#fuckin YES YOU LITTLE SHIT

[sidetongue]

oh look, he returns

#he appeared out of nowhere and completely submerged himself #all hot and exhausted #tongue lolling out #and he gave me that shifty look #like 'ok am i going back on lead now?' #fuckin YES YOU LITTLE SHIT #YOU ARE #moby #side tongue #dogs #harold #manny #budgie

[tradingjack]

cringefail late valentine's day posting some rushed kiss studies bc I worked like 36 of the past 72 hours yippee

and I STILL can't draw kissimg this shit haaard how yall do it 😭😭

#and let me tell ya!! kids will not!! stop!! fuckin!! bein!! sick as FUUUCK!!!!! #like just BE HEALTHY for a LITTLE BIT you little shits (affectionate but exhausted) #posted this earlier after trying to type out tags for like 4 hours to get it out on time and. #it didnt matter i posted to the Wrong Fucking Blog anyway #ik it's practice. almost put a period after 'and i STILL cant draw' lmao but. that's not nice #tag time bc fuck it. if im gon post this shit #trigun #trimax flavored but who cares #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vash x wolfwood #vashwood #drawing #artists on tumblr #my art #fanart #ooooh using my skills for crimge bc it makes me happy ooooooh #yes i was too lazy to shade the arm. i'll do it later im fuckin tired #wip #i'll also say hey it's already leagues better than the last time i tried lol. prolly cause i used a ref #kudos to you if you recognize which reference pics i used. eat a chocolate for me if you do lol

[jubmato]

Hello!! Cutting right to the chase here – I have attempted to create a Discord server for still-interested DSMP fans! It’s intended to be a chill, creatively-geared space for individuals who are (mostly) normal about these characters. It’s been a backburner project of mine for a little bit now, but I think I’ve gotten everything I’d like to have settled, settled, so I’m attempting to release it to the public!

The server offers a couple different things, to begin with. We’ve got:

Automatic and manual moderation

Pluralkit

Off-topic (general stuff) and on-topic (DSMP-centric) chats, separated into their own categories

Off-topic and on-topic art and writing channels

And a flexible variety of other channels, such as areas for discussing AUs, theories, headcanons, and character analysis!

Basically, just a place to hang out and chat about the DSMP -- because it may be 4 years old now, but by God, some of us are still kickin’!

If this sounds interesting to you at all, even just a little bit, please give in to your demons and join. I promise I will keep things oh so normal and not insane. Link will be below the cut, if your interest has been caught!!

#dsmp #dream smp #mcyt #dsmp discord #dsmp server #dsmp discord server #boy i sure hope those tags dont doom me #what else can i add. just in case. uhhh #dream smp discord #dream smp server #dream smp discord server #fuckin. idk dawg ive never had to promo a discord server on tunglr before #c!inniters pspspspspsps please i want you here #ALSO!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DSMP #I DIDNT REALIZE IT HAD PASSED UNTIL I CHECKED THE TAG A LITTLE BIT AGO #CANT BELIEVE I MISSED THAT SHIT!!! #anyways. yes come join my server boy. i have been modding a large server for 11 months now i prommy i know what im doing

[sluckythewizard]

so uhh i DID start writing again but this time its w my Riptide Cowboy Au Thats Also Just An Animorphs Au. here check out this very small bit of it. (under the cut is an OLD doodle page that i made based around this idea)

