#got worried a couple times

[marclef]

THE EYHM COLLECTION GROWS!!!! managed to make some space without having to move too much so they can all be together!!

(i made the smaller ones into stickers bc i'm running out of picture frames!! hope that's ok!)

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE WHO'S GIFTED THESE TO ME THOUGH!!! I'M CALLING ALL OF YOU OUT HERE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!! ❤❤❤❤❤

*sharp inhale* @eskariolis-con-salsa @oddpizza @woobab @the-little-knight @moon9931 @misdreavusplush @noodletime @witch-tower-au !!!!!!!

hope you all have a good holiday season!! love you all! *MWAH*

#don't worry about the fish tanks they'll keep the kitties company! there's literally almost nowhere else good to put these lmao #but!! i think they look good there at least!! AND IN GENERAL THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD THANK YOU #BUT NOW AFTER THIS I REALLY NEED TO FIND MORE SPOTS IF I GET MORE EYHMS BECAUSE THERE'S NO SPACE LEFT THERE! #....maybe i can move some of the pokemon posters i have by my bed lol. they're just kinda. there rn. #but yeah!! i never expected people to like this cat this much and i'm kinda freaking out!!! but thank you again so much!! #i'll say it 1000 times if i have to!!!!!! #eyhm stuff #gift eyhms #basically ALL of the gift eyhms i've gotten lmao. there's a couple that're in progress but they'll hopefully join the others soon-ish! #quick side ramble! i've got a couple more drawing things planned this year but they might take a couple days because Chrimbo and all! #but there's a couple pizza tower things/gifts and. maybe finally my About Me post? gotta figure out how i'm gonna make that heh #OK I'VE BEEN TALKING TOO LONG SORRY BUT I'M JUST SO HAPPY ABOUT THESE AAAHHHHHHH

[little-pup-pip]

Hey everyone, small update!! I have one more exam tomorrow and then my semester is over!!! I can't wait!!

Also, we're about 60 followers away from 2000?? Out of nowhere??? I'm so excited, but I can't decide on what I should do to celebrate! I'll probably make a poll when we get closer.

#get ready to see way more of me #and probably some layout changes soon #and f i n a l l y updating my moodboard navigation because it's still been a long time #I've felt bad about my sporadic schedule recently #so i also plan to fix that!! #I also have a bunch of ideas for new stuff to do here! #one more day #Also! #sorry if i worried anyone when i was super busy #i got a couple messages about that #i'm all good #!! #Pip's barks

[shakingparadigm]

this is random but one of my favorite ALNST joke OCs is a girl who had a massive crush on Ivan and was able to date him for a little while because he felt bored enough to accept her. what follows is the most excruciating insanity inducing half-relationship in existence (they lasted 3 weeks before she gave up trying to understand him)

#her name is saya!! saya ng #she had the biggest crush on ivan and when she asked him out he said yes in the most casual way ever that she thought he was joking #the whole time they're “together” she's nervously looking away and blushing while ivan's eyes are trained on that gray haired boyfail there #whenever she'd ask to do couple things with him like hold hands or eat together he'd comply for a little while #but then he'd say something important came up and that he had to leave #she understood because of course! he's a top student surely hes busy no worries #he always seemed to have a wall up. smile never faltering but never fully genuine either #he always looked at her like he was seeing past her and not like he was looking at her person #he was a good and charming conversationalist but even though she got to spend more time with him #it never really felt like a “relationship”. more like two people roleplaying the actions of a relationship #because ivan was so closed off #she started noticing till more all because ivan kept noticing him #and she noticed how he seemed to change when he noticed till. like tills presence was enough to rewire his brain #she quickly realized she was nobody next to him and broke it off #anyways she got sent home because she wasn't good enough to graduate (she wasn't particularly good at anything) #she watched all her friends (dotori/acorn #round 3 and 4 kids) #die on screen #and when she's sent to a different singing competition she loses and dies #her name saya ng combines to make the word sayang #which in my language means: a waste #okay. this was supposed to be funny but now that im saying it #it low-key sounds kind of diabolical #by the way this idea is inspired by the Patreon info about ivan #(he CANONICALLY would accept anyones confession if he was bored enough. V and Q said that theyd tire of ivan being so closed and mysterious) #imagine being in the “recovering from dating ivan” club #alnst #random

