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[brainimpediment]

ok maybe. I shoudl make a proper intro 4 thrs account. Long post warning!! Feel free to scroll past everything, but take care to read the intro and disclaimers at least :]

haii I’m brainimpediment… u can call me brainimp or brain or imp or whateva u want… iam more active on my Instagram @breanimpediment !! IALSO haev a few other socials but I rllay don’t use them eithr..,,ask 4 them if u want 2 💥💥

Any pronouns EXCEPT She/Her, and please use He/Him primarily.

>My ask box is always opened! I love answering questions or just reading goofy things u send me, so feel free to send an ask whenever you want!!!

Visit my neocities! I have a detailed list of my interests as well as a personal blog for discussing videogames and more! ->

Euuuurm icant thrnj of any other info 2 include sorr 💔💔 if u wanr 2 learn more u can ask ! Me ! I do nawt mind!!!

I may post art here MAYBE.,,, idk depends,,,,, tumblr haas always confused me so idk 💥💥💥 thx. 4 checkinf me out . I think! miscellaneous disclaimers below :3 ⬇️

STRICT PROSHIP & RPF DNI. pls send me a dm or ask if i accidentally reblog from som1 dubious :))

Also would rather not have 18+/nsfw blogs follow and interact w me since I’m underage + generally just mkes me uncomfortable . Sorr

If u have provlems wirh eyestrain, epilepsy, flashing lights, loud/overwhelming sounds, ironic posting that isn’t always tagged w tone indicators (I don’t usually use them but will if necessary!!!!) n sensory overwhelming stuff in general, u may nawt wanna follow :( I tend to post this type of stuff regularly adn I am very sensory seeking (? Is that the word? Idk.) .,, i will try my best to tag anything that could potentially be harmful tho! And if u have a specific cw or tw u need me to tag posts and reblogs with then!! Send me a dm or ask!! Iwont mind :)

ALSO!! I have a. Typing. Thing. I hesitate to call it a typing quirk but I guess it is??? Idk. I just almost always purposefully misspell words a certain way when I speak online. So, my posts r usually pretty difficult to read unless ur me,, if this is a significant problem then. I can like.. “transcribe” my posts for u guys :3 idk.,!! If thay doesn’t work and we need to figure out something more accessible then lmk!! AUSGHHGHHH. I can type perfectly fine English though, if you were wondering. (I am American)

Sorry thay thisis so loke. Out of order. I’m typing this at 1 inthe morning currently . :3 again, thx 4 checkinf me out :3 do not b afraid to message or interact w me !! I enjoy making new mutuals and sruff:3 💥💥

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#long post #blog intro #idk why I’m tagging this but why not ? iguess #thinking abt making a seperate thing so this huge block of text isn’t here evry time u go to my blog #I’ll figure it out idk! #nobrainer #I made all the grady stamps! take them if u want!!

[wally-franks]

hiii hi im here with my liddol hcs for u... looks up at u with my big sad wet eyes. this is my silly little au ,,, i love urs tho n would love to hear the angst bcos. theres so much angst i left out too fjrjfhie

ok so WALLY- little guy but absolutely not stupid. like he knows whats going on BUT hes just. a little silly sometimes. low braincells but can piece stuff together and is careful. carries a knife with him. does not want to get into trouble (excluding pranks ofc. loves them) uh. 147cm, transmasc, and pan. his hat is very important. i actually just finished making his hat but thats a different thing fhjrjf

talks a LOT and has a gossip group with norman n susie. but its all in good fun. n u know thomas is him boyfriend. they pretend to be Mortal Enemies but at home they r so so soft... they must put up a front at work because they are scared of how they'll look in front of other ppl. if only they knew that probably like 2 ppl total in jds were cishet fbjrj,, he has that audhd and his silly little catchphrase is everything ok.

thomas- too tall bites him. i mean. ahem. 183cm and bisexual. very closed off from people but will not hesitate to confront people. very touchy about the machine cos its his "best creation" or whatever. ok stupid college boy but go off ig. (i love him sm)

basically just there to get work done. he acts smart, looks smart, but hes "stupid"... not in the way of logically stupid, he is just very silly sometimes. also he smokes. i mean have u HEARD his voice (affectionate) he has 5 older brothers n his family is very sweet i think. gnaws on the thomas plush part twenty million

and finally SAMMY- very very stressed so he yells a lot BUT he does a softer side in private. he just needs to front as mean and irritating with everyone to keep his image up :(( grr squishes him very hard. transmasc and gay bc. he just is. does not like joey but then again in my au nobody really does but thats ok<3 back to sammy the babygirl. he is 168cm and his "partner" is jack... but we all know... the silly... also probably helped johnny learn the organ/piano. because it needs to happen

if u want 2 know more or have any questions my dms are open >:3c sorry for th ramble!!! fjrjeh

Hii!!  I'm so sorry this took so long to get toooooo. I had to inhale this text for a bit and let it sog into my brain xD I always need a bit to take in muchhhhooss information (nothing bad btw just me being me hehe)

AND YEAHHH.. I should maybe talk more about angst. But at the same time I'm like. Naurrrr... Naurrrr... I really live by "there's always so much negativity and sadness in this world, no need to add more to it" SO I ALWAYS HESITATE SHARING ANGST AND SAD THINGS!! CUZ I'M LIKE!!  WHY BE SAD IF I CAN HAVE FUN STUFF WITH STUFF THAT MAKES ME HAPPY </3 + most of it is just killing and torture anyway and euhm. Those tend to trigger ehm negative stuffs in me anyway :') Mostly just hallucinations and shit thoughts but!! You know, when there's a good time to share some of that stuff, I will!! :3 or maybe I share more about my toon Alice. She's a bit more tame about with that stuff. Anyhow. This is about YOU and not me. Soooo I'll go now through your stuff >:)

Wally being like that is true, that really fits to him!! He's just a silly that takes his his time to piece stuff together and that is okay :3

And OMG, mine also carries a knife around :D I just think it makes so much sense for hi to do so.... He's encountered moving ink puddles before, might just aswell carry a knife til. I feel like it also makes more sense after we saw his hat and a knife at artists rests (+ the April fools video hehe). Also, him being transmasc and pan is so funny because my old version of wally used to be exactly that aswell!!  :D I changed that though, but again something very fitting for him. I loev your wally. He's so silly. AND SMALL!!!???  like damn OMG I didn't expect him to be that tiny. I could just launch him /lh

(Wally being a little gossip girly pop is so funny and real HAHAHA )

Thomas's and Wally,s relationship being like that is exactly how I envisioned it xD I love that for them so much.

And.. DAMN!! IM ALMOST AS TALL AS THOMAS BOY!! I thought yours would have been MUCH taller. Guess I was wrong. That's so interesting.

Also yeah... He definitely smokes. He smokes so damn much, probably several packs a day LMFOA. It's not to miss with a voice like that xD. You'd have to be insane to not think that.

Besides, BIG FAM FOR THOMAS ALSO MAKES A LOT OF SENSE!!

SAMMY BOY!!! SAMMY BOY!! I've been so keen on hearing about him!!!!! Wa'hh!!  We love publicly intimidating and soft at home Sammy I love that so so so so so much waghahahhhh!! And he's also way smaller than I thought,!! Another suprise here :D but nothing bad. Just me being like woah??  In taller than him. ALSO, HIM AND JACK BEING A THING?? YAY!! I LOVE SAMMY AND JACK TOGEZHER WJAJAJAJ AND OHOHOHH JOHNNY MOMENT. JOHNNY MENTIONED *POINTSSS*

AND YEAH I'LL LET YOU KNOW IF I WANNA KNOW MORE. AND DON'T BE SORRY I LOVED THIS SO MUCH.. ERMMMM. IF YOU EVER WANNA TALK MORE ABOUT YOUR JOHNNY *twirls hair* I'd love to know what he's up to in your AU. Where he's mostly at!! Mine is first at the music department but then gets moved down to lacie and Bertrum, so I'd love to know where yours at!! And his personality too. That's the thing that interests me the most!!! Giving a character who has no info at all jngame a personality is always so cool and interesting to see :D everyone has like their own way of seeing and imagining characters.. I'd die to know how yours is!!!!

