#for a decade

[luna-light-eclipse]

Young Wolf with a throne world and finding out about it when they experience a permanent death but they crawl out a barren sea of blood and corpses of everyone they’ve ever killed.

#luna’s brainbox #destiny #destiny 2 #just thinking of a Wolf who’s been on their last straw #and they wake up to this #they wake up drowning in their kills #pulling themselves up by the cold stiff bodies burying them #because they are a guardian #a dead thing #all they will ever do is kill #you know those people who have tens of thousands of kills on on like one gun but with a bunch of weapons? #imagine how many bodies that would be if you piled it up #I’ve managed to get a thousand or more kills in one day multiple times #imagine doing that #for a decade #a Wolf who only sees themself as a weapon and those they’ve been aimed towards #I’d love to do this with Aster but it wouldn’t really fit #guess it’s up for grabs in the box now

[forestofsprites]

sometimes life is creating a brand new playlist, titling it as such, and then filling it with the exact same songs that you've been listening to for the past decade

#i have 12 sleep playlists #each one is just a slightly different variation of the exact same songs i've been falling asleep to #for a decade #with the odd inclusion of a new song from one of the same bands #i even go back to the sleep playlist that i made in 2013 AND MOVING SONGS FROM THERE TO THE NEW SLEEP PLAYLIST #which is literally called 'new sleep' #comfort in routine etc etc etc #i am the same guy who can listen to maybe five new songs a year absolute tops #thoughts

[isagrimorie]

No one hates Russell T Davies (and Julie Gardner) more than Christopher Eccleston.

And people need to really stop asking if he’s returning to Doctor Who. He’s only doing Big Finish because RTD has no hand in that production, and he is doing it for the fans.

(And as he honestly pointed out, money).

#i only dislike rtd because #i am not a fan of his narrative choices #but eccleston had first hand #experience how negligent a boss rtd #was and then he got blacklisted #for a decade #so no #he will never return #the closest he might have got #was under chibnall and with jodie #but now rtd is back? #hell will freeze over first

[phlurrii]

Speaking of shiny mews…

BABY ACQUIRED.

So after squealing and screaming like a made woman, so much my poor cat rolled off my lap, I shoved this baby in a dive ball and OFFICIALLY CAUGHT THE ONLY CATCHABLE LEGITIMATE SHINY MEW. Still available… I remember seeing this event when I younger and watching how you could chase mew, almost playing with it before encountering it. Being both memorized and devastated I missed it and would never get to experience the epitome of mew events.

Playing through all the Pokémon games, I would always fall for every fake video, online rumour, or trade to get mew. I offered any Pokémon of value I had to trade for one and finally got a Japanese mew around age 10. I loved that lil cat to death, though I’ve since lost it to the void of time and foggy childhood memory; my next mew that was all mine were two lil babies I got in an XY mystery gift event. That was birth of Meau and Mew for me, the first I always called my “original” mew or “ancient” mew like the card, while the second I considered my cannon mew. I still have both babies to this day and have since brought them to home.

Despite such, I never forgot about the catchable mew in emerald, though conceded to move on to more modern day mews! From shelling out 50$ to get mew in that bloody pokeball in lets go, to my father letting me catch the mew in Pokémon Go (I didn’t care much for the game, but my chad of a father got into it solely to bond with me, Rest In Peace you lovable bastard) and finally my level 1 mew from BDSP. Which, due to my interest in breaking/glitching Nintendo games, has now given me infinite access to level 1 mew and up via the god egg in SWSH. I can now perpetually have a starter mew in any future games that mew is in, eheheheheh childhood dream accomplished >;3c

That, so far has been my journey.. though it didn’t quite end there. With my attention being brought to the pomeg glitch in emerald, reactivating the old sea map event, and hunting/catching myself a shiny lad… there is only ONE mew to left for me to get. The original Red, Blue, Yellow, and Green glitched mew. Now the issue with them is they are not transferable out of those games, unless you do another intensely complicated glitch up, right, down, left, left, clap your hands, and do a lil jiggy lol. So with shiny mew caught, I’m on my way to dragging the TRUE ancient mew out of the first games, naming the bugger Meau, and bringing them all the damn way up to Scarlet!! My army of mews will only then, be complete.

Finally, for those fellow weirdos that read this far, due to my now infinite amount of mews, both shiny and otherwise; if anyone would like a legit, albeit cloned, mew with a specific name, feel free to reply to this post and I’ll do my best to sort it out! Shiny one’s will have to wait tho cuz transferring those bad boys through 5 generations is a biTch.

