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Pray even if it hurts. Pray even if it looks like there’s no hope. Just pray.

Hijabi, MD

#th0ughts #islam #pray #sabr #qadr #hijabiMD #dhikr

[bintummar]

For a person who truly has a depression, it’s so hard to vent out or share our thoughts with anyone. We have the constant fear of not being understood. Trying to explain our thoughts or whatnot is like trying to interpret an abstract paint. We want to share but the manner of explaning it requires so much energy that makes us more hesitant to share. It’s so difficult, the constant fear of being judged instead of being advised. To be scolded instead of being comforted. There’s always that fear so we choose to hide it from the rest. I know some of you want us to reach out, but honestly for me, I really don’t know how. I’ve tried to talk to some of my friends, not just “friends” but “very close friends; best friends, relatives” but I still can’t share everything to them.

It’s really a dark place to be in, we have this constant double image that we show. A happy one when there’s people around us, an image showing how positive we are and how strong we are. Just trying to mask the pain, darkness, fear, anxiety, anger, sadness and all. While the sad and gloomy side, when I’m on my own.

I tried to fight it, and insist that maybe that’s because of my low Iman, that maybe this is all happening because of my sins. And yes, praying helps a lot. Du’a and dhikr after the other is a lot, constantly reading motivational quotes or pieces helps, it’s really short acting, but it do help a lot.

There’s really a little access to mental health in our country, and that’s just sad. I’ve been very reluctant about sharing this, but there’s been an increase incidents of suicide and depression among us, and what’s more bothering me is my fellow Muslim Brothers and Sisters.

I know how you feel guys, it’s a tough place to be in but I know that Allāh will never put us through something we can’t bear. If you’re like me who is hesitant to talk to anyone, who finds it really difficult to express what I’m actually feeling. Someone who constantly fear being scolded, judged rather than being advised. As someone who finds it draining to explain myself, then let me share you what worked for me. And I hope this helps.

• Be your own friend, get a blog/diary/notes wherein you can write down everything that you’ve been going through it doesn’t have to be wordy, you can draw, or color. Keep that journal with you wherever ever you go, it helps release all your anxiety.

• Make it a habit to read something positive everyday, if you can every after you write some of your anxieties in your Journal. For example, you’re feeling way too lazy to function, read or watch something about getting rid of laziness. Or if you feel like a failure, go read or watch something about how to fix it.

• Everyday, make it a habit to read Qur’an, hadith or any Islamic Reminders, it helps boost your confidence. And Yes, Salah/Daily Prayers, by just doing the Wudhoo, there’s a certain peace that comes with it, in every Sujood, when tears roll down, there’s a certain ease that comes after it. The creations may be difficult to talk to, but The Creator Himself is very easy to talk to. Pray, talk to Allāh, tell Him your worries, your anxieties, vent out your thoughts, your tears, your anger, your feelings. It helps a lot.

• When it gets really tough, and everything is just so gloomy and sad, rest for a while, close your eyes and just completely forget everything, clear your mind. You may take a nap, sleep, or just quietly chill, but just completely forget everything for awhile even for just 5-10 minutes. Then stand up, take a bath and eat something that you’re fond of.

• And lastly, the best therapy for me, talk to your parents, my mom. I never tell her my problems, but I know that she knows what I’m going through. Of all the people in this world, she’s the only person I can trust, and the only person who knows me so well. She’s the only person, even within the family, who loves and respects me. Whenever I feel that certain gloominess is sinking in, I ask her to make Du’a for me. A constant Du’a that Allāh the most High can only grant.

I know each of us go through something different, this may work for me and it may not work for you. But know that you’re not alone, we are not alone, we can survive this one at a time. Suicide is never an answer, Yes it’s hard but it’s never an answer.

Allāh loves us, we are in no means different or lesser than the the general crowd. We are special, and I know Allāh will take care of us. May Allāh grant ease after ease after ease to whoever is reading this and to whoever is going through the same or much worse than me.

Bint Ummar

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[thehijabimd]

Sometimes in life, you’re not going to have a clear goal. It will seem like everyone around you knows exactly what they’re doing. You may feel aimless, but you aren’t.

