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tommypatters · 8 months

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Dion Lesage x Male Reader PART 2 THE SMUT VERSION

Well here it is the continuation, i finally finished ffxvi and now this fic too, i can finally rest in peace DVGFDGDFNJUDSNFI I DID MY PART >:D

Warnings: well smut duh 18+

Top reader but also 𝓈𝑜𝒻𝓉 reader that cares about his bottom's pleasure ;P

fingering Dion receiving

reader gives oral and well uh sex pretty vanilla methinks

“I love you” You looked down to Dion, he looked like a scene out of a play, his golden hair contrasting your kissing, you could hear his shaky breaths, you felt overwhelmed in the moment, you wanted to lose yourself in him, you wanted to shower him in all the love you’ve held back all these years

“Dion… My beloved’ you softly whispered as you brought your mouth down to his neck softly biting his silky skin, your mouth tracing his jawline with kisses “Ah…Y-Y/N” Dion softly whimpered, his hand softly combing through the back of your head

You traced your hand down his chest, caressing every inch of him you could get until your hand reached his tightening pants, you felt take a sharp breath and Dion slightly jump at the sudden touch, he grabbed your hand “Y-Y/N, we mustn’t… Not here” He stood up gently prompting you to get off him

“come” Dion said eagerly taking your hand, leading you out of the royal gardens, the two of you walked at a hurried pace through the thankfully empty corridors of the lower palace since it would’ve been rather difficult to explain why the two of you where walking hand in hand sporting an obvious tightness in your lower regions, you felt excitement and arousal, your body felt hot, the urge to grab Dion pin him to the nearest wall and take him right there and then grew with every step, it didn’t help that you kept ogling the young prince’s behind… Damn him and his insistence at wearing tight pants

You finally reach a door that leads to a fairly luxurious chamber, you don’t recognize it as Dion’s chamber but you’re far too aroused and cloud minded to care, you grab Dion’s arm and turn him around to face you “Y-Y/N” you closed the distance between the two of you planting a kiss on his soft lips “Dion, my prince, please let me take care of you”

You took his hand and led him to bed, you slowly starting undoing the buttons of his overly complicated white shirt one by when you were done you couldn’t help but notice how handsome he looked in the soft lighting of candles

You kneeled as you moved on to undoing his belt, pulling his pants and underpants down revealing the prince’s cock, His beautiful cock, you wanted nothing more than to shower him in your love, to worship him, make him cry out in pleasure

You closed the distance between his cock and you, you parted your lips tracing him with your tongue running your tongue and lips all over him exploring every inch of his cock with your mouth “Y-Y/N Please… must you tease me so much?” the prince said in a soft whisper

You decided you had teased him enough and took his cock into your mouth sucking it gently putting your hands on his thighs you started to bob your head up and down his length, Dion let out a soft moan as he softly combed your hair with his fingers

You pulled your head back taking his length out of your mouth “Y-Y/N? I-Is something wrong…?” you ignored the prince as you took two of your fingers in and out your mouth wetting them with your saliva you moved your hand around his leg and into his backside, you rubbed around the outer edges of his hole, you pushed inside it, Dion let out a high pitched moan as you gently moved your fingers in and out of him, you took his cock back into your mouth taking it as deep as you could

Dion let out another moan as he took his hand to his mouth in some attempt to silence himself, you continued to bob your head up and down, building a steady rhythm using your tongue to lick all over his length you continued bobbing your head up and down until you heard Dion softly whimper “Y-Y/N P-Please…. I’m close…” you dragged your head back taking his length out of your mouth as you took him into your hand gently closing your fingers around his length you started stroking him up and down when he suddenly let out a loud shaky moan as he released into your hand, hot seed dripping from your fingers, you looked up at your prince he still had his hand around his mouth, his eyes were watery and half lidded, his breath agitated

He sat back into the mattress of the bed, you rose up from your kneeling position and started undoing your clothes, you noticed Dion staring at your well built chest and arms as you removed your shirt “Enjoying the view your grace?” you asked ogling his own beautiful body back

