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evangelineshifts · 2 days
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sat outside for 30 mins and suddenly life is beautiful and theres hope for a better tomorrow
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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Quotes i relate to shifting that kinda make me gag
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evangelineshifts · 1 month
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When you come to the realization of what people actually mean when they say you just need to HAVE your manifestations it almost makes you want to cry; like YOU MEANT THAT SHIT?!? Fr fr like I don’t need to do anything but continue business as usual and THATS how it works?!? I just HAVE it???? Cuckoo fuckin bananas man.
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evangelineshifts · 13 days
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shifting to a dr where you dont have all the lore and just fucking around and finding out is like playing russian roulette with the universe
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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I have a really bad habit of saying I’m gonna meditate and then just going to honk shoo honk shoo mimimimimi land 🙁😔 how am I supposed to reach spiritual enlightenment in these conditions
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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My main motivation to shift rn is that I crave physical contact like some sort of stray cat.
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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FUCK IT !
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You know I started thinking about the analogy that people use for manifestation and shifting comparing it to when you order something online.
And for me that analogy made sense but I could never truly relate to it cause when they said “you don’t wonder when your package is coming, you just know it is and you don’t question that etc etc”
And while yes that is true to a certain extent, I actually DO wonder when my packages are coming sometimes. I DO check how far they are from my location. I do anxiously wait for them to come.
I realize that that’s okay. Cause no matter how many times I check the order status. No matter how many times I check how long it’s been since I ordered it, my package STILL CAME.
I think the way we’re told to restrict ourselves from thinking about how much time our manifestations are taking or when we’re gonna shift actually makes it worse.
When you tell someone not to worry about something, to let it go and not thinking about it, to feign indifference the harder they’re going to try to. Which in turn just makes them think about it more.
It’s counterproductive at best.
When I order something I do think about how long it’ll take. I do check the status but once I do I just kind of go on once I’m done. I don’t really feel any particular way about how long it’s taking cause I know it’s mine and it’ll get here.
I trust that the delivery service will get it here in due time cause that’s THEIR job not mine and leave it at that 🤷🏽‍♀️
Another thing I noticed is that in ordering things- at least for me - I don’t worry about HOW it’s gonna get here. It could be delivered on my doorstep, in the mailbox, dropped from a fucking helicopter, ANYTHING, and I have never once cared.
And it might just be me being slow and realizing this is what they meant in those posts later than everyone else but it’s just like- clicked !
I’m always SO worried about the process of shifting.
What method should I do? Should I even do a method?
What if I get bored? I dont want to do it if I’m bored.
What will I think about? Should I look over my script? Maybe Pinterest boards for visuals?
What if I forgot something? I should check my script.
What if I fall asleep?
What if? What if? What if?
WHO FUCKING CARES?!? That is not why you’re doing this. Who cares about that process when the end goal is the destination.
I’ve been avoiding shifting for the longest because I just kept stressing out over the shifting aspect of it. I would maladaptive daydream about my dr and be happy in that but the thought of attempt a shift made me groan.
The thought of affirming and persisting in my manifestations seemed strenuous.
But thats not the point. With practices as fluid as this focusing on what to do is literally the last thing you need to be worried about and I just now realized that.
You’ve probably heard this all before but like fr, do whatever the hell you want. If you want to shift wide awake, eyes open and dancing with music blasting in your ears- do it. Who’s gonna tell you that you can’t? Who has the credibility to say it’s impossible.
No one.
If you want to manifest by literally saying one affirmation and deciding it’s done and then going on doing whatever the fuck you want until the 3D catches up, then do it.
Tell yourself it works for you and then do it.
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evangelineshifts · 28 days
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yall i started consistently listening to this self concept subliminal while i slept and ive been having the most amazing dreams about my manifestations and like people adoring me, coming up to me just to tell me im pretty, people always searching for my eyes so they can wave and smile, having loads of friends who hang on to my words with interest and laugh at my jokes, and people caring about me so much that the thought of me being gone literally sucks the life out of the room.
my celebrity confidence icons (Alexa demie, Nicki Minaj, Kendall Jenner, Kylie Jenner, Megan Thee Stallion, etc) knowing me and getting visibly excited to see me, me having confidence that literally exudes from me being (ex. this group of boys tried making fun of me in my dream and all i did was make a witty quip and tilt my head at them and they switched up so fast 😭😭 like falling over themselves), etc.
and in my waking life i feel so much more confident about my journey. i’m having an easier time persisting and accepting my desires as mine. i can feel myself fulfilled without trying so hard and i love it
this is the subliminal if anyone wants to try!! remember subliminals are tools that just help aid the power already in you!!
