#hhhh brain... brain bad

[spacebugarts]

I'm just... so tired of needing to filter my words 500 times in my head before actually saying them in order to avoid giving off the wrong impression with my tone/wording, and then failing anyways. Even over text I need to rewrite things multiple rimes and use multiple different tonal indicators and it still comes out wrong!!! And then neurotypical people are just out there saying whatever and people understand what they mean every time! Its so exhausting just let me say things the way I mean them pls

#currently dealing with the rsd of someone misreading a silly little comment i made #and im probably misreading their tone too but its so hard to tell and i just wanna be done with that #hhhh brain... brain bad #i gotta get some sleep #pls dont read into anything i say its not that deep im just dumb and autistic #from now on just imagine me saying wverything with a flat tone and no expression ok thx #autism spectrum disorder #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rsd #neurodivergent #audhd #asd #autism #ahdjshsksj i just blocked someone bc i just. i cant deal with this rn #and i know itll probably just make me look like an asshole but at this point theyll probably think that regardless #and the whole ordeal is giving me a headache #but i wanted to say something just to get it out of my head #so i can fucking sleep #hhhhh

[b1mbodoll]

oh my gawd i need to lick him 😵‍💫

#help i have to chomp his arms and his jaw and his lips and his throat #oh my goddddddd where r my jisung enthusiasts #ive been postin so much im sorry for the spam but it will continue to happej #GOD he looks so fucking yummy :( want him so bad hhhh #these pics literally made my brain goo… hhhh #nct dream #park jisung #♡.gabi barks #♡.museum

[bas-writes]

I caved & watched a piece of live action with sis. A piece because, honest to Nika, I couldn't handle more.

Lemme just say... I honestly don't understand what people praise here. Maybe I simply don't have comparison to other live actions or netflix shows in general (I tried The Witcher and Stranger Things and both became boring to me in their early stages) but hhhh why do they act like plastic action figures, throwing "funny" one-liners, jumping chaotically around, and overall seem more marvelesque than an adaptation of One Piece?

And why they don't act like... Like them. Why Zoro behaves like wanna be slavic hooligan, he even walks like one, oh my god, I swear, I run into guys like this on my way for groceries. I thought Luffy will be my biggest problem but nah, one look at Zoro quickly set me in understanding that Luffy is not the worst that can happen to my faves.

Why the camera man has adhd. The camerawork at times made me feel dizzy. At times I couldn't even follow what was going on.

Also.

How can I erase that Targaryen Helmeppo naked scene from my memory. Please. Please.

#she's still watching but by the grave silence broken only by some groans and 'what the fucks' I judge she's not having great time #anyway now I know it wasn't the case of bad trailers #this thing just looks like this hhhh #and yknow what's imho the worst about it? #it's painfully mediocre #painfully safe #painfully idk westwashed? #idk how to call it but it's heavily ran through the western lense #and kinda forcefully pushed into 'standard' #it's what I hear about a lot of netflix and netflix-adjacent shows #that they are cut into perfect mediocre #with rare pearls appearing here and there #anyway... it's not bad enough to watch it ironically #and not good enough to turn brain off #the thing what I love about OP is how it takes the cliches and expectations #and throws them upside down #aside from good writing OP is just straight up......well: looney #live action just IS just exists #I really have a feeling (also after reading other opinions from critical to enthusiastic ones) #that the appeal doesn't lie in the OPLA itself #but the that fact it's - unlike other western live actions - decently made #surprised everyone so much that most of them assesses it as above expectations #but cmon...the bar is so low it licks the ground #bas mumbles

[painsandconfusion]

Google Drive changed its layout for file presentation and I'm DYING

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FIND MY HOT SPOT THINGS THAT I HAVE ON THE MAIN SCREEN BUT NOT IN FOLDERS WHEN YOU BURY IT IN EVERYTHING HUH???

#like I CAN but #but #but I'm HORRID with layout changes #esepcially impractical ones #i cant handle thisssss #hhhh change give me the panics #like i cant open websites for like a week at a time when theres layout changes and it stresses me out so much #until eventually my fucked up little brain can accept the new normal #its bad #hhhh

[futureforged]

💥🔨⚙️

#Would it be too uh weird to request some kind words? #I haven’t been feeling the greatest for a while now and I’m particularly low today and doubting my presence here #On whether people truly even enjoy my muse or #ITS JUST A LOT OF BAD BRAIN THOUGHTS #not obligated to but hhhh #💀😭 #Idk it feels… whiny… #➤ ꜰɪʟᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ . . . // ooc rambles. | to be deleted. #negativity tw #vent tw

[sysig]

