#gfys honestly you fucked up and you know it

[emilyharmonia]

my mother was just yelling at me about how “it’s so fucked up” that I don’t want to share all of my medical records with her anymore after trying to add herself as an emergency contact at my surgeon’s office

EXCUSE YOU. the last time you got your hands on my records you know exactly what you did. you tried to justify your neglect of me because “oh the endometriosis was in its early stages!!! there wasn’t that much!!! it couldn’t have started when you were 13, heavy periods and constant severe pain are normal after all!!!!!!”. AND THEN? you somehow have the AUDACITY to say you’re disgusted by this WHEN I WAS IN SEVERE PAIN EVERY DAY FOR YEARS AND FOR AT LEAST THE FIRST 30 MONTHS YOU KNOWINGLY DID ABSOLUTELY FUCK ALL ABOUT IT? I am never subjecting myself to your bullshit again. I don’t want you anywhere near my medical records. if you keep this shit up I will make sure they can’t talk to ANYONE who can share with you. you don’t need to know everything. and I’m never going to forgive you or forget the domino effect you played such a massive part in. you ruined years of my life. FUCK. OFF.

#medical neglect #/rant #don't mind me I'm just really angry #I needed to vent #also she tried to say ''the pain was probably JUST from the intestinal adhesions'' like that means refusing medical treatment #FOR A 13 YEAR OLD WITH NO ACCESS TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD #any better #gfys honestly you fucked up and you know it #you just hate that I was right about having endo to begin with #and now you try to act like everything's better because my uterus is gone. like that somehow erases all of that trauma and that pain #if you're still stalking my social media you'll probably notice that literally NO ONE AGREES with you #ok. jf. I need to step back and go do something more relaxing before I give myself a brain bleed #sorry that this is the post I come back online with I promise I'm normally a pleasant person

[mommymercie]

mha headcannons.

— how they text!

starring bakugo, midoriya & todoroki (sho).

cont. kirishima & kaminari (soon).

shigaraki, dabi & hawks (soon).

katsuki bakugo.

- lowkey dry as fuck.

- if you want to have a proper conversation, call him.

- pray to god that if he does bother to answer, he doesn’t start it off by berating you for calling him in the first place.

- definitely strikes me as the type to read a message from notifications, and if he doesn’t feel like there’s an appropriate response or that one isn’t necessarily needed, he’ll just leave it.

- i.e. he’s the king of ghosting.

- in saying this, if he does deem it worthy of one then he always replies within a good amount of time so conversations with bakugo are unexpectedly easy.

- he would be a little more enthusiastic texting or calling his s/o (although to someone that didn’t know him well, they wouldn’t be able to tell).

- uses abbreviations maybe 50% of the time. not too much but if they can end a conversation quicker, he’s not going to complain.

- just basic ones “gfys” “stfu” “idc” “idgaf”

- his fave emojis are def 🙄😤😒🖕

- he’s aware of some of the mainstream trends and shit (tiktok slang, popular memes and all that). if anyone ever texts him something he’ll usually understand it, but he’ll rarely ever reciprocate it.

- if it’s the perfect situation (or he’s in a secretly good mood) he might send you a few memes or a funny gif.

- definitely progresses slowly in texting you romantically.

- well not romantically but yk

- he wouldn’t be caught dead sending love hearts.

- and he wouldn’t send an “ily” text first, but he’d always respond to yours. it would just take him some time to get from “you too” to “ly” and then finally “love ya”.

- maybe if you’re lucky he might send you an “x”.

izuku midoriya.

- spam texter with no shame right here.

- honestly he ends up accidentally spamming 85% of the time anyway.

- he overthinks and overshares and has absolutely no filter at all, so of course he finds a way to incorporate that into his texting personality.

- texts how he talks!!!

- forget what people say about “you can’t tell someone’s tone through a text” because izuku midoriya is amazing at communicating his emotions just in general really.

- WILL TEXT IN ALL CAPS WHEN STRESSED. ALSO CUTS MOST FILLER WORDS OUT.

- when he gets excited he types really freaking fast so there’s often a lot of typos and any sort of punctuation he attempted to use would probably have one too many spaces.

- the same applies for when he’s nervous or under pressure.

- very passionate if the need arises.

- and very openly loving toward you.

- never scared to send a love heart or seven 💖🤍💓.

- he highkey keeps up with the trends.

- uses emojis and memes whenever he gets the chance but most of the time he just rambles on until they’re not necessary anymore.

- how quickly he replies can vary massively. since he’s a pro he’s often getting dragged into cases with little notice.

- he takes his work very seriously so he usually doesn’t respond whenever he’s training or patrolling.

- but when he has the chance to be on his phone, he responds instantly.

- he texts you so much he just loves you so much.

- and oh my god don’t get me started on calling him.

- will always facetime you if you’re down.

- when he wakes up, before he goes to sleep, whenever he’s at lunch or on break.

- his friends make fun of him for how much time he spends on his phone with you.

shouto todoroki.

- a classy texter of course.

- very grammatically correct, starts all of his sentences with capitals and always uses the necessary punctuation like a good boy.

- texting sho is kind of intimidating. you’re aware of proper grammar usage and whatnot, but why bother in an informal text?

