#except i don't know the steps in this

[ruporas]

lonely

[ID: A limited palette of green and pink, Vashwood comic. The first page serves as a prologue. The first panel shows Vash speaking to someone off screen while Wolfwood is lingering behind him. A black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the second panel, Vash is buying donuts in the distance while Wolfwood is once again in view, lingering. and the black arrow is drawn pointing at him. In the third panel, Vash is leaving a cubicle and turning towards his right with a slightly peeved expression. He sees Wolfwood, leaning against the cubicle, waiting for him, and with the black arrow drawn, pointing at him, implicating the consistent hovering of Wolfwood’s presence during Vash’s everyday. At the bottom of the page, they’re drawn out of panel with Vash turning to Wolfwood and saying with an irritated expression, “You’re really following me everywhere, huh?” Wolfwood responds, “What, you got a problem?” Vash responds without hesitation, “Yeah, kinda...”

The second page starts with a new day. In the first panel, Vash is seen alone, weighing apples in his hands at a mart, with crowds passing behind him. In the second panel, he turns to his right and starts to say, “Hey, Wolfwood...” In the third panel, he’s startled from seeing a stranger, whom he’d accidentally called out to when he was expecting to see Wolfwood. He says, “Oh, you’re not him. Sorry!” In the fourth panel, the stranger walks off and Vash muses, “Right, he said he had something to do today...”

The third page begins with a close up of Vash's miffed expression, the continuation of Vash's thoughts, "Now that he's not here, this is just like how I used to be, but... It feels lonely somehow. Oh well, I'll see him again tonight, like always." In the second panel, it shows Vash walking through the marketplace crowd, alone. In the third panel, the door panel is a close up of the door opening with a peek of Vash's head. He says, "Wolfwood!" In the fourth panel, Vash is holding a bag of food with a bright smile and says, "Are you hungry? I got you something to eat today!"

The fourth page begins with a shot of the room, two beds being highlighted, one of them being made properly with the blanket draped over the bed and the other with the blanket folded and pillow sitting on top of it. There's no sign of Wolfwood. The second panel shows Vash with a disappointed look as he thinks, "He's still not here?" The third panel shows Vash putting the bag of food on the table. Stapled to the paper bag is the receipt with a written note "For Wolfwood." Vash's thoughts continue "He does like to stay out so, I guess there's no reason to worry..." The fourth panel shows Vash sitting his bed somberly with his thoughts continued, "It's not any of my business anyway..."

The fifth page starts with a close up his blank expression as he looks downwards, thinking, "Even if he left completely... That'd be understandable and better for him. I'll just travel alone again... like before... Huh?" The next panel shows Vash's composure break, tears welling up in his eyes suddenly, as he didn't expect to cry. He starts to sob, putting his hands to his face to quiet himself and wipe at his tears, as he says, "Ugh... Dammit... I miss h..." The last panel shows Vash leaning over into his hands, still crying, and in the back, the door swings wide open with a bam as Wolfwood walks through with the punisher swung behind him. He shouts, "SPIKEY! You in here?!"

The sixth page starts with Wolfwood confused, looking at Vash and Vash looks back, just as confused, with tears in his eyes and snot out of his nose. Wolfwood starts saying, "Ah? You..." No longer in panels, at the bottom of the page, Wolfwood takes the Punisher off of himself and starts to walk towards Vash, continuing with slight concern, "What's wrong with you? Did something happen?" Vash, hurriedly begins to wipe at his tears, denying immediately, "No! No, I'm fine! Nothing happened!"

The seventh page, Vash points towards the table, with a hand still wiping at his tears and he smiles as he says, "I uh got you food. On the table." Wolfwood looks towards to the table and responds, "Oh. I was getting hungry, thanks." He turns his head back to Vash immediately after with an uncertain expression, knowing the other wasn't responding to his concern, and says, "But, I know you're an idiot with this stuff, so I'm reminding you again. Don't brush it off if it's an issue, alright?"

