#dont tax medicine

[ericdoesinhale]

Lemon Razz by Distinkt Cannabis (Endo)

THC: 26.79%

CBD: 0.00%

Packed: October 11, 2023

Opened: January 18, 2024

#cannabis #medicine #dystonia #weed #pot #cannabis act #dont tax medicine #photography

[the-trans-dragon]

What if they didn't put ads every 3 posts. Three posts between ads, literally. Not even counting the ad for Tumblr Live.

Also what if tumblr didn't know what city Im in. I do not want my location tracked or stored anywhere unless I give explicit ongoing permission, like with my GPS app that I allow to track me only when the app is open, and then it deletes the data (allegedly) when I stop giving permission.

#ugh i do SO much to try to keep my location private. i use an android with all the tracking things Off (except for my weather app #which is a highly specific app that does NOTHING except provide weather; and i have the location turned Off so it doesnt even know where i #live). my tumblr email is not connected to any real life stuff because i made it when i was very closeted and made a new email and password #for it and never linked them to anything else. i have bare minimum apps. i use firefox and duckduckgo. #for shits sake i use a small barely-known map app because any Map App that has had large success under capitalism is inevitably going to #start selling private info or working with a cheap security system designed to allow quiet data leaks. #i guess i use gmail and gphotos but my phone doesnt HAVE a native Photo App. i have to use one i download and im too damn skittish to try #i guess i did get netflix recently....sigh.... i figured they WERENT tracking me because they email me EVERY TIME I USE NETFLIX to alert me #that OHHHH A NEW DEVICE IS USING NETFLIX AAAAA WHAT IF ITS AGAINST NETFLIX POLICY OH NOOOO. so i figured they didnt have a way to ID me. #UGH. CAN I PLEASE EXIST WITHOUT BEING MONITORED FOR FIVE SECONDS. can i please access Social Media which is a shitty substitute for actual #human connection but its the best i have--without someone noting my location and then trying to sell me things??? can i please watch film??? #i cant go to a theater because my region does NOT believe in covid and not even medical staff attending Very Ill Patients wear masks anymore #stupid fucking homophobic transphobic anti-vax society has made it too dangerous for me to access most Not-Online forms of enrichment. and i #cant even use the Internet (a magnificent ASTONISHING human creation) without being tracked and advertised to. #ugh.. #humanity is just so cool and brave and kind and amazing and yet we have taxes and advertisment IDs and traffic and medicine shortages. #its not like the ads even work. even when it shows me stuff i DO want. i cant fucking afford things. i already have spent too much money on #things that i dont need like Good Food and Entertainment and Juice. ugh....okay i do need food and liquids....Good food even. my body cant #survive on College Foods like it could in the past. And i might literally die if i dont buy juice... #and i guess its really really really heartwarming to have good entertainment to take breaks from all the stress.... its not like i havent l #..... like im so frugal. thank god my partners encourage me to buy myself things. i have been so much healthier since giving in and buying #Non-Water drinks instead of just Chronically Drinking Less Than A Bottle Of Water A Day. my partners are so good and sweet 😓 i shouldnt be #upset with myself for letting them convince me to take care of myself. that isnt fair to them or me so i will stop doing that now. #my faith in humanity is mostly just knowing that my partners exist. theyre so sweet. if people like them exist--then i have faith in humanty #no pressure lol. they are both so good and perfect regardless of how much energy they have to spare for Being Good. they are just inherently #very dear and good to me and for me. but just because i have faith in humanity doesnt mean im gonna stop complaining the whole time!!!!!! i #will whine about the bad stuff forever!!!! and BITE IT if i ever get the chance. but i will complain until the bothersome things go away. #if i complain my whole life with no results then...! so be it. i will whine and it will be art somehow. #sorenhoots

[semercury]

Screaming along to songs in my car can unfortunately only do so much

#stuff sarah says #the world is so scary and im so scared like i dont think you get it #i am frozen with so much fear at the thought of everything and how unbearably complicated life has become #and everything is micro and idk how else to put it? just. microlables microtransactions micromanaging #i hate it all so much #and theres so many boxes? and they keep getting smaller and i just? maybe i dont want people to put me in a box #maybe i dont want to check a box maybe i dont want to round up my transaction maybe i dont want #microplastics. thats another one. theres fucking microplastics. in my teabags. #but maybe i want people to stop looking at me and assuming they know me bc i barely know me #i would like to just exist. i hate taxes. i hate wanting to throw up when thinking about talking to people about things #i hate hate hate worrying about every word that comes out of my mouth #i want people to stop using therapy lingo in daily conversations and also everyone needs to stop fucking yelling #i havent been taking my thyroid medicine and im so cold and i wonder if thats affecting my mood too #anyway what do you think happens when we die? like i know what a lot of people think happens but what actually happens? you know? #is any of it...? like? you know? #im going to start crying ha ha ha #i watched some sad episodes of a show. also i maybe started my period #i never fully know anymore when it starts. my body is fucked lmao #why am i typing all of this? i dont think anyone should actually care about any of this #idk i just want things to be simple again