[corrodedcoughin]

90s au where stobin and Gareth and Eddie meet at a bar. How do they meet? Arguing over the bar’s sonic the hedgehog game. For months the two pairs have been playing it separate nights. Eddie and Gareth on Fridays (usually they have gigs on Saturdays) Steve and Robin on Saturdays (the Official start of their Saturdays nights). Both pairs unknowingly having vendettas against each other for the leader board (never the top spot, they accept they aren’t that good and it’s always headed by some guy called jargyle<3)

Anyway one weekend corroded coffin have a gig on a Friday so gareth and Eddie decide to keep their tradition alive but move it along to Saturday. They arrive at their usual time and set up shop at the game, quickly devolving into their routine of each others nicknames, Eddie being Sonic and Gareth being Tails. They are getting In The Zone when Steve and Robin arrive, absolutely OUTRAGED that somebody is at THEIR game and not only that! They’ve stolen THEIR names, Steve is Sonic, Robin is Tails. They plant themselves in a booth and order drinks, ready to pounce on the machine as soon as those two imposters move.

Only they end up maybe drinking more than expected, possibly riling each other up to the point of storming over to the two guys because how dare they steal Steve and Robins Saturday night ritual?! Their names! Maybe even their high score!

Gareth and Eddie are heading towards drunk themselves, losing more money to the machine than they can justify and over the top celebrating when they clear a level. Which is when Robin taps Eddie on the shoulder, spinning him round to explain Just How Rude he’s being with Gareth standing just behind Eddie’s shoulder, sipping his beer and squinting at Steve who is giving Scary Dog behind Robin. Gareth is maybe further gone than he realises because in the middle of Robin’s speech (which is very eloquent and impressive he must admit) he’s whisper shouting in Eddie’s ear ‘hey dude major hottie behind the cool lesbian. Want me to wing man you?’

And Eddie? Eddie slides his eyes over to ‘major hottie’ who happens to have the fluffiest hair and sharpest jawline he’s ever seen and whisper shouts back to Gareth because he too, is more drunk than he possibly wants to admit, ‘oh my god he’s so hot man, I think he might be a meringue. Menagerie? Mirage!’ And goes to extend a hand towards Steve.

Robin, now slightly endeared from being noted as a cool lesbian, turns to look at Steve who has his Loverboy Game Face on and figures she can swing this display of bad flirting into an opportunity to get her Saturday Night Ritual back on track. Nothing is getting in the way of her playing Sonic with Steve, it might just be a little detoured along the way.

#Gareth is in awe of lesbian swag and Robin appreciates him for it #(he has Exponential Tboy Swag) #this was originally going to be stobin and Gareth and Eddie shouting about how they are the REAL tails and sonic and the other couple are #FAKES #but I couldn’t figure it out #there’s also another version where Steddie argue over who is sonic and who gets Dustin as their tails #then shadow the hedgehog appears and Eddie demands he’s shadow #ALSO IMPORTANT Gareth and Eddie’s name is MothBoys 2 me #freak and Jeff enjoy their stories but have their own jersey devil band. sometimes cc break into the separate bands during #a gig. this is called Crytid Communications and have a small but enthusiastic cult following #Robin gets called in to play trumpet from time to time and she gets to be whatever cryptid she desires #this is more of my own cc lore sorry #also you’d think I was a sonic Stan. No I just used to watch let’s plays for anything to relax and recently got back into it #this is stupid sorry my dudes #genuine question how are we all? #I haven’t asked since I came back. catch me up on y anything you desire!!! I missed being here!!! #don’t worry it wasn’t a noticeable absence I don’t expect anyway to have noticed lol BYE #gotta go fast #stranger things #eddie munson #steddie #steve harrington #platonic soulmates stobin #stobin #gareth stranger things

[silphilis]

maybe id like forcemasc more if u guys were being cool about it but all i see is shtick like ‘im gonna make you my pretty princess boy put on these extremely revealing mini shorts. theyre for boys because they’re blue’ lady, i was gonna do that anyways but its not because i was having a masc moment, the fuck?

