#every week i love her more and more!!!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[shokupanko]

╰(✿˙ᗜ˙)੭━☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟSteampunk bunny Mayu for Mayu Monday!

#vocaloid #art #fanart #vocaart #mayu monday #vocaloid mayu #mayu #steampunk #steampunk aesthetic #GUYS BROWN COLOR PALLETE??? wasn’t as challenging as I thought ngl #ALSO CAN WE AGREE THAT STEAMPUNK IS LITERALLY THE BEST AESTHETIC LIKE EVER??? #Mayu + bunny + steampunk?? *chefs kiss* #ALSO I’M SUPER PROUD OF THIS WORK- it took my like almost a week to finish it because of the details with the dress and lace #BUT she came out super cute :D #I have a Piko and Fukase design as well obv #atp I draw Mayu in anything other than her actual outfit for no real reason smh #she just gives such dress up vibessss #she started my vocaloid steampunk au fr fr like I can’t get enough of this girl SHE NEEDS MORE LOVE AND SUPPORT #ALSO if you look by her hips you’ll see that she has pockets!! because every lady in a dress deserves pockets #she’s gives pure girly feminine energy I just want to dress her up in everything #cyberpunk aesthetic mayu next??? #/╲/╭( •̀ ᗜ •́ )╮/╱ #Ohhhh I guess it’s time to start on my inbox again （´＿｀） #ALRIGHT I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT TIME FOR ME TO VANISH NOW BYEEEEE

[mattodore]

pay attention to theo’s beautiful face and not whatever matthias’s arm is doing... i liked the lighting more here than against the wall

#these are the last screenshots i wanted to edit from the ones i took on the 22nd and had been slowly editing throughout the week #will finally be putting mattodore in their thirties to rest 🙏⚰️ #river dipping #echthroi #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #ended up not doing much to these screenshots tbh… i was so into the audiobook i was listening to i kinda just. stared at the wall a lot... #my brain was telling me this wasn’t worth posting bc i’ve done so many mattodore edits recently and this isn’t anything different but. #like i did actually spend a few hours with these edits so. on one hand i’m like this isn’t really anything #but on the other hand i’m like. well they’re my ocs whom i love dearly and i’ll probably enjoy looking back at this #the same way i do all my other recent edits which i open my own blog up to stare at like. multiple times in a day #obsessed atm…….. #anyway. #god… matthias is so huge he always takes up so much space i’m constantly having to crop him out of edits 😭 #and these are poses that weren’t even made from me…. so he’s not even at his full 6’3’’ height and size like 😭😭😭 #he distracted me but that aside... i'm waiting for my game to open up atm so i can get back to tweaking alessandria's sim #her face is gonna take me forever................................. #ik i don't talk about my other ocs on here much anymore but alessandria is my third favorite oc (mattodore obviously being my top two) #so... i'm seriously gonna agonize over every update i make for them now kjdhknjf #ocs with tragic backstories save me................... #i’ll probably spend a few hours with alessandria in cas and then i’m going back to google docs to write more abt mattodore

[merlinemrys]

sometimes u just have to think about how gwen is thee it girl in camelot 😌 favoured heavily by morgana, courted by arthur and then became queen (not to mention that arthur was willing to forsake his entire kingdom just to be with her), lancelot loved her at first sight and he carried that flame of his affection until he died, gwaine stopped in the middle of the street to flirt with her, leon basically goes and shoots his shot while arthur’s dying, merlin’s willing to disguise himself AND die for her at any turn… nobody does it like thee babygirl ever <3

#shows #bbc merlin #guinevere pendragon #gwen #text #tais toi lys #i NEED to make more everybody loves gwen fics #ONE ISNT ENOUGH #merlin needs to head like a Gwen Love Club (open to the public) and u get the usual suspects (arthur/lancelot/gwaine/leon/morgana) but then #u just get a SLEW of random citizens of camelot who barge in and they all speak very earnestly abt gwen #and one day gwen pops in and sees this odd group and when arthur comes to kiss her hello (they all STARE AT HIM WITH ENVY) and she’s just #like ‘am i missing a meeting? open audience?’ and everyone murmurs ‘no my lady’ and merlin winks at her and says ‘we all gather here every #week to discuss our love for you of course.’ and bc it’s MERLIN and he looks like he’s JOKING gwen just rolls her eyes and takes her leave #arthur then turns to merlin as is like ‘HOW DID YOU DO THAT?’ and merlin shrugs ‘she doesn’t take compliments like that very well it’s easy #for her to think we’re kidding than actually contemplating the idea that i may be telling the truth!’ #*