There is something special in not knowing where your life will take you. There is possibility. Don’t be scared of the unknown. Embrace it. You will find your path eventually. But right now, it’s okay just to wander.

So why are you beating yourself over things you can’t control? Breathe. Even if everything is in pieces now, that doesn’t mean they won’t come back together.

It will be your time soon. Have patience.

May Allāh grant us ease. Amīn

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[thehijabimd]

Not everything goes according to what you want but it’s going according to what Allāh wants. He is the Best Planner and He knows what we don’t know. Always remember that whatever it is you’re going through, no matter how it is at the present, His plans are always to heal you, protect you, make you better and as a form of mercy on you. Alhamdu Lillah! Tawakkul and Sabr is the key to that.

Hijabi,MD

#islam #th0ughts #sabr #qadr #hijabiMD

[thehijabimd]

Rejoice in silence. Strive in silence. Heal in silence. Celebrate success in silence. There's beauty and peace in being reserved and low key at all times. 

May Allāh keep us amongst His slaves who are blessed with humility  and modesty. 

Ameen.

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[thehijabimd]

Maghfirah (مغفرة ) and 'Afuw (عفو )

Aishah (May Allāh be pleased with her) reported: I asked: “O Messenger of Allāh! If I realize Lailat-ul-Qadr (Night of Decree), what should I supplicate in it?” He (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) replied, ‬ ‪“You should supplicate:‬ ‪ ‪“Allāhhumma innaka `afuwwun, tuhibbul-`afwa, fa`fu `anni (O Allāh, You are Most Forgiving, and You love forgiveness; so forgive me).”‬ ‪[At-Tirmidhi].‬

Allahumma Innaka 'Afuwwun Tuhibbul 'Afwa Fa'fu 'annee"

What’s the difference between Maghfirah (مغفرة ) and 'Afuw (عفو )?

🍃Maghfirah: is for Allāh to forgive you for the sin but the sin will still be registered on your book of deeds. Maghfirah is Allāh’s forgiveness for your sin but on the Judgment Day it will be written on your record, Allāh will ask you about it but HE won’t punish you because of it

🍃Afuw: is for Allāh to forgive you for the sin and delete it from your book of deeds as if it did not happen. ‘Afuw is Allāh’s pardon for your sin, it will be completely erased from your record and Allah won’t ask you about it on Judgement day This is why our Prophet (salla Allahu alaihi wa sallam) said that, this is the best Duaa to make on Laylatul Qadr

🍃Allahumma innaka 'afuwwun tuhibbul 'afwa fa'fu 'annee"

🍃O Allāh, You are The One Who pardons greatly, and You love to pardon, so pardon me.)" (Ahmad, Ibn Majah, and Tirmidhi)

🍃So make sure you read this dua all the time and as much as you can. Make it one of your daily athkaar.

May Allāh accept your Du’a and grant us Mercy.

Amīn.

#ramadan #islam #fasting #duaa #hijabiMD

[thehijabimd]

I’m going through something that I can’t really share much on here and I was really looking for something to calm myself.

Then I came across an instagram live about someone who was suddenly diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer. For context purposes, stage 4 cancer is the last stage, meaning there’s no cure and the goal for management is just to minimize pain and increase quality of life. And subhana Allāh, he explained how he responded when the doctors told him that he only has few days to live. And he emphasized that He doesn’t really believe on what the doctors say (ie days left) but he believes in Allāh. Which is true, doctors are just vessels of healing but the Healer is only Allāhu taala.

He then explained that everything is temporary, every test is just a way for us to go back to Allāh. Whenever we are struck with a test, our immediate response should always be ‘what did I do wrong?” Meaning contemplate immediately what sinned may have caused this. Because everything that Allāh gives will always be about healing and Mercy. The person then further advised that we must focus on our prayers, our charity, and our deeds because this is the only way for us to be ready to meet Allāh.

Indeed our time is very limited number of days, so it’s befitting that we should always think of ways on how we can contribute goodness to our family, friends, and our community.

