#finals are hard this is how im coping

[lycanthroid]

when they were falling from the sky on meteors as babies. one could possibly say it was raining cats and dogs

#once again. i am sorry for party rocking #finals are hard this is how im coping #homestuck #john egbert #rose lalonde #jade harley #dave strider #what a daring dream

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Leonardo: Now, the recipe calls for 2 shots of vodka.

Dazai: *upends the bottle*

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp leonardo #ikevamp leo #ikevamp dazai #let it be known that #1. these two should never be left unsupervised #2. these two should never be left to gang up on poor mozart (rip amadi taken from us too soon by shenanigans) #3. these two should never. EVER. cook together #the result will either be the tastiest thing in the world #or something fit to send you to outer space (and i. do not mean the fun way i mean the 'what dimension are we in?????' way) #i also love how with this one i don't even see leo being mad that fker would be like #'finally none of that weak sauce two drops of alcohol. i wanna get TRASHED' #while everyone else (except maybe arthur) looks on in dismay #leonardo there's gotta be a better coping mechanism--no squeezing mc's ass like a stress ball is not a valid coping mechanism-- #(she said. like a LIAR--) #also man can i just say after reaching Dazai's rt ch.15 #upending a whole ass bottle of vodka is a hard MOOD #i feel like i always wondered why i struggled to see him as a bias and now im just like #'of course i know him. he's me' meme #there's only room for one evasive clown in this house and its ME #although to be fair i do think i qualify more as a jester #alas what can a mfer do but meme and be strong for mother (comte) #source: incorrect quote generator

[hella1975]

by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!! #like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha) #is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress) #and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us) #whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

[beautifel]

i. hate that i cant ignore any longer how fucked up i am

#ask 2 tag idk what to tag this but its negative. idk if i’m hormonal or whatever. it’s just that i’m so extremely emotional lately #like i always havebeen but it’s insane lately and i know some of the reasons but i have no idea what to do abt it. which is bad #i wish i knew how to confront …it all. im so avoidant it is genuinely pathetic #and even if i wanted to confront anything iwouldnt know how… n how to tell ppl around me #the pains ive taken to ignore my issues over the yrs n by that i mean suppress the knowledge that they even exist Lmao it is so pathetic #let alone the pains ive taken to hide from other ppl that which im suppressing. and to hide how badly i cope with anything #like any problem at all not just things that have anything to do with The Thing #i finally told my girlfriend about something i never thought id ever say out loud to anyone n it was so hard #the whole convo was so hard bc shes dealing with so much too and shes been getting help for 3 yrs n i know #with her baggage of trauma a relationship is one of the hardest things #n ive never ever regretted our relationship but with the things we are both dealing wtih. or rather not dealing with in my case #it is so . hard.. and i feel like ive been so unfair bc i havent been getting help even tho i need it. and she has. #the sheer irony of me refusing to get help or even admit 2 myself i need it even tho im literally about to be the person who helps others #this cannot go on lmao. the only thing im sure about is that i wanna spend my life with her but with everything tht we have on our plate #its so.. unsure i feel so powerless . i cannot change the past i cant change either of our previous experiences #its so unfair how we risk losing the best thing that ever happened bc of things out of our control #ive genuinely never been more scared of anything than i am of the idea of losing this relationship #we had such a deep conversation today and it was necessary and good but god we’re fucked up people #so i .contacted the uni psych today finally but im so fucking scared and idk what to even say when i get there #ive never until today said it out loud ive never even written it down anywhere

[dahkis]

so beast tamer is getting replaced (lynched) by the new class 'lynn'

rip beast tamer 2023. couldn't make it to the end of the year LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

