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#haha I couldn't sleep

singmeyoursimpsong · 1 year

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yeahhhhh feeling pretty touch deprived rn so how about some soft and sweet steddie?

like, I'm imagining exhausted grad-student Steve who is working on his masters thesis at their (his and Eddie's) little apartment kitchen table well into the night and is so focussed that he doesn't notice Eddie is home from his shift (he works at the local radio station) until he feels his face suddenly being tipped up and to the side and there is the warm, slow press of Eddie's lips on his

and Steve sighs into the known comfort of Eddie's touch, Eddie's taste, Eddie's scent, Eddie, Eddie, Eddie

and Eddie pulls away after a moment, the fingers under Steve's chin now tracing his brow and tucking a strand of his hair behind his ear

hey

and Steve is twisting in his chair to wrap his arms around Eddie's waist, Eddie stepping into the space between his knees and placing his hands on Steve's tense shoulders to start massaging. Steve looks up at Eddie -

hiiii

and he grins up at his metalhead boyfriend, stupidly in love, leeeans his body into Eddie's

how's the writing going?

and it's not going well... Steve's expression turns sour despite the way he melts into Eddie's touch

rough... but i'm glad you're here now. how is everything at the studio?

not too bad, definitely not as rough as you say your writing is going

hmmmm

Steve makes a frustrated groaning noise because it's true, he's really struggling with getting the words out in sentences that make sense... and lets out a yawn

c'mon big boy...

and Eddie is sliding Steve's reading glasses off the bridge of his nose and folding them before setting them down on top off Steve's scattered papers on the table

I think it's time to sleep

and Steve lets himself be led away by the hand, into flannel bedsheets, and finds deep sleep with Eddie's fingers in his hair

#projecting much? haha couldn't be me #i'm exhausted y'all... just want someone to tell me to go to sleep and hold me aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh #my eye is twitching because of stress so im sorry if there are weird grammar things #soft steddie #steddie #steve x eddie #steve is a grad student #i actually yawned so many times while writing this hahaha #steddie fluff #steddie ficlet #steddie comfort

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beeholyshit · 4 months

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Ruzeni ramble bc my boyfriend asked for it wiwiiww....

First of all I have to mention the fact that I changed a little Rudy's lore because it didn't convince me at all so I just hehe

I was thinking about Rudy of course working on the bard and helping Lupin and his gang on secret because they came there in first place because they wanted to rob a group of criminals (that had blackmail a lot of people in the town Rudy's from so they had tons of money). This guys threatened Rudy in the past to get him to give them the information so that's the main reason why Rudy is helping the gang so at least he could get some kind of revenge hehe

The thing is, eventually things get complicated because Zenigata is now in the middle trying to catch Lupin (as always) so he starts coming to the bar and eventally falls in love with Rudy (well, It was kinda fast since this guy can't help but do that after Rudy was the only one who listened to him ramble about Lupin everynight on the bar).

After some time when Lupin it's already getting ready to steal the other criminals' money it's when things get more and more complicated, this criminals didn't come to Rudy's bar for a long time but they one night came to talk with him while Zenigata was there so these guys threatened Rudy again because they thought that he was helping the police to catch them so that's one of the reasons why Rudy tried to ignore him hoping he would stop coming or just in case this guys were spying on him.

SO NOW WITH THE REAL RUZENI TALK IG

Rudy knew that Zenigata was already in love with him from the start, this old man was just too obvious with his feelings! Before the other guys came to threaten him, he used to find Zeni annoying but while time passed he just treated him like an old good friend, joking with him and listening carefully to him talking about Lupin, he did care about him but never payed attention to his feelings for him since well, he wasn't used to think about those things. But after this guys from his past came back and he needed to remain stoic, he found himself thinking about Zenigata more than he would like to, he was worried this guys would go after him to take him off their path. For the first time Rudy was missing their little talks, he just had to ignore the man but why was it so difficult?