May Allāh ease our pain, and grant us always the ability to see goodness in everything. Amīn.

#th0ughts #hijabimd #personal #islam #sabr #qadr #muslim

[thehijabimd]

Whatever field you choose to pursue, always keep the intention of doing it for Allāh’s sake.

Hijabi,MD

#th0ughts #muslim #medicine #islam #hijabiMD

[thehijabimd]

True strength comes when you have so much to cry and complain about, but you prefer to smile and appreciate your life instead. There are blessings hidden in every struggle you face, but you have to be willing to open your heart and mind to see them. You're stronger than you know. Smile

#personal #th0ughts #hijabiMD

[thehijabimd]

Never put yourself wanting to be in someone else's life because you never know what they are going through behind the social media facade.

Perhaps behind that one photo or few seconds video is a life that you wouldn’t be able to handle if your were put in it. Practice gratefulness at all times because that is what Allāh gave you and the best for you at the moment. I am not saying that you should settle for something and not make effort, No, that is not Islam. But be content with whatever outcome you have after doing your part (ie work, school etc).

And be careful of sharing your life in the social media because evil eye is real. Be mindful and be sensitive before your post anything here. Subhana Allāh, we are still in a time when people are struggling in different aspects of life and not all are in good state, some are struggling with job, some are struggling with health, and some are struggling with relationships.

Let’s be mindful with anything we share be it in online or offline, always check if it’s of benefit to us and if it’ll be good for our scroll of deeds. This is a reminder for myself first.

May we always have hearts that is content and grateful. Amīn. 🍃💭

#th0ughts #hijabimd #islam #personal #musings #muslim #sabr #qadr #love

[thehijabimd]

Just recently watched a documentary about how rampant the business in plastic surgery is — both legally and illegally. And how people are willing to go under the knife just to get that perfect “look”, but more often they don’t get satisfied with the results and ends up getting too much.

The fact that there are so many ways to change our looks just shows how insecure we're made to feel and how artificial the standard of beauty is in our society.

It also shows that until the source of your confidence is from within, you will always need to fill some sort of void externally.

May Allāh forgive us and protect us. Wallāhi it’s a scary time to live in.

#th0ughts #hijabimd #islam #personal #musings #muslim #sabr #qadr #love #ramadan

[thehijabimd]

Be happy with the little that you have. There are people with nothing who still manage to smile. 🍃

#th0ughts #hijabimd #islam #personal #musings #muslim #sabr #qadr #love #ramadan

[thehijabimd]

Whenever you intend to do something, always make Dua' that if it's good for you then may Allāh make it easy but if it's not then may Allāh distance it further away from you and replace it with something better.

#th0ughts #hijabimd #islam #personal #musings #muslim #sabr #qadr #love #ramadan

[thehijabimd]

I was about to finish my forty eight hours shift, when I got a call from the emergency room nurse on duty.

"Doc we have a 2 year old febrile with active seizure, and in respiratory distress"

I immediately ran to the ER wearing my personal protective gear.

I saw the mother crying beside her son. Patient was in distress and needed an emergency intubation.

When I saw the Xray film, I gasped because the lungs of the patient were almost gone highly indicative of COVID 19 infection. True enough the nasopharyngeal swab turned positive.

I had to explain to the mother that her first and only son's lungs were rapidly being destroyed by covid. Few hours later he went into cardiac arrest, despite our efforts to resuscitate him I pronounced him dead at 12:34 am.

I saw and heard how his parents broke down, and screaming as if their child can hear them. The pain in their eyes and voice is something that will be difficult to forget.

Moments like this will scar you. Yet there are people who still claim that this virus is not real.

We are tired, we are scared, but we are not giving up.

May Allāh grant cure to those who are sick during this pandemic and grant ease to their loved ones.

Amīn

#personal #musings #th0ughts #hijabiMD

[thehijabimd]

Someone once told me that one of the loneliest profession is to be a medical doctor but I beg to differ. It’s is one of the most exhausting professions yet the most fulfilling one too.

I remember filling in the first death certificate I had for the very first patient that I tried to resuscitate, it was difficult not to cry, but then it was followed by signing a discharge paper for someone who almost died but survived by the permission of Allāh.

