#hate cc all you want

[deathsbestgirl]

Wish the the X files could be little bit more ABOUT Scully's trauma instead of constantly subjecting her to more of it and then never letting her process it (yes this is a problem with both characters but I do think it's undeniable that it's much worse with Scully, we spend seasons exploring Mulder's Samantha trauma and then they give Melissa and Emily an episode each) (also why the fuck doesn't she even have her name on the door, nevermind a fuckin desk, fuck you Chris Carter)

i think this is something that happens across tv shows in general. i do get bothered sometimes, too, about how muted it is with scully. but also...at least we see her go to therapy a few times lol but like. i would argue scully gets more than we think. with her dad, there's beyond the sea & one breath. with melissa, there's paper clip & piper maru & christmas carol. with emily, we have christmas carol + emily + all souls, and i think people have rightfully connected how the ghosts stole christmas to emily too.

i actually think they're fairly even, it's just that mulder's trauma with samantha is built into the foundation. scully's trauma becomes how they tell a lot of the story. firewalker & irresistible & our town are in the wake of her abduction. she's trying to get back into work, be strong and be there for mulder. what happened to scully in her abduction trails after them for the rest of their lives. her cancer, emily, william...the cancer arc is so much about both of their traumas.

his father's death is barely acknowledged in his life, but he does get an experience similar to scully's in one breath in the blessing way. his mother's is more significant, and connected to samantha. his grief is so painful & heavy in sein und zeit, but it leads to scully helping him find answers about samantha, and gaining some closure. mulder has no real reaction to diana's death, but that relationship is different than family (and with jack for scully, we only get that scene at the end of lazarus. so those line up) and scully is the one who matters. we get so much with samantha because she's the heart of the show, and in the end samantha & scully are connected and not just through mulder.

and as much as i want scully to have a desk & her name on the door...i feel like there's something to be said for why it doesn't happen. one day i'll write about it, if it ever becomes coherent & cohesive.

#the x files #dana scully #fox mulder #samantha mulder #mulder and scully #also guys. like #hate cc all you want #but i simply don't lol #asks

[mishapen-dear]

OH. okay so normally i dont touch discourse with a 20 ft pole, but this has been niggling at my brain tonight and i finally realized why

the people who are mad at qbbh for the memory loss and “dodging consequences” dont understand that he doesnt want to dodge consequences. Like they cant know that, they werent focused on him when he was literally feeding himself to the soul vultures and planning his eventual imprisonment and also. The Many Many Many hints he made towards suicide/sacrifice/Just Fucking Dying.

ccbbh is a subtle roleplayer, he’s been building this shit up for two whole months- it was day FIVE of the eggs going missing that he resolved to do whatever it took (hurting his friends) to get the eggs back. It was day three that he followed in dapper’s footsteps and started feeding himself to the soul vultures (and gaining a Massive headwound beneath his hood in the process- you can only see it if you go on namemc and remove the layers). He’s got impaired judgement. Even the memory issues arent a new thing- i cant remember exactly when they started, but one of the first big moments i remmeber was september 30th where he spent an hour falling into a delusional frenzy searching his base for cameras that he forgot he asked aypierre to plant.

The super murder of purgatory and the memory loss afterwards probably all feels very sudden for people who havent been following his story, but as someone who has been- all of this has been true to character. The only cheap swings he’s made have been combat-based in purgatory, and even the motive for those was built up in rp.

