#fuck she has so many names

[gumdefense]

I just love her… so much. Iris I would do anything for you

#ace attorney #trials and tribulations #now how the fuck do I tag her #iris hawthorne #iris fey #sister iris #iris of hazakura temple #?? #she has too many names #but that is her right <3 #been thinking about her #i love iris sm you have no idea #i love her in the promo art for aa3 she’s so cute #the pics that look like dahlia actually are her it’s just the dating phoenix era #general my post tag

[peaches2217]

Okay, who kickstarted the return of the Mareach baby fever? Because I logically shouldn’t post even more Expectant/Parent Mareach when I literally just posted one such fic two days ago but DAMMIT NOW I’M IN A MOOD.

…in my defense, for all the crap I’ve posted, I still haven’t given my fankid a name. 😅

#I mean. she HAS a name! but it sucks and it’s corny as hell and everyone else’s fit a lot better #have y’all seen some of my fic titles? titles and names are NOT my strong suit #when I was 12 I made a fankid for tobe and jing-jing from pucca and I fucking named her DEBORAH #(all my love to the deborahs out there! it’s just… not a good name for the fankid of two korean-chinese characters. y’know) #I have only marginally improved in the fifteen years since then #also! remember that wip I posted last week that repeats the word ‘door’ like twenty-seven times in three paragraphs? #you guessed it! also an expectant mareach piece #then one about mario just tiredly babbling to his little girl to keep himself awake and peach eavesdropping because it’s the cutest thing #and then one where they debate whether firebrand will be passed onto their kids since it was a power gifted explicitly to mario #rather than innate magic passed through generations by birth like peach’s powers #and these are just the ones that I’ve got at least partially written. there’s so many more I keep coming up with and they all SUCK #heeeeeellllllppppp #peaches screams into the void

[ocpdzim]

what you’ve got to understand about working conditions in education (and also other care-oriented careers) is that if they’re shit, two things are true at once:

that does not ever excuse being cruel to a kid, no matter what

until those conditions are fixed, education will continue to suck absolute shit

this is because when working conditions for teachers are really bad, many of the good teachers who recognize when they are reaching a point where they can no longer be the sort of teacher the kids deserve due to burnout WILL quit. they will do the responsible thing and go away for their own sake and the sake of the kids. and you end up stuck w a combination of new teachers who are trying their best but won’t last long, burnt out teachers who are trying their best but have nothing left to give and therefore aren’t very effective at actually teaching, and cockroach shitheads who take out their misery on the kids.

we have all had terrible experiences with bad teachers, many of them flat out traumatic, but for fuck’s sake please try to look at the systemic underpinnings of the problem for one minute. spitefully declaring that teachers don’t deserve good working conditions or even the right to complain about bad working conditions because ms. whoever in 5th grade was a bitch is only going to create more of her. if you want good teachers then we need an education system they can survive in

#i get so irritated w the post where like. #95% of it is a good post and then at the end op is like WAAAHHH teachers are complaining about burnout on my post about a bad teacher #like yeah no shit. if the field of education wasnt so hostile to everyone who works in it maybe they could have found a better teacher to #replace that motherfucker with. and then she would not be there to bother the kids any more. #as someone who Has had traumatic experiences w bad teachers. #its scary enough walking into a field i know is pretty much built to chew new teachers up and spit us out #hoping to be able to survive it long enough to do some good and be the kind of teacher i needed as a kid #without people acting as though it is some sort of crime for teachers to want. like. basic human dignity at work and enough money to survive #even people who are nominally pro-workers rights #you guys have no fucking idea how bad the situation is in schools right now #the reason bad teachers didnt get fired perhaps USED to be tenure #but nowadays its the fact that its rare for a school to be fully staffed *at all* bc so many teachers quit or died #so they'll hire and keep absolutely fucking anyone simply because the alternative is No Teacher. and an empty classroom #full of kids who wont learn anything except that the system doesnt even care about them enough to put a teacher in the room. #i have gotten job offers ON SIGHT from principals who know nothing about me and im literally not even legally qualified to teach yet #like before even telling them my name lmao #and im sure everyone else in town who expresses any interest in teaching whatsoever gets the same.