I think whatever profession you’re into, as long as you love it and has the correct intentions for it, Allāh will put His Barakah (blessings) in it.

May Allāh make it easy for everyone. Amīn.

#muslims #musings #islam #hijabimd

[thehijabimd]

SADNESS

Are you like me? A person who finds it difficult to vent out or share my thoughts with anyone. We have the constant fear of not being understood. Trying to explain our thoughts or whatnot is like trying to interpret an abstract paint. We want to share but the manner of explaning it requires so much energy that makes us more hesitant to share. It’s so difficult, the constant fear of being judged instead of being advised. To be scolded instead of being comforted. There’s always that fear so we choose to hide it from the rest. I know some of you want us to reach out, but honestly for me, I really don’t know how. I’ve tried to talk to some of my friends, not just “friends” but “very close friends; best friends, relatives” but I still can’t share everything to them.

It’s really a dark place to be in, we have this constant double image that we show. A happy one when there’s people around us, an image showing how positive we are and how strong we are. Just trying to mask the pain, darkness, fear, anxiety, anger, sadness and all. While the sad and gloomy side, when I’m on my own.

I tried to fight it, and insist that maybe that’s because of my low Iman, that maybe this is all happening because of my sins. And yes, praying helps a lot. Du’a and Dhikr after the other helps a lot, constantly reading motivational quotes or pieces helps, it’s really short acting, but it does help a lot.

There’s really a little access to facilities that help with mental health problems in our country, and that’s just sad. I’ve been very reluctant about sharing this, but there’s been an increase incidents of suicide and depression among us, and what’s more bothering me is my fellow Muslim Brothers and Sisters.

I know how you feel guys, it’s a tough place to be in but I know that Allāh will never put us through something we can’t bear. If you’re like me who is hesitant to talk to anyone, who finds it really difficult to express what I’m actually feeling. Someone who constantly fear being scolded, judged rather than being advised. As someone who finds it draining to explain myself, then let me share you what worked for me. And I hope this helps.

• Be your own friend, get a blog/diary/notes wherein you can write down everything that you’ve been going through it doesn’t have to be wordy, you can draw, or color. Keep that journal with you wherever ever you go, it helps release all your anxiety.

• Make it a habit to read something positive everyday. For example, you’re feeling way too lazy to function, read or watch something about getting rid of laziness. Or if you feel like a failure, go read or watch something about how to deal with it.

• Everyday, make it a habit to read Qur’an, hadith or any Islamic Reminders, it helps boost your confidence. And Yes, Salah/Daily Prayers, by just doing the Wudhoo, there’s a certain peace that comes with it, in every Sujood, when tears roll down, there’s a certain ease that comes after it. The creations may be difficult to talk to, but The Creator Himself is very easy to talk to. Pray, talk to Allāh, tell Him your worries, your anxieties, vent out your thoughts, your tears, your anger, your feelings. It helps a lot.

• When it gets really tough, and everything is just so gloomy and sad,rest for a while, close your eyes and just completely forget everything, clear your mind. You may take a nap, sleep, or just quietly chill, but just completely forget everything for awhile even for just 5-10 minutes. Then stand up, take a bath and eat something that you’re fond of.

• And lastly, the best therapy for me, talk to your parents, my mom. I never tell her my problems, but I know that she knows what I’m going through. Of all the people in this world, she’s the only person I can trust, and the only person who knows me so well. She’s the only person, even within the family, who loves and respects me. Whenever I feel that certain gloominess is sinking in, I ask her to make Du’a for me. A constant Du’a that Allāh the most High can only grant.

I know each of us go through something different, this may work for me and it may not work for you. But know that you’re not alone, we are not alone, we can survive this one at a time. Suicide is never an answer, Yes it’s hard but it’s never an answer.

Allāh loves us, we are in no means different or lesser than the the general crowd. We are special, and I know Allāh will take care of us. May Allāh grant ease after ease after ease to whoever is reading this and to whoever is going through the same or much worse than me.

-Hijabi,MD

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