“Very…” he said smiling “Now come to me” he said laying back in the red silken sheets of the bed and that was all the encouragement you needed as you crawled into bed positioning yourself on top of him, you caressed his cheek and closed your distance enjoying every bit of his soft lips against yours with every kiss after kiss being messier than the last one until you finally pulled back

You locked eyes with him, it was the most beautiful sight you’ve ever seen, even the giant waterfalls of Altissia paled in comparison to the beauty of the prince of Sanbreque below you, his now messy golden locks sprawled against the pillow, his beautiful amber brown eyes looking directly into yours, his half erect cock resting against his stomach

You took your hand to his face, caressing his cheek, you brought two fingers to Dion’s mouth, he parted his beautiful lips allowing entrance into his mouth, you felt his tongue lick them up and down, you slide your now wet fingers out of his mouth and bring them down to his entrance, Dion takes a sharp breath as you gently push them inside of him, your cock twitches and you feel a quiver of anticipation as you feel him around your fingers, you slide your fingers out of him only to push them back in and out, the prince lets out soft shaky moans as you quickened the pace of your fingers, after some more moments of fucking the prince’s hole with your fingers he let out a high pitch whine as you pulled your fingers out of his entrance

You positioned yourself in between the prince’s spread legs, caressing his thighs you dove into the prince’s neck landing kiss after kiss, your hands wandering around his hips wanting to feel as much of his silky skin as you could, your teeth nibbled at the skin of his neck as you heard the prince let out a playful whine, “Y-Y/N I can’t wait any longer please take me!”

That was all the encouragement you needed as you grabbed your throbbing length aligning it with his entrance, Dion took a sharp a breath as you sunk yourself into him, you let out a low groan as you felt every inch of your cock being wrapped by his tight warm walls, putting your hands on his hips you pulled back and thrusted back in again, thrust after thrust what brought you most pleasure was seeing Dion’s teary expression lost in pleasure, hearing his soft moans and whimpers as you sunk yourself into him again and again

He wrapped his legs around your hips and his arms around your neck, your lips sharing kiss after kiss as you thrusted into him muffling his moans with your mouth, one your hands wandered down his back groping and grabbing every bit you could of his plump backside as the other grabbed his cock stroking up and down his length

You couldn’t tell how time had passed in the passion of your lovemaking, the two of you now were now slick with sweat, breath ragged lost in pleasure as Dion held onto you with every bit of strength he had, his head rested on the crook of your neck, his throat aching as he loudly whimpered every time you thrusted into him, one of his hands caressing the back of your neck, you could feel yourself coming closer, your thrust becoming erratic as you sought your release, your grip tightened around his cock and you quickened the pace of your strokes, until finally you pulled back only to sink yourself into him once more deeper than you’ve ever been since your lovemaking started, with a low groan you felt yourself release inside the prince, his legs tightened around you and his hand on your head pulled you closer as you felt his warm seed release into your hand once again

Both your breaths slowly stabilizing as you basked in the afterglow of your lovemaking, you pushed yourself off him and laid to the side sharing one more kiss as you whispered “My beloved, I am yours forever”