- whenever you text sho you always feel a little bit dumb, or feel like he might think you’re a little bit dumb.

- you obviously don’t want him to think that.

- sometimes it feels like you’re texting your grandparents because of how proper he is.

- he’s dry but to a degree.

- honestly just comes across as dry because of his personality.

- he’s a blunt person so it’s only natural.

- very to the point, but he’ll keep a conversation with you even if he thinks it might be a little aimless because he enjoys talking to you.

- sho wouldn’t really take charge of communication in the relationship so you’d have to initiate most of your conversations.

- he’s kind of 50/50 when it comes to responding.

- he doesn’t go on his phone often so he doesn’t always see notifications.

- texts could take him a few hours to respond to.

- but since you’ve started dating he makes sure to keep his ringer on. if you call he usually answers you on the first two rings.

- sometimes he might call you randomly when he’s bored or he misses you a lot.

- sho being “romantic” is honestly adorable.

- he sounds like a gift card you could find in the supermarket.

- “Thinking of you.”

- will always say “I love you” back.

- and he loves sending you 🤍.

- sometimes if he’s feeling extra loving he might send you two hearts aww.

- definitely loves to drop ✅ or 👍

- maybe 🙂 if he’s a bit cheery.

- regardless he doesn’t keep up with trends.

- he’s got an account on every social media platform (by which i mean denki stole his phone and signed him up to everything) but he just doesn’t understand the hype.

- plus he couldn’t really figure out how to work them so he just gave up :(

- poor baby gets so confused by memes and most abbreviations, so if he receives any (even if it’s not from you) he’ll always text you to ask what it means.

#mha #bnha #bakugo x reader #todoroki x reader #deku x reader #katsuki bakugo #shouto todoroki #izuku midoriya #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha x reader #anime #bnha headcannons #mha headcanons

[friendsforanotherday]

You mentioned in one of your posts that junior year is the outlier for jareds and evans friendship. You also mentioned that you dont think it was just jared being a prick (which i agree with, like why ignore evan for a whole year and then pop in like "yo wassup" especially when we all know the insurance is a cover) Do you have any hcs on what could have happened that you would want to share?

oh babey! i will yell about how Jared is not solely responsible for his and Evan’s Junior year friendship break-up literally anytime you want!! Really, neither of the boys are solely responsible for it. Yes, they both definitely had a part to play in it but i think it’s a little weird that people will point at like 16/17 year old Jared and hold him personally responsible for Evan’s ‘Fall’ like he’s Evan’s keeper and not also a teenager who has his own stuff going on that canon doesn’t mention.

putting this under a cut bc i can feel that its gonna get Long!

to preface, what we know so far from canon is 

they’re family friends, presumably through their moms (but no mention of how long)

Evan used to stay home on friday nights during his Junior year and told Heidi he didn’t have any friends

Heidi was happy that him and Jared were hanging out a lot more (though exaggerated because Evan used him as a shield for going to the Murphy’s) because she’s always said that Jared is a great friend for Evan

Evan felt Alone during the summer between Junior and Senior year

Evan was doing an apprenticeship as a junior park ranger at Ellison State Park and Jared was at summer camp as a CIT

Jared approaches Evan on the first day of Senior year with ‘a practiced swagger only the deeply insecure could truly pull off’

Which paints an interesting picture of these two. Like it could honestly jsut be the two of them not having the chance to really talk/be too busy to because of the workload of Junior year and everything that they have going on outside of like education. Not to make this too Kleinsen, but wrol has described Jared as both ‘very repressed’ and ‘self-hating’ before so i wouldn’t be surprised if like him questioning his own sexuality and any feelings he might have towards Evan, contributed to their friendship sort of breaking down.

I realise that kinda makes it sound like Jared’s to blame but like, a relationship IS a two-way street. Yes, it shouldn’t all be on Evan to keep it going but if both of them are confused about what’s going on and not reaching out to each other for answers, of course they aren’t gonna get anywhere!

yeah, Jared seems to be Evan’s only friend but the reverse is also true! Jare wouldn’t have had the reaction he did in the GFY fight if Evan HADN’T been telling the truth when he called Jared out for only talking to him because he doesn’t have any other friends!! which like, the entire musical so far has been Evan turning to Jared, not necessarily because he’s his first choice, but because Evan doesn’t have anyone else to turn to. Which sucks for Evan because it’s hard when you (feel like you) don’t have anyone else to turn to but like sucks doubly so for Jared because Evan straight up tells him that in their first skype call, like he’s aware that Evan isn’t talking to him because he wants to but because Jared’s his last resort

being on either side of this friendship is just fucking brutal and i’m physically incapable of pointing the finger at one or the other because they’re kids! they’re going to and are allowed to fuck-up!! neither of them are responsible for each other’s feelings but they DO have to learn to communicate with each other better!!!

