#fuck i just remembered he had a tumblr

[pepperonijem]

i’m literally going insane… what is HAPPENING to me

#this is the worst it’s been in years #jem speaks #fuck i just remembered he had a tumblr #but i’m pretty sure he deleted it #and i’ve changed my url since then #what could go wrong

[mintleflower]

ignore Rogier ok

#my art #mintleflower #fanart #sofia the first #cedric the sorcerer #cedric the sensational #princess sofia #king roland #queen miranda #crackle #clover #pr*ship dni #apparently this has to be tagged cuz ive been lurking on this side of tumblr and many accounts have been blocked lol #this show for actual toddlers is actually one of the most entertaining things i've seen in a while #rewatching this for the first time since i was like 9 years old expecting it to be worse than i remember #but its genuinely better especially now that i understand things #ignore rogier hes just visiting #i love being an artist because that means i can put characters from my childhood in a fucked up and evil environment #also personal note; but the fact that king roland shares a VA with Roy Mustang had me fucked up for days this is messed up

[zelkams-art]

camera, cut!

#Nie Huaisang #The Untamed #Mo Dao Zu Shi #mdzs #artists on tumblr #my art #pov: you are jin guangyao and you are fucked #this idea was trapped in my head for so long so shoo you are free now #trying to find out how this outfit works was a pain though #because there are exactly 3 shots of it in the entire show and they're all super closeups so actually you don't see much #but I also managed to find a bts pic of Ji Li in it with the actors that played the juniors #though fun fact he literally wears one of the layers (with the sleeves) in the pre-timeskip already #AND YET it's so subtle that you don't remember abt it #also I had some thinking abt which expression to go for #because at first I made him smirking #but actually like... that's also the point that he was not triumphant when jgy died. he was just Very Tired. #like I wish I could explain properly what I think abt it but it was just... a bit bitter. like the justice is done #but so what. it will never bring his brother back. #BUT ANYWAY!! I wanted to post this before midnight and I have 5 min left so yeah anyway!! art!!

[sea-buns]

Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.

Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.

Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.

But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.

We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.

All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.

I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?

I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us

#i got SO carried away LMAO #i dont think ive ever written any posts about gorgug specifically #i made a lot about colin. and some about pib. and some more about zacs performances in general. #but never anything gorgug-focused. i just wasnt on tumblr at those other times that hed been on my mind like this #you can tell i still couldnt resist talking about colin lol #he was just so fucking good. a fantastic character all around. i cant imagine a better example to get my point across than him #when i do posts like this its all very much just me taking a vague idea and working with whatever comes out in the moment #so when i tell you i very much did not plan to get lost in the counterargument and had to stop for a second to remember what my point was #my point still stands but so does everything else #you dont realize it. how similar gorgug and colin really are. or how metaphorical the bug tunnel was. #or how gorgug IS the epitome of little details. small acts. quiet rights and wrongs. the faint causes and the even subtler effects. #u dont truly realize it until youre writing it yourself in a free flow fugue state and it all comes to a halt cuz youve blown your own mind #anyway i love gorgug and i love zac pcs and i hope this post makes sense cuz finding the right words was fucking hard hah #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #gorgug thistlespring #the ravening war #trw #colin provolone #zac oyama

[astranauticus]

𝘚𝘤𝘢𝘳-𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #rwd starship #shoutout to fall out boy for writing lyrics that absolutely slap with no context i guess #get it. do you get it. cuz mechanites don't dream (starts sobbing) #something something the least mrsn could ask for is for vrla to remember him fondly and he can't even do that bc all his memories are gone #also yes it's a stylistic choice to draw mrsn as the starry apparition here but it's also absolutely bc the apparition is easier to draw #ITS SO FUN. i just do a white outline with a little gaussian blur then go to town on the starry background #between the astral sea and the mrsn ghost i just keep having to draw that kinda starry background and i have lots of custom brushes for it #and it's just. so much fun. just slapping colours and shinies on the canvas like a small child #the original idea i had in my head was significantly less... close contact but then i looked up couples dancing pose refs on pinterest #and got the fucking gayest reference image ever so here we are #WALAO TUMBLR MOBILE FUCKED UP THE RESOLUTION AGAIN NABEI #art I made

[chaosordoffl]

Some Valyrian/Targaryen/Velaryon names. No expertise here, simply following patterns to see what sounds and looks nice + canon sources and Valyrian dictionary plucks. In chrono & thought order.