[eveningrainstorm]

new unhinged girl just dropped

#kind of late to the party on this one but i didn't have time to draw her until yesterday #i'm very excited to see more of her. i hope she's fucked up <3 #we may only have one (1) screenshot of her but i see a woman who looks like she has something wrong with her and immediately am obsessed #your turn to die #yttd #uhhhhhhhh there isn't a name to tag her as is there. eh whatever #my art #she is really hard to draw though. like i love her enough to do it but man there is a lot going on in this design #so many ruffles. i need to find a faster way to draw convincing ruffles if i'm going to keep drawing her because this was far too many

[toastsnaffler]

in a hilarious turn of events my flatmate didn't even know I use any pronouns....

#i thought when she was talking abt how her parents thought i was gonna come out as trans and kept checking my name/pronouns- #that the joke was that im ALREADY trans but in ways they dont know abt.... but nope she genuinely didnt know 🤭 #to be fair. i dont rly let anyone in on my gender business unless we're close enough to be dating or its an anonymous online space #like im legally cis and thats fine. idc abt ppl using my name + she/her bc thats not my gender identity its just AN identity that i use- #to navigate the world without ppl being fucking nosy bc i pass as + am sociopolitically treated as a woman (if butch lol) #to ppl who are friends ill joke that my gender is dyke (true) and to friends whose gender falls on a similar spectrum- #or who are transmasc ill talk a little more honestly abt it bc theyre usually able to understand better than anyone else #other butch dykes w a weird gender going on are the only motherfuckers who actually Get It but theyre hard to come by tbh #to be frank i dont fucking know whats going on w my gender. and i dont rly care enough to do the introspection to figure it out rn #i have so many other problems in my life and im lucky that most of my beef w gender can be solved by presenting butch + binding #and using any pronouns around other queer ppl. its actually incredibly funny to me when ppl she/her me bc its like tch. this chump hasnt #unlocked my level of gender yet. pronouns and names in general are so far disconnected from the way i exist in the world... #its just smth thats fun for me to play around with + makes me feel weird sometimes but in ways i havent distilled yet yknow #and this has been my approach to gender for like?? 4-5 years now??? and likely will continue to be for a long while.. #anyway. its not actually that surprising my flatmate doesnt know bc shes cis so ive never felt compelled to have a deeper conversation #abt gender with her. but also i could sweeaaar its been mentioned bc almost all our other friends are trans lol #and also ive been introducing myself at queer sports socials w any pronouns and i swear i talked abt that w her..... whatever #and my pronouns are on discord and shes def seen my tumblr before but maybe i didnt have them in my bio at the time... i digress #i kind of prefer cis ppl she/hering me tbh. theyre not able to they them or he him or whatever else me in a way that matters..... #altho i do find it fascinating when she or other ppl elect to use neutral or masculine terms for me. raising an eyebrow and taking notes #like when she got a job and joked abt me being her househusband.. pulling up the fem/masc tally chart and chalking a line up #a la nona the ninth.... ive been trying to figure out whos inhabiting this body my entire fucking life with no luck girl #ANYWAY just smth to think abt. im so tired i think my brain is gonna start seeping out my eyeballs #im gonna watch some more pluto and read and then -> 🛌 #another 6:30 start tomorrow woohoo #.diaries #zzzzz

[fridayiminlovemp3]

tell me why my older english co worker just referred to one of the kids in our guide group as “that little oriental girl”

#i hate english people so much god bless #oriental is crazy like i almost gasped #SHE HAS A NAME LIKE USE HER FUCKING NAME #and like even if you forget someone’s name there’s so many other ways to refer to them #she also called another kid /that jewish girl who missed last week/ like hey bud just say the girl that missed last week #idk i’m just suprised she said the full word #and then the english guy at my other job is always saying the most offensive shit i’ve ever heard #like i just can’t

[tindove]

So tempted to do my own tma sonas. One for me, one for my friend who has only learned about tma through PowerPoints and osmosis.

