#he probably has other groups he likes

[puppetmaster13u]

Oh boi even more of One au in like 3 hours lol

I like to think that like how in @phoenixcatch7's Doll au there's gas versions of like cures and such in the batfam's gas masks since they don't need to breath when possessing the puppets right? I like to think there's an organic version of that with the meat puppet bodies, at least with Bruce, where the plates on his neck opens up into vents of sorts, pictured here with a few spikes removed for visibility reasons.

This gas could be some cures for like Joker venom & Fear gas and such, or it could also be sedatives, paralytics, could even vary between each member. (For example in the Cryptidverse Steph has Anesthetics on her claws, Jason has reflective powder that mimics embers/sparks, Cass has paralytics, etc). Honestly I am just brainstorming so this could definitely change lmao

I do like to think they start developing their own venom though, gotta' have those fangs & tusks for some reason lol

#meat marionette au #batman au #cryptid batman #cryptid batfam #body horror #batman #dcu #dc #Sorry Phoenix if I am spamming you lol #Honestly I feel like Bruce & Kane are the only ones with like big-ish tusks as though to show they're the fully grown ones of the group #Batwoman has set up shop in Bludhaven while Bruce usually sticks to Gotham me thinks but they still help each other out because family <3 #God I want to ramble about their language and body language and stuff so bad lol I love world building #I also totally haven't been writing a drabble for this for the past hour lmao #The caves have a favorite mortal and It's definitely Bruce lol #Okay but now I am thinking of how Bruce & Clark could meet the first time lol #Bruce can definitely sneak up on Clark if he wants to and it's probably terrifying lol #Something I will have to think about for later I suppose #What are the tunnels? Fuck if I know lol #The drabble totally isn't from Its pov tho lol (definitely not) #Tumblr don't eat my tags 2023 #Bruce definitely freaks out the first time he sees his second body #Not helped by the fact the first time he sees it he is piloting it and emerging from a flesh wall #All stumbly like a newborn deer (not helped by long limbs and body all differently proportioned & more limbs lol) #The secondary body's face is something between a human and an animal's muzzle #Dick deserves electric organs like an electric eel so he can shock people #Y'know what Cass deserves pitch black flesh & organs- like I am talking vantablack barely lets in any light black #Bruce is probably more wary about taking in kids what with the whole eldritch thing beneath the streets but really what choice does he have #All of them were already trying to do vigilante work & they'll end up killed if he doesn't help them :/ #He loves them but he *really* wishes the tunnels didn't take a liking to them as well because they're already traumatized enough #He wishes it didn't call to them like it did to him so long ago

[sinfuego]

Tbh, nothing has made me sympathize more with Kipperlilly Copperkettle than her anger issues.

Cause anger is an emotion we feel when we're missing something. When we need something and can't get it. It's a balm to make us feel better when things don't go our way.

When things aren't fair.

#d20 #dimension 20 #d20 fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #d20 spoilers #fhjy #fantasy high spoilers #of course just cause you feel like things are unfair doesnt mean they actually are #and the reason why its an anger issue is cause the anger has befome detrimental #its warped from being somethjng to comfort you when you feel powerless to a tool you use against others when you fedl slighted #part of why anger issues are so hard to overcome is cause of how good it feels in the moment #even if you feel terrible guilt afterwards #the catharsis of releasing anger can be such a relief #that you dont even realise youve started looking for reasons to be angry #youre listing things that are terrible with the world just so you can feel better by getting angry at them #things like capitalism and people who bullied you and how your boss is a terrible racist #things that everyone can get angry over #until they get more personal and warps your judgment #“my boss called a group of immigrant a bunch of racial slurs” “his secretary was there too she can back me up” #“when i brought it up with her she says she wasnt payjng attention or something” “shes peobably racist too and thats why he hired her” #it becomes easier to make jumps like that instead of giving people the benefit of the doubt #easier to justify your anger with the smallest slights #until youre yelling at a pedestrian whe. you almost ran them over #“sure it was a red light but they shouldve paid attention and seen me coming too” #anyways this is all to say kipperlilly probably has some issues to deal with #idk if shes actually behind this plot or if shes being manipulated #doesmt stop her from being a total dick tho #but it does make me a little more sympathetic to her

[trans-leek-cookie]

i don't follow dungeon Meshi discussions closely and also haven't seen much in depth analysis of the marginalization of halflings specifically but I feel like the Infantilization aspect is focused on without acknowledging the ways they are often also Dehumanized (little weird considering the usage of "human" in the context of the story but I think it fits well enough). Like they are considered unskilled and immature due to their appearance + shorter relative lifespans, but also they are considered shady, used as literal bait (for sirens and succubi), and fucking disappeared when they come into contact with dangerous artifacts. Like both are significantly negative, but one is a bit more Obviously Violent in a way that I feel like is under discussed.