#force masc should be when you make them kill the spider. force masc is like encouraging me to get a job at the construction zone and #clicker training me to feel good every time i bridal carry you to the door because the ground was dirty. #alternatively we could play with toxic forcemasc where you berate and make fun of me for being weak every time i show my feelings #forcemasc cant be blue colored forcefem be more creative theres so much to work with here #start putting steroids in his oatmeal and convince him to dress like leon kennedy #i got another one im editing more tags. forcemasc cnc tell him boys cant be raped because they always want sex. #dont worry itll start to feel better when youve had a couple T shots in you < 3 #+

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the thing they don't warn you about freshly pierced ears is the Sleep Anxiety

#im so worried about like... irritating them / ripping them out in my sleep #what if they get caught on one of my many blankets or pillows hm... #last night was the first night with 'em and i already had a stress dream #which unfortunately was one of those double deckers where The Demons™️ try to get me #but geez. #i arranged my bedding in such a way that im kinda sitting up and my head is stabilized enough so that i dont turn onto my side #or put pressure on my ~lobes~ #thus begins a long couple of months of Healing #cant wait to take these babeys out and switch things up #not that i dont like the ones i have for the healing process!! im very happy with them!!! #but Ough. monkey brain impatient.... #absolutely unprompted #i got a uhhh Saline Spray to clean em #and im so worried im gonna run out way prematurely #my depth perception and spatial awareness is a little... Off... #so it takes 2-3 attempts to actually Spray The Piercing #i end up wiping water off of my face and neck lmfao. my hair is Dripping every time #its just a general air of Paranoia #the last time i pierced my ears was years ago and i got a nasty ass infection that put me off of it until. like. a day ago #i was convinced this time bc it was done professionally with a needle and everything #INFINITELY better. lots of fun. i feel somewhat confident that it'll heal correctly #even if my bank account wont. But Its Worth It Tho Its Worth It- #and Yes im procrastinating sleep #my ability to scribble abruptly tanked so maybe ill write a bit instead #see if the artism Transferred

[snixx]

actually so glad I learnt morse because now I have a stimming outlet that is NOT subconsciously singing in class and throughout the breaks all day lmfao

#don't worry i was pretty quiet i only got heard by people around me a couple times throughout middle and high school #but it was still mortifying lol #the only problem with morse is it's more distracting and less intuitive so it makes me lose focus lol #girlblogging.pdf #but yeah one thing about me is i cannot stop singing. it's annoying asf but i don't even realize im doing it its been a thing forever #it used to help me cope with my loneliness in seventh grade and then it just became a habit ig #and with anxiety and panic attacks and restlessness #but yeah yay morse #god people used to think i was such a weirdo in school. do NOT miss it

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #favorites #we're not moving until june but I was looking at housing anyway #and I might've found us somewhere really good 🤞 #it's cheaper than where our other partner is already living now #so they could just move into it right away #and it's a whole house!!! with 3 bedrooms!!! #so we wouldn't have to just make do and then move a second time a couple months down the line #so it was a really really lucky find #but the contact info on the listing was broken so our other partner ran by this afternoon on their way home from work #and they also got really really lucky cuz the property manager happened to be stopping by! #so they exchanged business cards and they'll start negotiating in the morning #(they work in sales and I can trust them with this task) #(which means I don't need to worry about it and we probably have better odds than we would if I was doing it XD ) #(I am *awful* at sales.) #it's a pretty old building and may need some work but we'd be able to afford to do that work #(and probably have the leeway from the owners) #so maybe this is finally the win we needed -n- #(or maybe not! nothing's been signed.) #(but it's definitely looking promising.)

[puppyeared]

How'd Augusta end up being radioactive? :o

A second chance.

// suicidal themes below

Augusta originally worked as a part time astronaut at a Star Depot, which collected star Fragments and sent them back to earth to be used as fuel similar to nuclear power.

Augusta wasn’t really in a good place at the time while working there. She never had any kind of big ambition in life and wanted to live life peacefully, but knew that “getting by” isn’t enough for her to survive. People around her kept expecting so much of her that she didn’t know what to tell them.

Working as an astronaut helps take her mind off things at first, but then she starts to feel worse. She doesn’t get invited out to things, but she doesn’t really make any effort to try, and relatives are asking how she’s doing and she doesn’t know what to tell them without it turning into a lecture. and over time it piles up

First she starts asking for more shifts handling and shipping the stars. Then she asks to do overtime. And finally one day she finds a tiny Fragment on the floor.