#long post #ask #reply

[bloopferheart]

Sk8ti theories!!

Spoilers for all the current episode of sk8 (up to episode 6)

- also sorry if this all over the place lmao

so i have many theories but i wanna talk about the one that im most leaning towards! so personally what i think is going to happen is that reki and langa are going to fall in love, they both fall in love with each other and i think there is going to be hinted canon romance??? i dunno they will DEFINITELY have a deeper bond than they currently are at. we can see that each episode they are getting closer and closer, langa is smiling more and they are starting to become more "touchy-feely" with each other (*coughs* the latest blessing of an episode we had, ep6, the beach episode <3). we can also see that they love each in the translation of the end credits the lines.  "i like what ive always liked", "lets keep feelings",  "lets keep your heart"  , "let's go together" ,"you are always in my heart" - (fuckin sobs kakjdsh). i see the end credits as a convo between langa and reki so these are things that *both* of them are saying. so, yes, i think it will be requited love....at first. (fuck here comes the angst)

time to talk about fucking ad*m,,,,so what i think is that adam is going to draw langa away from reki and sort of influence him into the world of reckless skating. langa is so drawn to adam that he starts to skate more dangerously and adapt the same ways of skating that adam does. becuase of his, he starts to drift away from reki. reki usually skates by the rules and doesnt cheat, or at least he doesnt go as far as adam does. reki is always ready to try new things but he defientley isnt as reckless as langa will end up being. reki will start to feel as though he is falling more and more behind langa until langai so caught up in reckless skating that he is just gone. reki realizes its too late and that langa is too far ahead he cant keep up (just like in the intro when reki falls and when langa doesnt turn around to look back at him and how langa dissapears). 

so, besides reki falling behind langa, how will this *directly* affect reki? well i defientley think that reki has some trauma surrounding adam considering how he fucking screamed langas name and had a nightmare about adam,,,like,,,,idk :( but continuing on, i think that langa is going to make a very dangerous bet, like a life threatning bet that impacts reki. and i think that langa *finally* realizes his mistakes when its too late. so, this is where my theory starts to go 2 ways. 

1) reki will,,,*takes a deep breath* dies. what if langa makes such a dangerous bet and adams influence is too much that he accidnetly kills reki? BUT tbh this is one of my theories that i dont actually lean a lot towards. the next one is what i actually think is more likely to happen based on the ending credits,

2) reki *will* get hurt, but emotionally not physically (or maybe physically but i dont think so). he will see that langa is never coming back to him (or at least he thinks that) and decides to just leave him. its at this time that langa realizes "fuck ive gone too far" but its too late too chase after reki because reki already tried chasing after him and langa just ignored him. reki and langa will then drift apart although as they spend time apart they realize how much they need and miss each. what gives me this impression is when the end credits say:

"we are grown up now, can be honest i will remember tightly tied shoe laces, lets make it , my favourite colour, its infinte, i like what ive always liked" this whole phrase reminds me of how anga talks about how he still thinks of the times when he and reki would skate *for fun* together, and not for the thrill/adrenaline rush.

"i like what ive always liked' implied hes always liked reki and despite drifting apart, he still does love him. his love for reki is infinite.(and rekis love for him is infinite)

"lets talk silly stories be with you forever i want to smile by your side" implied that langa (who i assume this verse is in the pov of) still wants to be with reki and regrets the choices hes made. "lets go together, go with you" he still wants to go with reki, he still wants to skate with him.

"even if tomorrow this world ends, i dont need anything special at the same pace as usual lets just be who we are. yes, "now" is so beautiful" so lets disect the first part of that, i think that by this langa or reki (i dont quite know who, i think langa tho) is thinking that all he wants is just go back to all the days (at the same pace as usual) and just go at the nice easy-going  pace they were at.

a very big indictor of langa realizing he sitll loves reki is the line "lets go togehter, go with you *not only in happy times*" i think that langa is saying that despite reki being upset and feeling behind, langa does in fact wish he had been by his side and he wants to be there for reki.

"at any time, be by your side", "lets go together", "as long as we have that feeling", "i am here by your side", "you are always in my heart" literally is so gay like guys cmon, langa deifnetley still loves him

so what happens next? langa now realizes he *does* love reki and that adam is a big piece of shit but reki is gone (reki still loves him and thinks about him tho: as seen in line “youre always in my heart” i believe this is said by both of them) 

so, in conclusion my favourite theory is that at the very end of sk8 reiki and langa will sort of have individual shots and then they will run into each other in the street, both carying skateboards. langa will reach out to reki to "catch him" or something idk SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN WITH HANDS AND WE WONT SEE FACES AT FIRST and then the shot is their faces and they look at each other and just smile! I THINK IT WOULD BE SUCH A GOOD ENDING AND I THINK IT WOULD FIT THE END SO WELL YA KNOW??? SO yeah!!!! thats my fav theory!! 

i do have one more i just wanted to touch up on tho :eyes:

HANDS!!! OMG HANDS R SO IMPORTNAT IN THIS SHOW MY GOSH. and as each episode goes on we can see they are getting closer and closer with their hands. it starts off ith taking off the water bottle, and bandaging each other hands, then the hand shake, the hand shake TO THE CHEST, and then as seen in episode 6, the hug, and finally langa reaching out to save reki and pulling him close. i have a feeling as the episodes go on they are gonna get more "touchy-feeling" and what if langa or reki like touches the others face or brushes hair out their face? like what if,,,,reki forgot his headband or cant find it and he leands over to fix his skateboard or something and langa just brushes the hair out of his eyes? or what if one of them puts their hand on each others cheeks and kisses them? IDK GUYS I HAVE A STRONG FEELING WE ARE GONNA GET A BIT OF ROMANCE- But uh yeah

I have a tone of angsty theories involving adam but i deinfetley think we are going to get a bittersweet ending,,,,

 I'll probaby upload more theories later on but these are them so akjdhsa yeah! my dms are open for sk8ti discussion and if u want my discord (which is easier to commuicate on for me) then just dm me!)

#renga #reki #langa #reki sk8 #langa sk8 #sk8 #sk8ti #sk8 the infinity #sobs #*sobs uncontrollably* #MY POOR BABIES I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO THEM BUT THE DIRECTOR IS THE SAME AS BANANA FISH SO WE R IN DANGER-

[homo-terezi]

slytherin!girl X hufflepuff!girl romantic headcanons

~ok sO

~slytherin,,,

~everyone’s lowkey kinda scared of her bc her parents were death eaters

~but shes so soft

~like she rlly likes to draw and shes rlly good at it

~and shes has like that teasing sarcastic personality but shes never ever mean

~like bitch couldn’t hurt a fly

~im in love with a person i created wow

~and hufflepuff

~shes super silly and outgoing and everyone kinda just assumes shes a dumb ass bc shes clumsy

~but she lowkey highkey super smart

~also shes defo one of the nicest people to ever exist

~the first time they ever talked was when they were assigned to be each others partners in potions

~they were both  s m i t t e n

~it was a lot of cheeky flirting from slytherin, and blushy mumbling from hufflepuff

~after about a week of this slytherin asked hufflepuff out

~it kinda went like

~”you. me. three broomsticks. friday. i’ll see you there”

~hufflepuff tries her best to play it cool and be like “aiGHT”

~but on the inside she’s like “sjnsdkjbgiupbgd”

~hufflepuff almost immediately warms up to slytherin

~and slytherin stg that she has n e v e r laughed so hard in her entire life

~hufflepuff learns that slytherin really likes art

~which gives hufflepuff an aMaZiNg idea for their second date

~ok its date no. 2 and ur never gonna believe what cute shit they pull

~they meet up in the astronomy tower and they just draw each other

~f o r  h o u r s

~they had a blast, and you best bet that is was cute as friCK

~so when they finally started dating e v e r y o n e knew about is within a week bc both of them told everyone

~they be like: “haha frick you, i have pretty gf”

~pda omg

~like slytherin would be hesitant about it at first, but she defo gets used to it rq

~cuddles

~slytherin ALWAYS standing up for hufflepuff when people try to make fun of her for being a hufflepuff

