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I can't wait for their honeymoon phase to end lol.

I don't think Shin is as vocal about his feelings as he thinks he is. MC isn't a mind reader just bc he's their best friend but it's true that they do have intimacy issues in their (past) sexual relationships :')

#writing #green light #i think shin's the sort of person to have certain expectations in his first real relationship #but i also definitely know where he's coming from jdjdks #without full context he just sounds needy (he is lol but there are other things going on too)

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When it's done, I think I should also post my Benkei fic here jfkdks. Just so I don't leave out my man and that my tr masterlist for first gen bd is complete 🥹

#pen rambles #it's probably gonna flop #but i don't like it when benkei gets left out everytime jdjdks #i also need to show why i think he's super cool and he has great tits- ah tatts :>

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what if your gf was wrong?

i'd reshape reality to make her right

#yes

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Why does Benkei not have face piercings canonically??? He's so hot with them whyyyy like look at him tehkxlzlsl 😭😭😭

#pen rambles #btw same artist drew takeomi with snakes bites............ #bless tr fanartists y'all are sent here to save the world istg #i'm foaming in the mouth jdksksk #why don't the first gen bd boys have some kind of face/other body piercings??? #where are shinichiro's studs and helixes? where are wakasa's [redacted] piercings?? #sorry i'm so caffeinated and so horny first thing in the morning at the office lol

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Between "Don't touch the sleeping pills/they mess with my head" and "You love me so hard and I still can't sleep" and "And, ah, my love remind me, what was it that I said?/I can't help but pull the earth around me to make my bed" and "It's just that I fell in love with a war/nobody told me it ended", I went with Mitski's A Pearl for chp 13 (just for that first line fitting MC and Shin so much) but I'll use Florence & The Machine's Ship to Wreck for a different chapter, probably MC's backstory for obvious reasons jdjdk.

#pen rambles #green light #i remembered a pearl by accident and gave it a listen #then had a moment thinking “that's the perfect song!!” #i love the irl context of the song too #abt clutching onto that toxicity inside you even tho you don't need it #even if you have already found yourself in a healthy relationship with someone who loves you - you still hold #in short i love mitski....... #one day i'll gush abt florence's songs too

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#mitski #a pearl #be the cowboy #found my song for gl chp 13 🥹

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musings on writing

Heaven Is Not Verbose: A Notebook by Vera Pavlova (tr. Steven Seymour), Letters Home by Sylvia Plath, MaddAddam by Margaret Atwood, A Breath of Life by Clarice Lispector, Isak Dinesen quoted by Raymond Carver, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath by Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Max Brod by Franz Kafka, Conversations with Kafka by Gustav Janouch, The Story of the Lost Child by Elena Ferrante, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

buy me a coffee

#writing #to write you have to want something to survive you

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Marina Tsvetaeva, excerpt from Poem of the End, Selected Poems (trans. Elaine Feinstein, with Angela Livingstone) [ID'd]

#marina tsvetaeva #poem of the end #green light

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Lonely Glory (2023) ‘わたしの見ている世界が全て’ dir. Keitaro Sakon

#lonely glory #watashi no mite iru sekai ga subete #green light

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OH SMALL SAD ECSTASY OF LOVE By Anne Carson I like being with you all night with closed eyes. What luck—here you are coming along the stars! I did a road trip all over my mind and heart and there you were kneeling by the roadside with your little toolkit fixing something.

Give me a world, you have taken the world I was.

#anne carson #oh small sad ecstasy of love #green light #give me a world you have taken the world i was

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Hotaru no Yomeiri, chapter 2/chapter 36

#hotaru no yomeiri #the parallels are so 🥹❤️

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#hotaru no yomeiri #just a couple doing couple things #satoko my sweet patient girl #they're so precious jdksksls

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theres something abt those cunty 90s anime men thats so alluring i think it was all the estrogen they were putting in the water

#low res naraku cuz he is a cunt lol #at least i don't have to hunt for a low res griffith pic maybe there's a yoko kurama in a diff rb #don't want to piss off ppl but i would've added gren from cowboy bebop too.......... #i miss the 90s bishounen yall 😔 #(literally what I look like in my he/him bio hehe)

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I know the first gen BD boys are messy, I just know it. Teen Takeomi probably refuses to be responsible around his friends unless it's gang-related. As an older sibling, I relate lol.

#writing #green light #lemme finish my benkei fic cuz it's summer where i'm from rn (i wanna go swimming at the beach with my besties too 😔)

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'Wakasa had a long-term intolerance to Takeomi's jackassery' is how I see Omiwaka's relationship and I wish could explore that more ngl lmao

#pen rambles #but at the same time benkei and takeomi's relationship is interesting too #but i think i've spread enough crumbs for them than with waka #who i firmly believe has no problem distancing himself from ppl he dislikes (he tolerates takeomi for the most part)

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Monster (モンスター) // Naoki Urasawa

#naoki urusawa's monster #just lunge being lunge lol

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"why can't they just be friends" not in the homophobic way but in the "their platonic relationship in the source material is far more dynamic and complex than the sanitized personalities they gain as a result of shipping" way

#writing