i luv dion so much bijbgidjbgidbg dont get me wrong i also love terence so i love dion and terence BUT I ALSO LOVE DION AND TERENCE but this is was all mostly cuz i had this whole fantasy in my head ᵃ ᶠᶦⁿᵃˡ ᶠᵃⁿᵗᵃˢʸ notice how i made the reader leviathan in the first part but never mentioned it again i dunno im just weird like that honestly id love to write more levi!reader x dion but only this 1000 words took me like 2 days, i have a newfound respect for writers NOT THAT I DIDNT BEFORE MIND U just more now also also also if any writer is reading this PLEASE feel free ᵗᵒ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᶦᵈᵉᵃ ᵒᶠ ˡᵉᵛᶦ ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ ˣ ᵈᶦᵒⁿ ᵒʳ ʲᵘˢᵗ ˡᵉᵛᶦ ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ ᶦⁿ ᵍᵉⁿᵉʳᵃˡ ᶜᵘᶻ ʰᵒⁿᵉˢᵗˡʸ ᶦᵐ ˢᵒ ᵒᵇˢᵉˢˢᵉᵈ ʷᶦᵗʰ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᶦᵈᵉᵃ ᶦᵈ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ᵃ ¹⁰⁰⁰⁰⁰⁰ ʷᵒʳᵈˢ ᶠᶦᶜ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵃᵗ but yes now that this is whole brainrot is out of my system ᶦᶠ ᵃⁿʸᵒⁿᵉ ʰᵉʳᵉ ᵏⁿᵒʷˢ ᵖʳᵉ ᶜᵃˡᶜ ᵖˡˢ ᵈᵐ ᵐᵉ

#male reader x dion #male reader x dion lesage #male reader x ffxvi #male reader #top male reader #ffxvi #ffxvi smut #smut #does order matter in tags?#dion lesage #dion lesage x male reader #Dion Lesage x Male Reader #Dion Lesage x male reader #does this matter i dunno #terence smut when #final fantasy 16

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oneday-yourside · 11 days

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Harry's world/Bad end

Inspired by Christina's world by Andrew Wyeth

#I dont think people talk about the bad end enough #this is the social murder game you guys #i dunno #my health took a bit of a decline recently and my doctor forgot to get me a refill on my meds in time and it got me thinking #disability puts a person in such a vulnerable position #it doesnt matter how well Harry solves the case or how upstanding of an officer he tries to be #one drink is all it takes and he is left to die #he cant even run after them anymore... he doesnt even know where he lives #he's nothing but an addict to them #reduced to an animal... grovelling in the dirt #used for all hes worth and then thrown away once he cant work anymore #ive written about the bad end before and ill get back to it(after my fic about his mom is done) when i get the energy for it #its just so compelling!!#does anybody hear me???#disco elysium #harry du bois #disco elyisum fanart #my art #illustration #also some people in the fandom do NOT see disabled ppl and addicts as people and it shows #ITS THE SOCIAL MURDER GAME

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avoidmint · 2 months

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Redemption didn't cure his bully tendencies.

Don't worry he didn't leave him to drown. There's witnesses.

#sonic forces #sonic au #gadget the wolf #infinite the jackal #sonic fanart #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #Tails and Gadget are ocean fun time buddies and-- come to think of it does the ocean still exist in Forces? I dunno #screenshots show desolate city stuff mostly but yknow what it exists in this AU #well I mean of course it exists but I mean as like a... like a place that is just somewhere you can go and-- no one cares Mint #anyways have a bastard and his forcibly found family #Fun fact also no matter how I draw Sonic he always looks wrong and I have just accepted he will never look right #Shadow looks fine most of the time which just makes it a whole Frustrating Thing but yknow what it's Fine #minturts

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myhyperfixationisiforgot · 9 months

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I maintain that the animated Harley Quinn show has the best understanding of the modern Joker. He's Batman's mortal enemy. His other half, the color to Batman's gloom. Joker literally PROPOSES to Batman at one point.

Sure, he's terrible and sadistic and he absolutely hurts and kills untold numbers of people but like. Not because he likes killing, but because everything else is part of their story, and this is how the story goes. He doesn't want to KILL people, he wants to fight Batman, and in this universe Batman wants to be the good guy.

As soon as Batman is gone, he's done. Over and out. Almost capable of a normal life (as much as you can in Gotham). Finds himself a girlfriend and kids in the suburb. Willing to do his ex a favor every now and again.

Anyways I'm just obsessed with a show where it's so obvious that the Joker isn't the antithesis to good, he's just the antithesis to Batman. They really said the Joker only exists because Batman wants him to, and then actually backed it up. Insanity.