In the other hand, Zenigata was worried about the change he had from one day to another after the visit to the bar of this guys... He was good with details so he knew something was wrong but deep down he was also worried that he just decided to ignore him for being... him

Rudy didn't like to see him sad even when he knew that he was the enemy only because he was helping Lupin while Zenigata well... You already know

To not make things longer, eventually Rudy tells Zenigata that he shouldn't expect something more about their relationship because he could never live knowing he played with him all this time for nothing when in reality all he wanted was to see him happy, that's why he needed to push him away, he knew he was an officer and he was strong but still, he better see him leave him thinking that he didn't love him than to see him die to a bunch of criminals after he tell him the truth + knowing he helped Lupin. Things happend in the middle and this criminal know what's happening so finally they have to beat them blah blah, the police arrives in time, Lupin managed to steal the money and everything's ok yayyy

After all that happened of course there was still the elephant in the room between the inspector and the bartender, at this point Zenigata knew about Rudy helping Lupin and everything but his feelings where still there just like Rudy's feelings where still there but they just didn't talk about it until a looong long time

#(🥂)*⁠.♡ —⁠ Ruzeni #I TRIED TO MAKE THIS AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE GOD HELP ME #I literally was thinking about this last night. I couldn't even sleep thinking about thisjhrjwjwjw #I should have done a more stupid funny haha post but anyways #uhhmmm #this is mostly Rudy's lore but idc #meow #(🍷) *⁠.⁠✧ — Rudy M.#(♡) ｡⁠.ﾟ—⁠ Zeni

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katinkulta · 4 months

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katti I know it's christmas but the timestamps on your posts suggest that you've only gotten 4 hours of sleep...

I'm still going back to sleep, don't worry <3

#the-converse-high-top my beloved <3 #I woke up and couldn't sleep haha but I'll try again now <3

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rollercoasterwords · 1 year

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consumer culture + fandom rot

here's some more fandom analysis nobody asked for!! this is gonna be my charlie day moment this is gonna be me standing in front of a red-string corkboard shouting about how i've connected the dots bc i cannot sleep and i am in desperate need of a topic to take my mind off Other Things. so here's me breaking down what i mean when i say that consumer culture is the root issue of all (? or at least many of) the problems i currently see in marauders fanfic/fandom spaces (the only fandom i am plugged into; perhaps some of this can be generalized outwards, perhaps some of it cannot. i'm not an expert on anything i'm just overthinking shit i Observe).

Part 1: The Black Hole of Consumer Culture

ok so first we need context first we need to make sure we're on the same page and the page that we're on is that late stage capitalism is destroying our ability to see literally anything outside of a consumer culture. like we are reaching a point where literally every facet of our lives is monetized, including our hobbies, our entertainment, our art.

like. ok. part of the sort of like...promise? expectation? assumption? with capitalism is that work, money, the consumer economy, all that jazz is a contained sphere, right? you have your home life, and you have your work life. but that just...doesn't really exist anymore. no matter where you are, no matter what you're doing, you are consuming or being consumed. everywhere we turn, somebody is selling us something; everywhere we turn, our lives, our data, our attention is being sold to advertisers, who then use that information to sell us back their products. we are all stuck in this endless consumer cycle. and because we're stuck in this cycle where the lines between our private interior interests and thoughts versus our public selves and images are constantly blurred, it's getting to the point where we are being taught to literally always see ourselves as products for the consumption of those around us. this was only exacerbated by the pandemic, where suddenly everyone was lonely and isolated and seeking connections through algorithmic social media platforms that turn you into a product for advertisers and then work to sell shit back to you. i mean, i think about margaret atwood's whole "you are the male voyeur in your own head," right, but with the growth of social media and the surveillance state there's almost this constant sense of being watched that i think applies to practically everyone, and there's also this sense that the only way to assuage our loneliness is to boil ourselves down into byte-sized (couldn't resist the pun sorry) aesthetic photographs or 30 second tiktok clips or pithy little tweets to gets as many likes as possible, and that's--fuck, sorry, i'm already ranting, but it's just. it's just. that's not what being human is, and yet because we are stuck in this consumer cycle it is becoming more and more difficult to see ourselves outside of it, and that means boiling ourselves down to the most shallow and basic little pieces of meaningless shit in a desperate attempt for some part of ourselves to just be seen by strangers on the internet. and social media is tugging us in with these algorithms, destroying our attention spans, getting us addicted with little dopamine hits until we literally do not know how to connect with each other as people, as human beings, because all of our social interaction is coming from people's boiled-down internet personas and these parasocial relationships we develop with what essentially amounts to cardboard cutouts of humanity, and we wonder why we're all so fucking lonely all the time, and we open our phones to scroll through tiktok to get that dopamine hit and try to forget. fucking FUCK it's a nightmare and we're all stuck in it. sorry.

the point: it is becoming more and more difficult to see any aspect of life outside of the framework of a consumer culture, where everything--even our very personalities, our very selves--is a product for consumption by someone, somebody, somewhere, anywhere.

so if this is what's happening to us, what's happening to our art?

