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Happy birthday to me wooo (i feel so old)

#akano_rambles

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IT WAS ONE PULL.

#akano_rambles #nahida

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Do I HAVE to start messaging each and every fanfiction writer on this app?? Y'all can't even stay ONE week without posting. Jesus christ.

Let me mention this again. NO POSTING. NO REBLOGGING. NO THIRSTING. Bisan called for a strike which includes NO ENGAGING OR POSTING CONTENT THAT ISN'T ABOUT PALESTINE. Yes. That includes your blorbos. Come on now. Y'all said you can't leave school, can't live without online shopping. Can't do anything. Haba. Oya do this one and stop posting about your blorbos FOR ONE WEEK. ONE WEEK. You cannot do.

Post PALESTINIAN content only. Do art. Reblog their art and music and news. Read up on their culture. Talk about Palestine, Sudan, Congo. Come on. Come on ON. IT IS NOT THAT HARD.

And if you follow any author, you can tell them Bisan called for a strike: I'll include the link here talking about what we can try to do.

AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, REBLOG THIS POST SO THAT WE ARE FUCKING AWARE. DON'T LEAVE JUST LIKES, REBLOG IT SO THAT NO ONE FEIGNS IGNORANCE. JESUS CHRIST. Don't make me knock at your dms.

#free palestine #free gaza #justice for palestine

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They have father-son bonding times, kaneshiro told me so.

What they don’t tell you about being noa’s protege is the random and unskippable makeup tutorials

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I got her again, this time on my asia acc 💀

I wanted xueyi but okay 😃 (my euro acc btw)

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AGAIN?? WHERE'S MY XUEYI??

I wanted xueyi but okay 😃 (my euro acc btw)

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I wanted xueyi but okay 😃 (my euro acc btw)

#akano_rambles #hsr

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Finally got blade's light cone yayy :D

#akano_rambles #hsr

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this was lowkey traumatic @kaveh-kisser hope ur happy 😕😕

details !!!!

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Hey alexa, play careless whisper

I had a fucking vision with this one. (Aka: a bday gift for a friend of mine who swears up and down hes straight)

#blue lock fanart

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Guess who convinced their mom to buy vol 19 and 20 during her japan trip

#akano_rambles #blue lock #michael kaiser #alexis ness

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WHO ELSE WOULD SEND ME A MESSAGE LIKE THAT

meow

Estelle girlie ik thats you 😭😭

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Yall what if i made a hsr oc... the brainrot is real

#akano_rambles #hsr #hsr oc

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meow

Estelle girlie ik thats you 😭😭

#answered

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Finding myself relating to ness was NOT on my 2023 bingo card.

OKAY so the only thing I want to say about yesterday's spoilers (Ness backstory) is that borderliner* Ness is canon now lol

✅ explosive anger

✅ feeling neglected, alone, misunderstood most of the time

✅ low self-esteem and the resulting self-hatred

✅ strong, overwhelming emotions

(feelings that can't be explained == too high (for average person) bursts of them. Inability to handle them)

✅ black and white thinking

(Isagi's either good (tosses to Kaiser) or bad (doesn't toss to Kaiser) lol)

✅ fear of abandonment + self-harm

✅ very intense, frequent, extreme emotional swings

(difference of one second)

(difference of one second pt.2)

✅ maladaptive daydreaming

✅ determining one's value through relationships with others

✅ unstable relationships

I'm really disappointed that chapter haven't shown Ness' attempts to gain his parents and siblings love but, eh, okay. I can work with that

*

A little background on who people with borderline personality disorder are and where do they come from. (Of course, each case is unique. I'm talking about the average manifestation of the disorder here.)

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a type of personality disorder in which a person is unstable, hypersensitive, highly anxious, and has no sense of self (no feeling of identity). One in ten patients end up committing suicide.

In fact, borderliners are people with no emotional skin. What for a stable person is a small domestic nuisance - for a borderliner is boundless terror, fear, a complete sense of helplessness and overwhelming self-loathing. Are you sick? It's your fault, you're worthless. You forgot your pass and had to buy an underground ticket? You're disgusting, step under a train right now. You forgot the food in the fridge and it spoilt? Don't you dare eat for another three days, punish yourself, cut yourself because you're nothing. That's not an exaggeration, it's true. And then you see an advert with a doggy and you laugh until you cry and all is fine.

It's like that dozens of times in one day.

Why do borderliners work this way? Heredity plays a role (which in Ness's case can be seen, for example, by the fact that he reacted acutely to some things even as a child), but to a greater extent, of course, the family, because when BPD is treated in the early stages, it is more easily reduced to remission (but does not disappear completely - it is like the core of the personality). Speaking of family types, typically borderliners come out of families with a narcissistic parent or the same borderline. Why exactly is that the case?

Because life with a narcissist/borderliner parent is an endless battlefield in which the child is forced to survive. Any emotion you have, if it doesn't fall under the parent's incomprehensible ideas, is repulsive. Any request you make and attempt to speak your mind is a violation of all laws and the worst offence. Today you're the golden child, tomorrow you're trash. Today your mom says she loves you, and tomorrow she blames you for divorcing your dad. Today dad likes the tea you made him, tomorrow he'll throw it in your face. It's a constant violation of personal space, an inability to have privacy, an impossibility to defend your interests - and yet a staggering neglect, a removal of the child from your life. Parents in such families usually divide their children into "golden" and "outcast" children, emphasising in every possible way how terrible the lousy sheep of the family (the outcast child) is, and encouraging bullying by their siblings.

Sounds similar to Ness's story, doesn't it?

In such families, the child by the age of 6 or 7 already knows that he is disgusting, horrible, and must do anything to avoid being abandoned - because the parents emphasise in every possible way that he is horrible, but they (for now) keep him out of mercy. A child learns by the slightest movement of the eyebrows and corner of the mouth to know when mom loves you and when she hates you, when dad is good and when he's bad.

The childhood of such children is a battlefield, and they come out of it emotionally disabled. For example, a very common consequence of living in such a family, in addition to BPD, is PTSD. Yeah, like war veterans.

(and by the way, borderliners VERY often end up paired with… Narcissists. Because it's a familiar love-hate game. And on top of that, also a beautiful (non-existent) personality to take a bite out of for your non-existent self))

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(if it seems like I'm somehow writing about borderline disorder a bit too unkindly - I love Ness and sympathise with him. It's me whom I don't love lol)

#blue lock #alexis ness #akano_rambles #bllk

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In relation to the new chapter leaks, i just KNOW ness was a hardcore harry potter fan back in the day

#hardcore as in he knew the entire lore by heart #and he prolly took those house quizzes #blue lock #akano_rambles #alexis ness #blue lock headcannons #bllk

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Chap 241 kaiser has a chokehold on me

#akano's_art #blue lock #michael kaiser #bllk