#i dunno i just think that the idea that joker and batman are equally involved in picking the genre of their rivalry is fun #the idea that they're both so obsessed that no one else matters in their games is what batman and joker are supposed to be #like the joker doesn't care about harley but batman ALSO doesn't give a shit about harley. that's the whole thing.#heath ledger's joker is good but this dynamic just does it for me #the joker #batman #harley quinn animated series #joker #bruce wayne

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mamawasatesttube · 10 days

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i wish it wasn't so normal for people to complain about unfinished wips or fics that take a long time to update. because sometimes i think i have a really fun idea for a fic but it'd take a while for me to write, and i like talking about my work as i do it and i don't like writing entire fics over like 20k without sharing, because i lose steam. so if i were to write and post that cool fic idea, it'd be as a wip. and then i think about all the people who just refuse to engage with wips, or all the other people who would just go "update pls" all the time, and of how people only really comment in the first 24 hours something is posted and then it's lost to obscurity, and then i just go "actually whats the point in going through the effort writing this out? i'll just daydream about it now and then and be done with it." and then i don't write it. alas!

#rimi talks #shoutout to that one person who followed me from resi fandom and commented on one of my dc fics like ''pls update that resi fic''#also shoutout to all those tumblr posts about how theres nOthInG wOrSe than finding a GoOd FiC but its uNFiNIsHeD #i used to really like writing longfic but these days i kind of shy away from it bc it rly does get discouraging #like they say ''write for yourself'' and i do but i certainly dont share just for my own satisfaction yk???#anyways. i already have space fic and theres no need for me to start another fic. even if it would be fun.#ive also just been in a Mood about writing since yesterday and thats not helping matters 😔#but it feels like a stupid thing to be in A Mood about. idk. whatever jdlksk hopefully itll pass and ill be normal tomorrow :/#bc talking to duck earlier today we came up with a really fun mermay fic premise. but. writing? me? multichap again? lol. lmao even #like i would love to!!!!!! having two ongoing multichaps wouldnt kill me i like to pingpong between wips #but dealing with people whining about update times or telling me they refuse to read bc its a wip...... dunno if i can do that again fellas #okay. enough woes and whining. i guess i will go play a video game

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stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale · 10 months

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I've had some ANF thoughts today. Y'all know how much I hate the "love triangle" aspect of the story with Javi, Kate, and David, right? If you can even call it a love triangle; it's more of a "David and Kate never felt like a married couple to begin with and now Javi has the chance to bone his sister-in-law as if that's not a weird thing to do at all👍" thing, so... not great.

I'm also just not fond of Kate as a character in general. She's pretty good in ep1, but after that it's a slippery slope as she's relegated to the injured love interest for Javi. There are interesting aspects to her, like how she's resourceful and on top of things, she keeps track of herds and overall is shown to be incredibly smart. But, she also has moments where she has to let herself be emotional and a little panicked because she knows she needs to get it out of her system in order to focus. She gets frustrated with Gabe and says things she shouldn't, and she just.... I dunno, does dumb shit sometimes? And that would be fine if it made sense... but it doesn't.

I was always more interested in the Garcia brothers aspect of ANF, and felt the story would've been improved if it focused more on Javi and David, their relationship as brothers in the past and how different it is after they've found each other again in the apocalypse. One of the best scenes in the entire game is the rooftop scene where David ask Javi to stand with him.

And so I was thinking about ANF this morning and what could be done to make Kate fit better in the story and like...it hit me: Kate should've been their sister.

No, seriously, hear me out: Kate should've been written to be the middle child of the Garcia siblings instead.

Do you know how much that would fix? Throw that stupid love triangle in the trash. It was never good, it did nothing for Kate's character, and now David and Javi don't have to bicker about who she's married to and who gets to bone her, okay? No bullshit fight at the end!

David was already married once, just let him be divorced or a widower, and a single father. Javi can have a new love interest; hell, give him two if you want, let him be a bi king over Eleanor and Tripp- wait, no that just creates another love triangle, damn it-

Anyway... if Kate was their sister, then her entire character overflows with potential that wasn't there before.

