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ofgravitation-moved · 1 year

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shipping questions :) ( you dont actually have to answer if you dont want) 1. what’s the best thing about shipping for you? 12. do you ship any rarepair? 31. do you have a favorite memory when it comes to rping a ship? 33. what’s the first ship you played?

free!!!!!! ---- IM zszdk,jhfbas. you know when i saw the message, i didn't expect this-- but fine!!!!! :insert sassy dandi noises here but also giggles: --- <3

1. what’s the best thing about shipping for you?

like everyone else who's answered this one that i've seen-- it helps bring muns together! i love nothing more than getting spammed with fanart or just screaming in caps about ships that we both like or are doing! i don't have to have ships to write with someone, of course!! but i do feel as though ANY kind of ship-- whether it be romantic, platonic, etc all have a special place in my heart-- and i love talking about how those dynamics would come to play out with my rp partner! <3

12. do you ship any rarepair?

omg yes. i L O V E rarepairs!!!!!! GIMME. i've honestly been dying for some of those with ochako! but i do have a few that i am currently shipping now with her and other muses! i'll do bnha cause that always gives me brainrot: (mon.ochako - ( monoma & ochako w/ galaxyxthixf ) , shinc.hako - ( shinsou & ochako w/ guiltscorched) , mi.nejirou ( i know surprised me too BUT thats also jirou and mineta with galaxyxthixf ) -- HONESTLY?? ( bak.utoga - with trist's katsuki on ofdetonation ) there are probs more i cannot think of but i'd love to do shi.njirou, tets.umina, baku.momo, iic.hako and others! also.. emi? hello??? she can love more people than just aizawa, y'klnow<3

31. do you have a favorite memory when it comes to rping a ship?

i just love the connection i make with the mun! there are a couple of ships that have stayed the test of time :tm: on this blog and other remakes in the past. most memorable? & no---- i am not playing faves, these are for srs!!!! - ka.cchako: with @ofdetonation !!!! ( yes i tagged u, shut up, lemme yell ) back when i had ochako's old url as ofgravitation ( everyday i consider changing mine here you don't even know ) BUTTTT. i have never had such a consistent ship-- EVER. yes, we both have lives, and sometimes that takes away from the dash but evern after being gone, like??? ITS STILL AS GOOD AS THEN? BETTTER??! idk. but when i see k.acchako fanart-- that's usually the bakugou i think of. and if you're not following trist and all his muses on all his blogs.. idk what you're doing<3 i love you<333 - mo.nochako: with @galaxythixf !!! ( yeah i tagged you too nova, shh ) never in my life did i ship these two and like magic, they just connect together every time we write them! writing with nova's monoma and all their muses, tbh, just.. it's such an amazing experience!!! <3 one my muses A D O R E. <33

33. what’s the first ship you played?

... fuck. idk??? probably uhhh--- hmmm. inukag? let's go with inukag<3

free, you're a menace, and ily but I AM GOING TO WRITE NOW, OKAY? OKAY. <3

#out of chocolate. / ooc.#the gang's all here! / answered ask.#detonizing #ship tag meme thing #asdlfkjn

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manlyselfcare · 1 year

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@detonizing liked for a starter [still accepting!]

"Bakugou, wassup?” Eijirou cheerfully greeted from the common room as his friend stepped in. It was dinnertime but there was no food to be seen, only a protein shake in his hands.

Clearly, for some reason or another, Lunch Rush was unable to provide dinner that night, so an Eijirou left to his own devices only knew how to make one (1) thing.

“Wanna try it?” he offered when he saw Bakugou pointedly stare. What was wrong with his shake?

#detonizing #manly-canon-verse #[\ hewwo nice to meet you and sorry it's so silly lmao it's midnight and this is the idea that came to me /]#[\ Eijirou left to his own devices is so sad he needs feeding ;A; /]

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distortedbeat · 1 year

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5. Have you read/watched/played anything new thanks to the rpc this year?

Yes, actually! Earlier this year, friends that I made from the rpc got me into playing Makoyaku/Promise of the Wizard, though it has been a few months since I last played it. Those same friends also recently got me into playing Path to Nowhere, which I am currently OBSESSED with.

7. Talk about one of your favorite threads that started this year.

To be honest, I haven't done a whole lot of threads this year. It's mostly been a year of recovery from some relationship trauma with a fellow tumblr user I went through around this time last year, and it's only since I made this blog that I've felt comfortable enough to return. But I can say that I'm excited for all the threads I've started so far! Maybe if I had to choose one that has a lot of my interest right now, I'd say Jirou and Midoriya having a heart to heart and moment of vulnerability with @roguesenses has a lot of my love right now. I'm always here for any of these kids processing the shit they've been through.