#Dungeon Meshi #I got two theories for why. One is that the short lives races in general struggle with infantilization and halflings are more obviously #Visibly childlike esp to dwarves/tallmen so it's the more obvious and easier lense to analyze their marginalization thru #The second is I think sometimes ppl focus on justifying the shipping (listen. I don't fucking care chilchuck is a divorced adult man #Who gives a shit.) so people tend to bring up the fact that the infantilization of halflings is a form of marginalization to highlight #How despite chronological age gaps they are equivalent in maturity to tall men/dwarves/elves whatever the fuck. Again I don't care #But. I feel like this makes it take precedence over the other forms of marginalization they face that aren't really explained by them being #Viewed as childish (for example being used as bait. I don't think that's happening to tall men children.) #Anyway Chilchuck is a flawed character but also has to be understood thru the lense of him being a member of a marginalized group #So like. Some of him being mean is probably connected to that and not just him being A Hater (he is that too) #Sending this post into the world and straight into a blender also. Goodbye

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

assorted thoughts 1/when sklonda mentioned getting drinks with sandra lynn now and then I straight up cheered I was so scared for her social life being so overworked 2/straight up have no judgement on the whole ratgrinder situation on account of being a whole grown man. Im not getting into beef with fictional teenagers let them sort that out among themselves 3/sprak levefre

#not art #my oldest daughter with a grown sibling ass going I hope sklonda makes time to chill #she should be at the club. for free. they should pay her to be at the club #honestly its kind of a thing with riz too but thats more like. ok the thing is riz just fr loves mysteries #so tbh its more like if u yknow. love drawing and u draw for fun #and now u also draw for job. like I feel like thats the thing thats going on with riz #dude who playtests as a job and then goes home and plays more games. but with mysteries #but with sklonda it really feels like. its something shes Good at bc shes diligent and careful and has a moral spine #rather than something she actively enjoys. like her job is solidly her Job #so she immediately hits that alarm trigger in my brain seeing moms going about like #!!!⚠️⚠️STOP⚠️⚠️!! DO YOU HAVE A HOBBY ARE YOU CULTIVATING YOUR SOCIAL LIFE #and with her it fucking Got me too bc she just! doesnt seem to have the time to build that for herself #and the fact that she (Like Riz) is Living While Goblin in elmville and the isolation that probably entailed #like the empty nesting down the line would hit her like a baseball bat it would be Brutal #so genuinely knowing that she is casually hanging out with sandra lynn (and probably other parents in the group as well) #thats a whole piece of anxiety off my mind watching this show lmao. moms! #anyways sprak lefevre my beloved. actually I retract my vow of neutrality sprak's party better really like him and treat him right #or else. #he is prrrrrobably an artificer but personally itd be so funny if he isnt. what if hes a bard

[loulooser]

Sometimes I feel like everyone would be fine without me eventually like if I left their lives they’d be sad for a while but they’d be fine and eventually better off

I’m no one’s favourite person and i have a feeling I won’t be for a long time

#my friend group happened because the trio of boys #and the trio of girls were both my friends #so they kind of got to know each other #and now I sit there on discord calls muted #just vibing #or stand there at break silently #like I’m not that important in their lives #yeah one of them probably wouldn’t be here if I wasn’t there for him last year #but like #he’s fine now #he has everyone else #they all have eachother #they seem to be fine when they hang out without me