[carefulfears]

thinking about scully sitting on the floor of mulder’s apartment just holding him as he wept after his mother’s death and after she told him through tears that it’s time to stop. it’s time to stop looking for his sister.

and how she had already told him that once, seven years earlier, a month into their partnership, when she chased him out of a police station and told him to stop running after his sister because it won’t bring her back.

she called after him to just stop, because she’s the scientist, and that’s the logical conclusion that she had reached.

except later that night, he told her why he does it. that he’s been closing his eyes and walking into that room, thinking maybe, when he opens them, his sister will be there, since he was 12 years old. “every day” of his life.

and she never told him to stop again.

until seven years later, when she rocked him on the floor, and then the next day was asked “why do you want to bring all this back up now?” and answered, “someone owes it to mulder.”

so she started looking. she reopened files, she tracked down records, she went to his mother’s house to dig through the trash. she confronted CSM about what he knew, she flew to california, she held hands and prayed.

she looked at mulder and said “it hurts me to tell you this” and stayed steady in the truth anyway. she listened to him read to her about a 14-year-old girl’s pain, held his hand and told him to get some sleep. she stayed up, kept looking, and found it. “i got it, mulder. i couldn’t believe it when i saw it. it was like it was looking for me.”

the police report from when samantha ran away.

she read the hospital records, went to the home of the nurse who signed the intake report, asked him if he wanted her to go herself.

she left him by the car and walked up and knocked, asked about a patient in 1979. she listened as the nurse described how “you couldn’t forget her or how frightened she was. scared for her sweet life.” and the man who came for her, who wouldn’t put out his cigarette.

earlier the day before, she had been told to just stop. “word of advice, me to you: let it be. you know, there’s some wounds that are just too painful ever to be reopened.”

and she had responded, “this particular wound has never healed. and mulder deserves closure.”

after seven years, she knows now, that you can’t just stop chasing. she knows how heavy grief is, and she‘s seen the effects of carrying it alone. of walking into the worst night of your life every day, eyes closed, hopeful.

you can’t just stop, and you can’t really have closure, but you can help someone carry it.

and ultimately, that’s what made this the end of the road. sometimes the heaviest burden of grief is feeling that pain is all there is left of someone, and that alleviating it would be to abandon them.

scully’s right, this wound has never closed, but there’s freedom in shared remembrance and shared dedication. she doesn’t ask him to stop until he’s ready to know the truth, and she’s willing to find it. she doesn’t ask him to rest until it’s safe for him to, because it’s not forgetting samantha. she knows and she remembers.

#i’m having a tough week thank you all for your consideration #i forgot that that police report file just found her. god #these girls love mulder so much #they’re always working in tandem #it means so much esp with the death of his mother that someone else in the world just remembers #it’s mulder in the pilot saying ‘no one ever talked about it’ and how everyone just pretended she never existed #it’s the childhood photos that scully sees burnt in the trash #everyone tried to just erase her from existence so much that mulder had to dedicate his entire life to remembering her #but it’s lighter now #someone else knows #someone else knows that they spent their summers playing baseball and that they argued over the tv and that he’s looked for her #in every room that he has ever been in #someone else knows what happened to her and the horror that she suffered and how she wrote that they didn’t even treat her like a person #how she wrote that she just wishes she could see her brother’s face #sometimes that matters more than any reveal or any truth or any conspiracy #she’s going to be remembered and she’s going to be thought of and loved #even if he goes home and gets some sleep #even if he stops looking #txf.txt #closure #sein und zeit

[sneez]

some posters for conrad veidt films with my cat mole edited in in mspaint

#i have been watching. A Lot of conrad veidt films recently #the man who laughs is now one of my favourite ever films ive watched it three times in the past few weeks and i cry violently every time #i love all of them though hes so much fun to watch and so lovely i wish i could have met him #also hes like the best actor who has ever existed and im a homosexual so can you blame me #anyway ive been having fun putting mole on the posters. shes a star :) #i havent talked about her much here but my life basically revolves around mole she is my world 4 ever #i wish you all could meet her she is very small and old and i adore her with every part of my being #i hope you are all doing well friends i am very almost on holiday (yippee) so will hopefully be around more often #yippee 2 #ghost post #id in alt text by the way i thought it made more sense for a post like this

[golden-girl-daisy]

She was terrified of doggy day care and hid in a corner of the room the whole time. The workers said she was really sweet to all of them just afraid of everything.