The eight page, Vash's tears have dried and he looks to Wolfwood with a soft smile and responds, "Yeah. It's okay though..." A panel at the center shows a side view of Vash approaching Wolfwood. At the bottom of the page, with no panel, is a close up shot of Vash's hand, holding onto the edge of Wolfwood's jacket sleeve, as he says, "Because you're here now. Wolfwood."

The final page is a back shot of both of them standing next to each other, Wolfwood's head tilted slightly to the left, not fully believing Vash as he says, "That doesn't answer anything, Spikey." Vash responds, "There's no need to talk about it! You should enjoy your food. Let's have a drink too?" Wolfwood responds, "Tsk, tsk. Fine, yeah. I could use one." END ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #but onto this comic... i think and talk a LOT about vash's loneliness bc trigun is just. kind of central on that for a good while! esp in #the original manga he was alone for a good portion of it and he tends to keep others away like how he ran away from meryl and milly when #they tried to tag along. and he was kind of bothered when he realized ww was following him around Too. at the core even though he loves #humans and he loves deeply the people he does know -- he isnt really much of a people person and i think thats been the case since he was #young considering his initial doubts towards humans... with the exception of kids bc kids dont give him moral conflicts. so suddenly #here comes wolfwood!!! his guide. someone TRULY affixed to him until he has to get to knives. someone who isnt budging and someone whos #really good at following him around and even seems like he goes like 5 steps ahead to make sure vash doesnt run on him #in one way its - i don't want you to follow me bc i don't want to burden you and i don't want you to kill the people i want to save. #in another way its - i like this companionship. i like waking up to you and i like ending the way with you. i like talking to someone who #knows my world. i like being in your space and sometimes i enjoy talking about our day #theyre just living together. like. roadtrip buddies or theyre also under the same roof because they're going everywhere together. #trimax they mainly spend their mornings together and if they had personal business attend the other person would usually know and itd only #be during the midday. anyway bc of this kind of companionship i figure that vash eventually grew accustom to it and he really. cant go back #to the kind of loneliness from before. it's harder to imagine and it'd be harder to withstand. esp after 2 years with lina and her grandma. #ruporas art

[emilybeemartin]

y'all, I'm really sorry for this one, I did not mean for it to be this thirsty, I swear

No see, listen--shut up, listen--I was thinking about Troy and then of course the Odyssey we all missed out on, which naturally led to thinking about the various iconic scenes we could've had, and OBVIOUSLY the siren scene is at the top of that list, and I was playing with how to depict the effect of their song, and I've used this look before with Eugenides with pretty good results, but then I was reflecting on how aside from VFX this scene would take a lot of body acting, and how Sean's so good at conveying pain and that would translate naturally into the seduction of the spell, and huh when I write it out like that I absolutely did intend for it to be this thirsty.

Man I hope one of my manuscripts gets picked up soon; being off-deadline is not healthy for me.

#i don't even know how to tag this #delusional odyssey #troy II: everybody's dead except sean bean somehow #get in loser we're going to ithaca #penelope come get your husband he's making our lives complicated #step 1: eris isn't invited to a wedding step 2: ?? step 3: sean bean is tied to a mast begging #odysseus and the sirens

[demigods-posts]

I've seen a lot of discourse about Virginia Kull's portrayal of Sally Jackson in the Percy Jackson and the Olympians TV series, and I'd like to say that I loved her. Don't get me wrong. I love Sally from the original book series, and I, too, would fight the God of War on her behalf. But something that I enjoyed about Virginia's portrayal of Sally that we don't get in the books is the character depth. We don't hear much of Sally's backstory in the TV series, apart from a couple of flashbacks with younger Percy and that scene with Poseidon (Toby Stephens). However, those scenes do an excellent job of showing us that alongside being Percy's mother, Sally is also a young woman who fell in love with a man she could not be with and is enduring the natural consequences of having Percy. She struggles to communicate with him when she's frustrated, gets teary-eyed when she lies to him to prolong the inevitable, and actively sacrifices her happiness to ensure his safety. Virginia Kull's portrayal of Sally Jackson reinforces the character's humanity, imperfections, and determination, and it's everything to me.