The thing about Fragments is that they change your body and can make you very sick if youre near them for too long.

Tomorrow would be a holiday and the building would be closed. The Shift manager, who promised to close up, left early for drinks with coworkers. So she was the only employee working.

So she picks up the star and swallows it expecting to die. But instead her hair turns pink and the dust around her floats, and when she breathes no air comes out. The Star fused to her body and latched to her heart.

Basically, her suicide attempt gave her her own way to live and pink hair as a bonus lol

Here’s what her hair looked like before and after The Incident <3

#sorry if it’s not very comprehensive but that’s basically what she’s got going on lol. I tried to make it as shortened down as possible but #I did share this at some point and managed to bring the chat to their knees wjfjggs. sorry if this version doesn’t have the same effect lol #besides turning radioactive she also has minor antigravity powers and doesn’t need to eat. basically somewhat immortal lol #is it a healthy way of solving your problems? probably not. but she’s much happier now #after this happens she steals a ship and just Explores space for a long ass time before Meeting and eventually marrying Anton #she can still interact with others but she needs to be wearing her spacesuit to dampen the radiation. it won’t kill you but you can feel #Sick or Tores After being near her for like a couple days straight. Not her whole Body either just the chest and Torsi since the Stars there #*tired #I should also mention I don’t know exactly everything about radiation but enough to build this. so if it doesn’t sound like how radiation #works don’t worry about it cause I literally would not know and it’s for fun OC purposes anyway #thank you so much for asking btw’!!!! I’ve been itching to dump this LOL #Augusta #oc lore #yapping #txt #doodles #// suicide #tw suicide #suicide ment

[skelekins]

I know it's a little early but i'm dropping tins of my favorite candy into Peye's and Fume's bags.

Happy Halloween!

Trick or Treat

Peye is enamored with the treat. Fumes also likes them. You get something from Peye.

[due to formatting had to make the gift a link instead of readmore x_x]

#peye made and decorated the cookies mostly by himself ;w; #baker boy #he did get lost in the sauce a couple times tho [dough and especially frosting] #some of these graphics will be reused #and ill slowly answer them a bit differently as i get more things made but #:D #skelekins trick or treat #bittybones trick or treat #bitty peye #bitty fumes #askbox trick or treat #skelekins art #skelekins answers #bittybones #got another one in my askbox that ill get too asap <3 #skelekins bitties #i didnt get around to drawing it but their bags are pillowcases on the side of the cabinet #like xmas stockings but for halloween lmao #edit: btw no worries about early! askbox is open for trick or treating from now until hopefully the end of halloween #tysm for the ask and gift ;w;

[seariii]

Hum...

#im just thinking... im okay tho /gen #just thinking about the words the bestie said to me after I told him about my mental health... #particularly a phrase... he just said 'you are already committed' and when i asked what he meant he said 'to life' #its just... idk... it was impressive and had such a weird feeling... sadly i guess i am committed........ 'sadly' huh.... #sigh another important thing was that it was crucial i went back to therapy... i dont really want to tho... #but 'youve been feeling like this for a long time you need help' ... sigh... what i need is... #the future is so scary... sigh... okay #ill put an alarm to wake up earlier tomorrow and work on that! #seari talks #what i need is adderall- jsjsjsjsjs yeah... alr im sleepy time to mimir #tomorrow ill catch up with everything i missed too #also if anyone reads this dont worry pretty person! i got a bit scared/upset up there but its okay #im quite stable right now! at least enough to survive for a couple days! so yup! #miiiight have to look up a new therapist tho... since aside from help i wanna get a diagnosis.... #sigh... but okay that's not for rn seari it's for future seari. rn seari has to go mimir because shes tired #a mimir a mimir pat pat pat

[dreamlogic]

musing in the tags about the view two years out from my hysterectomy and the shifting nature of neuropathy. i asked my PT for recommendations/resources pertaining to pain science and that's been a very helpful lenses to have. i'm still not back to normal, will never be unmarked by this experience or return to my pre-op self, but my baseline has been gradually increasing over the last few months, and it feels good to look back on the last two years and say "i have no idea how i managed to function while living with that, but i did!"

