORE

[sysig]

Royal Scientist and his Majesty (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Gaster #Asgore #My brainspace...... #I (again) still haven't reread (yet)! #Why are they taking over my brain who signed off on this #I haven't even been playing with Ghoster lately so what gives #I think it's the little glimpses I've been like half-looking at that are Just Intriguing enough to Want to read more but Not Yet #Maybe soon tho.........might be fun............. #Anyway lol until then! I've already drawn them so too late now haha #They really are cute ♪ I still haven't actually gone in on a Gaster study yet but giving him a one-over helped a bit on his face shape #He's sharp-looking for being so roundy hehe ♪ #I constantly want to be drawing him blushing I cannot explain the why I just do - honestly most of the inspiration for the mini lol #Probably because he's usually so cold it's fun to see him break a bit hehe ♪ In a nice way in this case haha #I'm sure once I reread again the type of Break will shift a bit hm ♫ #Some more Asgore! Ft. a brief sidestep into an alternate hairstyle I was testing out at the time lol - maybe a ponytail? That'd be cute #He's so tiny in comparison haha #Fits perfectly inside his cape lol ♪ Just peeking out - he could hide there so easily! Somebody looking for him? Shoop! Lol #And then the mini :) Inviting closeness and feeling conflicted and bittersweet ah #The appeal ✨ #They just have such a fun dynamic and while this might be a little more casual than appropriate hehe it was still fun ♪ #They just have such a contrast in looks in feelings but they can still be so alike and get along well #I like them ♫

[rsenak]

back from vacation so time to speedrun art before september

#my art #svsss #liu qingge #liu mingyan #mxtx #scum villain's self saving system #got home and my first thought was hm! can i finish something in less than 2 weeks! and then this happened #id love to post more often and draw more but i work so slowly :( #now idk what to do next. help. bingqiu vs moshang on horse? #(ill do both (and more) eventually) #(so its just the matter of whats next) #did you know i started a sketch page aaages ago but never finished it so i didnt upload. but i only really like 3.5 sketches out of the 5 #so idk if it will ever get uploaded at all :( BUT i might put those people on horses too (GOD) #also need to find a book to read now.... pain (haha @ the 5 books i Have on hand and also the library literally next door) #if only decisions werent so hard!!!! #oh and before i forget #horse #horses

[luciality]

insane brain telling me to turn one of my oldest wip fics into an ask blog instead vs i dont wanna draw

#shut up luci #delete later #by one of my oldest i mean its a premise i've been playing with since middle school. #it is veryyyyyyy loosely a shimotsuma monogatari au for my bbygrls alice and sakura. loosely. #at this point the only real resemblance is the punk x lolita combo. entirely different plot and such #i've rewritten it so many times and even considered filing off the serial number to make it into an original story instead of fic #a couple scenes from my stageplay began their life as being part of this fic before i realized it matched my ocs better than iggypan #i havent touched this story in a while but i'm rereading some of it and i thought hm this would be a cute askblog premise also #however i dont feel like drawing all that but now im tormented with all the cute snippets i could show into their lives and the story #it might help me get the ball rolling on rewriting and polishing up to eventually publish #not to get anyones hopes up im prob gonna still take another decade on this fic #inb4 u can run an askblog without art. yeah i know that but art is my fave component of an askblog #inb4 no one sends asks anymore. i dont care i already know what asks i want to send to myself. but i would like to receive some others also

[the-furies]

#drugs tw #ask to tag??? #um. so this poll is legitimately genuinely serious #she keeps bringing it up! and keeps saying how people taking extremely low doses fixed their depression with it! #and I'm like. hm. i don't think so man FHFJSJSKDKCJ #she said to read up on the benefits which we will do when we remember to just bc curious #like. she's entirely serious about wanting to do this and knowing her. she just might this summer????? idk???????????? #so anyways. um. help <3 AJHSSJSJSJ #pk;m electrochemistry🔴 #with source me in mind this poll os SO funny like i am NOT that kinda gal anymoreAJAJAJSKDKXNZJ #im more worried about a bad trip like our psychotic ass doesn't need to hallucinate anymore <3 DHHDSJSJ #FOR THE RECORD IF IT ISN'T CLEAR WE'RE LEANING TOWARDS NO OURSELVES AJAJAJSJSJDJD

[waffietato]

No actually though while I'm on a roll ranting about the funny monke show

THIS FUCKING SCENE IN PARTICULAR GETS ME SO BAD. I THINK ABOUT THIS SCENE SO OFTEN

The timing of MK's words and what we see on screen.

"I'd never abandon her when she needs me"

When MK says this, the shot is focused on Wukong, as he listens in and starts to glance back at Macaque.

LIKE WE KNOW. WE K N O W WUKONG ABANDONED MACAQUE. Those two have SOME shit going on in their past. Macaque needed Wukong, and he left him (either intentionally or unintentionally) and that left Macaque bitter and sad, and that bitterness was prolly left to rot after hundreds of years (not to mention that whatever happened between them got worse and worse and. Yknow jttw. Wukong ends up killing him.)

BUT WHAT GETS ME IS THE NEXT PART AFTERWARDS.

"We're heroes, it's what we do!"