#which makes sense cause the last time I dropped her off somewhere she was spayed #I’m gonna try one more time maybe in a few weeks with honey with her #because honey loves literally every dog and should help her not be so afraid #leia organa #dog #puppy #shiba inu #so sleep #it was so sad they had to carry her to me at pick up because she was afraid to follow them anywhere #I don’t know if it’s more of separation anxiety or just fear of being at a totally new place alone #either way I guess some training is in order before we go back

[reuptakeinhibitor]

i love stobin working retail jobs and sharing a resume so much but consider this. steve follows robin to bloomington, indianapolis, west lafayette, wherever she decides to go and they get a little apartment. maybe they decide to go out of state but i think they stay in the midwest. then st takes a page from buffy and steve works construction while robin goes to school.

#i think this would play nicely into him believing he's not smart #and robin's like “what? you built my desk all by yourself. i don't know anyone else who'd be able to do that.” #“and you fixed mrs. robinson's fence just last week! that little dog of hers was always getting out and digging holes in her rose garden.” #and she reassures him that all those things require skill and important and HE'S important #and he believes her a little more every time he hears her say it :) #the day she learns about gardner's theory of multiple intelligences she can barely contain herself #she's so excited to tell steve she doesn't even get the car door closed before she's blurting it out #like “GUESS WHAT 😳” #and maybe he gets a little misty but he saves the tears for later when he can really think about how much he's loved and how they're both o #and living the life they both want because they built it together!!!! #anyway . . . #i swear this was just supposed to be a post about steve being hot #but that kinda got away from me #i could go on and on about them #steve harrington #robin buckley #stobin #god help me i'm scared to have my post In The Tags but i must maintain tag consistency for my blog #also i remember very little about buffy #this is a stranger things post #*and ARE important #*they're both OK #i haaaate typos in tags but i'm not writing all that again

[thewinedarksea]

we went to iceland!

#it was our 5th year anniversary trip. yes we went the first week of october yes i am posting this more than a month later this is bc im #allergic to social media and will forget for weeks on end. it is a miracle this is getting posted at all. #anyways!! iceland is the most beautiful country ive ever been to. literally in love. incredible time. most of these are from reykjavik #proper. top left is the view right across from our hotel (haunts me still I Miss Her). middle is black sand beach. top middle is me and my #most beautiful wife who didnt like her face in this so she is instead a heart (tragic bc i looked amazing in this set). #pls know that every picture that i will be posting my wife took bc she is a camera GODDESS (all from her phone bc she does hard mode). dont #ever make the mistake of thinking i am posting my pics i cannot take them and they always come out blurry #everyone *suffered* with my snapchats and then i went and posted the Good Ones #we did an escape room in reykjavik too--mafia-themed it was great--and walked all over and ate a great deal and saw so very many cats. huge #fan of all the cats. #prepare for spam #iceland trip #mine.txt #my face #i think is my tag? #i reach for you in the night

[stupidrant]

i think the most we will get is PC release (if that) this year but that means we gotta deal with those trolls bc changing angrb0da’s skin color is such a big deal to these mfs and i still dont understand that sweet baby inc shit bcuz all the information im seeing is just bundled bullshit LMFAOOO i feel like her actual character gets overshadowed by the made up problems and no one actually talks abt HER as a character or even analyses her fr (outside of here ofc) lol sms abt to make a banger with her and atreus istg