#i once saw someone say they disliked the portrayl of sally jackson because she raised her voice at percy and I'm just #*sighs* #sally is essentially a single mom who is constantly being plagued with the notion that her son may not live to see sixteen #she has to prepare him for a life that she knows is going to break him like a bone #except she has to keep some secrets from him to ensure his safety for the time being #all the while #she is plauged with guilt knowing she and poseidon contributed to placing this burden upon him #and it is even more apparent when percy voices his disappointment in her behavior as a mother #and all she wants to do is be there with him every step of the way #but knows that she can't #and you're mad because she raised her voice at him???? #parents do that (and i wish they didn't) but they do #sally is not perfect in any way and i love her for it #give her some grace #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo text post #pjo #pjo tv adaptation #pjo tv show #pjo tv concept #pjo tv series #pjo tv spoilers #sally jackson #sally jackson appreciation #sally jackson appreciation post #sally jackson is amazing #they could never make me hate you #also virignia kull is an amazing actress and i don't know if it was clear that i love her but i love her in case it wasn't clear

[raayllum]

it's funny because in our two examples of "what does a high mage do" we see Viren be involved in basically every decision that Harrow makes as an advisor, even ones that wouldn't necessarily warrant it immediately, versus Callum, who *checks canon* isn't substantially involved in any decision Ezran makes as king in any given season

#high mage club #i JUST WANT TO KNOW #1) how over bearing viren was (bc i feel like he would be) #vs 2) how few fucks callum actually gives #like he attends council meetings like the rest of the council. suggests/contributes nothing #except (beloved) bad jokes #corvus asks ezran about his plans and discusess his reasons #sorvus are both involved in ezran's b-day party planning #crownguard do handle security (as soren makes extra plan in 4x01) #he steps up when things go wrong in 4x03. opeli gives counsel #hell we don't even know if the painting was made by callum either #LIKE #i'm willing to be kpp'ar was actually normal - did his job and worked on personal projects in his spare time #viren was overbearing and overly involved but like. harrow being a warmer king than his dad yeah yeah #meanwhile callum is only as peripheral to ezran as he is bc they're brothers #but he actually does even less as a high mage Court Politics Wise than either of the other two #bc hyperfixations

[grapejuicegay]

I wrote about Put and Jeng putting Pat in the exact same position... and then I found this dialogue from ep 1

Between this and Pat's breakdown in ep 9 over focusing on everything but himself

and this post where @shortpplfedup said that Pat and Jeng have been lost in each other, it's Pat's fears from the very beginning all coming true.

#i don't even know what to do with this sfjskfs #except that it is definitely all intentional #step by step #step by step series

[iguessitsjustme]

Here is a list of my favorite shows so far this year. One has to go

Woke up feeling cruel. Good luck.

#bed friend #our dining table #moonlight chicken #oh no! here comes trouble #our dating sim #step by step the series #la pluie #the eighth sense #unintentional love story #utsukushii kare #i cannot stress enough that i love each of these shows equally but differently #good luck choosing i don't know what im gonna pick #there is no purpose or point to this poll except to be cruel to myself and others #i am evil cackling at 6:30 in the morning

[the-acid-pear]

The thing about the painter analog that people don't get and makes them hate it is that at heart this isn't a serious horror story. This is pure gore not only for the sake of gore but for the sake of camp. Once I was talking of to my dad laughing at the guy who had his face sanded off and he was like yeah not new they did that in Jason already 🙄 which was later reinforced by UrbanSpook admitting this is inspired by those old 80s slasher which should tell you everything.

I'm saying this bc i saw a video pairing it with Playground and the incest game and while I don't know the second I watched a video on playground once and the difference is that that book is trying to tell a story and say something on top of the gore but the later makes it hard to care. Which is kind of the issue another "gone too far" piece of media my beloved A Serbian Film runs into where you cannot take yourself too seriously if you also want to show over the top violence or you'll lose the audience.

