#dont ask for ness

[locallygrowndaikon]

Hey Daikon, would it be ok if I drew our main ocs together? 🥺👉👈

yeah go for it! :DDDD

#sorry ness outfit asks ill get to yall in a bit HFHGK #but anyone can draw my ocs!! #as long as you dont claim my ocs as like your own character or somethng #i love seeing other people draw my ocs so like #yeah go wild 😎😎😎 #asks

[incrediblysincere]

Having a job where i have to interact with coworkers all day has really made me notice how bad my social skills are

#like i like focus HARD on the work and i find it really hard to talk at the same time #which is interesting because i know my family/friends probably think i talk TOO much but its totally different depending on who im around #like if im with friends or people i feel really confortable with i can infodump for half an hour on shit they dont care about #but with my coworkers who are all adult men mostly 10+ years older than me and im laying i completely forget to talk #so with me its either non stop bullshit or just that fluoride stare #i know some coworkers are ok with it but i have at least one who clearly isnt a fan of long silences and tries to make conversation and #i realise i CANNOT hold a conversation with him so i probably come off as super boring #and even went prompted (asked a question) i usually just say Okey like ness and then go silent again #i dont mind that much but then sometimes i think back and im like wow. He was trying to talk to me and i probably came off as really boring #or shy or a stuck up bitch. which i dont think im any of #anyway im the 😐🧍autistic for real

[mack-anthology-mp3]

Have you read any Patrick Ness?

YEAH I LOVE A MONSTER CALLS i haven't read it for yearssssssss but i remember it being really really cool and having good illustrations too OH and he wrote When the Ocean Was Our Sky too have you read that one?? it's a moby dick adaptation where the whales have this advanced society underwater and the sky is like beneath them its super cool

#i had to google him to remember the ones other than a monster calls lol #i started the knife of never letting go once but i dont think i got very far #thanks for the ask!!! #eli tag :D #patrick ness

[nicosraf]

Hello, if it’s alright could I draw some fanart of my interpretations of the different angels? I must admit I barely passed the half way point on your novel and I’m obsessed with the angels. Although I do have a question where are the women??? Jkjk. But it’s been an itching question since they are gender less beings with many forms. Also do the angels ever take their more biblical form and 🪶🪶🧿🧿🧿🪶🪶 hello brother their fellow angels?

hello! of course!!! I love seeing interpretations!!! (though i do ask not to whitewash, if possible hghghg)

And the women!! Well! The (biblical) explanation is longer than I expected but here ya go:

Angels as genderless beings is.... actually not true. The Bible refers to angels as "sons" of God a couple times – like Job 1:6, Job 2:1 (most explicitly), and Genesis 6. Genesis 6 is pretty important, because if Job is right about angels being the "sons of God", then this chapter says angels are capable of sex and procreation (with women, at least, though I have some thoughts on that). Also, angels exclusively appear as men, in the Bible. When the angels visit Abraham, they're described as men. When they visit Sodom in Genesis 19, and all the Sodom men line up to try and have sex with the angels, the angels are described as men. (In fact, the "gay people are evil" understanding of the Sodom story is entirely contingent on angels being understood as men.) (Fun fact: it's from Sodom, also, that I reasoned all angels are outrageously sexy.)

But why are angels all men in the Bible? Well, the reason is because Eve is supposed to be the first women, and in traditional (sexist) Christian thought, Adam is a man, modeled on God, who is masculine. Because the angels are between them, then they're supposed to be men, or at least man-ish.

I remember when I learned all this I thought it was absolutely hilarious. God and his all-sexy-male angel paradise. Incredible. Perfect.

But in all seriousness, the origin of this idea is that Christianity is really sexist. And the gender of angels is something pretty much every significant angel writer/artist has struggled with, like John Milton in Paradise Lost.