[mattodore]

kavi and his business major backpack

#simblr #the sims 4 #sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 cas #river dipping #echthroi #kavi sunder #🦇 #MEANT to post this last night after all those cas posts but i fell asleep.... so instead you're seeing this now <3 #this is kavi he's one of theo's classmates... for now... i'm thinking he's a business major minoring in either a foreign language (german?) #or something lit related for fun....... hm. who knows... #i might add him to the friend group... idk haven't decided i just really wanted to make this sim #he's inspired by adarsh jaikarran who i've had a few pins saved of in my oc board for foreverrrr #i’ll probably change his hair to a shorter one but i still wanted to show how he looks with this hair since it's what i previewed before #its funny i used every single slot i could but i still feel like he needs more detail.......... it's killing me #even all the tattoo sections are full........ *jumps* #anyway i'm supposed to go to an appointment for my ears today so wish me luck with that......... i'm deaf in one ear #and my other ear has been making constant crackling sounds so... hoping i just need my ear cleaned

[batfamhyperfixation]

I need more content of Tim's jealousy when other siblings come in and become close to Dick. Like every time someone says Damian is Dick's favorite it hurts my heart a little cause I know how Tim would feel.

It's one thing for a younger sibling to grow up with you, cause like at least then you all have your defined roles and it's like what you know so you aren't stepping on one another's toes, but like it's something completely else to have a sibling who is already grown up come into the family and become siblings with your sibling.

It is just like that longing feeling when you see them together and like they haven't known each other as long yet they seem closer to your sibling than you are, and everyone knows they are the favorite and you are just like how do they get along so well with so little effort.

I need more Tim and Dick content like this. The boy went from being Dick's only sibling still around (aka no competition for being brothers and nothing to compare it to) to being like 1 of 5 of dick's siblings, and I know this also goes in reverse where the newer sibling is jealous of the older two siblings for already having the established bond, but I dont see enough of Tim having bitter envy of how close Damian and Dick are despite not knowing each other as long, like you want angsty relationships DC, show me this instead of just everyone trying to kill Tim, show me silent envy that grows more and more as it slowly decays a sibling relationship instead of like a weird ritual where if you wanna be apart of the family you have to attempt to kill tim

#sometimes i just need angsty tim #not tim getting targeted by siblings or tim getting annoyed at siblings #just Tim who finally became brothers with his idol and hero and formed a relationship with having to watch as it goes from their small #contained group of dick tim Bruce and babs where tim is like the best brother dick has got to everyone especially damian coming in #and tim feeling crowded out and jealous as damian and dick become closer than tim and dick ever were and tim slowly pulls away #and at first dick not even noticing and tim feeling guilty every time a dispute comes up and feeling guilty over how happy he feels when #damian ticks dick off and tim starts throwing himself into other things and flakes/cancels on things he and dick have planned and #finally one time tim and dick are sitting around and tim is like i miss how close we were and dick laughing is like well you're so busy now #and tim is like 'well its not like you need me anyway you have damian and jason and cass and duke and- nevermind' tim cuts himself off #dick is like 'timmy you know im still here for you just like before' and tim is just like 'yeah sure whatever' and heads out and then dick #starts noticing that tim is keeping him at arms length so he keeps trying to connect and he sees how tim keeps getting close with others #but that he refuses to with dick and then the jealousy is both ways and slowly they start to come together again as brothers and things #arent quite the same and probably will never be but they are still brothers and they love each other #but things are complicated when you go from the only sibling to having like 5 siblings and i want that explored more #i want these complex sibling relationships dc. give me this over trying to kill tim. there is more to siblings than the cain instinct. #anyway thats my rant #tim drake #dick grayson #batkids #batfam #bat family #batsiblings

[theyarerealtome]

Ok, but so many feelings about Charlie giving Nick the queer experience he himself never got to have?! 

Charlie outed with no choice about the matter? Unflinchingly keeps Nick’s sexuality a secret, even when it makes things more painful for Charlie himself.

Had an abusive and toxic first relationship? Is the sweetest, most supportive, loving, healthy boyfriend to Nick.

Was horrifically bullied for being gay? Introduces Nick to a diverse, accepting, LGBTQI+ friend group, so he isn’t trapped in his homophobic social circle.

Just…. Charlie freaking Spring.

When Nick called him the kindest, most thoughtful, caring, amazing person? He’s not wrong. 