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evangelineshifts · 11 days
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shifting for dick. the person or the thing attached to him? I’ll leave that up to the audience. goodnight.
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evangelineshifts · 7 months
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Y’all I’m sorry but I literally grinds my gears so fucking bad when someone is like “yeah I didn’t shift last night but all I did was put on one subliminal and say ‘I will shift’ a few times, so what can I expect?” To shift???? You can expect to shift like you literally don’t have to do more than that 😭😭😭 the expectation that we need to have some 500 step method and 50 subliminal line up is so crazy to still have PLEASE 🙏🏾😭😭
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evangelineshifts · 1 month
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Y’all tell me not to make a young Justice DR. I’m only on Ep 3 I know such limited DC information I can’t.
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I’m whelmed. I’m like SOOO whelmed.
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evangelineshifts · 6 months
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Every time I start doubting myself and my skills I hear the phrase “the subconscious has no eyes” and something like flips in my brain. Like a bell and I wake up and I’m like “oh. This fucker will believe anything” and just like that I’m excited to have my desires again 😁😁😁 love life so bad rn ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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˗ˏ✎ [ LOA !] *ೃ
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⁀➷ stressing like it’s not already done !
⁀➷ self concept #1 !
⁀➷ subconscious has no eyes !
⁀➷FUCK IT !
⁀➷ I’m sorry people are so jealous of me!
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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I’m sorry that people are so jealous of me… but I can’t help it that I’m popular !
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Gods, all this attention is so tiring sometimes! I know all press is good press, but for the people talking about me behind my back; I can’t help that my presence is just so magnetizing !
I mean do the hoards of admirers get a bit overwhelming sometimes? Sure. But I can’t blame them for adoring me so much!
I’m just a naturally breathtaking, awe-inspiring person!
Every step I take calls attention to my form like a alarm.
Every syllable I utter leaves people mesmerized and I need of more like a siren song; luring people into my space and captivating them.
I’m sorry that every time I step into a room all eyes snap to me, my aura commands attention 🤷🏽‍♀️
I know I can flip it on and off like a switch but I don’t even realize I’m doing it half the the time,
It just happens.
I’m sorry that people are so jealous of me… but I can’t help it that I’m popular 🤷🏽‍♀️☺️
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✧ dividers by @hitobaby !
Inspired by Gretchen Wieners !
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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I shifted again but not to my dr 😭😭 crying and throwing up cause I only register it after I wake up in my OR and I realize the last time I was awake I was NOT here.
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I was taking a nap cause I’ve been ungodly tired lately. In my dream it was getting like weirder by the minute but it’s a dream so I don’t question it. When I’m about to wake up in my dreams usually my vision goes out and I can’t see anything until I wake up so I was like running away from this thing (too embarrassed to say what it was 😭😭) and I started flying and then my vision went black and I just kind of let myself lean into the feeling that I was gliding through air. I affirmed to myself that I was flying but with a subconscious undertone that I’m shifting as well and I felt a little scared but I just tried to push through it. And then I saw this outline of a face (???) I mostly focused on the eyes and I somehow knew that this outline was me. But it also was like a different me?? Not really my DRself cause my drself is my twin-self, it’s me. This was something different, it felt more powerful like she knew things, like she knew everything. It felt peaceful just kind of staying with her for a little bit. We didn’t talk I just kind of took some deep breaths with her (which was also weird cause I could literally hear the separate breaths she took) and lingered. Then once I was calm enough she asked me if I was read, her ‘mouth’ didn’t even move or anything I just looked into her eyes and knew (???) is this making sense. And I nodded and then I was in motion again only for a split second before I could see an image coming into focus. It took a little bit and only one of my eyes was open but it looked like I was looking at a phone. I could read all the words but I wasn’t really taking any of it in. It felt like I had just woken up after accidentally falling asleep while reading a fanfic (which I would never do I’m too paranoid to ever fall asleep in the middle of something). But I tried to to let my eyes open all the way cause I thought I was just in my OR and I didn’t want to wake up fully before trying again so I closed my eyes again and that was it ☹️ ☹️ I woke up in a different position my phone was off and thrown to the side and I was groggy.