#ITS AN ANIMORPHS AU BABY AND THAT MEANS THAT THERES YEERKS BABY OOH YEAH #I LOVE YEERKS THEYRE JUST LITTLE SLUGS THAT CRAWL INTO YOUR BRAIN #im very happy w my descriptions in this lil snippet. i hope it comes across as scary as i wish it to be #im also still very happy w this doodle page. check out chip he has a pickaxe earring now #jay also comes from an airforce family. instead of RAFT its called CRAFT #yknow like air craft. teehee. also instead of the planet o MANA im thinkin o calling it either LIFE or STAMINA #yknow like how ina game u have ur health bar n mana bar n you get what i fuckin mean #OKAY AND ILL ALSO MAKE A CONFESSION. I HAVNT READ ANIMORPHS SINCE ELEMENTRY SCHOOL #IVE BEEN MEANING TO READ IT AGAIN. BUT IT STILL HAD SUCHAN IMPACT ON ME I THINK I REMEMBER ENOUGH #i wont be following any Exact canon of animorphs bc yknow what this is a different planet. or somethingm #yes i DO plan on giving the trio the power to morph #and yes i DO plan on making C.R.A.F.T entirely infiltrated by yeerks. jays dad is especially taken already #ayvas also been taken for a very very long time. even before she died #im thinking edyn in this au would also be taken. teehehee. her and her yeerk work together tho maybe #OOH lizzie is out there also. running w a big n awesome caravan of bandits. caspian is an alien but im not sure what kind yet #yknow whjat i could inject whatever wacky alien shit i want in this au. my world. my world. my world. #anyway if u feed me ideas i might eat them. i might eat them. i feel so fuckin possessed tofay #EVERYTHING IS SO DARK HEEEEEL[P!!! HELP MEEE!!! HEEEEELLP!!!!!!!!!

[good-wine-and-cheese]

Gambling Apocalypse Tenma AU

As I rewatch Kaiji I inevitably end up wanting to combine show I like with other show I like and stuffing fav characters into show. So here we are.

This was uh going to be a short summary type thing but I accidentally wrote a novella about it sorry

This AU starts off with a much more depressive Tenma. After Tobio's death, rather than immediately pour his grief into developing a robot version of his son, he recedes into himself, psychologically paralyzed, likely turning to alcohol to drown out his anguish.

His mental state is taken as an opportunity within the Ministry of Science to have him ejected from his position; Tenma was never the most well-liked director, and there were those with ambition to usurp him that would jump at the chance. Not that he especially cares in his state.

He's eventually dragged out of his stagnation by Ochanomizu - who, inadvertently, becomes the very catalyst pushing Tenma to develop a robot replacement to his child. This was not what he meant by encouraging Tenma to fill the void left by his son.

...But, well, he is no longer the director of the Ministry of Science. His access to limitless government funds and resources for "scientific research" has been cut off, and this is a project he cannot finance on his own. He can't ask Ochanomizu for help, but...interestingly...a representative of a certain shady organization known as the Teiai Corporation reaches out to him, offering to finance and support his project. A sane and well-minded Tenma might think better of it, but grieving and desperate, Tenma accepts their offer and is able to create a robot in the image of his beloved Tobio. For a while, there's joy in his life.

But the bill, as ever, comes due: Tenma must pay up, and the very resources that had been at his disposal will certainly ensure that he will, or else. Of course, he doesn't have the money; instead, he is given a choice. He can relinquish the robot Tobio in order to wipe out his debt - the child is a sophisticated and powerful robot, after all - or he can participate in a certain illicit event hosted by the Teiai Corporation.

It's nothing major...just a four-hour gambling cruise with a collection of desperate, damned souls that were also swept into debt with Teiai. The conditions are simple: Those who choose to participate are given a chance to clear their debts wholesale should they win. And should they lose...?

Well...no one really knows what happens to the losers seized by Teiai. It's said that they labour away their debts under Teiai's watchful eye and are freed once their work has covered their debts, though it's rumoured that most perish before they reclaim freedom.

There's only one answer Tenma can give, of course; he's not willing to lose Tobio again.

Thus is Tenma's debut into the Gambling Apocalypse, where he must become cutthroat in order to survive; if he wants to see his son again, he must make choices that will doom the hapless to miserable servitude, with a nonzero chance it ends in their death.

He survives the cruise, but of course, it was hardly enough to clear his debt; the cruise was never going to be the end of it. Teiai doesn't let go of its victims that easily. He will be called on again: this is a weight that hangs over him, all while he returns to his son Tobio. The same hands that have pushed innocents into hell must now be the hands that can embrace his child.

