#fuck it she don’t need eyes

[spirit-of-the-hollow]

My ass has recently been dying over Sky so

I made a silly

She’s also now somehow my sona

#sky children of the light #sky cotl #sky: children of the light #sky: cotl #thatskygame #that sky game #art #fanart #oc #oc art #my sona #she just runs around #helping skykids #mostly when they’re on the brink of death #gives them light and runs away #helper mode deactivated now FLEE #the colour palette ✨✨ #i luv itt ahh #she blind #but she basicaly has superhearing or some shit due to her ears so #fuck it she don’t need eyes #lmaoo #skyblr

[hopefulromantic1]

The song. The sun. The skin. The black vest. The gold chains.

#he could get it six ways from Sunday #this song is actually on my f*** playlist so Jules let’s get to business #she come over and compliment my closet fuck her on the floor #it could ACTUALLY be us #maybe I should write that #ugh boy #also the side eye at the end 😂 #okay shady king #you don’t even know #the things we could do #Jules kounde #I’m also the type who be singing along to music in the car like it was written about me #he KNOW he look good #mine #Jules kounde gif #I need this video gif

[fluffypotatey]

*smashes in like the Kool-Aid man*

PENDRAGON SIBLINGS YOU SAY????

I have. So many Feels. About Themst™

The complexity?? The layers?? The angst?? Hello??????

Their relationship is just So Much, because you are right, it's all tangled up in miscommunication and missed opportunities, and so many problems that can be sourced back to Uther "War Crimes" Pendragon, who wouldn't know a healthy relationship if it bit him on the ass.

If Merlin and Arthur are two sides of the same coin, then Arthur and Morgana are edges of the same blade.

Because it's the lonely childhoods, the shared grief, the friendship, the vulnerability, the fondness, the teasing, the envy, the jealousy, the almost romance, the protectiveness, the betrayal, the loss, the hurt, the refusal to let go and the desperate hanging on, and the love, the love, the love.

Indifference is the true opposite of love.

Hate is love that's gone rotten.

“If Merlin and Arthur are two sides of the same coin, then Arthur and Morgana are edges of the same blade.” oh fuck….

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK

WAIT HOLD ON WAIT LEMME PIGGYBACK ON THAT BESTIE @0hheytherebigbadwolf (tagging you bc it will be a couple days after you sent this ask)

(Also, for anyone wanting background context on what me and bestie are bouncing off on: voilà)

OK OK SO

we are all familiar with King Uther being the greatest (worst) dad of all time, correct? places such high expectations on his “only son and heir” whilst never officially acknowledging Morgana as his daughter until the very end?

F+ father of the year :)

he is not above sending his children into the dungeon if they disobey him as seen here:

(Jfc he even put Morgana in chains like wtf)

also, he is not above using emotional guilt towards them when he deems it necessary (aka one of the only times he actually acknowledges them as his children)

UTHER (1x02 Valiant) I trust you will make me proud.

UTHER (1x08 The Beginning of the End) I’ve treated you like a daughter. Is this how you repay me?

UTHER (1x12 To Kill the King) You are the daughter I never had.

UTHER (2x08 Sins of the Father) You would believe a sorcerer’s lies over the word of your father?

not to mention that when Arthur or Morgana try to reason with him or argue with him since they are the only ones with the status to do so, he pulls rank

UTHER (1x12 To Kill the King) May I remind you that you are speaking to your King [...] Take care, child, or I’ll have you restrained.

UTHER (2x08 Sins of the Father) I am your king and your father. You will show me some respect!

UTHER (2x06 Beauty and the Beast) We live in dangerous times, I cannot allow you to undermine my authority.

UTHER (3x10 Queen of Hearts) You have caused this to happen, Arthur. My decision is final.

ngl i could include more but i have already spent hours searching for shit (YOUTUBE WILL DIE BY MY HAND THAT STINGY BITC—) but y’all get what i mean: Uther is an abusive fucker and it has messed up the conditions of Arthur and Morgana

now, about the double edged blade…..

as previously established, Uther is a fucking dick and wants his children to obey him but also adore him. with this behavior, the Pendragon siblings react in two ways: with anger & contempt or submission and remorse

way #1

i’m gonna start with Morgana because anger is the easiest to pick out throughout the show. in the first episode of the first season, our introduction to Morgana’s character is her lecturing Uther about executing the man Merlin witnessed upon entering Camelot (such a warm welcome for Emrys, mh?)