OF COURSE there are exceptions like Hostel, Saw and 😏 the human centipede ☺️ (cocksucker for that movie and it's more serious points, though it barely counts bc the gore is very tame save for in 2) and I couldn't exactly tell you what's the difference between what makes them work and what doesn't but still.

But I'm getting off topic I'm not here to say which media is good or not I'm here to point out the painter is not a serious story that asks you to care for the characters it's a over the top schlocky gore that asks you to go GROOOOSS or laugh at the over the top brutality it presents. Which is very standard in horror.

#luly talks #urbanspook #the painter analog horror #also yes actually I'll mention THC again bc that movie is deemed to go ''too far'' which is joked about often in its sequels #in 3 after the inmates at the prison watch the movie they echo the opinions of the public (calling the director sick saying he'd be jailed #etc except for my best friend who GETS IT and is laughing ILY BESTIE) and 2 is a direct response to the reaction of 1 #while 1 is an extremely fucking tame horror movie BY ALL FUCKING MEANS (1 surgery scene and its so clean. after that just a tad bit of blood #and some minor infection) they made a movie that ACTUALLY went too far #and i ironically enough hate it despite appreciating this bc it just isn't fun for me. because it's trying a bit too hard. #but in case you don't know. one of the links of the centipede is a pregnant woman. she escapes and gives birth in the car. baby falls on the #brakes. she steps on its head. #pointing it out since children seem to be the point ppl go THIS IS TOO FAR #i personally found the baby squishing the highlight of the movie. second to that is. the barbed wire rape #which i didn't like because i don't enjoy seeing women be raped in my movies but its like #so funny man. literally bro put barbed wire on his cock. like that's just iconic #what shit like this and the painter are trying to achieve is simple shock. and that's FUN. #if you dont find it fun that's literally okay it simply isn't your piece of cake but that doesn't mean its bad or it shouldn't exist. #like i still see ppl insult it like GROW UP... THIS KIND OF HORROR HAS EXISTED FOREVER STOP BEING SUCH A BABY MAN

[theokusgallery]

Since you have a lot of opinions about Sunflower fics, do you have any recommendations :p? I do generally agree with you about the derth of good works on them - kind of hoping for something I've maybe slept on.

Okay, I'll try,

First of all — I want everyone, and I mean everyone to read Coda for a Crestfallen Caitiff by MercuriallyApathetic, who also wrote The Strange Summer of Sunny Whatshisface (still one of my favorite longfics to this day but a lot more lighthearted). Coda is a masterpiece, it makes me insane, it is criminally underrated, I want to inhale its essence, and when I first read it it gave me a panic attack and a mental breakdown that lasted three straight days (/pos). Definitely read the tags and prepare yourself mentally but JESUS CHRIST I need everyone to read it. Please. You will regret it for a few hours but it is... an experience. To me at least. And to the two people I recommended it to who gave me feedback.

Then there's sunflower seeds in the rearview mirror by @andrewwtca which remains probably my favorite multichapter OMORI fic of all time (you might spot my essay-comments in the later chapters, I love this fic so much. I didn't end up writing one for the last chapter but man did it hit me hard). Very intriguing with a captivating style and an unreliable narrator mechanic that I am absolutely in love with. Everything by that author is excellent.

We have, of course, literally everything by BetweenDisorders. Arsenic is partly inspired by one of their fics ! (you know the one.) Their characterization of both Sunny and Basil (but especially Basil, because I'm gay) makes me froth at the mouth. Their style is very recognizable and honestly one of the best I've ever seen. But more generally, they have really original and intriguing ideas (like communication, in which Basil and Sunny are two computers... Did I mention how I'm a sucker for original/unique plots and premises enough yet) and everything they do is something you've never seen before. It's amazing.

Note to Self: Don't Be Gay in Faraway Town by witheredahlia is also very, very good. It's a lot lighter, but it still made my gay little heart ache, because I'm a sucker for misunderstandings done correctly (fight me).