~AND IF YOU THINK HUFFLEPUFF WOULDNT THROW HANDS WITH ANYONE WHO TRIED TO CALL SLYTHERIN EVIL, YOU ARE SADLY MISTAKEN. I WILL FIGHT YOU ON THIS I-

~petnaMES

~”bub” “princess” “sunflower” “angel” “my love”

~hufflepuff has pictures of her and slytherin (or just slytherin) hanging all over her walls

~they cuddle a lot

~slow dancing in the middle of their common rooms, even when there’s no music

~speaking of common rooms,,,

~they are constantly sneaking into each others common rooms, but the other members of their houses dont really do anything about it bc like

~whos gonna stop young love

~also hufflepuff has the w o r s t jokes but slytherin absolutely adores them

~slytherin’ll be like “bb come here and make me laugh”

~and hufflepuff will be like “hey, u a theif? bc baby you just stole my heart”

~cUDDLING

~EVERYWHERE

~IDC

find it here on spotify

requests for playlists and headcanons hare open (X)

hey guys, its me. i’m a hufflepuff who is in DESPERATE NEED of a slytherin gf. PLEASE. if you or someone you know is a slytherin girl who is in need of a hufflepuff gf, PLEASE dm me IMMEDIATELY. im not joking at all.

#spotify playlist #playlist #hufflepuff playlist #slytherin playlist #concept playlist #aesthetic playlist #slytherpuff #slytherin x hufflepuff #harry potter #harry potter playlist #lorde #harry styles #Panic! at the Disco #paramore #hozier #arctic monkeys #dodie

[childhoodgrave]

I'm starting 2 play pathologic but I'm scared any tips for how to make the start of the game less impossibly heavy and mortifying (I accidentally started a fight got scared and restarted my game)

HI im typing on  my computer this time bc i wrote likean essay long response to this and tumblr crashed instead of saving this also adding a readmore bc this will get long im sorry.. but thank u so much for sending me this ask i am so excited u r playing pathologic first of all!! i will format this in a numbered list so its a bit easier 2 read...

1. im assuming the fight u started was with the ppl loitering in evas garden, right? this is a v common problem new players face and an intentional obstacle left by the devs to teach u tht u shld avoid confrontation and fighting at all costs when u can help it. the fighting system in this game is intentionally difficult and u will usually die if u get into a fight if u dont have a gun. just leave the guys alone and let them stay and u will be fine. there arent any consequences to this so dont worry!!

2. starting and then restarting the game a few times when ur getting into it is very normal so dnt worry abt that!!! i had to restart my save like 3 times before i got the hang of things, so dont be discouraged. tht being said the game isnt for everyone so if u just consistently are not having fun w it dont force urself to play it!!

3. check out the settings page where it lists all the controls for the game, bc it will show you some mechanics the game nevr tells you about. use Q to open up your quest menu which will show you your overall goal, main quest, and sidequests. the main quest MUST be completed by the end of each day or there will be ingame consequences, so be careful. sidequests are less dire. 

the I key opens up ur inventory!! 

you press E to talk to people

the P key opens up ur status menu iirc. be sure to keep track of that too, but statuses will also pop up in the corner of ur screen when they get actually dire, too, so if u dont check it u wont be completely clueless dw!!

the L key opens up your letters menu. u will get letters from different ppl throughout each day and usually they pertain to the main quest at hand or a sidequest you can do so that you know what youre supposed to be doing each day. whenever you get a letter a spinning icon will pop up in the corner of the screen and the sound of a paper flipping will play, but the game never actually tells u abt it which is a big design flaw on its part.

4. pay attention to the time!! esc or q will pause ur game and pause the flow of time, but opening ur inventory wont. time is a super important aspect of the game so just watch out 4 that.

5. spend all your money on food on day 1. dont bother with eggs or lemons so much as meat, bread, fish, vegetables, and milk to a lesser extent. its important u do this on day 1 for reasons u will find out later.

dont worry abt keeping ur hunger meter completely low tho!! make sure it doesnt max out, but dont try to keep it empty, ull waste food very quickly that way and its a very important resource.

theres also an area in the game near where u start out that has some milk left out near a statue of a woman that you can pick up. raising ur fists in game will make a little dot appear to help you aim for things, and i always use that to focus on what i want to pick up because it can be very difficult otherwise. heres the area im talking about

6. check ur map frequently whenever ur going anywhere!!!! the layout of the town is intentionally confusing and u will get lost without ur map, esp because it shows u quest markers of wherever u need to go. 

the walking in this game is also very slow and tedious. u get used to it but it is a feature of the game so just keep that in mind.

i used this map to keep track of where all the shops in town are because its a bit difficult to tell otherwise and can save time if u need to get stuff (like food and medicine. dont bother with clothes bc theyre honestly useless but clothing stores do sell needles which you should collect for bartering.)

7. bartering is a BIG system in the game and its actually what you use to get a lot of the items youll need. you can barter with pretty much every random npc you see in town, just press E to talk to them! different people will trade for different things and find value in different items, so just pay attention to that! 

look in trash cans and bins located around the town to find useful things you can barter or use yourself, like water bottles. id recommend especially saving items that children will trade for like jewelry, flowers, needles, hooks, sharp objects (like knives and switchblades), and nuts. dont eat the nuts, trade them with children.

8. one child in particular will have an item called “schmowder” on her occasionally. theyre important for reasons that you find out in game later. if she has a schmowder, trade for it, and save it. it costs a lot so save up things this child will trade for. dont use schmowders on yourself, save them for later. the child looks like this.

unrelated but i just think this girls design is sweet. i like her dress :)

9. sometimes characters will give you items for quests. if your inventory is full, the item will drop to the ground in a bag with a thud. watch out for this and be sure to check your inventory and the ground to make sure you actually have the item you need to do a quest.

10. quests can be confusing sometimes, and if u ever feel lost i recommend checking the pathologic wiki for “the bachelor’s route” to find a guide about each quest that happens each day. OR you can just dm me and i can help u if u dont want to risk being spoiled!!! i dont know everything but if i dont know the answer i can just look it up for you since i already know the story of the game.

11. dialogue can also be confusing sometimes, so choose what you say carefully! dialogue trees that you can go back to are usually rare and dont actually happen that much. the dialogue system is also intentionally confusing and tricky. dont be afraid to reload a save file if you want to learn more or see what other dialogue options would have got you.

and thats all i can think of right now??? im sorry this is a lot, i promise the game isnt actually that difficult once you get used to it!!! its just a matter of getting used to the mechanics. lmk if u ever need any help at all :D

#pathologic #im so sorry for saying so much ...i rlly rlly tried to be brief here ok #the game RLLY RLLY isnt as difficult as ppl make it out to be #or at least the bachelors route isnt.

[afaithy]

Takari Headcanons: Silly Fluff Part I

Ok, so I did say I would eventually write all my silly Headcanons here and since I am a big bag of Takari headcanons (and spam) I figure I would start with them.

Please take in consideration that all of this HC are valid inside my DW-2020 Project Universe, which is a fic I am currently working on 🤩. I love fangirling about it so if you wish to talk about it I am always open or you can DM and join our Discord server for access to the beta 😜 Still, some of this HC can still apply to the normal canon (I think)

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🌸 Takeru and Hikari become a formal couple during second year of highschool 💗, however they keep the relationship secret from the rest of the world. They make a bet to see who among their friends will be the first to find out about it, but since they have been inseparable for years, no one really seem to suspect anything about them being a little more clingy than usual.

🌸 Takeru is a popular guy among the girls at school due to his outgoing and flirty nature, which often causes girls to misread his kindness. But the very first time they met, Hikari actually glared at him, finding the the ruckus the other girls were making really annoying(note: specifically applies to the FIC since in my universe they meet later in their lives, during middle school). Takeru is the one who pursuits the friendship, and later on that makes him earn the affective nickname of Stalker from Hikari.

🌸 Takeru is thought to be the "sportsy type", being in the basketball team, but in fact he is a total book nerd who reads all kinds of literature from classic such the Illiad to more modern authors such as Murakami. He has no particular prejudice with literature, and will try anything as long as it catches his attention. He has large collection of quotes that he will often randomly text to Hikari when he sees something that reminds him of her.