[sagxshi]

i fucking hate everything about applying for mcat fee assistance this shit fucking sucks fuck the aamc

#splatter speaks #personal // #dont rb/// #like. the whole thing is super fucking classist. its not enough to say that youre poor and submit like tax returns. no they want like 15 #goddamn documents. they want some from each parent (even if you dont live with them. i havent lived with my dad in decades and they still #wanted like. welfare statements. ). i actually just had to resubmit a bunch of forms bc they werent Precise enough. #it took me fucking MONTHS!!! to get everything together thanks to bureaucratic nonsense!!! #i started this application in JUNE. it is now SEPTEMBER. #like listen i wouldve given up if it werent for how fucking much i want to pursue medicine. #i stfg they do this on purpose to prevent poor people from applying. #this would be so helpful. like it means i dont have to pay as much to send each school app later (it costs hundreds per school). and it #also drops the price of the MCAT exam itself from $330 to $150. #i dont plan on taking it more than i have to but still. any little bit helps. #listen idk this turned into a whole ass rant. plus i have work tomorrow and i spent like 3 hours precharting bc we have 47 fucking patients #tomorrow for some fucking reason. who the fuck decided that would be ok. we normally see high 30s if that. #oh and this isnt even touching the fact i have to write a second essay talking about why i identify as like. a marginalized group. like. im #fucking disabled dude. why are you making it Harder for disabled people and not making the abled people write about why THEY should get in. #jk i know why!!! its ableism!!!! #jesus christ. im so drained. like yall i just want to be a forensic pathologist SO BAD. ive been aiming for that since high school #i know medicine is a horrible field rn but like. i genuinely want to do it. #anyways idk how else to say it. plus my hands hurt from typing all this

[zzznap]

Someone had a stroke in front of me and had to drive 1 1/2 hours to get to a fucking hospital, this is the fucking situation here, thankfully it was a tia stroke

#on top of that studying medicine is mad expensive so only rich kids can afford it and they dont even make good doctors #they need to increase the amount of medical colleges in the state like what are they doing with these taxes

[crippledpunks]

gonna rant about my experience as young disabled cripple and trying to stay the fuck alive:

- i have never been safe when living with an abled. i explain how my disabilities manifest, how there are periods where i have flare ups so bad i cant take care of myself. they say okay i get that. and then once it happens, they're upset because it inconveniences them.

- you simply have to squeeze money from the universe in whatever ways you can because ableds will Not let you live with them without bringing in the same amount or MORE than another abled. they view you as free income and also an inconvenience that deserves to be taxed. they also feel good about taking you in while doing nothing to help you while you live with them

- trading services, especially forcing the disabled person to cook and clean for the household in exchange for housing is abusive and just not okay. do you make people clean the whole house and cook 3 meals a day when they're between jobs?

- you cannot have anything deemed frivolous whatsoever or else your entire livelihood gets called into question. you become labeled as irresponsible because people think disabled people dont deserve happiness or the ability to entertain themselves because we dont make enough money.

- normal things like eating food and using medicine now become theft, stealing or "taking something you dont deserve" because you now have to earn all of your basic necessities all over again.

basically the reason why im a cripple punk is cuz every single abled I've lived with has kicked me out over things they wouldn't kick another abled out over. i can just keep going

#actually disabled #cripple punk #cpunk #crip punk #disability problems #disability culture #homelessness tw #abuse tw

[buggerzz]

any product recs/stuff that makes ur life easier for a struggling disabled artist ? orz

I dont have much money so i have not bought a lot of things-

With my joint issues, it helps to wear compression stuff. Especially gloves. Trust me. Its worth it.

Generally bracing, i usually do my knees and wrist if needed. If i know im going to be standing or walking a lot, ill brace my knees. (I need to get new knee braces bc the ones i have currently are not doing what they need to)

ARTIST WISE- definitely compression gloves. If u use a tablet they are also good drawing gloves to protect the tablet from oils! If u crochet or knit or craft, theyre very helpful in preventing carpal tunnel aswell!