16. Wildcard: talk about anything that you want to that happened this year!

Honestly? For all that aforementioned shit I've had to try and work through this year, I'm just blessed to have my friends around. I've even gotten to reconnect with a few-- namely @invisiquirk, my dear friend of, what, 5 years? 6? I don't know at this point, but Cinder coming back around was such a blessing this year. I love you, bitch. I'm coming back down to visit again, mark my words :knife:

@detonizing // End of year asks: RPC Edition!

#detonizing #❧ ｢ general ｣ ⸻ answered #❧ ｢ general ｣ ⸻ mun #ask to tag //

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ofdetonation · 1 year

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@detonizing inquired : 20, 31, 38. ╱ shipping questions.

20. is there a ship you wanted to play, but couldn’t yet?

answered here!

31. do you have a favorite memory when it comes to rping a ship?

answered here!

38. how easily does your muse get crushes?

i feel like katsuki doesn’t really get... crushes. or, not in the conventional sense.

okay let me explain this further; it’s very rare that katsuki will look at someone and immediately feel some sort of genuine attraction to them, so that immediate kind of “crushing” phase. finding someone aesthetically appealing is one thing, sure, but he won’t really equate aesthetic appeal = romantic attraction. it takes some time. more so if he’s friends first, and even longer if it’s an mlm connection.

that’s because my katsuki specifically spent a VERY long time internalising his bisexuality and hating himself for it, especially since he figured that out during middle school. it’s not until after the sports festival that he starts to accept it with his new support group (the bakusquad), and even then, he REFUSES to let it become common knowledge. so, even after he accepts that part of himself, he’ll keep it under lock and key so aggressively that a lot of the other boys he might finally feel a genuine romantic attraction to... well, it’ll be a surprise to them when he admits his feelings, i’m sure.

that’s only really one aspect to katsuki and him having crushes, and that’s very specific to any mlm relationships he might pursue. overall, he doesn’t really develop a “crush” until he sees a part of their personality that really appeals to him - so in a way, he should probably identify more with demi than bi! (i’m just always worried about overcomplicating things, and i feel like katsuki is much the same. labels are just that: labels.)

but to continue on that, a few examples would be with some of my ships. so for eijirou, katsuki ends up admiring his headstrong personality and his ability to keep up with him, and likes that he is always looking to better himself - a sense of humility without always forgetting worth (in which katsuki is the first to remind eijirou that he IS worth it). for ochako, her guts and determination are more than enough to charm katsuki and ESPECIALLY during the sports festival, and then he also enjoys her playful aspects - even if he gets annoyed sometimes, he actually enjoys it quite a lot. for shouto, even, he eventually comes to terms with “mr. throw the match” with the fact that his density actually has a charm to it, not to mention that shouto seems to know him better than either of them let on right off the bat.

for the rarer pairs, katsuki finds mina annoying as hell, but her dedication and passion is what draws him in. and katsuki might poke a lot of fun at jirou, but them being a part of the a band has let him see her in her element, and that eventual confidence in something she loves is what unlocks the feelings for him.

i think the only real complicated crush he ever gets is with izuku. that would require a whole other post and development with an izuku specifically, because i feel like i’d need an izuku rper’s input on that as well. (i don’t count smh)

SO OVERALL... very lengthy answer to the question, but i genuinely don’t think katsuki gets crushes easily. it takes a specific behaviour that katsuki admires overall to unlock feelings, and even that isn’t always a guarantee. and especially in terms of his mlm ships, he’s... really hesitant to approach the situation, not to mention he keeps his bisexuality so well hidden until he finally fesses up.

#detonizing #/ oh my god i wrote a whole essay to that question sldkfgj #💥 ⬦ ゜◝ TONGUE OPERATES FASTER THAN BRAIN. ╱ inq.#💥 ⬦ ゜◝ I’D DEFEND KATSUKI BEFORE MYSELF TBH. ╱ ooc.#💥 ⬦ ゜◝ ARROGANT BOY | CALM LIKE A BOMB. ╱ hc.

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knightinoldarmor · 1 year

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@detonizing asked:

4. do you prefer to plot a ship, or would you rather “wing it”? 12. do you ship any rarepair? 31. do you have a favorite memory when it comes to rping a ship?

SHIPPING QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN - SFW EDITION!