#mewwwwwwwww #this pink flying cat has been living rent free #for a decade #in my head #ancient mew #mew #pokemon #pokémon comic #the ancient mew #mewtwo #mew pokemon #mewtwo pokémon #pokémon fanart #shiny mew #emerald #Pokémon emerald #Pokémon xy

[spandexinspace]

People are expecting a DA trailer at the Games Awards and it's literally just going to be Bioware sweating bullets as Larian wins 534 awards.

#I feel so bad for the actual devs because it could probably have been a wonderful game but EA and higher ups have been jerking them around #For a decade #And now they have to release in the shadow of bg3 #And unless they've somehow scraped together something really 100% unique they will never escape that comparison #And having interesting lore is only going to take you that far and probably won't impress those not in the known #Dragon age

[red-catmander]

i feel like there's a specific Bit canach has with emberthroat (one of many because he likes needling her) where he insists that if they ever came to blows again he would win because he isn't hampered by little things like 'hallucinogens' and 'being up for four days in some squalid cave' even as the idea becomes more and more absurd and this, specifically, annoys the shit out of her because she's from such a martial culture. the digs he makes about her appearance don't even register, she thinks they're funny, but this one bit drives her to teeth-gritting madness and he hasn't slipped up once in over ten years. she repeatedly explains that he's vegetal and she can set fires with her brain and he just chortles and shakes his head. when she comes hobbling out of icebrood saga, two dragons down, he nods sagely and says yes this will look very good framed on my wall when i do best you. she's tearing off her shirt and challenging him to a brawl in the fantasy tescos express and he's like no no commander i respect you too much

#guild wars 2 #gw2 #canach #jozra emberthroat #emberthroat #they're besties i think but you'd never think it if you saw them interact with one another #honour demands she can't just wail on some vegetal manlet who won't fight back so he just gets to sip his brandy and be smug about it #for a decade #they have a fun dynamic together i think #i feel like for legion charr challenging and beating the snot out of friends it a-ok if they both go for it but he WON'T #battle blue balls for 3650 days in a row she's chewing on table legs

[cyborgdragongirl]

There was a post circulating yesterday about St Paddy’s day and about the culture and origins (super informative! I learned a lot, you should check it out) and OP was talking about not being an ass and drinking “Irish car bombs” or “Black & Tan” and said “you wouldn’t drink a 9/11?”

Like, I’m definitely not drinking Irish car bombs I know better than that. But like, as an American who was like 5 when it happened, I would absolutely drink a 9/11

I’m picturing two taaaalllll shot glasses (I don’t drink often I don’t know anything about alcohol forgive me mixologists) filled with something opaque (grey shimmery something seems ideal?) and on fire

#oh no a couple brown people blew up our buildings #let’s bomb their entire country to the Stone Age #for a decade #then when we get bored we’ll claim their neighbors have wmd’s and we’ll go bomb them to the Stone Age too #cuz murica #oh and also we’re going to drastically ramp up the police state and harassing anyone who’s vaguely Muslim looking/sounding here at home #and that’s all the cherry on top of the shit filled pie that is just basic American racism

[herequeerexitentialfear]

one of the solid-est Elena/Celia scenes is Elenas graduation.

Celia was finaly kicked out of school age 17 when she finaly was to absent due to getting money to raise Cecio. She had the potential to be an amazing student, but how busy she was combined with her frequent injuries and trauma meant it didn't work out.

Celia hates this. She loved Elena, but Elena sees her face when she talks about how schools going after Celia left, so she avoided the topic.

The whole block was so exited to see Elena graduate, and put together spare money for a bouquet of roses for her, but something happened and the money had to be used.

So Celia, who hates the school and reminders of her failure, goes to the local park with her knife, and cuts flowers for Elena herself.

The graduation is indoors, but it's raining, so Celia is soaked by the time she gets there, but she sneaks in, and everyone moves away from her, and her freinds abandoned her as the ceremony went on, so by the ends in this sea of faces and chairs, Celia is alone, a handmade bouquet on the seat next to her.

Elena walks up to the stage as a well dressed man stands too, and as she ascends the stairs to the stage, it's announced she got the full ride scholarship, and the man reaches out his hand, he's her sponsor

Celia was going to confess. But now? She won't let herself hold Elena back. So she leaves the bouquet on the seat, and at the end of a long line of congratulations, Celia wishes Elena well, hoping all the best and for her dreams to come true, because she deserves this opportunity so much, and then leaves.