MORGANA I just don't think chopping someone's head off is cause for a celebration. That poor mother. UTHER It was simple justice for what he'd done. MORGANA To whom? He practiced some magic, he didn't hurt anyone. UTHER You were not around twenty years ago, you have no idea what it was like. MORGANA How long are you going to keep punishing people for what happened then?

early on, it is easy to pick up on Morgana’s resentment and anger at Uther, who she believes is blinded by his fear of magic and his need for control (which she isn’t wrong about). also, we find that she isn’t one to back off when poking the bear (Uther). she does it constantly in seasons 1 & 2

MORGANA (1x03 Mark of Nimueh) Why would she kneel on a cold stone floor morning after morning when she could make these things happen with a snap of her fingers? Like an idle king!

MORGANA (1x08 The Beginning of the End) How can this child be your enemy? He's just a boy. UTHER He is a Druid. MORGANA Is that such a crime?…What have these people done to you? Why are you so full of hate?

UTHER (2x04 Lancelot and Guinevere) How many men would you have me sacrifice to save a servant? MORGANA  As many as it takes!

to be honest, i wouldn’t be surprised if screaming, arguing and berating Uther about his morals and ethics is her way of proving that she is not weak or submissive to his actions. i mean, Morgana grew up in a household the complete opposite from her time in Camelot. Gorlois, the man whom Morgana considers to be her father and one and only family member, was said to be “just” and “kind” and someone that Uther even considered a good friend who openly kept him in check. Morgana, until the age of ten, understood parental love and empathy unlike Arthur, who spent his whole life without any good or healthy substance of it.

the culture of Camelot and Uther’s wrath is not something Morgana was ever able to fully acclimate to as Uther himself pointed out in 1x12. She “was at odds with [him] since the beginning” and could never picture herself as a Pendragon (point further proven in 4x05: she looked revolted when Queen Annis compared her to Uther) because she didn’t share in their idea of magic = evil and a king = absolute control.

ironic in terms of future plot events, isn’t it :’)

way #2

compare that to Arthur: man’s respressed af. keeps all his emotions under lock and key if they are anything but haughty and serious. y’all, Arthur even says it himself how he “[can't] disagree with Father [Uther] in public.” whenever Arthur finds himself at odds with Uther, he holds his tongue and waits until he can disobey secretly (2x05 when he leaves to rescue Gwen, 1x08 when he helps Morgana sneak out Mordred in the dark of the night, 2x08 when he sneaks out to meet Morgause for more info about his mom, etc). it is only the rare moments when Arthur feels impassioned enough to speak up without fearing any retribution does Arthur talk back at him (so satisfying 👌)

ARTHUR (1x03 Mark of Nimueh) [Morgana’s] right, Father. You hear the word magic, you no longer listen.

ARTHUR (2x08 Sins of the Father) This is what fuels your hatred for those who practice magic. Rather than blame yourself for what you did, you blame them….You hunted her kind like animals! How many hundreds have you condemned to death to ease your guilt?!….You speak of honour and nobility! You're nothing but a hypocrite and a liar!

ARTHUR (3x10 Queen of Hearts) You can't forbid my feelings any more than I can. I won't deny them any longer, I love her. I love Guinevere.

we can even compare how the two react to Uther’s violence towards them

(ahahahahahaaaaa what a wonderful dad)

on the left, you see Arthur’s face right when Uther crushes the morteus flower needed to heal Merlin (his manservant/friend/????) and on the right, is Morgana after Uther discovers she was harboring a Druid child in her chambers and she refuses to listen to his reason.

notice how both faces are remarkably similar 👀

however, Arthur’s look of shock and dismay come from his hope that Uther would do the right thing. that he would help save Merlin’s life from dying of poison. that he wouldn’t use this as a method to teach Arthur “what it means to disobey and cross the king.” he truly did hope, just like he always does with the people he holds close. Arthur cannot help but hope and trust that those close to him will not betray him and yet so many do. hence the remorse

looking at Morgana, her shock comes from the fact that this might be the first time Uther reacted to her words and actions in a physical manner. my suspicion is that most of the time, all Morgana previously got was Uther reprimanding her and yelling at her to stop questioning his methods (bc, let’s be real, she was the favorite child.) never has he lifted a finder on her like Arthur and i have proof (cue transcript!)