People are calling for consequences, but he has alrwady been experiencing self-inflicted consequences for months. The blue on his usual outfit is blood. This recent memory loss isnt a restart to get away with the atrocities - it is yet another consequence of his egg-protecting complexes and the ways he punishes himself for failing them.

he is NOT a moral character. he’s a demon hiding in plain site. he has eaten people. he has killed people. he understands the cruelty of his actions, and the consequences of them for the loved ones of his victims. but it matters when that harm is being done to his loved ones. he’ll still do it, because he will do anything for the eggs, but it matters, and that means that he has already started the process of self-inflicting those much-demanded consequences

#anyone who isnt a qbbh makn please extend some sympathy for us. our guy is being misunderstood again #so if people seem twitchier than usual that probbaly plays a factor #but if it ever gets annoying be rest assured he is doing his very best to train us in media literacy #and also the block and filter buttons are your friends #and qbbh mains join me in the genuinely freeing revelation that they have just. strawmanned him yet again #i feel like youve gotta be able to understand a character to truly hate them #and no one (not even us oh my fucking god) really understand him #and thus the vitrol means nothing and i am free of all woes #anyway tho genuinely if you want to know more about this cube im willing to talk about him #i have Credentials #one of my posts was dono’d to the cc almost word for word and he called me a know it all #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #discourse #<- mentioned #an interestinf discussion could be had too about xyz character Deserving xyz thing #and really people in general Deserving xyz thing #but i think that is a wasp nest i dont know enough about to join swatting #i ngeed. to go to bed

[tleeaves]

The art is lovely and now I'm gonna ramble because that's what I do when I care about something.

For the love of women, please PLEASE can fan artists remember to add muscle to their Shadowhunter ladies? I'll commend Bowater for cleverly giving James that sculpted and lean look without making him a beefcake (nothing against beefcakes, I'd love to hug them), but Cordelia is once again suffering from Arms And Shoulders Too Slender It's Hard To Even Imagine Her Picking Up A Sword. There is some there, yes, but artists shouldn't be afraid of giving particularly Female Main Characters weight and toned muscle. Cordelia is supposed to be nearly the same height as James as far as I can remember, and she's curvy, and full, and she wields a sword like it's second nature to her. Please explain why she looks so tiny in James' lap.

Also I'm pretty sure marriage runes are supposed to go over the heart whenever possible (thinking about Will's parabatai rune being over his heart instead -- he didn't get Tessa to draw over the scar, did he??) and... either I'm looking at the picture wrong or James' rune is not over where his heart should be.

For the matter, where are their other runes and scars?? James' Voyance rune isn't even on his hand. And I'm pretty sure he's right handed. I could have that wrong though.

Another thing: no one can ever decide what Cordelia's hair looks like and it's the funniest thing to me. This is what happens when all you do is vaguely say the colour is like fire but also like rose petals but also a flowing river of those things but also is Red (probably for redhead, but then from there I never understand where the rose petal analogy comes from considering the typical rose is a deep bloody colour -- I do acknowledge the existence of those light orange varieties though which might more closely resemble red hair). In the end, I'm glad readers can infer what they want and imagine the characters how they like.

Anyone else think James looks like he's built like a tennis player? Oddly specific, maybe, but it was a thought I had. Mostly the arms and somewhat narrow body.

James' hair is nice, his eyes are an interesting take on gold in the shadows. Bowater managed to also make him look closely related to his father, so bravo for that.

In the end, the focus is obviously on the marriage runes and not other physical aspects outside of it being clear that this is James and Cordelia. Bowater's style is very beautiful and elegant. Love the way fabric and lighting is done too. I'll add also that it is possible to be a smaller person who is slender but still strong so I mean Cordelia's not necessarily done wrong, I just interpret her appearance differently. Obviously, they're both hot and they're both attractive and I have my qualms with the series, chronicles, and author -- the fandom I am so-so on, though I'm still here, aren't I? And I'm taking the time to ramble about my thoughts on a piece of fanart -- but this is good. Gorgeous, even. Both James and Cordelia are beautiful.