Detective Sunny by Det_Sun is genuinely one of the most creative, fascinating OMORI fics I've seen, and also way too underrated. It's an excellent read, and there's a bunch of ideas in it that you know go deeper than what is shown, and it makes my brain go at the speed of lights. Many many thoughts about this one. (Side note: I fucking love it when there's unexplored ideas in fics. Makes my brain go brrr. Not everything has to be shown and when I see hints of "behind the scene" thoughts and character background that isn't discussed much but still implied, my brain becomes a feral animal. I don't know if that makes sense...)

#im recommending fics that can be morally be read by/recommended to everyone because i know my demographic #but i literally just went through my bookmarks and ooh'ed and ahh'ed at every other fic so i linked them lol. #i'm not linking 'the telltale of a recovering megalomaniac' by shootingstarlightt because im trying to link underrated things #but it's also very good. #there's also Drying on the Steps by DeepFriedBasil but i can't recommend it because i haven't finished reading it !! #but it's so intriguing and unique and you can spot me in the comments of the first few chapters trying to make sense of it all. #I didn't link Culinary Conversations for the same reason (I have yet to catch up on it unfortunately) but it's MAGICAL it's INCREDIBLE #I NEED MORE FICS THAT WRITE STRANGER LIKE THIS. PLEASE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #on the topic of characterization: Sunny & Mari Edition™ we also have Mari Doesn't Die At The End by CoreyWW #and The Very Best by nullmeh. both are very very good. #Deep Down We're Still The Same Kids by witheredahlia is also great from what I remember but I... don't remember much #there's some fics in my bookmarks i just... don't remember. oops. #...i hope this post isn't too long. i'm leaving some stuff in the tags because linking them in the post would've made it 3ft long #and also because when i give fic recs I feel like I have to arguments it and for some of those I don't really know what to say except Good #please read Coda for a Crestfallen Caitiff. please. #rant #omori #ask #ephemeralspirit-blog #fic recs #most if not all of these are sunflower btw ! i basically only read sunflower. #sorry to my fellow ze[...]ae lovers btw. i'd recommend them but. again. i know my demographic #arsenic #<- i tag every single mention of him for someone who had it blocked sorry

[ogoatsuyuuta]

sorry but as okkotsu yuutas number one fan i have to be a hakari hater it comes with the territory because people and characters seem to think they're on the same level... they are NOT like idk what manga you're all reading but yuuta > hakari supported by the entire manga

#post inspired by everyone trying to talk yuuta out of jumping in #like he's actually the ONLY one of y'all who SHOULD step in #everyone except yuuji❤️❤️❤️ #he gets the yuuta hype #AND HE FOUGHT BOTH OF THEM LOL HE KNOWS #i don't actually hate hakari but #it's an injustice to yuuta to have people equate them #okkotsu 'strongest modern sorcerer second only to gojo satoru' yuuta btw #why have you all forgot that?? #even the scanlation called him a PRODIGY! #jjk #jjk spoilers #hakari kinji #okkotsu yuuta #itadori yuuji #jjk manga

[bookrat]

Went on a camping trip down to south Florida, starting in the everglades

We were looking for snakes and American crocodiles, but we did find this day moth and tree snail

Plus a couple nocturnal critters settling down for a nice days sleep

Lots of high quality birds in the swamp

Saw frigate birds in the Dry Tortugas, but they mostly hung motionless and effortlessly high in the air like low poly videogame background birds

Had to flee back north early ahead of Nikole. Managed to catch a glimpse of this bark anole when we stopped for breakfast, but all the iguanas were hiding.

Tons of introduced rock agamas calling this gas station home, and a nearby rooster hung out with a flock of grackles. Was hoping to see more exotic reptiles around Miami, but perhaps another time.