AND! and, Arthur is constantly warning Morgana about not angering Uther any further because of the consequences she might face (consequences this boy is very familiar with) when Uther deems it necessary to “teach” his children obedience.

UTHER (1x04 The Poisoned Chalice) You have to learn there's a right and a wrong way of doing things. I'll see you're let out in a week. Then you can find yourself another servant.

UTHER (3x10 Queen of Hearts) You have caused this to happen, Arthur. My decision is final [...] This is for your own good. - UTHER She will die. The enchantment will be broken. You'll see I was right.

UTHER (2x08 Sins of the Father) I am protecting you from your own foolishness!

so educational 🥰 but see, because Uther presents his punishments as lessons, Arthur himself views them as just a fucked up but meaningful way of his father’s concern because “yeah, I am the first born son and only heir to the throne. of course I need to learn not to do silly things like disobey, talk back to him, be my own person.” <- I’m paraphrasing here

Arthur does and has never seen a way out of the life thrust upon him by Uther (see 3x06). succeeding Uther as king, marrying a noblewoman of high standing for heirs and alliance strength was always expected of him. Arthur never saw a way out of this. even when he and Gwen were in their secret relationship phase, Arthur had to remind himself that this would never last. he loved her and knew she loved him, but there was always that reminder (that sounded a lot like Uther) in the back of his head telling him that it would never last so long as he was prince. he had a duty (constructed by Uther) to serve Camelot and going against his father would mean (in his eyes) that he is going against Camelot (as Uther always presented it to be).

so unlike Morgana, he did not kick and scream but stood firm because that was what he believed was stronger. if he stayed in his lane and did his part, then he would be a good king, maybe even a better one than his father, for Camelot. however, the show proves that differentiating himself from Uther actually made him the better king and more respected, but this is not the meta for that. I am getting side tracked.

OK: so we’ve established parental issues between the two siblings. now onto their very complex, complicated yet beloved dynamic

sO, as i mentioned in this post (because i am lazy and too tired to copy/paste the evidence from there), these siblings do care for one another. they just go about it in the most hilarious and repressed and in-denial way (hilarious to me 😤)

when we meet them, it’s established that these two have known each other for some time. enough for them to bicker and have banter, you know, as you do with a Pendragon. also, should add, neither character are ever aware they are blood-related until s3 (because of some weak-ass bitch named Uther), so you have that very, uh, interesting subplot in s1 that everybody forgets about until you rewatch it. (honestly, I have so many questions. number 1: why???? number 2: it’s only in s1—was it scrapped??? is it like it never existed???? what was its purpose to the plot??? bbc explain yourself—)

however, despite how much it is shown that they do care for one another, they’re relationship in s1 is still undefined and vague as if they also don’t know how to accurately define what the other means to them. it’s very similar to the whole “i really love this person so much but is what i’m feeling platonic, familial, or romantic?” because….you know, guy and girl besties who are close are typically expected to grow romantic feelings for each other, so tbh i would not be surprised if both mistook their love as romantically inclined in the beginning bc, reminder, neither of them were aware they were siblings until much later.

[and this is ALL i am saying on this subplot. i do not want to cause any negative discourse, so if anyone has a few choice words about it, either keep it to yourself or feel free to talk about it with people you know. personally? not a fan of the ship and never will be, but i am not here to post about that.]

anyway, have some featured receipts showing Arthur and Morgana slipping up and showing how much they care for each other.

SEE!!!! LOOK AT HOW THE CARE!!!! SEE HOW THEY WORRY FOR THE OTHER AND WISH TO PROTECT THEM FROM HARM!!! (and see how even when they’re on opposite sides there is still that same love. just more warped and corrupted T^T)

^worried/protective Morgana

^Arthur’s face after Merlin informs him that there’s an intruder heading to Morgana’s chambers

Morgana is very aware of Arthur’s trusting nature. Arthur is very aware of Morgana’s empathy and righteous nature. they understand each other so well which is why Morgana knew just how to harm Arthur in later seasons and why Morgana’s betrayal hit Arthur so hard. it’s also why he never stopped trying to reach out to her in s4 & s5. as @merlinemrys said in this lovely post, the show’s driving force is love. love of all kinds. whatever conflict it is, love is there at the center of it all and, in Arthur and Morgana’s case, it does not save them (just like how love does not save Merlin or Arthur from what lies ahead, as the op of the post pointed out).