#side note: am I the only one who thought cc made a mistake trying to describe james as handsome in cordelia's eyes #as opposed to matthew being the beautiful one #when there has always been a deep and aching strange beauty to james?? #james herondale #cordelia carstairs #vaguely crediting charlie bowater though it isn't like you can't find a dozen more copies of this with the credit #also yes I mercilessly picked this apart because I am still trying to find avenues to express my dissatisfaction with tlh #I search for flaws what else can I say #I am aware of it but it's hard to turn those thoughts processes off #maybe I'll write a post at some point all about the authors I once Loved that I am now deeply critical of #a lot of people would hate me for it but eh #also we all know about the marvelisation of cinema #but is it time to talk about the marvelisation of book series/worlds? #or perhaps it has a better and more book-focused name? the jkr approach? rick riordan's marvel-esque flaw? the sjm plague? the clare affair? #we'll workshop it #maybe it's the curse of middleschool-YA series and the issue of aginh readers in fandoms #and I don't mean this as discriminatory against anyone older in fandom because there is not really a limit nor should there be #for most media #but the issue of when the readers grow up amd authors try to accomodate for that -- not necessarily by making their work more adult -- #but by making MORE because there is also an influx of new fans and they want to stay relevant while retaining the old #it's a whole thing though I'd need to sit down to properly organise my thoughts to talk about it

[brightwoods]

Does anyone else feel like almost all of the conflicts that had to do with the various character dynamics in Chain of Thorns didn’t actually get resolved, they just unexplainably ceased to exist after two books of building them up because CC didn’t feel like writing them anymore and she didn’t know how to resolve it naturally after how she’d built the issues up so much?

Like how none of the characters but Cordelia and Thomas had any clue about the Alastair and Charles situation and then suddenly in CoT it was like who doesn’t know? Of course Matthew knew and didn’t say anything before and then randomly brought it up to Cordelia in Paris while assuming she knew too

Or how Alastair and Thomas went from how things were at the end of CoI with Alastair thinking it could never work because Thomas’s friends hate him to oh look everyone suddenly is friends with Alastair with no grudge with no development of that in this book at all, just an abrupt shift

Especially the Alastair and Matthew dynamic where Matthew hated Alastair and wanted him to have nothing to do with any of their friends and he spent CoI ranting about him to Cordelia. And then suddenly in CoT it’s like of course Matthew is supportive of Thomas and Alastair and oh look Matthew and Alastair are suddenly not just tolerating each other for Thomas’s sake but friends despite barely interacting and no development actually showing and never getting any mention of the other in their own POVs, just having Cordelia be like Alastair stop being dumb, you’re literally friends with him now

Or like everyone other than Christopher and Grace where it was like oh we don’t like her for how she’s treated us and her friends straight to anyway she’s one of us. Like yes Grace was useful and yes Tatiana manipulated her whole life, but none of that was why anyone changed their minds or opinions? It was just suddenly the flip of a switch when it was convenient for CC

Or Anna and Ariadne where it didn’t so much develop as Anna just acted mean to Ariadne on and off throughout the series and at the end of CoI she wanted nothing to do with a relationship and then in CoT she was just suddenly like sure I guess I do. Also, slightly different note, but I did not like that Anna barely interacted with anyone else for the entire book and she was just off in the corner being an irrelevant romantic subplot for almost all of the book except when she showed up to barely even be shown in the background being sad about her brother being dead

(Although Anna still got more of a reaction than everyone else and his death was poorly executed all around in the sense of how did you write this so predictably and poorly that no one even knows when he died and it’s so background and 99% of the characters don’t care at all and we don’t see his parents finding out or much of Thomas’s reaction or anything and it’s just as if he wasn’t a character anymore 2 seconds later which is a different genre of issue with CoT but similar problem in the sense that both issues made the book feel a lot more emotionless to read)

And how the issues of Thomas and Alastair being together as two men and Anna and Ariadne being together as two women in this time and the issues of what would happen if the fact that Charles and Alastair were gay got out to the entire Clave just disappeared and never got addressed at all. We know how the ClVe reacted to Alec Lightwood YEARS later. We know society was homophobic at the time TLH is set and that it seems like shadowhunter society was a lot less open-minded than mundanes a century later

