I can't even begin to describe how lonely it is to scroll through this tag trying to find content by other survivors so I don't feel so alone, only to be met with shipping discourse and people educating on why it's called csem and not cp.
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I'm having an overstimulated sort of night and I swear, at times like this, I relate to Daniel wanting to go make his little models quietly until everything gets manageable again.
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Ough I am Going Through It right now.
I had a couple REALLY BAD nightmares last night, and now I'm scared to go to sleep in fear of having another nightmare (when I have nightmares it tends to go on for at least a couple days/nights).
It's 1 am and I have work in the morning T^T but I don't wanna sleep
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I have the watch party for the recording of the last play I worked but I’ve been ghosting 💨 and I’m gonna see 💨 and 🗿 today like in front of all these ppl and I’m so anxious about it and I’m trying to be normal but I can’t decide if I should tell her like. “Yeah December just was crazy and the grief and the stress and then January has been crazy too.” Or should I be like. “My family doesn’t trust you. You’ve literally been hanging out with me and then randomly said “ah….. I’m a bad friend.” And then continued acting the exact same way. HELLO? also 💨 was the one who brought the whole 41 year old man thing into my life and also left him at MY HOUSE alone with me for like. Hours. with no way to kick him out bc her boyfriend was his ride and they drove somewhere like two hours away while leaving him with me in my bed. HELLO? also 41 year old man stole my dab pen and a blanket from my house and she’s acting like she had no idea but like girl. You didn’t tell me about the blanket for like weeks even tho I know for sure you saw his ass getting in and out of ur boyfriends car with the blanket from my house and you didn’t say ANYTHING??? And there’s the time weed went missing from my house after you came over. Like my mom and brother are convinced you’re stealing from us and I can’t even defend you bc i don’t even know if I can trust you anymore and I’ve been doing so much better since I completely detached from your batshit crazy life and your boy drama and your boys baby mama drama” Ughhhhhhhhhh. But I’m so scared of confrontation and I don’t want to have grudges and bad vibes between me and people from theater esp not ppl from theater who I know smoke weed and accepted me into their little friend group but ugh and it’s so extra bad bc 🗿 doesn’t really know about half of the drama with 💨 so I can’t even like talk to someone outside of my family to get a third party opinion and I’m just like losing my minddddddd and idk what to do and the watch party is at five tonight and I want to throw uppppp
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