that is what makes their relationship/love be like a double edged sword!! that is why they are edges of the same blade!!! they protect and fight for what they believe in and for the people they love, but the same blades cut deep and twist their wounds into a lasting scar.

it is because of Arthur’s love for Morgana that he cannot help but hope and mourn the woman he once knew. it is because of Morgana’s love for Arthur that her feelings of hatred are so strong and ugly.

like honestly,

look at them T^T compared to before

their relationship is so tragic T^T because we knew them before it all went wrong. we knew they cared and understood each other. we knew that for some time, they only had each other to rely on for a friend, a crutch, a breather for when the royal life was too much. both of them were fighters and strive to honor their values. both of them had once leaned on the other for support, had wanted nothing but happiness for each other.

fuck, they didn’t even get the chance to really be siblings because they found out too late, and by then Morgana was on a war path and Arthur only found out at the last minute.

like fuck, man

two sides of the same blade: forged with love, yet used for blood

screencaps brought to you by me, @sourdough-morbread, and farfarawaysite

#i will spare you the gorey details of me trying to fine decent screencaps & screenshots for this fucking post or else i’ll get pissed again #(i am considering whether it is worth it to go to war with youtube) #special thanks to my bestie mor for being there for me at the gorey times and helping me find more screenshots #fucking love you bestie 💕💕💕💕 #also only including s1-2 bc i am tired and they are the ones where we get pendragon siblings not trying to kill each other #forgive me for always bringing up uther and the pendragon sibs’ upbringing with him it will happen again #also after hours of rereading transcripts and rewatching clips of bbc merlin: it is so obvious that uther cared and treated Morgana like hi #own child more than Arthur. like jfc he let’s her get away with so much stuff he is way for gentle with his words towards her #when he realizes that he was too cruel or rude like bro…..where tf was that for arthur #it just adds to the complicated sibling dynamic because there is the added jealousy and resentment of knowing a parent loved another more #literally most of Morgana’s time with Uther was her at odds with him and yet he views her as his child more #well no ducking dur that Arthur ‘i-would-do-anything-to-receive-my-father’s-love-attention-and-pride’ Pendragon resents Morgana for #always being the one Uther goes easier on and finds ways to turn a blind eye for like wtf #also during my research i was reminded of how done dirty Gwen’s story was by bbc #loses her father to a king fearful of magic barely gets to mourn him bc she now has to keep up the smithy and her maid job; reunites #with her brother who’s been AWOL for some years and still they don’t get a moment to talk about their dad and mourn TOGETHER #her storyline is pushed aside by s4 bc now she’s fulfilling the role of Arthur’s love interest and oh yeah they still need to incorporate #the lanceot/guinevere scandal and then banish her for some episodes without even letting her brother be mad about it like ????? #anyway #continued saga of fluffy rereading transcripts -> uther: ‘it’s been a long time since Ygraine…since anyone’ me: ducking liar >:( #[sir leon begins the slow clap] king you dropped this 👑IT IS 1AM HELP 😂 #place your bets on where my laziness for evidence came in! (I honestly don’t know lol scavenging evidence is all a blur) #spent 2 days on this post lol #me: ok i think that’s enough evidence for this argument…………ok maybe ONE more won’t hur— #me after day 2: ….am i done???? am i free???? #pendragon siblings coming behind me with a steel chair: nah mate! #me: FUCK THERE’S MORE #bbc merlin #merlin meta #pendragon sibs

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

went to go clothes shopping today and i got the cuntiest misa-esque dress for like $8 at the thrift store <3

