#everybody is suffering help

[a-go-ni-a]

V IS BACK :D

#they are my fave #v my dear friend put the scalpel down please #there is a comment asking is v ricon?? #ah no? they aren't the same person c'mon #everybody is suffering help #suitor armor #webtoon

[badolmen]

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#ra speaks #it’s a silly joke/pun dw #we stay silly :3 #edit: #woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/ #10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water. #15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :] #20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then #25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today #30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3 #40k. I just slept 9 hours straight for the first time in weeks :] remember to ask for help when you need it! no glory in senseless suffering

[uncanny-tranny]

Actually, it's insane that "psychosomatic" is so often:

1. not neutral

and

2. actively used to undermine, discredit, and sometimes even bring scorn to somebody's condition

Imagine going through so much stress, for example, that it's eating you from the inside out and being told that you've just got a case of Crazy Idiot Who Makes Things Up For Fun to Inconvenience Us and Get Attention.

#mental health #ableism #ableism tw #and sure maybe you can use psychosomatic as a neutral description for a condition that is partially cause or exasperated by mental health... #...but in my experience too many people use psychosomatic as a way to distance themselves from helping the person suffering... #...because then it is THEIR fault. THEY decided to Fake and to Believe They Are Unwell and THEY should be punished... #...it should solely be up to them to better themself and stop Inconveniencing Everybody Around Them

[crystalpallette]

get you a girl who can give you everything

this started a long long time ago when I made a joke about how sega should put ringo in more dresses, and then my friend reminded me that oh yeah!! I can do that instead!!! and then one thing led to another and we joked about punk ringo and I drew that too. using ringo like a dressup doll is so cathartic it's kinda crazy

some bonuses (original designs, timelapse) under the cut bc I like these designs!! I might do some more with them!! please disregard the band poster in the first second of the timelapse that's something else!!!

#everyone look at my girl isnt she so pretty #puyo puyo #ringo ando #my stuff #please look at the timelapse it nicely packages a week of suffering into a minute :) #you cant tell at all from the recording. but all those teeny tiny scallops on ringo's dress? i drew all of those by hand #because the scallop brush i downloaded didnt look right. it never does why do i have that #plus the lace cutouts on the bottom i also drew by hand because i wanted them to look kinda like bunches of apple seeds #but thats not really a thing you can search for- 'lace brush that looks like apple seeds' is wildly specific #there's probably an identical brush to what i painstakingly drew by hand but dont tell me about it i want to think i did that for a reason #punk ringo on top was a lot less work on the lineart bit except for that godforsaken guitar #i had to make sure it looked right and it took forever #but what punk ringo gave me the most trouble with was posing #i knew i wanted an arm out to mirror lolita ringo but thw initial draft was meant to be her holding the guitar the opposite way she is now #(as in her hand was gonna be backwards) #and do you know how hard it is to balance a guitar like that. i had to grab my guitar and do a photoshoot to see what was most natural #while still having leg up arm out #this was fun to do even if i had about three crises in the middle of it #i tried doing my old rendering style again after a while and it was fun too #lolita ringo gave me a bit of trouble in the fact that my brain couldnt handle the dress being shaded but the apples being flat #but we got it lmao. i dont know if ill ever do this again it took too long #but maybe half of the time was because suddenly halfway through everybody needed my help for something or other that required me to leave #anyway wow thats enough rambling. i should go to bed now

[thefiresofpompeii]

holy blocking batman. on the nose? sure. a shot that seems to have been composed specifically so a dropout former film student like me can exclaim ‘wow this is cinematic’ and probably talk circles about the symbolism… jack with his back turned to the camera, a statuesque silhouette towering over the cowering gwen — on her knees before something of a an idol, a demigod, an impossible hero, some christ figure risen from the dead but at the cost of the corpse lying prostrate like a sacrifice beside him. somebody to take her by the hand and lead her to a transfigured world in which nothing will ever be the same.

arriving like an angel of death after defying it — come with me and leave of the land of the living behind. come with me too, gwen cooper, your turn