I understand that Charles being blackmailed and making shitty decisions was annoying but it was like suddenly everyone finding out wouldn’t have consequences and all the other queer men characters were like how could you possibly be worried about this :/ as if they haven’t spent the whole series knowing they have to be careful about who they tell. And then suddenly it was just of course it’s totally fine and safe to have everyone find out and why wouldn’t you be fine with that. And it was really written in a way that had other queer characters like oh Charles is such a coward for not being ready to publicly tell a bunch of homophobic people his sexuality and it just wasn’t it??? And super weird after Thomas was terrified of telling even Anna and Matthew for years. And also, I did not care for the fact that when Charles did go risk getting outed to finally do the right thing, we didn’t even get to see it through any character’s perspective or how that important meeting went, we just got one line of dialogue from somebody else saying that it happened with no details at all. And I can’t think of other examples right now but there were quite a few moments like that where we got one line saying that something had happened that was important to the plot and to characters’ development that seemed like it would have been more interesting than some of what we did get to see where it was just totally breezed over and way too easy and totally background to less important stuff

And then there was the whole no one reacting to Ariadne and Anna dancing together publicly thing was like yeah that’s nice I guess but not realistic and it doesn’t go with the way things have been presented up to that point, it also just feels like a situation where CC was like well this would be easier for me so there just won’t be consequences and then they can easily end up happily together

And then there was the whole Thomas and Alastair thinking they couldn’t realistically be together thing and knowing they couldn’t get married or be known to be together by anyone they’re not close to and then at the end it’s still not really addressed how they’re going to be together? Like there was the laziest write off of the family tree being wrong and then we still are just left to assume that eventually they move in together and suddenly it’s not a problem and everyone’s fine with it? And then I also feel like we don’t actually know if everyone found out about Alastair and Charles’ sexualities after the blackmail or if people are going to assume about Thomas and Alastair or if that’ll cause issues or if no one knows outside of who they’ve told and they have to be careful or what. Which like wouldn’t necessarily need to be addressed if it wasn’t for the logistics of being together as two men in that time being part of the obstacle that they were struggling with being in their way and then it felt like it was totally forgotten to even be one at the end by CC

Idk like I’d love to think they just lived in a world where homophobia didn’t exist but it felt like homophobia was a plot point when CC wanted it to be an inconvenience and then suddenly disappeared just to make her writing easier the moment she didn’t want it there anymore instead of actually addressing the plots she raised with it if that makes sense?

And sorry, I really did not mean to go on a rant this long. And maybe everyone else had a very different reading experience than I did and other people don’t agree with some or all of this. I personally am just very confused about how the book was almost 800 pages long and it felt like so much of the development in it was us abruptly being told that development had happened rather than actually getting to see it and how so many of the issues were abruptly solved in an I don’t want to write this issue anymore kind of way rather than anything actually needing to be worked at outside of the Belial situation

Edit: You know what, I mentioned it in my tags but I feel like it’s annoying enough to put in the body of the post and make it even longer. What the fuck was with everyone outing or potentially outing everyone else just so that characters could openly talk about the queer characters and tell them to do what they want them to? Why did Matthew out his brother multiple times? Like yes, the people he said it to coincidentally already knew, but he didn’t know that. And why was Thomas outing Alastair? The straights got to keep their secrets as long as they wanted and fix their problems more naturally. Why did I have to sit through queer characters constantly having their sexualities and romantic histories to everyone else when they clearly had not okayed it? Why were the queer characters doing so much of the outing? Why were people who cared about them and knew what it felt like to be afraid of the wrong person finding out just broadcasting their sexualities to make it easier for CC to breeze past development to have their things get resolved fast? Why did no character have an issue with it at all?