Always keep note of ur body! "Do my wrists need a break? Is this position ok on my knees? Am i subluxating my shoulder rn????" And other questions about breaks and positioning help me to. I also currently have my tablet and most crafts next to my bed, so if it gets especially bad i can lay down or move. Also nearby my meds lmao. Its also WAY easier to prop up my shoulders, knees, etc. And keep them from hyperextending in bed.

Also also, i have that all set up on a medical table like this. I got mine from my mom after her surgeries, but i reccomend getting a much bigger one because mine is a balancing act. Not good. GET ONE WITH WHEELS!!!! my one also pivots so i dont need to sleep with it over me or mess with it much.

I have a pain chart to assess where im at, if i pass an 8 i take a break or at LEAST grab my heat pad/pain meds.

I also keep water handy!! If i need meds or if im cramping/spasming it helps me to drink water.

Other tips i have are getting a stool to sit on in the shower! A shower chair would be better, but i share my bathroom with 3 other people and also. Money. So i dont have one currently. Also for showers- if it's harder for you to do hygeine because of your physical OR mental state, you can brush your teeth in the shower. Do it before washing, but like. Its better than not brushing, and when thats all you can do, do it. Also also, having something IN the shower to hold on to- sitting or standing, can also help. I have water guards and those have saved my skull TOO MANY TIMES. also showers help my brain and my body! The water temperature can act as an all over heating pad or ice pack and help with pain.

I love showers they are my best friend. Sad? Get in the shower. Hurt? Into the shower!!!

Heat pads help me, other people react well to heat. See if pain meds can help, but i only really take mine when im at an 8-10 because im paranoid about medicines.

Physical therapy ofc, its been helping me a bit. My place is pretty affordable too! Got lucky with that.

The only other thing I recommend is a rolling chair. If you have mobility issues or your knees hurt too bad to walk, but wheelchairs/mobility aids are too expensive, a rolling chair can work in the house. It's hard to go over bumps, but it's possible. My chair is ALSO broken !!! The back broke off because we've had it for 6+ years. Generally stools and chairs are good. Also just recognizing that you can do a decent amount of stuff while sitting helps. Just ,, sit.

Obv actual mobility aids are BETTER, but I dont have access to them so I make do!!!

Food wise, it can be SOO much easier to eat convenience meals (microwave stuff, sandwiches, etc) and if thats all u have to work with, its better than nothing! But i do reccomend having leftovers when you cook. Microwave that and its usually healthier and tastier and just as easy and non-physically taxing.

I also like to work ahead whemever possible. On good days i will prepare EVERYTHING needed for any physically hard task i have coming up. If i need a checklist or tasklist or a bag of items or to find something i lost, ill do that when its easiest.

ANYWAYS THAT WAS LONG. TLDR: rolly chairs, bed tables,compression gloves & other compression stuff, joint braces, topical treatments, pain meds, stools for the shower & other items for shower safety. HEAT PADS /ice packs

Actions: regular physical checkins, sit down more, do pt if possible, roll around the house, shower more, keep water handy, make extra leftovers for later, shower more, do what u can WHEN u can, prop up/support any loose joints with pillows.

#artists on tumblr #disability #disabled #disabled artist #disability tips #ask

[magnolia-sunrise]

okay whatever, medieval vampire AU ramblings, if you care

copying from the tags of my previous post but, to give you more context about Bastiens little life - he had dreamt up plans of rising through the ranks and becoming a respected high ranking member of the clergy. given his whole situation in his mind its the coziest and smartest path of life where nobody would ever question him not taking a wife or look under his robes. instead, his naive plans quickly shatter as he ends up assigned to a fuck off village in what would be today's southern France. where the people first of all dont really care for the whole religion or paying taxes thing and dont appreciate the rumours about him spending time around Florentines that arrive with him (largely thanks to the mayor's loud mouth son, Matteo :) ). and so he spends his days tending to the chickens he keeps so hes able to feed himself and even sell some eggs sometimes, he takes care of a small vineyard, just enough to make and drink his own supply of wine.

where he had some ideals of the church and faith, the abject poverty and the isolated misery of a life he lives doesn't really keep his spirits high. he has no one who would listen to his preaching, no one to lead, he drinks himself to sleep almost every night. he has failed himself and his faith.

when a knight - one of the fucking Kingsguard, somehow finds their way to his home first he's sure the crown somehow got wise to the village not paying their taxes for as long as he lived there. instead this knight almost collapses into his doorway- strangely only after he invites them in- and now seeing the state they're in, theres a whole other problem in Bastien's mind. in this setting he is very far from being a doctor or knowing first thing about medicine, best he can do is pray for their soul and their peaceful passing aka "rip i guess"

iirc the myths of vampires weren't very widespread in Europe yet in late 14th century and so i imagine Bastien wouldnt really pick up on a lot of the "tells" at first. especially since they arrive half dead, feverish, hardly saying anything - it's difficult to make a clear judgement, and also try not to offend one of the King's personal guards.