#me thoughts #maplestory #also apparently kms is getting lynn as well which is surprising to say the least. the first overseas class released in kms...i wonder #if there's potential for kanna and hayato's addition considering the interest kms players have for them #also also i wonder what her faction is #...whatever the fuck those horns on her head are??? since wonky was involved in the creation of lynn #i doubt they would add a whole new faction so i guess theyll just stick her in the anima BUT SHANGRI LA??????????????? #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #she's just a human is my final answer #cope #also pwease dont touch her already existing link skill and legion me would very much appreciate that *bats eyelashes* #chase and her critter crew are kinda lowkey hilarious in gameplay now that i think about it...most silliest class goes to her tbh #even have the whole circus LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO #i guess rhats one aspect ill miss about beast tamer if not for the game's earnest attempt at a unique gameplay #im curious about lynns support capabilities and whether it'll be on par (cope) or lesser bishop since lynn's main branches are split into #bossing mobbing and support. internally i want bishop to die in hard bossing parties if it werent for the fact that nexon sucks at balancin #their supports because like NO ONE compares to bishop. #so apparently beast tamer was nearly on the chopping block much like jett...pretty scary how straight up removing a class can be considered #a solution

[heybinnie]

i still cant process this

#i keep reading the same thing every hour i keep saying death and dead and passed next to his name and its just not clicking in my head #i keep seeing* #i think im Trying to subconsciously cope with it in the most fucked up way which is to think that this is just some kind of sick joke #like it isnt at all but i just cant process that hes gone u know? #some other twisted part is thinking hes just somewhere else right now #idk how to explain #it felt bizarre to get thru the day cause id be staring at my feet suddenly think of him and wonder whose feet are these? #just straight up feel like nth has been real today. bizarre that i go on with my life and his ended last night #im so sorry to his family and friends and all who loved him dearly #just still not making sense to me but i KNOW when it does. when it finally does its gonna hit me hard like a sack of bricks #im just in a daze now

[honeyhop]

MAKI NATION WE STAY WINNING

#fuck ch212 im ignoring that so hard #FINALLY a maki cover. after 2 mahito covers and randos like ishigori and kashimo. FINALLYYYY #im preordering this rn to cope with how suicidal yuji is abt to be next chapter bye #🧻 #jjk

[immamapletreekid]

it has been so long since a game has done this level of irreparable damage to my emotional wellbeing

#yes this is about persona 3 i am no longer the same person i was before this game #it has permanently altered my brain chemistry. reorganized every single molecule in my body #it has fundamentally changed me as a person #ive been doong horribly in school bc i literally canmot focus in class #all i can tjink about is p3 and how quickly i can rush tjroigh assignments so i can go back to my room and play persona all night it #is not healthy i need summer break for a reason and thay is to be able to let out all this energy so i can #function properly in daily life #ivr half a mind to make little digital p3 emote sticker thing doodles so that i can plaster them on my notes #i think if i have a drawing of aigis next to my linear algebra notes i will have more motivation to read them #going to make so many aki ones... #all of this is if i have the time and energy tho. i hate school so much #rambling about stuff #literally been listening to tje p3 soundtrack everyday when i study #its that bad. it really is that bad. i need to start taking school seriously i cannot fail my classes i do not jave tje money to afford rep #ating any classes #also coping w how hesvy the p3 story is compared to the other games ithink... idk man im thriving off of tjr everybody lives no one dies au #and imean i get thay that kinda goes against the whole tjeme of tje game but like. let them be happy ;O; #maxing all my social links bc i love them all so much tjey are bffs forever. sees bffs sees bffs i love sees #im not even that far into my playthrougj yet ive yet to meet aigis but that is coming soon!!! #going to hug her so hard when she finally shows up #ryoji too ;w; #celebrating every mochizuki monday so i actually get out of bed and go to class #fuck linear algebra i might actuslly fail linear algebra i have no clue whats going in linear algebra ryoji mochizuki would never

[orcelito]

Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this

#speculation nation #daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days... #im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard #im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn. #what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles #and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response #im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day #but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned #and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat. #im just... tired. im so very tired. #i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to #constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing) #and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed #if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work #at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think #get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes. #i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding #i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic #but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month. #losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though. #negative/

[welcometogrouchland]

I'm guilty of a lot of things and sometimes I let life pass me by, but one thing they're never gonna get me for is being apathetic about living. No matter where I'm at or what I'm going through I can attest that I am excited to be alive!!! I love to be alive even when it's hard!!! One day I'm gonna make as many ppl as possible feel that way too because even when life gets awful, wanting to live is awesome!!! Forever and ever babeyyy!!!!!!