He wants to protect Tobio from the truth and enjoy what peaceful moments he's allowed with his son, but it's difficult. It's difficult to be the parent of a child who cannot understand the danger that looms ahead; this "happy" home is not to last. Tenma angers quickly and easily. He turns that anger onto Tobio.

As Teiai's games become more and more vicious and unrelenting, as his conscience holds onto the last vestiges of thread that remain, Tenma even threatens, once, to give the boy in: it would all end, then; the debt would be clear and no longer would he have to endure Tobio's childish annoyances, his ungratefulness.

The next time that Tenma is beckoned, Tobio takes matters into his own hands. He does understand, now; and he would have, if only Tenma had bothered to explain sooner. If it's a debt that needs clearing, he will work. He will help his father clear his debts however he can. Of course, it's difficult to find work as a child; but a circus troupe finds amusement in the idea of a child robot, and takes him in. He is whisked into a certainly unpleasant working situation, but he remembers his father, and what he must be enduring. Tobio, also, will endure.

When Tenma returns, Tobio is gone.

All that held Tenma back from becoming something monstrous has disappeared. All that kept him going has disappeared. When he is called upon by Teiai, there is no knowing what sort of person might come out the other end; whether a monster clawing his way to freedom regardless of what actions he must take, or a desolate husk surrendering defeat.

There is still a light, however dim: Found by Professor Ochanomizu and rescued from the circus, Tobio - now Atom - is able to shed light on the situation which Tenma took great pains to keep hidden from his old friend. With time running out, Ochanomizu and Atom must do what they can to save Tenma - from Teiai, and from himself.

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UHHH and that's a wrap!!!! I couldn't quite decide which way Tenma would go after hitting Rock Bottom in this AU, and tbh it would really depend on the kind of mental state he's in at the time. On the one hand I like the narrative of Ochanomizu and Tobio racing to prevent Tenma from crossing a line (actual outright murder probably) - or having to pull him back into humanity (and yknow, his ensuing penance)

But on the other hand having him get sent to Teiai Evil Hell Prison would be interesting because a) there's a lot of narrative potential having Tenma faced with what Teiai is doing with the people that lose the games and b) need him to decimate the foreman at chinchirorin Kaiji style

Tenma's whole character is definitely a much different guy in this AU, he starts off pretty sympathetic, the guy you wanna root for, he just ends up having an inverse character arc where he gets worse instead of better. His conflict with "Tobio" is also kind of reversed, less about being unsatisfied with Tobio as a son and more not being able to handle the fact that he probably has intense PTSD now and isnt capable of coping with it in a way conducive to being a parent (or like, coping at all)

Anyway that's gambling apocalypse tenma!!!

#umataro tenma #long post #well that became a novel. sorry lmao #in my mind teiai's evil hell prison in astro boy verse would probably be quite a bit different than regular kaiji #like. fuckin. weapons manufacturing for teiai or something like that. or scary bad danger robots. horrifying concept #Tenma would be a valuable asset to them whether by giving up Atom or by losing in death game hell and being forced to work for em #and if he dies? they can just take atom #get him out of there. #I'm also thinkin of who Teiai would be represented by.....the snakey loan sharks u could easily put skunk in there. #but who is an evil fucked up sadist billionaire. theres probably someone who could be fucked up enough I just dont know offhand #and im allergic to mischaracterizing in AUs lol im not gonna make a slightly bad guy into an evil freakguy. so. Hyoudou is just himself. #if you squint this could be considered an 80s astro boy AU..has a cruise arc & not actually giving atom away #but man. that tenma LEAST of all deserves this fate lmao #do I want to write fic of this? yes. will I? not likely! #I can just smell it dude this would be some crazy fuckoff 100k shit I am not ready brother #also it would just be soooooo so so so so so edgy. I dont really enjoy writing intensely grim stuff w/ little to no respite #also tbh. I am too stupid. LOL. I cannot write clever gambles alas