for Wolfgang the past weeks have been a torment in ways they never imagined.

they were born into a family of some status, modest but in favor with the crown, which many nobles and knights, out of pure jealousy, are sure had influence on how quickly they rose through the ranks and received knighthood. they were proud of their skill with a sword and their efficiency in violence, in winning battles and land or their king. they were successful and respected and beautiful. their body a tool of war and death, but delivered only with purpose and principle, selfless.

when they got turned - this purpose, this pride in their intimate knowledge of how to most efficiently kill a man, is turned against them. without understanding anything that's happening to them, these horrible, scorching urges -- willing them to just kill for their own pleasure, to devour, to keep themself fed and think of no one els, it's horrible.

even with everything else aside - narrowly escaping execution, being stripped of land and title and exiled - losing control of themself, of their body, this is the worst part of it all. that first night when their horse carries them back to the castle and in blood red haze they bite the first person going down the halls - the prince - -- their young sweet prince, who so admired them, who they taught swordfighting when he was younger -- they failed the crown and themself.

they try to feed on rats and small animals in the woods and on peasant's chickens and they get rightfully chased out and hunted down and impaled with pitchforks. they crawl into a hole to die only for their body to heal itself, and the hunger to make itself known again. it is a battle they don't know how to win.

stumbling into Bastien's home one summer night is the single light in all this darkness. for whatever reason beyond their comprehension he invites them inside, into his warmth, he lets them stay and heal and doesn't ask too many questions. when they recover, the two of them quickly find how lonely and starved they had both been for genuine human company. they both also become very aware of the many stolen glances and accidental touches, especially as they spend more and more evenings enjoying bad wine and talking.

that hunger is always there, always waiting for an opportunity, for a weakness in their armor. sooner or later they will have to face it again, or risk losing control completely.

(--- there is a bunch of stuff im leaving out that doent pertain just to these two, that we have been chatting about together with @vividmercurial and smashing our OC dolls together. he supplied the prince and the mysterious stranger who ends up being Wolf's downfall and in turn perhaps Wolfgang with the help of their drunkard priest, will help the mysterious stranger regain his soul. )

with these sketches out in the world my next goal is to figure out a little comic as a culmination of the tension between Bastien and Wolfgang, the whole core of why even have a vampire AU in the first place ;^)) the story and the imagery is so vivid in my mind and the settings and tropes are of course extremely self indulgent and very straight forward in ways that are really funny and interesting to contrast with their canon universe for me. so i definitely see myself returning to some ideas from this even after the halloween month ends hehe

#medieval au #if you read all this and you read between two fires and youre like wait a second this relationship dynamic seems a bit familiar #WELL yeah #its real good

[battleangel]

You Have to Earn The Right To Live

Nobody ever has to die again from houselessness, famine, poverty or lack of adequate medical care.

How?

💗Universal Housing

💗Universal Healthcare

💗Free College

💗Universal Basic Income

Specifically:

💗Increase personal income taxes to 70% to 85%+ for upper middle class and high net worth individuals to fund the above.

They would have less so that others could literally live and not die. Theres nothing unfair about that.

💗Increase personal income taxes to 75%+ for individual millionaires and billionaires (Elon Musk, Bezos, Vince McMahon, Roger Goodell, Mindgeek CEO, Waltons, Hiltons, CEOs, professional athletes, actors and actresses, singers, Hollywood studio heads, record label executives, etc.).

They would still have so much without other people being forced to go without to the point where thousands and thousands every year are dying needlessly where housing, basic medical care and food would have saved their lives.

The US has the number one economy in the world -- the money is there to prevent these senseless deaths, it is just being hoarded and passed down generationally to stay within these families by a select few, by the 1%.

People dont have to die of houselessness or preventable illnesses or because they couldnt afford needed surgery or from hunger.

Look at all the abandoned buildings that sit empty that could be converted into free housing. Look at abandoned shopping malls.

Look at all the food we throw away unused in our fridges and all the food that restaurants throw out from ridiculously oversized portions that guarantee needless and senseless waste.

We have the money, resources, food, medicine, doctors, land and building space to address these issues and stop these preventable deaths today.

There is no scarcity issue in the United States when it comes to these resources!

Instead, capitalism is a zero sum game and a death cult where you have to "earn" the right to live -- thats pro-life for ya.