#As a queer person the whole using homophobia against her characters as plot just to pretend homophobia doesn’t exist and call her characters #cowards for worrying about it as soon as she’s decided writing it doesn’t serve her plot agenda anymore really icks me right out #Like yeah I’d love homophobia to not exist but girl what are you doing that’s so gross to go about it that way #ALSO everyone outing or potentially outing everyone else to other characters to make it easier to get the queer characters to do what she #wanted them to was a HORRIBLE vibe. Why is Matthew outing his brother? Why is Thomas outing Alastair? Why is everyone telling everyone else #people’s sexualities as if it’s nothing and everyone has a right to know when that character clearly did not feel that way #And it’s so out of nowhere every time too #Hot take: Charles protecting Alastair’s privacy instead of outing him was more valid than anything any of the other queer characters said #about Charles or Alastair’s sexualities even if I hate Charles and his going along with the blackmail was bullshit #Also now that I’ve written all of this down and 99% of what I wrote about in here has to do with the canon queer characters that’s not #a great look either that she did breeze over some of the stuff with the other characters for sure but she was way more likely to skip depth #and development with the queer characters in CoT #CC said no slow burn gradual changes in this book… there’s only room for abrupt 180s and Cordelia running 🏃‍♀️ #Sorry if this has weird typos and other mistakes in it. I typed on my phone and didn’t check for autocorrect nonsense and I’m too lazy to #reread this all rn at my current brainpower level #CoT #Chain of Thorns spoilers #Chain of Thorns #The Last Hours #The Shadowhunter Chronicles #Cassandra Clare #My Posts

[gravi0la]

Not to be on negativity on main, as I'm simply not that kinda person (I'd rather focus on the good fun stuff) but there's one detail worrying me about these elections.

I've already seen people say they'll vote certain candidates even though they DON'T LOG IN AT ALL, just to get the chance of seeing one of their favorite ccs on here.

If these elections were simply to add a person, I wouldn't have cared at all. But the fact that being president involves a bunch of other stuff here, it feels really unfair to vote on someone who barely knows anyone on the server, does not log in, does not know the lore, etc.

Yes this is about Wilbur although the same can be said about some other ccs. Read the tags.

#Wilburs my biggest worry because he has a massive fucken fanbase #and if they all decide to vote en masse then nothing can be done abt it. kinda fucked up #YES i know theres lore reasons as to why it would be funny but can we leave the past behind please. Its not fair to the ccs of other 1/2 #countries. just because you want english-speaking protagonism 😐 #No this isnt hate on him i do want to see him on the server #qsmp #qsmp elections

[elvhendis]

Are there any good books that are not fantasy romance but more like... romantic fantasy? Like I DO want my romance plot/subplot and I want it to be in focus, but I also want a really well fleshed out and vast fantasy world with high stakes and a lot of action??

#ideally with a sort of star crossed lovers vibe or the classic enemies to lovers or something #idk I'm just so sick of all the romance books that are just vehicles for smut #or the romance books that only care about the romance and shove the plot and the world in the background #looking at you SJM #so much wasted potential honestly #or the romance books that are too modern #looking at you again SJM with your toilets and leggings in acotar and don't get me started about CC because I hate it #i don't want modern with pointy ears #i want FANTASY goddamn #I'm on booktok again and the recs all sound so trash I'm sorry #bookblr #acotar #sjm

[gooperts-gunk]

one beach day during purgatory could fix all the team vs team vs team trust issues but that'd be too good for them the eyeball does not want that and that hurts me </3

#goopert talks qsmp #/neg in tags #< just a precautionary #it's only been 3 days and i find that i'd prefer election arc 2 #i liked the miscommunication of the elections because everyone agreed on one thing #which is “fuck the feds let's take back the power” they just had to choose who should have it #but the miscommunication of purgatory isn't FUN it makes me want to bash my head into a wall #YOU PUT MY TRAUMATIZED BABYGIRLS INTO WAR!!!!! I MISS ROLEPLAY ISLAND #i can barely tell apart cc! from q! anymore this is difficult man #if they weren't fighting each other in teams i'd love this event but that'd ruin the point i guess #grin and bear it goopert grin and bear it #I WANT THEM TO ALL BE FRIENDS AGAINNNN I HATE THESE MIND GAMES (*note: i am autistic of course i hate it) #i want my q!bbh lore crumbs back HIS LORE IS ALWAYS PUT ON THE SIDELINES!!! IM SAD CHATTERS

[dinosaur-mayonnaise]

three way emails are so ANNOYING

you add a third person and suddenly none of the regular social rules apply.

and don't even get me STARTED on cc's. i can never be a corporate girlie bc to me these are the horrors.