Canon — Rhaenys, Rhaena, Rhaella, Rhaenyra, Rhaegel, Rhae, Rhaelle, Rhaegar (All Targ)

Derived — Rhaenion, Rhaenelle, Rhaenella, Rhaegor, Rhaegon, Aenyra, Rhaelion, Rhaenyx, Rhaelyx, Rhaenar, Rhaenyar, Rhaenel, Rhaelys, Rhaevel, Rhaevis, Rhaevys, Viserrhae, Rhaenya, Rhaenior, Rhaenor, Rhael, Rhaen, Rhaejel, Rhaeqan, Rhaellor, Rhaemon, Rhaemond, Rhaenyron, Rhaema

Canon — Aenar, Aegon, Aerys, Aelyx, Aerion, Aethan (1 Velaryon), Vaegon, Aenys, Aerea, Naerys, Aegor, Aelor, Aelora (Rest Targ)

Derived — Aegar, Aelon, Aelys, Aelar, Aelara, Aella, Aelinor, Aeral, Aeron, Aelion, Aegys, Aegal, Aelia, Naera, Naeron, Naerion, Naerelle, Naerella, Naerea, Aethal, Aethelle, Aethys, Aethion, Aethar, Aethial, Aenor, Aethor, Aerelle, Gaelyx, Aenyx, Aeryx, Baelyx, Aelial, Aeliar, Aelior, Vaegal, Vaegor, Vaegar, Vaelior, Vaelor, Aerial, Aeriel, Aelan, Aevys, Aevelle, Aevella, Haelyx, Haelian, Aenir, Haethan, Haelan, Haelor, Aekor

Canon — Gaemon (T), Daemion (T & V), Daemon (V & T), Aemon (T), Aemma (T [Andal?]), Vaemond (V), Aemond (T), Daeron (V later T)

Derived — Daemyra, Daemys, Daemyn, Daemelle, Daema, Gaemar, Daerelle, Daerion, Aemys, Aemar, Aemor, Aemir, Aemira, Aemara, Aemora, Daemor, Daemora, Vaemon, Gaema, Gaemond, Gaemyn, Gaemion, Aemion, Gaemor, Aemior, Aemyn, Aemin, Aerona, Aemona, Aemia, Aeman, Aemal, Aemelle, Gaemia, Aemol, Aemil, Aemila, Aemilon, Aemilor, Aeminor, Daemyron, Daeminor, Haemon, Naemon, Haemia, Naema, Haemal, Haemar, Naemior, Naemor

Canon — Daenys, Daenerys, Daella, Daenaera (1 V), Daena, Daenora (Rest T)

Derived — Daenyra, Daenar, Daenor, Daenelle, Daenal, Daen, Nerys, Naera, Daenir, Daenyx, Daeryx, Daerys, Daera, Daerya, Daenya, Daenyron, Daenorion, Norion, Daenyrion, Daenarion, Daenaeron, Daellar, Daelar, Daelon, Daelor, Daelan, Daelana, Daelanys, Daelenys, Daelyn, Aenaera

Canon — Maegon, Maegor, Maegelle, Maelor, Maekar (All T)

Derived — Maegar, Maela, Maelys, Maegys, Maegera, Maegara, Maegerys, Maegal, Maegyn, Maegan, Maekor, Maekaera, Maegaera, Maegaela, Maekion, Maelyra, Maegyra, Maelara, Maelar