#long post #travel log #now I'm sick #gonna be so mad if I dodged Covid for 2 years and finally lost because of a trip centered around outdoor activities #The Dry Tortugas was great but not really full of photography opportunities unless you like ruins #Previous hurricane destroyed a lot of plants so he was just like #pls don't step on any of my plants I don't have many left #There was a full moon so we couldn't see the stars except surprise there was a lunar eclipse actually #no light pollution so we saw the milky way and a shooting star that shattered into fragments as it burned up on entry #also #apparently a lot of Cuban refugees land there so the head ranger guy didn't know much about the wildlife so one got the impression #that tourists were an unfortunate inconvenience for him personally when he had a lot of other stuff more important to be worrying about #I don't think many would want to come here if America lifted the embargo strangling their country #so we just invent a crisis for another independent country because Communism Bad #and then treat the poor folks fleeing the conditions we created like criminals #all because if a country was doing even moderately okay without capitalism it'd be bad for the shareholders I guess #anyway the fort was cool but I don't know how to photograph ruins well

[nectaric]

HUH

ok my first thought was just to give you a funny answer because i'm genuinely a little confused about where the hell this came from but i'm also like... bold of you to assume i use face claims at all???

at this point in my roleplay, the ONLY thing i use face claims for is a loose guideline of what my muses kinda look like, and even then, i'm more partial towards just writing out descriptions at this point. i don't use icons, i barely reblog content with any of my fc's in it

but i also certainly do not spend very much time at ALL looking into who my fc's are as people bc i quite frankly... do not care? i have so much more important shit going on in my life and i have zero interest in the silly online bs that is paying attention to the fact that a celebrity posted something shitty online once ten years ago. i'm certainly not going to make any changes in my life because of it.

i do not have the brain capacity nor the interest in doing so, and me saying "hey, ___ looks like ____" is in ZERO way synonymous with me saying that i actually support that person at all. i'm not endorsing them, i'm not giving them any money, its just a brief little blip to help people comprehend how i interpret my muse to look

like, if i have a fc listed somewhere on this blog that bothers you, i'm sorry ig? maybe you can take comfort in knowing you're probably never going to see them pop up, considering i don't actually use fc's for anything any more. if not, i won't be offended if you unfollow or don't follow or whatever it is

but i will just say that its okay to be a little "out of touch" with what's going on in pop culture, and its okay for roleplay to be just a hobby, and it doesn't make me or anyone else a bad person because we picked someone as a fc who isn't an outstanding person because in this tiny little bubble it literally does not matter

#i understaaaaaand that there are exceptions #but i think sometimes we all need to take a step back #i also don't even know who you're referring to so idk what i'm supposed to do abt that #idk what to tag this as i'm sorry #negative / #ask to tag /

[theood]

Sorry to beat the dead horse I live in lately but I'm so tired. A break from social media probably could help. If I figure out how else to occupy my time doing absolutely nothing. It's what I say every fucking day. Just wish I had friends. People my age around here to talk too. Even younger. Anything. I'm so fucking lonely. I love everyone I talk to online, I have meaningful connections with so many of you but I also haven't had meaningful conversation IRL in idk. Years probably. I haven't seen any of my old friends because we moved and I had to isolate myself because no one really wanted to hang out with me or could get here. And I really don't do anything, I can't be stressed. I can't be depressed I can't. I can't. I can't. Just like every adult in my life says. I don't know. I just wish I could actually see it's going to get better. Be better for me

#this is everything I've already said. I've never seen a future that has me in it. 4th grade cemented that fact for me. And I've been living #it since. I just don't know anymore #I missed out on so much and I'm so stupid. I am. I don't bring anything to the floor. I don't have any skills. Nothing worthwhile. Nothing #meaningful. What do I bring to the world except another useless body? Some sick animal left at the back of the pack to be killed off so #everyone else runs free. #nothing's working out for me. nothing's clicking into place. no opportunities. everyone's moving forward and I'm stuck behind. and it's #probably for the better isn't it? if I just fade out from everyone's lives. just stop. it hasn't gotten better no matter the effort I put #forward or the risks I take or anything. #one step forward five steps back and i fell and tumbled down the steps and i broke something and my stairs are icy and everyone else has ic #spikes. and their steps are an escalator. They're buckled in taken up. and mine are crumbling and overused and been here too long and it #just isn't ever going to be better is it? not for me. not ever. #generational trauma is a circle and i need to self cannibalize to end it. drink my own blood to rid myself of what isn't right. #no rebirth. no salvation. just an end. there's nothing to save.