The back and forth about angel gender is actually my absolute favorite thing about Paradise Lost. The most significant line is "for spirits, when they please, can either sex assume, or both;" which clearly states that angels are supposed to be intersex. And yet, all the angels in Paradise Lost are men, use male pronouns, and they're described in almost entirely masculine terms; one instance where that isn't the case is this one line about Lucifer: "his form had yet not lost all her original brightness". Even here, the feminine characterization is just an attachment to the masculine.

In my opinion, John Milton wants to explore angel gender (and angel homosexual sex, too, btw, as per angel Raphael telling Adam all about the gay sex angels are up to), but Milton is held back by the pretty clear Bible teaching that angels are supposed to be male or at least male-ish. (Also, my friend Cas is much more of an academic about John Milton, angels, and angel gender, and I'm mostly parrot-ing him because he's much smarter than me, so they're your guy if you have questions). I like Milton's ideas of angels being between gender, though, and I plan to do a lot more with that:

I played around with the bizarre idea of God and his all-male paradise, but ultimately, the angels in ABM are not male. There is no such thing as male because there is no such thing as female. Like Milton, I think they're between genders.

Why do they use he/him pronouns, then? As a nod to the "all angels are male" Christian teaching, and (on a more personal level) to explore tenderness and queer gender expression (all the makeup and jewelry and dressing up) in he/hims. (Plus, it's a tiny jab at machismo, which is incredibly attached to Mexican Catholicism and an enormous source of pain for me, so now I get to make Catholicism gay and girly and laugh to myself). But, lastly, pronouns don't equal gender. Men can use she/her, women can use he/him. (Especially coming from a Mexican perspective, it's pretty common to hear gay men use feminine pronouns to refer to themselves.)

But what about their bodies? Do they not have masculine bodies, then? As I mentioned in this ask (where I discuss the trans-ness of the ABM trilogy and angels and also God) and this ask (where I discuss angel sexual organs), I stay vague because you have the room to imagine whatever you want. Specifically, angels are intersex but what that means for their physical bodies is basically up to you.

(But why would you write vaguely? Because ABM is about gender and queerness, and the fact that it can't be easily understood and it takes on a life of its own for each reader is the point !)

ABM and its sequels are about angel gender trouble and gay feelings, so don't worry, you have a lot to look forward to in that regard.

Oh and about the "biblical forms".... :) no spoilers

#i tried not to spoil but skskksks #please do keep reading #and dont worry - the use of he/him pronouns will get questioned in the sequel #dont get scared away by the “all male” cast cause theyre not male #i was pretty inspired by Lesbian Seperationist Utopian Fiction #I always found lesbian seperationism to be less about “women = good” and more about a society of single-gendered-ness and queer attraction #i do wish i could just drop the sequel already but alas #im being held in a publishing prison rn #mine #ask #angels before man

[gilbirda]

Between Jazz and Jason, which one is more prone to think "Oh no, he's/she's hot when he's/she's sad"

I don't know how to answer this, anon. Sadness is not pretty.

I think I get where you come from - romanticizing sadness comes from way back in literature, finding melancholy and yearning cute and appealing.

But about finding someone "hot" when sad I'm not so sure.

Also Jason and Jazz would rush to comfort and console before stopping to think about finding the other cute or "hot" while sad. I don't think it'd be a priority for them.

thanks for the ask!

#gil answers #anger management ship #sorry i just dont get this ask #it may be my ace-ness finding it hard to be attracted to someone being sad #i see ppl cryin and i rush to hug them not kiss them #dpxdc

[ghostcrows]

that damn web comic is rattling around in my brain ...