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ps. if anyone has any input or ideas on the whole other me thing I’d love to hear it cause I’m a bit ????
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evangelineshifts · 3 months
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OH MY GODS, YOU’RE RUTHLESS
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Pairings: book!percy jackson x black!fem!reader
Word count: 5.3k (oops?)
Warnings: angst, mentions of death (literally in the underworld :/), hades being a dick (SORRY I LOVE YOU HADES), swearing (like one word), mentions of throwing up, pet names (angel, sweet girl, little dove)
a/n: this is kinda my first fic (?) so be kind! This is completely self indulgent as it’s literally a scenario for my desired reality so keep that in mind. If you want some back story visit my dr list on my pinned post! Have fun, stay super freaky, have great vagina I LOVE YAAA
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I never considered the Gods to be enemies to myself. Of course, I could understand where the animosity the other kids held towards them came from, I just couldn’t find it in myself to share it.
I’ve always seen myself as quite the lover and I’ve always known that it was my undoing. Holding out till the very last minute to toss out hope for redemption. I’ll love until the ability is carved out of my sternum.
I hate it.
The pain that comes with being such a tender-hearted individual is nefarious. But that recurring pain that plagues the minds and souls of those who are cursed to live a life of love and loss is what tortures the poets; and makes for a dam good book.
I hope to be able to transfer my heart from sleeve to page one day. But for now, I’m forced to keep dwelling on the feeling of dread and despair as I march my way through the dreary entrance hall of Hades’ palace.
Truth be told it’s not that dreary, it’s incredibly well-decorated. I'm just determined to be a hater. After fighting monsters, dealing with death traps, and arguing with temperamental Gods, I'm ready for the quest to be over and done with. It’s not as glorious as everyone made it out to be.
I looked over at Percy as the four of us reached the big set of doors at the end of the hall. He looked to be struggling with the weight of his backpack but I couldn’t understand why. Unless Oreos had suddenly gained weight in the day or two that it took us to get here he should be just fine. He wasn’t that scrawny.
“Well, guys,” Percy said. “I suppose we should… knock?”
As if on cue, a hot wind blew down the corridor and swung open.
“I guess that means entrez-vous,” Annabeth said in an exaggerated French accent. I giggled at her pronunciation and she sent me a playful glare as we all tentatively walked into the room.
"You are brave to come here, Son of Poseidon," Hades said in an oily voice. "After what you have done to me, very brave indeed. Or perhaps you are simply very foolish. And you legacy child, well, I expected better of you.” He seemed almost saddened as he uttered the last line.
My three quest mates looked over at me with varying levels of confusion plastered on their faces, I had half a mind to shrug bemusedly as I tried not to show my growing guilt so plainly on my face. What did I have to feel guilty for? Why did I care what Hades thought?
Percy stared at me a few seconds longer before facing the god again with renewed vigor, “Lord and uncle, I come with two requests”
Hades looked toward me and lifted his eyebrows in a “Is he serious???” sort of way but truth be told, I was too in awe of Percy's sudden diplomacy to give him a reaction. I fully expected him to at least glare at him but maybe I underestimated his desire to get his mom back. Hades leaned forward on his throne, a subtle incredulity painted on his sculpted face,
"Only two requests?" Hades said. "Arrogant child. As if you have not already taken enough. Speak, then. It amuses me not to strike you dead yet."
Spoken like a true older sibling. Christ.
I looked over at Percy in time to see his throat bob with trepidation. My heart gives a twinge of empathy, poor kid has only been in this life for a little over a month and he's already facing the god of the dead.
“Lord Hades… Look, sir, there can't be a war among the gods. It would be…bad.” smooth, fish sticks.
“Really bad,” Even smoother Grover, thank you.
Annabeth and I share an exasperated look as I think over every action I've ever made in my life to land me here.
“Return Zeus’s master bolt to me,” Percy pleaded. “Please, sir. Let me carry it to Olympus.”
Looking at Hades I'm getting the feeling that was not the right thing to say. His eyes grew glaringly bright as his face crumpled in anger,
“You dare keep up this pretense, after what you have done?” He spat.
I'm getting sick of the vague accusations thrown at us, “Percy hasn't done anything. I don't know if you’ve noticed but he's very new to this whole thing. I mean look at him, he's like a baby fawn,”
Percy looked mildly offended but he looked more concerned at the fact that I was practically mouthing off at an already very angry god.