#it’s quite self evident that in the void the doctor’s conspicuous absence leaves behind jack comes to fill it #immortal in a long dramatic coat; coolest man in the universe; cursed to lose everybody he cares about #but still. rtd stays rtding. i missed it . suffering the chibnall era watchthrough eking out TRACES of cinematic imagery #sorryfor writing a half sort of meta after seeingONE EPISODE i can’t help it can i #torchwood lb #doctor who meta #torchwood meta #doctor who #dw #torchwood #jack harkness #gwen cooper #suzie costello #jamie catches up #jamie.txt

[newfeeling77]

i love my friends so much my connection with other ppl makes my life worth living. i love finding common ground and understanding with regular people and understanding im part of something bigger than ill ever truly comprehend, because human relationships (to me) are another plane of understanding and love, from short once in a lifetime interactions to lifelong friendships, because its about memories and how much of a wonderful scrapbook you can make of your experiences… im grateful for every second no matter how painful or scary because i know its my only shot at living which means so much to me because i wasnt always sure id make it… i was going to just put this in my notes app out of embarrassment for sincerity but everyone i interact with gives me this feeling and that includes you people on here. its really incredible

#not sure if this makes sense bc im super drunk but im just saying. #i love my close friends old friends new friends everybody i know because it feels so good to know people. #ive been so depressed lately but i never cross over because i truly love life. experiencing new or old art all the time. #meeting new people and feeling love for humanity #learning and feeling better about myself #loving the people around me #it really is worth it despite my pain. #and i hope i never have to go to the psych ward again #and i can learn to cope… depression is a disease i suffer from but not a death sentence #and i need to believe in myself and my abilities #ill be alright… if only i felt like this when i was sober :( lets go substance abuse #anyway i wish my therapist was more helpful n not telling me its okay to pursue relationships with 40yo men

[voidedjuice]

im so normal btw :)

#waaag #mayhaps a little 5h nap would help me feel better #currently suffering from what if everybody actually hates me-itis #my usual mental response to it is just that if you fail to tell me you dont want to hang out #then whatever agony you suffer from from being around me is 100% only your fault #however my structural integrity is down and so i experience the horror #ok venting over time for that unhealthily long afternoon nap

[volivolition]

what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least. #skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act. #and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this. #and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also: #empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this? #you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand. #i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy'' #but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!! #oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!! #chemi chats #task: swept up

[monsteractialuna]

i kinda wanna join discord servers because i only have 2 friends to talk to about fnaf (one of them doesn't even know fnaf lore all they know is the dca) but man.

I have major trust issues with discord servers I don't personally own/run but if I make another discord server literally everybody i know will descend on me like a pack of wolves :(

#I'd just make my own server at some point but doing so would invoke the wrath of literally everybody i know #I'm the server guy but I've been banned from making servers :( #people literally go into my dms like “hey mercy do u have a server for this” because they know I enforce rules and try to keep my servers a #friendly as possible but damn!! I don't have the mental spoons to make another discord server alone </3 and I don't have anybody to help me #run one for this #suffering 5 ever maybe i'll find a discord server someday maybe i'll just drop dead

[mccoalminer]

Why does it feel like we're constantly struggling against a huge step backwards in basic workers rights and protections?

Even putting the blatant disregard for working conditions aside: one of the biggest things uniting workers in these services is that they're all striking primarily not over pay but over conditions and funding: Across the board they're saying 'Even with a full workforce, it's impossible to provide a fit for purpose service.'

The answer to that isn't to sack workers?? There's already chronically not enough staff! How would any of these services cope with bulk firing their essential staff on top of the crippling pressures they're already facing.

There's no reason to propose a policy like this other than to accelerate the digging of public services' graves.

#uk politics #imagine being so obtuse that you see workers directly asking for your help and go 'nah sack em' #labour doing everything it can to oppose this is imperative #its also concerning that... it feels inevibtable that threatening to fire striking workers while doing nothing to address #the reasons for the strike could be a very direct pipeline to having a substantial part of the workforce walk out #to make the point that you cant sack all of them while maintaining your minimum level of fucking service #and that would be catastrophic for literally everybody #except rishi who materially wouldnt even notice #the biggest thing stopping nurses from walking out is and had always been their sense of responsibility #and their knowledge that patients will suffer #unduly when theyre ALREADY suffering unduly

[onewomancitadel]

I think a lot of people lack the self-knowledge to know whether a random post or opinion or assertion etc. necessarily needs to apply to you and whether you need to be included in that caveat and whether a good faith interpretation here might be helpful. Look mummy I'm a real grown-up