#asshole answers #deh #deh meta #jared kleinman #evan hansen #i dont think i answered your question at all but i enjoyed to opportunity to go feral for like 5 paragraphs #but i just feel like its super important to remember that deh is from Evan's pov so we don't get a lot of info on Jare like we do Ev #he has his own life and potential struggles going on when he's not onstage helping Evan fix the situation he's found himself in #and like as much as it fucking sucks #people are allowed to have their own lives without dropping everything to help us sort stuff out #it's hard to remember when you're in that situation and you feel like you've got no one to turn to but xyz #but peopl are allowed to say they can't help you bc they're not in the mindset/place for it #Jared doesn't bc a part of him wants to know what Evan's gotten himself into now #but also like #who else is Evan gonna talk to about this? #Evan isnt telling Heidi the truth and Jare doesn't tell His parents the truth about things either #also Jared never gets that reciprocated that we see in canon #it's always him taking on Evan's situation and trying to help him fix it #which again is understandable considering this is Evan's story #so that might be happening off-stage where we don't see it #or it probably isn't happening At All #and Jared doesn't tell his parents the truth and he isn't talking about stuff with Evan #unless we get idealistic and go other family members or secret friends #Jared isn't telling Anyone whats going on in his life

[casgirlsam]

the following post is brought to you by some spn fandom branded Hot Takes™ after it was made painfully obvious this past episode that sam and eileen are endgame (where’s your tie, samuel, hmm?)

my first draft of this was just a link to ninja sex party’s gfy but that seemed too aggressive and honestly that’s such an overused move of mine anyway so here we go. i’m not even going to pull out the ableism angle because that’s also been overused by me and yall already know that 

if you think saileen is non-con or in some way not eileen or sam’s choice because of chuck’s manipulations, than you need to stop shipping destiel

you heard me

from 15.02 raising hell:

DEAN: Well, now that his cover's blown, everything that we've done is for what? Nothing?

CASTIEL: Even if we didn't know that all of the challenges that we face were born of Chuck's machinations, how would we describe it all? We'd call it "life". Because that's precisely what life is. It's an obstacle course, and maybe Chuck designed the obstacles, but we ran our own race. We made our own moves. And mostly, we did well with that.

DEAN: Did we? I'll tell you what we do know. Nothing about our lives is real. Everything that we've lost, everything that we are is because of Chuck. So maybe you can stick your head back in the sand, maybe you can pretend that we actually had a choice. I can't.

CASTIEL: Dean. You asked, "What about all of this is real?" We are.

from 15.09 the trap:

SAM: I wish you'd stay.

EILEEN: I wish I could. After what happened, I don't know what's real anymore.

[Sam leans in and kisses Eileen]

SAM: I know that was real.

so whats the difference there if you take away gender? nothing. not a thing. they were all manipulated in some way by chuck. suddenly it’s a woman, a deaf woman, and it’s “noncon”. ableism much?

(whoops i lied but also while youre here: it doesn’t matter if you think it isn’t because she’s deaf, the fact that your only arguments are based on something that isn’t canon makes it painfully obvious)

anyway the whole point is that chuck did have some influence on the situations that brought the couples together but it’s their choices, ultimately, that matter.to quote god himself: “They chose family.”

dean could have left cas in purgatory. sam could have used the conveniently placed spell to bring back rowena or kevin. but they didnt.

so if saileen is noncon, so is destiel (so are literally all the relationships including john and mary)

to wrap this up: i get not liking something. it’s ok to just not like something. but be honest about why. don’t pull something out of your ass that doesn’t match canon at all. hell, i have people tell me exactly why they don’t like it and that’s ok. and don’t be a fucking hypocrite. :)

#spn wank #spn spoilers #aint tagging nothing else #people wanna yell at me in my inbox #they know where to find me #im too small for that but you never know lmao

[insanelycooljk]

You mentioned ⚡⚡⚡was the worst for angst so now I Have To Ask

send me the title of one of my deh wips and I’ll share an excerpt/tell you a bit about it  

Ok I definitely only mentioned that because I was hoping someone might ask about it lmao. I’d argue that this is more like... hurt than angst, but it’s gonna be hurt/comfort, so hopefully the sweet moments make up for it. You can expect a lot of soft kleinsen lol.

This one it was like 3am and there was a huge storm outside. I was sitting by my window watching the lightning, I’d just finished reading Trying Through the Trauma and a particular scene was on my mind (if you’ve read it you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about, and if you haven’t I highly reccomend it because that fic is wonderful, the world-building is INSANE).

So given all of that, plus my apparent desire to just hurt all the characters I love, my brain was like “hey... what if Jared got struck by lightning?”

Which I KNOW sounds absolutely ridiculous and like some kind of crack fic, but just bare with me here ok.

For maximum angst, the fic begins with Jared storming out of Evan’s house after a fight.

I haven’t worked out all of the details of the fight yet, but basically there was an attempt at an apology/discussion of Evan’s letter that didn’t go so well and things got a bit heated.

Jared’s hurt and angry, so he runs away because that’s what he does.

It’s absolutely pissing down, it’s at least a 15/20 minute walk back to his house, but Jared’s a stubborn bastard and he just needs to get out of there.

Evan’s stuck in his head trying to process how the hell that went so badly, because he’s hurt and angry too, but then a particulary loud clap of thunder snaps him out of his thoughts. He’s not sure why the hell Jared walked here instead of drove (it was because he wanted the extra time to try and plan what he was going to say to Evan), but Heidi will kill him if she finds out he just let Jared walk all the way home in this weather.