Macaque and Wukong have ALWAYS been compared to the sun and moon. Like, canonically. Wukong calls Macaque his shadow, Macaque compares him to light-- they're opposites.

When MK talks about them being heroes, it's focused on Macaque because- well, he's NOT a hero. Not to himself, anyway. And this is brought up again and again; during his shadow plays, he specifically refers to Wukong (and MK) as "the hero". And they are! But Macaque doesn't see himself like that-- he refers to himself as "the Warrior". He doesn't feel like a hero. And this is brought up again in the s3 specials. "I'm not a hero, bud-" and "then be a warrior".

He's so used to living in everyone's shadows and being at the bottom of the barrel-- he's got a "worse version of Wukong's powers" (in Wukong's own words), he's revived by LBD only to be forced to do her dirty work, he's punished when he doesn't fall in line with her- he loses no matter what.

AND LBD SAYS IT HERSELF.

As soon as Macaque was given the chance (or, a "breath of new life") he tries to fuck off and do his own thing! He tries to stay far away from everything else.

But he doesn't get to.

He's threatened and shoved down into the dirt again and again and again and it's no wonder he was so desperate in s3e8-10. He tries to freak Tang out, tries to compare them to each other, but it backfires. LBD immediately tries to off him, but he desperately screams at her about a weapon MK and the others are planning to use- he doesn't care that he's giving her information, he just doesn't want to DIE. He begs MK and everyone else to stand down, that he just wants to take the Samadhi Fire and leave. He sounds just so DONE with it all during that scene. And when Tang does finish the ritual and the Samadhi Fire is reawakened-- what does it do?

It gets rid of LBD's hold on Macaque. He's no longer being trapped in crystal.

And he says, all happy, "it worked!"

You see the same thing in s3e8. After Tang tells him "don't you see the Samadhi Fire is our only way of helping humanity?"

Macaque tells him, "the Samadhi Fire is MY only chance at getting far away from the Lady Bone Demon"

He never wanted to help her. All he wanted to do was get away from her. He never intended to give her the Samadhi Fire, the rings-- nothing.

He's selfish, and honestly, who can blame him? Given everything we know about him, he owes everyone here nothing. He doesn't want to help them, he doesn't want to help or listen to WUKONG, who (again, either intentionally or unintentionally) abandoned him and later killed him, he doesn't even want to rlly hurt MK that much ("stand down, or I will PUT you down" implies that he doesn't want to fight him if he doesn't have to, but at this point he's so desperate for his own survival that he will if MK won't get out of his way).

Macaque doesn't see himself as a hero because he can't identify himself with that kind of title.

Just.

This scene, man. There's so much behind it.

#Lmk #Lego monkie kid #Monkie Kid #I think there's the often characterization that Macaque is just an asshole and finds joy in fucking with them and that's just... #Not how I see it #I think? #Like. #Hm. #I'll avoid talking about jttw until I actually get the books and read them but for now #LBD revealed to us in s3 that Mac's only alive bc she brought him back in order to help her uj #Perfect the world or whatever #Nonsense like that #And then went off about 'with the first breath of a new life he reveled against fate' #The moment he got to live on his own he immediately looked off from her and abandoned ship #Ig the first thing on his mind was to get back at Wukong? #Which like. Fair ig. Given what we know about their backstory he definitely resents him #Adding that I think the Fanon idea/what the show might be hitting towards for the two of them is so dramatic but #But the original Canon. #Was just. #Macaque fucking around and finding out

[whumpshaped]

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[rearranging-deck-chairs]

hes cute when he thinks hes about to be murdered

#see? missy couldve said that #i do think that like 13 does this better maybe? #in general i have the impression 13 is less needlessly mean or insulting to bystanders than previous doctors #which HELPS in not accidentally turning people against you in stressful situations #but also i feel like she maybe.....hm....takes control of rooms in a slightly smoother way? slightly less noticeably. she announces it less #might be a combination of how bystanders are written and also her appearance tbh she gets maybe underestimated easier #but also i think the bubbly thing helps. she PRESENTS as nonthreatening more than 10 or 12 do #dont really recall 11 much at the moment but i think he might be a bit more like her in this regard? wanting family etc #though he does also insult people #but my impression might be a bit skewed rn bc ive got like the doctors daughter and sontaran 2 parter and now this all in a row #and maybe it just gives a skewed perception of 10 #although now that i just listed all those eps thats kind of a lot of eps so maybe he really is just like this. #not entirely sure if 13 really actually is Less like this tho or if my impression of HER is actually skewed #but i feel like 13 like. takes control from out of the spotlight slightly more than stepping into it #but that might be just smth i made up #im trying to think of specific scenes to use as examples for or against but cant really think of anything #i know she Does use the 'did i not mention? im really clever' at least once in 11x2 with the woman #it's just if you say it with that bubbly friendliness instead of selfimportant seriousness then its less offputting idk #it IS specifically the thing that catches up with 10 here tho so maybe my perception IS skewed for both of them actuallyl #anyway. 13 IS less insulting in general #she gets bitchy when she feels threatened but she really does try her best she wasnt wrong abt that #and its smart too #better not to give people reason to dislike you from the getgo #in case of tense bus rides you know