The idea for mine, right? Vast avatar, dark aligned tho, who had a bad experience with the buried and said fuck that. I’m gonna get as far away from that as possible. So she does balloon rides. At night. For fun. And whimsy. As typical. And you go so high that everything sorta just turns into a void around you. And you are stuck there. For hours. The thing that took you up there is just staring off into space and smiling lovingly at the sky…and that’s normal until it’s not. Until the shadows creep in and the floor doesn’t look like floor anymore. And the balloon looks the same as everything else around you.

Until, inevitably, you stop. And the balloon suddenly pops. And then you are crashing down into the void. And everything looks exactly the same. And if it weren’t for the wind streaming past you wouldn’t be able to tell up from down.

And then you’re suddenly on the ground. It’s morning. And the attendant from before is staring down at you with these huge, black pupils, and a smile. And says you passed out. That it’s normal. That it happens a lot.

And you believe them because of course that is what happened. It was just the nightmarish haze caused from the oxygen growing thinner. You were just…tired. And the dark was so appealing. Looking oh so infinite.

Yea. When I’m less busy I’m gonna design her. I love her as an idea a lot.

#tma #tma oc #the Magnus archives #the vast #tma the dark #I don’t even have a name for her but god do I already love her #and I have so many fun ways to make her buddies with my friends one #hers is a flesh avatar—hates the dark—and had a brief period of being part of the desolation #I imagine a convo like #man I wish I was like a bird #and the flesh avatar responds #oh? you want to be a bird #and now she has fucked up flesh wings and is very happy about it #anyway I love the idea of them like a lot

[quietwingsinthesky]

Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.

Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?

And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.

What do you think about it?

no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.

because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)

and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?

river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)

they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.

mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.

they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.

all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.

mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'

god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.

#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river #means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much. #that's her daughter but it's also her best friend. #but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself. #a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing. #and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this. #the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*. #we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep #one hand armed. #and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little. #(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named #melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come #here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it. #and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river. #you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you? #having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do #anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river #knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to #choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends? #according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel #in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the #and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song. #i think that's the takeaway here. #ask #doctor who #river song #amy pond #rory williams

[wild-at-mind]

Had a really stupid conversation via minor emotional breakdown with a queer friend about what makes an LGBTQ person 'assimilist'. From what she said I'm kind of forced to draw the conclusion 'if you say you're not assimilist, then you're not'.

#i love her but none of it makes any sense to me #i think i really just wanted her to see that this kind of rhetoric is no good if you're fundamentally unable to see yourself as having valu #to a community- which is where i'm still at sometimes unfortunately. #i would say that i may not be the only one since mental illness + self esteem issues + being lgbtq are not exactly unlinked #but i have basically never found anyone else who has my particular hangups...maybe online once ages ago #so in my own mind i'm the most assimilist lgbtq who ever existed- not even worthy to call myself queer #and it's nice that she thinks i am not like that and in fact am 'one of the good ones' #who is not assimilist- look i know that 'one of the good ones' usually means the opposite ok i know! it's just an impression i get #she's like telling me obviously i'm all good because i look like i do but all i can hear is #that if i didn't look like this then i'm an assimilist #i fucking hate my brain honestly no one asked me to have a mental breakdown at their house (thank god i didn't cry) #and then go home and that's when i cry because i saw a trans guy's 'this many years on t' post and i felt like shit because #i haven't done anything about transitioning in ages and i'm not even out at work :'( #like i know i'm an assimilist because my main reason for not coming out at work is not wanting to do the beaurocracy #of changing my name on my email and every fucking log in i have on everything- telling every single person i interact with #i just can't it's too much and my line manager is worse than useless #but i have 'my job is computer and doing emails all day' privilege so i don't like to talk to people about it

[makkie-is-screaming]