I say make her the middle child who was stuck with two rivaling brothers, one a military man who became a single father and the other a professional baseball player who lost it all in a gambling scandal.

What about Kate? Perhaps she's a single woman who doesn't know what she wants in life. She doesn't want to settle down and have kids like David did, but she also doesn't want to sink so low like Javi did. She wants to travel, but needs money to do that so she does what she can save up, but there's always something that makes her dip into her savings.

Y'know... like her father getting sick and needing to pay for treatments, which Kate is happy to give up those savings so for a chance for him to beat cancer, but there's always that little bit of bitterness lingering inside her that keeps saying, "it's never about what I want, it's always about David or Javi, I'm going no where, I'm no one, even I don't know who I am or what I want, what am I doing? Papa got sick, so Javi ran away again, and so did David when he reenlisted, and who got left behind to take care of everything? Me, it's always me left to take care of Mama and Papa, and the kids, and everything else!"

Maybe she acted as a mediator between the brothers, too. They always relied on her when they were pissed with each other, they vented all their problems to her, and she always tried to get them to connect on something, but never found that right thing.

Hell, this way she could get along with the kids better, too. She's just Aunt Kate. She always volunteered to babysit them for David. She and Gabe still have their tiffs due to clashing attitudes, but there's no "you're not my mother!" vibe.

Suddenly Kate's her own person and not just an object the game throws at you for the brothers to grunt "she's muh wife!" "but I love her, too!" at.

ANF becomes the story of these three siblings who experienced the worst night of their lives together: their father died after a long battle with cancer, their mother is distraught, Javi didn't show up in time, David's drinking on the porch and Kate's trying to look out for everyone. Then the outbreak happens, their father comes back as a walker and bites their mother, David rushes off with her to the hospital while Kate and Javi take the kids...

Years later, Kate and Javi have accepted that they've lost their parents and big brother, and they're doing what they can to keep their niece and nephew alive... until Kate gets shot and they reunite with David, because then everything gets extra complicated with the three siblings trying to repair broken bridges and survive together until they hit a breaking point where Kate gets sick of David's shit. She's done trying to be nice and play mediator, she's ready to do what she thinks is right and an argument breaks out... and Javi's forced to choose between his brother or sister, and the tragedy becomes about being unable to save one of them... not matter what, in the end, Javi will lose a sibling because no matter how hard he tried, they still fell apart.

And that's just the tip of the iceberg.

I just really hate every plot they give Kate, y'all. She was done dirty.

And I loathe love triangles that involve two siblings [usually it's brothers] falling in love with the same person, okay? I don't have the patience for it, I just want all of those love triangles to go far, far away from me forever and never bother me again.

Anyway, do you love this thing I do where I show up after months of inactivity to slap something like this down before scurrying away? Because I'm scurrying now.

#twdg javi #twdg david #twdg kate #i dunno y'all i'm pretty sure da 2 is to blame for this #that game has a trio of siblings that are important to the story except no matter what you do #your brother and sister always meet some sort of tragedy in their arcs and they're both such good characters on their own and uuughhhh #it's what anf could've done but nooooooooo here's this dumb romance plot instead #does anyone even had javi and kate as their twdg otp? like honestly?#i'm just saying the story would've been better if we burned the romance out and kept sole focus on the family #and i guess clementine can be there too she can fulfil the found family quota in her mission to get AJ back

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anewp0tat0 · 1 year

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*heavy breathing* I skim watched a Black Butler anime review in the year and month of our lord November 2022 and they called Grelle a he SO with the boost I finally had to excuse to draw this cruel twisted girl cause it's been a whiiile.

I know she's giving queen of heart vibes and Madame Red already has that one but YA KNOW WHAT shouldn't murder queens decapitate people together???