#are you meant to say 'dear all'? #are you meant to name the two other people? #who knows #if one of the people reply to your email saying only 'dear [y/n] do you reply back saying only 'dear [their name]'??? #do you still include the third person in the 'send to' option? #or do they get downgraded to 'cc'? #and what if the other two people are having a conversation without you but still including you in the email #are you meant to acknowledge them? #bc i always find 'yes i've received this' emails such a waste of time #but also is it rude to ignore them? #but also are you intruding on their conversation if they're talking amongst themselves? #but also would they still send it to you if they didn't want you to reply? #or do they just want you to be a passive observer? #don't even get me started on when YOU'RE the one cc'd in #let alone being bc'd in #pain torture agony #i hate this someone needs to burn outlook #let's go back to handwritten letters through carrier pigeon #or better yet telegrams which charge by the letter so you don't have to bother with pleasantries

[crowsncorvids]

I'm not sexist for disliking gem I think she's slaying and awesome IN THEORY unfortunately her voice is fucking annoying

#also “you want nore queer ccs but you hate scott” yes <3 #hes just annoying regardless if being gay #and i do watch queer and women ccs just not those 2 that everybody decided is the be all end all of representation #im a hater tn i gotta go eep

[prisonpodcast]

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#this is gonna be kind of a vent and it may be incoherent so.. #seeing everyone talk about how they want to leave dtblr these past few days is so relieving how are we all thinking the same thing at the #same time #idk for me I’m probably not gonna go anywhere but I cannot lie. the fact that our community is more discourse and neg than #actual talk about content is really draining sometimes #it also dosent help that there isn’t that much content recently that I find interesting aside from the occasional dream video #so I guess there really isn’t that much to talk about except for drantis and how much we either love or hate Karl Jacobs #tbh I miss lore LOL the fandom was more fun when that was going on + also it’s wayyy easier stomaching discourse about #fictional characters than real people #like don’t get me wrong I’ve neg posted about ccs too but sometimes this community will talk more about how they hate Karl than like. their #own faves content. like I don’t even care about Karl in the slightest but like it’s just draining when there’s so much negativity all the #time instead of like. live-blogging and excitement over new content #not just Karl tho I used him as an example but like. everyone on the ‘ccs dtblr hates’ list #AND it dosent. help that I don’t really care about George or sapnaps content like at all and Im more of just an sbi main who also likesdream #which sucks bc there aren’t many sbi fans that are normal enough about Dream to follow #so I don’t fit with that community either #and I still don’t really feel like I fit with dreblr too bc I’m more of a ctechno main but idk lol #and like the few non dtblr people I follow seem to always be having such a much better time than us which really dosent help #sorry for the random sad post lmao #I’ll probably delete later I just want to get it out of my system bc sometimes complaining about things makes you feel better about thething #and before anyone’s like ‘just leave why’re you sat here complaining’ #I like this community and I like talking about my interests and reading posts about stuff I like on here #I haven’t really lost interest in the content there’s just a lack of it. I just wish the community was less neg all the time #like it’s even something I need to work on with myself lol #this is so long LMAO it’ll probably get deleted in a bit

[rockethorse]

Me @ me: Remember - as much as you enjoy building in The Sims 4, you hate actually PLAYING The Sims 4, so there's no point in buying expansion packs based on how fondly you remember the corresponding gameplay from TS2 or TS3 because you'll never actually play with those features enough to justify paying that much, just use CC if you want new build/buy options