I should fucking kill myself

#I have this anger and dislike towards my little brother that’s totally unwarranted like he’s 10 it’s just my issues #n whenever I feel his hatred towards him I want to gut myself like #it’s not his fault that my moms a better mom for him n that he’s not scared of her #It’s not his fault that my dads sober and present for him #it’s not his fault that my older brother is a good brother to him n has never hurt him #it’s not his fault he’s not scared of telling someone he’s hurt or of getting food #it’s not his fault he parrots all of my parents insane conservative views #but I still hold so much anger and resentment #When I look at him I see him getting all the things I never got and being free of the traumas I went through #and I know it’s good and I’m happy he’s grown up in a safer environment but I’m so angry that I didn’t have those parents #and I know he’s also missing so many things I got #But it fucking hurts seeing how loved and safe he is and wishing I had been that innocent at that age #like when he’s fighting with my mom it’s over school work n video games n then he thinks he can talk shit ??? #when I was fighting with my mom it was bc she came home from work in a rage #when I was mad at my dad it was because he got drunk n came home n yelled at my mom until she was crying in a corner then left #When I was screaming at my older brother it’s because I was tired of him hurting me not because he called me a name #I’m a horrible sister to him and I hate it because when he was a baby I was so fiercely protective of him and so happy to be his sister #I watched his shows with him and kept him entertained when my parents got bad n I promised myself I’d take care of him the way I never was #but I failed n now I can barely stand being around him #like I’m such a good sister to my sister but that’s it #n it makes me feel worse about my relationship w my brother bc I know I can be better but I’m just a horrible jealous bitch who should die #screaming

[dormiloncito]

"i care about all my new vegas companions equally," i lie as i was about to go insane because i couldn't find boone anywhere

#I WAS SO SCARED LIKE WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED. BOONE. SPEAK TO ME 😭😭 #i sent him to the suite and he wasn't there #i thought oh maybe just one companion can be here at a time then? (because i sent cass up there too) #BUT HE WASN'T IN NOVAC EITHER #he ended up showing up maybe he glitched or something #ese pelón es mi mujer 😚😚. who said that #anyway i don't even have that many companions yet i want to get them all but i've been sidetracking a lot 😆 #i want to get raul and rex asap #mi tío raul... (<- genuinely has an uncle named raul irl) #i gotta say i love cass a lot too she's so real. AND WHAT'S UP WITH THIS GAME why when parting ways with anyone #they're all sad about it. stop. stop that 😭 you're pixels on my screen stop making me feel bad

[hellhoundlair]

so mad abt the ethel cain shit rn

#i was reading the tags I KNOW i shouldnt have read the tags it was a mistake there is so much vile fucking hatred and behaviour there #people posting about how she lied about getting doxxed (she didnt) while simultaneously saying they way they checked if it was true was by #checking a website specifically used to host files that dox people. like why do u know about that website. why r u checking it #and the post on that website that IS there is thescariest fucking shit. by the wording it was obviously written by a radfem so #idk why radfems are claiming shes framing radfems for the dox when its very fucking obvious. and it has everything man #her deadnames her address her parents names their address her GRANPARENTS names their address. can you fucking IMAGINE. #how fuckinf terrifying that is? to be openly trans and for so many people to fucking HATE you for that and ur HOME being posted online #and if u want to go live at ur siblings house for a while ur not gonna be safe their either bc guess what! they have their address too #absolutely fucking vile. i dont know how anyone can believe this is activism or justified or remotely okay. ur fucking scum #im so fucking mad. so many trans people are being fucking murdered and you do that. im so fucking mad.

[hella1975]

hella idk what to send to you for aftg im either bored or annoyed and I don't wanna just say bad things about it 😭 like that's just rude and yall obviously like it I DONT WANNA BE SOME DEBBY DOWNER MDMWKEM