Rough thumbnail idea below

Big on the ascending vibes. Man is in white, Elena is climbing up towards the outstretched hand, away from Celia and her old life. Chairs moved away from Celia and empty ones for the friends that diched. Elena is in golden light but it doesn't reach Celia, who's hair looks red in the shadows. Roses are bright red and the one bit of colour in the shadows/half of the drawing where Celia is.

#And then they don't fucking see each other #For a decade #Aughhhhh #And Elena finds the roses #Aughhhhhhh #Anyway I fucking love them #Fucked up sapphics #celia #maría elena #Ughh I love them #BTW the guy is literally just some art guy sponsoring her not like romantic or anything

[techmomma]

You're into nuclear bomb and radiation stuff!?!? PLEASE INFODUMP TO ME

IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING SPECIFIC YOU WANNA KNOW SEND ME AN ASK otherwise I'll get a big ol' textpost ready for you <3

#ilu so much im so glad someone else loves this horrible morbid topic and i can finally go nuts #i have so much #i have been holding in #for a decade

[heybaetae]

hiiii, how are your gifs so freaking smooth?? 👀

capture every frame, always scan for duplicates to delete, and always set the speed at 0.05. here’s a great example post!

#ask #ignoring the diss at kmplayer in that post tho bc it’s what i’ve always used lol #for a DECADE #the tone of that post is kinda ugly but the gif examples are helpful

[gothwizardmagic]

discovered JUST NOW that APPARENTLY in 2012 i was diagnosed with BPD and nobody FUCKING TOLD ME!!?!??!?!? ????? ?? ?

which i found out today becuase i got my psych report and it mentioned that i have been undiagnosed with bpd because i dont fit the criteria which is. true. and i never did. so technically record time on me being given a diagnosis and it being retracted lmao

#like its fucked that this has been on my records affecting every interaction ive ever had w a mental health professional #for A DECADE #and nobody ever told me #but i choose to look at it as funny instead because thats more enjoyable #there was a whole ton of stuff i was diagnosed with at 18 and never told about #histrionic personality traits was my favourite one tbh bc like. the way its described is basically just... I Diagnose You With Theatre Kid #there was also one that i googled and couldnt find any scientific writings on at all #except one article that was? super racist????? #so like idk what this psych was up to #he was also grossly transphobic to my sister when she saw him so the amount of respect i have for this fuck is UNDERGROUND #but he rly did say 'yes this kid has bpd no i will not tell him or treat it in any way shape or form bye :)'

[powdermelonkeg]

Important rules/tips I've learned as an adult that helped with anxiety

If people are mad at you, it's their responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

If they're mad at you in secret anyways, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

If people don't like what you're doing, it's their responsibility to tell you

If they say it's fine when it's really not, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

People are allowed to be wrong about you

If they are wrong about you, wait for them to bring it up, because if you try to, you will inevitably overcorrect

Some people are committed to misunderstanding you. You will not win arguments against them. Yes, even if you explain your point of view. They do not care. Drop it

The worst thing that will happen from a first-time offense is being told not to do it again. Maybe with a replacement if you broke something

You can improve relationships and gauge willingness to talk to you by giving compliments. It's like a daily log-in bonus and nobody thinks twice about it

Most things are better after you sleep on them

Most things are better after you have a meal

Most things are better after you shower

Your brain makes up consequences that are irrational. If the worst DOES come to pass and someone acts like they do in your head, they are overreacting, and you are entitled to say "what the fuck"

If your chest hurts after you feel like you've made a social error, that's called rejection-sensitive dysphoria. It means your anxiety is so bad that it's causing you physical pain, which is a good indicator that you're overreacting. Tense yourself, hold it for 20 seconds, let it go, then find a distraction

If you're suddenly angry at someone after you feel like you made a social error, that's also rejection-sensitive dysphoria. You are going to feel annoyed about it for awhile, but being genuinely pissed off is your anxiety trying to find something to blame to take the responsibility off your shoulders, and getting scared because it can't justify itself. Deep breaths, ask yourself how much you ACTUALLY want to be angry at that person, then find a distraction

"Sour grapes" is more healthy for you than stewing. Deciding you don't like someone who's perpetually annoyed with you, won't talk to you, etc. makes letting go of anxiety over them easier

If people don't like you, they will find reasons to be annoyed with you when they otherwise wouldn't. If people do like you, they will find reasons NOT to be annoyed with you when they otherwise would. People do not ping-pong between the two