Hades fixed me with a furious glare and I was sure I was sure I was going to be smoted. But then he did the strangest thing, he closed his eyes and took a steadying breath and when he opened them again the rage that had previously engulfed his irises seemed to lessen. Only a tad but it's still strange.
“Do you think I want war, child?” He said in an eerily calm manner.
I looked at the others utterly perplexed and when my gaze landed on Percy I had to fix him with a warning glare just to be sure he didn't try to be a wise guy at the wrong time. The last thing we needed was for fish Jesus to be filleted.
“My lord, I’m afraid I don’t understand. Wouldn’t a war expand your kingdom?” I said carefully.
His eyes widen a tad as he look on with absolute disbelief and frustration, “Did my brothers tell you that?? Fucking typical. Do you think I need more subjects?! Did you not see the sprawl of the asphodel fields??” Hades said, his voice risen an octave.
I hesitated to reply but I found I didn’t need to as Hades took it upon himself to continue his rant, "Have you any idea how much my kingdom has swollen in this past century alone, how many subdivisions I've had to open?"
Percy opened his mouth to respond, but Hades was on a roll.
"More security ghouls," he moaned. "Traffic problems at the judgment pavillon. Double overtime for the staff and the mortals just. keep. dying. You know, I used to be a rich god, godling. I control all precious metals under the earth. But my expenses!”
I was suddenly overcome with the fear that I was gonna have to comfort this emo god on his economic problems. And then Percy spoke and I was saved, “Charon wants a pay raise,” He blurted. I just had to laugh.
Hades went on to gripe about Charon and his troublesome discovery of Italian suits. He insisted that a war is the last thing he wanted and I wish I could say I was surprised.
“But you took Zeus' master bolt.” Percy said.
"Lies!" More rumbling. Hades rose from his throne, towering to the height of a football goal post. "Your father may fool Zeus, boy, but I am not so stupid. I see his plan."
"His plan?" I questioned.
"He was the thief on the winter solstice," Hades said. "His father thought to keep him his little secret. He directed him into the throne room on Olympus,”
Before I could even open my mouth to object and say that I was at the winter solstice and Percy wasn’t even a member at camp yet, Hades steamrolled on,
“You took the master bolt and my helm. Had I not sent my Fury to discover you at Yancy Academy, Poseidon might have succeeded in hiding his scheme to start a war. But now you have been forced into the open. You will be exposed as Poseidon's thief, and I will have my helm”
"But..." Annabeth spoke. I could tell her mind was going a million miles an hour. "Lord Hades, your helm of darkness is missing, too?"
"Do not play innocent with me, girl. You and the satyr have been helping this hero-coming here to threaten me in Poseidon's name, no doubt-to bring me an ultimatum. Does Poseidon think I can be blackmailed into supporting him? And you girl!" He directed his attention back to me and I was left to wonder what was so special about me that he felt the need to keep addressing me individually.
“This betrayal is disappointing but not unseen. I would think you would know better.” He glared heatedly at me, apparently abandoning his attempts at civility.
"No!" Percy said. "Poseidon didn't-I didn't- (y/n/n) had nothing to do with this- none of us did!"
"I have said nothing of the helm's disappearance," Hades snarled, "because I had no illusions that anyone on Olympus would offer me the slightest justice, the slightest help. I can ill afford for word to get out that my most powerful weapon of fear is missing. So I searched for you myself, and when it was clear you were coming to me to deliver your threat, I did not try to stop you."
"You didn't try to stop us? But-" None of what he was saying was making any sense. Not according to what we knew anyway. Did we really know anything?
"Return my helm now, or I will stop death," Hades threatened. "That is my counter proposal. I will open the earth and have the dead pour back into the world. I will make your lands a nightmare. And you, Percy Jackson-your skeleton will lead my army out of Hades."
The skeletal soldiers all took one step forward, making their weapons.
At this point the smart thing was to probably be scared out of my mind, but with Hades threatening Percy, fear seemed to be the last of my worries. This boy who I had made fast friends with in the short time that I’d known him. The boy who had lost his mom and his old life all within five minutes and was just expected to be okay with it. Percy Jackson, the dork who watched teen titans with me during the uncharacteristic storm at camp and convinced me to make blue Shirley temples. My very own guppy.
Yeah me and Hades were gonna have words.