Canon — Elaena (T), Valaena, Laena, Laenor (3 V), Helaena (T)

Derived — Laenys, Laenyra, Laenar, Laenelle, Helaenys, Elaenor, Elaenys, Laenion, Laenir, Laenyx, Elaenar, Laenora, Haena, Vaena, Alaena, Haela, Norys, Alaenys, Vaenys, Galaena

Canon — Visenya, Viserys, Viserra (T)

Derived — Viserya, Visenys, Senys, Saenys, Saenya, Saenar, Saenelle, Saenyelle, Saenyella, Serya, Serra, Serys, Saenir, Saenyx, Saenor, Viselya, Senial, Serial, Saerial, Visellan, Visarys

Canon — Baelon, Baela, Baelor, Balerion (Blackfyre), Valerion (Rest T)

Derived — Baelys, Baelar, Bael, Baelir, Alerion, Aleria, Aelir, Valeria, Valerys

Canon — Jaehaerys (T), Jacaerys (V), Lucerys (V), Jaehaera (T)

Derived — Lucerra, Lucerion, Jaehaerion, Jaerion, Lucerya, Jacaera, Jaena, Jaenelle, Jaecelle, Jaesir, Jaekar, Jaeron, Jaela, Jaelon, Jaelor, Jaerys, Haerys, Haera, Kael, Kaecion, Kaeciel, Kaecelle, Kaerys, Kaerion, Kaeriel, Lucarys, Jaeca, Nicerys, Nicaerys, Hecaerys, Nicerion, Hicaerys, Niceria, Nicae, Lucarya, Lucaenys, Lucaena, Nocorys

Canon — Lianna, Larissa (V [Andal? First Men?]), Alarra (FM [Massey]), Alyssa (V & T [Andal? FM?]), Alysanne (T)

Derived — Alysor, Lianys, Lianor, Sianna, Amanna, Alanna, Noranna, Narra, Nyssa, Anyssa, Alarya, Asenna, Norissa, Irenna, Orissa, Lysarra, Lisarra, Aranna

Canon — Valarr, Vaella (T)

Derived — Vaelys, Valarys, Alarys, Alarya, Valarya, Valarra, Vaellan

Canon — Gael, Saera, Shaera (T)

Derived — Saerys, Gaelys, Gaelor, Gaelon, Gaelion, Saerion, Shaerys, Shaerial, Shaerelle, Shaelle, Shael, Shaelys, Saevys, Shaerion, Gaela, Shaela

Canon — Corwyn (V [Andal?]), Corlys (V)

Derived — Corla, Corlia, Corlaenys, Cora, Corys, Corlenys, Corlea, Corlae, Corvan, Corvana, Corvys

Malentine

Rhogar(/Rogar?/Rogare? [FM? HV?])

Monford

Monterys (All V)

Derived — Terys, Teraea, Taeraea, Taerion, Monys, Monerys, Montys, Rhogel, Malentys, Malenta, Monterion, Monterra, Mona, Monae, Monarra, Malentina, Lentys, Lenta, Lenya, Taenys, Taena, Alentys, Malya, Malys, Malea, Malena, Malenna, Malaena, Amalla, Alenna, Marissa, Monassa, Monessa, Monerra, Mosarra, Malarra, Malenys, Amarys, Mantys, Malta, Maltys, Maltine, Maltina, Amalta, Amaltine, Alta, Altys, Altarra, Maltar, Maltarys, Marion, Maltior, Malerion, Mornys, Mortys, Morton, Omorr, Omon, Malenion, Malenior, Almys, Monissa, Montissa, Montessa, Omona, Omorra, Maltion, Malton, Almont, Almae, Maltorra, Torys, Garys, Garla, Galtys, Torrine, Tarine, Maltarine, Maltarra, Almerra, Almarra, Almorra, Alterra, Lamina, Monta, Monte, Montae, Taera, Taerine, Taerin, Taerys, Manta, Almina, Almine, Rhonal, Rhonior, Rhomys, Almar, Malar, Malarr, Malarys, Almarys, Maline, Rhomalt, Rhomion, Rhomior, Rhomia, Rhoma, Rhoton, Rhomine, Rhomal, Rhogal, Rhomina, Rhomon, Rhomar, Rhomorr, Almassa, Rhomys, Rhomyn, Torial, Malial, Rhovys, Rhowyn, Matarra, Atarra, Rhomond, Rhomorra