4. do you prefer to plot a ship, or would you rather “wing it”?

Plotting sometimes doesn't work out: what we have in mind doesn't always work with our muses ( assuming we don't have control over them but they have control over us, if you get what I mean ). I've had plenty of experiences where plotting didn't work out as expected ( for better or worse, sometimes something even greater develops or it ends up not working at all ), but I've had some great plotting experiences too. My point? I prefer either winging it or discussing the intent to ship our muses together. But most times through writing the ship takes the form it's supposed to have.

12. do you ship any rarepair?

I'll stick to Shoto answers since he's the one you're familiar with. And I do. My favorite, Iida and Shoto: Iida ships seem not to be much popular I admit ( and Iida in general ) even if I think he's one of the most interesting characters and his bond with Shoto is one of the most deep. Iida is saved and moved by Shoto's words back in the Stain arc and their friendship develops into something very deep as we see the two of them and Midoriya spend time together and support each other. The ship isn't much popular but in the latest chapters Horikoshi is finally giving us more ‘screentime’. After the reveal of Dabi's identity, Iida is there to support Shoto ( Iida's older brother is his hero while Shoto's the criminal he's responsible to stop ) both emotionally and in his battle against Toya, something that melts my heart who absolutely adores the two of them. Finally, they have the attention they deserve.

31. do you have a favorite memory when it comes to rping a ship?

Hm, for Shoto specifically I don't think I could decide on one. I've written some great ships with some incredible writers in the years I write him, and to admit, I've been lucky enough to write too much todobaku. The first Bakugo writer and the first I wrote Shoto with, my friend Elijah (@wonderspectacles ) who used to write Bakugo, a wonderful Dabi/Bakugo writer I sadly lost contact with ( and I'm looking forward to writing more with you, your writing is just GREAT! ).

Special mention to my active Shoto mains, Madi ( @ofsavior ) who made me love todomomo as we've been building their relationship for years, Mona (@withsorrowandregret ) and her wonderful Izuku I've been searching for so long, Trist (@ofdetonation ) who writes one of the most accurate portrayals I've read, and Dandi (@ofstowaways ) who is herself a day of sunshine and so is her Ochako to my Shoto.

One more special mention to @luxaeterna and the million threads we've been writing all these years, the most amazing Eren to my Levi who has helped me in developing him when I was about to give up on him, their Bakugo to my Shoto, Shota to my Toya, Giyuu to Mikaela, Haru to Daisuke, Erwin to Levi I MEAN??? If there's a ship to write I've definitely written it with him, who's been providing me with the most wonderful threads to make me melt every time. If there's a partner I've written the most ships with, that's him and I love him for all the love we've written together, the delicate sentiments we have explored in the many different interactions we've tried together.

#( thank you!!! )#detonizing #— (tag tba) bnha.#— (tag tba) ooc | dashboard commentary.#— (tag tba) ask.#— (tag tba) ooc | ask.#— (tag tba) shoto & tenya.#—× lightbaund / todoroki shoto.#( i wasn't planning to tag everyone in order not to bother you but i think it won't hurt to be reminded once again of how much i adore you)

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herogardn · 1 year

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@detonizing said: 1. Which of your muses to do relate to the most? 9. Which of your muses is the easiest to write? 13. Do you prefer writing heroes or villains?

multi - muse questions / accepting

whirlllll whirl whirl whirllllll he’s got. a lotta projection poured into him. also mecha oops

,,,,,, also whirl for. basically all the same reasons. he’s just extremely easy for me to write ahbfbdsjf

i don’t think i really have a preference ? i think it usually ends up being heroes but i’ve been writing a lot of villains lately too so. i just muse whoever my brain vibes with abHDSCJ

#detonizing #* 🌠 / mun.#hi fweeeee

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shecreati · 1 year

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38 . how easily does your muse get crushes ?

a lot easier than perhaps someone would think ; the difference is that she at least knows how to hide it ghutighig but honestly ? you just gotta be nice to her , and she would think about it for a good while ! and if you are repeatedly nice to her as well as listen to her , she will crush on you more and more.

39 . does your muse have a celebrity crush ?

i think she would have a little tiny crush on mirko ( one she would deny for a good while ) , but have one on hawks and kamui woods , too !

38. how easily does your muse get crushes? 39. does your muse have a celebrity crush? // @detonizing !