#it’s covered in hearts and it’s strapless w a low lace-up back and the skirt is short and poofy but it’s sewn at the edges so that the #skirt is like a sphere-ish shape that holds fairly well and i should prob just draw it so what i’m saying makes sense but it is super cute #and i also got some jeans which is new for me i’ve not worn jeans since. um. i think the last time i wore jeans i was. idk. before #i started dressing myself? so under 5 maybe? idk pants feel really restricting to me and jeans esp that’s why i’m always wearing skirts #but i feel up to it rn bc i’ve always thought they were cute and also i think i’m comfortable enough in my skin to do so which i think it’s #usually the opposite for ppl they like pants and are afraid of dresses bc they’re uncomfortable/self conscious/whatever but for me #skirts have always been a safety blanket and they are so comfortable but sometimes skirts are just not practical so i need to like #get comfortable wearing pants and i tried doing it a couple years back but i was like in the midst of an eating disorder so that didn’t go #down well but i’m cool now i’m chill abt things and wearing skirts all the time makes ppl peg me as fem and i’m like ahhhhh stop she/her-in #me when i’m obvi in femboy mode or like when i’m being androgynous but i happen to be wearing a skirt w my outfit it’s annoying #anyway it took me two fucking hours to figure out what size i was bc skirts u don’t really have a size bc u just need it to fit ur waist #and ur golden but pants are so complicated and i have wide hips and thick thighs and it took me foreverrrr to find the right size #but i did and now i will never have to do all of that ever again <3 bc it was stressful every second that i wasn’t looking in the mirror #and making bedroom eyes at myself <3

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Also, on a spooky note: From the beginning of the school year, people have been telling me they saw me driving a red car (I don’t drive a red car), and that they’ve seen me in places I haven’t gone to. Today, I overheard people talking about someone’s description, “She was about this tall and…” etc. etc. They told me I lost my tablet, and that it had my name on it. I don’t have a tablet.

Either I have a doppelgänger in the area, or something nonhuman is trying to replace me 🙃

#Everyone’s like “She looked exactly like you! Kinda small with the same haircut.” 😰😬 #What the fuck #paranormal #doppelganger #evil twin #how do I even tag this #What’s your opinion: Am I going to get murdered? lmao #No genuinely this is starting to freak me out #I hope the tablet people were just scammers because I don’t need to get eaten #I swear to GOD if I see myself anywhere— hell no #I don’t make eye contact with people I’m not talking to so I’m probably safe as long as I’m awkward?

[sexynetra]

If you’re wondering, this is the Marcia I picture when I’m writing :)

#the bitchy kind of mean girl energy is impeccable #also she looks. so fucking hot. my god #I am half asleep rn dozing on the couch but I need to post this right now #also something about this brow and eye shape is just. doing it #like this is popular bitchy college freshman Marcia in rawnsyf I’m sorry i don’t make the rules #drag race #rpdr #rpdr 15 #drag race 15 #marcia #rawnsyf #running away will never set you free #anarcia #Marcia x3 #Marcia Marcia Marcia

[simcardiac-arrested]

Needed a warm up, remembered how I saw this little guy for the first time and literally screamed

She is so ever to me, I think she should cause so many problems on purpose

i just opened tumblr and saw this and i am being so serious when i say this made my organs turn to mush and make me pace around the house for a good 3 minutes just to start having coherent thoughts

#but don’t be fooled i do NOTTT have coherent thoughts anymore because HUH ?!?! HUH ?!?!?!?!? C ?!?!?!!?!?! #⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ THERES JUST NO WAY THIS IS IN MY INBOX RIGHT NOW IM HALLUCINATING THIS BECAUSE OF THE 31 C HEAT SURELY #OH MY GODDDD #screaming at a brick wall HHHEEEELLP HELP MEEEEE SOMEBODY HHHEEEELEPPPPP GHEEELLPPPP #WHAT ARE YOU DOIGN TO ME #oh my god they look so fucking good in your style i dont even know what to say. i dont know. i need to give you money #THE POSES???? THEY ALL LOOK SO AWESOME SHE’S SUUUUCH A LITTLE EVIL BEAST DOING STRETCHIES #oh good gracious (falls on the ground and explodes) #i’m in love with how you drew her human form as well i need to ruffle her hair. quickly #the warning sign on her eye ueeeueuehgghhhshhh #literally what are you doing to me. whag are you doing to me #cramswering #is for me tag #oc: cognitive dissonance #adding tags with tears in my eyes #do you u even understand what you’ve done I HAVE MUSIC CLASS IN 15 MINUTES I SHOULD BE FOCUSING ON THAT #BUT INSTEAD I’LL BE THINKING ABOUT HOW U DREW CD FOR THE WHOLE HOUR. DO U UNDERSTAND #aueueghhhgg THANK YOU SO MUCH MAN i’m so honored you would draw my ocs as warmup ueeue #soungof crying

[arolesbianism]