🌸 Hikari often teases Takeru, saying that he gets his girls by giving them ramnatic quotes, but he brushes it off saying that the only person with whom that might work would be with her, since the rest of the girls would rather see him playing basketball shirtless.

🌸 Takeru keeps track of Hikari's period cycles to know when he should be particularly sensitive. He would pop up randomly with sweets, heat packs or anything she might need during "those days". This HC can be expanded lol, but I won't do it here.

🌸 During the second year of middle school, Hikari becomes the honorary Manager of the basketball club. She is particularly caring with Takeru, which causes the jealousy of the rest of the team member except from Takeru's BFF who obviously shipped them since the start of the story lol

🌸 Hikari becomes Takeru's muse for his first attempt of a novel/short story. He based the protagonist on her. Eventually Hikari becomes her creative advisor and they spend hours chatting different scenarios and posibilities at every possible moment (Hey that pretty much us in discord!)

🌸 Hikari never really dated anyone, mostly because she never had any interest in boys. Takeru would often go on casual dates with other girls just to avoid girls picking on Hikari. The truth is, he ends up taking the girls to places he knows Hikari likes; buys food he knows Hikari prefers and gets so disappointed when the girls don't share her tastes that pretty much drops the date before there's chance for a second one.

🌸 In relation to the HC above, Hikari actually has a very singular taste in constrast with other girls in their class. She likes horror movies because she find amusing how they protray ghosts and she likes very odd combinations of foods.

🌸 Hikari loves rainy days because she finds the sound of raindrops very soothing. Takeru prefers sunny days with clear, blue skies. They often bicker about which season is the best due to this, but at the end they just agree that the best days are those in which there's enough rain and sun to make a rainbow

🌸 At some point during his college days, Takeru gets a scholarship to do an internship in UK and Hikari is studying nursing. They have to deal with the long distance relationship, but they manage and when Hikari goes to visit during one summer before she start her hospital practice, Takeru accidentally blurts out a proposal, to which she automatically agrees 💗

🌸 Takeru and Hikari are the first of the group to settle down as a family. They eventually move to Shimane where they lived in the his grandmother's inherited house. Takeru works on his novels and book in his writing room while Hikari works in the local hospital with Jou (who was given a medical chief position there) 💗

To Be Continued

#takari #forevertakari #digimon #fanfiction #digimon 2020 #digimon adventure #shipping headcanons #takeru takaishi #tk takaishi #hikari yagami #kari kamiya

[dolphin-enthusiast]

hello my muffin!! 💫💞🌼 ahhh gosh, it's a pleasure to see you as always, but especially tonight.. i need to relax from all of this first day of school stuff! i hope your day went well, and hopefully better than mine hehe 🌺 but first, i must say, you and those anons had me melting today,, gosh, i don't even know how to react to all of that sweet talk!!! the first thing i did when i was finally done working was open up tumblr and check your page, and BAM! (1/7)

"i heated up, and my siblings kept teasing me about it 😖 i skyped my older brother to ramble about it all, and he said i looked like one of the tomatoes in our garden!! goodness, it was a lot! but my friends saw all of the flattery and they started to freak out and tease me too!!! nonetheless, i have no idea how to take in this kindness,, except for thanking you all!! you guys are way too good to me, and not even half of all that stuff is true 😅 (2/7)

so please know that you all are absolute beautiful inside and out, and that I love you all 💓 and don't feel bad about not having an active daily life like me morgy darling!! truth be told, i am quite the couch potato myself, and even though i wish it could be, my life is most definitely not all sunshine and rainbows,, i have lots of daily problems to deal with sadly,, but you coming into my everyday life certainly is all the sunshine and rainbows i need 💖💖💖 (3/7)

today was quite hectic, since my school year is starting off virtually,, i was extremely anxious throughout all of the zoom meetings and such, fiddling with my hair and fingers,, but i'm really happy that i made it through! school is really hard for me mentally, so that is quite the pain, though at least i have something to look forward to at the end of the day (you!) 😉 (4/7)

i completely dread school due to how it affects my anxiety, but i'm actually excited for my new french course and my fashion course!! both of the teachers told me that they liked my outfit, and my french teacher said that she liked my "cute" sleepy italian accent hehe (i was really tired, so it was quite heavy!) but thankfully, this first week is full if shortened days,, i'll just need a glass of wine each night and it'll be ok ✨ (5/7)

the rest of my day was spent baking tarts for my neighbor, checking on the bunnies, and making spaghetti carbonara,, which turned out amazing! i also fixed myself up an affogato to end the evening, when a stranger dmed me a drawing they did of me!! it was really cute, and the shading was great! it always amazes me when people take time to do these things for me, it's so generous 🌹(6/7)

now on that note, it's time for me to sleep! i'll need lots of rest for tomorrow hehehe!! and i can't wait to be back here with you dear 💕 have a lovely night, rest well, and sweet dreams! as always, i'm thinking of you amore! 💗 - love always my sunshine, waifu anon xoxo 💘💌💕💞💖💓💗❤🌹 ps: that plan does sound lovely caro, and let me propose this: i teach you how to dance, at night, on the beach~ <3 (7/7)"

Once again i tell u darling that e v e r y t h i n g me and za anons said is true ion make the rules sis 😩😩😩 and the fact that we manahed to fluster u in front of ur family and friends really is a nice bonus too n g l (and that one stranger dm ing u a drawing? Wholesome as fuck)

Now lemme just say i too am absolutely dreading school also bc i live in a shitty country where even NOW we dont have a clear answer as to how the year gon unfold (most ppl say its gonna be like half half like going to school after certain periods of time then the rest is online) but yea it severely succs and i had to go over to my school to return the old books and get the new ones but damn i finally saw my only friends (i havent seen em since march) so at least theres that🗿🗿

Sociak ANXIETITTY is one hell of a beast ik that well and zoom meetings can be hella awkward (im the mic n camera off kid lmao) and also i dont feel bad for not having an a c t i v e life at all darling and ik u deal w stuff too all im sayin is that i basically deal w stuff on a daily basis and nothing else bc my life is p static and uneventful which is quite exhausting to say the least 👁️👁️🔪

N e w a y i'd kill to eat carbonara made by u i absolutely love pasta so im sure it would taste 948483 times better if made by u👁️ i myself have ordered some (s p i c y) pizza and lime cheesecake for the evening bc y e s😩😩😩 but on another note i'll gladly take u up on ur offer with the dancing even if i can be hella a w k w a r d lmao

#the confessional #damn this got l o n g🗿 #but like....we (esp myself) gon keep flustering u no matter what love #we merely statin f a c t s smh

[aristccrvcy]

( gavin leatherwood, trans male, he/him, fire emblem: three houses ) * &. i know it must be scary for you, ferdinand von aegir, after surviving the takeover. to turn into someone like aeric-ferdinand “ferdie” vittori, a twenty-four year-old actor at castle town centre of theatre & dance, right here in castle town. just remember that you are as sincere as you are opinionated, and to be wary, be safe, be true to who you are : neutral through and through. ( hylia )

         i could never drop him i just. i could Not. i rly couldn’t but i DID ..... want to revamp him a bit so here’s take two on ferdie !! politics, war, death, & divorce tw under the cut !!

BEFORE THE SNAP.  /  F E R D I N A N D  V O N  A E G I R 

So alright. Chances are , if you’ve heard of Ferdinand , it’s because you’ve heard the infamous ‘ I am Ferdinand von Aegir ! ’ quote goin’ around which . . . attributes from. Him introducing himself every time you select him on the battlefield in FE3H. Don’t believe me ?? WATCH. 

...u don’t need to watch that whole thing I’m just tryna get the meme out of the way before I talk abt everything else.

BC ALL JOKES ASIDE I HONESTLY LOVE FERDINAND SOOO MUCH n I promise I’ll take him seriously bc holy fucking shit this character is my babyyyy.