#thank you!!!#* (&. ask) I CAN SEE YOU ; THROUGH THE CURTAINS OF THE WATERFALL !#* (&. headcanons) IT’S TIME TO BEGIN ; ISN’T IT ? I GET A LITTLE BIT BIGGER ; BUT THEN I’LL ADMIT - I’M JUST THE SAME AS I WAS !#detonizing

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duoplicitous · 1 year

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🍊 - What are your favourite genres of threads? Fluff? Angst? Etc 🍍 - How many drafts are you stalling with this meme?

Munday Meme [ACCEPTING]

🍊 - What are your favourite genres of threads? Fluff? Angst? Etc.

Coming in first place, surprising ABSOLUTELY NO ONE: Angst! Some of the most interesting dynamics involve discomfort, sadness, or even flat out hostility. But also, I like making my mutuals cry. Usually because that's what I'M doing, so they have to suffer by proxy.

In second place... I guess: 'dark' threads? I used to play a lot of villains back in the day, so I'm no stranger to both BEING horrible in-character and being treated horribly in-character. Plus, similar to angsty content, it's usually just more interesting since it involves conflict in some form.

Third isn't even really a genre, persay, but: Threads that originally came from a Meme answer I wrote. Sometimes spontaneous interaction can lead to some great ideas that we wouldn't have considered under normal circumstances.

🍍 - How many drafts are you stalling with this meme?

I usually keep drabbles, memes, and fanart I haven't reblogged yet in my drafts so it's hard to tell what's actually something I SHOULD be working on (which is why I usually use threadtracker).

Off the top of my head, I know I owe @houkusu a starter in Jin's Reform!verse and I haven't really been putting that off so much as I fucking hate how my starter reads right now. It just feels... I don't know, not what I was envisioning? The language and whatnot got a little garbled from picking at the draft during different times and I'm not sure if I like it anymore, so! Might just start fresh, if I really feel it's low quality.

What I've REALLY been putting off is reaching out to new mutuals, but that's honestly because I have been struggling emotionally for the past week and I get scared I might ruin someone else's day by oversharing or being in a far less enthused mood than I normally am.

I'm big into reciprocity where plotting is concerned, so I'd rather come at someone with ideas at the ready than just being like "HEY, WANNA PLOT? :)" and then being like "well, shit, idfk" and make my partner feel like a) I supposedly don't care about their portrayal and b) that they now have to do ALL the work.

#detonizing #about the mun #◉ OOC

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roguesenses · 1 year

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@detonizing

He'd heard about people writing stories about him and Kacchan, but this was the first time he decided to actually read one. Though Izuku was a bit embarrassed to admit it, the story was quite interesting and had become the reason his cell phone screen remained brightly lit at 2AM.

#detonizing #izuku's discovered the joy of fanfics

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ofgravitation-moved · 1 year

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@detonizing asked for a starter!! / 2022 spotify wrapped starters: #45 - world's smallest violin by AJR !

it was hard to think about. today, as part of work study, mina was taken to a recovery center from those that had fought in japan’s recent wars. there were burn survivors, those who’d suffered massive trauma, some who weren’t even allowed visitors because of their conditions. every person in this hospital had done something so heoric, and now? to see them like this? alone? --- honestly, it’d been a lot to deal with, and it’d been a heavy afternoon.

while mina did her part to cheer up some of the residents, by sitting with them and hearing their stories as well as aiding with their care, she still felt so upset. as she walked back to the dorms, she finally allowed her smile to fade and her feelings to take over. on the long walk back, she realized, next to the problems of the residents she’d just spent the day with, her own problems she’d been dealing with were nothing in comparison. they-- didn’t seem so bad.

sclera eyes settle on bakugou. he’s known something was up the second she set foot into the common room. she certainly hadn’t been very much herself since she’s been home, it was only right, she supposed, for him to be suspicious of her actions. but before he questioned her, mina took matters into her own hands, literally, and answered for him.

“ hey! .. what?! bakugou! look-- stop it, with-- the eye staring-- THING you’re doing! ... you’re making me uncomfortable, blasty! and it’s creepy! ” huffing, mina rolls her eyes. “ -- it was a hard afternoon, okay? ” there’s a pause as mina looks at the hands in her lap. “ but.. i learned a lot from it. ”

#m: mina ashido #alien queen. / mina ashido.#this hurt me to listen to this song and write this #ajrs music is so heavy and relatable sometimes #my heart goes out to all the vets man #thanks for your s.ervice #we owe you everythin #detonizing #bakugou tag tba #tw: veteran #tw: war #tw: trauma #tw: hospital

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manlyselfcare · 1 year

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10. Coffee or tea? 13. Give us a random headcanon 14. Give us a random song lyric you think relates to your muse 15. This one isn’t a question. I just want to show my love <3

From this meme [still accepting!]