I looked at the anti aftg tag too to see if I could intermingle there and last I checked it was a mix of fans obsessed with the series and haters being just a tad harsh imo, so i couldn't even do that RIP. I'm so lonesome in what is maybe a whole group of people gaslighting me 😔👊

honestly ive said this before and i always have to tread a very fine line with it because this isn't me saying it's OKAY or like. promotable. but i do think to an extent that aftg's problematicness is actually an aspect of what draws people in a lot. like the characters and their reactions to things feel real for who they are, what they've been through and the environments they were raised in if that makes sense? and then you go in the anti-aftg tag and it's just again and again 'they said THIS thing and acted THIS way in response to THIS scenario and it was PROBLEMATIC' and like. yeah. outside of the internet bubble you're in people do actually do that. like that behaviour exists. it IS problematic, well done. you pointed at a wall and called it a wall. but like? in real life people - PARTICULARLY deprived, traumatised people that typically don't ever get therapy or community or someone telling them why something is bad - DO act this way. ive said half of my love for andrew is literally just because he took an awful backstory and let it make him a complete cunt and ive NEVER seen a character do it as shamelessly as him before. and yeah there's the argument for how it's never resolved in the book where nora ties it with a bow and points at the bad behaviour so the readers can go 'see, this is wrong' and we all clap, but idk it just for me feels that when people point at the aftg characters and go problematic! problematic! problematic! it's like they're missing the point a bit.

the point being? that we need to be putting WAY more heat on the author. i really dislike her and a lot of her writing choices and her insistance of using slurs that aren't hers to reclaim and just because it happened to make the characters feel just that bit more authentic i can still acknowledge that she CLEARLY wrote it without characterisation in mind and just added all that problematic shit anyway. like i never get why there's so little focus on nora's writing decisions and thousands of posts just fucking CRUCIFYING the characters themselves and 'let's explain in detail why this behaviour is Morally Reprehensible and they should be Locked Up Forever'. like if u want to focus on the characters so bad and pretend they're the sole reason why aftg is Problematic and Bad then why is it so hard to acknowledge that someone raised the way they were might have some misinformed, ignorant beliefs. idk lol

#but i do also think im prone to viewing these characters as TOO real and i understand there's a line to be drawn between media and reality #like at what point does 'life imitates art' become just a genuinely shit piece of media #and at the end of the day im fully aware which end of the spectrum aftg is on LMAO but this is my 2 cents #like ive met so many people that have said absolutely heinous things that the internet would eat them alive for #like homophobic sexist shit you name it they've said it and it IS problematic and uncomfortable to listen to #but i also know that while teenagers online that would call them problematic were busy claiming some new fucking buzz word to throw around #those people were actively just fucking trying to survive. like they weren't learning about why misogyny is bad #because they were fucking addicted to drugs or living through poverty or some shit like they had BIGGER PROBLEMS #like not everyone got the education or life experiences you got and while it's valid to assume someone saying horrible things #is horrible themselves there's also the times it's just genuinely a misinformed ignorant person #like they'll say 'problematic' things and i'll point out why it's bad and they'll literally go 'oh i never thought of that.' that's it!!! #like i have this childhood friend whose life has been an absolute circus start to finish like COMPLETE instability i wont even get into it #low and behold she had NO ONE educating her about things and one time i had to explain to her why having abortion rights was important #bc she just out of nowhere said she was against abortions. and i initially was outraged and disappointed that this came from her #but i didn't patronise her or shout i just explained my angle on why i think they're good and she was on side immediately #cause she always had bigger problems than researching ethics and no one to guide her so she just absorbed the first opinion she came across #and in a small town from a working class family that opinion is typically not the nice woke answer the internet demands #and with aftg particularly andrew bc he's the one who gets a lot of slack for being violent and generally unreasonable #you have someone who has literally not had someone treat him kindly a single time in his life and each new person is a genuine safety threa #like the average person just does not have to deal with that! ofc they have more time to decide their political and moral compass! #and that's so relevant to real life! popularity for the monarchy is highest amongst the working class! the people voted for brexit! trump! #the lower classes and marginalised simply do not have the resources that higher classes do #and someone fighting for survival is not going to be reading twitter threads on cancel culture in their spare time #so many issues in the world can be eased so much quicker by kindness and patient non-patronising education #than just. pointing and calling 'problematic' at anything remotely uncomfortable #idk where this came from its 2am i should go to bed and instead im ranting not even about aftg anmore this is completely it's own thing now #i feel like i worded this badly too im gonna wake up to anons in the morning accusing me of like. condoning spiking #also gloomy i am SO sorry you are the true victim of this i went ENTIRELY off piste on this one please ignore this 😭 #ask