Matarys (T)

Derived — Matarya, Matara, Matys, Tarys, Tarya, Atara, Atarys, Tarial, Tarhael, Matarr

Canon — Orys, Borys, Orryn (Baratheon)

Derived — Orial, Ora, Orya, Orra, Borya, Boria, Boryl, Orelle, Orianne, Orael, Orrael, Orhael, Borion, Orion, Bora, Orian, Oryal, Oryas, Orias, Orios, Oryos, Rys, Ryssa, Ryssal, Orlisse, Rysla, Ryn, Rynel, Rynella, Boryn, Borryn, Rynal, Dorys, Orella, Dorella, Oryl, Orgillac, Orgyll, Borella, Borylla, Bolia, Bolas, Orlas, Ollyn, Olys, Olya, Orianna, Lorys

Canon — Maelys, Haegon, Aeryn, Calla, Rhalla, Shaena (Blackfyre)

Canon non-Westerosi Valyrians:

Jaenara Belaerys, Aurion

Canon Dragons:

Urrax, Terrax, Balerion, Vhagar, Meraxes, Vermithor, Caraxes, Meleys, Syrax, Vermax, Arrax, Tyraxes, Tessarion, Shrykos, Morghul, Viserion, Rhaegal

Unknown — Gaelithox?, Aegarax?

Original & HV Derived (some more suitable for dragons) — Aelsior, Qaelys, Qylys, Vhenys, Vhenya, Vhinyae, Vhanir, Vaenir, Vaenyx, Baelykos, Lykael, Lykaera, Raqael, Raqel, Raqys, Raqyssa, Raqissa, Raqar, Raqir, Raqor, Raqora, Raqior, Kionar, Malkion, Malkios, Vhaltir, Malkior, Vaedys, Vaedar, Elenys, Elenia, Elenar, Elenarys, Elenarya, Elenara, Kostys, Kostir, Kostior, Pelarys, Pelonia, Pelonys, Eledrae, Eledrys, Eledryn, Peria, Perza, Perzys, Zysa, Amisor, Amisa, Aexior/Aeksior, Aexion/Aeksion, Raenion, Raenior, Qana, Qanys, Qantys, Ebrior, Ebrion, Jelmys, Jelmarys, Jelmazys, Jelissa, Tessarys, Tessara, Tessarae, Dessan, Dessenae, Hārys, Tōmarr, Tōmarys, Tōmasyn, Tessarax, Syrion, Syriel, Jēdarys, Jēdaria

Possible High Valyrian roots for names:

Rhaen — to; meet, find, encounter, discover

Bael — to help, to aid, to assist

Jael — to want, to wish/to store, to house

Jaelarys — hope (possible name)

#I was just hoarding these for no reason and then I realised oh I have a reddit now #but then I also realised that I don't despise myself so I remembered I still have tumblr #look I even kept the “common” names :D #I just want folks to realize we got options 😭 #enough with throwing a bunch of consonants in the blender #let's respect the convention of AE #and -ys #and George might have had burnout when it came on to names but we're better off aren't we?! #yeah! #he got Rhaena from Rhaenys we can work with these We Have Options! #but yes as you can see I still had limits #house targaryen #house velaryon #house blackfyre #house baratheon #dragging them back to their roots by hook or crook >:( #it's bandoleros or nothing #therefore I guess it's only right to tag #house celtigar #FUCK didn't even show up in recommended tags this is so sad 😭 #valyrian names #sometimes I compare a name's pronunciation in Common vs High Valyrian and my head hurts #Syrax what's happening w u bb 😭 #is the y in Visenya a rounded vowel or actually an i *sleep-mussed contemplating Jungkook meme* #I'm good at names?? #that's crazy