10. Coffee or tea? A 1000% tea~ I dislike even the smell of coffee, meanwhile I drink tea all the time lol Especially this month because of friend made me a tea advent calendar: 24 single-portions of different teas that I've been discovering daily leading up to Xmas =3 It's been incredibly fun even if there's a couple that I didn't like LOL

13. Give us a random headcanon Eijirou actually owns a small collection of nail polish (the darker colors are the oldest, from his emo days) but he doesn't really use any since he got into UA because it'd just chip all off instantly when he uses his quirk that turns his fingers into claws.

14. Give us a random song lyric you think relates to your muse 何度も同じ扉の前に辿り着いてはノックし掛けたんだけど君が手を貸してくれたなら幸せになろう by 宇多田ヒカル Many times after struggling I would arrive Before the same door and start to knock on it But if you lend me a hand... Let's be happy by Utada Hikaru

15. This one isn’t a question. I just want to show my love <3 Aw thanks!! You and your muse has all my love too!! <3

#Manly-answer #detonizing #[\ thank you for sending this!! sent you a few memes too but no rush at all <3 /]

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violetueur-archive · 1 year

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A gift for @detonizing A companion piece to THIS Paired with MUSIC for added effect

It’s only after she’s in the room alone with him, that the tears finally come. The moment the door clicks shut her features twists, expression so pinched tight that it makes the muscles in her face ache, a headache blooming behind her forehead as the sheer force of agony finally hits her. It must be ugly. Enough that he’d make fun of her if he could see it. Feet refuse to cooperate, planted firmly just passed the threshold, as her gaze finds the bed. Small and clinical, lined with cream colored sheets. They are alone now, in this room that cannot decide what to be. Soft blue paint and landscape paintings line the walls in an attempt to be comforting that merely comes off impersonal. He lays on a mattress now, instead of the dirt. Nicolette only knows she’s crying by the way her vision swims, eyes burning like they’ve been rubbed with salt. She feels it on her cheeks, tastes it in the corners of her lips, yet the room remains eerily silent, as if filled with more than one corpse. Maybe in a way, it is.

This is where she’s come to die.

Even if her body will walk out of here fully alive, something inside her has already been broken beyond repair. The ever-present void in her heart has become a blackhole, pulling everything within. What use does she have for a useless instrument such as this? It has done her no favors— this much has been made clear, from the way it tears a hole through her very chest, as if desperate to get out... seeking the thing that helped it work again, after being broken once before. But that thing is gone, and so she supposes this must be a funeral, as well as a goodbye. Hers, before his. She will leave it here, with him, where it belongs. A living corpse has no need for a heart, for a soul, for anything at all, but cold emptiness.

She moves without meaning to, and before she knows it her legs have carried her to the bedside. Both eyes stare down at his still form, refusing to go anywhere else even though she cannot bear to look at him. He seems peaceful, as if asleep, face wiped clean and features relaxed, but she knows the proof of his condition lies just beneath the blanket. It’s too soon for the damage to be hidden— they have not yet taken his body and dressed him in his finest suit, nor brushed his skin to look warm and alive. He looks peaceful, but also cold. He does not look anything else, but dead. This will be the image that haunts her forever, she thinks. She will never forget it.

The absence of life, or the feeling of his blood on her hands ( her arms, her chest, her face, her mouth— ).

When scarred fingers reach out to touch, his flesh is cool and solid. It’s what she expected, and yet it adds a new weight, like a punch to the gut that knocks all the air from her lungs. He doesn’t even feel human, anymore. It’s too soon. To fast. It’s all happening too quickly, and she can’t keep up. He feels so far away, even though he’s only right in front of her, though... she supposes in reality, he’s already somewhere she cannot reach. Her arms find their away around him anyway and she leans down over the bed, trying her best not to disturb his body as both arms wrap around his shoulders. Her forehead rests against his temple and for a moment it’s like she’s in that field again, holding him close. Like she’s the only thing keeping him from collapsing into nothing— a pillar he can lean on for support that will never forsake him. Never fail him. But she did. And this was the price she paid for it.