#i just felt smacked in the face with a mirror reality something i could see not only myself but so many other people i know/have known in #with a frighteningly sharp precision #some of the people in whn look IDENTICAL to real life friends or exes or people i knew in high school or coworkers #i sent it to my friend and he said 'i feel like this HAPPENED to someone i know' #i keep thinking about that awful feedback loop of mental illness isolation and social media addiction #but its so much more complicated than 'touch grass' like you could shoot all these peoples phones #and theyd just turn to something equally toxic and retraumatizing and self-flagellating #they already show this because they have ed's and self harm and abuse substances and spend money they dont have #the chronic online-ness is a symptom not the disease #the thing that makes me a little sick is how much i relate to milo refusing to delete his tumblr even after everything #i have had instances in my life where posting on tumblr was actively making my life worse or harder or getting in the way of real shit #and i still use it as a crutch in the worst of times #its just funny cuz its this thing that saves you from riskier vices while still obviously perpetuating those things #because its a place that reflects You so heavily #you reblog sad shit cause youre sad and it makes you sadder #you wanna self harm you see people post their cutting pics now you feel like its not so weird or bad #its making me ask questions like 'am i stunted' 'what does it mean to be stunted' and then of course #when is someone 'acting like a victim' and just A Victim and can you do both and what does that mean #man....

[tiktaalic]

I’m also 25 & my bday is in 3 months… I’m holding your hand we can do this and it WILL be beautiful

holding your hand holding yuor hand holding your hand. its quite a "i am going to make it through this year if it kills me" birthday . in my opinion. but we will. we will! and there will be feasting and dancing. affirmations.

#not trying to contribute to the image of upper 20s being haggard and decrepit its just the yknow. unmoored ness coupled with being expected #to be a real person navigating health insurance and feeling all jangled up because of the ummmm i dont know what im doing at all. of it all #while you continue to problem solve. your own problems. andalso if i sleep on the floor my body is fucked for daysand even if i sleep in my #own bed normal style theres still a chance i wake up and my body is fucked for days. i have lost my youthful shoulder connective tissue #ok. sorry. this was about making it through this year to the feasting and dancing. which you and i will. #ask #anonymous

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

if you could receive one physical attribute from each of the following characters, what would the attributes be and why: venti, dazai, makoto (persona not dangan), naoto, mettaton

NIIJIMA OR YUKI 😭

#sorry i had to like stare at this for a while bc i just did not know whether you meant p5 makoto or p3 makoto #honestly i dont particularly want anything from any of them #maybe dazais hair or height #but our hair is already quite similar lol #and hes only 4 inches taller than me #so like... yeah #i love naoto and dazai for detective swag and ventis silly wisdom and mettatons mettaton-ness and those arent really physical fhjdjfje #caps cw #aethers asks

[theangiediary]

happy wincest wednesday!! what's your favorite post-s5 wincest scene?

why would you ask me, a kripke blog, this

Kidding lol. But I will go a bit unconventional! I actually love that SPN takes 🌹Romantic Tropes🌹 and uses them for brothers, so a lot of the Iconic Wincest Moments I prefer just as they are. <- edit: this might be a vocab interpretation thing: I use "samdean" as like, their canonical relationship and "wincest" for Sam + Dean + sex

Anyway I like fics/scenarios where they're just hunting on the road, no Big Bad, no interpersonal fighting, living outside society.. and fucking.

7x12 Time After Time is a great episode for this.

Starts off with Dean angsting/watching Sam sleep. Testament to their comfort with each other.

"Don't give me that dirty-diaper look." Baby brother🥺.

"I can't believe I'm about to say this but I hope you're watching cartoon smut." WEIRD SAM.

"Special Agent Smith. This is, uh, Special Agent Smith. No relation." Canon putting in 0 effort and letting them get away with shit like this does relieve me as a fan from worrying about some details, which I appreciate.

"What, are you gonna look up more anime, or are you strictly into Dick now?" Bully your brother with sexual jokes: Round 2!

The little security camera exchange: Dean getting to show off... for exactly 0.2 seconds. I love when Sam's mean <3

They're separate for most of the rest of the episode, and while they are ORANGE, Sam has nearly unforgivable sideburns, and Dean's written a bit too goofy for my tastes (come on, Ness obviously hasn't seen the movie stop quoting it at him), he also has moments of heroism (willing to be stuck in 1944), charm (kiss from Erza), and of course, the Connection he has with Sam is what saves the day. Writing him a letter that he leaves exactly where Sam will find it reminds me of the The Usual Suspects. <- this is the single scene I would chose, for the ask

Actually, the whole Sam/Jody + Dean/Erza/Ness parallel montage is quite nice. For all those boys' differences, they were raised together, think in much the same way.