[toytulini]

Okay i have yet to see a post about this that isnt filled with ppl being Annoying as Fuck on it, but,

theyve found wreckage of the submersible, it imploded (thank god, thats better than a drawn out suffocation over the course of several days, implosion means it was pretty much instantaneous) and the us navy have revealed they heard a weird sound on sunday from about where communication with the sub was lost, that was probably the sound of the implosion, [implied that they didnt say anything cos they didnt want to jump to conclusions without evidence of a wreckage, if there was a chance they were still alive.] no idea what the banging sounds were.

I do hope rescue efforts are extended to the migrants off the coast of greece, and am angry and horrified at their mistreatment, and that the media clearly cares less for their fates than that of the billionaires on the sub.

also, while i have you here,

The difference between a submersible and a submarine is not that one is safer. The titan was a submersible that was unsafe, but that is not because it was a submersible.

A submarine (or sub) is a watercraft capable of independent operation underwater.

A submersible is a watercraft designed to operate underwater, usually supported by a nearby surface vessel, platform, shore team or sometimes a larger submarine.

submarines generally dont go as deep as our deepest submersibles, but some can be down there for months at a time bc it is like. a self sufficient Ship. not all submersibles can go crazy deep, but to my knowledge, the only crewed vessels that can go that deep, are submersibles. (Alvin, deepsea challenger, limiting factor, trieste, fendouzhe or "striver").

#toy txt post #titan submersible #if ppl start being annoying on this post. ill turn off reblogs and block all of you. make your own post. #reblog the other ones where people are already being annoying #yes i hate billionaires. but im glad it was a quick death. it was a horrific situation. hope those migrants are given support and help. #i hope oceangate is fined to hell and back and bankrupted and never gets to put anyone in any sort of vehicle ever again #especially not in the ocean. im a little glad that ceo is dead in his own stupid sub im just frustrated he was able to take other ppl with #him. the fact that he was able to operate that unregulated non safety standard meeting ass vehicle and charge people money to ride in it is #fucking insane and unconcioable however you spell that #and now i need to go shower real quick and try to get like. a little over 3hrs of sleep. which will suck but i did accidentally nap for #like? 2 hrs already so it doesnt suck as bad as it could. goodnight please dont be stupid on this post please please please #if you have a hot take on the situation im begging you to hot take it Some Where Else! thank you! good bye #im not gonna bother linking shit feel free to fact check just fuckin. google titan submersible. James Cameron is tossing his 2 cents in now #saw 2 separate articles on that already. thats fine i guess he has been down there in safer vehicles so i guess he can shit talk how unsafe #it is. anyway. saw someone in the comments of a post say it was a submersible bc it was too unsafe to be a submarine and i wanted to start #screaming. thats not what those fucking words mean! at all! god! #irl death #idk what else to tag #behave. bye

[soldier-poet-king]

Stop talking down to me just because I'm young challenge!!!!

I'm friendly and accommodating and shrug everything off with a self effacing smile and a laugh because it's polite, and I need to be liked in the workplace, and it keeps me from screaming about how stupid and disorganized a lot of this shit is and from being extremely critical of my superiors (which is everyone else in the office), NOT because I'm stupid and don't know how things are supposed to be

#the duality of fran #like i dont think its necessarily on purpose #but its SO fuckin annoying #yes i am young in this workplace #im not fuckin stupid thi #tho* #think of the user she says. yeah obvs i understand basic uxd. BETTER THAN YOU DO #i was simply clarifying smthn bc everything here is done stupid and ass backwards #so its literally the least logical not intuitive #excuse me for being like. hey is this how this is organized #bc i think its stupid!!!! so my options are to ask nicely or say hey this is a piece of shit system #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH #im being a little unfair perhaps #but litcherally. im not stupid ok. im young that doesnt mean idk how offices function #maam..maam. the only area i need more experience is my actual profession #i understand basic workplace habits. BETTER THAN MOST OF THE CLOWNS HERE #whine whine whine