#narlie #nick x charlie #Obviously Nick did his own work on his queer journey #And without Charlie or someone other than Charlie (holy shit someone like BEN) #it could have gone very differently #And I know there’s a lot of focus on Nick supporting Charlie #Through his insecurities and OCD and ED in later comics/seasons #And working through what Ben did to him #But there’s a lot to be said for the fact that Nick doesn’t have the emotional scars that Charlie has #BECAUSE CHARLIE WAS THERE TO STOP IT HAPPENING #Charlie made sure Nick didn’t go through what he did #Because as Tori says he’s “probably the kindest person in the universe” #charlie spring #and yes Nick also built that support/friendship group #as he befriended Tara and Darcy #but Charlie really gave Nick a support network #and showed a different viewpoint and what accepting friends look llike #heartstopper

[idkaguyorsomething]

this is the anybodys/chino dynamic to me

(IMAGE ID: three images. The first one is two sketches of people standing side by side. The first person is glaring and has their arms folded while being labeled “actual sunshine” and the second person is smiling brightly enough that a halo is emanating from their head while being labeled “dangerous”. The second image is of Anybodys from West Side Story 2021. The third image is of Chino from West Side Story 2021)

#obviously this is a drastic oversimplification but i think it would be very funny #anybodys can and will beat the shit out of you but chino has a body count so #the contrast between how they’re perceived by their respective groups and society at large versus who they really are has vast potential #both comedic and dramatic #like to an outsider it would look like a “excuse me he asked for no pickles” situation #but to each other it’s a whole different story #it’s my crack ship and i get to decide the comfort they find in each other after being screwed over by the world #west side story #wss #wss 2021 #west side story 2021 #anybodys #chino #stephen sondheim #my dream is to make this one of those crack ships that somehow become super popular despite them sharing a frame like maybe once #which would probably be easier if this movie had a bigger fanbase or it was two white boys

[horsemage]

I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂

#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one #prob best if u don't expand the tags #am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time #so I think I get a pass on this one. #one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch #it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie! #there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who #have not. okay so far so normal. #and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that #when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in #a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs #and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and #they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times #like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying #I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so #I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of #them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in #their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door #this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl #this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything #AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great #emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too #is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!' #I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of #knowing how to coexist politely in public #anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out. #I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who #found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness #I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think #hater hour over love u guys bye

[strawberrysweater]

i was talking on discord about kiibo wearing sweaters and joked about him learning to knit or crochet to make his own bc i think that would be silly and he'd enjoy it AND I WAS REMINDED by a friend of the fact that crochet can't be replicated by machines and now i'm sooooo soft about this hc oh my god

kiibo taking up a hobby postgame that gives him something to do during those long quiet nights when everyone else is sleeping... he is all about learning and doing stuff and crochet is so methodical.... he hangs out with kaito or himiko to crochet together, makes a blanket for kaede and shuichi and they're like "hey um this is your blanket too.... <3"

a hobby that only human hands can do but here he is... and sure it's because he's a robot with human-shaped hands but it's still something he's doing because he wants to

#q #meows #top 10 fics i would write #me when kiibo postgame is more than tdr's tool and gets to explore his own humanity waaaaaaaaa #he's important to me.................. #thank u james btw...... your mind #i was gonna mention maybe he listens to kiyo talk abt textile arts but #my postgame hcs for kiyo are different every time jfhdjf and complicated #i think.... would he still enjoy anthropology now that the interest has been beamed into his head. yes #and would kiibo enjoy his company...... i think so. even if it's contentious around some of the others #would kiyo wanna hang out with anyone and would they accept him as one of the group. probably yes but my thoughts are complex #so idk. too insecure about my lack of good headcanons to put it in the body of the post LMFAO #but i think kiibo and kiyo could be funny friends i just feel like they would vibe. i can see them postgame hanging out

[gibbearish]

its been fun watching the hbomb subreddit try very very hard to stick to the "if anyone harasses james on my behalf they wont see the light of heaven" by imo overcorrecting to "any time anyone mentions somerton ever it's because you're obsessed with him and want to pick on him because he's the villain of the week" bc its like. yknow actually i dont think people keeping an eye on his various attempts to weasel back into the spotlight and keep doing his same old shit over the last /two months/ is the same as harassing him because it's hip and fun. i think maybe those are not the same thing