So for STARTERS. Ferdinand is the legitimate son of House Aegir in the Adrestian Empire , which is the house that produces the Empire’s Prime Ministers. Now , here’s the thing ; Ferdinand himself isn’t involved in any of this , but thanks to the Adrestian nobles pretty much stripping the Emperor of their power in the past . . . the Aegir house ( much like the other houses , but Duke Aegir’s implied to have like , spearheaded it ) is pretty damn corrupt.

NOT FERDINAND , THOUGH , considering Ferdinand is actually someone who has very opposing views to his father. Ferdinand , in a nutshell , is basically the snobby noble trope you’re expecting turned upside down crossed over with a Disney prince. That’s the best way i can describe him.

Ferdinand is very aware of his noble status , but he is very steadfast in his opinion of what is truly means to be a noble. He’s well-aware of the difference between nobles & commoners , but where you’d expect him to use that to degrade people of lesser status , he . . . doesn’t. 

Ferdinand strongly believes the duties of a noble constitute of protecting & helping the common people , and that is why they’re so high in status - they’re there to assist and make things better , and not to make things worse , and it absolutely sickens him to his core when there are corrupt nobles who very clearly use their power for selfish & malicious gain. 

Like , he’s confident - he’s very confident and sure of himself , but he isn’t a dick ( in that sense ; he can be kind of a dick , don’t get me wrong ) about it. He’s actually extremely polite & respectful , very kind & genuine - like I really don’t think lying is something that this boy is capable of doing , I really don’t. But he’s humble in the sense that he isn’t afraid to admit when he did something wrong , or that he needs to apologize - IN FACT , a lot of his supports have him apologize for approaching someone wrongly or when he’s accused of something.

One example , he has a support with Dorothea where she tells him that she hates him , and instead of fighting her on it , what he does is he tries to figure out why she hates him so he can better himself and fix something he did wrong. 

Another example , his B-support with Bernadetta has him apologize for spooking her , and he respects her comfort levels by speaking to her on the other side of the door to her room because now he understands that Bernadetta feels extremely scared & uncomfortable during confrontation.

LIKE . . . okay , in the simplest of words , Ferdinand is just good. He’s a good person and he tries his hardest to be better if someone brings it to his attention that he’s doing something wrong.

BUT ALSO . . . the thing is , Ferdinand is also extremely opinionated to the point where he’ll share his thoughts even if not asked ; and sometimes , it comes out. Dickish. Like , really , he’ll criticize anyone if he believes he should because he hates the idea of someone who doesn’t - exemplified in the beginning of his supports with Hubert , where he condemns Hubert for not openly criticizing Edelgard but Ferdinand’s criticism can come out . . . harsh. Like , he’s respectful still , but he’s harsh. And that is because Ferdinand firmly believes in speaking his mind.

His determination also makes him stubborn & extremely competitive to a point where it becomes damn near annoying and this is , because again , he always strives to better himself - even going as far as to declare Edelgard his rival when she . . . really doesn’t think of him as one , and then he gets his ass kicked and runs with his tail between his legs because he lost. He’s. He’s competitive. I will not lie to you. Like he’s great but aLSO... this guy doesn’t. Know. When to let go.

Bt yeah in a nutshell - Ferdinand is a rich guy who criticizes other rich guys for being jerks and not caring abt other people , and he can come off as a dick but ultimately he means well & he is a LOT better than some of these other assholes out there. Ferdinand’s.... he’s just GOOD. 

Bt now that I have the basis of his character out of the way , I want to mention that a major change about him is that I’m changing what route I’m pulling him from - originally , I pulled him from Azure Moon , where if you don’t recruit him you have to kill him at the Great Bridge of Myrddin. So instead , now , I’ll be pulling him from Crimson Flower , where he’s still sided with Edelgard but now she has Byleth & she’s triumphant and everything’s okay on the Empire’s end. But - in other routes - while he’s still with Edelgard , he unfortunately doesn’t make it so if u have AM or VW muses . . . Ferdie didn’t make it.

BUT THAT’S WHAT MAKES THESE THINGS INTERESTINGGGGG and I love it so for that reason ,,, shoves. Ferdinand. In everyone’s direction.

AFTER THE SNAP.  /  A E R I C - F E R D I N A N D  “ F E R D I E ”  V I T T O R I

So the more major changes from his pre-revamp portrayal lie in his CT life - his name’s changed , his occupation’s changed , and almost his entire whole past has changed.

Aeric-Ferdinand Vittori was the only child of a film actor & stage actress , pretty famous people , and he was born with the spotlight on him immediately given that he scored his first role as a child at six years old. Since then , he never really had much of an easy time.

His big break was as a teenager in a teen drama that lasted from when he was fourteen to when he was nineteen , the co-star of a vampire television drama in where his character was a fan-favorite. He ultimately left the show and his character was killed off , and he had some starring roles in other movies & the like before he ultimately moved to Broadway. And in that , he had a bit of an easier time , but he would still often feel like he was about to crack under pressure since all eyes were still on him. He was known as a talented young man with a beautiful singing voice , and unfortunately , everyone wants something to do with you when you have something like that.

His parents were also always in the spotlight because of their very public divorce , and it started to bleed into Ferdinand’s career & public image as well with many people poking their nose into his life and asking his opinion on it. Multiple scandals came out claiming that he leaned one way or the other during it and ultimately , that ruined his relationship with his parents. So at twenty-three , he left the Broadway spotlight , and decided to step out of any light in general for a while.

Settling down in Castle Town , a place where nobody bothered to look , was a good start.

He still loved performing , so he worked as an actor at the local theatre on stage - trying his hardest not to get the big roles and take those up , because he was still a relatively big name & when you’re a big name , people lean into their biases.

And then . . . at this point was where he “woke up”. Because his whole past was fake - but there’s always a point where you realize it is.

He had a girlfriend in Castle Town beforehand that he broke up with due to his paranoia that she’d get caught up in the publicity that he did - Nerissa. And he had parents that he didn’t even talk to anymore , and it threw him for a loop because he was reminded of his father back in Adrestia. And suddenly , he’s no longer a soldier or a noble , but with his celebrity status , he’s basically the closest there is to modern nobility at this point.

So . . . Ferdinand feels. Strange. He always loved the opera & he always loved performances but he never thought of himself as someone who would actually do so. It’s strange , but he likes it.

So now , he’s trying to figure out exactly what the hell happened and how he got here and he’s grown pretty used to people not remembering who he is , but it still . . . hurts.

And THAT is where I end this !! I’m gonna go back 2 my plotting DMs and message more ppl but if this gives u some ideas pls do hit me up bc I love Ferdie SOOOO MUCH and I’m excited for his revamp !!

Also if ur curious ab his old intro still I’ll link it here bc there’s probably some pre-snap stuff I forgot in here that’s in there so !! yes. i’ll b around n will probs try n get an open up soon !!

#castletown.intro #* . abt — ☆ ❛ ɪ ᴀᴍ ғᴇʀᴅɪɴᴀɴᴅ ᴠᴏɴ ᴀᴇɢɪʀ ! ❜ #war tw #politics tw #death tw #divorce tw

[bxxpbxxprichie]

Amorphous (Bichie) (2/?)

Summary : Modern AU. YouTuber!Richie. YouTuber!Bill. Richie Tozier fucked up big time. After a drunken night of having fun, his name is being slandered this way and that. However, and angel appears to sweep the Trashmouth off his feet. Bill Denbrough loves making speed arts of his favorite people on YouTube, and just so happens to be a huge fan of one Richie Tozier.

Pairings : Eventual Bichie

Warnings : Some cussing, cute shit? Nothing really bad in this one

AN : This fic is meant for those over the age of 18. If you are under the age, please turn back now. I will not be keeping a tag list for this one, because I’m not going to tag anyone underaged. This will be full of smut, so be fair warned. Keep in mind that all of the characters are 21+ at this time. The characters in no way have any relation to the child actors that have portrayed them. IT does not belong to me, however if it had I would’ve changed a lot of things in the book.

Chapter 1 | 2

Chapter 2

Word Count: 1969

Should he message him first? What the hell would he even say? Should he say hi? Should he tell him he loves his music? Should he just wait for Richie to message him?

That seemed like a better idea.

If Richie wanted to message him he would.