So he runs outside after Jared to tell him to stop being an idiot and at least just wait until it stops raining so much

And of course Evan catches up with Jared just in time to see him get struck

Evan is just frozen in absolute horror because what the fuck. What the fuck. Who the hell gets struck by lightning!? That just doesn’t happen in real life. What the fuck.

His brain finally catches up to him and he rushes over to Jared who’s just convulsing on the ground.

Evan’s hands are shaking but he manages to call 911. Once the ambulance is on their way he’s just staring helplessly at Jared still seizing on the ground, and all he can think is Jared is going to die and the last thing they did was fight.

Another minute or so passes and Jared’s seizure suddenly ends. Evan’s just holding his breath because he has no idea what he should do. Being a nurse and all, Heidi’s taught him how to do basic CPR incase of emergencies, but Evan’s in such a state of panic that he can’t do anything

And then Jared opens his eyes. It takes a second for the pain to catch up to him, the ringing in his ears is loud and oh fuck everything hurts his whole body is on fire

Evan is freaking the fuck out now that Jared is awake and crying, and he’s desperately trying to comfort him and is begging the ambulance to hurry the fuck up. And god this is so much worse now that Jared’s conscious, because Jared just doesn’t break down. The last time Evan probably saw him cry was when he stacked it on his bike when they were kids (unless you count the unshed tears shining in his eyes during their gfy fight and most recent fight, which Evan is pointedly NOT counting lmao, he can’t deal with that right now)

Anyway, the paramedics finally arrive and give Jared some serious painkillers and take him to the hospital because honestly they’re not really sure what to do either. It’s not like there’s a special “lightning strike survivor” class in the paramedicine curriculum lol. Jared didn’t go into cardiac arrest or anything so that’s a good sign, but he’s obviously in pain and he’s got some really nasty burns that need looking at so he’s clearly not fine.

And of course, for more maximum angst, they take him to the hospital Heidi works at. Because of course they do. Heidi’s had a fairly quiet night at work, or at least as as quiet as it can be working at a hospital. But then she overhears something about a kid who got struck by lightning!? And Heidi is like damn… well that doesn’t happen every day. She’s currently on her break but she’s understandably pretty curious, so she decides she’ll just go see what’s going on.

Which of course leads to her finding an extremely distraught looking Evan who is absolutely drenched, and any other thoughts are gone from her mind instantly.

Evan all but collapses into her arms. She’s holding him tightly as he just sobs and sobs and he’s shivering and so cold and why is he so wet? And obviously Heidi just wants to be there for him but the she’s starting to panic and she needs to know what’s wrong. She pulls away, still holding his shoulders tightly, to look him in the face.

“Evan, honey talk to me. What happened?” And he just manages to choke out “It’s Jared, it’s…. he,” but he can’t get the words out because he keeps being interrupted by his own sobs. And now Heidi is really worried because what happened with Jared? Is he ok? “He…” Evan can’t continue because he just lets out this choked cry and breaks into even harder sobs. Which causes Heidi to promptly pull him close again.

Evan is just, exhausted. Like, he was so tense and upset after the fight with Jared, and then THAT happened, and he’s been doing his best to not completely fall apart so he could explain what happened to the paramedics, but it’s just all so much, and all he wants his mum to hold him and tell him everything’s going to be ok.

“He’s hurt,” Evan says finally once his breathing is bit more under control and he can finally speak again. “He…. there was lightning and, and-”

And Heidi’s heart just stops because she suddenly remembers the boy that supposedly got struck by lightning and she does not like where this is going.

Jared’s mostly ok physically. He’s got some really nasty burns and he’s in a lot of pain, plus the strike was super loud so he’s got some bad tinnitus, but nothing that really needs monitoring. So he’s only in the hospital for a couple of days.

However, the thing with lightning strikes is it can do a lot of weird neurological damage that scientists and doctors don’t really understand yet. So a lot of survivors suffer from things like personality changes, mood swings, memory loss and chronic pain.

So in terms of symptoms for Jared he struggles with chronic pain. It’s not like a low-level constant pain, it’s more episodes where he’s in extreme pain for a short period of time and then it fades away again. He got struck on his shoulder, so the pain flares up on his shoulder and down his arm on that side of his body.

His burns take a while to heal, and whilst his tinnitus gets much better it’s always there to an extent. He’s also got some issues with fatigue, it’s not terrible but he definitely gets tired more easily than he used to.

Jared doesn’t really have any issues with like, personality changes or anything, but the whole experience was pretty tramautic, so his mental health definitely isn’t great right now.

Obviously, Jared’s pretty fucking terrified of thunderstorms now. He pretty much just refuses to leave his house if there’s a storm.

One time he’s driving himself and Evan home from school and it starts raining and he just – refuses to leave the car. There’s not even thunder but the sky is dark and it’s raining pretty heavily and Evan’s all like “It’s ok, come on. It’s two metres. Just take my hand and we’ll run inside together ok?” And poor Jared is having a panic attack, just gasping for air, and he’s shaking his head and saying “I can’t.”