#ramblings of a lunatic #life is hard sometimes when i am very tired all the time forever and i have a very fritzy and weak social battery #yet I love wandering around with no purpose and climbing hills on all fours and being with ppl i love #i don't know when or how but im gonna figure something out about all that ^ #sorry. finished watching gravity falls and now I'm in a mood ig. good show. wanna watch it again #have thoughts but also my brains a little soupy over the past week #speaking of! pros of past week: I finally have empirical evidence that i can feed myself and do laundry. strides are being made #cons: i have been lowkey taking care of my twenty year old sister a bit. it would be less bad if she acknowledged it as such #but i also understand that's difficult and I don't make it easy. things are complicated. mostly i wish she'd vacuum sometimes #but it's not the end of the world #anyway. was reminded that I'm a human person out of nowhere at 22:31 pm and am now coping(?)

[ironmanstan]

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#makes me so mad actually tht i need meds to like feel norm #like idk not mad in that stupid 'OUGHJG IM RELIANT ON MEDICATION I NEED PILLS TO GRT THROUGH THE DAY' way #but like . i dont even know how to explain it. awesome !! if i want to feel emotions other than nothingness or anger #even if i learn to cope better and live with the Horrors im literally physically incapable of feeling things like joy or sadness on the reg #if my meds ever stop working or im unable to take them then ill be back to feeling nothing at all anymore 80% of the time #and its so. ;__; #anyway they finally kicked in hard again today after that stint of not being able to get em during portfolio messed me up #feels a strong emotion for the first time in forever and sits awake crying after they knocked me out hard #insomnia on top of it all sucks why do i have to take meds to be able to even feel tired in a bodily way #like genuinely i hardly ever feel tired where its like i cant get out of bed or im so sleepy i just need to lay there. i never feel that #and its so hard for me to sleep bc the only way im ever tired is mentally. it makes me so mad i love being insane #the gamer speaks uwu

[1327-1]

tbh if this entire time i had autism and adhd it would make a lot of sense and be a little funny, even

#i say with my teeth clenched #yes both my parents show vry clear behaviors of both #yes i have been like oh i have adhd no it’s actually autism #and now i am finally realizing. both. it’s probably both. and i am scared ❤️ #i’m just so tired and know every single problem i have with why i don’t consistently work on hobbies but it’s #so hard. to make it seem like. i am not a Child in an Adult Suit #like i clean my desk to be more productive and then my desk is a cluttered mess 39 seconds later and There Is Something Telling Me Its Bcos #I Am Not Exactly Right In The Head Nor Know How To Cope With Being Myself #peace and love on planet brain fucked #.pdf #alongside 30 million other problems i have from being from an undiagnosed nonwhite family #like sorry to make everything about my treacherous diseases and disorders but i happen to live in there #combo all this with concussions ptsd and weed addiction and #BAM im surprised and mad abt how i lost 3 joints

[girlwithfish]

combating the violent impulses i have to h**t myself and the imagery that comes in my head and physical anxiety sensations i get from these urges 😐

#shes so silly #self harm tw #boooo #five months is good im just tired today but today was good nonetheless bc i was relatively stable #despite the depressive state at times and feeling like 14 different emotions while i was trying to take a nap for like 3 hours #finally slept for like under an hr. time to do readings #i dont know how to explain it but when i have bad urges i feel parts of my body go numb and theres a physical sensation there #saw someone describe it as a burning sensation but physical nonetheless so its very intrusive and tangible. for me its similar to #when i am super anxious and my body vibrates or becomes numb usually my legs or arms its a similar feel #i just have to telk my brain its a bad coping mechanism and something i cant do even when i have urges but irs hard to ignore sometimes

[frodolives]

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👸🏻 girlbossladyjane Follow

It really makes me sick to see people giving money to penny weeklies when Franklin's expedition STILL has not been found 😭 There are good men out there trapped in unimaginable temperatures and literally all that's needed is a little more funding for another rescue mission yet all you guys seem to care about are your vulgar little stories...