Bill nodded to himself, and went back to his speed draw, feeling a bit silly because now he would have to edit that whole blank part out, and who knows how long he had been sitting there. His cheeks were flushing, but it wasn’t like anyone was there to see him.

“Bill, c’mon dude, wake up.”

“R-richie?”

“Not likely.”

The deadpanned voice brought him from his dreams, and Bill sat up from his desk. He stretched his long limbs out as far as they would reach, a soft yawn reaching his lips as he looked up at one of his room mates.

“What’s up?” Bill finally asked, standing from his desk. His back was stiff. He’d fallen asleep while working on a paper for class, and it was obvious he should probably get in bed.

“I’m getting you up for class. It’s time to go, man. Brush your teeth, put on some clothes. Mike is waiting in the car, so hurry.”

Stan’s words jolted through him, and he looked at the clock. A groan crawled up his throat and he moved to the bathroom to make himself presentable for the day. Within fifteen minutes, Bill was dressed, his hair was fixed, and his mouth minty fresh. He slung his bag over his shoulder and grabbed his long board before heading out of the apartment and down the stairs to Stan’s car.

Bill slid in the back and took the offered banana from Mike. “Thanks.” He grinned widely.

“Don’t worry about it Bill. We know you probably had a long night.” Mike snickers.

“Wha’?” Bill asked, through a mouthful of the fruit.

“Your twitter kind of exploded last night. Can’t believe you didn’t notice. That Trashmouth dude tweeted you. Or should I say your future husband?” Stan’s voice came from the driver's seat

“Wha-?” Bill choked this time from shock.

Mike passed a water bottle back to Bill, who accepted it and took a generous drink.

He coughed a few times, and cleared his throat. “Tozier tweeted me?” Bill asked, just to be sure.

“Yes, dude. The guy you’ve been totally in love with since Freshman year tweeted you.” Mike rolled his eyes.

“Lay off, you guys.” Bill scoffed.

He was excited, but to deviate away from the teasing he didn’t pull his phone out of his pocket to check, even though it felt like it was burning a hole in his khakis.

Bill finished his banana, and they made it to the school within minutes. The three of them said their goodbyes and went in separate directions.

Bill barely made it to class on time, but he had a few minutes to spare. He placed his long board near the door and took his seat. He pulled his phone out, his heart in his throat as he read all of the tweets.

@tmtozierecs: if you haven’t checked out @billiamdraws speed art of me yet, do it!

There were a plethora of tweets in response, saying that they loved it, or that they were already fans of Bills, things like that. Of course, there were a select few that weren’t very nice, but a lot of people seemed to have his back.

His DM box had a few messages in it, and he opened it. His eyes almost bulged from his head when he noticed that most of them were from Tozier himself.

tmtozierecs: hey, billy boy!

tmtozierecs: awh, too busy for me? :(

tmtozierecs: oh shit maybe ur asleep

tmtozierecs: no idea time zones n shit

tmtozierecs: well youd better answer me when you get up

tmtozierecs: ill be waiting

Bill snorted to himself. Even over text, the boy seemed to be off the wall. He was obviously a little crazy. All of the messages had been pretty close together, which sort of made him feel bad, but he had been asleep.

billiamdraws: hey dude!

billiamdraws: i was asleep

billiamdraws: not everyone is as successful as you and can live the rockstar life

billiamdraws: some of us have to go to college

He hoped that came off as teasing as he had meant it to be, really. His heart was pounding wildly because he had no fucking idea what he was doing. He was low key flirting because he knew the other had a girlfriend, but he didn’t really know how to flirt in the first place, so it’s not like it mattered much.

He stored his phone away just as the professor walked in to start their lesson. Today they were working on abstract arts.

Richie woke up to his phone buzzing, and he rolled over. The guitar pick around his neck was cold pressed between his bare chest and the mattress. He blindly groped for his phone, and picked it up. He pulled it close to his face, squinting, before answering.

“What’s up, Miss Marsh?” Richie’s voice was thick with sleep as he rubbed his eyes with his free hand.

“Things are looking better already, Rich. You’re doin’ good.” Her bright voice came through the phone.

Richie grinned softly. “Come on over later and we can smoke then, yeah? You guys are supposed to be relaxing, not worrying about PR.” He rolled back over onto his back as the body next to him shifted to curl into his side.

“We’re always worrying about PR when it comes to you, Rich. You just can’t keep your mouth shut. But yeah, I’ll be over in a few hours. Love you, babe!”

“Love you too, baby.” Richie hung up and dropped his phone back on his bedside table, before pressing a soft kiss to his girlfriend's head.

“I told you I don’t like it when you call others baby.” Her voice came muffled from his side, “Especially when it’s Beverly.”

Richie withheld the urge to roll his eyes, and smoothed her hair back, “And I’ve told you it’s innocent. I’ve known Bev since I was like ten. If I wanted to be dating her I would have done so a long time ago.”

Olivia huffed against his skin, and scooted up to be closer to his face, “I know, but she’s just so pretty..I can’t help but worry.” She tells him, pressing her face into his neck.

Richie brushes his fingers down her back. “You have nothing to worry about, baby. You’re gorgeous, okay?” He presses another kiss to her forehead, and reaches over to grab his phone again to look at the time.

“Don’t you have a conference today?” He asks, squinting.

“Yeah, at one.”

Richie chuckled a bit, “Did you bring your stuff to get ready here? Because you’d better start now.”

She smacked his side. “I know you think I take forever to get ready but I totally don't!”

“It’s almost ten. It takes you an hour to do your hair, and two to do your makeup. I know you better than you think I do.” He shifts around to press a kiss to her lips.

She giggled very softly into the kiss. “Okay, let’s go shower then, big boy.” She nips at his bottom lip and moves to get out of the bed.

Richie shakes his head, but moves to get out of bed. He pulls his glasses on so he can see better, only to notice the notifications on his phone. “Go ahead and start it, babe. I’ll be there in a minute.”

He scrolls through his notifications on twitter, grinning at a few posts, before he moves over to his DM’s. The one that caught his eye was Billiams. He opened it. A chuckle left his lips from the boy’s words.

tmtozierecs: are you trying to flatter me, billiam?

tmtozierecs: because its working (;

tmtozierecs: i really just wanted to thank you for the video you posted

tmtozierecs: you sort of saved my ass in a lot of different ways

Richie put his phone down and hopped away to join his girlfriend in his shower.

Bill felt his phone buzz about ten minutes later, but did his best to ignore it. Mostly because he was painting and didn’t want to ruin it, but also because his professor would literally kick you out of class if you had your phone out while doing an assignment...unless you needed it for a reference picture. Which this assignment didn’t need a reference picture, otherwise he could totally get away with it.

It buzzed a few more times in his pocket, and he knew it had to be Richie. Stan and Mike never texted him multiple times, and if there was an emergency they would call him. They were pretty much the only two people he talked too. Once a night, he talked to his little brother Georgie, and few and far between were phone calls with his parents. He didn’t mind it. He missed Georgie more than he did them anyways.

His phone buzzed one last time, and went still in his pocket. He was thankful for that, because he needed to focus on his painting.

After class was over, Bill placed his easel with the others in the corner to dry, and grabbed his long board to head to his next class. He zoomed past people easily, weaving in and out of the crowd as he skated all the way across campus for an advanced English class. Bill was double majoring in visual arts and creative writing. He hoped one day to write his own book and illustrate it. Who knew what kind of book it would be at this point, but that was his dream.

Upon entering his classroom, he left his long board near the door again and found a seat. His fingers dug into his pocket for his phone and he pulled it out, an ear-splitting grin falling onto his features.

billiamdraws: definitely trying to flatter u!

billiamdraws: ive only been a fan forever

billiamdraws: i probably should have kept that to myself…

billiamdraws: anyways, its no problem really

billiamdraws: it was kind of ridiculous the amount of hate you were getting

billiamdraws: i was just trying to soften the blow

His cheeks were a little red from admitting that he was a fan of Richie, but he was sure it was obvious. He shook his head a bit and put his phone down to pull out his supplies for class.

“So, how’s it going?” Stan’s teasing voice came from next to him, as the other male dropped into the chair. “With Richie, I mean.” The smirk was more than evident on his face.