Part 2: The Deterioration of Art

look, let's get my personal stance on art established and out of the way, alright? i think that good art, dare i say real art, is one thing: a conversation. i think good art (using "art" broadly here--literature, music, performance, etc all included) asks us questions, good art makes us think, good art sits with us and says: what does it mean to be human? good art does not hold up a set of moral guidelines and say "this is how you're meant to live your life"; good art holds up a mirror and says "how do you think you're meant to live your life?" good art engages our critical thought.

the consumer economy is not conducive to critical thought. the consumer economy is not conducive to good art. the consumer economy wants your attention now, right now, and now it wants you to look at something else, and now it wants you to look at something else, and it wants you consuming as fast as possible, and it doesn't want you sitting and thinking and reflecting on what you consume. and it is extremely difficult to find any art that exists outside of the consumer economy, at this point, because like i said--we're all stuck in it.

and the thing is, like. it is incredibly difficult (maybe even impossible) for any art, any media, that is created within the consumer economy to actually challenge its hegemony, because like...i mean, the organizations producing so much of our art are businesses. the tv shows and movies we watch, the books coming out of these big publishing houses, the music that gets played on the radio--all of it ultimately has a vested interest in maintaining the status quo, because the status quo is what puts money in the pockets of these giant corporations.

so what does that mean? what does it mean that so much of our art is being produced by corporations that want to keep us happy and distracted and consuming as much as possible, as fast as possible?

it means we aren't getting art as a conversation. we aren't getting art that challenges us to think deeply, and critically, and to struggle with what it means to be human. instead, we are falling prey to this insidious idea that art ought to exist with moral guidelines built in, that art is supposed to tell us how to live. and it concerns me to see this growing spread of moral puritanism that aligns in many ways with what i've seen in the conservative christian spaces i grew up in, which decries any moral ambiguity as Supporting Moral Wrongs--as though art is something meant to be morally pure, and if it's not then it is a corrupting influence that must be eradicated. and because we're being brainwashed into thinking that art is no longer meant to be a conversation, but instead a simple product to consume that already has all the answers pre-packaged for us, we end up seeing so much mainstream art and media that is so incredibly shallow, as well as increasing censorship surrounding art. i'm just gonna link to this jen silverman essay, which talks about this really well.

Part 3: Bringing it Back to Fanfic

ok so here's where i finally start to get to the point. and the point is that fanfiction is meant to exist outside the consumer economy (if you've read any of my other posts about this, you'll probably think i'm starting to sound like a broken record. that's because i am). and that is so incredibly unique in this day and age. there is so, so little art left that exists entirely outside the realm of the capitalist meat-grinder, and we should be striving to protect it at all costs.

but! but. of course, the consumer economy is insidious and it spreads like a mold over everything. and the thing is--here's my theory, okay? here's my theory. not an expert, new to fandom spaces, disclaimer disclaimer blah blah blah. here's my theory.

i really think that tiktok is largely the reason that fanfiction has become so much more tied into a consumer economy over the past 3ish years. like, marauders fandom specifically--it seems like atyd going viral on tiktok is what essentially started this wave of people going, "oh, fanfiction can be TikTok content," and then suddenly...it was. and once fanfiction became TikTok content, it got placed inside a consumer economy, because tiktok is an algorithmic social media that does all the shit i discussed in part one of this fucking. rant. essay. whatever.

SO suddenly people are interacting with fanfic within the framework of a consumer economy, and we see this shift in fandom culture that i think has left a lot of people really confused and upset and has also led to just a lot of people talking over each other, because if two people are engaging with a form of art using entirely different frameworks, it's just like...well ur starting with different premises. like of course you're going to have communication issues.

anyway here are some problems that i personally have observed that i think all tie back to this issue of engaging with fanfiction through the framework of a consumer economy:

unnecessarily criticizing fanfction the way you might criticize a product that you paid for and didn't like

demanding that fanfic writers produce a certain amount of content or produce content in a specific way, as though fanfic writers are making a product for audience consumption

engaging with fanfiction under the assumption that anyone writing fanfic wants it to be advertised and go viral and gain a huge audience

when a fanfic does go viral and someone gains a huge audience despite never seeking it out, treating that person like an influencer or celebrity and placing expectations + responsibilities on them that they literally never asked for

on the flipside of that, people getting into writing fanfiction who like...advertise their fic as though their goal is to go viral. i mean there's nothing wrong with sharing your work on the internet and wanting people to see it, y'know? but just like...evaluate your own motivations behind why you're sharing your writing. if your main priority is to just to get as many likes as possible, it will probably not end up being a very sustainable or joyful hobby for you.