And Evan kinda tries a couple more suggestions to coax him inside, because like they literally just have to walk from the driveway to Evan’s front door. There is a 0% chance that anything would happen in the 5 seconds it would take to get inside, and there isn’t even any thunder, it’s just raining heavily.

Eventually he gives up and they just sit in the car together waiting for the storm to pass. Evan can’t help but think how ironic it is that he’s the one who has to help Jared through his own panic attacks now.

But the main complications Jared struggles with are the cognititve issues. Jared’s always been pretty smart and has done well in school, so he finds it really hard to deal with.

He REALLY struggles with his memory at first. Mainly short-term memory. He’ll do things like make lunch multiple times because he forgot he ate already. He struggles with reading and writing and keeps tripping over his sentences. It all improves a lot over time, but it never quite gets 100% better.

But yeah, that’s kind of the hardest part for Jared because it’s just frustrating and confusing. It causes him a lot of distress because it makes him feel so stupid.

One time when he’s really struggling with it, maybe whilst trying to do work for school, Jared just breaks down about it because he just feels so frustrated. He ends up crying into Evan’s shoulder and going “I just want to be better”

Evan says nothing, because he’s been doing an obsessive amount of research and the truth is Jared might not ever be “better” again, and he doesn’t want to lie to Jared. Well, he certainly wants to, we all know about Evan’s lying issues lmao. He desperately wants to tell Jared comforting lies like “it’s ok” and “there’s nothing wrong with you” and “of course you’ll get better” but he holds his tongue because he knows he can’t lie to Jared, not about this.

ANYWAY ahahaha, I got a little carried away with this one but I’ve got a LOT of feelings about it. It will end up with kleinsen because I couldn’t resist, so on that note I do have just one last point I HAVE to share 🥺

So a lot of people who get struck by lightning end up with these really kind of beautiful looking scars called Lichtenberg figures. They normally only last a day or two (although I did read about one guy where they lasted like a month) but uhh.... I will be taking some artisitic liberities there lmao because imaging Evan gently tracing over Jared’s scars when they finally get together? Good shit.

#⚡⚡⚡ #anyway thank you for indulging me with this one #it's been fun but sad researching for it #also Jared definitely like… tries to make this his Thing #like he’s not coping well so he just pretends it’s actually awesome #he keeps making jokes about being the flash and not even god being able to strike him down lmao #oh boy and if he ever has to do icebreakers? one of those 'tell the class a fun fact about yourself' things? #he's just like everyone else stfu and go home because there is no way in hell you can beat this #but yes lots of soft kleinsen for this one #unfortunately no super speed or lightning powers though lol #deh wips prompt #zoe writes #deh #jared kleinman #kleinsen #evan hansen

[fallcnonesarch]

🌻 a worried text.🐰 a goofy text.🦋 a loving text. 🧦 a half-asleep text.🌳 a happy text.🍎 an apologetic text. ⚠️ a text meant for someone else.🕰️ an early morning text.💫 a late night text.🗑️ a text that wasn’t sent.💡 a scared text.💀 an urgent text.🥇 a supportive text.🔪 a hateful text. 🌊 a sad text.⚡ an angry text. 🚀 a goodbye text.

*           x.           ———–——      text  meme       /      hardin scott[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘ r u ok ?? i know u went and talked to ur dad … did it end badly ?? idk, i know i shouldn’t give my option on the matter but maybe u should give him another chance. srry just ignore that last txt, pls just txt me whenever you get this.  ’ ( worried txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  OMG babe,  i saw the cutest dog today !!!!!  you should’ve been there to see it. it was sooo cute, i believe it was a german shepard and yellow lab mix ?? idk the lady told me but i don’t remember. hope classes around going well, see you later  tonight. ily [ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  thank you for everything, babe. honestly idek what i’d do w/o you. well i gotta got to class now but ily and see you after for dinner.  ’  ( loving txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘ can u come over plssssssssssssssssssssssss ?  srry  i;m tired rn i just want to b with u okay ?  ’ ( half-asleep txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘ here’s the plan, i don’t have class today sooooo maybe we go to the river or somethin’ ?? it’s nice and warm day and i was thinkin it could be fun. you in or what ??  ’ ( happy txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘ look i’m srry, ik i fucked up. idk what else you want me to do ? i’m trying to be better, i really am. but it’s hard,. i can’t just flip the switch so easily, it takes time. i understand, if you are still upset with me, but at least know that i’m making an effort to change.  ’  ( apologetic txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  here’s a picture of my notes you missed from last class.  ‘ ( mean’t for someone else txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  welp, i’m awake now. soo i guess it’s time to just spam you with txts right? i mean it’s not like ur trying to sleep or anything. soo might as well just keep pressing send button. bc i have NOTHING better to do. i’m bored. pls send help. might die.  ’ ( early morning txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  ya’know if you let me come over, you wouldn’t regret it ;)  ’  ( late night txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  idk i feel just feel miserable and i can’t make the feeling go away. i just wish i knew how to get rid of this shitty feeling but i don’t. i just want to drink till i can’t remember my own name. forget about everything i’ve been through. i’m srry, i don’t like want to burden u with my shit. it’s not fair to u.  ’ ( unsent txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  i woke up from another nightmare, can u pls come over ?? i can’t stop shaking, and i just need u rn.  ’ ( scared txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘   hardin get ur ass here now, someone broke into my room and idk what to do.  ’ ( urgent txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  if it’s something u want to do, then go for it. who am i to judge. it seems like it’d be fun anyways.  ’ ( supportive txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  y do u like watching me in pain  ??  wtf did i do to u that made u think “hmm y’know what’ll make my day… hurting my gf’s feelings” god ur just sooo !!!!! ugh gfy.  ’ ( hateful txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘  y am i a fuck up ? y can’t i just have a normal life like everyone else. i just want a loving family. one that accepts me. i just don’t know what to do with my life anymore. and i can’t stop crying. dhfhftekjwbfkj i’m life is a goddamn mess.  ’  ( sad txt )[ angel  →  hardin ]  :   ‘ i’m srry i just can’t do this in person. i guess you could call me a pussy bc of it but i just can’t. i’m leaving washington and i’m going back home. too much is going on rn and i just can’t deal with all of it. i’m srry i didn’t tell you sooner but i couldn’t see the look on ur face once i told u. u deserve better. i enjoyed what we had but i have to leave this place. idk i guess what i’m trying to say is, goodbye hardin. a part of me will always love you.  ’