You have to "earn" the "right" to be housed and sheltered, to be protected from the elements, to not sleep on a sidewalk, on the gutters, under a bridge, near a trashcan, defenseless and possibly alone, open to being raped, abducted, robbed, beaten, kidnapped, assaulted and murdered with no protections.

Many houseless shelters are unsafe, especially for women, overcrowded and at capacity.

You have to "earn" the "right" to be given food and sustenance, to literally be allowed to eat, to live.

Most Americans live paycheck to paycheck and layoffs happen consistently in cycles to increase shareholder returns, they are never necessary at the rate and volume we see where thousands are laid off for a temporary reduction in the rate of increase of profits year over year -- not a decrease in profits, a reduction in the rate that the profits increased.

Dips and lulls are to be expected in any business.

To get rid of thousands of employees with decades of experience, knowledge of the company, culture, processes, philosophy, management style that is literally irreplaceable is incredibly shortsighted and reactionary but they do it anyway for a temporary pop -- stocks temporarily increase, the board and shareholders are temporarily sated, they wait a few years then do it all over again, destroying thousands of lives, careers and their own companys intellectual cache, culture and morale but they dont care because of the pursuit of the almighty dollar.

Thats more of a cult than Jim Jones ever was. If thats not drinking the Kool-Aid, what is?

Employees know they are completely expendable under capitalism so they live in fear hoping that they've kissed enough ass and sucked enough dick for clout that they wont be laid off and when they inevitably are, they turn into those creepy people on LinkedIn, smiling through their tears on their profile pictures, profusely thanking and sucking off the company that just kicked them in the teeth. Never bite the hand that feeds.

💗Increase corporate tax for Fortune 500 companies, FAANG, big agriculture, big pharma, big box retail, top banks & financial services company, big 4 consulting to 50%+ to fund the above.

These are multi-billion and even trillion dollar companies. They would still have the money to innovate, create, expand, compete in their industries and pay their employees. The money is there to fund these programs.

💗Stop relying as a society on people "giving to charity", non-profits and churches to not fill the gap that the socialist programs listed above could completely close.

Right now, everything is up to chance and the individual.

If you dont find a soup kitchen or houseless shelter or join a church, if you die you die, thats on you, thats your ass -- you should have worked harder.

Noone should have to look for any of this, it should be freely provided to all citizens in a communal society that has businesses that generates profits but then distributes those profits to do the most good.

Capitalism scoffs at this and says, we are businesses not charities. Its for profit, not non-profit.

It doesnt have to be zero sum or one of the other.

We could embrace innovation and competition while not letting people die needlessly in the streets.

It doesnt have to be like this.

Theres enough to go around for everyone without anyone in the US having to needlessly die.

Outside of the US, if foreign aid went directly to non-profits like Doctors Without Borders and not to corrupt governments that hoard the money and dont give it to their citizens, world poverty, hunger, starvation, malnutrition, houselessness would be eliminated, malaria nets & basic medicine could be provided, needed surgeries, clean drinking water.

1% of people of the world hold 99% of the wealth.

It doesnt have to be this way!

#socialism #anti capitalism #green party #social justice #feminism #cornel west #feminist #labor unions #workers rights #union strong #1 percent #universal healthcare #houselessness #universal basic income #universal health coverage #free college #food insecurity #living wage #layoffs #food waste #overconsumption #consumerism #materialism

[planetary]

honestly like doing taxes is not that bad its just kind of annoying. yknow what IS that bad AND annoying. literally anything that has to do with insurance. like. i need this medical procedure or medicine as soon as possible but i have to wait a month for some fucking losers who’ve never met me to read a letter explaining how i would like to suffer less and then decide if i deserve it. if they decide i dont then i have to pay twenty billion dollors or not get the medical help i need. Ok.

[ericdoesinhale]

Off Menu - Xeno by Lot 420

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Packed: October 6, 2022

Opened: December 3, 2022

#cannabis #medicine #dystonia #pot #weed #cannabis act #dont tax medicine #photography

[aroace-cat-lady]

UHUSDSFY SPAM INCOMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you can ignore this lol its way too long- even putting it in your ask box has made me feel like I've told someone about this so its totally fine to delete

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I JUST FOUND MY RULING THE WORLD PLANS FROM WHEN I WAS 14-

Sooo apparently, I was going to be a 'benevolent' leader and therefore opted for a federal government in my 'state' (which I've forgotten the name of)????