#honestly the sketch of this may still be better but that's probably because this half rendered doodle looks completely different than what #I imagined #is that a bad thing? dunno. i feel more secure when I have a clear plan on the colors and shading style but you know what #this was frustration on canvas so does it matter #just happy i got to draw her again anyway. even if there's sometime off with the neck/head that I wont figure out till next week #kuroshitsuji #black butler #kuroshitsuji fanart #fanart #grelle sutcliff #digital art #grell sutcliff #tw blood #and tiny knife lol

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front-facing-pokemon · 11 months

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#another bonus under the cut where i got up under their big head to get 'em a little closer and a little more front-facing #aggron #aggron is just cool. a big metal bitch who *could* hug you but is probably actually just gonna obliterate you. is that anything #i think i prefer lairon more. it's kinda just a little metal creature and i think that's awesome but aggron stands up #and normally i'm a big big fan of when pokémon stand up. when everyone wanted sprigatito to not stand up i was like #please stand up. because i am a furry and i knew it was gonna become favorite pokémon material if it did. and it did and meowscarada is #wonderful and i love it and it's one of my top like 10 of all time. but aggron is like. i dunno. a little too gruff for me #i think aron and lairon are cute and i'm generally a fan of and user of cute pokémon but aggron is very. how you say. aggressive #and also… ron… aggressive ron. new show on netflix i just reinvented aggretsuko but for pokémon #also weirdly every furry on the face of the earth likes aggretsuko but for one i've never had a netflix account and for two i just #don't ever watch shows. it's just not something that works in my brain. having to get them‚ and then just taking the time to sit down and do #it just never does anything for me. the last show i watched was because i was over at a friend's house and he was like hey. we're watching #this show now. i want you to see this show. and it's a show that folks generally lamented for a lot of reasons so i was like iii dunno about #that one! but he was like no trust me it's fine. and then i was like. kinda uninterested at first but it turned out to be really good #and i'm still ashamed. that i liked it as much as i did. so i will not say what it is. it's not supernatural. it's a short-ish show #but like it was good and i didn't expect it to be. which has nothing to do with aggretsuko OR with aggron for that matter #literally idk. look it's distraction (AGGRON DISTRACTION)

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even-disco-baby · 2 years

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YOU — “What was it like when we were partners?”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He looks at you, taking a long drag from his cigarette. His eyes are hard. “You don’t remember at all?”

CONCEPTUALIZATION [Impossible: Failure] — You try to search through the mire of your mind, but come up with only the ghosts of vague and conflicting feelings— comfort and pain, gratitude and resentment, and above all, fear.

YOU — Fear of what?

CONCEPTUALIZATION — Of being seen. Seen and despised.

EMPATHY — He fears that, too. That one day, he’ll look at you and realize that it was all for nothing.

-1 MORALE

PRECINCT 41 — The night air is pleasantly cool, and even this late, you can hear plenty of signs of life in Jamrock. Dogs barking, laughter in the distance. It only makes your own silence more pronounced.

“I remember we were friends.”

“I remember we hated each other.”

“I remember you cramping my style.”

“I remember being a burden.”

“I don’t. I’m sorry.”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He sighs. Smoke trails as he shakes his head. “It’s fine.”

DRAMA — It is decidedly *not* fine, sire.

JEAN VICQUEMARE — “You know what? It’s probably better that way. Don’t worry about the past. Your great big life is finally starting.” Every word drips with irony. He takes another puff of the cigarette. “Good for you.”

“You’re right. I won’t worry about it.”

“I swear I’m going to make the most of it. It’ll be different this time. I swear, Jean.”

“You’re such an asshole.”

“You sound sarcastic.”

JEAN VICQUEMARE — “Oh, do I? Sorry, let me try again.” He claps with mock politeness. “Congratulations on the amnesia. You must be thrilled.”

“Ha ha. Real funny.”

“Maybe I am. Fuck off.”

“No. I’m scared. It’s been really hard.”

“I’m sorry, okay? It’s not like I can undo it. I don’t know what you want from me.”

“I’m sorry…”

(Say nothing)

JEAN VICQUEMARE — He lets out another breath, closing his eyes. “…Sorry. Look, just forget it, okay, Harry?” He tosses the butt of his cigarette dispassionately into the bushes and lights another. “Believe me, it’s not worth dredging up.”