#afterher #fuck man #that was rough #i love it so much #fuewgui3g!!! #( angel : interaction )

[cyn-the-bartender]

Day 5:

I’m actually writing mostly about yesterday because I got called into work early and didn’t get home til LATE! But I’ll get to work shortly…

First… this is what I awoken to this morning..,

Yup a winter freaking wonderland for sure! Yeah, I know, I live in New England and snow happens, but I do NOT have to like it. And being the saucy bitch with the “fuck it” attitude that I am, I drive a Fiat and it sucks ass in the snow. I technically open the bar at 11am but my bosses were both like, “get here when you can”… plus I know my morning regulars will be digging themselves out as well so I’m figuring as long as I’m there by 1pm I’ll be good! It’s my double shift today (also my mega money day) so I’m not sweating two hours. The real debate is to drive or to Uber? $15 Uber ride versus $500 deductible if I crack up my car… ??? I’ll see what the conditions are like closer to the time I need to leave. I hate not having my car but the thought of something happening to Francesca (my Fiat) is gut wrenching!

She doesn’t look like this but you get the point… she’s pretty badass other than in the snow… convertible too!!!

Anywho… so yesterday. Good day! Diet on point… made it to the gym and did the recumbent bike which I surprisingly did well on and actually broke a sweat! I felt it last night at work but no pain no gain right?

Work was interesting. I did a 4pm - 1am shift and my first night shift “sober”. Thursday nights a crew of old friends typically come in and I’ll be honest… Thursday and Friday nights usually are the ones I’ll indulge in my beloved Jagermeister. But not last night. Despite repeated offers to buy me a shot, snide comments and looks of awe… I stood my ground and worked the entire shift only drinking water!

Not gonna lie… I was BEYOND tempted!!! The internal battle was epic…

Bad me: “One shot won’t hurt”

Good me: “Fuck you”

Bad me: “What you mean is fuck being sober”

Good me: “No one shot leads to six shots!”

Bad me: “You’re weak!”

Good me: “I am no doubt weak but not tonight!”

Good me prevails!!!!

Fucking proud of myself because truthfully I am weak… especially where drinking is involved!

My one “friend” actually had the audacity to say, and I quote, “I don’t like you like this.”

<insert evil GFY glare>

To which I replied, and I quote, “Well I don’t like me when I’m hungover, exhausted, everything hurts and I want to lay in bed all day!”

They responded with something to the effect of “oh sorry, don’t mind me I’m 3 Corona’s deep.”

Yeah, yeah, yeah… thanks for the support asshole!

I knew this wouldn’t be easy and honestly I’ve struggled with the “I won’t be a FUN bartender anymore if I don’t have a drink or two”.

Fuck that… I’m more fun and a billion times better Bartender! I made more tips last night than ANY previous Thursday night shift… so one Corona induced bullshit comment can fuck off and die hard!

So yeah cross that off my list… sober me is a better me for ME and the ones I truly love and who truly love me! And if I were to be honest… the urge is more habitual than need! I loved waking up at a decent time this morning (despite getting home at 1:40am) and not dragging my ass up to face a double shift where I’d end up drinking again. I think about it now and my reaction is…

I don’t want that life anymore…

So yeah here’s to facing another new glorious (minus the buttload of the white shit) day! Gonna have a great shift because the hood news is the snow is supposed to stop around 1pm and everything is shut down and everyone is off so this afternoon/evening could be VERY lucrative!!!

Happy Friday!!! ❤️❤️❤️

~C~

#health & fitness #healthy life happy life #over 50 #idgaf #living sober #sober bartender #bartender life

[fuck-customers]

Watch Repair Girl. Again.