[knightlas]

“”newly acquired soulsword”” im just gonna start shaking moon knight 2099 until the secrets fall out i think

#howd they acquire the soulsword jeannie. little more plot? spare some plot? just a little sippy #sorry for saying just a little sippy plot is a well and it is dry #fellas is it gay to remove someones demon and banish it to the moon with a soulsword you ‘acquired’ through vague means #fellas is it gay to be a ‘big fan’ of spider-man 2099 (sources say yes) (im gay) (im the gay sources) (shit) #dont like how unshiny they made her suit in her second ever appearance btw. bring her armor back cowards. cowards #sliney take fuckin notes (years after the comic came out) #happy pride month the comic came out haha. hahahaha. im gonna maul something why isnt it friday yet #whatever i dont even care (i am haunted by visions) atsv is just a movie (destroy destroy destroy) #i almost tagged tabitha by the surname i had to pick for her like that would mean anything #similar spirit to when i looked her up by name and got aurprised nothing came back #tabitha dimalanta #i will not be elaborating (unless… z no no i shant #mk2099 #comic panels #sm2099 #im not gonna tag the main tag directly this isnt abt him <3 #it kind of is thoug)h. hi miguel sorry sbt the white suit jeannie was right #keep in mind moon knight 2099 was awesome and couldve been more awesome until orlando got in the drivers seat #went from space armor she/they with a big sword on the moon to tictac fresh mints. immeasurable loss

[sanguith]

i'm glad i decided to try out a ketosis diet again (aka changing my metabolism to basically only use ketone bodies made from fatty acids for energy by reducing carb intake to max 20g/day) for a few weeks because it was a neat experiment but i'm also glad I decided to stop because now i get to enjoy life's greatest fucking simplest yet finest delicacy: mashed potatoes/sweet potatoes with melted butter and salt. i cannot understand how i could live without that. just. vegetables. keto has opened my eyes to new ways to cook foods and experiment with ingredients but i don't think i can live without carbs. i doubt that the majority of people could. also have you any idea how much good simple near-zero effort food there is out there like holy gosh darn in heaven. i don't have to spend hours cooking something to have a nice meal

#food mention #diets #actually anything carb with butter and salt. how can it be so good. call me a lazy goob but i once just microwaved corn and butter #added salt. and it was the most delicious fuckin thing ive ever eaten #i've done low-carb in the past and tried keto a few times and always it felt so great after the keto flu disappeared after a few days #but this time the keto flu did not go away. i felt so weak and awful but at the same time i had less brain fog. and never felt hungry. #but it was werid. i think it might have been because i've been kinda high carb for the last few years and the change was so strong & sudden #also electrolyte imbalances can happen on keto if you're not careful. it's complex. #anyway it got me to eat a bit healthier like (almost) completely avoiding processed foods and unnaturally high sugary stuff #which i just want to generally avoid for personal health reasons which is a whole can of worms but i just dont want to overindulge #sure i can eat an entire bag of candies or chips in an evening if i feel like it but I *feel* my body just being like “nooo” and sure enoug #the next morning i do feel a little bit extra like shit #and another thing: i think i benefit from abrupt diet changes now and then. it feels natural in a way. ye olde scavenger hunter genetics #ya know. our nomadic ancestors would probably have to do that a lot when things weren't year-round available #sometimes only meat for months on end in cold seasons/areas #sometimes basically only plants and nuts roots and seeds and stuff #it's actually remarkable how human metabolism can adapt so much depending on what's available to eat #sometimes fasting for days when food was just nowhere to be found. #i'm not saying “stress your metabolic system it's good for you'” (it probably isnt) just idk. mixing it up a bit at least works for me #btw disclaimer i HATE the whole thing about diet-pressuring and some people claiming that certain diets will solve everything #it doesn't solve all health problems magically. ”"”superfoods“”“ are not a 100% faultless scientifically proven thing. #shit like ''the paleo diet is the number one key to optimal health without medications!!'' no. shut. #on the other hand i do believe diets can help a bit like a nudge. it's just one factor out of many that affects how we feel #ANYWAY conclusion: eat what you want. do what feels right for you. find your own ways to make the food you eat help your health a bit #or don't! be yourself! love yourself! #the chosen method is gonna be different for everybody #but from now on im gonna try and eat as close to natural unprocessed foods as I can in this day and age. it feels right for me somehow. #i think *my* preferred method/diet whatever is to mainly eat natural unprocessed foods and to mix it up a bit now and then with change #for that sweet ''METABOLIC ADAPTATION'' perk that feels good for me #(why did this post become so long. nobody cares. anyway i don't care if nobody cares. i care. *I* care!!! wooopp)