🧔🏻‍♂️ queerqueg Follow

the franklin expedition is dead as hell

👸🏻 girlbossladyjane Follow

Disgraceful thing to say but I'd expect nothing more from a M*lville fan

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Sorry for posting so much about Tom Gradgrind/James Harthouse from Hard Times lately. It turns out that I was getting arsenic poisoning from my wallpaper? Anyway I took a seaside stroll and I'm normal now. Check your walls y'all

#whyyy did i assume they were committing unlawful actions together like where did i even get that from lol #hard times isn't even that good by dickens standards tbh

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🎨 asherbrowndurand

Just painted this

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ss-arctic-girlie-deactivated18540927

RIP Napoleon... you may have been unable to conquer Alexander's Russia but you sure as hell conquered Alexander's bed

🖼️ preraphaelitebro Follow

HERITAGE POST

📝 shakespearesforehead Follow

How does this have less than 100k notes you could literally not avoid this post back in the 20s lol

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🌄 loyalromantic Follow

poets just aren't dying young in mysterious water-related incidents like they used to :/

#as useless and degenerative as i find 'the living poets' and i'm glad we're finally moving on from them #i have to agree with op in this respect

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🎀 thefopdiaries Follow

I finally got a daguerreotype of myself ^_^ Porcelain urn for scaling

📜 bartlebi-thescrivener

i think i hauve consumption

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🐋 whaler4life

They found oil in the ground??? WTF. THIS IS LITERALLY THE WORSTTTT. FUCK MY LIFE FOR REAL THIS TIME

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🌿 naturesnaturalist Follow

I swear this website has 0 reading comprehension skills. Darwin NEVER claimed we "evolved" from apes like if one of you guys actually bothered to open his new book you'll see all his arguments are backed up by evidence. He actually makes a lot of sense

#sure there's nuance like i don't fully agree with all of it #but his general theory of natural selection seems pretty sound imo

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🤵🏻‍♂️ byronicherotournament Follow

🙈 butchbronte Follow

Of course these are the finalists lmao this website is so predictable. Anyway vote Heathcliff if you dont i'm going to assume you're a phrenologist

📖 sapphichelenburns Follow

It's not problematic to acknowledge the fact that Heathcliff was a brute like he literally killed dogs in case you forgot. #rochestersweep

🙈 butchbronte Follow

I love the implication here that Rochester never did anything cruel either. He literally locked his wife in the attic and lied to Jane about it 😭 like that was a pretty significant thing that happened

📖 sapphichelenburns Follow

And? God forbid women do anything

#why'd you have to pit two bad bitches against each other #anyway i'm not attracted to men but still went with rochester #bc in terms of living quarters thornfield hall > wuthering heights easily

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Not the Russian tsar dying immediately after hartgrind became canon

#i know dickens hasn't technically confirmed it yet but like. SOMETHING was strongly implied ok #see: my previous post #dickensposting

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

LORD HELP ME. THE BODY LANGUAGE. THE WAY THEY'RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. AHHHHHH

#this installment!!! im-- #dickensposting #i can't fucking cope #dickens wants to KILL us he wants us DEAD....