#Truth be told i dont even wanna talk abt this anymore but this topic gets brought up pretty much every week atp #How weird is it that u would only accept her if she were white #Thats literally you admitting you like her character but her being black is a deal breaker #I feel like no matter how much they want her to be a white girl changing her skin wouldnt change their opinion abt her #Theres this one (big) acct in particular thats constantly shitting on rag and its like bro u need to just leave if ur not happy #or take a long ass break and come back at times and then leave again cuz hes just miserable as fuck and yall know exactly who im talking ab #I do see more people getting annoyed with this topic and i dont blame them #its getting super out of hand and dragged out atp #Once again i do not want ppl to like her out of PITY. she deserves a very honest group of fans and if those fans are ppl #That disliked her at first but started to like her later on thats fine as long as its out of being genuine #I cannot wait for her to gain more fans fr but i have to be careful what i wish for bcuz i dont want ppl to become too crazy lol #I might just post smth on that god forsaken reddit as an appreciation post of her or smth idk yet LMFAOOO #I for sure will have to be more brave and visible with my love for her one of these days #also very grateful for that one ragnarok vp. he loves angie for sure #Anyways #Love angie for life #Gow #god of war ragnarok #rant

[kafkaguy]

character wrapped 2023 💥

tagged by @davidtennantpussytulpa ^-^ i didn't know how many to do so i copied tara and did top 10. i know the severance guys are Four Of Them but i can't separate them theyre all equally important to me

will graham (hannibal), em haywood (nope), aziraphale (good omens), mark & dylan & helly & irving (severance), hawkeye pierce (mash), martha jones (doctor who), ivan karamazov (the brothers karamazov), kim kitsuragi (disco elysium), stewy hosseini (succession), ruescott melshi (andor/rogue one)

i will tag... @fagician @britomart @libraryfag @roadwhores @majorbaby @globuspolski @hadleyfraserfaggot @tenderscience if u want to ^-^

#and now i will explain them all in detail #cos i started watching hannibal back in like. january or february and will immediately set up camp in my head and started to settle there #*I* pay rent to *HIM*. he lives there permanently. sweating and monologuing constantly #em was not only the character of 2022 but also of 2023 and of 2024 and the rest of the decade and all decades to come #she had such an impact on me keke palmer's performance will live with me forever and i love nope so fucking much #i almost didnt include her because nope was more of a last year obsession. but she lives on #aziraphale.........no comment #severance.......i love them all so much and at first i wanted just irving and then just helly and then i realise i cried over mark this week #and then i realised i couldnt possibly leave out dylan when hes probably my favourite character. so then i settled for all of them #hawkeye is my fucking wife. enough said #martha... well i knew i had to have a doctor who character. i thought maybe the doctor but then i thought their companions mean more to me #sometimes at least. i did have a fourteen icon for a while but then i was like but Donna..... and then i thought. well #these past few months at least martha jones has been eating away at my heart. i go batshit insane when i think about her #her impact. her grace. her power. so she had to go on the list.it was a toss up between her and donna for sure though #then i figured i had to include a karamazov since reading that book took up half of my year. and ivan was my favourite of the 3. so <3 #kim goes without saying. literally nothing to be said hes the character Of All Time. to me #stewy also goes without saying ive had so many Stewy Save Me moments since the beginning of season 4 all the way to the end of the year #i miss him every day. he is the moment. i wish there was more of him all the time #and the last one is a bit of a wildcard cos all my insanity abt melshi has been on my andor sideblog. #but rest assured ive been thoroughly Not Normal about him. he literally side appears in 4 episodes and has 11 total minutes onscreen #but i love him. so much. and hes occupied most of my thoughts since september. once again his impact his power his grace. his homosexuality #enough said. that's all. thanks for reading. this was a great year for autism and madness #tag game #🍪

[sexynetra]

I am so carnally attracted to this Dawn look I cannot even properly find the words to express it

#I stalked ig so thoroughly for every photo and video of this look #I had to stop my hunt bc I have a show to be at in half an hour #but if you find more PLEASE send them my way #I am going so disgustingly horrifically feral for her here #like #god #look at her!!!!! #I’m not wrong you know I’m not wrong #she’s perfect #she’s ethereal #I think I also just really love her in red hair (I really love everyone in red hair) #anyways I need to write amandawn this week I think #drag race #rpdr #RuPaul’s drag race #drag race 16 #rpdr 16 #RuPaul’s drag race 16 #Dawn #up until dawn

[13eyond13]

doing this amazing new thing called eating well EVERY DAY and drinking enough water EVERY DAY and trying to get a bit of a healthy walk in EVERY DAY and sleeping at least 7 hours EVERY DAY... and then looking at my Fitbit stats like a nerd to see what happens EVERY DAY... will let you know if anything interesting does happen