treating fanfic as though it is meant to be a set of moral guidelines (rather than a conversation about morality) and loudly declaring fanfic problematic when it contains subject matter that does not align with your personal moral code

acting as though there is a clear delineation between writers and readers of fanfiction in a way that plays into the dynamics of producers and consumers

i'm sure this isn't a comprehensive list but this is everything that's coming to mind for me right now. so. yeah. when i say that placing fanfiction within consumer culture is like the Root of All Evil this is what i mean! and this is why i think it is so so so important to push back against fanfiction being placed in a consumer economy and to try very hard to keep it separate in its own little oasis.

in conclusion i have cracked the code. i am so tired. the end.

#haha nooo don't stay up past ur bedtime writing a super long essay ur so sexy ;)#noooo stop go to sleep don't spiral and think about the black hole of consumer culture #stop itttt omg no don't rant and make lists on ur tumblr blog !! ur out of control!!#ok anyway sorry i couldn't sleep i needed a distraction u know how it is #welcome to my brain. it is literally a nightmare up here i can't shut it off.#ranting and raving #txt

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iamthepulta · 3 months

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I lost the post where it says "but a volcano is a fucking volcano" about Mt Doom, but I want to remind the jury that the ring was forged in Mt. Doom.

Yes, rings are soul binding, but the whole point of going to Mt Doom was because it was the only place/forge/smelter hot enough to melt the ring.

If we want to look even closer at it: volcanoes and lava have a variety of melt temperatures. Rhyolitic volcanoes (think Mt. St Helens) have an average temperature of 600-800C while shield/basaltic volcanoes (think Hawai'i) have an average temperature of 1,200C.

The average melting point of gold is 1,064C. I'd have to do additional analysis on the materials in LotR to make a proper call on what the ring was made of, but I think it's safe to assume that Tolkien made a worldbuilding call on properties of the ring, forges and metallurgy tech in Middle Earth, coupled with the rule of cool that everyone wants to throw shit into a volcano.

#woke up at Stupid AM and couldn't sleep #Absently scrolled past this and I remembered Tolkien's wording so I'm being annoying on the funny haha lotr post.#My colleague made a presentation on mithril.#lotr

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revvetha · 6 months

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frankly it is so rude whenever the sleepydisease (cfs) decides it's only the sleepydisease not the sleepingdisease. Like cmon bro I literally have a long day of depressedly rotting away on the couch tomorrow, let me rest

#Me with literally 4 different strong sleeping meds at my immediate disposal: haha no I couldn't possibly

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thatcrazycrowgirl · 1 year

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I’m currently working my way through a game in another franchise, but I found myself getting a bit nostalgic and missing playing the AC ones; so here’s another little compilation from a previous Syndicate play session. A little hidden blade action, a little combat, cart hijacks, boat raids - you get the drill. Just another typical day in London, shaken up by a certain chaotic Frye twin. 😂

#my sleep was rudely interrupted; so I spent some of my time throwing this together #now I'm going back to bed #also I couldn't resist adding that cutscene at the end #Jacob is so gung-ho on getting into scraps with Blighters; but will not interject into a debate between Darwin and Nightingale haha #Jacob Frye #Assassin's Creed Syndicate #my ac gameplay

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christinepalmers · 2 years

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no but wait i actually have so many questions about that interview with stephen and christine like, i know some people are saying that's what stephen was watching on his ipad or whatever the night before christine's wedding but, when did that interview even happen because, the day of the accident they were talking about that technique and "maybe we could hyphenate. strange-palmer technique." *christine's voice* "palmer-strange !" and then everything went to hell and in that interview stephen is perfectly fine ! is this another universe ?! is this the other christine variant we were supposed to see ?! is this earth-838 ?! are these versions of stephen and christine married and living happily ever after ?!

#they were so acting like a married couple #more than usual haha #with the whole stephen saying christine should answer that question #out of self-preservation lol #stephen strange is scared of his wife #and the whole nice save !#and maybe that's because it's called strange palmer because #that's their nameeeee !!!#because they are MARRIED #pls someone answer me !#i couldn't sleep and this was all i could think about all night #it truly is no thoughts head empty only palmerstrange for me lmao #palmerstrange #multiverse of madness #doctor strange in the multiverse of madness #stephen strange #christine palmer #doctor strange #txt

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