“Why are you in here? This isn’t your class.” Bill huffed, ignoring the questions all together.

“I just thought I’d drop by. I still got ten minutes, and my class is next door...so spill, gay boy.” Stan pushed his arm.

“I’m not gay, Stan. I’m pansexual.” Bill rolled his eyes, thoroughly irritated with the boy.

“Yeah, yeah, sorry. So, spill.”

Bill rubbed his forehead and turned to look at his friend. “It’s fine. He’s being nice, I’m being nice. He has a girlfriend, so it’s not like that.” Bill chews on the inside of his cheek. “I don’t want to be seen as the guy who wrecked YouTube’s cutest couple anyways.” He scratched awkwardly at his neck.

Stan scoffed, “As if Richie and Olivia are YouTube’s cutest couple. Everyone knows that’s David and Liza. Don’t fret so much. I’m just teasing you anyways.” Stan reaches up to ruffle Bill’s hair. “I’ll catch you at lunch, lover boy.” He grins and stands, “And play nice, alright?”

“Yeah...alright.”

#bichie #bill denbrough #richie tozier #stan uris #stanley uris #beverly marsh #bev marsh #mike hanlon #richie and bill #bill and richie #fanfiction #bichie fanfiction #it fanfiction #it 2017 #amorphous

[five-nights-at-deadverse]

Ahoy Weary Traveler!

If you’re here from the bio link hi hello how are y’all? That’s a rhetorical question, please don’t reblog this (if you really need/want to talk, notes/ask/dms are open, I more-than-likely won’t mind)

The content of this blog may strike some of you as peculiar, because a lot of stuff I’m going to be posting will either be:

Completely off canon, “Dead what the actual f u c k are you doing”, AU content

Remember what lore we went off of back between 3 & SL? That. Just lots of that.

I can hear you asking now. Dead why? Why do you not know anything past that? Why didn’t you run away while you could? And I honestly don’t know. So here’s the rundown:

My friend got really into the fandom some time around Mark playing the first game and 2 coming out

I was absolutely t e r r i f i e d of Freddy bc I was a very sheltered child in the horror department

She made me listen to “It’s Me” by TryHardNinja at a party and I got obsessed with it

I started listening to basically any FNAF song I could find

She gets more into horror, which got me more into horror, and we fed each other’s obsessions/AUs

Canon was incredibly limited, so we had to make do with theories and stuff, which led to me creating an entire canon from what my young teen brain could come up with

During the gap before 4 started making the rounds, I got bored of it and fell out of the fandom for a while

Then the teaser with the hat showed up and I went feral again until after Mark finished his play through

SL confused me and didn’t really like World but by then we had discovered SCP and I’d met my other friends, so by then I just stopped keeping up with everything

A few years pass and I find out about the Furby fandom, which lead me down the rabbit hole to a hyperfixation on animatronics, which lead to this blog being created on Halloween 2019

Then school happened and that’s why this was posted in 2020

And that’s the story of my fandom journey. Not the most exciting thing I’m sure but I’m not exactly an exciting person.

Now For A Short FAQ

Favorite Animatronic?

FNAF 1 Foxy is my s o n, but in this house we love and support all of them (Yes, even Springtrap)

Favorite Guard?

It’s pretty much always been Phone Guy (my Jeremy is a close second tho)

What/Who/Where Is Thing/Person/Place?

Information can be found under #Deadverse or its own tag, please look before asking

On that note, SL is slowly being added to the AU, but right now we’re focusing on the main storyline from 1-4

Did You Hear About…

Mm no sorry this is not a teapot nor a saltshaker take that discourse somewhere else (my main @dragonlover56 is tho, hit up the ask box there if you wanna talk shit)

That’s Not Canon!

Does my URL say ScottGames? No? Alright then.

Important Links/Tags

All Lore is tagged as #Lore

Triggers are tagged as #[subject]/// ; shoot me an ask/DM if you need something tagged

OOC & Announcements are tagged as “Speak of The Undead”

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[tamiddyinyourcity]

2:05am.

Wednesday, January 8th of 2020.

Ah fuck, I remembered that I needed to wash lemon juice off my face.... if i leave it on overnight, am i gonna bleach and burn holes in my skin?

Anyways.

What's upsetting me?

I expected to get out of bed today. It did not happen.......

Remembering how I shaded Azalea. It was messy.

Then remembering how she straight up was acting sus from the jump.... Why waste energy stalking my page when my dms are LITERALLY OPEN? i befriend fucking anyone! Someone can dm me at any time even on some "hey lets be friends" or "who r u", and i will reply! I wouldnt be a weird bitch and purposely do shit that makes me look bad if there wasnt anything fucking wrong? (Excluding the swearing incident, but she did do shit wrong, so like.... screw that.)

The odd feeling that I'm being watched by her still? I get that vibe.... wouldn't be the first time that someone I barely knew still stalked my pages.

The awkwardness of "his friends still see my tweets". I'm not 100% best buds with all of them.... Audrey is great, Cam is a good conversationalist, and I haven't reached out to Jasper based on pure nerves.

.....2:12am, Jasper unfollowed my instagram. Ouch, new reason to be upset. I liked Jasper. But admittedly, i do find it healthier to take the side of the person who didn't get soda doused on them after a breakup... So, i respect their decision anyways.

Just checked out of curiosity... Marcus blocked me too. (Honestly respectable though, I can't hate, didn't even noticed it happened. It either happened during the first breakup, or the most recent, but either is acceptable.) Just kinda sucks since I did like them both, before shit went down.

Whoo boy, did shit go down..... Oh well, they got to learn that I thought their friend had a small dick, and see me air out my problems online. Still valid.

Probably should lessen my willingness to air things out online, one way or another.

My list for what to do fell on the floor. I'll pick it up tomorrow, but still had to say that.

.....alright.

I guess it does feel weird.

A lot of it.

I didn't notice Jasper and Marcus unfollowed. It doesn't hurt that much, more of a "damn, when did that happen?", type moment.

But if they were already gone and I rarely talked to them, it's not really a loss?

Hmmm.....

So, technically, nothing was lost. If anything, information was learned.

And what about unknown lurkers on this page?

......

Well, they're unknown. It could either be everyone I know is looking at this page, one salty girl is looking at this page and cackling at whatever she wants to with her lonely spiteful ass, or I'm speaking into thin air. (My intentions all along.)

But the question is; shall I censor myself?

Self censorship seems idiotic. I prefer people to know the real me. And how i feel when i perceive things as, "me alone", and completely naked in m personality and whatnot.

I shouldn't care what a random girl thinks. If anything, now that things are over, i absolutely shouldn't.

God bless and amen.

......

And losing Patrick.

I don't care about Patrick #2 as of now, my angst towards him is gone. Just like him.

The important Patrick is the one I'm thinking. Patrick #1, the blonde, infamous, summer boyfriend Patrick.

A great guy.

Who sent me maybe 18 messages two nights ago, that i didnt read....

I already know that reading them isnt worthwhile.

Its gonna be all gaslighting or guilt shaming.... fuck that.

So.

If I really feel bad, (not for what i said, but how it was said,) then I'll leave him a voicemail!

Just to say if he wants to talk about what happened, then a call is better than text.

Since he's always been a big "save the big talks for over the phone" type. And im the "im not reading eight paragraphs if i can barely even read the notification at the top of my phone for a calendae date" alarm type, so..... yeah.

.....

2:28am.

Feeling a little better.

Patrick still has a small dick. (The brown haired one.) Can't take that back, so i may as well embrace it.

Aaaaand yeah.

I hope Jasper doesn't hate me too much, or Marcus. They both made the party so great for me when I was there; and genuinely seemed friendly.

Its right of them to take Patrick's side. He may be a lame asshole, but, i kinda respect that more than someone who wouldnt really defend their close roommate honestly.....

And nonetheless, there's not a person on Earth who I should be afraid of leaving my life. Good is everywhere, but its not always.... great, yknow?

I can open my main instagram and see likes on my page, but never any DMs when help is needed.

Just....

I dont have people like that. And for two invisible friends that i couldnt even get to like a picture or a post before couldn't do that when amped over me, then.... i cant expect much from them either way.