It's just... Brothers. Not soulmates, not freaks. Arguably either one of them could leave the life (no big Chosen One plot), and if they're really that pressed to Save People... idk volunteer or go into nursing or something. But they're choosing to be together. They like each other.

And, it's a deleted scene, but the "Jealousy is a bad color on you bro"... yeah. They're fucking.

#idk if this makes sense! #it may be the aspec in me #but sometimes i dont WANT the characters to kiss! #but only sometimes other times i want dean to tell sam ALL about that Cool Guy Eliot Ness and for sam to rail his pretty big brother #in his fancy little suit #onto the floor of this shitty abandoned house <3 #THANK YOU FOR THE ASK VICKY!! #happy wincest wednesday #s7 is fun it's not the Atmosphere of s1 and is missing john's looming shadow but #i like it

[alildritten]

Ah yes, the scariest story of all:

G A Y

(/j)

#alright time for context in the tags!! your favorite show!!! yippee! #yeah so anyway basically i was thinking up fictional scenarios with my ocs (of course as always) #and i was thinking about hey! so what about this werewolf character. yknow? silver? what if we thought about when they were a little kid #and stuff. you know? why not and all and so i was having fun with that thinking about how theyd have had to keep their werewolf-ness #a secret. but their parents know and are trying to keep it a secret as well and what-not #and one day silver gets invited to a sleepover. yknow. at night. theyre a werewolf??? that wouldnt go well #other than the fact that they can control that wolf form?? (i need to figure out what to call it) #so itd be fine but its supposed to be a secret because if people knew silver would be reported to the authorites because in that universe #humans do exist they just kicked any weird hybrid or beast or whatever off onto another planet #jokes on them the little beasties are doing fine and after a bit of adjusting and working on fitting into the new world #that theywere forced onto with no way back #they have a whole civilization and are doing great!!! but everytime that the humans on their world realize someones like. a werewolf or #a vampire or anything. WELP BYE-BYE HAVE A NICE TRIP #and well theres a new orphan in town on the other world! well heck hopefully they live alright and maybe get adopted? #BUT ANYWAY OFF TRACK WHOOPS so basically silvers parents are like ‘no. you cant’ but silver’s friends had asked several times in the past #and really wanted to have a sleepover with silver. idk and so basically silver writes a note saying ‘hey i did go sorry bout that- #dont worry i got it covered i can keep my wolf formt hing hidden no worries’ or something basically says that and goes to the sleepover #(friends think silver finally got permission) and wow i just realized this is a long story heck lemme try and shorten a little #and eventually at one point they all wanna tell scary stories cause why not #and once i got there my brain kinda kept pausing and then swoosh new train thought woahh!! #and started thinking about a cute scenario about two ocs of mine who are VERY GAY hehe <3 #but i thought it was a bit funny because i realized that i was about to have some lil kids tell each other scary stories and then woop brain #go hey think about this cute gay scenario!! so ah yes. cute gay scenario=SCARY (/j) #does this even make any sense at all i genuinely dont know but i had fun talking about ocs so yea ima sleep now #have a good day/night to you!!! <333 YIPPEE anyway bye bye goodnight bla bla bla woohoo

[kingfakey]

yo............... weirdo behavior. get well soon and by get well soon i do mean eat glass

#i was talking to my therapist abt the ways antisemetism functions #and one of them is the way we're always being graded on our jewish-ness #its very telling that ive got friends that were raised in the tradition that dont think they're Jewish Enough #ive got friends that don't think they're Enough because they were adopted and don't have the lineage #and ppl like me whose family made the choice not to practice but you can't opt out of the generational trauama #whether we talk about it too much or not enough it's very weird that we're always graded on a curve #and then told antisemetism isn't real by people that wanna play the antisemetism magic simulator #like i cant tell u the number of times i've been in rooms with people i THOUGHT i could be comfortable with-- #only to have them say the most vile shit you've heard because they didn't know there was a jew present #/b #& no it doesn't affect me as directly because i don't practice but don't ask me to sit here and pretend it doesn't #like when you're cultivating a space that is hostile towards jews maybe it's not any wonder they aren't more vocal