#because i need to take care of myself as well as my virtual pets and plants AT LEAST #but for some reason thats not nearly as fun #anyways fitbits are almost like gamifying self care to me #and so is reporting on things to my blog like a shitty scientist hahaha #i will say in the first few days of this my resting heart rate / heart rate variability has improved already #and i just feel better like. more steady with my energy/hunger and less thirsty for sure #my current meals are overnight oats + fruit and then like veggies and brown rice and chicken stir fries #just drinkin coffee and water and the occasional fresca #also some avocado eggs n toast if i want #not gonna lie i straight up asked ChatGPT to make me a meal plan that was healthy and not too expensive or hard to make hahaha #also one of my inspirations is watching the youtuber who makes bento boxes for her husband every day #i watch them as comfort asmr and they always make me want to cook something and pack a lunch #'imamu room' on YouTube seriously good stuff #i love the little catchphrase on her channel 'lets survive another week' hahaha #motivates me to want to DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN EVERY WEEK #p

[cimicherrychanga]

aaaaghhh im going insane i love my wife so much!!!!!!!!

#shut up dave #ITS. AGHHHH. you guys dont understand dawn is SO delightful to have around. #like so so much its. its like they took everything thats lovely and beautiful and good and they made it into a person #and then that person happened to be in my life. im so lucky. im so lucky!! im going to explode!!! #this past week and a bit weve been together every time i got to hug her it was like. oughhhhhhh aaaahhhh #all the evil has left my body. i am now at peace and feel more loved than any other time #and rn were just chatting and its insane how good it is. we can be talking abt nothing and id be having the best time #sorry for being a little gay on main im just overwhelmed with feelings. i love her so much

[bloodbathfortwo]

What does everyone think of Nigel Forbes-Colbie ever getting pregnant? It doesn't matter how you interpret it: Omegaverse, males can get pregnant Au, Trans! Nigel. Just tell me your guys' headcanons of Nigel's pregnancy: The changes, the hardships, the softness, and the vulnerabilities.

#murderous intent #like minds 2006 #like minds #alex forbes #nigel colbie #Alex Forbes X Nigel Colbie #Nigel Colbie x Alex Forbes #If you guys haven't noticed my recent posts I've been feeling way too soft for this fandom #Like #Too soft #And it's both Nigel and Alex's fault for making me too soft when all I want is to cause chaos and do crimes #To be honest I'd like to Imagine Nigel's pregnancy as an arduous one: Swollen feet . Sore back. Weird cravings. Mood swings. Everything. #And he isn't used to seeing himself get swollen with life each and every day. While Alex is so gullible first thing in the morning because #of the baby bump growing every single day. And Nigel getting rounder every week. #Sure. Nigel is enjoying being pampered by Alex with all these services and gifts but sometimes he thinks that he isn't that attractive #Anymore for Alex. And that while he's carrying his children he will leave him like a used toy. #He'd have instances where he'd feel conflicting feelings for their child and think of possibilities of removing her from his body #But he'd soon regret it. He just breaks down into tiny little pieces of ever thinking of their daughter that way. His and ALEX"S #He can never stomach killing her. He can never stomach ruining her beautiful life that he has yet witnessed. #He still has his self-harm tendencies but he avoids it. He avoids harming his angel. His miracle. His life. #He wants to be a good father to his child. He wants to nurture her. Feed her knowledge and love. Cater to her needs and be at her beck #and call: be a father. #Alex knows what's happening to Nigel. They talk. And they talk everyday. He knows how much it can be hard for Nigel during his pregnancy #And he will always be there to protect his spouse and his unborn child. #He will spite their original purpose in order to create their own purpose. Which Nigel had a hard time letting go of. #It was hard. Seeing the history that made them into the people they are today. But it had to #they had to change #change for their family. #For their miracle. #And Nigel seeing Alex being this doting makes him fall for him ten times more

[thirstyvampyr]

oh we broke up again

#*jerk off hand gesture* #i told him ''we're not even friends'' #we dont even hang out or do shit together #sometimes i go weeks without saying more than a few words out loud i just listen to him complain all day #i just cook and clean #do his paperwork #he pays the bills #im a fucking bang maid #watching a loving relationship on my screen is making me wish i had someone i could laugh with #i havent been kissed in years because he doesnt know how to and it's awkward as hell everytime i try to teach him #i should just kms i cant live like this any more #cant have her enjoy one thing once in a while you know gotta ruin it every which way