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THE BOYS ARE BACK IN TOWN (TO GET SPLATTERED) OOH MYSTERY! PANIC! DRAMA! EMOTIONS!! LOTS N LOTS OF MEAT, SCARES, AND DICK-OUT FUN! BLOOD IN THE BAYOU HAS GOT IT ALL BABY!!!

blood in the bayou would make SUUUCh a great campy horror movie, its real in my heart, so real.....

#jrwi bitb #jrwi bitb spoilers #jrwi fanart #cw blood #cw gore #cw body horror #EHEHEE YKNOW WHAT I LOVE ABT POSTING ART ON TUMBLR.... #I GET TO TAAALK N TALK N TALK YIPPEEE I LOVE TALKIN ABOUT MY ART!! espeeecially WHEN I THINK ALOT ABT IT #SO this is older. i actually drew this right around the time episode 2 came out. but i WAS kinda stupid slow about it #SOO its a lil old and i dont remember aaall the immediate feelings i had about this episode #OHH MY GOD THIS WAS THE EP WHERE THEY FOUND OUT WHAT THE MAP LOOKS LIKE RIGHT??? #DUDE I REMEMBER BEING SO GENUINELY FUCKIN C A U G H T BY THAT LIKE WHAT??? WHAT??? IT LOOKS LIKE A WHUT??? HUHN???? NHU???????? #OOH ohoh okay okay THE BARRIER right. have yall ever seen annihilation? that kickass movie with that weird dimension? just look it up #in the movie theres a Wall that separates them from the fucked up dimension. its glossy and strange just like a bubble. SOUND FAMILIAR HMMM #THATS what i imagine the wall looked like. gotta draw that at somepoint. i also used that texture for the background color. do ya see it? #i remember when i was first watching it. i thought that maybe it was actually worse outside #like they finally get past the barrier and its the same everywhere else. like the entire earth is already taken.sighh.... #CAN I JUST SAY I LOVE KIAN STONE BTW. AINT NO ONE ELSE HAD THER DICK OUT AS MUCH AS THIS KING. HONESTLY IM A KIAN APOLOGIST #KIAN STONE HAS DONE NOTHING WRONG EVER. HE FOLLOWS HIS HEART AND THE MUSIC DUUUDEE!!!!! HIS HEART AND THE MUSIC ARE ONE DUUUUDEEE!!!! #ILL HAVE MORE THINGS TO SCREAM ABT KIAN WHEN I POST MY EP 3 DOODLE PAGE. OKAY. IM NOT SOBBING LOUDLY. I LOVE N SUPPORT KIAN #AND RAAAND oh raaaand he loves his momma.... n his momma loves him.... hes suuuuch a sad lil disaster of a man.... #i wanna nurse him back to health like an injured little animal #wtf who said that #anyway ROLAN MY SMARTEST BOY IN THE WORLD #I remember listening to the first episode (right at midnight as i was sleeping) n thinkin #dawww rolans so baby :)) hes so baby girl n small and pathetic #and then i saw the official art of him n im like NO WAY #HE LOOKS WAY TOO COOL IN THAT how could this little man ever be that cool AND BOOY DOES IT PROVE ME WRONG. HOLY SHIT. ROLAN. BEAST OF A MAN #OKAAYAY teehee ill share more thoughts later. if u read this far tell me ALL ur thoughts abt bitb ep 2 #kk bye guys ill see u within the next rotatiion mwah mwah love u guys baaaiiiii. please survive for me.