Thats all. Feels good.

Peace out.

#exes #yep

[latina4rmbx]

An Abundance of Love & a Broken Heart

Hi guys!  Let me tell you, I have literally been living a sadness in the mundane existence.  I have been crying at the drop of a hat.  There is a reason, which I will get to - that is the purpose of this post, but shit, enough is enough already.

Whomever has read my “work” has seen that I am in an Open Relationship.  This is where a couple (me and my guy) are together as a couple, but are free to see and date others.  In order to make this work, there has to be an abundance of honesty and trust.

Well, my guy hit the mother load when it came to me because I am honest to a fault.  Even if I look bad in the retelling of events.  I am super honest.  I may be secretive about aspects of my life, but that’s not being dishonest.  It’s being guarded.  

In being in this open relationship (further referred to as OR), the possibility of him or I finding someone we may want to break our open relationship for, has always been there.  A few people have asked questions along that vein.  If you see my post titled “The Relationship Review,” you may also have questions, feel free to ask.  But that post touches on some aspects of this OR and how he and I make things work for us.  Mind you, things don’t work the same for everyone, and people have comments or judgements, that is fine.  It’s not for everyone and everyone has the right to their opinion.

Well during the course of this OR, my guy and I have discussed the possibility of one of us finding someone else that may attract or give us more than what we have now.  I kept it nonchalant and told him, we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.  He has even went so far as to tell me what type of person he wanted for me.  Now mind you, these conversations have happened over the course of the past month maybe, so these are the qualities he wants for a man for me:

ME:  Describe, who you believe, would be the perfect guy for me?

HIM:  Someone with no relationship, someone who I know won’t play games keep it 100 across the board that can make you happy take you places and be understanding.

HIM:  Simple

SIDE BAR:  I’m glad a lot of these conversations are via text because I can refer back to them.

He was right.  SIMPLE.  I don’t recall my response to this.  I think it’s simplicity stunned me shut.  It is that simple.  He wants me to have someone who is going to make me happy, take me place, be honest and understanding.  It’s all a girl really wants right?  SIMPLE!

I thought, I’m in my 40′s and I have yet to find that guy, I’m probably not going to find him so this OR is safe.

WRONG!

By coincidence, I have REmet someone who fits the criteria.  I say REmet because I know this person already.   Not intimately, but from past encounters.  Coincidentally, my guy also knows him.  So, because I am so honest, I mention this person I have REmet to my guy and he is just over the moon.  At first I was so confused by it.  Then he explained it to me.  He wants me to be happy with someone and not feel lonely.

He loves me so much, he is willing to let me go be with someone else to make me happy.  I know what you’re probably thinking reader, nah, he’s probably just getting rid of you to move on to other pursuits.  You could be right.  It could all just be a ploy to get rid of me so he can be with someone else.  But reader, it could just be that he genuinely wants me to be happy.  He loves me with all his butt (If you don’t follow me on IG, you wouldn’t get it).

Here’s where it gets a little difficult for me.  This is where I’ve been crying for two days and going through emotional turmoil.  The new guy and I haven’t gone out yet.  We text.  That’s really it.  Being that we already know each other, the banter is easy.  However, my guy knows about the texts and he feels that this is the guy for me.  He’s already made us a couple and we haven’t gone out yet.

This part stresses me out because I think he’s kinda right.  I’m not saying I’m going to marry new guy, I’m just saying that it feels right.  Unfortunately, feeling right with new guy kinda makes it so that my guy and I will not be together anymore and my heart can’t take it.  

I’m not saying I want to be with both guys.  I mean, I can be.  New guy knows about the OR and seems ok with it, so far.  However, if you’re not willing to be in an OR or not the type of person to know that you’re girl with someone else, you will have to make a choice.  I will.  I mean I will have to make a choice.  According to my guy, NEW GUY is the choice to make.  AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Now, I don’t scream in frustration, I do it because I know he’s right.  If given the choice, new guy will win.  Now my guy is already bracing himself for it.  He’s already packing his bag, figuratively speaking, and leaving it by the door.  I have yet to go out on a date with the new guy and the old guy is already out the door.  This is making my heart break.  

First off, I am the one who is always sacrificing myself and my happiness to make someone else happy (relationship wise).  I never demand more than what I get.  I have never asked for anything in return.  Just time and effort.  It’s all I need and a taco or two :)  Honestly, it’s all so SIMPLE.  However, in this case, my guy is willing to fall on his sword.  

SIDE BAR (2):  I am one of the most pessimistic people I know.  I see the bad in everything and usually point it out.  With him, I don’t see any bad.  Maybe I am brainwashed.  NO it’s not R. Kelly.

So my guy is willing to give me up, to a good dude, that he’s more than sure will take care of me and be all the things he wants for me.  It breaks my heart for myself and for him. He’s a man.  He’s an old school man.  He isn’t the type to wear his feelings on his sleeve or show emotion.  So even if this is hurting him, I won’t really know unless he tells me it’s hurting him.  As honest as we are with each other, I don’t think it’s something he would admit.

But I admit it!  I’ve been admitting it.  I told him he’s jumping the gun.  What if new guy and I don’t have a spark when we see each other.  What if we just don’t like each others company.  His response:  Don’t be negative, be positive.  WHAT?!?!?!  What am I supposed to say to that?  I don’t know, but this is what I did say:  I’m not being negative, I think you’re being too positive.

Fucking guy is hung-ho about this.

UPDATE:  New guy and I are going out on Saturday.  EEEEEKKKKK

I was explaining this to a dear friend of mine.  Here is our conversation (again, via DM, so I can look back and retype):

HER:  Me this week (in response to picture above)

ME:  Me these two days

HER:  I’m here for u too boo never forget that

HER:  This isn't a one sided friendship

ME:  Thanks but it’s my love life.  It’s getting complicated <--DRAMATIC MUCH

ME:  I appreciate it

HER:  All that good eggplant emoji

HER: Smh

ME;  Lmao

ME: So

ME:  Let me try to explain breifly

ME:  I’m in an open relationship.  And the guy i’m in this OR with wants me to find someone who is more full time than part time.  I might’ve around someone. Sort of by coincidence.  He likes the guys and he’s really pushing for me and this dude to get together.

ME: With me so far?

ME:  Thing is, in order to be with the other guy, I will eventually have to stop being with my guy.  This has my heart broken.

ME:  Nothing has happened with the new guy yet.  We haven’t ben been out.  It’s just a feeling I guess we both have about him like it’s IT

ME:  So my feelings are all over the place about it

HER:  Got it

ME:  This is literally me at work

HER:  That wasn’t hard to follow

HER:  Awww babe (really sad face emoji)

ME:  So old guy is pushing away to make room for new guy

HER:  really sad face emoji

ME:  Which is sweet but I don’t him to...yet

HER:  So now you feel conflicted bc even tho old guy can’t give you more, you don’t want to let him go completely.

ME: Yes

HER:  I get it.

ME:  I know I will have to, if it goes that far, but it hasn’t yet.

ME:  He’s really jumped the gun on it.

ME:  And I keep telling him, you’re too far ahead.

ME:  Let’s focus on today and tomorrow we’ll focus on tomorrow

ME:  But he’s really rooting for the new guy.  Like he talks about him because he knows him.  Knew him growing up.

ME:  So I’m heart broken, to say the least

HER:  Yikes

HER:  Well maybe deep down he knows the other guys better for you

ME:  He says it.  He’s a cool dude.  Not about that life. I’m a piece of shit.

ME:  I’m like my man, shut up

HER:  Lol

ME:  That is my life :)  not a bad one I know lol

HER:  But he does seem to be jumping the gun a bit

HER:  lol

ME:  a lot

HER:  I hear you

HER:  Some people have no one

HER:  While you have two

ME:  I know I’m lucky

There’s more to the conversation but the point is written above.  You get the point.  Shit, I get the point.  There is a lot of love in this little, how he said it, 2 month, 6 week relationship.  

However, I’m going to take my own advice.  I’m going to worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.  I’m going to focus on today and get through today.  Keep one foot in front of the other and not lose myself.

Stay ten toes down.

XOXO

Thanks for reading.