#and like obv yes its possible to do both but idk #im just kinda like. 'dont harass him' and 'ignore him completely even if hes continuing to do shitty things' are um #different. those are different #origibberish #i will say though that subreddit is very good for gauging if im getting weirdly parasocial at him #like i still have yet to do that at a celebrity i like afaik because i just. Dont Like Celebrities usually #so now that i have one (1) that autism brain has finally decided to look up to im like Uh Oh Is It Finally Time #and then i see posts on there sometimes and im like. ohhh ok no i get it now #and i mean i can see why they feel that way‚ its the hbomb subreddit and Thats The Most Recent Hbomb Video #and it had yknow. immediate and impressive results #so of course people are going to a) talk about it a lot and b) talk about the aftermath as it happens #and if youre in the 'only talking about this one guy' group and that one guy has only talked about one other guy in the last Year #like. yeah . youre mostly gonna be hearing about that guy #oh parasocial abt hbomb not abt somerton i just realized how the phrasing there was weird jwhfksbfk #that being said i literally made a post like two weeks ago abt how i didnt actually know his first name so like i think im probably good #my scope of knowledge about him extends Exclusively to whats In His Videos #or well and i guess to like. patreon posts too but i tend to just dismiss patreon notifs without reading them a lot KENFKSNFMDB #like yeah yeah this show i follow posted their podcast i dont follow early for patreon subs i dont care get out of my way

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

My favorite (and sadly completely non existant in fandom) characterization of Hunk and Lance is that they are completely Normal™ people except there's also something clearly wrong with them but the rest are either too alien(Coran and Allura), too socially reclusive(Pidge and Keith), or just dont interact with them enough(Shiro) to notice

#Listen Hunk thinks it's completely ok to read someone else's diary #And Lance saw a presumed dead guy being alive a big fuck off lion and an honest to god actual space princess and went #'Huh. Neat! Gonna check it all out!' #I'll even say these 2 are driven most by curiosity just for the sake of curiosity about people #Lance will be like: this is my new friend i cant pronounce their name in human tongue so they allowed me to call them Steve #and Steve is a fucking biblical accurate angel #And then he disappears with steve and Hunk's like 'dont worry guys i have put a tracer on him we'll find him soon ☺️' #Allura: do... do humans do that? Put tracers on each other? #Hunk: it's with permission and yeah best friends do!! #Keith and Pidge who have never been in a friend group that wasnt immediate family before: i mean that sounds wrong #But i dont know enough about friends to dispute it #Shiro who has been dissocciating for an hour and did not hear a single thing: whatever hunk said it's probably right #lance voltron #vld lance #lance mcclain #hunk voltron #hunk vld #hunk garrett #voltron #voltron legendary defender #empty thoughts #takashi shirogane #katie holt #keith kogane #keith voltron #vld keith #allura vld #allura voltron

[messrsbyler]

this is my personal opinion on eddie’s character and you have been warned… it’s not a flattering one so if you love eddie don’t keep reading bc well you are probably not gonna like what i have to say under the cut

okay then…

gotta get something out of my chest: eddie is a boring, flat, and edging on obnoxious character that mostly has the pretty privilege going on for him which is just another standard white guy. yes, i teared up when his death scene came… because how it affected dustin. otherwise, couldn’t care less about him and his on the nose “i always run away/didnt run away this time” conflict

“oh, but eddie is a freak and treated as such, even hunted down and bullied. people can resonate with that” i mean… fine if you do, really, but also what about the Party? they are considered freaks, they are bullied, will even expresses even his closed ones make him feel like a freak. why about el? she was a freak too, the weirdo, the lab experiment that was hunted down and tortured. what about jonathan? he was the freak that probably killed his little brother in season one. we have seasons of these characters, characters who actually have depth to them with interesting conflicts and dynamics. and most importantly, characters who are freaks but that see each others as equals.

eddie? sure he’s a freak. a freak who likes to bee in power, sitting on his throne during DND sessions whit his group of sheep wearing all the same tees as if it was an uniform, going out of his way to jump on tables and yell in people’s faces bc he is not like other girls he is proud to be a freak and oppose to the status quo.

i mean, give me a break.

#adding to the tags how people went against jonathan for smoking weed as a coping mechanism but it’s all cool and cute when eddie sells weed #lmao #tell me again how all eddie has going on for him isn’t just pretty privilege? #i was just talking about this with someone but i didn’t use to dislike eddie i was indifferent about him bc there’s just not a lot of him #but his stans and the way he is portraiyed in the fandom just irks me at this point #can’t bag all of his stans in a same place but you know most i’ve seen are just… #if you like eddie fine. if he is your fav character… fine though i will forever believe you are part of the GA #if you are part of the group that will get mad and attack the duffers when eddie stays dead in s5 then i just wanna say #you don’t care about the plot of the show or the true main characters of the show you seem to only care about a flat character because you #probably either think he is hot or because you ship him with that other rather flat character on st #anyhow #this is a personal rant and if you don’t like it you can keep scrolling i guess #nic rants to the internet

[soulsxng]

@arcxnumvitae and @fatestouch replied to your post:

WHAT?!