[simcardiac-arrested]

honestly don't even remember what happened in 2017 at all, it was a year. that year is no longer.

what the fuck DIDN’T happen in 2017

#fucking cuphead came out. fortnite. little nightmares #FUCKING PUBG #NIGHT IN THE WOODS #LIFE IS STRANGE PREQUEL. WHICH I PLAYED WAY TOO MUCH OF BTW . it was like the second coming of christ to me #hollow knight but i didn’t know about hollow knight back then #ddlc … #slime rancher. and yet another dlc for ark. Back when people still liked playing ark. and by that i mean #nobody fucking liked playing ark. but it’s like stockholm syndrome. you wouldnt get it #FUCKING GANG BEASTS !!!! revolutionary. life changing. and then ? Bendy and the shit machine #anyone remember that ??? anyone remember the wejrdass comic on tumblr that was like bendy and the quest for the ink machine? #I do. I do. #but that’s just games. you know what else came out in 2017? the fucking emoji movie. DO YOU UNDERSTAND #DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT IT WAS LIKE BEING ON THE INTERNET WHEN EMOJI MOVIE CAME OUT?? You dont. You havent seen what i’ve seen #2017 was the year of shape of you. of despacito. of that’s what i like by bruno mars. Do you understand how insufferable it was being on the #internet while those songs were popular. Have you even watched the 2017 youtube rewind #2017 WAS ALMOST THE YEAR LOGAN PAUL HAD HIS FOREST CONTROVERSY. UNFORTUNATELY HE HAD IT ON LIKE JANUARY 2ND OR 3RD OF 2018 #so it’s almost 2017 but not quite #pewdiepie was still popular …. #most important of all? i was a homestuck fan in 2017. I was a fan of many things #much more stuff happened but if i have to think about 2017 for a second longer my brain will fry #cramswering

[skyburger]

"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game... #to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know. #well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it! #anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations) #so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭 #my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game. #this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat! #imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

[snow-and-saltea]

yesterday i spent 45 minutes of my life watching a video essay criticising the use of cheap shock values and crossing of taboos for a video game and i went from "he has a point even if he's explaining it in a really inflammatory way" to "oh umm... i can see how he thinks that way even if i don't agree" to "oh this guy's just straight up using people on tumblr as material for an audience to get mad at like other outdated people on the internet. nvm he's just an asshole"

#yuu rambles #it was about the coffin of andey and leyley btw - i agreed w him on the first half of the video about how it felt rather noncommittal to it #concepts and themes but i recognise its not really *trying* to be serious which means its not a reasonable #framework to judge the intention and execution of its work - an apple pie does use butter in it but just bc it does #doesnt mean you get to compare it to steak; a dish that also uses butter. this is intuitively easy to understand for me #but nonetheless it was like 3 am i had stuff to do so i just put it on my background to listen #he makes a diss at “people on tumblr” early on that i just raised my eyebrow at but shrugged it off bc its such an old joke #its lost its zinger; and im p sure its just confirmation bias from going into the tags of the thing you dont like lol if you use tumblr #normally you wouldn't come across things you dont like bc you'd have blocked them. But Anyways #then at the end he got sooo self righteous about how people on tumblr are insane and weird and showed screencaps about how twisted everyone #who likes the game are. there were some screenshots of people's post that were like “incest is bad and shouldn't be explored in media. #paragraph break‚ me who is an incest survivor and finds it helpful for working through my trauma: lol” #those types of post. but then lmfao he started going out of pocket and just mentioned the lists of other people he doesnt like which are #a screenie of a video essay about how kink is important at pride #and then some other stuff i dont remember anymore w the tumblr screenies #it was very mockingly written and said and at the end of it i felt sad i couldnt #block people on youtube lmao. like its not i dont want this guy to comment on my videos. i dont want to see his channel involuntarily #recommended to me ever again. just resorted to the most base sort of trolling behaviour he accused and judge other game devs for in his #video essay. good fucking god. the psychological projection is unreal #i dont have any strong feelings towards the game at the end of it even though i thought i would be like Eugh at first #but my bleh for any cheap gimmicks is overshadowed by my disdain for this guy's reliance on self righteous rhetoric #i discovered another new channel i really like tho after that vid!! bc i had to watch smth else to cleanse my palate lmao #they're jacob geller and freddydude! ive only seen one vid from freddydude about his essay on #detention‚ the horror game set in taiwan during the era of white terror under new cn leadership after ww2 #im personally quite jumpy so his humour and the way he edits his videos to make it silly even though its Scary #made me like it a lot!! im going through jacob geller's other vids but ive watched three specific types of terror #and the one about pinocchio which made me go :00 wow his scripts are super good! #again everything at your own discretion esp w the whole james somerton shit‚ but i enjoyed what I've seen so far #i just wanted to end this in a somewhat positive note JSHDKSJDJD the ramblings Continue... #theres a pedantic error in one of ky tags but im gonna update it when im on comp bc mobile sucks smh my head