I had two customers recently(one technically wasn't even a customer) that honestly deserved to get smacked. Hard. I was alone at the time when this lady came up. Conversation went a little something like this: Customer: Hello! I need a band, please Me: Sure -takes watch to measure the casing- Customer: ..Um, how about you show me what you have before you start taking the band off and screwing it up? Me: -trying to hold back a string of curse words that would detail my 8 fucking years of experience- Um, yeah. I'm trying to measure it. You know, so I can show you what we have in the correct size you need. Important step Customer: -visibly turning red- ...Oh. Uh. Right, of course Me: Yeah -slams book down a little too hard- And then I tell her the price. $26.95 Customer: Oh, wow. I don't think it was that much last time Me: Our bands recently went up, so that's very likely. Sorry Customer: -whips a receipt out of fucking no where like some kind of birthday party magician- I ONLY PAID 13.45 LAST TIME!! Me: ....That's for a battery Customer: It is not!! -reads the receipt- It's for a-......a.......um. Me: Battery Customer: ............What was the total? Me: $28.84 After that she attempted to laugh it off like she hadn't been a psycho and when I did not laugh she had enough sense to say thank you and be off. I'm damn sure we will never see her again. And then the second guy... Imma set the scene for you. There I am, sitting in the food court with a Lunchable™ and a cup of juice like a fourth grader and I see a dude approaching me. Hesitantly, I pull out my headphone. Dude: Excuse me? Me: yea? Dude: What size battery does my hearing aid take? Me: Um. I don't know, dude Dude: Well, can you look? Me: No -points at my lunch- Dude: Rude! ...Also, I need my gps calibrated Me: Um, that's nice Dude: Are you going to do it? Me: No -again, points to my lunch- Dude: Why not?! Me: I'm in the food court, not on the clock and we don't even do that. You need a computer Dude: Don't you have a computer down there?! Me: No Dude: This is ridiculous! -storms off- All while my fingers are all cheesy from my Lunchable™. GFY, dude These are the days I wish I didn't have to leave my house

#submissions #fuck customers #fuck retail #submission

[charlesjening]

Should You Retake a CPA Exam Section or Move On to Another If You Failed?

Well lookie here, we have a mailbag question! Boy it’s been a long time since I’ve had the joy of answering one of these. Let’s jump right into it.

Hi,

I failed audit with a 63. I have Bec and far passed which doesn’t expire until 3/31/2020. I cannot take audit until April-June testing window. Should I study regulation? Or should I continue studying audit. I am hurt right now and lost all my prior confidence.

Failure sucks for everyone, but there’s a bright side here: you failed hard. Bear with me, this is potentially a good thing. Imagine how much worse you’d feel if you failed with a 74? That’s like an interception at the 2-yard line. At least with a 63 you know victory wasn’t so close that you could taste it. I hope that’s some mild consolation, although I understand if it isn’t and I only made you feel worse (sorry, bruh).

Now, to your question. Although a 63 may feel pretty bad, there’s another bright side here: It’s honestly not that bad.

Where you go from here is entirely up to you, and there are pros/cons to each path. Let’s address those choices now.

Forget AUD and move on to REG

When you’re hurting over a failure, sometimes a fresh start is just what’s needed. Before embarking on this path, ask yourself if REG is your strong suit. I can tell you from my days in CPA review that REG was my least favorite subject, and I would often find myself drifting off in class as my boss covered Schedule A, B, C, D, GFY. So if it were me, the prospect of that shit after a failure would be like covering myself in honey and poking a fire ant nest while listening to Barry Manilow and eating cantaloupe (I fucking HATE cantaloupe). But hey, maybe you like tax, in which case moving on might be a good idea. You can fully move on from your failure and potentially get a confidence boost by destroying that section.

Stick with AUD and get it over with while it’s in your mind

This is the path I’d recommend as the information is still fresh in your mind. A 63 shows that you get the concepts, you just need to refine your understanding. Maybe supplementing your review materials with something different like flashcards or audio would help. Of course, you will definitely have to start your studying from scratch, but the benefit here is that for some of the concepts, you’ll only be solidifying what you already know. Put in enough time and effort and you can definitely get it over with on the next try. April/June seems really far away, but that gives you two solid months to study.

Whichever path you choose, it’s important to remind yourself that the CPA exam is hard. If it were easy, everyone would do it. Almost half of the AUD exams taken last year ended in failure. HALF! So you’re in good company and shouldn’t let this roadblock make you feel like a total loser. Just in case you need a little extra inspiration, check out this story of a candidate who failed FAR not once, not twice, not three times, but FOUR times and finally passed.

The reality here is that you can choose either path and get the same result as the end as long as you stay motivated and keep your goal in mind. On that note, you have another option: take a short break, put the study materials away, reboot, and pick it back up in a month or two when you’re in a new headspace. You’re halfway there with a year to spare, so if you need a little time to yourself, that’s entirely OK. Just, you know, be sure a few weeks doesn’t turn into a few years or, in the case of a former student of mine, 30. You got this.

Do you have a CPA exam question for us? Or just need to complain about how we haven’t changed our default CPA exam post image since 2015? Hit us up.