Me @ the Sims 4 Black Friday sales: Ok but listen,

#making a new chat post seems like a risky choice given what happened to my last one. but I must speak my truth #also this isn't meant to hate on TS4's gameplay or dunk on the game as a whole I just know I'll always go back to TS2 #so for me personally investing more money in TS4 would be a waste because it's not worth paying for a whole EP just for the build/buy stuff #when the focus of those EPs is on gameplay I won't be using - like I keep getting drawn to cottage living or eco lifestyle ortiny living etc #because we don't have those sorts of features in TS2! and then I'm like. but you're not actually going to play with them in TS4 either #and in theory this is what TS4 kits would be perfect for - no sense in paying for an expensive EP if I only want the objects #when I could buy a cheaper kit that has only objects I'd actually use #BUT. that makes it more difficult to share lots on the gallery because fewer people own the same kits especially the more you use #and so if the only reason I avoid using CC is to make my lots easier to download on the gallery then buying kits would creat the same issue #so just use CC LMAO at least then I can advertise my lots off the gallery like here on Tumblr and people can download it for FREE #but even though I know all this. even though I know it would be a waste of money I really don't have atm #they're so cheap.........................

[nell-pointer]

my take on the discourse: servers dead af. i dont think theres really anything to be done to fix it at this point.... i also dont really care that much. This isnt my first time in a fandom with a “dead” media. its not the end of the world if they dont make content on the dsmp anymore, the fans can still do cool stuff so...... idk i just dont think its anything worth getting upset over.

Now, for my slightly more controversial opinion: The reason the server is dead is a mix of 

a) the streamers all got a lot busier

b) (this is the controversial one) The fans are so fucking annoying that it just isnt worth it to even try to revive anything. Every time someone tries to log on and do absolutely ANYTHING a huge subsection of fans start shitting on them for being ooc, or ruining the server, or being aBuSe aPoLoGiStS. 

The fans hold the ccs to these ridiculous standards that i honestly dont think a actual professionally written tv show could meet, let alone a minecraft rp written by a bunch of young adults, none of whom are writers.

If the fans would just let the ccs do whatever they wanted on the sever then i think things would maybe be able to pick up again, at least for some ccs, but theres not way thats going to happen yall are too batshit. 

Obviously, i have no way of knowing if this is actually the reason. i dont claim to know whats going on behind the scenes. This is just what i personally think is the cause. 

#dsmp #dream smp #dsmp fandom critical #discourse #even if all the newer members that want to do lore got together and wrote lore together #i still dont think it would work out #the standards are too high #the fans are too crazy #either no one would watch it #or they would and they would start hating on the ccs because of it #id love to be proven wrong but i dont think im going to be #also one more take: #its weirdchamp to be writing neg about ccs because they arent logging on #like.... #they dont have to #they have no obligation to the server #if you think they do its because you are entitled #i might make a separate post about that actually #i actually think ive made a post about it before #okay im dont talking now

[hopalongfairywren]

Returning to my origins being on my c!bad hating arc... I don't trust that man.

#It says a lot because I genuinely love pretty much all of the characters on the dsmp #with a few acceptions #and people like c!niki are starting to grow on me #but c!bad? #FUCK him #don't reblog this guys #the wren hops #cc!bad is an angle and a genuinely good person. #but the character he portrays? Oh man I just want to punt that fucker into the sun #wdym you freed the fucking guy who had a cage for your boyfriend?? #wdym you harrass your murder victim #wdym you take no fucking responsibility for any of your actions #wdym you called a teenage boy worse than a dictator #wdym you wanted to fund a proxy war to benifit yourself #c!bad #c!bad critical #c!bad neg #i hate him so much for real

[justonefeather]

Was v tired last night and talked to the bf, i sort of danced around saying i have an Ed straight out, but he might know now. Bc i was worried i might never be satisfied with how much i weigh. And i keep showing him fashion pics on Reddit mostly, and say "i wanna look like that" and he says some shit like "that's too sk¡nn¡" Or "they look like a skeleton" and I'm like...... They don't look that small to me.........