Both arms tremble as they hug him closer, and Nicolette stills as it presses their chests together, forcing out air from his lungs. It leaves his mouth like an exhale, right next to her ear. She knows it means nothing. That it’s just a natural reaction. But the sound fills the empty space, and it tears her asunder. She does it again. And again. And then once more, pulling away slightly before hugging him tightly, repeating. It’s like he’s breathing, there beneath her. It feels wrong, a little twisted even, enough to make her sick with guilt. The hero knows she’s pathetic, for clinging to that facsimile sound of life, but she clings all the same until the tears have long started to dry upon her cheeks.

With eyes closed, it’s like she can pretend that none of this is real. It’s easy to ignore what’s right there in front of you, as long as you cannot see it. Bloodletter knows this best of all, because that has always been the quickest solution to her problems. She does not look directly at the things that hurt, for there has always been many and it has always been too much. There has never been anywhere for that pain to go but inward, pushed deep and sealed tight so that it might remain there forever. Compartmentalizing was an early developed skill, refined and perfected since the beginning of a torturous youth— it might’ve been the only thing that got her through it, the only reason she was still here. Right now... Nicolette almost wishes it hadn’t. Suddenly the trauma of that past that once seemed so unbearably large and soul-crushing is nothing compared to the feeling that sits within her chest, now. It is collapsing her lungs, rotting her from the inside out, and she knows without a shadow of doubt as she cradles this body in her arms:

❛ This is the thing that will destroys me. ❜

It is not a defeat on the battlefield or a death at the hands of a villain. It is a vicious and brutal hallowing of her very being. To have her insides carved away, leaving nothing but vacant space in its wake. Who would’ve thought that emptiness could be the thing that finally killed her? The thing that hurt her, most of all. No physical wound could bleed like this. No phantom pain of a scar could ache so deep. She had always known that life was unfair; being a child orphaned through untimely death and living through what felt like a punishment for surviving, she had learned it young. The world was cruel and bleak. Not even a society of heroes could change that. All they did was hide the ugliness beneath a thin sheet of hope— that if the Gods above would not heed the prayers of mortals, the ones blessed with power could be worshipped in their place.

She has never once believed in such foolish things, yet she finds herself begging, anyway. Hunched over the bed and clinging to a corpse, the hero pleads to Gods that will not listen and heroes that are only human, for a miracle. Her silent mourning has been given a voice once again as desperate wailing fills the room, a perfect mimicry of the moment she’d caught his bleeding body in her arms and felt the world collapse around her, echoing with the screaming of a banshee. How his parting words haunted her even now— an apology towards the final person to ever betray him through failure. One last joke, a sadistic mockery pointing out just how tragically incompetent she truly was. Incapable of saving herself, so he’d gone it down it for her, time and time again.

Perhaps it had been pure selfishness that pushed her to latch onto him, in the beginning. Like a mother bird imprinting on a child that was not her own. She had seen herself in Katsuki, and it was a reflection she hated to see, yet could not look away from. Despite being a hero, Nicolette had never quite wanted to save anyone the way she had wanted to save him. He was so deserving of it, but the world was unfair to him, as it had been unfair to her. It should be her body laying here. It should be her story coming to a close. There isn’t a single fucking thing she can offer to anyone else, anymore. ❝ Please... please, I can’t— ❞ It’s nothing but a broken sob, ❝ I can’t do this... I’m not good like him. I’m not strong... I’m not— ❞ I’m not enough. I have never been enough. ❝ I’m sorry... I’m sorry— please don't do this to me, please-- !! ❞ But it has already been done.

It’s over.

Muffled voices can be heard from the hallway, and Nicolette knows that her time is up. She is not so selfish as to remain here while others wait in queue to mourn. It’s fine, anyway. She has nothing left to give. This is the second and last time that Nicolette will ever let him go, and it is not by pitying hands that forcefully tear him from her desperately clinging arms. This time, when she lets him go, it with a mechanical slowness that speaks not of acceptance, but meaningless defeat. Her expression falls to cold apathy as her gaze lingers on his face for a final moment. When she leaves the room, a sound like shattering glass is the last thing she hears. And then, she is gone.

Bakugou Katsuki is dead. What else is there to say?

#detonizing #i don't even really know what to say #im so angry at you for writing that still #reading your thing and writing this brought forth so much grief-related trauma #i think im more mentally ill after this but it was cathartic too #some acts/experiences and a lot of the feelings in this are from personal experiences #ah man.... this is bummer city fr #grief tw//#death tw//#↳ BONDS ; KATSUKI BAKUGOU || detonizing ❛ the struggle you are up against makes you what you are ❜#long post #↳ VERSE ; BNHA: HERO || ❛ we gladiate / but we’re really fighting ourselves ❜

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