“Stop this, now.” I said in my sternest voice. Hades halted and looked at me with intrigue and… slight fear?
“He didn’t steal anything, Hades, enough with the unfounded claims. We didn’t even know your helm was missing until 2 minutes ago and up until then we thought you had the bolt.”
The other 3 went stock still with shock. I’m guessing they were saying their goodbyes to me in their heads but I’m not one to go down that easily. Even if I did want to cry from the confrontation.
Hades looked at me with unbridled fury but when he spoke you would’ve thought he was simply telling me not to steal from the cookie jar again,
“I have tried to be kind to you child. I have tried to treat you with respect as you have done for me in the past but your foolishness and insolence will be your undoing.” He paused for a moment seemingly cherry picking his next words, “What would your mothers think? Hm? How would they fare if they learned of your impertinence?”
I froze. My blood ran cold and my stomach was churning something awful.
“….what?” I said, trying my hardest to steady my voice but it was a lost cause at this point. Grover and Annabeth looked on with pity that could shrink me with a glance but Percy? Percy looked furious. He glared at the god with the fury of a thousand suns,
“Don’t talk about her mothers, leave them out of this- leave her out of this. This is between me and you-“
“SILENCE!” Hades bellowed, as the throne room shook but Percy didn’t even flinch. “You have said quite enough godling.” He spat out the word like poison on his tongue.
Hades turned back to me, a new smugness hidden in the depths of his eyes, “How about we see what they would think? Would you like that legacy child? Would you like to see your parents?” His lip curled in a smirk.
I could’ve thrown up at the thought. What did he mean? Surely he wasn’t going to bring them here? My head was like a circuit, thoughts lapping around my brain like race cars. In my periphery, I could see Percy physically shaking with rage. Grover and Annabeth looked like they wanted to reach out for me but thought better of it, fearing Hades’ next move.
Hades surveyed all of us, taking in the horrified silence as he grinned almost sinisterly. He lifted a hand to the far left wall of a throne room and the surface of it rippled like a disrupted pool.
All of a sudden colors and shapes flew into the frame and found a place on the wall. Almost as soon as it started an image came into focus. A dining room with light pink walls filled with pictures and portraits of hand painted flowers. Most of the pictures were of one woman, a ginger with deep brown skin, gorgeous amber eyes, and a blinding smile. She looked like the personification of the earth and everything good. She looked warm, safe.
In some pictures she was joined by another woman, a more stern looking one but beautiful nonetheless with her honey blonde hair and vibrant blue eyes a stark contrast to her tawny skin. She held a smaller smile than her auburn counterpart but it was no less happy. The way they looked at each other in some photos was almost baffling. I didn’t know you could capture such tangible emotion on camera but they made it happen.
As for the portraits, I would’ve guessed the paintings were professionally made if it wasn’t for the cute little smiley faces and hearts surrounding the flowers in almost every portrait. They were mature and yet so childlike at the same time. Precise strokes coming together to form stunning flowers of bright color. Lilies, gardenias, and orchids filled every frame. It was captivating how real they looked. I could’ve stared at them all day but my attention was drawn toward the dark oak table as a giggle erupted from one of the occupants.
My heart sank.
The same woman in the photos sat at the table seemingly working on another floral piece. My breathing quickened as I put the pieces together. As I stared at the ginger woman’s dimpled smile and traced the slope of the blonde's nose it clicked.
These were my moms.
The women who died when I was just a baby in an effort to protect me. And they succeeded but at what cost?
I ran over to the wall ignoring the calls of my worried friends. Tears clouded my vision as I tried to push all the words I wanted to say past the lump cemented in my throat.
“Mamma?” I said timidly, worried this was an illusion or they wouldn’t be able to hear me.
All of that faded away when the bubbly lady whipped her head around at the sound of my voice and her lover not far behind.
“(Y/N)…?” She called, voiced thickly coated in awe.
The dam broke.
Tear rushed down my face faster than I could process as I nearly yelled out for my mothers, “Mamma! Ma!”
They came rushing over to where I was and knelt down at what I’m assuming was a projected image of me to wherever they were, “Baby angel! What are you doing here??” My mamma, who I’ve deduced is the child of Artemis, Davina, wailed as she went to reach out for me before retracting her hand. Probably figured the image would fade if she did and I’m grateful for that.