#idk I have seen tons of posts like this #like 'self-care which encourages you to do nothing is harmful' I mean. I just ignore quote self-care posts unquote because #I know myself well enough and I know what makes me slide into depressive behaviours #on some level the medicalisation of suffering is dangerous but the medicalisation/othering of self-knowledge is bad too #so rather than 'and the answer to this is that you need to be doing stuff all the time' the answer is really 'learn your limits' #there might not be a perfect guide to figuring things out but you know. that's one place to start at least #topically to this post I saw a post that was like 'growing up is realising that not everybody dislikes you automatically and it's weird #to assume that' #which is nice and all. for normal people. it's just not a post that includes all experiences #and it's relatable to some people! #I see a lot of posts for depression that are like 'eat well and exercise a lot' which is nice and all. for people without eating disorders #and obsessive exercise compulsions #I just know to ignore it because it won't be helpful to me #because not everything is a strict diagnostic 'good/bad' matter lol #and yeah I get it. it's not always nice to be excluded. but you can empower yourself this way #in the actual sense of empowerment. self-knowledge and self-determination #which means you can better recognise when it is time to speak up!

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it's only natural to feel anger when somebody isn't "taking your advice" or listening to you about their mental health or what will help them. People want to help people, and the anger comes when you are perceiving somebody as not being receptive but...

It can be a selfish impulse to say that your opinion about their illness is the only thing they need. It isn't about you, even though the advice you give is given by you.

Nobody deserves to suffer, this is true. But, also, nobody deserves to be forced to do things that either won't help or won't be genuine. If somebody isn't taking your advice, there's a reason for it (maybe it's not a good enough reason for you, but this isn't the point). It's okay to be disappointed or angry, but it's not going to help to lash out at them. That is only pouring water onto a grease fire.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #sometimes you DO need to freefall without a parachute. sometimes the 'just get better! ☺️' mindset that's given to us will slowly kill us #the whole 'if you take my advice you'll be free from your illness 😇' saviour complex is honestly something that would have killed me #because it wasn't coming from a place of genuinely helpfulness or what would work for *me*... #...those pieces of advice came from the mindset of how to make everybody else comfortable... #...because it minimized the fact that i was (am) fucking insane and unwell and ill and debilitated... #...the advice came across as sinister because it wasn't about me despite addressing my insanity. it was ABOUT everybody else #and i just got done watching a heartbreaking video about somebody else's decline and i don't want them to suffer... #...but i also don't want to be the cause OF their suffering. my advice for them would be unhelpful i think... #...so i am still heartbroken and sad and maybe angry but that... isn't their fault. they are SUFFERING and VISIBLY so... #...i want their suffering to end in any way that will actually help *them* and not my ego y'know...

[euargh]

I love Spamton and the Addisons so much. I write my bad fanfictions with them a lot to pretend I have a friendship family such as theirs to block out the reality of how alone and mistreated I am irl lmao. I badly wish a friendship family like the Addisons, but that can’t happen and won’t exist so... fictional world to reside in it is then. Yes, I am a VERY sad person, lulz. Speaking of which, oh man it’s Christmas Eve, I better work on another chapter of the Addisons Sitcom. I need to have Pink want to be the center of attention and break everything in a comical manner. I don’t know why I like making Pink this blood thirsty person while remaining elegant. It’s just funny to me. but oh man I also need to complete the secret santa giftart. arughskj art is always such a chore for me. wish it were fun and easy like it is for most people. I only find writing to be fun for me, depending what it is. Like having to respond back to people or RP’s is also a chore at times. urgh, hate how my brain is so... lame and finds everything a chore nowadays. Drank this energy drink and now I have a migraine.