Wormwood hc hours

#keese draws #dst #don’t starve together #dst wormwood #dst wheeler #ds wheeler #<- not a clue how to tag her I’m so sorry bestie #anyways! more hc rambling she/he pronouns wormwood for the win #also for elaboration on her roots! they’re kinda parasitic in nature? #I say kinda because it’s less in an irl plant way and more in a fucked up lunar way #but yeah that’s why wormwood doesn’t like using them #during full bloom however his roots try their damn best to get into the grown anyways #mostly because of the increased nutrient needs and it worsens when he’s hungry #but yeah in my minds eye the increased speed from full bloom is a mix of just general heightened energy and being taller #as for the height changes in my minds eye most of the growth that comes with blooming is shedded pretty much as soon as she falls out of it #usually leading to a couple minute prices of getting what’s left shuffled back into place #this usually leaves her incredibly exhausted afterwards for a day or so #also when using weapons she tends to just wrap her arm around the handle instead of using her hand leaves #since yknow. leaves aren’t great for grip #also in my minds eye wormwoods leaves have an almost artificial feel to them #like not quite fully but enough so that one might get confused for a moment #they generally become softer during bloom but all soft leaves get shedded pretty quickly afterwards #in general wormwood becomes a bit more squishy in general during bloom but not by too much

[sodacowboy]

I can’t tell if I look my age or if I look like a baby :/

#bc yeah 23 is super young #and i absolutely look older than I did at like 14 #but also I don’t??? #I look the same but more confident lmao #maybe it’s the slight baby face #idk #saw someone post about eating collagen so she has glass skin at 50 #and it’s like????? #babe?????? #who did this to you???? #you should be at the club!! #not spending countless dollars on pointless skincare products!!!! #screaming raging #sunscreen and moisturizer #that is like the most you need #ugh anyway #if anyone has recommendations for a sunscreen that doesn’t fucking sting my eyes #DESPITE THE FACT that I try not to get it near my eyes at all!!!!!! #I’d super appreciate it #and I swear to god do not recommend me anything over 15 dollars #and do not recommend anything smaller than like six ounces

[spiritofjustice]

Wild asf being mildly face blind because I don’t recognize a vast majority of regulars unless they dress very distinctly so we had this lady leaving at close who turned and looked at me and said “what happened to your book mask?” Because I used to wear an orange book themed mask every day, and now I have a teal book nerd mask instead and I was like “I have literally never seen this woman before. How does she know that” even though she’s a regular

#psy's no punctuation posts #work tag #a very weird regular but apparently she comes in frequently #when customers say they always get me when they come here I’m like ‘who the fuck are you. i have never met you’ KRN GB #or the game of is it face blindness or is it my autistic need to not look at people when talking to them #i don’t frequently make eye contact unless I’m trying to sign them up for membership or if I’m making a book Rex #*rec oh my fucking god

[thevaudevillescene]

Yesterday, while talking about my serving job, my office coworker said, “You ever feel like you’re in a Broadway show, like it’s just the same thing repeating night after night?” I said, “Absolutely. There’s a song in the Beetlejuice musical where he goes, ‘I do this bullshit, like, eight times a week,’ and I swear I think of it every single day on my way to work.”

A couple of weeks ago a woman at one of my tables asked if I’m “in the theater” and I said no, and she was like, “oh, you just seem like you have that personality.” I don’t need to join the local theater, ma’am, I already act for a living at this job. You’re simply seeing through the cracks in my carefully crafted but summer-worn worksona. I said to my coworker, “I was just assigned theater kid by this woman,” and they said, “She probably clocked that you’re gay but she’s too straight to realize it so she was like, ‘She must…do theater.’”

#so don’t be freaked. stay in your seats. i do this bullshit like eight times a week. #so just relax; you’ll be fine. drink your $50 wine and take a breath. #<- truly me whenever customers start getting pissed about fucking anything #my patience is wearing SO thin which is how i know it’s august #last week i let a table know their food was on its way and asked if they needed anything before it came out #and the guy goes ‘yeah when’s our food coming?’ i was like ‘..AS I SAID-’ #last night a woman asked if she could sub out pasta for a vegetable and i said ya the options are blah blah blah #she was like ‘a veggie sauté? what’s that?’ i said ‘it’s a mix of vegetables.’ ‘but what’s in it?’ #i just flipped her menu over while holding eye contact with her and pointed to the description on the menu #my other favorite: can i get you anything else to drink besides water? coke diet coke sprite iced tea lemonade club soda? #‘can i have a root beer?’ ‘do u guys have dr. pepper?’ #…… #COKE. DIET COKE. SPRITE. ICED TEA- #‘oh okay i’ll have a pepsi’ #AND I HOPE YOU DIE. I HOPE WE BOTH DIE.