[littlecutiexox]

I know healing takes a long time but god I’m tired of being a mess

#ive just triggered myself really #remembered the whole convo and the ‘ sorry i didnt realise’ and fucked myself over mentally #maybe one day I’ll be able to control my emotions and not spiral but today is not the day #i should really up my therapy sessions im such a mess #had to mute her on social media because eh #which sucks majorly because shes a great person and a great friend #but how am i meant to be around her without thinking #hey your boy did this to me #and he had nothing else to say other than sorry didnt realise #last time i checked people saying no should make you realise #people physically stopping you should make you realise #AGREEING to do nothing more than kissing should make you realise that i didnt want anything more than kissing #okay okay this is gonna probably lose me followers and i know thats not what yall are here for #I’ll go off for the night #maybe post some ass tomorrow #idk we’ll see #but im typing this out because sorry i trauma dump on tumblr a lot #it helps me cope #ahhhhhh #so done with it

[jewishfalin]

Keep remembering shit from my last relationship man that sucked

#im like maybe it wasnt that bad i got upset sometimes too #but then i remember how i was treated and its like Oh. Yeah no wonder I was fucking frustrated #theres was so much and it was all like. he had such a calm demeanor about it while being so fucking mean to me #or he would like. act nice while saying mean stuff #and then if i got upset i looked like the asshole #and even when we were alone like. i always thought he was busy. #so i couldnt bring shit up #the only times we could talk about shit was when his gf was there #it was so weird and UGGHH #he picked at my insecurities all the time #and the whole time i just felt like a pet to him and his gf #and it felt weird how they talked about me to others. him and their gf. like they had to bring up im jewish and disabled. it was all weird #anyways i want to scream #annd im worried he'll stalk my tumblr even tho i blocked him bc of things hes told me before :I welp. thats their problem now #vent #birdy SCREAMS

[dreamertrilogys]

“zain do YOU have a tumblr?” / “yeah in middle school lol” / “yeah you would” I’M NEVER GOING TO LIVE THIS DOWN EVER EVER

#sorry i can’t stop thinking about this. Help #it’s so fucking funny but also like. yeah you would. oh my GOD WHDNENFNNDFN #.txt #crushposting #<- yeah same guy so what #also yeah this was an irl conversation but trust me when i say this is an exact quote. usually i’m bad at remembering specifics of #conversations but just trust me on this one #to be fair considering the number of people being absolutely astonished that HE never had a tumblr (like. i mean. just look at him. you’d #understand what i mean immediately) the whole conversation was probably also very embarrassing for him (because like imagine being told you #look like a tumblr user for 10 whole minutes) but still. it was embarrassing for everyone involved except maybe jennifer i think