[iprefertheterminsane]

firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) ✨

I like to think im quite content with myself

1. My laugh

2. My boobs honestly.

3. The thickness of my hair (on my head, i genetically dont get a lot of body hair otherwise)

4. My hips

5. My skin color?

#i think im ok looking! #i have a lot of hang ups with the idea of prettiness and feminity #but i dont think im unnatractive #im not so happy with my own stretchmarks but i like them better on someone else #wanted to say my cleverness/my brain but honestly its complicated #ive been having a hard time with my nd -ness lately #anyway #choice of asks

[yj-98]

I DIDNT KNOW YOU READ TRC opinion on henry cheng

HIII!! YES I READ IT AS A TEENAGER (14?) initially. i preordered the raven king and devoured that thing when it arrived at my doorstep. ive since reread it a few times and used to use the audiobooks to fall asleep to, but i havent reread it since 2021. i also own specifically mister impossible <- will eventually buy + read CDTH and greywaren

all that being said. i remember initially having the same kind of reaction to him as blue did, and similarly growing fond of him<3 i dont have many strong feelings but i debriefed myself on his wiki page and i feel like id really like him if i sat down w/ trc again <3

#sorry if thats. not the ideal answer 😭 i dont hate him!!! just middling feelings for the moment #asks #cryptidisland #ness 🦕

[kiichxko]

Though he may not look like it at all, once his hands touch the piano keys, melodies that sound like they came out of fairytales fill the air with a tranquil peace made for and only for you. Alexis was bright red like a tomato during the first ever time you caught him playing the piano, "It's a little embarrassing." He had told you then with a sheepish smile, but with your encouragement—and some ribbing from Kaiser, Alexis slowly but surely started opening up more about the small hidden talent he had. Ever since then, the two of you developed the habit of sitting in front of his family piano whenever you came over, listening to him play with his usual smile on his face.

Alexis was always smiling in fact, whether be it during football practice, following along with Kaiser's shenanigans, or even when he looked like he was ready to send someone home in a body bag. He would always be smiling.

But with you, his smile was a different kind of smile. It was more genuine, more gentle, more loving. Nobody never got that kind of smile from him, it was only meant for you after all. So imagine everyone's surprise when he sat there playing the piano in his backyard decorated with fairy lights, looking at you with that same loving smile he always gave you.

You stood there in awe, wondering what you did to receive such a blessing of a partner as him. Once his solo was finished, he slowly walked over to you—before kneeling down on one knee. At that moment, you felt like time had paused as tears started welling up in your eyes.

With his team's obnoxious cheering in the background, Alexis told you an oath that you remembered from an old movie.

“With this hand I will lift your sorrows,

Your cup will never be empty, for I will be your wine

With this candle, I will light your way into darkness

With this ring, I ask you to be mine."

#can you tell im suffering from ness brainrot? #wrote this on impulse while listening to the piano duet #man the nostalgia from corpse bride is getting to me #blue lock #alexis ness #ahahaha love deprivation go brrr #i personally hc that ness plays the piano dont ask #blue lock manga

[saturniade]

your recent is. such a weird post to make. 99% of the time anime will rely on displays of characters’ cultures like their names, where they live, and the activities they partake in to show that theyre japanese rather than character designs. all of these characters are clearly meant to be japanese and its whitewashing to say otherwise just because they dont look japanese to you. plenty of asians get told they dont look asian because their features dont match up with what others perceive as “asian features” and this is super reminiscent of that. i dont see what about the names “reigen arataka” and “shou suzuki” scream white to you

i absolutely see your point! however. i think its interesting to imagine a non-japanese person (specifically a second-generation white/white&japanese immigrant) in a dominantly japanese environment + it puts an interesting spin on reigen's character with how it at the same time would alienate him in society while helping him create the image of this Incredible Psychic [more thoughts under the cut]

reigen very obviously lived his whole life in japan and recalls it sometimes (his school memories come to mind); he is familiar with the traditional clothing, food and activities, folklore, geography and such. so i do believe he has lived his whole life in japan! however, seeing how we haven't got to meet or even see or learn the name of his parents, i truly think he could be a white-with-an-asterisk dude who was born in japan. so culturally he is as japanese as it gets, but that doesnt mean he couldnt have white* parents/roots!