[orcelito]

completely unnecessary for you to say some random person looks like an 'entitled little shit' i don't agree with using ai for fic but like come on dude

Ok tell me something. Do you write? Produce art? Anything that you put your heart and soul into? Hours upon hours of work that you upload online For Free just for the love of it?

Now imagine someone taking that for granted & pretending like a bot could ever be able to replicate that heart & soul. Imagine that person looking so proud about it.

There are many things I could say that would be much more uncharitable, but I think "entitled little shit" gets the point across quickly and effectively without getting needlessly aggressive about it.

Hope this helps :)

#anonymous #ask #for real have you been on the internet at all in the past fuckin decade? 'entitled little shit' is TAME #im allowed to express frustration at someone being YES. ENTITLED. about the fic that people write. #i am a fic writer that has written hundreds upon hundreds of thousands of words #and EVEN IF i leave something years without an update. the fact that someone could take my work & pretend like a fucking bot #would ever produce anything like what i originally intended. it makes me LIVID!!!!!! #doesnt help that im already pissed off tonight lmfao but either way #tldr: fuck off dude

[b0nelessdoodles]

hehehehe silly goblin doodles from the year

#dungeons and dragons #dnd goblin #dnd character #goblins my beloved #they're just so fun to draw and color #thank you dm for letting them be colorful little guys 10/10 content #this post is actually just a collection of drawings showing that yes i ship tic with tear and gnash #which is very fun when you consider the fact that rip who is their leader is actually just a fragment of tic #very good content very fun very tasty i hope they can be friends later on #granted tic and gnash already get along well enough since he recognized and remembered who she was #and like man i just really need to gush about gnash more she's so fuckin' cool #tear is good too he makes me sad cause man he really was just gonna get killed by groll #until rip stepped in and was like “hey he could actually be a really good asset” #and tear saw that as “rip values me” when the truth was that rip only valued him as a weapon basically #as someone he could use to fight battles no matter how dangerous or deadly #anyway in the end uh here my lovelies have a silly little goblin who isn't gonna make you feel like shit or be scared! #tic maybe its better that uh you don't take rip back his vibes are horrid

[lindenmori]

maybe its linked to how the mbti thing turned out to be made up by eugenicists, and maybe also the monsther getting into some such pseudo psychological cultlike bullshit and trying to drag me down too, but i am automatically suspicious whenever theres some personality test that puts people into some kind of personality type role boxes. i feel like it immediately stunts further inspection.

and maybe if you, for example, feel the need to fix everyone and shoulder everyones problems, its not because you are some kind of predestined supportive angelic healer type whos meant for helping others, its more likely because you dont have firm boundaries and dont know how to say no, or maybe you had everything blamed on you and think everything is your responsibility, or something else. or if you often push all of your needs aside to plow through to your goal even to your own detriment its not because youre some destined trailblazer hero type. it might just be because you had someones ambitions dumped on you, and your needs were often disregarded and/or you were not treated as worthy unless you did these grand accomplishments, so you learned to disregard your own needs. or something else.

and if i, personally, for example, always daydreamed of different or better worlds, its not because i am some destined inspired visionary type. its because this world has been cruel to me so i have constantly yearned for better.

it might just be very human nature to try to end our confusion (and subsequent thinking, research and discovery) by putting the subject we are looking at in some convenient box, but this also makes us miss out on so much nuance and truth. life is unfortunately not an rpg and no one picked you a class.