[moesartblog]

Ok tumblr I’m now begging

BEGGING

That you start treating these “ridiculous drama” scenarios that get boiled down to one sentence the same way you’ve helped people treat “frivolous” lawsuits against major corporations

Because it’s been several times now I’ve seen shit like “chili lady cancelled for sharing food?! The worlds gone mad!!” Without actually knowing the real conversation that was happening about that incident.

Same thing with the DoorDash shit recently

And let me tell you the vast majority of these situations involve disabled people sharing their thoughts and feelings on a topic, and so-called progressives going “you’re fucking re- I mean uh ridiculous! Who would think like this!? Entitled lazy fucks!”

#I cannot stand seeing the chili neighbor thing in here when I saw first hand what went down with my own two eyes #like not even to mention she had a long history of being anti Black and harassing Black trans women for calling out racism in the white #trans community #which I witnessed #but the thing about the chili? #she was being nosy snooping around in her neighbors trash and decided because they get take out that they weren’t doing well #so instead of going to them first and getting to know them she just decided to make a random meal for them #which doesn’t make you the devil or anything #but plenty of disabled people kept pointing out that hey you should ask before you bring someone food for multiple reasons #like food sensitivity issues or smell or allergies #once again pointing out the importance of just talking to the people first #and frankly all of this could have been avoided if she didn’t feel the need to post about it to virtue signal to her clique #like it’s clear she was doing this to feel like a savior not to actually help people #it’s all the fake ally shit #you don’t ask someone what they need you just assume you know what they need #like please be fucking honest #and don’t even get me started on the DoorDash shit #and how much ableism has come out of that

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?! #I literally am speechless #I’m not super talky right now #but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless #like I already said I love your writing 🩷 #and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration #like????????? what??????? me???????????! #I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down #I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true #I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty #one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me #idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing #not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately #and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon - #my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that #I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks) #and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life #so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know #asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes #and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️ #then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A #and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol #but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6 #and she was talking about how impressive that is #and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get #I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’ #it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again #who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting #I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory #anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[mickgaydolenz]

the world loves me so much and said here asia we would like you to have your cluster cycle start on new years eve this time :) . also to anyone out there that suffers with cluster headaches, i fucking see you dude and it fucking sucks and i’m so sorry

#i also love having one of this chronic pain issues. that is very hard to be diagnosed because it is cyclical #*those #and mine is especially small given i tend to have 1-2 cycles a year predominantly falling around late august- january #when i brought it up to my doctor she essentially was like hmm that’s hard to deal with so no point getting any diagnosis 🤷‍♀️ #so thanks girl. but mine are very typical cluster. always on the right side of my face. the violent stabbing pain behind my eye #i also have the nice after cluster hangover headache tenderness that just fucking knocks me clean off my feet #rocking and counting tend to be my go to distractions. not that they do anything. but when it’s really bad i unfortunately tend to hit #myself for some fucking relief :s #oh also i get the classic wake up from a dead sleep clusters. and mine are reliably every two fucking hours :) #and usually i get anywhere from 1-8 a day during my cycle period. although 4-5 is pretty average for me #my last cycle was hell. my clusters were lasting upwards of an hour. that is really what i’m hoping to avoid this time around…. #sorry i just really needed to rant about this it fucking sucks. they don’t call them suicide headaches for nothing #cluster headaches

[saintlesbian]

okay Esme’s hard pivot from almost guilty conscience to super defensive “poor helpless victim” mode is annoying though. like yea sure she fell from the parapet twice and was kidnapped by her serial killer parents and she was locked up for a few months but. she still made that revenge porn and framed trina for it. she still drugged oz haggerty and trina (with the intent to kill!!) and even in captivity she repeatedly threatened the health and wellbeing of her child by starving herself, starting that fire, AND by jumping from the parapet.

and the most egregious part of the whole thing is her talking to Spencer, the original victim of her abuse and manipulation, the one she used as a pawn in her game to separate nava, the one she traumatized and devalued the most, the one who’s been let down by his father so many times and is just trying to keep his brother from being hurt in the same way as he has been… for her to have the GALL to try and keep Spencer out of his brother’s life, it’s outright offensive.