OKAY AND HERE'S WHERE IT GETS A LITTLE WEIRD-

so, I had this beautiful idea that people leaning toward different opinions should be encouraged to move to an area of like-minded people with a local government they mostly agree with (brooo, so essentially designated areas for different people depending on their opinions and political views and whatnot??)

okay it also says that I wanted to keep a difference in pay between a 'low-intelligence' job and a 'high-intelligence job' but I would lessen the gap so improving pay of say a 'street sweeper' and lowering that of a 'neurosurgeon' hmmmmmmm

My state or whatever would provide healthcare mostly paid by taxpayers (it would have a similar tax system) but still ask the person to pay a small amount??? okay..

education would be free (go mini me) paid by taxpayers ofc, but I wanted to continue the idea of grammar schools which meant students could pass an exam to get into these schools filled with higher ability kids who are pushed more- academically... (something we have here, do you??)

welfare and social care would also be fully paid by taxpayers (go me again I guess)

laws would be kept similar to that of today and trial and punishments would also be pretty much the same- NO capital punishment (well done child???)

for people who didn't agree with my idea? death. there would be designated protest zones and paths ?

they would be fined for extremely violent protest

I also had some big idea about petitions i think-

anyway, what do you think of my interesting plans that I came up with???

note that everything in the inverted commas are direct quotations 😭

again u can ignore this-sorry for the spam lol

Dividing ppl by its political pov sounds interesting, tbh. I dont think i couldve come with the concept in a billion years.

But idk. Dividing ppl has never turn out right for humanity (white/poc, men/woman, queer/cishetallo). Structurally, might work. But what keeps knowledge going is feedback. Mirrors and windows and all of that.

And like humans cant stay on their own business. Conservatives would want to declare war to progressives. If a person moves out of the conservative section they were born in, the born progressives would look down at them and call them fake progressives. Humanism sections would fight agains the high intelligence - low intelligence system cuz what if a high intelligent person is dysable and cant have a high intelligence work?? And what if a ND kid is selected as a low intelligent by the system?? Where do artist fit in this system??

GOD I SOUNDED LIKE A MEAN TEACHER REVISING A FINAL PROYECT IM SORRY i feel i analyzed it waaaaay more serious than i should. But your 14yo had a point and i can see were the idea came from?? You cant have a political fight if there isnt a political discussion and you cant have a political discussion if you think everyone thinks the same way you do?? Anyways it is an interesting concept to work with. (Again im sorry i think i was too mean i-)

Being fair, my someones and i tried to figure out an hypoterical utopia at fifteen (we called it Willherondopolis because of course) (this still is the name of our group chat) i cant remember how it was but thank god im going to medicine and not politics. I do recall one of them said Dude this looks like maze runner.

[markets]

Literally kicking my legs back and forth twirling my hair I love facts... could u tell me about facts from the years 1300 to 1400? Or if you know about it the world trade fair ^-^

ok we're doing that first one YAS um some of these might actually be 1200-1450 and some of these might actually be wrongish since im trying to go off the top of my head sorry...

1. trade went absolutely CRAZYYY in this time period silk roads indian ocean trade network etc as a result religions such as islam spread even in places where pre-existing religions had a pretty strong hold for example though it never overtook hinduism islam spread in the area of the delhi sultanate (what is now northern india) largely bc of the existence of sufis which emphasized the more spiritual and emotional aspects of islam rather than rigid social constraints, it also took a strog hold among those who were unhappy with their place in the caste system and felt drawn to its egalitarian message

2. a heavy enabler of this trade going crazy was the mongol empire, they heavily encouraged trade due to their desire to tax it and set up caravanserai, aka rest stations, along the silk roads along with guard stations. however do not get too attached to the caravanserai bc they heavily contributed to the spread of the black death :')

3. europe was an absolute MESS in this time period tbh they got hit very hard by the plague, which lessened people's faith in the catholic church, which served as the uniifying feature of europe at the time. this wavering in power led to european leaders vying for some of it (going a bit forward in the time period here SRRY its just interesting T___T) and looking for new ways to legitimize their rule, which was done in some crazy freaking ways like ART and RELIGION (which still had a heavy hold on the ppl despite the whole plague thing, just did not the same stability it had before). for example king james I (or was it II?) in england ruled by the divine right of kings, aka the belief that god had chosen him to be king and that going against him was therefore going against god; this allowed him to act above the law all the time. louis the xiv was absolutely CRAZY in this time bc he centralized power to the point of absolutism, first he did thiss normally by the divine right of kings but THEN he built the palace of versailles and was like "french nobles live here so i can watch what you do and make sure you dont shift any power awayfrom me or i will literally cry". additionally, the catholic church heavily promoted art with catholic themes in it to spread their version of the bible to the illiterate peasantry, but when an englishman named john wycliffe was like "hey im going to translate the bible from latin to a more commmon language so mroe people can read it" the church, whose practices of selling indulgences (the absolution of sins bassically) and simonies (church official positions) were NOWHERE in the bible, punished him. this general state of weakened trust in the church and general political instability led to the protestant reformation, but that is in the 16th century and not my strongest subject tbh so i will stop there