#linden leaf rustling #eugenics mention #cult mention #coincidentally the person who introduced me to dnd alignments was also rly fuckin shitty and tried to justify some bad shit w that #all kinds of 'thats just the way you are by some deep nature' determinism kills any work on yourself and lets you justify whatever #(yes i am aware this is not how they r supposed to be used and that they Are in fact for characters in an rpg. he was just unhinged) #(but the actual set of boxes matters little tbqh. its the principle of sorting ppl into them.) #when i was a child i actually loved doing this kind of tests #i think it scratched something in my autism brain. #checking off the boxes answering the questions in this format #then hoping id get some universal truth about how everything in my life happens because i am a predestined blorbo bleebus #and someone else in my life is probably a predestined scrimblo bimblo #and have these easy steps to fix it all #but no thats not the way it is. youre not some simple stereotype. trying to fit us in boxes will be bullshit

[aftermathing]

I'm like. actively being abused at home. What do I even do about that.

#:// #Today she said I am disgusting and unapproachable and will never have friends or find love because I make everyone I meet uncomfortable #Because I don't shave my legs #When I told her I keep blacking out from my chronic pain she said 'that's a little dramatic' #When I told her I should probably go to the hospital for that she shushed me because she was trying to watch her fuckin. Fringe show #Always with the shushing. Every time I speak :(( #She said I should go out & do something and quit being so lazy. So i said I would ride my bike but the tire is flat #She said 'why are you so useless' :(( #When I was projectile vomiting for three days I told her I had a 104°F temperature and she said 'darn' #I asked if she wanted to watch Ponyo with me and she said 'oh my god I don't want to watch your stupid crap shit' #When I dropped a cup of gatorade and mopped it up (agony for chronic pain btw) she felt where it was still sticky and said #I'm so stupid and it's my fault we have ants (we do not have ants) #So I said 'yeah mommy I think my fine motor skills are getting worse I can't hold things or swallow very well' #She said 'have you tried paying attention??' :(((( #I told her I had a sunburn and it hurt and she said 'youre so needy' #I got beat up in middle school and I was crying about it and she said it was all my fault because I was annoying #I was also sexually assaulted that same week but after the way she responded to that I was not going to tell her #One time when we were at the doctor and checked yes for suicidal thoughts she started screaming and crying #About how much we hate her and think she is a bad mother and how ungrateful we are #If I read this list to her she would say I was making it up and trying to make her look like a bad evil person #Because she is!!! She insults and belittles me so much I genuinely wish she would just beat my ass instead #I'm 20 years old why are you talking to me this way #I know it's all verbal abuse but. I'm so fucking miserable I want to die living here #Oh wait one time she strangled my little sibling because they complained about finding blood in their can of tuna

[imwritesometimes]

ok. Just to show I'm not a complete asshole all the time. I am gonna fill out a polite little ~feedback~ form but. you all have got to understand. I've been dealing with agencies and companies and state departments almost my entire goddamn life. you almost never ever ever get anywhere when you go through the polite and established channels. but the second you get even a little upset in public down at the welfare office, well, they sure can find paperwork and documents and are able to remember rules a lot better.....