#general hospital #pentababbles #his animosity towards her is completely justified. honestly if I was in his position I woulda lunged at her for saying that shit #hers however? don’t come at my boy like that. he didn’t know how big of a loser his father was til now. #Esme is no longer in supping wet animal mode she’s back to playing the wounded gazelle gambit which is fucking annoying #like she NEEDS to face consequences for actions real soon please please PLEASE #and some real genuine guilt over the type of person she used to be and the terrible things she did. #but then again. even if she remembers who’s to say she even will feel guilty. #idk. I just think it should be brought up in court not just the crimes she committed but also the ways she manipulated people. #annoyed! like yea I’m still a sometimes Esme enjoyer but spencer is my ultimate poor little meow meow so. #Esme attacking him again is treasonous in my eyes

[legendoftherisingtide]

why did the anime and the fandom reduce uraraka to just being in love with deku??

the recent chapters have truly made me fall in love with her character but im watching the anime and everything is so,, like it’s honestly whiplash

every pivotal moment for her character is because she likes deku. I loved the scene of her jumping to save him and it flashed to her family and her newfound motives. I loved to see her character being more than Deku. I loved that growth and though I was disappointed when it started mentioning Deku, I realized he was important to her growing and who she is as a person. (Although I love the manga for expanding her character past her admiration for him)

And the moment they had together as they fell was genuinely touching,, there was no blushing, no over the top crush, it was real concern and care. I loved it. It made me forget all of the obnoxious belittling of her character and made me realize that they can be together without force. It was so simple and meaningful.

The anime can make jokes that don’t include uraraka blushing! They can write an interaction between these two that shows not tells. Her immediately rushing to calm him down because she knew he lost control. The way she slapped him like how she saved him in the entrance exam and then asked if it hurt. The soft smile on her face when she asked if he was okay. The way she holds him steady as he stumbles to get footing.

It’s all so subtle. And it’s so refreshing after so much insufferable time the anime puts into pointing and screaming Uraraka likes Deku. Gosh it’s such a good moment aaa

But then it went back to cheapening her character and continuing to push her towards this arc of mundanity. She wants to be a hero that helps people!!! LET HER BE THAT!! goodness gracious stop making every single thing she does go back to deku. STOP CIRCLING BACK TO WHERE SHE STARTED ANIME PLEASEEEE

#i also don’t like that it keeps focusing on her things with deku when she is more than that #it’s so frustrating #because I love her #but at the same time they keep reminding me she likes deku every second and it turned me away from her character years back #I love her now but god the problem is still bugging me #and it makes me roll my eyes every time they have a scene together #even if it’s genuine #but I wish that wasn’t the case #because I think these two would be great together (platonically or romantically) #but I just can’t with the poor writing of forcing a relationship that is so one-sided?? or at least not as important to deku #like they need to pick a side with her #either go the heart wants what the heart wants no matter what approach that could tie back to deku and shinsou #or let her let him go like she keeps saying she’s going to #I would like the latter but at least the former would give a coherent understanding of her character and motivations #like why does deku and bakugou and todoroki and iida get to have complex relationships and motives and wants #and explanations and thought and writing put into those while also having time and effort put in #while Uraraka is be in love with deku or be like deku #she is MORE THAN DEKU OH MH FUCKING GOD I CANT WITH THIS SHOW #LET HER BE HER OWN WOMAN AND LET HER THINK FOR HERSELF WHAT IS WITH ALL THE GIRLS THINKING OF WHAT THE BOYS WOULD DO IN THEIR SITUATION #why can’t she have a moment of inspiration and then imbede that into her personal story and ambitions instead of making everything about him #they didn’t make todoroki like this so why did they do this to her #grrrr bark bark #im just upset ig that such an intriguing character that grows to be a person for the people has to have every action because of deku #she is great and I really like the direction her character is going and I wouldn’t mind them being endgame #but as the writing is now #I kinda don’t like this forced romance that could be so nuanced and powerful if it put in the effort and time that I know hori can do #bnha #bnha uraraka #izuocha #bnha critical