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⭐️ newamerican

Hi guys sorry I haven't been posting lately it's been so difficult getting to California 💀 I'm finally here now though just need to find a pickaxe and soon I'll be digging! :-) wish me luck lol

#gold #gold rush #gold rush grind #california #adventure

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[yo9urt]

today i return to the sea

#mine #its my last first day of school (until/unless i go to grad school but thats way off if it even happens) #the rest of these tags are all just going to be complaints so keep scrolling if you dont gaf #ok first complaint. my schedule is stupid and awful i think #winters schedule was weird too. but this one kinda sucks #the main problem i see is that both of my main classes are in the middle of the day so theres probably going to be people eating #(i have mis0phon1a) #so thats number 1. 2nd problem is that those classes also have the grading scale where u need at least 95 PERCENT to get an A. girl! #they are also both 400 level spanish classes so theyre just going to be kind of hard and annoying and a lot of work in general #the next problem is that my other class is actually not quite a class it is a teaching practicum. which i didnt even 100% want to do #but the certificate could be useful so im doing it anyway. #one of the guys in that class (i know some of the students already from winter) eats like a hog for like the first 20-30 mins so thats goin #to be miserable i bet. also at some point im gonna have to teach a lesson myself #which is scary and also frustrating because again i didnt even really want to do this. WHATEVER #ok what else. ummmmm #oh i think i might be unemployed LOL normally my boss would have done schedule coordination stuff like last week but i havent heard from he #at all. this is because we are government funded and the government does not want to fund us anymore -_- suck my balls #and my hog too. so money is going to be a concern which is especially awesome because ive already been trying to save up #becaues im moving out this year hopefully so im gonna need $ for that and for probably upgrades like i might get a new phone and computer #and stuff etc. and i live in an HCOL area so even though i literally just buy groceries my bill is like $294358939358/month #SIGH. also of course the final problem on the list is the behemoth of them all: i have to apply for jobs #i made a little spreadsheet to hopefully make the process easier. but its going to be agony lol fucking resumes and cover letters how about #i just kill myself now -_- and fucking interviews too. fuuuuuck you suck my nuts and dick and balls #i dont know how im going to cope iwth any of this LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and also as usual i have like no friends so its just me going it alo #alone* in this big awful spring. 2 and a half months of this. #i suppose i will need to go back to the dispensary. #fuuuuuuuuuck man

[hecksupremechips]

Ooooooghhhhhhhhh stressed 🥺

#dont wanna see family tomorrow and im sleeping saur bad lately i couldnt sleep last night and then had a typical fever dream #which gave me a really cute idea for a movie so im gonna keep it in my pocket #but it was one of those things where its like it says a whole lot about me and my trauma and its stressful #um um um and also im juggling all these different things like im sewing im trying to finally write im trying to draw again #while feeling like im failing at it all and then like i still gotta find fuckinnnnn job i neeeeeed money #this time of year is always really hard for me i hate when its warm again i hate easter and i hate knowing that summer is coming #aaghhhh rn im ticking and stimming really bad and im having trouble breathing hnnghhh #and im very sweaty lol i always get so sweaty when i dont sleep good i dont get it #also i think im just horrible like the one person i wanna talk to probably is getting tired of my constant life crisis and how needy i am #and theyre probably off being better without me there and im just a burden and then my therapist idk about him #i dont feel like hes really giving me anything like when i talk about how stressed and unsafe i am hes like you gotta find a way to cope #and he doesnt really tell me how exactly i should do that like mate thats why im here i need the help you cant just listen to me panic and #go ‘wow you need to fix that’ ughhhh and i think hes mad at me because i dont think he believes me anymore when i say im in an abusive #situation and that ive been controlled my whole life by everyone and i have never felt safe #and its just like ughhh like i feel like no one believes me anymore and theyre all fed up with my bullshit incompetence and constant #bellyaching and im a horrible friend and a liar and probably just being dramatic as fuck making myself believe im being abused when in #reality im the abuser the ungrateful brat who treats his family like shit and cant trust them even though they seem so perfect to everyone #and im so stupid and toxic for trying to run away and for being scared to death here #thats how its feeling anyway idk everyone is just. weird and im losing my grip on reality and cant tell whats real anymore