#just sayin........ #I'm not against proper forms and open discussion cause I'm a massive asshole bitch #it's that it rarely if ever fuckin works #do you know how many times I've had to get a little heated in say a rite aid just to get my mom the meds she needs to be alive #you know how many times I've had to get a little rough down at the benefits office and then suddenly OH! YES! THIS PAPERWORK! WE FOUND IT! #I think the staff on this site could receive 800 feedback messages an hour telling them how shitty every decision they've made #for the last 6 months is #and they would not fuckin care #idk what the solution is. can't ever get a majority of ppl on this website to agree on ANYTHING so like a mass log out day or protest #or anything like it isn't gonna work #but I 100000% believe just sending feeback forms is not gonna get us shit either #there has to be something else to do. cause it's not like this whole ignoring the userbase is a NEW thing #just the last couple months have been nothing but users complaining. and rightfully so. but we have been ignored. #so yeah. I'm tired of ~fill out the feedback forms~ cause it feels a lot like #please sit patiently and wait for your mom's meds we don't care if she's having severe seizures we have to call her dr #and make sure the RX is current but we can't find the Dr's phoke number no you may not give it to us #like I'll come over the counter bitch #erin explains it all

[skenpiel]

i found a great way to pass the time. get a really fucking bad tummyache :(

#i wonder if its fuckin. appendicis (AGAIN.) #‘skenp if you had appendicis before why didnt you get surgery while you were in the hospital??’ because they couldnt FIND the little SHIT #yes thgats right i had a team of fucking doctors poking at my guts trying to find my pos appendix and they were just like. well we give up #and i wonder if its back now bc it feels the same aka pain……. -_- #awesome that were also multiple hours away from the nearest hospital. not that its urgent but this shit hurts

[missiodine]

tfw you wanna try to play ttrpgs again, but ever since playing a few years ago during a certain two campaigns, you were bullied by people who you thought were your friends because you didn't know how to play and they made up reasons why they should dislike you irl. especially while you tried to be nice to them and give them space and tried to make steps towards interacting with them in rp too.

like no, it wasn't like "oh, it's just character interaction, these characters just don't like each other!" no it was "no joke, I absolutely hate your guts, Miss Iodine, fuck you and I'll be an arse to you in-game and irl. i will ignore everything you and your character say, i will attack your character because why not and say it's just what my character would do, and then start harassing my DMs"

love it when i tried for months to reach out for a proper sit down only to be given a sorry-not-sorry half-assed push the blame onto the victim apology

like yes this lives rent free in my head. you won, if that's what you wanted.

#autumn says stuff #vent #im still so fuckin salty even though its been so long #i just don't understand how people can treat others so terribly and not even think twice about it #never a moment of ‟maybe I did wrong?‟ #nah. just tell Miss Iodine ‟You're a problem‟ #yes that exact statement was said to me #maybe ‟bully‟ is a cliche word but i dunno what else to call it #like mate i've been nearly stabbed before during what i can only assume was an attempted hate crime. technically i did get hurt ig because #grabbed the knife by the blade as it was being thrusted towards me. i still have the said knife btw. wanna get free knife? just grab it #from your attacker. and then they'll run off because they're a little shit. actually don't do that. don't recommend that. okay so the point #is that yk ive been hurt physically many times but goddamn this situation still hurts emotionally #it was funny when said someone in this group told me i was 'appropriating neurodivergent culture.' mate. mate. wot. im how? #take it from me. im not neurotypical lmao. i thought that was obvious but no. no idea where this even stemmed from tbh because it really #came out of nowhere. also being called a fascist for years by these people for liking worldbuilding and star trek was cool. didn't realize #that fuckin reading old soviet books and playing papers please and minecraft makes me a fascist somehow. but you learned it here. #im still so fucking pissed about that accusation. love that their additional reasoning that im somehow a fascist was that #‟you're getting mad and keep insisting you're not a fascist‟ is proof that you're a fascist. what else am i supposed to do? you haven't #even given an ounce of some so-called mountain of evidence. #its cool that no one cared about what these people did to me. better to retain a friendship with them and never bring up what they did. #better to just alienate miss iodine from the friend group. better to never bring it up. better to forget any of this happened. better to #forget that miss iodine exists. #sometimes i wish i could know what its like to not give a flying fuck about other people. I wonder what it's like to be such a shitty perso #fucking hell. #thought i found home when i first met that group. instead it just reminds me of the home i grew up in. #My biological family (save two cool cousins) is probably a collection of some of the worst people in existence.