“You shouldn’t be here little dove, it’s not your time you must go home.” My Ma, Alexandra, said. A crease firmly placed between her brows that contradicted the wobbling smile that was growing on her lips.
They looked at me with a type of adoration that had my knees wracking. This is the type of maternal affection I thought I would never get to receive in my life. Of course, I had Aunt Go-go but that wasn’t the same.
Before I could respond Hades cut me off, “We can get to all the loving pleasantries in a moment. We have more important matters at hand. Your daughter has aided a thief.”
I glanced at him quickly before I quickly tried to defend myself, adamantly denying his claims.
“He’s lying! She didn’t steal anything and neither did I!” Percy erupted, his stare burning into the god's own, “"You're as bad as Zeus, you think I stole from you? That's why you sent the Furies after me?"
I drowned out the rest of what they were saying as I could only focus on the fact that my parents were looking me in my eyes, “We believe your friend, angel. We know our sweet girl would never do anything to cause harm.” Mamma told me as she looked on with kind eyes. “You’ve gotten so big! I remember when you were just a little raisin”
We shared a watery chuckle as I tried not to bawl my eyes out.
“She’s got your eyes,” Alexandra said fondly as she looked between her daughter and her wife.
“And your nose,” Davina giggled, “What a gorgeous girl you’ve grown into.”
“Thank you,” I managed as I felt my face heat up, “Are you guys in Elysium? Could I come see you?” I said hopefully.
They both glanced at each other warily and I felt dread pool in my stomach. I whipped around to face Hades as the words tumbled out of my mouth, “I need to see them! Please let me see them, I’ll do anything” I begged.
“Anything?” I nodded fervently as the trio voiced their protests, “Return my property and I’ll allow you a visit with your mothers!”
I choked out a sob as I looked helplessly at the others, “We-we don’t have it. I swear, I swear we don’t have it! We came here for the master bolt. They-they told us you had the master bolt, that’s why we’re here. Please I’m begging you, just let me see my moms” I rushed out, desperately trying to convince him of mercy.
“ENOUGH WITH YOUR FALSITIES GODLING!” I flinched back at his booming voice, the throne room walls rumbling and the image of my parents warbling. I panicked. “You already possess the master bolt, you came here with it, you insolent fool. You think you can try to deceive me?!”
I’m reduced to wails and gargled pleads as I try to bargain with this clearly unhinged man, “Please I don’t know, I don’t know. P-Percy tell him, please tell him, please”
“We didn’t steal the bolt! We’ve already told you-“
“Then open your pack!”
I looked at Percy in desperate confusion as his face fell. I can practically sense his panic as he slung his bad off his shoulder and unzipped it. Time stopped.
Inside was a two-foot-long metal cylinder, spiked on both ends, humming with energy. I could’ve fallen to my knees right there. I turned back to my mothers begging for them to understand. This was one of the worst realizations I’d ever made. We’d been framed.
'Percy," Annabeth said. "How-"
"I-I don't know. I don't understand." He said, his gaze flickered towards me as a tortured sound ripped from my throat.
"You heroes are always the same," Hades said. "Your pride makes you foolish, thinking you could bring such a weapon before me. I did not ask for Zeus's master bolt, but since it is here, you will yield it to me. I am sure it will make an excellent bargaining tool. And now ... my helm. Where is it?"
I was speechless. Percy was speechless. Annabeth was speechless, and I’m quite sure Grover passed out like 5 minutes ago. We had no helm. The world turned sideways and I didn’t deal well with vertigo.
"Lord Hades, wait," Percy said. "This is all a mistake."
"A mistake?" Hades roared. Quicker than I could process Hades lifted his hand and the image of my parents faded before my eyes.
Oh my gods.
Oh my gods.
“No- no, no, no, no, no, no, NO,” I gut-wrenching scream pierced through the air as I tried to conjure up the image again uselessly, “NO BRING THEM BACK, GODS, PLEASE BRING THEM BACK HADES PLEASE!” He didn’t even spare me a glance as Annabeth ran over to hold me back from slamming my fist into the stone. My fingernails were reduced to stubs as I clawed at the wall like my mother was going to be standing behind it waiting for me. I was wailing, calling out for my mommies. Usually I would scold myself for such a display of weakness at a time like this but at the moment all sense of self control was out of the question. I was inconsolable as Annabeth tried calming me down, cooing soft assurances in my ear that I couldn’t hear over my own gasping.