[girlwiththegreenhat]

wanting to bitch about confusing road laws vs none of your friends drive or will understand = bitching on tumblr.

green lights at four-way intersections should always be accompanied by a yellow left turn arrow as a reminder to yield to oncoming traffic. this is the biggest problem facing our country right now. i am objectively correct.

#liz blogs #the literal only two things i struggle with are at FUCKING intersections #brain problem of 'i know information in theory just not in practice' #this is why we need public transit i am going to get killed and its going to be at an intersection <3 #'oh i am making a left turn and the light is green! better go left!' you foole. you fucking idiot. you utter imbecile. #THERE IS STILL ONCOMING TRAFFIC #BECAUSE FUCK YOU IF YOU TURN LEFT IG #GREEN MEANS GO............... GREEN MEANS GO DO NOT ADD EXTRA ~ * ~ SECRET STEPS ~ * ~ #'you can make a right turn on red unless otherwise marked' idk maybe a green right arrow sHOULD COME UP THEN #DON'T MAKE ME ASSUME THINGS WHEN I DRIVE JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO #FUCK THIS GAY ASS COUNTRY* (* im gay) #if i saw a yellow arrow for the left lane i would remember to CHECK FOR TRAFFIC #i like driving until Intersections then i want everyone to explode except me so i can drive how driving should work #and thats enough to make me Not want to drive Period #I AM GOING TO MOVE SOMEWHERE SO FUCKING WALKABLE JUST YOU WATCH ME #I AM GOING TO PETITION THE GOVERNMENT (i am not going to petition the government) #im so mad im so good at driving until Bullshit ass Nondescript Intersection Lights #(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ KILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[cafecitowriter]

all i’m saying is that we should’ve been able to actually see Nate make the decision to quit and see him do that and tell Rupert off on screen

#like that would have been so much more impactful than the news story shock discovery #we have all been angry at nate and then rooting for his redemption #him not spitting at himself in the mirror was step one #then him going home to jade instead of doing what rupert wanted on their 'boy's night' was step two #and then to not see him take this crucial final step to break himself free from everything that had been poisoning him? #and i don't just mean rupert i mean this horrible view he has of himself which fuels his cruelness through his own lack of confidence #it just felt very hand-wavy like oh look nate did the right thing but now he's sad because he doesn't know where his life is going #also there are rumours at west ham about inappropriate workplace behaviour #but nate deserved to have that quitting scene on screen #it also would have been an uno reverse from what he did to ted last season #except this time it's coming from a place of growth and understanding that he chose wrong #and it would have helped explain whatever the hell was going on with rupert this episode #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers

[neverendingford]