DAAAAAAAAAAAAX <3 <3 (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #DAX #ZEX #Hello I have been inconsolable ever since ZEX mentioned that he wished DAX were there so he wouldn't be the only VUX #It is a hideously addictive thought - DAX being there to support his Admiral - he certainly could use it! #Talana got pulled in from Zelnick's girlfriend's ''real'' counterpart - why not Dexter!! Hghgh #It sets my brain on fire (terribly affectionate) #I love DAX sm ;; I love ZEX sm! I love their dynamic sm ;;;; #He would've been such a comfort hhh my head is full of all these horrifically self-indulgent scenes of They ♥ #Firstly of them meeting up with each other!! ZEX is very tactile haha <3 He needs the physical reassurance so bad haha ;u; #Not quite like twining arms but DAX won't recoil at least <3 Hugs good! #Can you tell that second one was a spacefiller lol #ZEX very well acquainted with crying now haha - at least it's for something positive! For once :') #Ugh imagining their little differences in approach is so fjdkslafdf - same stimuli different outcomes! I love them hgh #I like to imagine DAX just observing the showers with a distant annoyance-interest like ''What the heck is that'' lol #Very dissimilar from ZEX's Intense interest but not actually picking up any skills from the experience lol #But really it's just my secret desire for DAX to learn how to wash hair so he can corral his Admiral into taking care of his body haha #Two VUX would have a very different kind of scaffolding of learning how to get along! They'd both benefit from whatever one finds out! #Might keep ZEX just a teensy bit more on track of finding things out to report back and help DAX out hehe <3 Maybe possibly lol #Still wouldn't stop him from hitting on DAX hehehehe ♪ What's this? Someone he likes and trusts in a human form? Hmm :) #Hhhh they ;; Recreating the scene of Max coming onto Dex and then Dexter turning it around on him - not that they'd know #I'm fine this is fine I'm not crying or anything ;;;; Parallels are my favourites I can't stand this <3 <3 #There's just so much to think about! And it's all so much to me!! ♥

[byanyan]

...staring at my drafts and realizing i should perhaps consider pausing on answering ask prompts to start getting caught back up on those instead bc the number is back in the 40s & i just found a starter i completely forgot about bc it got lost on the second page :x

#a few weeks of mentally struggling & being out of it has really done a number on all that hard work i did getting (almost) caught up l-lmao #tbf everything except like. 2 threads (& a few unprompted asks that're in there) are all from march & april but. hhhh. #i was doing sm better at staying on top of stuff and then suddenly that all went to hell lmakjfakjs #really tho i suppose i should just keep doing whatever i'm feeling/enjoying the most right? #i'm here to have fun not stress over deadlines that don't exist for replies #need to get better at remembering that. need to..... idk. stop feeling overwhelmed over a hobby lmao #i just!!!! feel so bad leaving things for so long!!! i worry it makes people think i don't want to write w them #or i've lost interest or smth which!!! is not at all the case!!!! my brain just sucks so bad!!!!! #i'm rambling to myself ignore me ajsfksd i'll see what i feel like tackling tomorrow #hopefully?? i'll have some better focus??? bc my writing has still felt v disjointed today and i don't. like that. at all. #but my usual routine around the house is still kinda disrupted & off-kilter until monday which i think is playing a big part in my struggle #so. idk. we'll see. i'm still rambling i'm sorry pls continue ignoring me askjfsd #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[gglitchshit]

me: im absolutely terrified of being hated also me: *posts my fucked up thoughts online uncensored*

#glitch.txt #i know im not doing anything wrong cuz i tag them accordingly etc but hhhh #cancel culture has rotted my brain yall #im not a bad person bc i think bad thoughts and write fucked up fiction etc peace and love <3 #i just hope all my followers are on the same page here etc #and if you're not my blog is not for you

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HGNHHHH the heigeto post just collided with the merman au brainrot and what if: merman au heigeto? 🥺😭🧜🏻‍♂️

WAITTTTTT ANON YOU’RE A FUCKING GENIUS??? NO BC HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUTTTT

at first i was like hmm mer!haibara/mer!sugu…. cute……. :33 BUT THEN I REALIZED haibara needs to be a human. it’s so perfect. he’s the perfect human in a human/merman story. he’s the prince to the little mermaid. etc etc. he’s just sooo kind and sweet and he would be so in awe of mer!sugu :((( i picture the latter as being kind of a hater and very distrustful of humans but haibara is just such a ray of sunshine….. mer!sugu couldn’t hate him even if he tried :(((( they’re our little angels. haibara would go swimming in the sea and almost drown or something and mer!sugu would end up haphazardly saving him….. and haibara would stay in love for the rest of his life.