#meatsuit renno #chronic blogging #ctxt #at first post-hysto pain was a deep burning ache #and eventually that lessened on my left side and settled in for the long haul on the right #after a couple weeks it had started to feel like a small carnivorous creature scrabbling and gnawing at the inside of my abdomen #nestled into the hollow of my pelvis and reaching up with its raking claws #about 6 months in and the creature still chewed occasionally but had shrunk to the size of a tennis ball under my right incision site #it clamped its jaws down and went to sleep and i perpetually felt like someone had pinched a fold of my insides with a large binder clip #this constant awful twisting tug every time i moved that kept me from straightening up or breathing fully #this is about a year into recovery and my original surgeon has blown off my requests for follow-up treatment three times now #i carried on as best i could. fatigue and brainfog getting worse & worse as the pain wore on unrelentingly #about a year and a half into recovery it worsened again. searing lancing pain like i'd been impaled on a piece of white hot rebar #couldn't hardly move. couldn't think straight. couldn't sleep #finally checked myself into urgent care & then the ER just to try to get someone anyone to take me seriously and help me #finally got a referral to a new surgeon who immediately pinned it as extreme neuropathy #started gabapentin end of december last year and the relief was immediately #i never thought i would welcome the gritted teeth vice grip of my little feral pain creature #but when i felt the molten spike slide out to be replaced once more by its worrying jaws #the intermittent spark and fizzle of that pinching squirming pain was a dramatic improvement #then i started PT in march and slowly so slowly the creature's hungry grip is loosening #it still clamps down occasionally. maybe once every week or two i'll have a day when i just accept #that there will be a horrible little creature chewing on my right side from the inside #but nowadays with the gabapentin doing as much as it can and an exercise routine i must stick to religiously to supplement PT #the pain is more of a little pearl of dark matter shifting around under my skin #it's incredibly dense. the heart of a black hole of disabling agony. all that white hot fury condensed into a slick heavy marble #as i recover some of my strength and energy i can feel my body coating it in nacreous layers to minimize its influence #my hysterectomy was 2 years and 4 days ago today and i feel like i can finally finally say i'm beginning to truly heal #i suspect i'll always carry this pearl in my side like shrapnel. product of damaged nerve tissue that went untreated for far too long #i wish my original surgeon had been more competent more attentive less lazy & indifferent to my pain. but i still don't have any regrets.

[detaryuu]

My little brother (an adult) (autistic) found out I wasn't feeling well and asked me what would make me feel better and when I said I wasn't sure, but I was doing my best to keep busy and cheer myself up, he went quiet for a little bit. And then started meowing at me and using his favorite phrases to denote when he's thinking about cats and it took me a minute to realize what was going on and ask him to clarify, but he was trying to make me feel better by getting me to think about cats because that's what makes him feel better when he's sad???? Anyways that put years back on my life

#personal #He's got a hard time understanding concepts and ESPECIALLY emotionally involved ones #so going “Sorry man I'm just mega depressed for no good reason bc my brain just kinda Does That every couple months for funsies” #doesn't really click for him and I don't blame him bc it's STUPID #So I simplify with “I'm just sad for no reason and that's kind of silly! I'll feel better later though don't worry" #And this was the first time he's really thought about it and done something without direction to try and help and ngl the sentiment did mor #than any antidepressant ever did for me

[hell0mega]

the capabilities and powers that angels/demons have really confused me, especially with what we're shown in season 2. i feel like in season one it was always pretty clear what the limitations were for their powers, Crowley can do a bit more than Aziraphale can (and we now know why), but there were plenty of things in season 2 that felt like could've possibly been solved through devine or demonic intervention and it felt contrived that they weren't?

more under the cut cuz i went on a bit

i think a lot of these concerns come from the final fight, which honestly feels way too long. why couldn't Aziraphale miracle away the stairs? why couldn't he teleport away? they can teleport people as we saw with Adam (that was Crowley so maybe it's a stronger power). and with that, why did the angels believe the 25 lazarai miracle was to make the humans fall in love? and not even right away?? why could Crowley not miracle the wine bottles back together? seems like reconstruction is an iffy area but all the glass (and wine) were still there. he could've materialized more bottles as well, even if they'd be "fake." the idea of miracle blocking, let alone demons being able to do it, blocking BOTH kinds of miracles, INCLUDING a high rank like Crowley, seems CRAZY op to me.