We are also Considering getting a 2br with two of his friends who want to move out of their state

Idk how i am going to hide the fact that I'm trying to fucking ⭐ve as much as I can lol :/

#i want to live in a commune but i dont have enough people genuinely interested in going off grid in the mountains #like everyone says theyre interested and then like. doesnt wanna try to make goals with me? like.. #they dont wanna hang out to see how we mesh. or they dont wanna save up for land. or they want to be in the city.. #they dont wanna learn to grow anything. or they dont wanna even have roommates at all. theres just always a reason yk #and i understand the money part but like..... idk if you dont try you definitely wont get it? i try my best to put away 100/check #sometimes its only 50 and I use that to pay off my cc.. i have so much debt.. but even if i can only save 20/wk (40/chk) thats ok #idk its hard when none of my friend actually want to make moves in any way to get out of the city. i hate the city :/ all of them #like i can visit. but dont wanna live there. too many people too much going on to close together #i want to live on 20+ acres and not see my neighbors. i want to live on a farm. i want it so fucking bad #i think if i wasnt near a city id be happier #but idk. whos to say ig

[carcinized]

fuck the internet honest to god

#somteimes i really do want to delete all my social media forever. the internet is sooo fucking stupid <3 #also cancel culture is literally just the fucking worst. what are you catholics?? grow up man #theres a difference between criticism intended to make things better in the world & help a person/cc grow #and just tearing shit down for the hell of it/because everyone else is? #literally grow up that is such a narrow worldview that is so sad. do you talk to anyone in real life at all ever. do you have a grip on the #way the world works at all. #SORRY this is mean as hell but i am so fucking fed up with this shit lately. its so performative i HATE it #everyone online is a fucking poser and im so sick of itttt fuck the internet. #negative #discourse #SORRY THIS IS SO MEAN IM JSUT. GOD ITS SO STUPID.

[inkskinned]

at the end of the day it's not that you hate your job - actually, you like working, you like routine, you like feeling like an adult - it's that any time you fuck anything up, you feel like you're fucking dying.

because you could be actually fucking dying. because if one day you wake up and you misunderstood something - you could lose your job, and nobody is hiring, and nobody is paying, and nobody takes people like you, and that job you want hasn't gotten back to you. and what exactly are you going to do without insurance? good luck with those meds. you should have thought of that before being a person.

so it's not just that you forgot to CC someone on an email, it's that if you don't have this job, you can't afford rent. it's not that you misread a comment, it's that if you get fired, you will be in massive amounts of unpayable debt. it's not that you are bad at your job, but here are the stakes as they have been decided for you: be perfect or fucking die. like, literally, die. that is how much safety net you have: none.

it's not burnout, technically. but you literally just had two typos in your work, and you're already picturing the ending. you want to throw up & curl up & make it all go away. it is two typos. if he decides he is mad at you, you lose literally everything.

your mom says that you seem stressed. the thing is that you have never known a job that isn't stressful. welcome to capitalism. there is no other road, only this one. what the fuck is a career. you come here, and we hold your life against the barrel of a gun, and somewhere someone is spinning the chamber and pulling. eventually the bullet will come.

you live in a mugging. your boss owns three cars and has four kids. you worry about having enough to feed your dog. good luck. beg for forgiveness. CC the right people next time and be grateful, kid. somebody has it worse than you. someone, probably, has it worse than you. so what if you can't sleep or eat or focus. your work chat sound literally makes you panic. you had to change the sounds of computer notifications so you'd stop having such an upset stomach.

welcome to the real world! the rat race! the dog eat dog circus!

your doctor studies the results and frowns at you. "it's bad for your heart," she says. "try to reduce your levels of stress."

#spilled ink #warm up #i am OFF MY MEDS AND I FUCKING HATE IT #WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING #NOT GOOD FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!