4. while europe flopped song dynasty china slayed they did so largely through the export of luxury goods (eg porcelain and silk aka the REASON the silk roads are the silk roads) and through the practice of keeping tributary states this allowed them to make crazy innovations in fields such as papermaking and pyrotechnics (which wasnt even used for war at first it was some scholars trying to findlike the elixir of immortality or something, bc that is just how much free time they had since they were in a prosperous state, and then theywere like Hey this blows up)

5. just as islam spread to south asia (and africa, which led to the establishment of centers of islamic learning in places such as the malmuk sultanate in what is now timbuktu which in turn led to the preservattion of information in fields such as medicine math and i want to say astronomy?), buddhism spread to china, syncretizing with the old belief system of confucianism to create neo-confucianism, which emphasized filial piety and education but also led to spread of patriarchal values, as can be seen in the practice of foot binding, in which high class women literally got their feet bound and it was super painful (badly explained LORD i have tto review that after this). additionally, many aspects of buddhism were altered in this spread to china: the term meaning "man supports wife" was altered to mean "man controls wife," and the form that took popularity was not the traditional theravada form but the mahayana one, which included the veneration of deities

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[kabatakabita]

sent.

Dearest B,

It's been a hectic week in my life, I did not want to start a letter in this manner, but that's the only true life update I have had for a while now. As I was continuing my freestyle research, youtube switched to my personal gmail account, and it seems my algorithm is still mulling over your name which I have typed, more often than not, in the loneliest hours of the night. Your face floated on my screen lifting me from where I am seated, when I came back to my senses, I needed to write to you because meeting for now is a silly idea because I have built some sort of filter these days. I dont meet people unwaxed anymore, I come clean, ready with my defenses. And I fear that I might lose contact with you like I have lost with many people in moments as such whence the hinge of my life is broken. And as of now, talking to people is no medicine as is thinking of them. Having said that, I am contradicting the very thing by writing to you. And in my defense I'd like to say this is not me talking to you but giving you a thought of you as it comes which would be curdled if spoken out loud, with the filter of spoken communication. This, whatever it inspires in you is a fragment of silence that you inspire in me.  

However, even silences are conspiring, purposeful and strategic. But the inspiration for this letter is absolutely nothing, I have no agenda, I have nothing to state to you...yet I am writing, and what I need to write is unclear to me as is the need to write, and I certainly dont want to exploit your nature by putting out my woes or something profound which I usually do when I need attention because I have nothing as such. Just, here is me. 

My life is getting so ordinary that I am the "they" that the people talk about; so ordinary, so overlooked, and so in tune with other collective ordinary, that I have started watching crime patrol because profound movies that I once looked upto feel like mockery and also unnecessary. I like cheap entertainment like watching a bunch of dancers vibing to a wedding song they dont understand. That's my source of dope. I am the modern man in pursuit of happiness, I am that unit, the human that undergoes the experiments of political economy. I mean, I have surrendered to capitalism, and it's not as bad as it seemed to me a few years ago...infact I see worth in my work these days and I cant decide if its because I have to think this way to get myself to do something that I dont like or it is really that fulfilling, because the tax I pay gives me immense satisfaction and it subdues some sense of guilt in me. I have lost the capacity to think for myself. Only a year ago I was filled with ambitions and a fiery hunger to be a woman who could do it all. I never said no to anything that came my way. I wanted to work to shape the education system in nepal, I wanted to do law, I had things to wake up to even when I cried in despair every night. These days I sleep to be more efficient at work. In fact, I postpone the impact of certain things, store hurt not in the heart but on my upper back, or the left temple. I am strategic about the goodness I purport with colleagues, I think hard about ethics at work, I have become submissive. I laugh a little more with the chairman, work from home whenever possible, talk to old men stooping over the desktop  working so quietly that it feels like working with trees and talking is irrelevant. These men I share my space with, some see their daughters in me, some the women they would have loved to love, some despise me for my see through shirts that I slip in on fridays. And I see in them the father I never had. I wonder what they would be like as fathers. I love how this corner of old men in the office vibrates with laughter sometimes and wonder again if laughter could be as pervasive as explosions. because the shards of laughter cut through me somedays, they leave me wounded, and the wounded me is in the future. I have to grow old to see from where I bled.   And of love, I have been loving alone. My ego is a cotton candy. It disappears when my half lover kisses me even when I have spent all the evening deciding to leave him. The pink on his tongue is only what becomes of me every night. Even love, I love collectively. It's so generic that I love on behalf of all the people that need not love but to love. He hates how incompetent, how tolerant, how submissive i have become and that I dont have a goal in life. But when I kiss him, it feels like I have arrived somewhere. It is a silent milestone. There I rest for days. I am so ordinary that I am jealous when he takes the name of this new co-worker a little more than two times in a sentence. I feel like her name rinses my taste in his mouth, and her presence in any form dilutes mine. But it's not sad. None of this is sad. Just I contest nothing. I am so neutral about all this. But I am uncomfortable because I never wanted to be a stoic, and although it feels like a path towards stoicism, it sure is a path towards a permanent shift in my psyche. I dont know if its incompetence or wisdom or none. How are you?