as for his name. 霊験灼か (reigen arataka) is actually not a traditional name, but a pun on the japanese phrase    that sounds the same. so his name doesn't 'scream white to me' necessarily, but it isn't very strictly japanese either if that makes sense. even disregarding that and focusing on the possible-immigrant aspect:

first name arataka is self-explanatory, japanese (-sounding) name given to a kid who would need to integrate into the society (i am not actually sure that this name exists as neither the romanization nor the kaiju search return results besides reigen's name). and his last name reigen is not necessarily an originally-japanese surname -- it could be a katakana-zation of an english last name like Ragan or Ragen!

i also think that it would make sense to him to become a (charlatan) psychic because being white is seen as Other/Alien in the japanese society and it would add something of a mysterious prestige to his persona which would lead to more interest in his business etc. the other psychics who do psychic business in mp1OO present themselves in a pretty exotic manner (im talking hairstyle, clothes, tattoos) while reigen is just wearing a simple fucking suit and tie! and i think it would be really interesting if he had chosen to use his appearance/race to create this image of a 'professional foreigner who is very serious, competent and familiar with japanese culture/ghosts'.

i could write even more speculations re: his parents and races and heritages and just make up a whole shaky tower of headcanons but i dont really feel like researching it too long. what i will say from what i learned before falling too deep into this rabbithole: wiki lists reigen's birth year as a year of a rat. i think it's 1984 (would make him almost-thirty around when mp1OO was being published). before 1985, japan's jus sanguinis only automatically granted japanese citizenship to those who were born to a japanese father. so i think it would make sense for his father to be japanese/mixed and for his mother to be white*.

#this take on reigen makes his 'i was alienated as well when i was a boy.... i forgot my bento once and i was the only one without bento...' #quote SO very funny! but also SO very sad if i think about it bc if he mentioned the bento episode instead of his Wholeass Childhood #it means he cant relate to the other (japanese) characters with this other-ness he carried his whole life #IT CREATES DEPTH.... ITS A GOOD HEADCANON I THINK.... #+that one gay_marriage promotional art where reigen is wearing traditional japanese wedding attire and serizawa is wearing a suit!!! #its about the culture clash. its about trying to uphold the traditions and falling outside traditions bc of who you are (gay and white*)... #as for shou: to be honest i missed the part where his dad was raised in the seasoning city + only heard the part where he travelled around #so i thought it would make sense for shou to be an immigrant / mixed child as well. as i mentioned i havent delved into shou's deal #in conclusion #i want to say that this headcanon is not whitewashing because i didnt replace a minority with a white guy as the white guy Is a minority #and i didnt make an anime character white because i dont want/dont know how to draw japanese people #its specifically because i think being white + alien + different adds dimension to the guy! #thanks for the ask tho. i understand how the headcanon might seem without all this context that exists mostly inside my head #hope this explains it somewhat! #yoo my post

[sun-roach]

When you have telephobia and your best friend asks if they can call and suddenly anxiety hits you really bad, although you know its okay, cause they r your best friend, they already know all the stupid things about you and dont judge you. Yet you still get so anxious because you don’t get every information/ reaction from a phone call but somehow video calls r worse but texts are better????

You also never know when it’s your turn to say something so most of the time you are quiet during calls, which some people take as ignorance, where in fact you are just unsure or literally don’t know what to say

#telephobia #anxiety #social anxiety #weird ness #ma peeps when i decline phone calls it doesn’t mean i dont like you :( #i feel bad every time #but it warms my heart when they ask if they can call😖