The skeletons aimed their weapons. From high above, there was a fluttering of leathery wings, and the three Furies swooped down to perch on
the back of their masters throne.
"There is no mistake," Hades said. "I know why you have come- I know the real reason you brought the bolt. You came to bargain for her."
Hades loosed a ball of gold fire from his palm. It exploded on the steps in front of Percy, and there was who I could only assume was his mother, frozen in a shower of gold.
In my panicked state at the renewed loss of mothers, I had almost forgotten about his.
"Yes," Hades said with satisfaction. "I took her. I knew, Percy Jackson, that you would come to bargain with me eventually. Return my helm, and perhaps I will let her go. She is not dead, you know. Not yet. But if you displease me, that will change."
Someone, or something, was growling. I think It was me. I was so angry. He already took my mothers away, he wasn’t about to take Percy’s.
I went to charge for him when I realized Annie was still holding on to me. I struggled against her hold as she dug her heels into the ground.
"Ah, the pearls," Hades said, and my blood froze. "Yes, my brother and his little tricks. Bring them forth, Percy Jackson."
Percy’s hand moved and brought out the pearls.
"Only four," Hades said. "What a shame. You do realize each only protects a single person. Try to take your mother, then, little godling. And which of your friends will you leave behind to spend eternity with me? Go on. Choose. Or give me the backpack and accept my terms." Percy looked at me and Annabeth and then Grover.
"We were tricked," He said. "Set up.”
“No shit,” I muttered bitterly, tears still tracking down my face.
"Yes, but why?" Annabeth asked, as she side eyed me. "And the voice in the pit-"
"I don't know yet," Percy said. "But I intend to ask."
"Decide, boy!" Hades yelled.
"Percy." Grover put his hand on Percy’s shoulder. "You can't give him the bolt,"
"I know that." He replied, though his stare was focused on me.
"Leave me here," Grover said. "Use the fourth pearl on your mom."
"No!" Percy exclaimed, his eyes darting towards the satyr.
"I'm a satyr," Grover said. "We don't have souls like humans do. He can torture me until I die, but he won't get me forever. I'll just be reincarnated as a flower or something. It's the best way."
"No." Annabeth drew her bronze knife, finally letting go of me and I returned back to the wall trying to see if there was some sort of passageway. "You three go on. Grover, you have to protect Percy and (y/n/n). You have to get your searcher's license and start your quest for Pan. Get his mom out of here. I'll cover you. I plan to go down fighting."
"No way," Grover said. "I'm staying behind."
"Think again, goat boy," Annabeth said.
"Stop it, both of you!" Percy yelled, and the two quieted.
I realized I had been silent through this whole ordeal and knew what I had to do.
“I’ll stay.” I croaked.
“What?!” Percy said, his head turning faster than I could process. “Absolutely not.”
“Percy-“
“No.” He strided over to me so he could look me in the eyes, “I’m not leaving here without you,”
“You don’t get it!” I exclaimed, on the verge of collapse. Gods, I’ve never been so tired. I’ve never done this. I know the stakes. I know how serious this is. But still, at the end of the day, I’m just a little girl who had gone her whole life without parents. Never knowing their faces or voices. Just to meet them and have them taken away within the same hour.
“What don’t I get (Y/N)? Hm?” Percy said frustratedly as he grappled my shoulders. I know he didn’t mean to be harsh but I couldn’t help getting upset.
“I want to stay here, Percy.” I said defeatedly, looking up at him through my lashes. “I ha-have to meet them. I just have to. Please just let me stay here. I need to stay, just let me stay,” I begged him, grasping at his arms to let me go.
He looked at me with a devastating amount of empathy that I couldn’t help breaking down again. He pulled me into a one armed hug as he turned towards Annabeth and Grover,
"I know what to do," Percy said. "Take these."
He handed them each a pearl.
Annabeth said, "But, Percy ..."
I was rambling incoherently into his shoulder, begging him to leave me there. He took my face into his hands and forced me to look him in the eyes,
“Hey-hey! Look at me!” I did, “I know.” And by the gods, I knew that he did. My knees went weak as he pulled me back in and held on to the back of my head as he wrapped an arm around my waist, “I’ll get you back here one day, ang-” he paused, realizing his mistake but continued on, “Even if I have to breakdown the doors of Olympus myself and force them to make it happen, you will see your moms again. Okay?”