👀👀👀

"It is not an issue of having grown tired of my position, or anything of the sort...though it would likely be a lie if I were to say that I were not feeling somewhat drained."

There's a small hum, and Sivel finally lifts his gaze from the mage pools to regard Ranadi and Alsina, who had eventually begun with a steady (albeit nervous) stream of questions. Why he had brought this up. When he had begun to think about it seriously. Would it be temporary, or permanent? Who would replace him, and what he would be doing, instead?

...What had happened to make him want to abdicate in the first place?

"I love Vasyri...I do. And I love my people just as deeply. But over these past few years, I have come to wonder if, perhaps, I have done all that I am able to for them. Vasyri deserves someone with a fresh outlook on things. Someone who does not look at potential alliances and associations that could benefit us, or end up overly focused on how things might go wrong. Someone that does not feel compelled toward the need to do things on our own, even if we do have allies, so as not to potentially open ourselves up to further threats."

"I think about my home, and I think of what I need to do so as to not fail them again. How I do not think I could stand to see any of my people suffer as they did in the past. And no matter whether I realize that or not, I am never able to shake myself from being almost as overprotective of them as I am of all of you. Of my family..."

"That makes any growth or evolution difficult, if not outright impossible. I know that, and yet...I find that, more and more, I am unable to justify the risks necessary to see much worthwhile change take place. So...while I do not necessarily believe myself to be a poor leader, I feel as though things have grown to be stagnant."

"And all of that is without mentioning the ire that so many outside of Vasyri view me with. I worry that, as long as I am Luminary, the stigma attached to myself and my deeds will continue to weigh Vasyri as a whole down, as well."

He talks through everything in a soft, even tone. It's obvious to both Ranadi and Alsina that this is something he had put a good deal of thought into, since a year or two ago, when he had commented half-jokingly about it to the pair of them.

"Besides...I miss it. How things used to be, when we were younger. Being able to go wherever we fancied at a moment's notice. Exploring and experiencing things with our claim-- something that I have never had the opportunity to do with Ania or Cyrus even once. It feels like, by becoming Luminary, I somehow came to believe that I had to give up so much of myself that, even in my earlier years of ruling, I would never have imagined doing. As if I gave up a part of my culture, pieces of who I am, moments with my loved ones...I look at the person I have become on occasion, and oftentimes, I do not like what I see. What I turned myself into, simply because I thought it was for the best of everyone involved. Because I thought that people would be more impressed, or more intimidated."

"...I do not intend to leave Vasyri forever, nor is this something I intend to rush. I want to be sure that whoever I pass this title onto, they are going to be the right fit. I still want to be around here and there to offer my support and assistance, and to teach people where I can-- both the new Luminary, and whoever else may want to learn from me. And when I'm not doing that, I think I would like to start by going along with Ania, Cyrus, and Sivan on one of their expeditions. After that, maybe I will take them on a trip to some of the spots that mother and father used to bring us when we were younger, with Naya and Nesimah...perhaps Quella. Both of you as well, if it is something you would be open to? It would hardly be the same, otherwise."

"Going back to my abdication, however. As I said, it is not something I intend to rush. I...am coming closer and closer to the conclusion that it is simply my time to take a step back, is all."

#[Sivel -drabble-] #Just figured I'd put the full explanation here #tl;dr? He feels like he doesn't have that much to offer Vasyri anymore #because he can't let go of the things he experienced back before he was killed #and he also feels like he's lost a lot of himself since becoming Luminary...or had to cover a lot of things up to make himself more #'appealing' #so yeah! that's why he wants to step down #he has a few others that he wants to talk to about it #Quella Nesimah and Naya for one group #and then Ania Cyrus and Sivan for the other #but after that he'll probably be starting to talk to the people he views as potential candidates to become his successor #so he can decide who he (and the others) feel would be best and start training them