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#Technology #Finance

[insanelycooljk]

tell me about "tcp crew gets into BIG legal trouble" !!!

send me the title of one my deh wips and I’ll share an excerpt/tell you a little bit about it

I haven’t got anything actually written for this one yet, but essentially the idea is Evan/Alana/Jared being forced to reconcile when the truth gets out about The Connor Project

It’s been about year since Evan told the Murphy’s the truth/The Connor Project fell apart. Jared and Alana are in their first year of college and Evan’s working

All three of them kind of just... ignored each other through out the rest of school. Jared and Evan still see each other occasionally if their parents catch up but it’s awkward and they never really talk.

Jared’s enjoying college. It’s not quite the complete fresh start from high school he was hoping for, but he’s making a genuine effort to be nicer and he’s met a few people that he could maybe consider friends. He’s more than content to leave The Connor Project (and Evan) in the past, and never think about either of them again

That is until one day he sees #TheConnorProject trending on Twitter again

His blood runs cold. He just wants to leave all the guilt and hurt of that awful year behind. But of course he has to know what’s going on.

A twitter thread posted by a conspiracy theory account has gone viral. The thread claims that The Connor Project was a hoax, that Evan and Connor were never truly friends. It quotes inconsistencies between Evan’s speech and the emails Alana shared as evidence. Supposedly the account owner has a friend of a friend of a friend who went to Connor’s school, who backs up the claim saying that Connor and Evan actually hated each other, and that Evan is a compulsive lair.

The thread goes as far as to claim that the money raised for the project never even went towards the Orchard, but rather Evan kept it for himself.

The comments and related tweets are NOT good. People actually seem to believe it. Or at least parts of it, some people take the conspiracy a little out of control. There’s a very small, but passionate group of people claiming that Connor’s death wasn’t a suicide at all, and that Evan killed him and made TCP to deal with the guilt.

Which... is obviously ridiculous but hey that’s the internet for you.

But the general consensus seems to be that The Connnor Project was a fraud and that Evan and Connor were never friends.

Obviously Jared is freaking out. Like, they could get in serious trouble for this. People are angry and there was a lot of money involved in the fundraiser. Fuck and he was supposedly the treasurer. He hasn’t had anything beyond polite but strained small-talk with Evan since their gfy fight, but what else is he supposed to do? They need to work out a plan, so he calls Evan.

Evan doesn’t answer because Alana’s beat him too it.

Alana is mortified. She obviously had her suspicions towards the end of the show, but a part of her didn’t want to believe it. She’s absolutely furious that Evan’s dragged her into this mess, because everyone online is assuming that she was in on the con too. And who’s going to believe her when she says that she didn’t know? Alana’s worked so hard her whole goddamn life to do well in school and get into her dream college and be successful, and now it’s all going to come crashing down because of Evan fucking Hansen. She tells him as much, and Evan is a spluttering, apologising mess.

“I...I need to call Jared,” he chokes out. God and Alana just feels her blood boil because “he was in on this too, wasn’t he!”

She swears she could kill them both.

I’m thinking it’s pretty close to winter or summer break when this starts going down. So Alana and Jared both plan on coming home from break and they all agree that they need to catch up and work out a plan.

And boy is it awkward. There is so much tension and they’re all furious at each other.

But mostly they’re just scared. They really have no idea what to expect or even what they’ve actually done. Is the project fraud? They still spent the Kickstarter money exactly how they said they would, but people might not have been as willing to donate if they didn’t believe Evan was Connor’s best friend. Does that make it obtaining money under false pretences? Are the backdated emails considered forgery? Are they going to go to jail?

The whole meet up is kind of a diasaster and they keep arguing about everything, but they can all agree on one thing: they need a lawyer.

Now I haven’t decided yet but I have toyed with the idea of them reaching out to Larry, although I’m not sure whether or not he’d help them.

But anyway the uproar online has prompted a police investigation. Evan insists that he takes full responsibilty, say Jared and Alana had absolutely nothing to do with it.

Jared agrees that they need to make sure Alana doesn’t get in trouble, but he feels kind of bad letting Evan take all of the blame. Sure, Evan is the one who blew this mess out of proportion, but Jared did tell Evan not to tell the Murphy’s the truth, and he did do all the backdating of the emails.

He doesn’t express his guilt about letting Evan take all of the blame though, just nods and agrees.

Unfortunately that plan goes to shit because Evan’s anxiety is understandably through the roof during his interview with the police and he slips up.

They ask Evan how he backdated the emails and of course he has no fucking clue but he promised Jared he wouldn’t let him get into shit, so Evan’s stammering and is just like “uhh, um we-“ and then makes up some bullshit and the police are just like “...we?” 🤔

Which leads to Evan promptly going oh FUCK and probably having a panic attack.

So anyway, the rest of the fic would follow the legal process/trial, and focus on Evan/Alana/Jared forgiving each other and reconciling and becoming closer friends than they ever were before this whole mess.

I’ve put this wip on hold for the moment because I was doing so much research trying to work out the legal stuff, and honestly it just made me even more confused lmao. But once I figure out what they could actually be charged with, the potential consequences if found guilty, and how a trial works I’d definitely like to finish this one :)

#tcp crew gets into BIG legal trouble #deh #evan hansen #alana beck #jared kleinman #answered #zoe writes #deh wips prompt