[asyourshadowfalls]

people who don't understand how long distant friendships can be healthy and safe really infuriate me. sorry babe you don't even know how to navigate a streaming site without getting ads if i don't give you a pay by play, i get that you're a dumbass when it comes to how people can be digital yet safe. but fucking hell throwing away a 10 year relationship over your fears? rooted in truly thinking i must be a dumbass who didn't do my due diligence in checking all the details of a person who's been my friend for 3 years. if i were a petty bitch i'd tell her how fucked it is that as she believes im going into a dangerous situation is when she's okay with stepping back and losing my trust? like yeah because that's the right thing to do when youre worrying about someones safety. also petty x2 would be saying how i kept my mouth shut beyond initial complaints when she was in toxic relationships because i knew i needed to be someone she felt safe coming to when she finally got to the point of leaving.

#fuck #god i needed to rant #it just boggles my fucking mind #like im fine with her thinking my choice is absolutely stupid AND with her telling me that #i expected that #but going no contact for over a week after telling her the news? #“sorry i forgot cause i was coming home from mexico” #babe that aint a 10 day trip home #and you know what N has adhd too so yeah he has also forgotten to respond for days at a time #but when i drop a bomb like moving out of state #you bet your ass he'll be remembering the need to respond before being reminded by me 10 days later #although to be fair ive never dropped a bomb like that on him #but we've had many breaks in convo between his and my forgetting but when its something that he cares about ofc hes reaching out #and thats the point #anyway if only she still read my tumblr lmao #i just don't get how she seems to not even know who i am and what processes i went through to make this choice #shit was like a year in the making #she's known about the possibility! fuck #petty x3 would be telling her that if she had followed through with our plans to move in together when her lease ended #right at the perfect time of when i would have to move out #well then id still be here. but no she did what was right for her and her boyfriend #which obviously frustrating but i fucking respected it #personal #liz #she just sent me a snap #im curious but no #i refuse #ill check it in 10 days lmao #its been 40 minutes but im back baby #i just remembered that she even knows that i was “catfished” when i was like 12

[cliffburton]

the thing about being a dyke and Insane about a man enough to have him as url icon and even taking his name as like butch name is that ppl will think ure secretlyyyyyy in loveeeee with himmmmmmmm like once a "friend" told me "hahaahhs i ship you with him hahhah i know you wont admit it and it's okayyyy but i KNOW youre into him" .go fuck yourselves maybe.

#the dyke experience 101 #incantations #ppl are weird about me and its fucking awful to live with it #this has happened to me over and over btw i think tumblr is the only place it hasn't if i can't remember well #all and all on my thoughts on what i Am for myself and shit i have something clear and it is THAT i dont have shit to prove to any1 #but there's a justified anger in being misunderstood ON PURPOSE #like im telling u i dont like this particular man i am just like. interested? a fan of? also i am insane abt him but u know that only if #u thoroughly check my tumblr blog. blog these ppl never saw in This state #im going insane abt this probably bcos i saw the dyke b***k**g tag a bit ago and i am remembering the time i had to #like there was this hugeeeee oh he's the man who's going to de-dykefy u NO YOU'RE WRONG I BECAME DYKER AFTER HIM #lesbophobes kill yourselves.

[crystar1um]

i finally love lord of the rings

#i always had a fondness of it and it still terrifies me #but the hope and pain threaded into the series #i need to finish the last two movies cause i barely remember them #and im tempted to read the books #but also rings of power to me is beautiful #i feel lim getting sucked into shipping hell but i genuinely am fascinated with galadriel and sauron as standalone cahracters and their #dynamic with eachother #and its prob tumblr sexyman eyeglasses and im missing prob 92837492 pages of lore behind sauron and hes not actually tragic #but what the fuck man :( im sad #but its like you have no time to be sad because any sympathy is IMMEDIATELY burned away #which i think thats another layer of like I WANT TO BE SAD BUT YOURE JUST AWFUL BUT INTERESTING #im compelled by basic edgey media ill never have taste