Sending a hug,

nisha

[sparrowmoss]

sorry this is spurred on by something i saw on my feed and i dont mean it as an attack on anyone, whoever reblogged it (i already dont remember) or whoever originally posted it but it just. made me sad because it was so close to hitting the mark but just not quite there

i really do believe people should get housing and food and healthcare including eyes and teeth and everything else that is part of your body, for free, full stop. regardless of if they are able to Work and Create Profit for some nebulous higher ups. do what you can, take what you need. everyone needs food and a place to sleep and medicine and help. not everyone can work. but we clearly have enough to go around if there are people in this world living so richly that they can pay hundreds of thousands for a vacation, or hundreds of millions for a home.

it almost hits the mark to say you don’t want money for free but you just want a job that pays enough, you don’t want housing for free but you just want housing that doesn’t take up all your income, you don’t want free healthcare but you just want your taxes to pay for healthcare. almost. its so close. people who are very disabled, temporarily or permanently, should also have these basic benefits for living, even if they cannot do a job. people’s lives aren’t only worth sustaining if they help someone else make money. people’s lives aren’t only worth sustaining if they can completely provide for themselves

we have progressed far enough with technology and societal structure that no one NEEDS to be suffering from lack of food or housing or anything. there are so many vacant homes and there is so much food wasted and the only reason it is this way, that that surplus exists and yet people are going without, is because we have made it that way. we have put necessities and comforts and safety behind a paywall. there is no good reason there should be hundreds of billionaires while children are starving

a lot of other people far smarter than me have said this in better ways with sources for everything and im not here to provide something comprehensive but please if you think what im saying is unreasonable ask yourself why and do some research or reading idk. people who cannot work don’t deserve to be discarded. thats all

#im really truly not mad at whoever it was i promise #if i seem mad its jst because im mad at society and the world for being this way

[inner-community]

i feel like... i have been dissociating so much more recently x_x which sucks because i was doing really really good - feeling like even without my meds and stopping therapy and doing more of my self-motivated work (art) i was doing really good and staying present...

i think it might in part be that we're still trying to get balance in zone out/fun/games mode when we're home but i am really feeling like it's just coming from avoidance (really stressed about multiple things that will require Many Steps to start. ik i should write down the steps but rn just having to DO multiple steps on smth feels impossible. and money is so sosososososososo stressful. i hate you tax season i hope all taxes are cancelled forever x_x i think the self employment tax should only kick in if you're making like. over 20k. haha.)

but yeah i really WANT to be doing aspirational things, i am doing better getting art done again after a while of not being able to do any... i just i just feel responsible for too much. and it seems unfair to make my wife take on more but i think that would be the best thing. im just stressed.

and i hate hate hate hate that i have to work on driving again because i have to - call the place i need to take my test at. study for and then do that test. talk to the dmv about my permit being suspended for my medicines i don't take anymore (they were making me get papers signed by my psych to say i can drive on them). THEN i can finally do the real driving class to get my license. i fucking wish i could scream and kick and throw a fit at the first lady who i did a driving test at the dmv with she was so mean. she claimed i was speeding when i was WATCHING MY SPEEDOMETER SAY I WAS GOING UNDER THE LIMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i just want to be able to drive so we can do all 100000 things that i specifically need to be able to drive for. (like my wife cant get a job if i cant drive her there. we cant move if i cant drive us and our things. i cant go to school this summer if i cant drive. it is fucking killing me and driving me MAD. its so much pressure that i think it makes me want to do nothing at all. because it feels like theres no tangible way to do all these things. AGH)

so i guess i just need to call the fucking place while im walking to work today. because also i feel so sososososososososo embarrassed talking on the phone at home. i dont want to be heard.

#basically can someone give me $4k and a month off please. im weak.