[pepprs]

new therapist update. we just had our first session and she is AMAZING in every single way. i feel so fucking lucky

#purrs #i had a horrible couple hours earlier today so i am feeling shaken from that and it’s hard to process the goodness of that. but it was so #good. she matched my energy and we’ve been thru some of the same stuff and she validated me abt things i have never a) told anyone before b) #gotten validation about. so it was really good. im so lucky and so excited to work with her. and she even stayed on w me for an extra half #hour so i could answer all her questions thoroughly 🥹 i wish i wasn’t in so much pain that i can’t acually register how good that was now th #that im not in it but omg. i am so happy. also she kinda informally diagnosed me w trauma spectrum stuff and said that’s how we’ll approach #all my other stuff and she said she has so many ideas abt how to work w me and so much energy she was ready to take a power walk LOLLLL :’~D #she was the first person i found. i was immediately drawn to her. i was a little alarmed when she automatically assumed we would be working #together and also she spelled my last name wrong in the portal which DAMN it i forgot to tell her about omg. but yeah im so glad. it was #meant to be and she said so too. WAHHHHHHH 😭 #now i just have to recover from this fucking breakdown which i might have another one of if redacted. LMFAO

[textbasedgameenthusiast]

i finally caught up on story quests...

i saw so many spoilers and thought i knew what was gonna happen, but NONE OF YALL MENTIONED THE PLOT TWIST WAS THAT AL FONTAINIANS ARE OCEANIDS WTF

oh my god when i say my pre-modern day lore obsessed brain started whirring like a broken ceiling fan at the implications

also THE BIG FUCKING SHIP OH MY GOD THE BIG FUCKING SHIP WAS SO COOL I LOVE YOU HOYO I LOVE YOU HOYO I LOVE YOU HOYO

#spoilers #i have forgiven hoyo for everything because of BIG FUCKING SHIP #also it's really funny that wrio has 2 ships he's really into (the actual ship and the two inventors who worked on it) #also oh my god the story #the dialogue writing is still bad but oh my god i was so into the story i kept playing without using autoplay so i could read #i havent been this into a major quest since zhongli's quest where you go into the spooky domain of the dead salt god #also i have so many thoughts about furina posts i read before now and i know the most obsessed of yall dont get her at all smh #also i read a really good fic this morning and now i have so many neuvifuri parallel and identity thoughts now #also: people who insist the tag should be foca//llette are fake furina fans bc she spent so long pretending to be her and now shes free #and yall are out here STILL insisting she should use that name for her ships smh #focalors the oceanid was not the same person as focalors the god #focalors the oceanid turned god (aka focalors 1) split herself into a god and a human #the god decided to take on the name focalors as well (aka focalors 2) and the human became furina #furina had to pretend to be focalors 1 NOT focalors 2 bc nobody even knew focalors 2 existed #has inuyasha identity philosophy taught yall nothing

[irradiatedsnakes]

FUCK

#I ALWAYS FUCKING FORGET TO DRAW IT #GHOST REIGEN AU IS MARRIED!! TO SERIZAWA #I JUST FORGTE. TO DRAW THE RING. A LO #T #i also didnt draw a ring on mobs finger in that one which i mean shes like 40 in that. theres agood chance shed be married then #but i dont have many strong feelings abt that so thats up to you and your interpretation. i have my own ideas but #but ghost reigen is 100% married yes #not specifically ghost reigen but i do like to think that serirei mawwaige... ok im using first names cus i get mixed up but arataka does t #ake katsuyas surname. so serizawa katsuya & serizawa arataka<3 but he still goes by reigen in a professional context for job stuff #and also a fair amt of the kids still call him reigen cus. well hes always been reigen #anwyays. #whats the tag again #reigen has died badly #yeah thats the one.