I hesitated for a breath before I nodded reluctantly. There’s nothing else I could do.
Percy held me in his arms as he turned his head and faced his mother.
"I'm sorry," he told her. "I'll be back. I'll find a way."
The smug look on Hades's face faded. He said, "Godling ... ?"
"I'll find your helm, Uncle," he told him. Again with this uncle thing. "I'll return it. Remember about
Charon's pay raise."
"Do not defy me-" Hades tried.
"And it wouldn't hurt to play with Cerberus once in a while. He likes red rubber balls."
"Percy Jackson, you will not-"
Percy shouted, "Now, guys!"
He smashed the pearls at our feet. For a scary moment, nothing happened.
Hades yelled, "Destroy them!"
The army of skeletons rushed forward, swords out, guns clicking to full automatic. The Furies lunged, their whips bursting into flame.
Just as the skeletons opened fire, the pearl fragments at our feet exploded with a burst of green light and a gust of fresh sea wind.
We were encased in a milky white sphere, which was starting to float off the ground. My head was still buried in Percy’s shoulder, sobs racked my body as we floated up, Annabeth and Grover were right behind us.
Hades yelled with such rage, the entire fortress shook and I knew it was not going to be a peaceful night in L.A but I couldn’t bring myself to care.
"Look up." Grover yelled. "We're going to crash!"
Sure enough, we were racing right toward the stalactites, which I figured would pop our bubbles and skewer us.
"How do you control these things?" Annabeth shouted.
"I don't think you do!" Percy shouted back.
Is it bad that I kinda wanted to be skewered? Stop.
The trio screamed as the bubbles slammed into the ceiling and ... Darkness.
No, I could still feel the racing sensation. We were going up, right through solid rock as easily as an air bubble in water.
That was the power of the pearls, I realized- What belongs to the sea will always return to the sea.
For a few moments, I couldn't see anything outside the smooth walls of our sphere, then our pearl broke through on the ocean floor.
The two other milky spheres, Annabeth and Grover, kept pace with us as we soared upward through the water.
We exploded on the surface, in the middle of the Santa Monica Bay, knocking a surfer off his board with an indignant, "Dude!" I wanted to hit him.
Percy grabbed Grover and hauled him over to a life buoy. I caught Annabeth and dragged her over too.
A curious shark was circling us, a great white about eleven feet long. Maybe I’d get my soul surfer moment. Stop it.
Percy said, "Beat it." And the shark turned and raced away. New Yorkers.
The surfer screamed something about bad mushrooms and paddled away from us as fast as he could.
Somehow, I knew what time it was: early morning, June 21, the day of the summer solstice.
In the distance, Los Angeles was on fire, plumes of smoke rising from neighborhoods all over the city. There had been an earthquake, all right, and it was Hades's fault. He was probably sending an army of the dead after us right now.
But at the moment, the Underworld wasn't my biggest problem.
Annabeth and Grover shared a glance as they muttered something about getting a headstart to shore. Percy and I were still treading water as he analyzed me.
“What?” I snapped. I can’t say I didn’t mean to but I did feel bad.
“I’m sorry.” He said and my face softened. “It’s not your fault, nothing you could do.” I tried to give him a reassuring smile but I’m sure it looked more like a grimace.
He was starting to gain a real habit of hugging me as he pulled me into his chest. I couldn't tell the difference between the saltwater and saline on my face anymore.
He didn’t say anything, just sort of awkwardly petted my hair. He pulled away to look me in the eyes and some sort of understanding passed between us.
I gave him a nod and gestured for him to catch up with the others. He looked hesitant for a second but ultimately nodded and swam to the duo who were treading just a little ways away.
I looked down at the water as if I’d be able to see the underworld below my feet. I gave a kiss to my fingers and swirled them in the water in the shape of a flower, “I’m sorry Mamma, Ma. I’ll come back for you.”
I start to slowly make my way towards the others thinking over everything that just went down. I realized with a sharp ache in my chest, that I felt more despair than I did hatred when thinking of Hades. I wanted to despise him. To think that he was evil and want to plot some sort of revenge. But I couldn’t. Somehow that was worse.
He was uncaring in his dealings with us. I knew his intentions with the words he spoke to me, burning a hole through my chest till I was left spiraling searching for some sort of reprieve. And yet compassion still had a hold on me. I felt sorry for him but oh my gods, was he ruthless.
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