You DO have to make a conscious choice not to think about something. If you're having trouble circling back to it, say out loud that you're done thinking about it and why. Then find a distraction

When you're upset, part of you is going to want to make false bids for attention (suddenly texting differently, heavy sighs, etc. but when someone asks you about it, you tell them it's nothing). Do not listen to it. You gain nothing from it except more misery

People like to help people they care about. It makes them feel good about themselves

If you think you're insufferable for needing help, see above. Yes, really. They get a serotonin kick from it

If you think you're insufferable for mannerisms you have, you either have to consciously choose not to do them, or accept that they're part of the package that comes with you. Being apologetic about existing does nothing except make you more miserable

If you do things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it makes it easier to do them when you hate it

If you avoid things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it reinforces and magnifies how bad it feels when you hate it

Seriously. Read those last two points again. If you can make yourself make a phone call when you've got nothing to lose, you will slowly lose that panic you get when you have to make a phone call you haven't prepared for. You do have to CONSCIOUSLY take that step

Hobbies that make you care for something get rid of that nagging feeling that you're not doing enough. Go grow some rosemary

If you don't engage with your hobbies regularly, you will feel miserable, and anxiety will spike

Hobbies are things that give you a bit of happiness. They do not have to be organized or named to do that. Go be creative in something. Play with coins. Make up lists. Start a new WIP

No one cares what you look like

If people point out things they don't like about how you look unprompted, they are being rude. You are entitled to say "what the fuck"

People who like you will find you pretty to some degree. Minor things about your appearance go completely unnoticed. Literally, scars and dots and blemishes do not register to someone who likes your company

You looking at yourself in the mirror is 10x more closely than anyone is going to look at you

If you're anxious about your body type, and you're creatively inclined, make/write an oc with that same shape. Give them nice things and make other characters love them. Put them on adventures. You'll start to see yourself in the mirror more kindly

You care about wording and perfect lines/colors way more than anyone who views your work ever will

Sometimes when you're upset, you're going to feel like not eating. Do not do that. Not eating makes you more miserable

Same with things you normally enjoy. Denying yourself helps no one. You are punishing yourself for being sad. Stop it

Both of these will take conscious decision to break the habit of. Make yourself do it anyways, and it will slowly get easier

And again, to reiterate: If someone is mad at you, it is THEIR responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

#anxiety #long post #i have been an adult for the better part of a decade and it has gotten SO much easier as i internalized these #swearing tw

[aholefilledwithtwigs]

I once had a landlord offhandedly mention that his mother had set this house on fire before. He and his wife lived on the first floor, and i rented the third.

Apparently his mom didn’t like his wife. So she set their house on fire. The house i was living in.

He assured me that everything was fine now and that this was years ago, just kinda laughed, smiled, and said ‘You know how moms are’

Yes. I know how moms are. I know how fucked up moms are as well. I have known many fucked up moms and fellow children of fucked up moms.

Attempted murder through arson is not typical mom behavior, even for a fucked up abusive mom

Oh, and his mother lived next door 🙃

#story time with sair #i might follow up with more #that was a wild living situation even for me #family owned #two neighboring houses of six units total #all of them one family/lived there decades #except the one unit rented out to me

[likegoldintheair]

when i say i wish people started using the reblog button more i don't mean it in a 'i want more notes' kind of way i mean it in a 'i want to read about your thoughts on this particular thing' and 'i want to have conversations in the tags' and 'i want this to feel like a community again and not like any of those boring social media platforms where artists are content creators and interactions never goes beyond a like'

#i am having thoughts and feelings again #the main reason i came back to tumblr after a decade away #was because i missed the community-like feeling #but it seems impossible to have that #no matter how hard i try

[sniperct]

If true we HAVE to make this the biggest flop in gaming history, as in 'destroys the company' levels of gaming flop as in a 'lesson must be taught' gaming flop, as in 'E.T. destroyed atari' gaming flop

#gta 6 #grand theft auto #video games #I totally get like #a $10 price increase every decade or so to keep up with inflation #I don't like it but I get it #but effectively doubling the current price is insane #we can't let that be normalized

[bunabi]

girl what happened to just creating fanwork to satisfy your needs

going directly to the developers for canonical changes to the work has gotta stop like what happened to boundaries

#all ive talked about for a decade is 'I wish DAI had XYZ thing' and never in my life have I DM'd Mark Darrah like a wish-granting mirror