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#so I have officially been to a club/bar now #tag talk #it was a country bar which was actually cool cause they played like. actual old country none of the post-9/11 shit #except everything else about it was ugh awful. music too loud drinks FUCKING EXPENSIVE holy shit stay home and drink instead pleaseeee #it was a work thing but none of my coworkers I'm friends with actually knew what they were doing so while I wasn't actual awkward they were #and the thing about social interaction is that if no one knows what they're doing it's not very fun #I grabbed someone and started a pool game because the table was open and both of us were absolute garbage at the game #but I was laughing about it and they were like... apologetic about being bad?? d #I did have the classic experience though where your friends disappear and you end up alone because you don't know where they went #all in all an interesting experience but not one I'm eager to repeat. #I did get invited to someone's Christmas Eve Party though which is cool and they gave me their number to make sure I have the info #so probably worth going just for that I think. got their phone number so we can communicate so that's like. successful social connection. #we're already friendly at work but easier to talk to someone when you're both not busy on the opposite side of the store with customers #anyway. who tf out going to clubs. awful environment. #I was like.. twenty percent of the way to being comfortable going out and dancing but hard to just swallow your hesitation #and a) alcohol as liquid courage is hmm not ideal and b) it was expensive anyway #oh well. it'll take more time to come out of my shell and I'd literally never been to a bar/club before in my life. #so I'll have some patience with myself and not be annoyed with how I could have done better or been more confident. #literally totally new environment. also... country music was nice but not a group of people I could really be comfortable around yaknow? #Lotta old white straight couples dancing the country two-step so I didn't really feel like I fit in. #anyway. interesting experience. neat to have. if I ever have a reason to go to a bar again I'll know more about what to expect #also... no one carded me. no one asked for ID? aren't they supposed to #oh wait. comment about the yodeling cause it was actual old country but they didn't do the voice register changes for it #I was like WAIT ARE THEY GONNA YODEL FOR REAL??? but then he didn't he just jumped intervals without shifting voice. #was a little disappointing but maybe a lot to expect from a random stage show at a bar. #wait wait I'm also proud of myself because the bartender asked open or closed and my mind scrambled for half a second to figure it out #but then I realized it meant open tab or closed tab like ordering more drinks and then paying at the end and so obviously closed #cause I ain't buying more than the one drink holy fuck it was so expensive also they mix them way stronger than I like #I like my drink weak ass and pathetic. alcohol is like spice I like a little to taste but not a lot. complimentary not overpowering #I drank it and then remembered I never ate lunch so I was like fuck and immediately went and ate something (work party so free food)

[aroacehanzawa]

rant

#i am sooooo annoyed with my flatmate #who never cleans or does anything for the household or rather her idea of 'cleaning' is wiping down the surfaces maybe twice a year #never cleans the kitchen surfaces after cooking except she only does a mass meal prep like once a month and then leaves a mess #while knowing that i always clean after myself and i cook like every other day so i end up hacving to clean her mess too #because if i point it out she'll be like oh it wasn't me #we only have one other housemate but they're a postgrad who is rarely home and mainly eats ready meals #seriously this person is disgusting like they will leave a pile of dirty dishes for weeks #and they even leave the sink dirty after washing the dishes??? #like i get that you don't always have time or energy to do chores because of mental health or studies #but this person dropped out of uni like she isn't even studying meanwhile i have four exams to study for rn #i just think that when you're living with other people you have to put an effort to keep communal spaces clean and be considerate #like i've been cleaning the bathroom almost all the time this semester so i finally asked her to do it and she said she'll do it today #i got home and she only bleached the toilet so i was like how come you didn't clean the sink? #and she was like oh i just bleached the toilet so now i'm taking a break and watching a youtube video :) #like?????????? and then she never continued the cleaning?????????? #she also keeps wearing shoes indoors like idc if ahe wears shoes in her room but i've said again and again to please not wear shoes indoors #in the hallway/kitchen/bathroom because it's disrespectful in my culture (and we have CARPETED floors) #and she keeps doing it and even steps inside my room with shoes #or when the other day i was sweeping the kitchen floor and she just walked in with her shoes and didn't even more away when i was cleaning #my good friend actually lived here too before she got fed up with this person and moved away #because this person lied to us so much about how often they clean things and basically gave the wrong impression #she also broke my spatula and lied about it and ate my friend's food and lied about it and used up my ingredients and lied about it #and also complained behind my back that i was 'so annoying' for not answering the intercom when HER packages were being delivered??? #and she claimed that i was cranking up the energy bill because i keep the heating in my room at a normal level during winter #because she likes to keep her room freezing cold and she also keeps her room in pitch darkness and would complain #that me having the lights on in my room like a normal person increases the energy bill??? like yeah that's literally what i'm paying for? #she also got mad at me for throwing out a literally MOLDY sponge because she was 'still using it' like FOR THE DISHES? THAT WE EAT FROM??? #i am so sick and tired of this person i cannot wait to move out in 3 weeks