DRAMA — What he means to say, sire, is that you don’t want to know how bad things got.

EMPATHY — Even he doesn’t like to reminisce. Not on the bad *or* the good. It would all swallow him up if he wasn’t careful. But he can’t forget, either, so he just carries it. And now he carries it alone.

INLAND EMPIRE — He was fooling himself if he ever thought that to live was to be anything but alone. We are all either leavers or those left behind.

HALF LIGHT — It’s not your fault that he started to look like a leaver. You had to be faster than him. You couldn’t let it happen again. Never again.

VOLITION — Derail this train of thought before it builds momentum. It won’t lead you anywhere helpful.

None of this is helpful. Fuck this. [Leave]

[Espirit de Corps — Formidable 13] Just how bad did things get?

CHECK SUCCESS

ESPIRIT DE CORPS — Apocalyptic. Screaming matches that devolved into agonized wails. Words that neither of you can ever take back. Nights spent talking you off of ledges only for you to turn and shove him toward the edge. Times he told you to go ahead and jump, only to then turn and cling to you in terror of a lifelong haunting. Pitiful attempts to revive the corpse of your friendship. Empty ideals of brotherhood clutched tightly to your chests. His orbit around you, both a curse and a reassurance.

SAVOIR FAIRE — You needed him to think you were cool again.

EMPATHY — He needed you to think he was worth trying for.

INLAND EMPIRE — You both discovered that you were sad, cruel animals, incapable of anything but lashing out at each other and licking your own self-inflicted wounds.

VOLITION — And so you changed, somewhat. You did what you had to do to survive and evolve. There is no use or sense in regretting it.

EMPATHY — But *he* refuses to change. He cannot bring himself to dig his heels back out of the dirt. This precinct will be his coffin. He has already decided.

RHETORIC — A memory stirs. A letter, written to you, but never meant for your eyes. You read it, anyway. He never forgave you. You never forgave him, either.

“Kid,

“I bet you think someday your life will begin. That it’s still out there somehow, a great big life just waiting to start. Well, it isn’t. This is all there is. This job is the only fight we are given. After this, we will be its veterans.

“There is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. We are all done there. Done and gone.”

VOLITION — But there is a future beyond ourselves. There is all of the rest of human history-to-be, and they are at our mercy. Find some mercy in yourself, Harry. You know there’s something beyond this job, this precinct.

No. Jean is right. This is my home, these people my half-brothers. I would be nothing without them. I don’t want to die alone.

No. He’s right. There is no future for me. I’m a dead man walking, and soon I’ll be gone. It doesn’t matter.

No. There is no mercy in me. I’m tired. I hope the world ends. I hope we can all be done.

You’re right. I changed a little. That means that I can keep changing. I can be a kinder animal.

You’re right, but I’m afraid. I don’t remember my life before the RCM. I don’t know what I would be if I left.

Isn’t there any way to change Jean, too? Is there a great big life waiting for him?

VOLITION — I… I don’t know. I’m sorry, Harry. I cannot answer for other people. His future is in his own hands.

PRECINCT 41 — Dogs howl in the distance. What a lonely sound.

#disco elysium #harry du bois #jean vicquemare #suicide tw #ok sorry this is not the one that i said was gonna be different it’s gonna be the NEXT next one #i had to get this one off my chest while i was still thinking abt jean #but um. yeah. lots of complicated feelings abt this guy #can’t say i Like him. since he’s a cop and all. and also just generally #i think he’s very interesting and funny and there’s a lot of poignant stuff to unpack w him and harry #but i dunno i just???? how do you even articulate this #the damage to their relationship is never gonna be undone no matter what #but especially not if harry stays a cop forever #and i think jean is never gonna quit even if harry goes #hell i think even kim is more likely to be convinced to leave and i’m not even optimistic abt HIM #‘’there is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. we are all done there. done and gone.’’#that does not sound like a man who has any interest in changing… man i dunno.#acab and all that.

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