#rambling #blogging #excuse my excessive ramblings #probably the energy drink #which i'll end up burning out quickly and lay on the floor and not accompliish anything #why do i enter these things only to not complete anything #i suppose to give myself something to focus on and do so i won't feel empty #then i don't do anything #urghhhh i'm so lame euarkdjkfj #anyways i have cartoon network's livestream playing in the background christmas specials #having a bunch of noises playing at once helps me focus sometimes #do i have adhd? urghhhh #i once tried to have a serious conversation with my sis' on that because i was upset at never accomplishing anything and always being a mess #then she responded with 'EVERYONE HAS ADHD' so i went quiet and it's probably why i don't seek help and suffer #and the doctors down here are sexist and would probably say 'oh it's a women's problem' like before when i was bleeding out my asshoole #i hate people and everybody down here #lmaoo excuse my rant i am grumpy today #maybe i'll make a margarita to calm my shit down

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

help i don’t want to change my header banner thing for my blog but i refuse to change my theme and my avatar picture thing even more but i want one of the things to be of sweet so that my blog reflects the things that i post and it’s still mostly iron maiden so i just want to change one thing and leave everything else iron maiden

the gif of bruce and janick on my header is adorable and has been there forever but it’s the only thing i can think of to change

#me #i know i said help but i guess i don't really need help because i'm probably going to change it regardless but i feel bad removing that gif #and i want everybody to know the pain i am going through over it #i mean i still have to figure out what to put there anyway #it has to be a black and white picture or gif #there are multiple options #if my thing with sweet is temporary then i'll probably just put the bruce and janick one back anyway #but it doesn't FEEL temporary at the moment #i have upped the number of my boys from 6 to 10 #or maybe 7 to 11 #because normally i refer to the current members of iron maiden as my boys but clive is still one of my boys too #actually sweet were my boys before anyone else ever #maybe they never stopped being my boys #maybe they've always been my boys this whole time and i just wasn't giving them the proper attention that my boys deserve #maybe i actually upped it from 4 to 11 years ago #that sounds about right #sweet i am sorry for the NEGLECT but i'm fixing it now #they have always deserved BETTER #and all of my followers are going to either suffer through me making up for it #or they will enjoy the new adventure that my blog is going to start #or has already started i guess #oh i almost forgot about pins #i also refuse to change my pinned post right now because it's bruce mashing his nose on the microphone #like how could i change that?? i have to leave it there for at least a long while

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Okay. Am I the asshole if I call out my roommate's self-centered behavior? I live in a communal space, where everybody except C shares freely. C got a good job through connections and is able to spend freely on themselves, spending little on household items, groceries, etc. They say they're broke every month, but I've seen their takeout containers and amazon boxes, so maybe it's a spending problem. Worst of all, when we are low on food, C just disappears for a few hours and comes back instead of cooking with everyone.

I've told C that they're being selfish and they should start considering other people, but it goes in one ear and out the other. I offered to help budget but they don't listen! They barely spend more than $400 of their $2000 a month on groceries for the house; the rest goes to their lavish lifestyle while the rest of us suffer. I just want them to pay their fair share. AITA for asking them to be fair??

Including some more specific INFO from version 1 of this post (which wasn't postable due to being about emotions rather than actions):

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #the portland polycule commune cult

[vamptastic]

cannot exaggerate how truly horribly my stummy is hurting me i may have suffering more than anybody else on earth ever. only time it's ever been this bad is when i was on an international flight after drinking coffee didn't get an ounce of sleep for ~36 hours and then landed in berlin and spent the next 12ish hours walking around in the sun without water. truly horrible levels of stomach pain and i am literally just sitting in bed sipping water and occasionally eating a saltine. wghats wrong with me

#god i genuinely fucking hope i just messed up my meds and I'm not actually sick with smth #I mean i assume if i had stomach flu or food poisoning I'd be throwing up no matter my level of willpower (emetophobia) #Never had food poisoning but i did catch a nasty stomach flu in the past and it's not like this #But genuinely other than not having to deal w throwing up this is way worse than the flu 😭 #Like at least with the flu I don't have any energy and can try to sleep it off and also everybody is like #Oh Leonard you are so sick you poor poor man you've suffered more than Christ on the cross #but this. I am experiencing my torments with crystal clear clarity and if i did mess up my meds #I am ALSO on too much goddamn amphetamine which is not helping. I want to sleep!!! #Also. Fucking heartburn. Which is from the not sleeping so at least it's not a worrying sign. But god it SUCKS #Like i very much just want to lie down and sink into the ether but lying down worsens the pain 😭 #I feel best when standing up and walking around but I can't actually DO anything productive without it getting worse #it's just a horrible cocktail. can't even talk to ppl to take my mind off it bc ill have to hang up to go lay on the floor 😭