why didn't they use miracles against the demons? Crowley can make absolutely giant holes in the ground that suck up grave workers, he can BRING A GUY BACK TO LIFE??, but he has to lie about rules of engagement to buy them time to get the humans away? he can stop time/space/individuals/whatever he's doing, why can't he do that to buy them time? you might think oh they're preventing themselves from drawing attention, but he doesn't work for hell anymore so why would he care, and they already have all the attention on them and are being actively attacked by dozens of demons right in front of a group of humans

aziraphale ended up using his halo which is taboo enough to start a holy war and yet he didn't try to do anything magical before that. they can change paintball guns into real guns AND make sure none of the bullets kill anyone purely by "chance" AND not have anyone involved notice they're no longer shooting paint, they can turn children into lizards and back, but they can't protect a bookshop more than just having vampire rules??

#season 2 had a lot more Neil gaiman ridiculous 'don't worry about it' magic system stuff than season 1 lol #good omens #good omens 2 #go2 #season 2 was great don't get me wrong but it was stuff like this that really made my first watch through like #very frustrating to me #it got better once i watched it a couple times cuz i could focus on the characters and not be distracted by these questions #if anyone has rebuttal or agrees with me or has any other points to make please let me know #go meta

[afniel]

Maaaaaaaaaaaan, come on.

(the post has ended up in the tags btw. I am not changing this and I need you to understand that it is just me talking to myself semi-publicly)

#Nevi Writes #things said by a guy writing a thing he doesn't even intend to be writing and it's like 10k of words now. >:[ #while that's true I do want to emphasize that nobody should get excited about it right now tho okay #because like it's just. idk. I feel very much like it could end up not worth pursuing anyway. it's just a little baby wip. #(when the fuck did my little baby wips get to be 1/4-1/2 the length of my previous 'finished' stories!! what the hell) #it just feels nice to make words tho. and it does have that kind of 'ah good to catch up with these guys again' vibe which is nice. #even if the break has once again been like. on the order of days to a week maybe. I'm so bad at this taking a break business suddenly. lel. #but I don't have anything much to say about it at this point #other than I'm debating inventing a reason that presidential elections would have been moved by a couple of years between now and 2212 #what is it with me and having to be so damn precise with dates in this whole narrative. am I just mad that Capcom never tries? #(yes) (so mad) #(and 2212 would actually be an election year is the problem. I want time to have passed but I also want there to be a pres. election.) #(it's fine don't worry about it) #(this is how I decided that Blucifer got bload up and then replaced also. weird reliance on mashing up IRL things and fictional explosions) #(but it's fun isn't it? got that veneer of verisimilitude. I'm good at long words) #idk this is inevitable isn't it. but I'm going to keep playing like it's not. I think I need a little more space for this one mentally. #the first one just sort of fell out of my head fully assembled and the second one did that also but with different vibes #though it did actually take some cutting things and adjusting things to make it work which Failure to Compile did not #Failure to Compile was bizarrely effortless until the mad editing dash. Outcome Unpredictable was WORK #fun work at least! but in hindsight it was definitely more work to make it flow properly. #the real job for the 3th if it happens is gonna be wrapping up threads without dropping new ones in bc that's such a habit of mine now

[98chao]

its kind of funny that crk brought out such Emotion in me that i just whipped out all my knowledge on how symbolism and colour affects art. im not playing about those cookies bro.

#no shade to any of my other interests but nothing has really evoked the kind of feeling to make like meaningful art in this way #i almost did with sonic a couple times but i ended up not feeling interested enough to finish those project files #mephiles is too good to pass up an opportunity with but im not sure ill ever have the drive to draw something cool w/ him #back to the original point im actually very very happy when i see ppl talking about things i put in my art like #my vision is realized!! #i get worried that nobody cares enough to notice lol but now i know my vanilla milkshakers got me #i mean i try as hard as i can from someone whos entirely self taught i know theres artists who can do those kinds of things better than me #thats why i study a lot from other artists bc it helps very much #erm mucho texto anyway #hooray gay cookies #not art #txt