#THIS IS THE YAOI I MADE THIS BLOG FOR #no but they’re genuinely so dear to me :(( they’d be PERFECT for this au anon how does it feel to be the smartest person in the universe….. #mer!sugu who is bitter and cynical and prideful to a fault but haibara nestles his way into his heart like a sea urchin 😞😞😞 #mer!sugu and his happy little seal bf….. they would swim together all the time #WAITTT what if…. haibara was the kind of kid who always believed in merfolk n wanted to meet them 🥺🥺 #THAT’S SOOO HIM he was obsessed w marine biology as a kid for sure ….. #and as he grows up everyone else is like PLS stop believing in merfolk dumbass 🤨 but he doesn’t !!! he wants them to be real so bad !!!! #so when he meets mer!sugu he’s just absolutely enamored at first sight #hhhh this au is gonna rot in my brain for all of time i think :(((( tysm anon this was the best morning snack i could ask for <33 #ask tag ✩ #mer!sugu <33 #haigeto

[dunkinbublin]

FIVE AM SNIPER POST dont tell anyone

#not sonic #i !!! #simply cant draw sonics rn!!! #i should have seen this coming lmao #it happens everytime i get a bunch of followers outta nowhere hhhh #who are all u people lmao #got me acting all shy and shit shame on u #every time i draw i only think about studies #which fair #there are less productive things i could draw #my brain simply wont do sonic mode #i feel bad cus i asked for requests and i cant bring myself to do em #i think its mostly my power situation got me in a funk cus i didnt touch digital for so long #now it feels weirddddd #i think the only thing to get out this funk is to make some sonc ocs #that usually helps just designing some og stuff #STAY TUNED LMAO #dunkinsart

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

Academic stress vent in tags

#really wish uncle wayne was here rn #ive fucked this up so bad #midnight and not even half done not even a quarter done and i gotta be up at 5 for work #im so scared snd i think im gonna have an anxiety attack or something #im really scared #hhhh i need someone to hold my hand but also wash out my brain in creek water #im terrified #i think ill have to drop out if this keeps happening #i csnt do this #i will i know i will but the price is no sleep tonight

[alligaytorswamp]

you would think that me ending a friendship with someone i knew for ~10 years would leave me devastated but tbh all i feel is disappointment and cringe for them 😶

#want some tea? #if the only times a person shows discontent or just outright says weird shit about YOUR OCS is ONLY when they are not cis #run #too bad i was excusing and ignoring a lot of shit for years #glad i have actually decent ppl by my side that even helped me see that some things that were said were 10 times worse than i assumed #just another story i get to tell when it's time to talk about cringe ppl from my life ajkdhasjklasd #also like imagine sending a whole ass google doc after u have been told to fuck off #and u didnt even check if the link works #funniest shit even but also shows how much they care ig?? #anyways #im just kinda glad that im not lost in any delusion anymore and really just moving on from this. character development #sucks that so much of my brain effort was wasted but oh well #anyways to my bestie mutuals if anyone wants to have playdates with ocs pls let's do it i got a whole bunch who need oc friends now akdjlsh #not even joking i love ocs interactions so much hhhh #adry.txt

[depoteka]

i think my period is kicking in bc I feel like crying bc I have a dentist's appointment tomorrow

#i'm not scared of dentists #i just. kinda wanna cry #hhhh #what a shitty reason #but my brain is scared of getting a bad grade in teeth #i know it's doctors' job to fix people's issues #but my monkey brain is scared of being scolded like i'm at school #yhhh #hopefully she will fix my tooth fully tomorrow so i don't have to come back anytime soon

[bigdvmnhero]

holy shit i forgot how much i enjoy writing long-form stories. mapping out full character arcs might be fun yall... even the annoying task of braiding scenes to set up that One Specific Scene, because the payoff just might be worth it. making your blorbo go through hell only to ask yourself can it get worse? and the answer always being Yes <3

#wrote so much flash fic last year i almost forgot #this stuff's fun!!!! #with short fic i tend to write towards the end i have in mind #but this nebulous space with longfic where i let the story morph #and grow with each chapter hhhh #always a surprise when you allow things to change #kisses my brain for being so smart #anyway: slaps 'corruption arc' onto my current bad future wip lmao #a.text

[hollowsart]

-sees a retro-ish mysterio posable toy figure-

-actually cries cuz it's like $64 but I want it so bad-

#ghostie mumbles #BRAIN ROT ACCEPTANCE. HHHH #-bites my phone and cries some more in wanting that specific figure SO BAD-

[azure-seadragon]

I was gonna write tonight but my anxiety is currently making me feel awful so,,, I’m gonna lay down and I’ll see y’all tomorrow

#((hhhh I’m having bad brain problems recently)) #oocobalt #tbd